#mine: kkow

[betsunibitch]

Who are you?!

[p4nishers]

and if you give me an explanation in the tags i'll love you forever

[jadeylovesmarvelxo]

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Summary 👇

Chrissy enters a brief relationship with Eddie that ends in heartbreak for him.

Y/n is there to pick up the pieces and her and as Eddie grows close, she beings to fall in love with him.

Then Chrissy decides she wants Eddie back.

Warnings: Heavy angst, fluff.

Like, Comments, reblogs are always greatly appreciated ❤️ I do not give anyone permission to copy my work

She wakes in Eddie's arms, sunlight filters through the window and she groans because she does not want to get out of his tight embrace.

Eddie sleeps peacefully, his arm wrapped around her and she settles back down for a moment just keen to savor this time together.

It's been nearly six weeks since she and Eddie grew close, they already knew of each other because of Dustin, Mike and Lucas being in Hellfire but didn't exactly hang out.

That all changed the minute Dustin brought him to hers, his shirt was torn, knuckles blooded and a shiner on his left eye.

Chrissy Cunningham his girlfriend of a brief few weeks had went back to her ex Jason resulting in a fight between him and Eddie.

She knew Chrissy from being on the cheer time and y/n really did think she was a sweetheart except right now she was pissed because Dustin was upset about Eddie being heartbroken.

So, she patched Eddie up and they talked a lot, it turns out that they both loved Metallica and were obsessed with their new song Master of Puppets.

Dustin was delighted the pair got on so well and she was pretty sure the little shit engineered some of their chance meetings after that night.

She was pretty sure he was trying to play Matchmaker which was very sweet and she couldn't deny that Eddie was handsome with his beautiful brown eyes and dimpled smile.

The tats were pretty hot too.

Slowly, they grew close and friendship grew into something... More. Being there for him, the long talks. Holding him while he poured his heart out to her formed a bond.

They hadn't had sex or anything, not that she didn't want to because she was very attracted to him it's just their bond was an emotional one as well as teetering on the edge of being physical.

She spent nights, sleeping over with him. Laying entwined and loving the closeness they both had.

His eyes flutter open and her stomach flutters at his lazy, sleepy smile.

"Hey beautiful". She hides her face in his arms and he chuckles warmly.

"Should really get up huh?". She pouts and he softens stroking her bottom lip with his thumb, electricity crackles between them.

"Gonna make me give you anything you want with that little pout sweetheart".

She grins at him and takes his hand.

"Do you think people realise how close we are?". They don't exactly hide it.

Eddie shrugs and strokes her hand with his thumb.

"Dunno, to be honest I like this. Just us, it kinda feels like you're mine". Oh, shit could she fall any more for this man?

"I am yours Eddie". She tells him truthfully and he moves closer to her... She never finds out what's going to happen because Eddie's uncle Wayne knocks on the door telling Eddie to get ready for school.

Maybe she can find out what would have happen later? Her body tingles at that thought.

🖤

At lunch, Eddie takes her to their spot in the woods so they can chill together and talk, sit together with entwined hands and identical shy grins...

"Eddie?" they both turn to see Chrissy approaching them and y/n's heart sinks because she has a bad feeling.

Eddie looks confused and gets up asking her what she's wants.

Chrissy walks up to Eddie and touches his cheek.

"I want you back Eddie, I should have never went back to Jason". He gapes and y/n feels like her heart has been crushed because she kkows what's going to happen.

Eddie steps away from her angered and his brown eyes flash furious.

"Why now? After all this time?". She swallows and takes his hand.

"Jason is... He's just an ass and I miss you, do you miss me?". He doesn't answer and y/n decides to slip away and give them some privacy and finally let the tears she's holding back come out since Chrissy showed up.

"I really should go and leave you two to talk".

Eddie's head snaps up and he pulls her back.

"No, wait please". She fakes a smile and squeezes his hand hoping he doesn't notice the heartache in her eyes.

"I'll see you later okay?". She leaves before he can say anymore and sobs as soon as she's far enough away for Eddie not to hear.

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Eddie manages to find her as she's heading home, his eyes are red and he looks lost.

"Hi". He pulls her into a hug and she holds him tightly wishing they could stay like this forever.

"Where's Chrissy?". She asks him waiting to hear his answer and expecting what is coming...

"I sent her away, fuck my head is all messed up sweetheart". Heart aching for him she pushes down the hurt she's feeling determined to be there for him.

"I understand Eddie if you want to go back to her". His expression turns agonised and he sniffs.

"What about us huh? This isn't just friendship y/n and you know it. Waking up to you in my arms every day. That feeling that you're mine. How can we lose that? ".

