the good thing about living a block from a comic store is that i can get new releases really quick the bad thing about living a block from a comic store is that i am very quickly running out of money
you know what i HAVE to go to this tour because i can't believe i've seen drew gooden danny gonzalez and kurtis connor live and idgaf about them 😭 it's not right
my german cousins (like a 60s dude and his wife. it's so funny to think of them as cousins bc he is really uncle aged. but my dad's sister was a lot older than him & this is her kid) are coming to see my parents and do tourist stuff ~in america~ so my mom texted me a bunch yesterday to ask if i would be willing to show them all around boston (they are also going to nyc and niagara falls) and i REALLY considered ignoring it all altogether bc i would love to not see my parents but manfred and his wife don't deserve that so i called [my parents] today to see what their plan is & of course they have none. i was thinking i could weasel my way into only seeing them all for a day or half day but then my mom said she was thinking the german family could stay at my uncle's house and she and my dad would stay with ME for the weekend and i had to shoot that down immediately. not only would that be barely feasible; if i had to spend all weekend with them in my house i would have to do something drastic. i am really dreading all of this because not only is spending time with my family draining they are also going to make a big fucking fuss about how i wear masks and don't want to eat indoors and i wish i didn't have to deal with it at all lmao. why manfred and his wife want to even come to boston in the first place is beyond me. why can't you guys just spend more time in new york man. leave me out of it
There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.
good morning beloveds. i spent most the time before i opened my eyes internally wrestling with myself and trying to comprehend that last night did in fact happen and i am still miserable. in my mind i'm sending all of you the lb and all the oilers hugs. we shouldn't have had to go through that fr 😕❤️