#my gf is on a date with a fat girl rn that i’m hoping sleeps over tonight

[sapphicfeedist]

this week might have hands but fat girls will always exist to cheer me up 💖

[szopenhauer]

if you have any pets, were they adopted from the humane society? my (now ex) friend had a stray give birth on her yard and she gave away all the puppies besides the one she kept, I chose the most scared and fat one lol

what kind of cheese is your favorite, or no cheese at all? Gouda

do you like home design, like picking out paint colors and furniture? love it <3

have you seen any of the old james bond movies? I hate James Bond movies, tried few and they were so lame

have you ever been in a hot air balloon? and if not, would you ever want to go in one? I’d like to try, maybe someday

do your parents buy you something on a daily basis? food 

is anyone else in the room with you right now? not rn

do you collect anything? shitload of stuff

do you have a pool in your back yard? no and don’t want to own one

do you watch youtube videos often? how often is often?

do you wear mascara? no, I don’t see the point of mascara tbh

do your parents fight?  sigh...

have you ever watched a movie that’s in a completely different language, so you had to read sub-titles? plenty

do people with yellow teeth disgust you? mine are yellow, it’s hard to keep them well having GERD :(

do you wear rings? at times

would you like to have a universal remote, like in the movie, click? hmm...

do you get any magazines in the mail? my mom does

what was the last picture you uploaded to your facebook? snapchat one with peach filter

what’s something that you do that you know hurts people close to you? live?...

what was the last board game that you played? either Scrabble or Hollywood

do you get bloated at all after you eat? I have cascade stomach, GERD and IBS so...

when is your birthday - in winter, spring, summer, or fall? winter :(

you must pick (no, “neither” bullshit please): dying by being run over by a train or being thrown from the top of the eiffel tower? tower

who’s the most overrated celebrity of them all (yes, i know they’re all overrated - but pick one)? Beyonce

what do you wear the most - sneakers, flats, heels, boots, or do you just go barefoot? slippers XD

what’s better - short sleeve tops or tanks? short sleeve

black, blue, or red ink? blue

do you sometimes splurge on expensive, sexy lingerie? my most expensive lingerie (which is sporty) costed less than 20 PLN

what’s your favorite food group? grains?

don’t you just love sushi? never tried and don’t wanna, gross

if you walked in on your husband/wife/boyfriend/girlfriend/important significant other cheating on you - how would you react? I have several scenarios in my head 

how old were you when you lost your virginity? what even is virginity? you can have sex without losing it anyway

what annoys you the most about modern technology? hard to tell

do you prefer your chicks with long hair, short hair, or somewhere in between? I always went for girls with no longer than shoulder length yet not shorter than mine but now I date someone with very long hair

do you turn around when someone yells “hey!!!” even if you’re not sure if they’re referring to you or someone else? might

have you ever had that oh-so-embarrassing moment when you think some hot guy/girl is waving at you and/or flirting with you, so you wave back, only to realize they were directing it at the person behind you? they weren’t hot

who was the last person to come back into your life? my gf

is there anyone at your house outside of your family? in the garden

who was the last person you had a conversation with in person? my dad

what was the last piece of jewelry that you purchased? for myself or someone else?

how old are each of your siblings? 30+

how many different conversations do you have going right now? 0

do you think it’s weird to wear socks to sleep? it’s not, unless you sleep naked

have you ever gone swimming in a lake? yup

do you usually buy a new bathing suit every summer? I didn’t buy any swimsuit for ages, don’t own even one

what sucks most about the computer you end up using the most? what doesn’t suck about it, ugh!

what’s something you want to say to someone at the moment? I’m not sure

will you have sexual intercourse within the next two weeks? I won’t

has a boyfriend/​​girlfriend ever put alcohol/drugs before you? nah

do you like when people call you things like “baby”, “sweetie”, “hun”, etc? certain pet names are fine

will this friday be a good one? it’s not...

what’s wrong with you right now? everything?

have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately? angry and sad

are you wasting your time on someone? hope not 

when’s the last time you cried yourself to sleep? days ago

have you ever been in a perfect relationship? relationships aren’t perfect because no one is perfect and that’s ok

when was the last time you completely broke down? last week

honestly, have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with j? nope

are you nice to the people you dislike? if I have to, I prefer to avoid them 

are you and the last person you kissed in a relationship? we are

your ex shows up randomly at your house, what do you say? no comment

would you rather date someone who is extremely protective or not protective at all? why do we have to choose extremes?

