#multi paragraph post

[mister-solister]

So I had a dream where I went back to my outdoor school camp (I really miss those guys) but it looked nothing like it. I was with my brother even though he didn't go to my school in sixth grade and basically we go inside. It was like a building of sorts that I saw. I went in. It was sorta like a house and I saw some teens that were at outdoor school but I didn't recognize them cause not everyone sees the same people at outdoor school every year. Might I add that I am shorter then them in this dream.

So I leave and I got like a weird question screen with a girls face and some other things and the GUI (is that what it's called?) was like blue and white I guess. Anyways, I say I'll do it but then I got distracted when I was walking away because I saw my current principal next to a white picket fence. I was look "Oh my gosh, hi!" and he was like "I haven't seen you in a while!" or something weird like that.

So I walk past him and see a street and someone across the street that I apparently knew but I couldn't see who it was correctly cause I'm nearsighted all of a sudden even though my nearsightedness didn't effect me any other time so I start walking across the road and a car or truck almost ran me over so I step back and start walking again. I look to my right and a giant horizontal cyan-turquoise like storage container you see on trucks starts zooming down the road towards me and I try to run away but it's basically a wall and kills me.

I come back a second later on my side of the road and some sort of invisible voice says something along the lines of "You died again." I go "Yeah sorry." she goes "This is the second time you've died like this." I respond with "Yes, I remember." or something like that.

The rest of the dream isn't worth remembering and also that voice is a liar. This was the first time I've died like that in a dream.

[motherspores]

i find it very funny that people keep saying that grian is going against his rebellion rule by working for the government (not necessarily incorrect) and that the dhp is going to incite a revolt because the dhp is Different from previous governing forces in that the only control grian is excising over the other hermits its annoying them as much as possible (which he does regardless).

like. hermits love corruption. they love running corrupted governments and then dismantling them violently for fun. the dhp isnt necessarily Not Corrupt, but its Not Not Corrupt either. grian gets no profits out of this. he tries to avoid doing his job in every way possible but he still ends up doing it. the dhp is just here to rectify any mistakes made during the initial hermit permit set up and help people with their permit problems.

the dhp is meant to be as soul sucking as possible, but it does still help in the end (if you can actually get grian to cooperate). He'll Do This For You, but he Won't Be Happy About It. his sole payment is how crazy it all drives you.

and while this is not NOT an unrevoltable offense (the hermits have certainly rebelled for less), this also doesnt show any outright corruption other than whatever you'd call a depressed looking man working customer service who hates you for making him do his job. which i dont think really counts. thats just what customer service does to you.

[jackmanifold-daily]

how do the jack manifold daily mods all feel about the 2024 c!jack lore

yeah pretty good

[lyricsandpapers]

The 2 Sides (Mu Sheng, Fu Zhou)

Spoilers and Long post warning!

LETS TALK ABOUT ZIQI FOLKS. Or rather let's talk about the DIVISON of Ziqi. Let's talk about Mu Sheng and Fu Zhou. I'm not gonna use this post to talk about Ziqi and Miaomiao or Ziqi's internal battle of falling in love with her. NO THOSE WILL GET OTHER POSTS!!! (and some episode specific posts about my favorite scenes most likely)

Chasing Demons, the story Fu Zhou's First Story is the EPITOME of a middle schoolers first story. I have pages upon pages of self depreciating lines about my own existence and the trials and tribulations of living.

Mu Sheng the character, is an isolated character with no past and no future. He has little people around him and only one that he truly cares about (I would say in the original novel he merely tolerates Lu Fuyi). He is destined to hide the truth of his existence, of which even he doesn't know the full scope of, until it is inevitably revealed and he looses the one person he cares about. His love life in the original novel is nonexistent, and the 'marriage' he is in is a venting of all the pain and anger he holds inside of him. A hopeless character, but even more than that he's hopeless Twice. Why?

Mu Sheng Could have everything, his parents loved each other once, his sister loves him now. But it's all out of reach for him. (We don't know how much he learns about his past in the original Chasing Demons so I won't delve much into that).

The reason that Mu Sheng can have nothing and must live his life chasing after happiness, knowing that he will never hold more than the coattails of it in his palm for seconds. Is because Fu Zhou wrote this story at his lowest. It is the representation of all the grief and that he was currently experincing at that time.

Mu Sheng's family is torn apart (father dead, mother's heart unknowingly destroyed by him, the Mu family dealing with the fallout of his own mistakes) because all Fu Zhou knows is the crashing and burning of his own family. Happiness exists just out of reach for both Mu Sheng and Fu Zhou. Without Mu Sheng in the picture, could his parents have stayed together and in love? If he wasn't sick would Fu Zhou's parents not fight? Not scream? Not cry?