She cries with him and strokes his cheek knowing she has to be strong.

"I know what she meant to you Eddie". He chokes out a sob and it makes her cry again.

"I don't know what to do". He whispers to her tears in his eyes as his forehead rests against hers.

"It's okay, she tells him sadly. I always knew that she could want you back, it was always in my head. I get it Eddie and I just want you to be happy, however that is. I'll still be your friend. Do what makes you happy".

She gently kisses his cheek.

"I'm gonna head home, got uh to cram for finals, I'll see you tomorrow okay". He looks like he wants to say more but she kisses his cheek and walks away dreading and knowing what's to come.

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Truthfully for Eddie it didn't take long for him to decide, he knew in his heart who he loved truly.

He knew who he couldn't live without.

He heads to Chrissy's and knocks on the door, she answers and gives him a shy little smile.

"Hey". She invites him inside and he motions her to sit with him on the sofa.

"I thought a lot about what you said Chrissy and honestly if you came back right after the break up I might have said yes... but then I fell in love with this beautiful, kind, angel and she has my heart fully, I'm sorry Chrissy but no, only one woman has my heart".

Eddie expects her to get angry but she doesn't, she looks like that's what she expected all Along.

"Y/n? It's okay Eddie. I understand". She really does. Deep down she always knew it was a long shot.

Chrissy squeezes his hand understandingly.

"I'm sorry Eddie. If I knew you and y/n were together I would never have done this, honestly I think because Jason and I aren't working I panicked and ran back to you and that's not fair".

"You deserve to be loved fully not by half. I don't even think I truly wanted to get back together it's just you were a safety net you know".

He listens nodding and she turns to him smiling.

"You go to her okay, you go to y/n and you tell her how you feel and I am still going to break up with Jason, be single for a while".

He briefs a sigh of relief, it's went better than he ever expected but now all he wants to do is find y/n.

She's his heart and his home.

🖤

In her bedroom she tries to take her mind of the thought of Eddie and Chrissy together but it needles at her.

She's kinda waiting for him to come and tell her the inevitable, that it's Chrissy who he wants and not her.

He arrives at seven pm, he's holding a bunch of red roses and her heart is racing with the anxiety.

"Baby...

She cuts him off and swallows back her tears.

"It's okay, I know what you're going to say. You have to be with the person you love Eddie, it's okay".

There's a beat before he answers her, he kneels down and looks deeply into her eyes.

"I am".

Two words. Two words make happiness explode inside of her and she throws herself on Eddie, he laughs and she feels elated

"What about Chrissy?".

"We talked, she was understanding and told me to come and find you, you're my future sweetheart, there was never a choice. You are my heart".

He kisses her then and utters the words she longs to hear.

"I'm in love with you". She kisses him crying happy tears.

"I love you, I love you".

His gaze turns hot and she feels drawn to him, knowing what's going to happen.

"I love you and right now all I want to do is make love to you".

Oh, yes. She pulls him to her and giggles as he kisses her face, her neck and worships her whole body long into the night.

🖤

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THE FIRST TIEM I TASTED SOMEBODY ELSES SPIT . I HAD A COUGHING FIT I MISTAKENLY CALLED THEM BY UOUR NAME I WAS LET DOWN IT WASNT THE SAME. IM DOING FINE TRYING TO DERAIL MY ONE TRACK MIND REGAINING MY SELF WORTH IN RECODD TIME BUT I CANT HELP BUT THINK OF YOUR OTHER IN THE BED THAT WAS MINE AM I A MASOCHISTTTT!?? RESISTING URGES TO PUNCH YOU IN THE TEETH???!? CALL U A BITCH AND LEAVE !! WHY DID I COME HERE TO SIT AND WATCH YOU STARE AT UR FEET WHAT WAS THE PLAN. ABSOLVE UR GUILT AND SHAKE HANDS??? I FEEL NO NEED TO FORGIVE BUT I MIGHT AS WELL BUT LET ME KISS UR LIPS SO I KKOW HOW IT FELT PAY FOR MY COFFEE AND KEAVE B4 THE SUN GOES DOWN WALK FOR HOURS IN THE DARK FEELING ALL HELL DONT HOLD UR BREATH god this song is long anyway the point is you got a 9 to 5 so ill take the night shift and ill never see u again if i can help it

[cobrartss]

As I promised to my Insta followers, my art vs artist for 2022!! I kkow ppl do it with art of any character they’ve drawn but I’ve decided to do mine with characters soley meant to represent me, be it a persona or in the case of the middle left, me when I was little! As I think we can all tell I have no idea how I wanna present anymore HAHAHAH I love drawing women so my personas or characters I project onto turn out to be similar to hot milfs accidentally 9 times outta 10 (I’m looking at you, Daniella Wilson my main gorillaz oc)

[gokuderas]

[amemoia]

ok so those windows that you can sit in is just... *mwah*

[ride-or-die-otps]

I just realized I have never experienced a long drawn out queer slow burn romance.

