#ncts leader<3 my BELOVED

[lebrookestore]

˗ˏˋ happy birthday bubu! ´ˎ˗

— july 1st<3

[facethesuns]

em beloved here is the nct crash course:

nct 127 (l to r): johnny. haechan. mark. jaehyun. taeyong (leader). yuta. taeil. jungwoo. doyoung.

fixed unit, known for there noise music (if you need recs do lmk). also 127 is like the longitude of seoul? or something idk. also winwin was once part of them but now he’s not and we’re all sad. active since 2016. known as the frat boys. chaotic. very endearing. i love them all dearly.

nct dream (l to r): mark (leader). haechan. (yes. again.) jaemin. jisung. jeno. chenle. renjun.

started out as a rotational group for younger (ish?) members but then mark left (or as we say. graduated) because he got too old (i think he was nineteen? the horror) and every nctzen cried and now he’s back but we’re still crying because he (and haechan) are in two fixed units so when do they breathe? never perhaps. idk what dream stands for. they’re young so they still have hopes and dreams? active since 2016. music very young and up beat.

wayv (l to r): xiaojun. winwin. ten. lucas. yangyang. kun (leader). hendery.

china based unit. also a fixed one. active since 2019. is lucas still a member? honest to god don’t know that’s a whole other story. ngl i have never known what wayv stands for and tbh idc. good music. i feel like they’re a special kind of insane. have very cute cats !

then some members are also part of the phenomenon we call superm. (jumping and popping we jopping etc.) and oh nct u! that’s the rotational. random. group. u as in U are picked this time? idk. it’s just random members each time coming together to make songs outside of their fixed group. was actually the first unit to debut with a song called 7th sense. (very nice. do check it out) also baby don’t stop is an icon.

oh and you’re totally right mark lee is the justin bieber fan!

anyways. that’s it! if i sound insane it’s because it’s 5:30 am and i apologize. also yes google will give you a better explanation but i had to send this because i cried laughing at your post. if you ever need more info or want some song recs lmk <3 bye !!!!!! sending hugs (((hugs tightly))) - @minchanz

ps. my phone is messing up the pics so i hope this works !!

omg nini hi!!! thank you for taking the time to type out this whole thing ksjdhfkjds i just read through it all and my biggest conclusion is: do any of them ever sleep skjdfjshf how are they all part of 983742 different sub groups LMAO. also when you were trying to explain nct u the sentence "u as in U are picked this time?" actually took me OUT 😭😭😭😭

i think i know whopping total of 3 nct songs between all these groups (including 7th sense!! i do actually know that one lmao) so maybe ill actually take a look at more of their music! the funniest part is that i know of the 2 baddies song (thats a new one i think??) but i actually have no idea what its supposed to sound like and only know the tune because hyunjin sang it in that one skz code episode (whoops)

fr this message made me giggle ty for sending it again! i hope you get some sleep soon <333

[jisungshotfirst]

kpop tag game

tagged by: @blizzardfluffykpop thank you bestie!

tagging: @habadabadooda @archiv1ste @crossant-creachure @jminwook @pupjihoon if you want<33

3 favourite soloists

Dean

Yena

Woodz

5 favourite boy/girl groups

Stray Kids

Cravity

TXT

ATEEZ

CIX

(my gg list here because i want to: twice, red velvet, billlie, dreamcatcher, kep1er)

Top 5 favourite MV’s

CASE 143 - Stray Kids

0X1=LOVESONG - TXT

LUNA - Oneus

Wave - CIX

Adrenaline - Cravity

(like 3 cix mvs were in the running i'm obsessed with them)

Top 3 favourite leaders

Bang Chan

Serim

Soobin

picked these to be fair to my 3 ults<3 djsfj but i rly love each of their leaderships they are so different it's rly interesting to watch

How many albums you have / what album(s) do you want to get.

i have 21! i have all of skz minus mixtape + in life. i really want blour... she's my most beloved album

Do you share a birthday date with an idol or have a birthday close to an idol?