We occasionally see hints of 'The End Cannot Be Changed' scattered throughout the show, earliest with Miaomiao having to constantly redo tasks because the outcome must be certain ways. The Story itself as a concept is extremely rigid because that was the thinking of Fu Zhou when he wrote it. Rigid in the belief that his past holds nothing (no friends, no great memories) and his future is set in stone (alone, abandoned, uncared for and dead). A bleak and grim outlook from a boy who is dying.

The true First Story with a cringefail self insert OC to help cope with that young teenage depression.

It speaks great depths that when Fu Zhou found a bit of light in his life, with meeting Miaomiao for the first time, he insists that she saved him. But she is not the savior of Chasing Demons. BECAUSE FU ZHOU IS RIGID IN HIS THINKING!!! He adds Miaomiao as a Prologue. She stopped the catastrophe of heavens once before, it's possible for it to be done. But the person who had stopped it before (with her weapon that literally looks like her fountain pen from real life SCREAMING) is Gone and so Mu Sheng's end is set in stone.

Mu Sheng's story changes when he becomes Ziqi, when he meets someone who starts to change his rigid thinking and allows him to be able to grasp the happiness just out of his reach.

Fu Zhou's stories start changing, from rigid cold and unfeeling, to more hopeful and healing when he meets someone who shines in his darkness and allows him to believe that happiness can happen even if it is currently out of his reach.

This is long af already so I'll make an entierly seperate post about Ziqi and him being the combination of Mu Sheng (a younger Fu Zhou) and the older Fu Zhou later.

[elbiotipo]

Sorry, I won't reply to that person anymore, but imagine how much that helped to my current headache.

[un-pearable]

thinking about the person who said jet doesn’t have an ego bc “his confidence is warranted bc he did win all those races” again

[cannibal-sarracenian]

I suddenly remembered this one time back in 2015-ish(?) when this bot named Erica was going around in people's inboxes. It was quite infamous at the time.

Because I was into Precure at the time, for a small lark I made a parody of it using Kurumi Erika complete with an edited version of Bot-Erica's icon and message written in-character and send it to a few of the Precure fans I was following/were mutuals with, as a fun inside-joke.

Half of them got legit pissed about it.

[dailydegurechaff]

I wanted to know how do you interpret Tanya's gender. After reading chapter 58 of the manga i got the impression that she is definitely trans coded, but maybe thats just me

Very good question.

To be honest, when I think too hard about Tanya’s gender (and sexuality, for that matter) it gives me brain worms. Fun brain worms, but brain worms nonetheless. I can’t explain it. Everything she’s got going on is complicated as shit there’s way too much to think about.

Like, she was a man, but now she's a girl. But at some points she says she still sees herself as a man internally so is this MtFtM? How does that work. And if she accepts she's a woman now, is that just MtF or do we add more letters. More importantly: Was Being X being Transphobic or being the Greatest Trans Ally of All Time with the free divinely issued sex change.

Ok ok, jokes aside. Confession: I actually do not keep up with the manga, so I had to go find the chapter and read it first. Having read it now though, I see what you mean.

The conversation she has with the Salaryman/herself in that chapter really does read as essentially saying “I’ve accepted who I am now.” It’s a far cry from a much earlier part of the manga I remember where she has a breakdown about being a man/people seeing her as a girl.

A friend of mine was actually showing me stuff from more recent chapters of the manga (don’t know which chapter tragically, but I know it’s not currently translated to English) and from what I gathered of it, Being X was showing Tanya a dream of being back in her past life and in response she basically demanded to go back to being Tanya immediately. It is definitely not just you, I 100% see the trans-coding you’re talking about.

As for my personal interpretation of her gender, I touched very briefly on it once before, but I honestly think she wouldn’t want to label herself as anything. At first, this is out of hesitance and not wanting to acknowledge that anything might be ““wrong”” or ““different”” about her. Later on it turns into character growth, more along the lines of, “I don’t need the label to define me, I just am what I am/like what I like. I don’t care about it any more than that.” Yes this is 100% projection on my part. No, I won’t apologize for it lmao.

Of course, that's entirely my own headcanon. I definitely am not saying it’s the only way to interpret her, it’s just my personal thoughts. Especially since my opinion is subject to change on a dime depending on what I’m reading/working on myself. The Tanya gender is, in fact, transient, shifting like water.

