#my love is mine all mine muahahah

[melondiary]

Baby the Stars Shine Bright • Alice in Sleep Kingdom 眠りアリスプリントスカート

[meantforinfinitesadness]

-blushes furiously- People like the vibes we're giving out. -hides my face in my hands and moans in horror- I'm about to ruin that into the ground.

I have an absolute favorite vinyl. It's actually a story, called "The Point" by Harry Nilsson. In fact, someone animated it, and it's a very VERY good story, I cannot recommend it enough. My dad burned it onto a CD about a decade ago, and I listen to it in lieu of the local radio because honestly, sometimes I need the memory to keep me from doing something crazy, like change lanes without a turn signal.

I didn't have friends in high school. Not until I was a senior. I was pretty heavily bullied. I've got scars from some of the things that happened, and it changed me in ways I don't want to go into. My 18th birthday my parents invited all my bullies (because they were in my church (that I didn't want to attend) as well as at my school) over, and surprised me. My parents forced me to interact. It took away any and all pleasure of my Dad making it for my 18th birthday when the last one he'd been home for was my 14th. My senior year though, I'd kind of given up, and I was thinking seriously of doing irreversible things, and I was exhausted and no longer cared about anything. One day, I was out for a hike with the youth group and lagging in the back because then my bullies wouldn't see me but I could step in if they were ganging up on someone else, (I wasn't in a good place that day. I am pretty sure I kept my head down and kept slogging because all of my bruises HURT) when all of the 12-13 year old boys fell back and surrounded me, laughing and chatting. They lifted my mood, made me smile for the first real time in a very long time, and that was that. They forced me to be their friend. Anytime we had a group activity with the boys and girls of all age groups, they grabbed me and dragged me off. The adults weren't happy about it, because I was 18 and they didn't think it was appropriate, but those kids buoyed me. Turns out that they hadn't noticed on their own, they'd had a visit from a specific Marine who had been actively trying to save my life for 4 years and was leaving soon, and he wanted me to be watched out for. So he set the boys on me. None of those boys kept in touch after I made it out of the house, but it was still good. It was what I needed at the time.

I don't have co-workers I actually work with. I don't miss it. I get to hang out with my discord friends if I feel up to it instead. MUAHAHAH!!!

Hopefully this Ask doesn't sadden you. It was a long time ago, and I'm in a way better place now. The scars of then will always be around, but I've learned to take them in stride. Spilt milk, all that. It might be one of the reasons why I prefer my imaginary friends though. So I envy anyone who has friendships from when they were kids. Mine never were, or are gone. I've lost people in my journey through life, but that's more because they joined the military and died overseas. Gives me a skewed perspective I suppose. Something I've never lost though is my capacity to love, or my willingness to give my love and affection to others, knowing full well that some day they'll be gone, and I'll no longer be with or near them. I remind myself that it's the cycle of life and change, that the time we had together should be beautiful, and should be cherished. And so that's what I've been doing with these weirdish asks. Giving you the only thing I can of myself, my time, my interests, and my affections.

I'll have to listen to that. I'm always interested in other people's interests. I like to know what they like. It, I don't know, helps me connect better with them. I really will have to listen to it.

Oh, I'm so sorry. People are cruel. I don't understand why they bully others, why they seem to think themselves better than others. I'm sorry you went through that, but I'm happy it turned out for the best. I'm happy there were people watching out for you, that helped you out, made you feel happier. No one deserves to be bullied. No one deserves to be hurt so horribly by others. I wish the world was a better place. I hope you're still doing alright. I hope you know that I enjoy talking to you.

Honestly, I get that. I like to kind of stay to myself. I like being with people sometimes, but it's always nice to have time for yourself. My job has made it so I have to be with people. I've met some nice people and some not nice people (retail, what can you do?). Oh, but that's so good you've got your discord friends!!!!