no one i know is on the 15th as far as i'm aware but onew is the 14th and mashiro is the 16th! also by age too i'm closest to weeekly soojin! (she's 12th december 2001)

Fancy date with bias or at home date with bias wrecker?

will always choose home date<3 so get over here Taeyoung/Seungmin/Innie <3333

MV’s or live performance?

i'll go MV because that's my first experience with the song and it's really special! and certain mvs completely enhance the music! for the live performances i kinda just wanna see the outfits fsfdjf

Favourite album and song of your ult group

Stray kids -> album = Clé 1: Miroh. song = The View

Cravity -> album = (i dont rly have one but) new wave. song = Veni Vidi Vici

TXT -> album = MINISODE1: BLUE HOUR BLOURRRRRR. song = Crown

(all of these shift/have very close seconds except for blour, she is and will always be everything to me)

3 favourite maknaes

Taeyoung - Cravity (he's second maknae but he always wants to be included<3 which is so maknae of him hfjgjd)

Jeongin - Stray Kids (*maknae on top starts playing*)

Subin - Victon (there is a reason my victon tag is subimps)

Rap line or vocal line?

I bias a lot of vocalists ! so vocal line<3 i've said it before and i'll say it again, biasing main vocals is So Fun

What song got you into K-pop?

bangtan dope. She slaps.

Album you will put on repeat?

blour<3 ofc<3 | be ok by cix | right through me by even of day | hello future by nct dream | you make my day by seventeen | atlantis by shinee

(no vity or skz just coz I usually shuffle their entire discog over 1 album)

If you are to be in a K-pop group what would be your position?

I'd definitely produce as that's what I do fsdjfj <33 main dancer and lead vocal maybe? those would shift depending on who's in my group for sure

[seulgiology]

when you smile | bae joohyun

pairings: wife!irene x wife!female reader

words: 1.1k

genre: a lil angsty fluff

synopsis: “hello! I am craving some massive fluff so can I request a wedding day scenario with irene? Her being nervous and the girls having to calm her down and all that shit? Thanks in advance if you do it <3” ~ request

warnings: cursing, mentions of sex, crying, nervousness, overall a kinda angsty situation 

a/n: yer yer , admin 1 here :3 this is what the dress looks like, scroll on the website to see more references. hey guys, admin 2 is gonna be a lil inactive probably cause she’s working on pink ferrari !

disclaimer: This is a work of fiction from our imagination. It is not intended that the plot, theme, original characters, idols, etc. portray any real-life events/people. Plagiarism is NOT tolerated on this blog. If you believe we have copied an existing authors’ work, please message us privately. Thank you and enjoy :)

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She gulped down the heavy lump in her throat, trying to stay still as the makeup artist added the sheen champagne-colored eyeshadow.

Her favorite BoA songs were playing in the background. But the only thing playing in her head was the intrusive thoughts she wishes she didn’t have.

Not on her wedding day.

“Irene, I finally found it! You wouldn’t believe who had it.” The perky sound of her bandmate, Sooyoung, could be heard as she stepped inside the cosmetics room.

She looked beautiful in her beige-colored bridesmaid dress. The bride gave her a tight-lipped smile and moved her newly styled hair out of the way so the piece of jewelry could be clasped around her neck.

Sooyoung took a step back and sighed a satisfied sigh. The choker-like necklace had white pearls as the straps with a sparkly pendant situated at the center, giving the perfect vintage look.

But a frown quickly overtook her features as a distressed and troubled look overcame her friend's delicate face.

The bridesmaid gently reached down and squatted face-to-face with the older woman she’s been working with for several years.  Making eye contact with the other, she tried to silence the hiccups that made their way up.

“Joohyun-Unnie, it’s ok to be scared.”

Those were the things she needed to hear for her to begin sniffling.

Someone signaled for everyone to leave the room, leaving only three other women to stay behind.

The rest of her beloved and gorgeous members crowded around to check on their leader. Their youngest brought her up and sat her down in the comfortable chaise towards the back of the room, continuing holding her hand even after they sat down.