Like. A transfem Tanya fic that focuses on her adapting to life in her new world and coming to discover she doesn’t actually hate her new body? I’d totally read that. I’ve seen a few fics that include that as a part of the narrative and those scenes of acceptance were among my favorite parts.

I get the feeling this is the route that the manga is going as well. It’s a bit of a shame that we don't have those aforementioned scenes in the light novel (or at least, I don't remember them), but I don’t think that Carlo Zen really intended that to be the focus/narrative in the first place. And honestly, I also think that’s a good thing because it allows for so much more room for interpretation and headcanon around Tanya’s character.

Anyway, the other direction is also compelling to me. A transmasc Tanya fic where, after feeling uncomfortable and hating how feminine he looks for years and years, he finally goes ‘Fuck this, I’m gonna go back to being a man’? I would read the fuck out of that too.

Could also be paired with him finally choosing to defect, where they think about it like, ‘Well there’s nothing to hold me back now, right? I don’t have to maintain appearances anymore. Also, since I’m defecting this would be a great way to hide myself. They’d all be looking for the wrong person. Two birds with one stone, how efficient.’ …Now we’re getting to fic ideas I won’t ever get to so it’s time to move on I think.

Semi-related to the Trans Tanya Concept, this actually brings me to a bit of a lore/headcanon/idea/question I want to present to the public for opinions. In Norden, during the inciting battle of the war, Tanya uses magic to “dope up” so she could enhance her strength and reaction time and kill pain. I took this to mean she used a formula to synthesize the narcotics/adrenaline hormone/whatever else directly into herself, right?

Can you see where I’m going with this? As long as you know which hormones to make, how they’re made up, and what quantities you need… Well, don’t you think magic HRT is completely possible? Of course, as I'm not sure it makes sense for Salaryman to have known the detailed specifics about it from the modern world, it would require a lot of in-universe research/science advancement for someone to actually do that, but theoretically...

The magic system in this universe has so much potential to be explored, I’m fascinated by what you can theoretically do with it. Although, this is long and off-topic already I think this should be the end, lol.

I think I talked too much? I’m sorry, you were probably not expecting such an answer. I told you, Tanya gives me brain worms (mental illness).

I guess the TL;DR is this: that kid definitely ain’t cishet.

[darckcarnival]

"Dear god what the hell is even tonight... I just wanted my coffee and to watch shit go down...!"

[feral-sylki]

“Her name was Sylvie”

“Because we’re the same”

“See? We’re both selfish”

These three quotes have attached themselves to my brain and won’t let go and so I’m gonna chatter about them because I have so many thoughts and look. I am quite aware there is a focus on Sylvie with these. I can’t help it, she’s my favourite, her tragic backstory, insane grin and absolute commitment to her beliefs have captivated me

Okay so first one: “Her name was Sylvie.” Loki, with the very real possibility she’s been killed, holding the line for her. The identity she forged for herself, the escapism and the rebellion and the individuality that’s so important to her, he not only respects, but holds the line for her. You fell for yourself; no, because she isn’t me, she’s Sylvie. He cares for her, he fell for Sylvie, the fierce woman who teases him and challenges him and fights for life with everything she’s got. And he does reach Mobius. Mobius plays it off mockingly during the interrogation “is that with an ie or just an i?” but he remembers it and he uses it. He says to Ravonna, “Why didn’t you let me interrogate Sylvie?” Like it’s so important to have someone who cares, someone in your corner. There’s so much packed into four words

“Because we’re the same.” The flip side of the individuality is the fact that they are variants of each other and that’s such a fascinating and important and beautiful part of the narrative. Sylvie violently establishes her individuality and separateness from the Loki conglomerate at the beginning, but she choses to reassure Loki that he can do it by using their sameness. Like seriously I cannot express how amazing that character development is there. She’s now so much more comfortable in her identity because of him. Because of him, Loki, fresh off the sacred timeline, who was meant to “cause pain and suffering and death” only, he has helped her feel more comfortable in her own skin, by caring and just being himself. That’s awesome. And it’s also romantic as hell. Win win

