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[tori-go-ya02]

プロメテ受けの気配がするやつまとめ2023下旬

[diariesof-kg]

Chapter Four.

11 August 2023.

I sat here and cried for thirty minutes. Lol, I am tempted to call my circle of friends and cry some more. I'm honestly in a weird space. I sat here again and praised who I am, in order avoid succumbing to my thoughts. One thing I said to myself is Ke'Anna, you are great at understanding even when you are misunderstood. I thought to myself as a partner, I have grown and I love that for myself.

When I am in a relationship, I am able to validate my partners feelings without making it about me, egotistic. If my partner has an issue, I am welcoming of their feelings without even thinking. I am a fixer without hesitation. I don't insert my thoughts about how I FEEL, because it's not about me. It's about my partner in this moment. I avoid the, "well I thought or I think..." mindset, because again, it's not about me. I love the fact that I listen to understand and to find out how my partner feels. I love the fact that in that instant, when I say I am going to do something I actually do it. And that's growth.

I don't ever want my partner to feel like their feelings are dismissed or invalidated. I have people that I use to talk to who said that's what they liked about me the most. *le sigh, but they could never really provide me the same. The lack of reciprocation. I sat here and cried, because at this moment I don't feel amazing inside. I honestly don't. I tend to move forward because that's how life is. But how I feel remains the same. I think part of me what I have noticed throughout the years of my life is I never receive reciprocation. Do I expect it, not really. Would it be nice, most definitely. Years of therapy and learning to communicate with abuser did something, someone go thank the SHE of Ike turner. I really dislike who I am right now. I never felt like this but I do. I can't even ask God why he made me this way, because there is no reason to question it. I just don't get why I have to fix and care about everyone's feelings but when it comes to mine, I'm dramatic. My friends have said I am dramatic several times, until they hear me crying and they realize I actually have emotions. I cried about the same thing in May and June, when everything was happening. Like why Ke'Anna. Just stop caring about everyone's feelings. Stop fixing shit. The whole Barbie friendship I am sure they want me to fix that too and I didn't do shit.

Why is it that no one comes to me and fixes things or take accountability or just simply say, I am sorry, I am going to go ahead and fix the issue. It's always a debate and trust me it never fails. The tears are coming... I honestly don't ask for anything really, but respect and loyalty. My feelings to be validated. Maybe that's why ol girl tried to lock me down so quick, Lol, I am as transparent as they come and don't need to lie about anything. She said, "i want us to be exclusive..." Lol, I wasn't having it, because who are you? I mentally stimulated you and think differently now you trying to lock me away with no ring, honey please. Lol. Phew women. I try to laugh to stop the tears seriously. I should start posting on Twitter and speaking on subjects like this. I know intellectual conversations is a turn on for most. Maybe I am too loyal? I shouldn't be. Should I go back to Snapchat, like I use to and preach. I honestly don't feel like getting hit on, Lol, not really laughing but more annoyed about it. I mean I know how to put people in their place, but still.

When I don't sleep it means things are not settled within me at all. I'm no longer overthinking but I am just disappointed more than sad. I cry it out for a couple of days and then I feel what should be my next move. I guess I am tired like I said previously. The things I yearn for in my life will never be fulfilled and it pains me. Even with my friendships, I ask for my feelings to be validated, that means so much to me than anything else. I am sure I will overcome this, but I know what will become of it. It also sucks when I have feelings or a issue everyone is upset, at me for being upset and I just think that is beyond unfair. That honestly grinds my gears to the fullest. How narcissistic can you be? but in the end I am glad I am that partner that people want in their life when it comes to validation and understanding a person's feelings. Like a show I watch on youtube, she always says, sometimes people just want to be heard and that is really it.

[maxphilippa]

I keep on thinking about how like...