I'll admit it did make me a bit sad, but that's how I am. I'm happy that you've taken it all in stride. Those that never lose their capacity to love are some of the most amazing people. You've got scars, but you're taking them in stride. Yes, those younger years were not kind, but you're kind. You're sweet. I can tell that you're full of love and affection. It's sometimes hard for me to know that someday the people I know will be gone. But, it's just life. I agree that we need to cherish this time. Cherish those we love and the time we get with them. Thank you for sending me these asks. I seriously love them. It's wonderful to know that you're alright with telling me about yourself, giving me your affection and your time. It's lovely. Thank you

[mazojo]

Honesty hour girl! I may be a bit late to the game, but I have a very hard question for you! So... (Muahahah) who would you choose? Noah, Seven or Kiro? No cheating! You can only pick one! (For the record, Ria, I ship you and Seven the most ;) )

KATEEEE ASDNEJS I LOVE YOUUU I needed this distraction <333 even though it huRtz chowing my bbyssss ;w;

Even though I want to say I thought it through a lot and all I know the answer right away but am gonna ramble for a seccc xDD

Okay okay here I give it my best:

Let’s start with Noah, where in an ask before I analyzied if we would do well as a couple, and the fact is even though I love my beanie rat boi, I don’t think we would actually work. He needs someone more extroverted and out there and in a lot of ways I think we are a bit similar xDD I’ll leave Noah to my Mc, aka, his s o u l m a t e ajahsjjsjjan

Then we have Kiro, baby, my angel, my world, and I love love love him. Kiro deserves the whole world and happiness and assjdns poetic cinema. The reason he comes in second place is because I think we would be too chaotic together xDD we would be the best of friends but romantically we would be a bit all over the place I feel like lolll. Don’t get me wrong, if Noah or Kiro appeared in front of me rn I would swoon bUt....

You know it Kate,

My love

And one and only s o u l m a t e

Is ma boi

Best hacker

Best chip master

Jokester 101

Seven 😍

He has so so so soooo many qualities I find attractive. I could go endlessly listing everything I love about seven, from his smarts (dude is a hacker gOd) to his jokes and how much he cares for those close to him because they are his family. I feel like we kinda would complement each other, his humor is very similar to mine and his over the top ness could be match with my awkwardness self and I stannnn

When can I get married to seven on the space station?? ;w;

[pikapeppa]

Ship-A-Thon

Tagged by @riazures and @aban-asaara - thanks for the tags, friends, this one will be fun!

Tagging forward to  @sasskarian @blondepomeranian @oops-gingermoment @obvidalous @oops-gingermoment @fourletterepithet @galadrieljones @thevikingwoman @buttsonthebeach @ocean-in-my-rebel-soul @schoute (SINCE YOU WRITE NOW MUAHAHAH) 

(Header art by @froschkuss​ and @hansaera​!) 

1. First ship you ever wrote fic for: Reyes Vidal and F!Ryder from Mass Effect Andromeda. The year was 2016, and the thirst was REAL AF. How dare you make me fall for that smooth-as-silk smuggler and then tell me he has no further dialogue with Ryder for the rest of the game. 

2. Ship you write the most now: Fenris x Rynne Hawke, also fondly known as FenRynne thanks to @schoute. I just have a lot of feelings, ok?

3. Ship you read the most now: ...read? What is this “read” you speak of? I guess either Solavellan or Abelas/Lavellan. Those are the only ships I’ve actively sought fics for.

4. Newest ship: FenRynne! But if we get to include a ship that isn’t really “mine”, but rather borrowed with SO MUCH LOVE, let’s go with @schoute’s Cullen x Piper Lavellan. 

5. Rare ship you wanna read more of: Ameridan/Lavellan and Abelas/Lavellan. @galadrieljones wrote a lovely Ameridan piece and I would love to see more of that. (Maybe I should try writing one...? Add it to the list?) 

6. Your taboo ship: no one seems to know what this means. If it’s a ship with a broadly disliked character, then probably Aloy/Nil from Horizon Zero Dawn, since a lot of people dislike Nil on the basis of him being bloodthirsty af. BUT THAT’S JUST MY CATNIP OK

7. They never met in canon ship: Reyes Vidal and Aria T’Loak! I love the idea of this ship and I will stand by it. I’m still very proud of the fic I wrote for this ship.

8. Your unexpected ship: I did not expect to fall for Blackwall as hard as I did. I was like “UGH WHY IS HIS BEARD LIKE THAT” and then I flirted with him twice and then I fell in love. Blackwall and Arya Lavellan are my happy-ending couple. 

9. The ship you always forget to love: Reyes Vidal and f!Ryder, unfortunately. I don’t reblob as much Reyder material as I should. 

