#maybe it’s the repression idk guys 🤷
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Hate being the burden that everyone just wants to move on and grow up ‼️
my family lives in a 2 bedroom house so my younger sister and mom share a room but like… she’s going into high school soon. And with my friend that was the youngest sibling with the exact same bedroom arrangement as us, she COULDN’T WAIT for her brother to move out, she was counting the days and wishing he’d just get a job and go already.
And now that’s me !! Like fuck I hate being a huge unwanted inconvenience like this, and being too pathetic to get a job or to truly want to move somewhere else. I hate being the thing that is in everyone’s way and making their lives more miserable
#I know it’s just my insecurities probably but I swear now that my sister is older she probably sees me as soooo mf pathetic lmfao like she—#is constantly going out with friends and doing shit and she just signed up for the fuckin gym and every time she comes home I’m just here#looking like something that crawled out of the sewer#and she’s been making herself look so nice lately… to the point where at 14 she looks more like an adult than I do.#like god I’d be so fuckin disgusted and second hand embarrassed if I had to walk in and see me every time like she does#even when I’m kind of trying to look presentable I still look like shit#hate that I’m like this fr.#me talking#need to be shot amen#also fuckin hate how my moods are at least 80% dependant on what’s going on around me… like oh my sisters upset? time to think about how—#horrible of a person I am and start hating my guts again… oh someone else has lives in x place/has x job? time to feel gut wrenching—#inadequacy/pain about my own life and where I’m going even if I can usually feel neutral/accepting about it any other time#like 90% of the times I cry is when someone else is upset/stressed about something entirely unrelated to me and it sends me into a self hat#spiral lmfao like wth#maybe it’s the repression idk guys 🤷#I’m starting to get so fucking tired of me
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okay, I've had this question for a while.
Trans Eddie related-
okay so uh-
is Richie gay or bisexual? I feel like that's important, because most of the story is about reddie and their relationship.
So when did Richies feelings for Eddie start?
Has he always been in love with eddie? and now is he confused about his feeling since Eddie is a guy now.
OR
Richie is only now starting to have feelings for Eddie after he came out to them. Richie, not being 100% sure about his feelings, is trying to repress them or pretend they don't exist, because iTs wEiRd tO bE iN lOvE wiTH yOuR beST fRiEnD. especially since they've only seen him as platonically practically his whole lfe.
AND THE SAME GOES FOR EDDIE.
well- yes, he's still gay. but we still don't know when his feelings started either.
Has he liked Richie since they were kids (’89) and has just been denying his feeling because of iternalized homophobia or something -
or
Is he only he only starting to crush after he came out Richie? Realizing that Richie isn't all jokes and games and can actually listen to other people thoughts, emotions, and opinions. Realizing that he actually cares.
or maybe it's all up for interpretation? although I thought it was pretty important. idk 🤷
I don't want to answer this too in depth because some of these questions will be answered but I will say that Richie is gay and not bi in this. And Eddie... is very much not self aware in this department at the moment. Some stuff may or may not be revealed soon...(hehehe) I like to hear peoples theories on it >:3c
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