“I just- I can’t even describe the love I have for that girl. And there’s nothing more I want then to be with her for the rest of my hectic life.” She started, looking up towards the ceiling to try not to let her tears ruin the quality makeup the artists worked on.

She gave a watery hiccuped that shook her body, thinking about the shit that her wife is going to have to go through. She felt herself being pulled into a group hug by her other members, comforting words being gifted to her in the best way possible.

“The media hates her, my family but my dad disapproves approves of our relationship. I don’t want to put her through it anymore.” The uncontrollable tears began to free fall, the pressure of her love-life taking a toll.

“Joohyun, look at me,” The most stable of all, Seulgi, softly held her chin and tilted it towards her direction.

She was a sight to behold as the tears streaked her face and a hopeless looked shined in her tears eyes.

“Why do you think you’re here right now, honey? That’s because Y/N wants to be with you. She’s willing to face the backlash, the hate, the sacrifices with you.” The whispered words crept in her mind, slowly overlaying her doubts.

She let the words of comfort creep their way through her being, knowing the words being preached to her were right.

“Yeah, and, ReVeluv’s are all for it. The GP might love a controversy here and there, but that’s not what matters right now. What matters is that you’re getting pussy for the rest of your life.” Yerim commented, a humorous smile adorning her face.

Even that one.

“You can always count on Yerim to say some bullshit like that,” Their main vocalist stated as she lightly bumped the youngest.

As she laughed, the tears dried on her cheeks. One of the few genuine smiles she pulled today.

“Ah, there’s that pretty smile. Why were you hiding it for so long huh?” Sooyoung said snapping a quick picture of the candid moment.

The stars couldn’t have aligned for anybody but the five of them to meet as one. — The delicate ivory tulle dress hung loosely on Irene’s body. It’s elegant flow and puffy sleeves design made her feel like a fairy in an enchanted forest.

The people attending to her makeup and hair weren’t as upset and quickly touched it up before she was fitted in her gown.

She took a deep breath, holding tightly onto her father's arm and the peony bouquet in her other arm.

“I’m happy for you, Joohyun-Ah. Let’s hope this marriage isn’t another strict contract.” He jestered playfully.

“You’re really funny you know that?” They chuckled lightly together.

“Don’t forget to smile, okay?”

She never got the chance to smile as the big and ominous doors awaited her destiny.

And there you were, watching the love of your eternity gliding down the aisle like the angel she is. The way the light caught her dress made her look absolutely heavenly. Your cheeks hurt, and your heart burned with an undying love for the woman coming towards you.

She lightly bowed towards her comrades that worked with her. One of her long time friends, Johnny, and his group gave you thumbs up and discreet finger hearts.

When she finally stood in front of you, you really couldn’t breathe. You didn’t believe in that cheesy phrase “as time stood still,” but shit, you wish it did.

Neither of you was the religious type, so instead of a priest speaking, you kindly asked her esteemed friend, Jennie, to do the honors.

It was a hilarious mess when the poor young woman called for any objections, and all of her bandmates declared they loved her first.

“YOU’LL ALWAYS BE OUR PERFECT 10 IRENE!”

If that didn’t make her want to cry of happiness and joy even more, then the end of your vows would surely leave her a sobbing mess.

“I pledge to remain your companion and friend, I promise to be with you always, to care for you, and to love you no matter how far apart we may be. I will always show an interest in the things you do and your ideas. I will be with you in your heart, and keep you safely in mine. When you are happy, I will be happy with you. When you are sad, I will make you smile. I swear it on my soul it’s so beautiful when you smile,”

Her hands tightened in yours as she held back sobs and tried to keep her composure.

“I will encourage you to continue growing as an individual as we work toward our mutual goals. Things are hard right now, but we'll get through this together. It's okay to step back and breathe. I stand with you as your best friend and wife and acknowledge that your choices are valid ones. I promise to give you love, honesty, trust, and commitment, and, in general, keep your life more interesting and chaotic than NCT 127s music, as we grow old and beyond. I love you, Joohyun.”

She trembled in the overwhelming feeling of yearning as she looked into your intense eyes. All she can see is promise and unconditional love.