A mini comic I made about Joseph and Dan being lovers

Very very low quality comic too

Just started most of the ships I have with Burgy now mskg

I care about them a lot

I might redo it eventually cuz man was it low quality, I want to do a rendered version

[orange1896]

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[staxel]

im glad its always sunday love hour on your blog because u always deserve it

ROSEWELLINGTON I LOVE OYU!!!!!! u always deserve eerythign good.. i love oyu

[emirakimov]

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[william-lejeune]

Expo: Een dag in Gent

Huis van Allijn

Recensie:

HET HUIS VAN ALIJN - MUSEUM VAN HET Dagelijks leven

Het Huis van Alijn is een tijdloos museum. Het cultureel erfgoed van alledag is een immense schatkamer van verhalen van dingen die (n)ooit voorbijgaan. Je beleeft ze in het Huis van Alijn! Een museum met een passie voor het dagelijkse leven in de 20ste eeuw. Ontdek hier de kleine en grote geschiedenissen van het leven, zowel uit het begin van de 20ste eeuw als uit de naoorlogse jaren.

Poppentheater met Pierke van Alijn. Pierke, de kinderheld van het Huis van Alijn, zorgt elke zaterdag voor avontuur - van 1 oktober tot 31 mei.

Tijdens de herfst-, kerst-, krokus- en paasvakantie is Pierke ook van de partij op woensdag. In de Gentse Feesten is er 10 dagen lang een namiddagvoorstelling. Wie graag de avonturen van Pierke en zijn kompanen wil volgen, kan de agenda raadplegen. Reservatie van tickets gebeurt via Uitbureau.

Het Huis van Alijn heropende op zaterdag 16 december 2017 met een vernieuwde opstelling van de vaste collectie na een sluiting van elf weken. Die vertelt het verhaal van het dagelijks leven tijdens de 20ste eeuw tot vandaag. En de nieuwe tentoonstelling is er niet alleen om naar te kijken. Je kan er ook voelen, horen en ruiken. Die nieuwe aanpak moet een museumbezoek vooral aangenamer maken voor mensen met autisme. Het Huis van Alijn is naar eigen zeggen het eerste autismevriendelijke museum in België. Het vernieuwde Huis van Alijn toont dat het alledaagse allerminst gewoon is en zoomt in op gewoonten, tradities en rituelen die herinneren aan een recent of verder verleden.

Mening: In de krokusvakantie ben ik samen met mijn zus naar Gent gegaan om mijn grote zus te gaa bezoeken die daar op kot is. Maar eerst had mijn zus les dus moesten we iets doen in afwachting dus hebben we besloten om naar het huis van Alijn te gaan. Er waren daar momenteel twee tentoonstellingen bezig, eentje over rook en de andere over het hedendaagse leven. Ik had eerlijk gezegd geen zin in de beide omdat ze me niet zo aanspraken. Eerst zijn we naar tabak gegaan, daar leerden we iets meer over de geschiedenis van tabak. Ik vond het heel erg saai en het enige leuke eraan waren de reclamebordjes van de jaren 90 van sigaretten. De tweede was veel leuker daar waren er allemaal leuke activieteiten over het leven vroeger. De tweede is meer gemaakt voor kinderen en die over rook is meer iets voor oudere personene. Dus als je nog iets met je familie in gent wilt doen is dit iets voor jou!!!  Link: http://www.tento.be/musea/het-huis-van-alijn-museum-van-het-dagelijks-leven

Museum voor Schone kunsten

Recensie:

Museum voor Schone Kunsten Gent

Aan het Gentse Citadelpark verrijzen twee kolossale musea: het Stedelijk Museum voor Actuele Kunst (SMAK) en Het Museum voor Schone Kunsten Gent (MSKG). Het laatstgenoemde museum is één van de oudste musea in België, waar een grote diversiteit aan Vlaamse kunst te bewonderen is. Naast een vast collectie zijn er ook tijdelijke tentoonstellingen te zien in het museum.

Het MSKG werd al in 1798 opgericht en heeft al eeuwen een rijke collectie kunstwerken. Bekijk hier een permanente tentoonstelling van ruim vierhonderd schilderijen, tekeningen, beelden, wandtapijten en andere werken. Een prachtig beeld van de diversiteit van de Vlaamse kunst! In het museum komen aan bod: het realisme, impressionisme, symbolisme, romantiek, expressionisme en het surrealisme.