does sex mean love? to me

have you ever fallen asleep on someone? as a baby

have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend? more than once

plans for tomorrow? nothing have you ever ridden a skateboard? tried the main thing you can’t leave your house without? clothes, I won’t leave naked does anyone know your password besides you? just me what are you listening to? Melanie Martinez when was the last time you changed in front of someone? this month what’s the closest black thing to you? what I’m wearing, computer mouse and keyboard too, my cellphone next to me is also black what were you doing at 8:00 am? fallen asleep again are you happier single or in a relationship? we’ll see if you had to get a piercing, what do you get? normal earrings in lobes you can get a puppy or a new car. which do you choose? car, I have a dog and don’t want another at least soon have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? my father is my bestie did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? it seems like it have you ever been arrested? noooo

what is a difference between the last two people you hugged? one is a female and one is a male  where is the next place you will go? for a walk - forest probably why did you kiss the last person you kissed? we’re dating

do you say sexy a lot? I don’t recall using that word  when did you last throw up? years ago? do you like to have long hair or short hair? short what is your favorite place you have traveled? Ełk? where do you keep your money? that’s personal what was the weather like today? warm do you want to cut your hair? meh what is your favorite place to shop? thrift? are you over the age of 25? I am are you going to have a good night? hopefully when was the last time you did the dishes? I just washed the knife

do you and your friends trade/borrow clothes, shoes, jewelry, etc.? no way

is your birthday ever on a holiday? which one? it was always on free from school time (ferie zimowe) and my friends been basically always sick so they couldn’t come 

are you friends with your neighbors? I say “goodmorning” to part of them and that’s all

do you think its weird when people talk to their pets like they’re people? not that I have whole conversations with mine but I happen to speak to them when I want to

do you like uggs? they’re great for winter slippers :3

describe what you typically wear on a hot summer day: T-shirt, sweatpants/leggings/pajama pants, panties/undies, socks, slippers or slip on shoes

what about a cold winter day? underwear, tights (when it’s very cold - under leggings), leggings (unless I’m home then sweatpants/pajama pants), socks, boots (if not slippers of course), long sleeves shirt, tunic or oversized t-shirt, sweater, vest, jacket, scarf, hat, fingerless gloves

do you like coffee? ewww, disgusting

do you like flip flops? same

do you like rain? especially it’s sound at night

do you like horses? they’re fine

what is the deepest pool you have jumped into? where? I don’t jump into pools or lakes/rivers

does it annoy you when people open your mail or text messages? people don’t do that :o

what magazine do you buy the new issue of each month? Moje mieszkanie

what is your favorite farm animal? chicken

have you ever driven a golf cart? I’m against golf so...

if a genie gave you 1 wish, what would it be? health, for all, forever

what is something that you shouldn’t like but do anyways? ask God

is there something you love dearly but knew you’d be made fun of for it? I guess

who is someone you always want to be happy, even if you aren’t happy alongside them? those close to me

does it take you a long time to get over someone you liked? it’s complicated

have you ever gone a week or more not thinking of your boyfriend/girlfriend that much? does it sadden you, or make you happy you don’t completely depend on a person? I didn’t go whole week without thinking about them at least once wtf 

is there someone who ruined your life? do you forgive this person? most of those ppl didn’t apologise, most of them don’t know or care, most of them are not part of my life

have you ever questioned your sexuality? when was this? how did it end? I thought I must call myself bi because I dated a guy even tho I wasn’t really into them but I realized that even having sex doesn’t mean I’m not asexual - trying things make you more sure of smth instead of changing who you are       

have you ever felt suicidal? constantly

do you know anyone who has had a miscarriage? or someone who can’t have kids at all? both are more common than you think

what is something you wish would have ended differently (ex. friendship or relationship)? what if I wanted some things to never end? does that count?

type the alphabet and stop at the letter of the last person you kissed: ABCDEFGHIJKLM eventually ABCDEFG (short version of the first name) eventually ABCD (surname) how was your day overall? it’s going so fast because I can’t sit down for long, parents call me every single minute to help them have you kissed someone more than 20 times? I didn’t count but who knows

if you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? won’t tell you :P how often do you hold back what you want to say? sigh, it’s complicated it’s 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely? my gf ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? not many times but still how do you know the last male you texted? he’s my parent do you think the last person you kissed cares for you? they say and try to show that they do  do you laugh a lot? as for such broken person it’s A LOT  are you good at giving directions? I’m pretty bad at that what does your mom call you? by one of the versions of my name duh are you afraid of roller coasters? I’m afraid I’d puke  where do you sing the most, in the car, the shower or everywhere? in front of the computer and when I’m home alone which happens very rarely are you wearing any make up right now? I don’t even own any makeup are you nice to everyone? pfft is it hard for you to be happy for someone else? oh well...

