#me weak corpse aye captan throw me the rope

[my-hyucking-spoons]

✨ ✨ Things i had to drop because of my corpse's fuckery ✨ ✨

Ice skating

Fuck man, i really love ice skating and enjoyed it so much, zooming all over the ring attempting to do tricks. I wanted to learn all those sick flips but with time my joints just couldn't bear it. Everything hurt cuz of the cold, ankles twisting, hip popping out plus the cool breeze was bad for my asthma and eventually i couldn't go on without pulling out my more-serious-double-trouble inhaler. 2/10 can still watch ice skating but i always get frustrated because i cant :c

Roller skating (is that what its called in english??)

Basically ice skating outside of the summer season- no cool breeze to fuck up my asthma but still had to take breaks to wheeze on a bench. Constant dislocations as time progressed because im less stable in wheels. Damn, going out with friends to roller skate was so much fun :c 1/10 because im upset

Kick Boxing

I was enjoying it until i got more advanced level and got injured more frequently. Couldn't even cover the first blows because my hard-of-hearing ass couldn't her the instructors instructions and had to watch what my sparing partner was doing. Got offered to participate in paid matches but had to refuse :/ 3/10 kinda glad i had to quit because the injuries and bruises hurt and our gym's first aid kit was a roll of duct tape (believe me when i say that seeing a guy or two with their ankles or fists duct taped all over was a norm)

Skating

Fuck, skating was so fucking great. Zooming around the city from point A to point B in the rain was really something. Never really got into any tricks but as a form of transportation? Absolutely magnificent. I never sold any of my skate boards after it was clear that i can no longer avoid getting myself hurt, im still silently hoping that with some miracle i could use them again

Listenning to music

I can still listen to music of caurse but its just not the same with it always being too quiet no matter what sound busters i use. Its just not the same like it used to feel when I'd walk around schools trying to put a barier of headphones between my depressed self and school that i hated 4/10 simply because i can still listen to music, just not with the same quality

Drawing

i dont mean like drawing while sitting by the desk (though that gets painfull too after a bit) I mean like standing on front of a big convras, sketching details and swishing paint brush all over. In like middle school i guess? I used to spend hours like that, standing in place, bending to reach a spot or extending my arm to get to the edge of huge convras. Damn, if i did that now, my legs wouldn't allow me to stand that long in place, my joints would light on fire and my back would hurt like fuck. Good thing i didnt get to the art school i guess or i couldve getten worse quicker (is that a word?) 4/10 since i didnt get to art school i didnt miss that much, tho now im a graphic designer and working too long still fucking hurts lilk hellfire

TLDR: drama queen nostalgia talking funky joint ranting because he cant do stuff