Hey birch! Quick ask for your writing on POF. What do you like the most about your Kurloz and Gamzee? If you could pick a few favorite things or traits from the versions of them you created, what do you think those would be? It's ok if you skip, I just got curious. I love your epic clown sagaaa 🥰🥰
!!! :Oc oh huh! My favorite traits are almost always the ones that create friction--some of those are neutral but create drama and some of them are outright negative, lol. Short answer, PoF Gamzee's a reckless coward and PoF Kurloz is incredibly dangerous and proud over top of a deep well of insecurity. Long answer.....under the cut, lol.
The Gamzee I write is, and I say this with authorial love and tbh no moral judgment, kind of a coward. He's not scared of the same stuff as most of us would be, he's good at combat and he likes pain, but also he's hugely, deeply afraid--of lots of stuff, but especially being left behind, and that drives a ton of his characterization.
Being left/abandoned is a pretty returning theme for a reason! From the very first chapter, when Gamzee's internal monologue is basically, "Well, time for the thing that made me happy to Go Away again. Hopefully if I'm good and I wait well enough, it'll eventually come back." He's been captured on his first mission, is his family going to leave him to die? Karkat's cocooning, is he ever coming back? Kurloz is poisoned and the family is turning on him as a suspect, are they done with him forever? He's the lynchpin of the Cult of Flesh's heresy, are his gods going to turn their faces away from him?
And when he feels like he has been abandoned, he goes through cycles of rage and then retreating from the rage, because being angry is holy but being angry is bad and drives people away, but being angry feels right, but-- It drives him to be overly obliging, trying not to drive people away, and it pushes him to be vicious when somebody seems to be interfering with his grasp on the things he values. It makes him a very sweet guy who'd do just about anything for the people he cares about, and it makes him clingy and dependent and blindly devoted, and prone to lashing out when he feels like they don't care about him as much as he cares about them!
I identify with a lot of that as an author, but I also just feel like it dovetails pretty neatly into the scant amounts of canon characterization we get for Gamzee, so I find it very compelling to read/write!
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As far as Kurloz goes, what I like most about him as a character is probably like...his pride? And (especially because this is a kinky sex fic) the shame that goes along with that.
On a very surface level, the concept of the Grand Highblood as a grumpy, proud old guy who's getting reluctantly dragged in the direction of a still terrible but less hemoist society is very funny to me. Make up a bigoted old man and then force him to knuckle under repeatedly to the people he's bigoted against. But also on a more-plot-less-humor level, a character who's made himself a very strict code of "this is what's expected of me and I will fulfill it no matter what it does to me" is RIPE for drama. Especially when the plot of the story is then giving that character something that suddenly he finds he values at least as much as that code and pride, and making him struggle with that.
The counterpoint to that being; it's fun to set up a character as a proud, badass, dangerous son of a bitch, and then give the POV/the readers a shot straight into the shit that he's hiding behind that "I'm untouchable, don't fuck with me" pride. Sadism, especially as extreme as I've written into Kurloz, can be an intimidating thing! On the surface it's part of the mask, part of the scary persona--but it's really compelling and interesting to me to then sidestep that mask and go into the roiling mess of sexual shame and religious guilt and uncertainty and self-loathing. MAN I love writing the Brother Immortal scenes, you guys.
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besides JJK, what other anime do you like?
Tldr; mostly horror I guess?
I'll try anything if I like the art style, the aesthetic experience comes first but I love when they get deep and throw my heart against the wall lmao (banana fish looked like a fun gay background show. It was not. I got so obsessed and heartbroken there).
Lately I've had jujutsu kaisen, Kagewani, and Another on repeat. So much that I put myself in time out from crunchyroll
Kagewani - one that I swear inspired jjk (I thought it was a background show until looking up and realizing the main character is basically an X-Files au Suguru Geto} . it's like yamishibai /yamizukan style, but each episode is part of the same story.
Another (it's so beautiful? The colors?) One of the main characters reminds me of Mimiko. It's also fun because you have to figure out who is a ghost, or whether the haunting is even true at all. Rly hope that I'll find more similar to this one, it makes me want to go to art school or something.
In the past, i'd wait for a series to be complete before getting invested, but broke that resolve last year (the art style was too good, as soon as a friend told me to watch jjk I gave up on waiting).
So my favorites with only one season out currently are apothecary diaries (tbh tried it for Kaiji Tang but it's so good??), and vampire dormitory (it's so funny and queer and idk I like to balance between the sweet and stressful. The English dub is so good, sometimes I'd get impatient and watch subbed but it was less funny).
I've also been rly into Naruto, Dr. Stone, Junji Ito collection, and mushi-shi, if that sets a general vibe?
These are all anime I'd mention when giving or asking for recs.
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