#magnaflourious nerdity

[farklelucas]

Your answer of Trick r Treat is the most valid

thank you!! its a recent watch for me, just earlier this month, but i truly think it's one of the best-told stories in horror like. ever. do you know all the lore? no! but it doesn't matter somehow. it's legit scary while still being funny and effortlessly interconnecting all these stories. plus i love sam that's my boy. so 10/10 forever and ever

[tijuanabiblestudies]

i tell you what, these new meds sure do make it easier to lean back/let it move right through ya when one can't stop shakin, etc. fuck that weird little ex-mormon and fuck my little exvangelical too, but the tunes are still good. the tunes are always still good. we lost sight of that for awhile. thank fuck for good friends like @magnaflourious-nerdity and @caracalliope and @exteenpopstar. shame is no way to live your life, ain't that right, big catdaddy?

[tijuanabiblestudies]

short-term goals:

get serious about Musicianship (fine, don't call it a "career" if that stresses you out any less)

become a regular at weekly karaoke night at that bar that is within walking distance; keep practicing Grace Kelly and make it your signature song

continue being active in local kink scene (great start last night! let's keep it rolling)

begin semi-regular solo trips to Chicago

touch base with old voice teacher, tell her i'm a baritone now, and at least discuss starting private lessons over zoom (no hurry on that; time and money are stupid, stupid factors as always)

form a healthier relationship with le cannabis (try and make it a Sometimes Food)

start a public-facing youtube channel (god help me)

ask standup-comic coworker about local open mics (just for funsies; we REALLY don't want to make a career out of that one)

finish novel (GET YOUR FUCKING COMPUTER FIXED, or at least the hard drive salvaged. first half of chapter 3 is still on there)

build my own desktop PC

give my wardrobe a gradual overhaul. dress like the rock-n-roll transfag you are

start that podcast with @magnaflourious-nerdity (i know it's been ages since we talked about that, but i still wanna do it, and i have Ideas) (also read that fucking mcelroy book you bought; if nothing else, it'll probably be funny) (and there's a sidnee chapter about reasearch!)

get my eyebrow pierced, and also MORE TATTOOS (yes, we still want those sleeves) (sidenote: my view on the whole jews + tattoos situation is, as always, Consent Matters)

continue working on mental and physical health (keep working with new therapist; get new PCP; get surgeries, etc) (oh god don't get scared)

embrace your identity as an otter; continue gradual bear transformation

maybe go to some cons? definitely look into close-ish furry ones. (ALWAYS double-mask if you do decide to go)

continue masking in public, even outside when there's no one around (remember how much better your allergies were during lockdown year?) (also keep wearing the decorative venom mask atop the KN95, just because)

make friends. build local community. the munch already gave you a head start. maybe definitely also try to AT LEAST establish civil relations with Upstairs Neighbor

try and find local activism to do (neighborhood community center, LGBTQIA+ community center)

find a ttrpg group to join (quiltbag center again; i know you freaked out that one time due to social anxiety and stopped going due to work and also social anxiety, but the well is NOT poisoned there. try again)

lots more crafting (keep up with the crochet, join stitch 'n' bitch groups, do some slow and deliberate knitting maaaaaaybe start working on that blanket again, eventually), other stuff as dictated by whim and circumstance

stay the course on exit strategy/career change

continue building Housekeeping skills (git gud at cleaning, start cooking again) because you're gonna need them after [redacted]

message [redacted] about [redacted]

[redacted] (rip the damn bandaid off already. tomorrow.)

you're also gonna have to tell your parents about that sooner or later. goddamn it all to hell

long-term goals:

lots more solo travel (definitely cali, maaaaybe texas--maybe just get a hotel in austin and fly or take train directly there and back--and other places as desired (india, scandinavia, japan, australia and/or aotearoa [again, to shake off the baggage of that one bad trip, and hit up the LOTR landmarks we didn't get to linger on]); THEME PARKS (what-the-fuck-ever, no ethical consumption

lots of Seeing Live Music (lest we forget, that is our religion, above and beyond the judaism even). find at least one local band to become non-creepily obsessed with. treat yourself to a big arena show now and then (masked, always)

continue Being More Jewish. learn yiddish. find a schul that doesn't suck. read that Book of Customs and try practicing them solo. maybe dabble in some light mysticism (kabbalah or whatever?) the witchy streak remains in us despite it all

date people. fuck people. explore kink to the full extent that your slutty little heart desires. we have no excuse not to at this point.