“See? We’re both selfish.” Painful. Devastating. Beautiful. Harder to pin down why I like it so much because I haven’t had two years to chew on it yet but here we go let’s see. Ok so: it’s an extension of the we’re the same module, and even estranged from him, she’s still willing to accept what he and she share. There’s still care there; it isn’t what they had in season one, but it’s there all the same. She was horrified by the timeslipping and concerned for him, so, she takes him drinking. That’s my hedonistic girl. But the point being that she sees him in pain and is trying to care for him, in her way. So, we get there, conversation, and we get to the other thing that’s fascinating about it: at the time Sylvie owns the “you’re so selfish” when it’s thrown at her like “of course I’m selfish, I want a life, what’s wrong with wanting something?” which is amazing, because I really do love a character who is not only willing to admit to selfishness, but embraces it, owns it, takes pride in it, even. Like fuck yeah that’s my girl. But but but, and here’s the sticker: with this line “See? We’re both selfish.” we see that maybe it did get under her skin, the way that only he can really hurt her like this, precisely because of how much she cares for him, this vulnerability that she has with him, one of the few people who she’s taken down her walls before. But she also can see how low and rough the spot he’s in is right now and she cares about him and wants to help him, so it could be argued she’s using it like she used their sameness to reassure him last season. She says “we’re both selfish” in the same breath that she told him being selfish isn’t bad; so essentially: it’s ok, Loki, it’s okay to want things, we both wants things, it’s normal

So yeah, I’m completely normal about these characters this show and these quotes

[zukosdualdao]

honestly my pettiest hot take is that i think it’s Weird how many fics/popular headcanons depict zuko as being bad at making tea forever and i… Do Not like it. i mean, i will still read it if it’s otherwise a good fic, but trust that it has me considering clicking out.

we see zuko make bad tea one (1) time, when he makes it for iroh in bitter work after he wakes up from his unconscious state. and honestly, i think it’s the first time he’s ever tried making it on his own, since with servants at the palace, he wouldn’t have needed to. even on their ship, they had a cook who could’ve made tea, though realistically it was probably iroh more often than not. being bad at something the first time (and honestly, the first couple of times) you try it is par for the course. (and hey, the fact that he wanted to make tea, which he knows how greatly iroh values, for iroh to comfort him upon waking is still really sweet, even if it doesn’t go so great the first time.)

while we don’t see the day-to-day of their work in the tea shop in the lower ring in ba sing se, we know zuko is working there as a tea server every day, learning, and, hey, he keeps his job. (and yes, i know the argument could be made that the owner liked iroh so much that it wouldn’t have mattered, but i counter with this: there is absolutely a point at which your lack of skill outweighs any connections you have because it gets in the way, and if zuko is that terrible at it and shows no signs of growth or improvement, that would, in fact, be the point.)

later, we see zuko serve tea to the gaang and co, and while zuko says it won’t be as good as iroh’s (because he loves and misses him 😭), no one else has anything to say about it! the gaang is already lightly poking fun at him for his poor retelling of iroh’s joke, it wouldn’t have been hard to include. and if the show wanted to keep ‘zuko being bad at making tea’ as a gag, all they had to do was show a character or two making the same kind of face iroh makes in bitter work or trying to hand it off to someone else. but they didn’t! we even actually see teo take a sip with a mildly pleasant expression. and like, this isn’t even me saying i think he makes the best tea in the world, or even that it’s as good a iroh’s. i just don’t think he’s bad at it!

and we see him serving tea to his loved ones again in the earth kingdom in the finale and it’s the culmination of the part of his arc that’s about learning humility and to build healthier relationships and not self-isolate, to find peace and joy in little things. we see throughout the series that though iroh i’m sure loves tea for tea’s sake, he also uses it as a point of connection with people, and zuko is clearly trying to mimic that when he’s making an effort to bond with the gaang and later just to show love to his friends like! this is his way of trying to show love and affection in what comes to be maybe the clearest form of it he understands due to iroh’s influence. and the idea that he is bad at that makes me sad, but also, canon disagrees, so jot that down.

(also, if nothing else: iroh is there in that last scene. do we honestly think he’d let zuko make and serve the tea if it was bad?)

[desolationlesbian]

knowing there is a new deltarune dev newsletter long before it shows up in my inbox because my dash is wild speculation utdr theoryposting again

[doggirlslut]

Apparently I'm getting anons telling me I need Jesus lol.

[murderouswidowsmatter]

Some of you never learned that all models are wrong but some of them are useful. And it shows

[syncopation53]

I swear I am genuinely having fun in the final shape (the visual aesthetics!! prismatic!!! ghost!!!) but can I just ask now that the entire saga is laid out here in front of us:

What in the goddamn fuck was the point of Lightfall other than Strand?

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

some of y’all have got to focus on amplifying palestinian voices instead of speaking. especially because half of y’all don’t know what you’re talking about and then when you’re antisemetic in the name of antizionism you not only don’t do anything meaningful but also do active harm