10. Ship your oc with a canon character: [points at all the Bioware ships above] lol!

11. Ship you are embarrassed about: I don’t have one? 

12. Your most romantic ship: It’s a tie between Aloy/Nil and Fenris/Rynne. Both of those ships feature a male LI who could be considered “feral” or “savage” at first (to those who are ignorant) and who become softened and deeply loving under their partner’s influence. 

13. Your sexiest ship: Reyes and Mara Ryder for sure. That ship was basically just an excuse to self-insert my thirst for Reyes, so my Ryder’s character is honestly not that well-developed LOL

14. Your most tragic ship: Abelas x Athera Lavellan. YES, I consider my Abellan as being more tragic than my Solavellan, though Solas x Elia Lavellan are very close second. 

15. A ship you want more content for: Abelas/Lavellan, and Blackwall/Inquisitor. BLACKWALL NEEDS TO GET MORE LOVE, OK? HE’S WONDERFUL. 

[lovelyyyoongi]

~College!au Pen Pal Namjoon~PART FOURTEEN:END

[part 1] [part 2] [part 3] [part 4] [part 5] [part 6] [part 7] [part 8] [part 9] [part 10] [part 11] [part 12] [part 13]

“You’re my pen pal,” Namjoon repeated for the millionth time. “It all makes so much sense now.”

“It does?” You asked, raising an eyebrow.

“No wonder, Hoseok hyung was acting so giddy lately. I thought it was just the fact that I was going to stop by the dorm–”

“You were?”

“Heh–uh, yeah. But you technically know that since I told you...as your pen pal.”

Closing your eyes, you suddenly remembered all the texts you two’ve exchanged as pen pals. How did you not realize sooner? It was obvious!

“I wanted to apologize–”

“So that ‘girl you hate’ is actually the girl who ruined our relationship?” Your heart sank. You remembered her. She sent you sweet smiles months prior to her snake-like ways. While you were with Namjoon, she found a way to insert herself into her life, but not as a close friend. No, she was more a familiar face you grew to like to see in public.

Who knew her target was your boyfriend? She walked past you with her sweet smiles and cute greetings and at the time, you didn’t notice the winks and flirtatious smiles she sent Namjoon. 

And he fell for them. He started to engage in conversation with you and at first, you thought nothing of it. Then the arguments began...

“What’s gotten into you?”

“C’mon, live a little!”

“Live? You do know that I can’t just blow off my education right?”

“Skipping a day isn’t going to blow off your education, Y/N,” Namjoon muttered. 

“Sure, but it will when this is the fourth time you asked this week!”

“You know what? Whatever. I just wanted to do something fun with my girlfriend but, of course, you’re too consumed with your own life to acknowledge mine.” And with that, he stormed away from you leaving you in front of the building of your next class on campus. 

The next argument you had was what led to your downfall...

“Hey, babe.”

“Hey,” you replied softly, not forgetting the argument you had a few days earlier.

Namjoon leaned down to give you a peck on the cheek and sat across from you in the cafe. 

“What’s wrong?”

“Uh, our fight?”

“What fight?” He looked up from his coffee with a confused brow raised.

“The one about skipping class?”

“Oh, we’re over that right?” he waved you off with a laugh. You squinted your eyes as if analyzing him. What’s up with him? He’s acting so different lately.

“Well, I’m not,” you crossed your arms. Not only did he not apologize, he didn’t even talk to you until earlier that day when he said to meet him at the cafe. You thought he was going to apologize but you guessed not. 

“What do you mean? You’re not over it?”

“Uh, Joon, you yelled at me for caring about my education and said I’m too consumed with my own life.” You were hurt. It was like he didn’t even know he did something wrong. 

“Well because you are. You never have fun! That’s okay, though. I found a new ditch buddy,” he smiled warmly. 

“Ditch buddy?”

“Yeah, you know that girl you talk to sometimes in the hall? The one I just started to talk to?”

“Oh, Y/F/N?” Your furrowed your eyebrows in confusion.

“Yes! She’s who I was with the other day. She’s really cool, you know? I can definitely see you two being friends,” He grinned.

“Nice to know but uh, you still haven’t apologized.”

“You still want me to apologize? Fine, I’m sorry–”

“What’s is going on with you lately? You’re acting so off,” You frowned, grabbing your coffee cup and tossing it into the garbage. Namjoon followed you out of the cafe and walked along campus.

“What do you mean?”