Er zijn veel verschillende mogelijkheden om een bezoek aan het museum te verrijken. Huur een audioguide of laat je als groep rondleiden door een gids. Kinderen leven zich uit in het atelier, nadat ze het museum verkend hebben. Het museum heeft een all-informule voor verjaardagsfeestjes. Ook voor scholen is er een uitgebreid programma. Het museum kan in zijn geheel of gedeeltelijk worden afgehuurd door bedrijven.

Het uitstapje Museum voor Schone Kunsten Gent in Gent leent zich ook goed voor een schoolreisje.

https://www.uitstappen.be/uitstap/6133/Museum-voor-Schone-Kunsten-Gent

Mening: Daarna ben ik naar het museum voor schone kunsten in Gent gegaan maar nu alleen omdat ik mijn zus had kwijtgeraakt. De toegang tot het museum is volkomen gratis voor jongeren. De schilderijen in het museum zijn verdeeld onder  kunststromingen zoals impressionisme, expressionisme,... . Het museum bezit ook het wereldberoemde schilderij Lams God gemaakt door de gebroeders van Eyck. Het is momenteel nog in restauratie maar we kunnen live zien hoe ze te werk gaan. Ik was hier al gekomen met de school toen we naar gent gingen maar we waren maar 2 uur hier gebleven en ik had alleen maar een klein stukje van het museum en nu heb ik heel het museum bezocht. Ik was heel moe en blij op het einde van het museum. Maar het is echt iets dat je moet doen in je leven, vind ik.  

[tatanizno]

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[vitabird-blog]

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[tori-go-ya02]

プロメテ受けの気配がするやつまとめ 2023/02/15～07/07

[diariesof-kg]

Full Moon.

06_04_23

I am not sure if I am comfortable speaking on this, but I feel as though, writing everything out will relieve some sort of misery.  I’ve been quiet for some time about this incident.  You’d think it was a dude the way this whole thing occurred.  This is why, when I interact with people publicly I make sure I shift my body a certain way.  This girl, literally, did the most one night.  And I definitely don’t understand why she continues to create different IGs and Ph#s and calling me when I am aware of who they are and don’t respond.  Of course, I head downtown and have two drinks, at which I am unsure why people think alcohol is going to make you feel loose.  Third eye and conscious will never make me not be present.  She came late and ordered two margaritas and of course had drank prior and smoked.  Now as we are sitting in this place, its subtle things she attempts to do that I am like no, I’m okay.  Yes I was single at the time, but I honestly wish people would stop thinking, I am down for everyone and everything.  Anyway, I am always ready to leave, of course I get in my car and start my car and left my door open, because I was irritated and ready to go.  The person asked for a hug and everything kind of went left. 

The person started grabbing on me and feeling on me and to my ignorance I had placed both arms against my chest in the effort to push her off of me but she grabbed tighter and at this point I could not move and kept leaning back and pushing at the same time telling her to get off of me and to stop.  She was licking on me and kissing on me and feeling on me.  It was ...disgusting.  If there is a alternative word other than violated, I’d use it.  She also in the midst of that, told me, “I did not come all the way here for nothing...” I remember my feet being off the ground at some point.  I remember car headlights passing by and people walking past on the sidewalk, looking.  I wanted to throw myself into on coming traffic just to get away.  She let me go, because there was this couple walking past and they had stopped.  I dislike being small, I honestly do.  I... drove home confused and took a 45 minute shower to be exact.  She actually reached out with a different number and texted some crap about having sex dreams about me.  I have been quiet for awhile, I tend to hold things inside until something triggers one emotion and then it all comes out at once.  If I was trifling and I mean a savage, I’d out her whole entire existence.  I have friends in the industry with blogs that would literally make her lose her damn teaching job.  But once again, Ke’Anna spares the souls that destroys hers.  

