#my sexuality and feeling romantic feelings is so fucking complicated idek

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– B A S I C S –

NAME:  N/A

ALIAS(ES)/HANDLE(S):   Vani

ARE YOU OVER 18?    Yes  /  No

IS YOUR MUSE?   Yes  /  No

WHEN WAS YOUR BLOG ESTABLISHED?    Heartbxnd: 14th of May 2018, Bxrryjxn: 18th of April 2018, Dreiiikxn: 12th of July 2018, Wxtaru: 11th of August 2018, Forgxtmxnot: 20th of May 2019.

– W R I T I N G –

ARE YOU SELECTIVE ABOUT WHO YOU WRITE WITH ON THIS BLOG?

No (anyone)  /  Semi (most people)  /  Yes (some people)  /  Highly (few people)  /  Private (mutuals only)

ARE YOU SELECTIVE ABOUT WHO YOU FOLLOW ON THIS BLOG?

No (anyone)  /  Semi (most people)  /  Yes (some people)  /  Highly (few people)  /  Private (mutuals only)

IF YOUR MUSE IS CANON, HOW MUCH DO YOU ADHERE TO CANON?

Not at all  /  A little (Headcanons)  /  Some  /  Mostly  /  Strictly  /  Not Applicable

WHAT POST LENGTHS DO YOU WRITE?

One Liners  /  Single-Para  /  Multi-Para  /  Novella

DO YOU USE ICONS AND/OR GIFS?

No  /  Gifs  /  Icons  /  Yes

DO YOU WRITE ON OTHER PLATFORMS?

No  /  Yes    (Discord)

WHAT LEVEL OF PLOTS DO YOU WRITE?

Unplotted  /  Open-Ended Plots (set up a meeting and see what happens)  /  Semi-Plotted (one or two steps ahead)  /  Fully Plotted Epics (plotted beginning, middle, and end)

HOW QUICKLY DO YOU USUALLY RESPOND TO THREADS?

Very Slow (more than a month)  /  Slow (3-4 weeks)  /  Average (1-2 weeks) /  Fast (less than one week)  /  Very Fast (less than three days)  /  It depends

WHAT TYPES OF THEMES DO YOU LIKE? (feel free to add!)

Fluff  /  Angst  /  Smut  /  Violence  /  Tragedy  /  Domestic  /  Family  /  Conversational

WHAT GENRES DO YOU LIKE? (feel free to add!)

High Fantasy  /  Supernatural /  Science Fiction  /  Historical  /  Horror  /  Comedy  / Romantic  /  Drama  /  Action  /  Adventure  /  Espionage

ARE THERE ANY THEMES YOU’RE UNCOMFORTABLE WRITING ON YOUR BLOG? (not triggers)

No  /  Yes  (Publicly I tend to stray away from the most controverial topics/subjects, simply bc of people’s reactions tend to be. So I keep most things in private only with people I trust.)/  Sometimes

DO YOU HAVE ANY TRIGGERS?  HOW DO YOU REQUEST IT TAGGED?

I don’t have any triggers

– S H I P P I N G –

WHAT TYPES OF RELATIONSHIPS ARE YOU OPEN TO?

Romantic  /  Platonic  /  Familial

This depends on the muse you are looking to interact with, I can be quite nitpicky when it comes to my elderly muses.

WHAT TYPES OF PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS ARE YOU OPEN TO? Romantic  /  Platonic  /  Familial

DO YOU HAVE OTPS? No  /  Chemistry Only  /  Yes

DO YOU HAVE NOTPS? No  /  Yes  (Only on Morty- Honor.shipping, this is the only I am not interested at all in writing)

WHAT IS YOUR MUSE’S SEXUAL ORIENTATION? Heterosexual  /  Heteroflexible  /  Bisexual  /  Pansexual  /  Homoflexible  /  Homosexual  /  Demisexual  /  Sapiosexual  /  Asexual

Morty and Blaine: Homosexual

Drake and Palmer: Heteroflexible

Pryce and Agatha: Heterosexual

Lance, Barry, Brendan, Juan, Tabitha, Riley: Bisexual

WHAT IS YOUR MUSE’S ROMANTIC ORIENTATION? Heteroromantic  /  Heteroflexible  / Biromantic  /  Homoflexible  /  Homoromantic  / Panromantic  / Demiromantic /  Sapioromantic  /  Aromantic

See above

ARE YOU COMFORTABLE WRITING SMUT? No  /  Selectively  /  Yes

But not all of my muses are available to it.