“You know I love you more, Y/N.”

With the seal of a delicate kiss of plush lips pressed against each other and arms pulling her in tight, dress against dress, she knew she could overcome anything with you by her side.

[softsan]

NCT MAFIA AU (doyoung)

🖇Leave every bottle as empty as my promises (pt.3)

MASTERLIST

PARTS: | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 |

MAFIA PROFILES | Y/N’S NAMES

GENRE: Mafia AU, Arranged marriage AU, Rival sides, Angst

QUOTE: “He wanted to see you so badly. He wanted to apologize for everything. He just wanted to hold you one last time.”

WARNINGS: Graphic scenes of violence, Blood, Misunderstanding

Past.

“Why in the world would you agree to something like this?” Doyoung fumed as he paced back and forth. “They’re our enemies.”

Taeyong sat calmly, his arms crossed over his chest. He observed Doyoung carefully. He was impulsive when it came to matters that involved you.

“I thought you liked her.”

Doyoung threw Taeyong a crazed look. “That was before I found out she was the Southern kingpin’s granddaughter.”

Taeyong shrugged, “She seems nice.”

Doyoung closed his eyes to compose his thoughts, “She’s a threat to us.” He began, “Why the hell would you arrange a marriage between us,” His voice grew only louder. “What? So, she can spy on us? To report things to her little family.”

Taeyong thought back to how charmed Doyoung had initially been by you. Doyoung was not one to abandon a mission but he had... for you.

Had the two of you met under different circumstances, things could have been vastly different. The two of you could have built a perfectly ordinary life together.

But the reality was cold and tiresome. You were tied to the South and he bowed to only the North. What future could the two of you truly have?

“It wasn’t a mere coincidence that the two of you met.” Taeyong slowly explained, “Why would I ask you to retrieve something? I was better off asking our retrieval specialist Jaehyun.”

Doyoung stopped pacing.

“But it had to be you.”

A chill crept down his spine. “You set this up?”

“I wasn’t alone. It was Y/N’s grandfather who approached me first about it.”

Doyoung couldn’t comprehend why two rival leaders would join forces for something so ludicrous.  

“He planned every detail, he was very insistent on how the two of you met.”

“The incident at the museum that was because of her grandfather.” Doyoung rage bubbled under the surface, threatening to erupt. “He did that to her?”

“To make you her hero. Her beloved savior. He wanted Y/N to feel an undying gratitude for you.”  

Doyoung’s hand trembled as he pointed at Taeyong, “Those men could have fucking hurt her.”

“I agree, it sounded like an excessive plan but her grandfather had trust that you wouldn’t allow anything bad to happen to her.”

Doyoung shook his head. “He doesn’t know me. He couldn’t have known how I would react. I could have left her, I could have let those men-”

“You didn’t.” Taeyong cut in, “Her grandfather’s gamble on you paid off.”

“Why? Why was all this so important?”

“I not entirely sure.” Taeyong answered honestly, “But I do know that he’s dying.”

Doyoung’s eyes widened.

“And I assume that he doesn’t want to leave his granddaughter in the hands of Shujin.”

The thought of you by Shujin only fuelled Doyoung’s fire.

“So,i essential that the two of you wed as soon as possible.”

“Why did you even agree to his plan in the first place?”

Taeyong smiled, unfolding his arms. “She’s the Southern heir and your unity will cater a claim for us over her territory.”

“You want the South.” Doyoung coldly stated.

A twisted glint sparkled in Taeyong’s eyes. “I want them all.”

───

Present.

Flashes of white hovered above your eyes. You felt dull and sluggish as the colorless light beamed down.

“Y/N?”

A lingering warmth surrounded you.

“Doyoung?”

“You left me Y/N”

“Doyoung?”

“It’s time I leave you too.”

The beautiful light vanished. The lingering warmth was sucked from the air and was replaced by a somber cast of ice.

───

Doyoung lay helplessly against the cement wall, his vision impaired by the looming darkness. His hands and feet were chained by iron shackles. He sat defeated, his wrists and ankles cut from his efforts to break free.