Just thinking about it has me gagging and wanting to fall into a black hole.  If my friends knew, or my one friend knew, I mean I can’t even discuss further, what would happen.  I think that’s why I be scared to touch people sexually sometimes.  I kind of always wondered why.  Just my past childhood and other occurrences.  I remember the last chick I asked permission and she found it annoying, but she knew of my past, but didn’t care.  This world has sheep in wolves clothing forsure.  Since I am always the bad guy, I guess I deserved to be assaulted like that even though I know it was uncalled for.  I wish I could speak up and say something to her, but I know every time I speak my mind, I end up in the wrong and I don’t even come at anyone sideways, just calm and open.  It honestly sucks, but this is how I felt when the incident happened as a child.  Just a muted mind, with a tainted body and useless soul.  No one to save me or have my back, no one to speak up for me, when I feel silenced.  I am probably in the wrong for even speaking about it on my blog, I am always wrong for expressing my feelings.  

People want to know whats on my mind and its hard for me to express myself, because I always feel like I am wrong.  This world wants someone gentle and can communicate and I am more of a sensitive person, that shuts down and cries.  I think also, I dislike being called mean, when I am placing boundaries and don’t tolerate a lot of things.  I kind of accepted that title “mean lady.”  I can barely convince people that’s not me.  I remember I wanted to out this girl that literally stalked me, I posted a picture and she wrote, “If that’s how you look all the time I want to taste your p*ssy.” *gags, I wish I could do what I really want to do and expose.

To end this blog ----

I ...feel a relief of writing out what happened.  Although, I am numb and don’t know how I truly feel, but since Ive written it, I don’t believe I will speak about it again unless someone asks.  Humans are less than kind these days.  I wish, I could vent this out, but I also, dont like to pour this kind of heavy load onto someone.  I wish I could post on my IG, but knowing my followers it would create drama and of course the person would deny it all.  I wish I could post all my DMs of the inappropriateness I receive, but that’d make me the bad guy.  I wish the world didn’t just tell people to simply ‘block’ a person, but to encourage them to speak up.  

[staxel]

How can i find a girlfriend?

hmm!! i HONESTLY HAVE NO IDEA?????? everything just happens to me skmsglmSGMKLSG,, but usually i just make?? a bunch of friends somehow and sometimes we mutually like each other so mskgs

[kyarymell]

[diariesof-kg]

The Heartbreaker?

06_03_23

Why am I so poetic?  I can get really deep with my words.  I guess that’s the part of me that’s still alive.  I am ultimately shocked when I write about love and things.  It’s a rarity that I write poems for anyone.  When I do consider it a one in a million moment.

I think I will dive into this quite quickly.  I am not upset or mad, because I am numb at this moment.  But I am disappointed, I suppose.  The fact that a friend of mine decides to do a Oprah interview and tell all without coming to speak to me is definitely grounds for never being a friend of mine again.  The fact that, she decides to tell someone that she is heartbroken, because I “ghosted” her, but never used all methods to reaching out to me to check on me is the reason I am writing this out.  Manipulators are like abusers, well my therapist would say they are.  She needed to tell the story first to make herself seem as if I am the one doing all this.  Listen, at this point, I will take the L and be the bad person, because that seems to be the narrative here.

It’s the fact that she can not reply and have the whole entire group on ‘do not disturb’ but post on social media and then return when she feels like it and, I actually don’t flinch or feel like “she’s not my friend.” Everyone goes through things!  If you’ve known me, you know I hide my feelings and emotions and be that supportive friend through it all.  I get quiet after Mother’s Day and post on social media and all of a sudden, I am ghosting and breaking someone’s heart.  This is exactly why I am removing myself from everyone.  I am tired.  This shouldn’t bother me, but it does.  Imagine being there for everyone and supporting them, making sure they are good when you are not and then God says “Hey Ke’Anna, I’m going to take your mother from you now.” and I still be there for everyone.  Mother’s Day was hard for me and nobody cared to ask me will I be okay.  I am highly disappointed in her.  And it’s not just the situation now, this person will flake on you day in and day out with so many excuses.  On top of that the other girl paid for her whole Bday dinner just for her NOT to show up.  I was upset for the girl at the time, because that was honestly foul.  No one knows how to communicate anymore I suppose but expect people to communicate.  My question to her is why even start the narrative about me that isnt true.  Also, I don’t like lies.  I can barley lie myself, my consciousness, guilty consciousness rather just could never.  Saying things like that will make people think we real life had something going on and we did not.  Thankfully the person I am dating trusts me to know it’s not what she is saying.