“You’re acting so cold lately. When’s the last time you’ve told me something about your day? I miss your stories you tell me,” You smiled softly at the thought of the random events he went through that he told you about. 

“Geez, I didn’t think you liked them that much,” he rolled his eyes. “Besides, telling them twice isn’t the same.”

“Twice?”

“I told Y/F/N first.” Oh. OH. 

“You told her before your own girlfriend?” You were more confused than anything else. How did he get so close to a girl he met a few weeks ago? It took him a few months to open up to you. 

“Yeah...” he shrugged as if it wasn’t a big deal. 

“Okay,” you stopped in your tracks and turned to him, “Why do I feel like you care about her more than me? Now that I think about it, you sure seem giddy whenever we’re in the same room as her.”

“She’s cool. I like being her friend.”

You rolled your eyes, “It’s kind of like you’re wrapped around her finger. Pfft, like she’s the one who persuaded you to skip class,” You laughed humorlessly. When he didn’t reply, you looked back up at him.

“She didn’t,” You trailed off, your heart sinking even further down your chest. 

“She said it’d be fun!”

“Who even are you? You don’t do your homework anymore and it’s like you’re a completely different person!”

“Not my fault Y/F/N is showing me a fun time while you’re not.”

You blinked, speechless. Did he just say another girl was treating him better than you have?

“Well, if she’s showing you such a fun time, maybe you should date her then,” you huffed. 

“Hah, maybe I should!” He paused before holding his arm out, “Wait, Y/N, I didn’t mean that–”

But that’s all you needed to hear before tears brimmed your eyes and you walked away from Namjoon.

“I’m such an idiot. Y/N, you don’t know how lost I am without you. I thought you were holding me down but actually, you were the one pushing me in the right direction. I was just too stubborn to realize.”

“Joon–”

“No, please. Let me speak. Even before our breakup, I treated you like absolute shit. I was hanging out with another girl just because she caught my eye because of her wild nature. And that is honestly the worst thing I could’ve done. She knew I’d run straight to her after the break up. But I’m the one to blame. I wish I knew how amazing you were since the beginning. You’ve always been there for me and I wish I was there for you.”

“You have been. You just lost yourself a bit,” A smile tugged at your lips. You knew how bad he felt. Hell, you’ve been talking to him about you all these months.

“I love you, Y/N,” He declared, causing your heart to flutter. It’s been a while since you heard those words from him and it was something you were yearning for. “Would you ever forgive me?”

“You sure that I’m the one you want?”

“Oh, definitely.”

“Then that’s all I need to hear,” You pulled Namjoon into a tight embrace. Leaning away from him, arms apart, you leaned in and gave him a chaste kiss to the lips. 

“AH! Yes!! Finally! Who came up with this plan? I did! Yes, I did!” An ecstatic Hoseok jumped from behind the couch. He pulled you both held each other in a tight hug.

“Hey, wait a minute. You referred to me as Jerkface!” Namjoon smirked, looking at you. 

“You pissed me off. Aren’t I allowed to, big guy?”

“Fair enough, babe.”

“And don’t forget: You left me on read on purpose!”

“It was funny!”

As you two bickered over your past pen pal conversations, Hoseok was watching from afar next to Jungkook, smiling.

 “Who would’ve thought, though? Exes being pen pals. Must’ve been fate.”

“Must’ve been.”

AND ITS OVER!! I GAVE SOME BACKGROUND INFO ABOUT THE BREAKUP TOOOO HAHA;;;SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG! I literally started writing this at around seven and didn’t finish till now omgggg

I hoped you liked it!! I loved this twist of events soooo much and I hope you did!

Let me know here!

Also the next pen pal issssss...JIMIN!!! I’m excited for his, too, muahahah:))))

[veliseraptor]

Hi :) I've been reading your Life in Reverse for a few years now, and obviously I love it. I mean, it's hurt/comfort but I don't feel guilty reading it! I like how you do characterisation. It seems to me that you really love the characters you write, and so you give everyone the space they need to be well rounded and true. I thoroughly enjoyed the way you made Loki make friends. This is what makes reading RTC so painful (just started doing it). Clint, Natasha, they are the same - but they (1/2)

(2/2) hate his guts. It's like seeing a dystopia, a perversion of the almost-healthy relationships he built in LIR. Sad. This said, I like it anyway (MUAHAHAH). Sorry for my bad/weird English (not a native speaker), for the double message, and generally speaking for this slightly manic fanmail!