The prison cell they put him was damp and smelt of rotting flesh. The bars of his cell were crusted with dried blood.

He couldn’t stop replaying your final moments. His chest ripped to shreds as your delicate features frown down upon the gunshot wound to your stomach. 

He should have fought harder, he should have found you sooner. He should have done something, anything to have stopped it from happening.

His cheeks were wet. His bloody fingernails clawing at the shackles.

He wanted to see you so badly. He wanted to apologize for everything. He just wanted to hold you one last time.  

Doyoung heard a click of a gun. He looked bleakly in the direction of the man who had unlocked his cells. The man walked inside his gun pointed, ready to fire.

“Death at last?” Doyoung’s throat was dry.

The young man crouched lower, the gun still confidently aimed.

“You’re Y/N’s husband?”

His heart hurt at the sound of your name.

The man roughly yanked Doyoung’s hands to one side, his gun immediately firing.

The defending sound of the gun rang in Doyoung’s ears.

“I’m Yangyang,” He groaned, rubbing his own ears with the back of his hands.

“What are you doing?”

“I’m letting you go.” Yangyang reached, to pry apart the shattered chains. “Unfortunately, you’ll have to deal with what’s left.”

Doyoung glanced at the shackles still present around his wrists. They would weigh him down but at least he could move.

“Thanks,” Doyoung quickly muttered, he stumbled back onto to his numb feet.  

Yangyang caught one of Doyoung’s arms. “You need to follow my lead.”

“I need to find her.”

Yangyang gave Doyoung an apologetic look. “Not possible.”

Doyoung jerked his arm free, pushing Yangyang to the side. “I need to find her.”

“Shujin’s with her, he’ll blow your head off as soon as he sees you coming.” 

Another man entered Doyoung’s cell, while a third man kept watch outside.

Doyoung didn’t recognize them. “Who are you?” He demanded.

“Friends.”

“This is Xiaojun and outside is Hendery” Yangyang offered. “We’re here to make sure you cross the border safety.”

Doyoung narrowed his eyes. Their names seemed awfully familiar. “You’re all Southern lieutenants.”

Xiaojun smiled bitterly. “We need to leave, we only have this small opening before Shujin notices.”

“You’re all committing treason.”

“That depends on how you look at it.” Xiaojun motioned for Yangyang to grab a hold onto Doyoung. “Some would say you were the rightful kingpin of the South, of course neither you or Shujin would be anything without Y/N.”

“I can’t leave without her.”

Xiaojun reluctantly nodded, “I understand but she is heavily guarded, Shujin hasn’t left her ever since she came out of surgery yesterday.”

“She’s alive?” Doyoung’s eyes lit up, his hopeful heart sang.

“For now,” Xiaojun confirmed, “But if she lives, she’ll need someone to turn to.”

Yangyang pulled Doyoung along.

“You’ll keep her safe but not here. She’ll never be safe as long as she stays here.”

───

Your eyes struggled to open, the drugs lulling you into a comfortable haze.

“Miss I’m just here to check your vitals.” A pretty voice drifted in your ear, you felt the soft touch of her fingers as she felt your pulse on your neck.

“Lovely,” She chirped, “You seem to be stable.”

Her fingers left you, you heard the sound of heels across the tile floors.

You managed to crack your eyes slightly open, it was a nurse in pink scrubs. Her hair was tied back, and half of her face was covered by a white mask. She turned back to you. One of her cat-like eyes winked and then she was gone.

───

“I owe a debt to Y/N’s grandfather and he wouldn’t want her in Shujin’s grasp.”

“You’ll keep her safe”

“When she’s better, we’ll bring her to you.”

Xiaojun’s word’s floated in the background. Doyoung was sorry for the three men that went to the effort to help him escape. But he wasn’t leaving without you. His shackled wrists made for useful weapons and he was easily able to bypass hospital security. Lastly, he stole a private keycard to an exclusive floor, which you were most likely residing on.

Doyoung had to see you, he needed to rid the images of your lifeless, bloody body collapsing before his eyes.