keep in touch with all our various long-distance friends

[REDACTED]

eventual full cali move??? let's not be too impulsive there. (almost certainly not los angeles; we have decided to fully commit to the Not Driving. probably somewhere in the northern half of the state. although we should definitely visit LA, just to be sure, and for other reasons)

record that podfic, eventually (ow)

(circle back to [redacted]. maybe. eventually. let yourself grieve. we truly do not know what the future holds.)

maintain delicate balance re: family of origin. build relationships with niblings while remaining out of contact with Bro (definitely keep sending them mail) (Local Zoo is good option for extremely short-term overnight babysitting situations) (heed the wise words of Wanda Sykes: "they're not your kids!!!!!!")

Be Yourself. keep becoming more Yourself each day. let Yourself change as he desires.

heal from past trauma and shit

stay alive and get old as balls, or at least stick around long enough to collect on your dad's life insurance (probably won't have too long to wait on that; he's already, what, 70? maybe 10 years tops) (ok let's not jinx it)

KEEP HOPE ALIVE BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY

[tijuanabiblestudies]

major takeaways from s1 of hannibal (which i have been watching with @magnaflourious-nerdity):

-i love all of the freaky art-murder tableaux so, so much. i'd not been getting enough horror in my media diet (since i usually watch stuff with max and horror is not his bag) and this is filling a hole in my heart

-i want to steal all of hannibal's outfits, or at least all of his ties

-hannigram is just chaotic evil hartwin

-i want to see will graham piss his pants

[tijuanabiblestudies]

@magnaflourious-nerdity replied to your photo: gay sockhead

Sometimes you look like impressionist paintings in your photos (with like the soft halo effect yknow?) And I am JEALOUS. Teach me your ways friend

i honestly have no idea how or why that happens. crappy camera focus and weird lighting?

[magioftheseas]

Trope: fake marriage

B. I'm not into fake marriage on its own but with the right ship, it's pretty hella! Yeah!

[farklelucas]

Magical accidents, fake married?

SO because you didn’t give me a pairing, im going for an oldie but a goodie

99. Magical Accidents + 49. Fake Married + sterek

so my DEMON BRAIN immediately went magic… fake marriage… teen wolf. so obviously this is post-canon, in which the pack has taken on almost a supernatural or scooby doo vibe in which they travel the country and help defeat evil for whoever needs their help. so in one town, a wizard is specifically targeting married couples, and oF cOuRsE stiles and derek have to pretend to be married. and, due to a magical mishap by the wizard, they also end up with a BABY. that’s right, FULL accidental magical domesticity baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

send me some numbers and a ship for a fic idea!

[ramblingsofaqueerwoman]

Unicorn, poltergeist, goblin, vampire?

Unicorn- Who do you look up to? Anyone who creates unapologetically queer art which includes a lot of people but currently Dan Levy (Schitts Creek) and Ngozi Ukazu (OMG Check Please) 

Poltergeist- Favorite song lyric? oh god this changes every day haha but right now it’s probably “I’m nothing more than a page unwritten on the pavement, blowing in the wind“ from Cocaine Jesus because god that’s a fucking mood

Goblin- What makes you happy? talking to my friends 😊 also writing and making music always makes me happy

Vampire- Are you currently reading any books? I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou

send me a fantasy ask

[samwellwinchesterthebrave]

I had the same thought it was familiar. I think To me it looks like the vial from death becomes her. But idk

Ohhhhhh that's it, thank you! That's what it looks like. I could even see the motion of the vial being filled in my head but couldn't place it.