do you like bread crust or do you prefer it cut off? depends, usually eat it tho

what is the worst/hardest drug you’ve been offered, but declined to partake in? nothing hard 

do you think you could ever have an abortion if you unexpectedly turned up pregnant? I don’t want to think about it

is there a color shirt you’d never wear? tie dye or some tiny pattern that makes my head spin 

is there a situation where you caved into peer pressure and regretted it? what I don’t regret?...

would you ever bleach your hair platinum blonde? for a movie role

do you like the band mgmt?  I know couple of songs by them

do you like vanilla candles? I’m not into candles 

[pwesident]

dO ALL OF THEM

u make me suffer (I’m kidding thank u I love doing these)

SEND ME NUMBERS

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

@omgitsthatgingergirl !!!

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

yes

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

@omgitsthatgingergirl !!!!!

4. Are you easy to get along with?

i wanna say yes??

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

i don’t drink but i hope so?? yeah

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

this has always been a weird question for me like.. simply put & getting rid of details it could be anyone we just have to click you get me? but i want us to be similar enough so we have things to enjoy together and talk abt but not so different for it to be boring, which is why I’m beyond happy rn!!!

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

hell the fuck yeah

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

@omgitsthatgingergirl

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

nope not at all lmao

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

my friend Melanie!! or my friend Jake. One Of The Two

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Here we goooo”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

OH GOD 

Dragula by Rob Zombie

Redbone by Childish Gambino

Everyday Robots by David Albarn

Lonely Press Play by David Albarn

From The Sun by Unknown Mortal Orchestra

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

g o d y e s

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

YEA

15. What good thing happened this summer?

nothing this past summer sucked for the most part it was just one big Depression Session

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

im dating her so yes

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

would be lame if there wasnt 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

yea!! she’s one of my best friends now

19. Do you like bubble baths?

i don’t take baths i love me a good shower tho

20. Do you like your neighbors?

half of them

21. What are your bad habits?

i procrastinate like a motherfucker & i sleep in too much & i never go out unless i either really really want to or am forced to & i forget to eat

22. Where would you like to travel?

anywhere the water is clear

23. Do you have trust issues?

YEAH THE WORST LMFAO

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

sleeping

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

yes

26. What do you do when you wake up?

keep my eyes closed and hope i fall back asleep or i take a drink of whatever drink I have on my nightstand

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

im like a ghost so i wouldn’t mind a tan or smth but otherwise I’m happy

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

friend & family & my amazing gf

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

no

30. Do you ever want to get married?

yes but in this economy it isn’t presently feasible (the second half is a joke yes i do one day want to)

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

not right now!

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

none gross

33. Spell your name with your chin.

 hicj (nick)

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

None but i like hockey!

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

tv goodbye

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

mmmmyes

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

nothing or “"someone please talk” if it’s bad enough

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

@omgitsthatgingergirl

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

i can’t shop im an impulse buyer

40. What do you want to do after high school?

be a psychologist!! i wanna help people a lot

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

depends on what you did.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean?

probably either pissed right the fuck off or im zoned waaaaay out

43. Do you smile at strangers?

yeah!! spread that positivity

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

space

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

liquids, a need to use the bathroom, food, i have things to do, and i wanna text @omgitsthatgingergirl

46. What are you paranoid about?

all of my relationships and friendships are fake it’s all one big elaborate prank

47. Have you ever been high?

ish?? some concerts I go to have weed in high volume n the smell kinda gets to me and i get sleepy as fuck

48. Have you ever been drunk?

nope!!!!!! miss me with that fuck shit

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

no wtf

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

black

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

…yeah… BUT NOT RECENTLY LEGGOO

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

yes

53. Favourite makeup brand?

i don’t use it but i prob could/should

54. Favourite store?

…five below

55. Favourite blog?

SO MANY

56. Favourite colour?

SO MANY!!!

57. Favourite food?

SO MSANY OH GOD

58. Last thing you ate?

Chinese food

59. First thing you ate this morning?

…Gatorade 

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

no im lame as fuck

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nope im a Good Child

62. Been arrested? For what?

IM A GOOD CHILD

63. Ever been in love?

yeah i am right now what’s up ask me anything

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

junior homecoming. 