Could you imagine if I was with the last girl or my ex.  And I went to vent to them, they’d accuse me of had done something with the girl and believed her instead of me.  That’s why I don’t play about my character or name.  You out here doing too much.  I get it, I was that friend, real friend out the group and I cared and made sure you were good, but isn’t that what friends are suppose to do?  Perhaps this is my down fall.  Perhaps I do a lot for people and they become platonically possessive.  Maybe it’s just the taurus?  I understand going through a friendship breakup, but please tell the truth.  Maybe deep down inside you are projecting?  Maybe you are jealous that everyone is in a relationship out the group and you are not.  Imagine if me and my other bestfriend got married, since the other two in the group are married.  I do recall this text though, where after I made it official, she said something about, “you are leaving me for someone else...” I will definitely find it sooner or later.  I try not to read into things sometimes, because it’s literally all shits and giggles, but also you have to pay attention to the hidden truths.

Karmic energy is real.  I honestly tried to help her as a friend to cut the soul ties with her exs, rebalance her chakras and vibrational energy, but she refused.  Everything she has told me, you have to sit back and think this is karma.  Although a person can sit and tell you what another person has done, you’d have to think than why are you surrounded constantly by negative energy.  Why do things not happen for you?  I believe some people are content with things happening to them.  I am not.  I worked so hard on my spiritual journey to unravel it all.  Maybe us not being friends is the best.  I mean in general what kind of friend has their do not disturb on forever in a day and is only available when they want to be.  I’m sure the other girls don’t care or maybe they do, but everyone feelings do matter.

On the contrary I am disconnecting my phone, Tmobile asked me a million questions just to turn off the service.  If I want to disappear into the ocean, who needs to know that Tmobile, I pay the services now turn it off.  But I am going to do some candle work, which is dangerous might I add.  Lol, Sage is mildly dangerous but the candles I have, I did it once and was shook by the results.  That’s the reason I refuse to relit them unless necessary.  I just feel entirely numb.  And while being numb, I don’t feel like going to work anymore, I miss my mom.  I have no one to vent about my feelings too.  It’s really lonely even though I have my family and friends and my partner it’s very lonely.  I thought about joining some groups in the LGBTQ community to get out the house and do meet ups, but I feel like a disease.  I feel like if anyone was to hug me I’d cry and no one wants to be around that.  I don’t even want to be in this vessel right now.  My cousin keeps throwing away things and I think it’s adding pain within me that I can’t explain.  I am not in a dark space but honestly I wish I could dig the grave site where my mom is and be with her forever.  It’s almost six months and like my friend who lost her mother as well told me “it gets quiet..” no one calls, you become lonely.  And it’s crazy how we mistreat others while they have a breathe in their body but as soon as they die, it’s “I miss them so much...” but 3 months later its radio silence.  That’s why I don’t fear death at all.  But that’s another blog for another day.

To end this blog ----

I did see my mother in my dreams, I think?  It’s her but no words are spoken.  I think subconsciously I am still waiting for the doctors to tell me to come pick her up.  The last blog I wrote that I wanted people to miss me, but I was weak.  I could careless about being missed.  I just don’t want to feel numb anymore.  I want to feel loved and chosen and seen like I stated, but missed, that’s what photographs are for.  I do wish the friendship didn’t end like that, but that’s cliche of a statement.  I wish the world was more gentle to those who are suffering in silence.  I wish the world would be washed of lies and deceit.  I wish those around would stop calling me rich.  Don’t ask why but it does bother me.  To be honest, the funds are enough to cover my funeral, if yall really want to know.  But moving on, I hope me and the ocean waves meet again.  Maybe the ocean will grab me and pull me somehow, but never give me back.  

[tori-go-ya02]

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