HOW EARLY IN A RELATIONSHIP DO YOU SHIP ROMANTICALLY? Autoship  /  During plotting  /  After a couple IC interactions  /  Several IC interactions  /  Slow burn  /  Never

ARE YOU OPEN TO TOXIC SHIPS? No  /  Selectively  /  Yes

See Riley and Lance.

ARE YOU OPEN TO PROBLEMATIC SHIPS? (incest, canon history, age difference, complicated, etc.) No  /  Selectively  /  Yes

Incest is just a straight no to me.

Large age gaps between adults is fine by me.

Age difference between teens is cool by me as well (e.g.: One is 16 dating a 19 years old.)

IDEK what the others are.

ARE YOU OPEN TO POLYSHIPPING? No  /  Selectively  /  Yes

Depends on the muse, very few of mine would be willing to partake in such thing. Brendan and Barry in fact- are the only ones.

ARE YOU AN EXCLUSIVE SHIPPER? Never  /  Sometimes  /  Yes

fuck exclusivity lmao

DOES CRACK SHIPPING EVER HAPPEN? No  /  Yes

cries over all of my shippings in my blogs

– T A G G I N G! –

TAGGED BY:   @hustlingup TYSM <3

TAGGING:  @littlesilverplatinum, @rettosmuses / @soulchased, @thetreeofbeginning / @bloodofthecovenants  and anyone feeling like doing this. Just say I tagged you!

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@code-name-flamingo​ tagged me for 5 otps an age and a half ago, and then I mostly wrote it but abandoned it in my drafts folder? idek.

So, Sang’s Big Shipping Feels, most of which aren’t pairs and which in sum is gonna run super-long, so under the cut:

Holmes/Watson

David Balfour/Alan Breck

Papa Fitzgerald/Mama Fitzgerald/Aunt Bertha

Tin Woodman/Scarecrow/Patchwork Girl

Jack Harkness/so-many-people-so-many

Holmes/Watson: These two were real slow to grow on me -- it took a whole passel of ACD fic-writers to sell me on a particular reading of Watson and then of the relationship -- but once it took, it took hard. There are some caveats: I don’t ship them in all incarnations; whenever Mary Morstan exists, my shipping tends to run toward OT3 (more usually a vee than a triad); in incarnations where Watson seems obstinately straight (Private Life), my shipping runs heavily toward “It’s Complicated...” But, yeah. You don’t spend a year making that vid unless you ship them. Or at least I don’t.

David Balfour/Alan Breck (Kidnapped, Robert Louis Stevenson) When I was fifteen or sixteen, I spent an entire summer reading and re-reading the quarrel in the heather—

"This is a pity," [Alan] said at last. "There are things said that cannot be passed over." "I never asked you to," said I. "I am as ready as yourself." "Ready?" said he. "Ready," I repeated. "I am no blower and boaster like some that I could name. Come on!" And drawing my sword, I fell on guard as Alan himself had taught me. "David!" he cried. "Are ye daft? I cannae draw upon ye, David. It's fair murder." "That was your look-out when you insulted me," said I. "It's the truth!" cried Alan, and he stood for a moment, wringing his mouth in his hand like a man in sore perplexity. "It's the bare truth," he said, and drew his sword. But before I could touch his blade with mine, he had thrown it from him and fallen to the ground. "Na, na," he kept saying, "na, na—I cannae, I cannae."