65. Are you hungry right now?

…i just ate but I could eat more

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

yeAH

67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter tbh

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr?? i guess

69. Are you watching tv right now?

no

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Angela ( @omgitsthatgingergirl follow my gf she’s amazing), SHOUT OUT TO LETITTY ( @tattami ), Melanie, Dennis, Abigail, Tiphanny ( @t-kristen go follow them!!), Nick, Victor/Vogner, Megan ( @lapisslazupee a quality meme), and a whole lot of others!!!

71. Craving something? What?

yes my gf to be near me so i can hug her and we can chill and sleep

72. What colour are your towels?

they change colors a lot there’s white and purple and blue and more

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

…four or five-

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

one rn his name is O’Shaugnessey 

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

S o m a n y

75. Favourite animal?

so many but wolves have a special place in my heart

76. What colour is your underwear?

currently it’s grey

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

yes

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

probably phish food

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

dark blue!

80. What colour pants?

they’re plaid i think?? w red and black they’re sleep pants and im comfortable as FUCK

81. Favourite tv show?

SCRUBS

82. Favourite movie?

… Moana? rn yeah 

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

first one

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

either

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

yes

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

im nemo 

87. First person you talked to today?

my friend jake 

88. Last person you talked to today?

couldn’t say still tkkkng to people

89. Name a person you hate?

a lot…

90. Name a person you love?

ANGELA!!!!!

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

YEA LMAO

92. In a fight with someone?

ish?? they’re just being… rude rn

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

i dunno like maybe two

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

at least 5

95. Last movie you watched?

Jurassic World

96. Favourite actress?

so many

97. Favourite actor?

EZRA MILLER !!!! LOVE THAT BOY

98. Do you tan a lot?

sometimes?

99. Have any pets?

three fat cats!

100. How are you feeling?

bueno 

101. Do you type fast?

fairly fast compared to my friends

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

the entirety 

103. Can you spell well?

as a writer (a shitty one), yes

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

a few

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

yeah? kinda

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

dunno tbqh

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

no!

108. What should you be doing?

sleeping, probably

109. Is something irritating you right now?

yeah lmfao

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

YEAH

111. Do you have trust issues?

you asked this (yes big ones)

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Angela

113. What was your childhood nickname?

nicky… if you call me that you’re dead to be tbqh like you’ve gotta be Real Close to call me that

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

mhm!

115. Do you play the Wii?

not for years but catch me at the resort

116. Are you listening to music right now?

not rn but i usually am

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

mhm!

118. Do you like Chinese food?

yeah but not much

119. Favourite book?

The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern (fucking read it it’s amazing)

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

yeah sometimes!

121. Are you mean?

i motherfuckin can be

122. Is cheating ever okay?

HELL THE FUCK NO WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THIS

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

who buys white shoes these days i don't 

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

yeah!

125. Do you believe in true love?

mhm

126. Are you currently bored?

a bit?

127. What makes you happy?

a lot of stuff

128. Would you change your name?

I’ve always liked the name Alex ngl but i probs change my last name i don’t want to be linked to my father more than I have to be

129. What your zodiac sign?

Cancer!

130. Do you like subway?

never been (not big on sandwiches)

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

knowing me, prob like them back

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

you asked this it’s my friend Melanie

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

check my blog title tbqh i change it to what I like most at the time

134. Can you count to one million?

 never tried but I probably could?

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

i don’t know but i know it was the dumbest shit

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed 

137. How tall are you?

6′1″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

yes

139. Brunette or Blonde?

yes

140. Summer or Winter?

a cool summer or winter so the answer is yes

141. Night or Day?

NIGHT

142. Favourite month?

i love december honestly 

143. Are you a vegetarian?

nope

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

yes?

145. Tea or Coffee?

hot chocolate 

146. Was today a good day?

yeah!!!!!

147. Mars or Snickers?

neither thanks

148. What’s your favourite quote?

there’s a lot 

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

yes

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“Trembling, I pulled myself from the shaft and tried to dust off.” - Virals, by Kathy Reichs. Great series, which I do recommend!

