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#much faster and im able to function properly sooner
dhampir-dyke
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#i cannot fucking believe that my half-baked psilocybin therapy is working. this is so crazy.......
#less than 4 months ago i was incredibly suicidal and my depression + trauma kept me from doing basic shit. i couldnt fucking enjoy anything.
#and now i take literally no medicine except a gram of psilocybin every month or so. and i hesistate to say its 'fixed' me bc i still have
#a lot of issues and i still have bad days
#BUT. my life is so much better now..... i can actually feel good when i do things i like. im able to get important stuff done much easier
#and im having bad days instead of bad WEEKS. when my cptsd gets triggered its still horrific and debilitating but the come down from it is
#much faster and im able to function properly sooner
#today i managed to talk to my leasing office about moving in a few days earlier and they said yes!!! ive manage to pack a BUNCH
#of my stuff into my car for when i start moving in tomorrow. ive made an important phone call!!!
#i still had to jump through the hoop of executive dysfunction BUT. normally i have to go through an obstacle course of it
#every time i do it i feel like i get a little bit better. i try to make a 'plan of attack' every time i take them.
#make my place feel as comfortable and safe as possible. i keep a journal nearby and relaxing music playing. and i try to sortof like
#i guess a mix of introspection + reparenting in a way. i go with the flow but i try to focus on a way of thinking thats unhealthy
#and try to tease + pick apart the reasons its unhealthy; while also trying to replace it with a healthier way of thinking
#if that makes sense??? all while just. idk. feeling safe and at ease.
#and ill feel kinda weird for at most a day afterwards bc lets be real. its psychedelic mushrooms. but afterwards i just feel much
#lighter and generally just more at peace?
#maybe its bc of how vulnerable i am while in an altered mental state; it may replicate the vulnerability i experienced as a child.
#but rather than be abused for being vulnerable im being gentle and kind to myself??? idek man its weird.
#anyways thats the end of my rambling im just thinking outloud
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