Aww, thank you! (and I gotta say: one should never feel guilty for reading any hurt/comfort. Or whump. or any fic, really, all it’s good and as a perennial Guilty Feeler I probably shouldn’t talk but...it’s a goal, and I definitely believe it for other people!)

I do love the characters I write! I love all of them and I love writing them a lot - and it’s always a goal of mine, even when I may not love some characters as much as others, to still try to give them the credit they deserve. 

Making Loki friends in Life in Reverse ‘verse has been such a pleasure because like. It’s easier than basically anyone else. 

To be fair to Clint and Natasha especially - they did meet RTC Loki under vastly different circumstances. XD They haven’t exactly gotten the best impression of him before now. But while one of the fun things about writing in different verses is exploring the different kinds of relationships people can have with each other - it’s also one of the sad things, when the positive in one fic turns to the negative in another. 

I’m glad you’re enjoying both, anyway! And hope you continue to enjoy RTC. Your English is perfectly good and I never mind long and complimentary messages. I’d have to be awfully weird to object to those. :D

[griffon5000]

So this is Arlic...me first oc...I so happy ...anywho this is my baby...mine >:p...:3 ..so I guess I'll go for a quick bio    Arlic was born on planet Vegeta before it was blown up but he was one of the few to survive. He has almost the same history as Goku but not the exact same...there are some twists and turns in his history ...and his dark past>:) ....you'll find out more  later ...muahahah ....Arlic has a sister ( you'll find out who she is soon enough) but he lost her when his home plante blew up. Arlic has a bit of a temper but if you don't annoy him he's cool. He loves any thing that involves food. If you get to know him good enough, you'll find that under all that tought guy act is a sweet fluffy Sayian...     so yeah...that's Arlic :3 

[amarynthian-fortress]

Winter greetings Amarynthia, having a nice time so far? Ready for more asks?📚✒🔪💀 (this looks vaguely threatening, but it's not!)

Hello, @ponponponpanda, how are you? :3 I’m having a busy day, but I won’t let that stop me from having fun, aahahaah. Here it is: 

📚: what book I’m reading right now. I am reading Lessing’s Hamburg Dramaturgy because I love how he basically roasts every single play ever, and the way he insults Voltaire is hilarious ahahahahahahaahah.

✒: a bit about my WIP/one of my WIPs. Currently I am still writing Mine, amusing myself with crazy ideas and then placing it all in the structure of the story. I am not telling any secrets about it, muahahah, surprises await still. I am in a bit of a halt with Smoke and Shadows, but I’ll finish it when I can. I always want to bring laughter and joy to readers, I am happy when they are happy. I want to take them on an adventure, a cool cruise down the path of stars with me.

🔪: how I’d dispose of a dead body. Swiftly and with style, ahahahaha. The best way would be to destroy the carcass in a remote place where one wouldn’t search, also one needs a lot of acid and a bone grinder to fully destroy it. Furthermore, one has to organize everything so that suspicion falls on someone else. If one is already doing murder, one must make sure to be the least linked to the one being murdered. 

💀: 5 random skeleton puns. Aww, man, I should have learned from Sans ahahahaha, alright, I shall think of something “humerus”, although I got no idea, “tibia-honest”, I’m just “skullking” around with no puns whatsoever ahahahah, although it would be “fibulous” if I did have some, ahahaa, I’m shutting up, ahahahah

[ferretphobos]

Ready Player None

So recently I started to really get into audio books, after going through the few freebies I got such as “Alice in Wonderland” and “Dracula” I actually started to purchase and listen to some bigger production books. “Ready Player One” is the third purchased book I decided to listen to, both due to the trailer release not too long ago and partly due to combination of not having read it for a while and nostalgia. The last part soon became my biggest problem. The first time I read the book I remembered loving it, how could I not? It was full of everything I loved, video games, the 80′s, and nonstop adventure. However, back in 2011 I was a completely different person. Yes I’m still very much childish and fun loving, but still I’ve matured. This cannot be said for Ernest Cline’s “Ready Player One”. As I said before I recently listened to the audio book version (narrated by Wil Wheaton) and I was surprised just how much I...hated the book. Im not sure if it was Mr. Wheaton’s monotone reading or the jankey jangled writing that was the book. At first listen the book seems to be quite interesting with a dystopian backdrop, but all centered in a virtual world where a Willy Wonka type contest rules all. Once you get past the first chapter then things take a big dump. The whole book can be chalked up as an 80′s how to guide. There are huge passages in the book that do nothing more then to go into explicit detail on some obscure reference such as discussing not only a songs title, but when it was written, when it was recorded, each member in the band back when it was written as well as who is in the band currently, what was on the artwork for the original album cover, ect ect. The whole book seems to be nothing but obnoxious references that do nothing more than push themselfs in your face. Remove the references, and you are left with a paper thin plot. 