Thanks 😊

[marci11e]

Gardens, clouds, Bird Song, Stuffies

Gardens: What’s the sweetest gift you’ve received?

i think my favorite one was when my mom got me a copy of me and earl and the dying girl and we went to the showing of the movie on my birthday, which was incredible

Clouds: What’s the best shaped cloud you’ve seen?

i feel like i’ve seen one that looks a dragon but i don’t remember lol (just get lost looking at clouds in general)

Bird Songs: Name 5 things you love 

1. spotify

2. musicals 

3. writing (i’ve actually started my novel over and i’m super into it)

4. rom-coms

5. chocolate covered strawberries

Stuffies: How did you meet your best friend? 

uh funny story i don’t know who my best friend is but i’ve met all of my good friends through English classes and school lmao

[magnaflourious-nerdity]

If it weren't me who did it, I wouldn't believe it was possible to fuck up using a curling iron so much you ended up with 2nd degree burns on your forearm and a blackened right eye. But it is me and so here we are.

[tijuanabiblestudies]

Cotton candy, tickle me pink, spring green, purple mountains majesty

What is your favorite dessert?i’m always a slut for lemon bars. or lemon anything, really

How do you try to cheer others up when they’re sad?depends on the person

How do you relax when you’re stressed?consume comforting media

How does someone earn your respect?i pretty much start from a baseline of respect with everyone

[magioftheseas]

Anyone can be great.” They mimic, high-pitched and near hysterical as they barely kept back a chortle. “Well, you know what? That goes both ways.” They don’t fight that itch this time, their fingers trail along the handle of that stupid toy from where it was stashed away. “Anyone can be great—and anyone can be absolutely awful” Their fingers begin to wrap around the handle. “They can hurt you just as much as they help you and sometimes they help so much it hurts and it hurts so much it helps”

I’LL RETURN TO THIS FIC SOMEDAY, I SWEAR.

(This is from my Chara+Sans Undertale long-fic for those confused. Chapter 6 to be precise.)

Honestly I like…forgot that I wrote this and am pleasantly surprised by it. It’s actually some good stuff. Definitely seems to be in my style of writing but… It’s still good. I’m pretty happy with it.

It’s definitely, um, one of those quotes that touches on the extent that Chara’s been warped from their dubious experiences, and it’s probably meant to be an implicit reference to the likely shitty fucking life Chara lead before falling down. It’s also reflective of the nihilistic cynical shit that my depression often smacks me with when I’m trying to be somewhat optimistic.

But yeah, this worldview is something Chara does genuinely hold and it’s partially why they lash out at Papyrus in addition to the…other reasons. It encapsulates a lot of childish anger at the “reality” of their situation and a clear inability to cope with it in any healthy way because they’ve been so broken down by the cruelty of it. Really, it also shows that partially why they embrace violence and cruelty is because that’s what they’re used to and that’s what they feel most comfortable with. Kindness and compassion also, in some twisted irony, feel even crueller than plain abuse because inwardly, Chara “knows” that isn’t what they deserve. So it feels all wrong.

So, when Papyrus tries to show them kindness and compassion despite not knowing them, not even their “true name”, they’re especially resistant and doubling down on it, and trying to justify why all the while.

They really are one messed up kid. Dang.

[farklelucas]

💯🌸💖😎(although, I mean, we are already lol)

send me 💯 if I’m a meme

send me a 🌸 if you think I’m nice

send me 💖 if you want to give me a hug

send me a 😎 if you think we could be friends

first of all what do you mean sunglasses emoji binch we’re already friends you can’t get rid of me and second of all… where’s the “🙃“ emoji

send me some emojis

[benjisbento]

Get to know me: 6, 16, 29, 36, 37

6. What’s your lucky number?

idk 17? I don’t really have one lol

16. Favorite movie?

PACIFIC RIM

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

A couple times actually! Once when I was in high school I went to my friend’s lakehouse with some other friends and we skinny dipped in the lake in the middle of the night, and then again when I was in college, my boyfriend at the time and I broke into the YMCA he worked at in the middle of the night and went skinny dipping with his best friend d:

36. Favorite clean word?

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I have no idea there are too many to pick from

37. Favorite swear word?

FUCK

[tijuanabiblestudies]

🌻

my brother’s wedding is in like 4 months and i am going to be a groomsman and i’m still not entirely sure how i feel about it but i get to be fitted for a pretty suit, so there’s that