[still-not-recovering]

Don't bother reading this

It's 3 am and I can't sleep bc so much on my mind but like i dont know if I'm sad or just empty or just alone or what idfk I hardly talk about my feelings to anyone ever and nobody really cares or even knows about my Tumblr. So since my journal is currently in the glove box of my truck and I'm currently not going to walk all the way out there at 3 am to get it I'm just gonna let my feelings out here kinda. Not like I would privately in my journal but still. I just. Idk. I can't make everyone happy and I'm done trying to. My best friend hates my girlfriend and my girlfriend hates her back and that makes life so helpful because nobody can actually be honest with me about how they feel until after I start something new and then I'm torn not knowing which way to go and I'm sick of being put in shitty situations by everyone like why can't you all just fucking let me be and live MY life according to how I want to live it? Let me love who I wanna love and quit telling me who I am and am not going to spend the rest of my life with because if I fucking want to spend it with alayna I will and just because I had people in my life prior doesn't mean those people are entitled to me or can claim me no you had your chance to have me and you didn't take it that's on you not me because I tried and I'm sick of me being shoved aside til someone gets jealous they aren't getting all of my attention anymore. I'm not a fucking toy I'm not a puppet I'm a person with actual problems and feelings. I'm somebody's first choice now for once and people still gotta fucking pester me who cares if I can't see my girlfriend very often not me because I know when I lay my head down at night that she's laying hers down with me on her mind and that it's killing her to not talk just as much as it's killing me and that's the kind of love I want. Not someone who yells at me when I'm talking but yells more when I don't listen to their side of things not someone who gets so jealous to see me with someone that they take it out on me. I want someone who can't stand the idea of living on in a world that doesn't include me in theirs. I want someone who fucking lights up the second they see me. Someone who wants me and makes sure I know that and I'm never left second guessing myself. And that's what I got. You have to deal with a little crazy in the mix to get the perfect girl and I'm down for that. I've been through a lot and I've dated a lot of shitty girls who taught me a lot of lessons about what it means to be a good boyfriend and how to treat my lady right and what not to do and how to fix things when they're broken instead of throw them away I swear I'm not giving up on this one if she gives up on me oh well but I'm not gonna be the one to give up. I don't ever want to give my heart away again I'm tired of getting walked all over and hurt and I'm trying so hard for my baby even tho she wants me to tell her when she hurts my feelings I just can't I can't fight with her no I can't stand it when she's mad at me. We don't get to talk much no time to waste by fighting. My heart is full of love for her and I just hope people quit sticking their nose in my god damn business. Who cares how often I see her who cares how old she is who cares what her parents think were happy together get the fuck over it rs. I miss her tho can't wait til shits over with and we can talk again. Now I'm rambling lol back to my rant. It really upsets me that people can't just be happy that I'm happy and let it alone. Somebody always has something to say calling me a pedophile bc I just turned 19 and my girlfriend is almost 16 wow so pedo of me Sorry I happened to fall for her a little too soon before she can legally consent to acts we aren't even participating in oml smh people can't mind their own business I stg which is why I don't say much publicly ab my gf just fuckin pointless life is better when nobody else knows your shit and nobody on here gives a shit and I highly doubt that anyone is even going to read this it's so damn long which is good bc I don't need the world to read my thoughts. I'm almost done with my freshman year of college ish behind on credits but like I'm beyond stoked to just graduate and get the fuck out of Nebraska and get married and start a family and work my dream and come home to the same beautiful woman I'll call my wife someday. I'm over the drama I'm over the bs. I know that if me and my baby can get through what we're dealing with rn we can get through anything. It's just like if one of us was away for work or something it's okay. Just gotta take life day by day. I got a lot of work to do. Not gonna be eating as much anymore I got a lot of weight to get rid of I'm ashamed of my body it's so gross so if I eat a lot less and only enough food to get me by without getting sick then I'll lose 10-15 lbs in like two weeks. Less fat = more attractive and I'm getting fat ugh I've gained so much weight I've never been this heavy before and looking in the mirror has me ashamed I don't even like wearing tshirts because my stomach sticks out so much and I want surgery so bad so I don't have to wear my Stupid binder anymore but I have to be fit asf before surgery so that way I look good physically and so I don't get even more fat in recovery. Fuck I hate my body lol. It hates me back like for fucks sake I have a lump that my mom says is a cyst that hurts like a Bitch like yes let's just add to my physical issues like I don't have enough or suffer enough pain on a day to day basis like I cannot wait til the day I lay down in bed at night pain fucking free like holy shit I'm so ready to not be so hurt all the time. And to not be fat. I know my weight won't change my Looks but if my body is more attractive at least that's a start. I don't need killer abs I just don't want to be fat my mom will notice soon and make comments and I just can't ugh so yeah eating less for a bit so I can shed some weight and get down to like 130 or 140 lbs instead of this 160 shit. Lots of cardio coming my way, yay. Okay I'm rambling again. My head hurts. I'm gonna try to sleep now. Kinda feels good to let some shit off my shoulders.