—and swooning with the romance of it all. (Oh, I still swoon! Alan! Davy! Alan! and then Davy realizes he's torn it, it was all pride and stupidity and there's no apologizing for any of it, but he figures a little h/c might bring Alan back around, so he's all, "Welp, Alan, I guess I'm just going to have to die of exhaustion right here where I stand," and Alan is all, "Wait, what?" and Davy is all, "You heard me! DYING!" and makes like to faint, and Alan eats it up with a goddamned spoon and then they're together again FOR EVER AND EVER THE END, well, except that there's still a bunch more novel because they have to go get Davy his revenge and his inheritance and then they have to get Alan safe off to France, and okay realistically yeah they're star-crossed at best because Davy's a Campbell and Alan's a Stuart and civil war and politics and death sentences and whatnot BUT STILL. TOGETHER FOR EVER AND EVER THE END.)

...and thus I learned that if you have mortally offended your best friend, you can always try faking your death and that might help.

(*stern look at Holmes* By which I mean faking your death a little, not for three fucking years, you asshole. And no, you don’t get a pass on Dying Detective -- you should have gotten your act together before he got married.)

Mama Fitzgerald/Papa Fitzgerald/Aunt Bertha (The Great Brain): Apparently I was poly from waaaaaaaaaaay back, because it was always incredibly obvious to me that the correct number of parents is three. The narrator of these books is a child, and we never get much detail about the household beyond “Mama and Papa and Aunt-Bertha-who-isn’t-our-Aunt.” Neither are we told nor shown much about Aunt Bertha herself: she’s often only around the edges of the story, because she obviously considers the kids’ shenangians to be primarily Tom and Tena’s problem. Nevertheless, my 10-yo self totally believed that Tom, Tena, and Bertha were a triad.

Someday I might write a Tena/Tom/Bertha origin story, because the only detail we get about how their arrangement began is both intriguing and inadequate: she apparently walked into the Advocate office after burying her husband and told Tom that she’d be living with her and Tena from then on. I want their story, and I want it badly.

Tin Woodman/Scarecrow/Patchwork Girl (Oz stories) So canon. So fucking canon. As I wrote about them before: 

The Tin Woodman says that his clockwork heart doesn’t do romantic love (and I believe him), but Nick nevertheless built his palace in the shape of a corncob and installed his-and-his thrones so he and the Scarecrow could rule the Winkies side-by-side. Also, if you listen to them talk, they may not be in love, but they are as affectionate and married as it is possible to be. In contrast to Nick, however, the Scarecrow is as smooshy a romantic as you’ll ever meet, and absolutely smitten with Patches. For her part, Patches enjoys the Scarecrow’s attention -- she’ll canoodle with him all night through! -- but she isn’t about to give up her footloose ways for him, either.

So. Do I believe that the Scarecrow is happily married to the Tin Woodman, while carrying on a long-distance romance with Patches? YES. YES I DO. Do I believe that Nick occasionally has fits of insecurity, but that he and the Scarecrow soothe them with the liberal application of TLC and tin polish? YES. YES I DO. Do I believe that Patches is having the time of her life exploring the world and sometimes drops by the Corncob Palace for a little mutual kinky needlework and to tell the Scarecrow stories about the things she’s seen? YES. YES I DO. And do I believe that all three of them are successfully getting the kinds of things they individually want and need from their relationships? YES. YES I ABSOLUTELY DO.

...and it’s not like I spend that much time thinking about these three, but they work, in a way that is really weird but also makes perfect sense for them. Which is pretty much how any relationship is going to work, when it works, isn’t it?

Jack Harkness/so-many-people-so-many (Torchwood)

Look, it’s Jack, he falls in love like breathing and is fiercely, deeply loyal to them all: he would lay down his life for any of them if he could, no hesitation, whether they’re currently together or not. Also, he is effortlessly poly and functionally immortal, and so we keep getting glimpses of people he loved once and loves stiI, even though the main part of the relationship is long past. I could never possibly rank one of those people over another, mostly because Jack would never conceive of doing such a thing himself. I know this is deeply contrary to how one is supposed to build lists of otp/ot3s -- how on earth do you specify a ship but leave some of the names unspecified? -- but when you ask me who I have Big Shipper Feelings about, I’m sorry, but it is what it is: Jack and all the people he’s ever loved, whether those relationships were long or short, platonic or sexual, explicitly mentioned in canon or not. Yes, I’m doing it wrong, but I do everything wrong, so whatever.