They rarely ever happen. I can think of one seasons long drawn out slow burn queer romance, and that is in a kids show, which is important and groundbreaking, but there was one kiss in the finale and that was it. Like yeah I was fucking stoked that it happened because they got the happy ending, but I’m in my late 20s and as good as She-Ra was, that’s not typically the type of show I watch. In fact I hardly watch shows live anymore, because I’m tired of being queer baited or having to watch a queer character to get killed off yet again. The last show I started and watched live was The Magicians, because I heard there was queer representation, so I binged the first 3 seasons and caught up right in time to watch them kill off a depressed bisexual character and call it groundbreaking or Greek g or whatever the fuck they said to rationalize it. And I watched voltron not expecting to actually get canon Klance, but I figured they wouldn’t kill one of them off, but then they promised queer rep so I got my hope up and then it was a flashback and an epilogue wedding to an unnamed guy. The I heard about she-ra and how there was queer rep and I just didn’t watch it bc I couldn’t stand to get my hopes up, but then Catradora actually became canon, so I watched it and it was a good show but I watched it all in a few days and didn’t really get that invested in the characters. And I love Schitts Creek favorite show but there was no slow burn romance between David and Patrick, which is great we need more healthy queer relationships, but I want to watch a seasons long queer slowburn relationship play out on tv and actually experience it in real time and not wait and binge it after the fact bc I do t trust shows to not ruin them or bury the gays.

And it’s fucking annoying when I see people criticize queer fans by saying we fetishizing or ruining the integrity by wanting to see queer relationships on tv. People don’t say that when straight people talk about how hot a straight love scene is or when they say how much they a straight couple to get together. News flash a lot of the people who ship queer relationships in media are queer and just want to see queer relationships displayed the same way they are as straight ones. And yea that means we want to queer sex scenes the same way straight people want to see the straight sex scenes between the couples they ship, only difference is people don’t act like it’s something gross when straight people do it.

This is all part of why the Destiel fiasco sucks so much. If they would have pulled the trigger and went full Destiel it would have filled such a desire of mine to see that slowburn queer romance play out. And I actually thought after 15x18 they’d do it. But they didn’t and I don’t think there will be another show that will have the opportunity to satisfy my desire to experience a slowburn queer love story, bc I don’t watch shows live unless there is confirmed queer rep so I go into the show kkowing if the queer couple get together. I want to experience the drama of the will they won’t they without the dread that it’s just going to be queerbaited or a tragic queer ending.

[cas-rivaille]

Hello! I've never really done a match up like this before and I'm interested in having an Obey Me match up. (Unless they are closed, then please ignore 🙂) It's long... I'm sorry.

My appearance:

I'm a 5'10" curvy red-head with green eyes and fair skin. I have 5 tattoos. My favorites are my black wings that take up half of my back and my stain glass Beauty and the Beast tattoo on my forearm.

My personality:

I'm an infj virgo. My pronouns are she/her. I'm quiet when I first meet people because I like to observe people to get a feel for their personality before I even think about opening up to anyone. I've been burned in the past so I'm guarded emotionally. I like making people laugh or happy because I know what its like to have be at war with your own mind and I don't want anyone to feel like that. I tend to bottle up my emotions because I don't like to "burden" others with my issues. I'm not used to depending on anyone and it take a lot for me to admit I need help. As soon as I see someone as family, I get protective. When it comes to the people I care about, I'm ok if you insult me but the second you go after the people I care about I will not pull punches.

What I look for in someone:

Reassurance and humor. I have anxiety and depression so I need someone who will give me reassurance. Someone who I can be in the same room with and we can both be content doing different things. Someone who knows I can fight my own battles but will be there for me.

Hobbies:

I love to read. I love expanding my knowledge about anything and everything. If I get stressed, I will read Harry Potter, just because it allows me to escape for awhile. I dabble in creative writing every so often when the mood strikes me.

Baking is another passion of mine. I love trying out recipes, especially if I know someone likes a certain flavor profile. I hardly ever eat what I make, I just make things for people to try. I get nervous when waiting for people to try the stuff I made. If I get stressed out, I will go on baking sprees and make 8-9 different creations in a day.

I drabble in crochet. I enjoy making things for people I care about like blankets. I always get their favorite colors or something they are passionate about and try to find a design to make for them.