    The characters are no better. The lead, Wade bothers me the most, as a can do no wrong whiny nerd. Every obstacle he runs into is no obstacle at all. Sure the plot takes place five years after the initial contest is announced, but after that Wade blows through everything ridiculously fast. Its as if the whole book is one big ex-machina. Oh the character needs to know a specific guitar riff to reveal a clue? No worries, our hero can expertly play the guitar! Was this ever mentioned before? nope! Who is our hero again? A shut in nerd archetype who doesn't go outside and is only interested in the internet? Its weird things like this that make the book seem off putting and takes me out of the narrative. Wade has very much a God complex where he fails on very very small things, but anything bigger than that and he more than excels at whatever it is he attempts to accomplish. I think it would have been better if there was any reason for it, but no, he just seems to know everything that could ever have been known. his personality is another huge problem that leans into neckbeard territory. Unfortunately he sees himself the best at everything .The most cringe-worthy is romantically. That brings us up to his leading lady.

    Art3mis seems to have no real place in the book. I mean she is a huge supporting character and is supposed to have huge standing, but if removed nothing would have changed. She is only there to be “won” by our main hero, for him to pine over. It made me cringe in real life. Some of the passages were hard to listen to. Passages such as “ I’ve had a crush on you since before we even met. From reading your blog and watching your POV. I’ve been cyber-stalking you for years “ and “I  tried everything I could think of to reach her. I sent her avatar flowers. I made multiple trips to her avatar’s stronghold, an armored palace on Benatar, the small moon she owned. I dropped mix tapes and notes on her palace from the air, like lovesick bombs. Once, in a supreme act of desperation, I stood outside her palace gates for two solid hours, with a boom box over my head, blasting “In Your Eyes” by Peter Gabriel at full volume.” Her main point in the book is to distract our “Hero” from his main quest, nothing more, nothing less. A trophy for our virgin (As he likes to mention many a time) to win. All through the book she references a disability, something that was wrong with her. It would have been wonderful to have that go somewhere but in the end it turned out to be a portwine stain upon her face. It felt wrong...like saying that look there is something wrong with her there is! just look! Look at her face! 

Then there is Aech. Another supporting character whose only purpose is to be a trophy, to sit there and do nothing more than exist. Aech is wades best friend from in the Virtual reality, but in real life is ,shock, gasp, different.In game Aech is a huge straight Caucasian male but in real life  Spoiler alert SHE turns out to be a “Fat, black, lesbian” (his words not mine). Again, its more or less....ok? There seems to be no reason for this reveal except to say, look we have diversity! I promise! Its here! (Something the book always seems to be doing). It meant nothing in the end to have this character other then the reveal. and even after that the character meant nothing....did nothing...a huge waste. 

There is no reason to mention Shoto or Diaoto. To me they seem like nothing more than stereotypes, with “Wade-sans” and “Honor’s” all over the place. Like the author knew nothing more of the culture than that.

Last and least (which is not saying much) comes the bad guy. Sorrento is our one dimensional bad guy with what else? Plans to take over the (virtual) world! ...No joke, thats it. He is so one directional that he could take over for Harry Styles. It wouldn’t be hard to believe that he says muahahah and rubs his hands together. Again, nothing more to say. 

All in all, the book is not good. Everything is all about the author...and only the author. What he likes and what he wants, it stunts the characters and the plot by neutering characters that had potential. The lead is unlikable and way to “perfect” and cringy. The supports are more or less useless or there as trophies. I am upset. This is a book that I wanted to like so much, but in the end the Flaws far outweighed any good to be found. Like a bad fan fiction written by a middle schooler, this book was a hard read. Here is hoping that the movie will be better.