I adore animals. Cats, dogs, fish, you name it and I most likely will find it adorable.

I hope you have a great day/night and since you remind everyone to make sure they drink water, I'm going to remind you to drink water!

AWWWW THATS SO SWEET YOU KKOW I DO THAT THAT MADE MY DAY AHDHSHS AND YES DONT WORRY I DRINK WATER I HAVE TO AFTER PASSING OUT TWICE LOL !!

okay and now for the matchup !!

i match you with... SOLOMON !!

- you need humor ? problem solved. this man is hundreds of years old and knows every joke from every time period

- as a wizard, he def has a familiar. i hc that it's a cat (kinda basic i know but). he will let you play with it whenever you want. in fact the cat might like you more than him

- if you crochet him anything he's keeping it forever and enchanting it so it can never be ruined

- he would love to watch you bake and ask you to teach him (we all know this man needs baking help and cooking help)

- exactly like you said, the two of you can be in the same room and enjoy different things

- you like expanding knowledge ? boy oh boy you're in luck. he has books dating back at least a thousand years ago and will gladly let you read them all

- he'll teach you how to make cool potions and cast spells

- he will def be there for you and reassure you whenever you need it

- he knows you don't want to "be a burden" but he has his ways of making you feel comfy enough to talk. solomon may be like a child sometimes but truth is he has hundreds of years of emotional handling and can take anything you throw at him

- just as protective of you as you are him

- beauty and the beast is your guys movie you watch it on some date nights

- he also loves your wings tattoo

- he knows lots of braiding hairstyles so if you ever want your hair braided let him know

- your guys personality types are statistically proven to be good together

- entp + infj duo

- overall very loving couple

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I HOPE YOU LIEKD IT SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG ANDHSJS AND IM SURE YOU ALREDY KNOW WHAT IM GONNA SAY SO HAVE A GOOD DAY/NIGHT AND REMEMBER TO DRINK WATER !!

- cas :)

[snippychicke]

I don't know why I even am typing this. Nothing can be done. I kkow people will be sympathetic out of the goodness of their hearts, and I appreciate the sentiments, but it changes nothing.

I feel...nothing. Everything feels numb and worthless. I'm not darkly depressed, just numb. I don't want to feel depressed, yet I want to feel something.

I keep writing. I keep reading, but I feel nothing. It just passes the time. Wake, work, eat, sleep. Its the same day after day. I'm not even that affected by Covid. Work is slightly more complicated, but I have no quarentine. I don't work from home.

I have no reason to feel this way. Yet I have no reason to feel anything. Connecting with others, when I would be active, takes so much energy I avoid it because the mere thought is tiring. But yet I miss it, but I don't have the energy.

It's the week before my cycle begins, so I hope thats all this is. God I hope this is just my hormones and not reality reinserting itself in my mind. I try so, so hard to pretend life is better than it is. Tha there is meaning and joy in it. Sometimes I can be satisfied with life. Sometimes I can be happy being a caretaker, a clinic nurse, a fanfic writer, and ignore that feeling tht I am nothing. That to this world, to this universe, I am meaningless and insignificant. I have no value or worth. Life has no value or worth.

What secrets do others hold in their mind? What crosses their mind in the slow minutes? What are their lives like? Do they have a goal, a purpose? What gives them motivation to live? Mine is simply because I know my dearh would bring heartache and pain to those that care for me. I should be happy that they do, yet sometimes I wonder if I only care for them because they care for me. Is that how this works? Am I supposed to love them as they are? For who they are? I don't. I am only emotionally invested in them because they are family and I have to be. My mother is a burden, she tried her best but has cause irreversible harm to my psyche, but I will never say it to her face. My grandmother, I love her and I am indebted to her, but dementia has slowly worn her away that I no longer recognize the vibrant person of my youth. My brother has become my son, for his mental illness has made it so he will never be mentally an adult. He tries, he has come so far from who he was, but I do not know him. I cannot be around him long enough to know him because my PTSD stems from him. I think we could have been friends if he didn't scare me and cause me so much anxiety, yet I cannot remember what causes me to feel that way.

Time keeps ticking. The world turns, the sun pulling us through space, and none of what I do matters. Only helping people matter, but why? Why can't I find a meaning in life other than serving? How do other people live their lives if not for another? How?

Live for myself? The problem is, I don't want to live. It's meaningless. Soon enough I will return to nothingness and my life will have been nothing. A single molecule of water in the vast ocean. Remove it and nothing changes. But I must stay, because my family could not carry on without me. Yet what about when they die? What awaits me then?

[the-firebird69]

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[betsunibitch]

No... I won’t. 

[betsunibitch]

Just go and see them!

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