No matter the cost.

───

“She’s weak but you can see her.” The nurse said aloud.

You lay in your bed, tightly wrapped in your blankets.

Did he plan this? Was he sick enough to do this, to stop you from leaving...

Shujin affectionately brushed your cheek. You flinched, curling away from him.

“You look better.”

“What happened to me?” You murmured.

“Someone tried to kill you.” He said nonchalantly. “Lucky I was there otherwise you would have probably died.”

You couldn’t look at him. Your right hand went to your neck. It was a nervous habit of yours to twirl your diamond necklace between your fingers.  

You paused. 

“Where’s my necklace?” You demanded.

Shujin stood back, surprised that you had raised your voice. “What do you mean?”

“I was wearing a necklace!” You felt your panic rise. It was a gift your grandfather had given to you years ago, just after your mother had passed away. “Give it back to me!”

Shujin hushed you as he went to look at your personal items and clothing in the drawer next to your bed.

You watched him closely as he ruffled through your things.

“It must have fallen off during the commotion,” He told you. “Don’t worry, I’ll buy you something better.”

You shook your head, “No, no, no! It was my grandfather’s necklace.”

Shujin dropped the bag of your things on the floor. His demeanor shifting into something monstrous. He grabbed you harshly by the chin, hoisting you up. He frantically scanned your bare neck.

Your abdomen howled with pain at being suddenly moved. “Let me go.” You gasped.

“Where the fuck did it go!”

“I don’t you know!” You screamed back.

Shujin dropped you, you sunk back onto the bed your wound on fire. He stormed out, his furious voice ordering his men to round up every doctor and nurse who had, had any contact with you.

As you hugged the bandages around your stomach, the faint memory of the nurse with the cat-like eyes appeared in your mind.

───

Past.

Taeyong quietly entered Doyoung’s wedding’s chambers.

Pale, Doyoung stood opposing the full-length mirror. He wore a grand tux with a blue rose tucked in his jacket’s front pocket.

“What’s the real reason you don’t want to go through with this marriage and don’t give me that I wanted my freedom bullshit.”

“We’re enemies.” Doyoung cursed, his voice crushed.

“Not any longer.” Taeyong took a steady step closer.

Doyoung’s body shook, his fists clenched purple. He stared void at this own reflection.

“Is it because you killed her mother?”

Taeyong’s words cut like knives, slicing his fragile heart. He looked down, ashamed.

“We were enemies.” His hollow voice tried to resonate.

“You did what you had to, to protect yourself.”

“I can’t marry her knowing what I’ve done.” Doyoung’s eyes stung.

Taeyong approached closer, laying a comforting hand on Doyoung’s shoulder.

“If she finds out what I’ve done.”

“She won’t.”

Doyoung blinked back his tears. “I won’t be able to bear it. I can’t. I just can’t hurt her.”

“There is no changing the terrible thing we’ve done. Taeyong sighed, “We hurt the ones we love the most.” His face hardened. “Our only hope is time will heal the wounds we create.”

───

Present.

Chaos ensued on the private floor. Doyoung peered from behind a wall. There were doctors, nurses, and administration staff kneeling on the ground with their hands on their heads. A nurse through a hiccup of tears pleaded with the gunmen that nobody had stolen anything.

Y/N. This was his chance to find you, while everyone was distracted. He jogged in the opposite direction looking for your ward. A gunshot echoed, followed by haunting cries. Doyoung ran faster.

Your mouth trembled at the distant sound of gunfire. Shujin. You pulled the blankets higher, closing your eyes.

The blissful moment Doyoung laid his eyes on you again. His worries washed away. You were alive.

Before he could tread closer and wrap you in his arms. He felt the barrel of a gun brush against the back of his skull.

“She makes you reckless.”

Your eyes instantly opened, a familiar face gazing back at you.

“Doyoung?” Your eyes watered, kicking off your covers.

Doyoung watched you desperately maneuver yourself off the bed, you crumbled to the tiled floors. Your weak body, unable to support yourself. On your hands and knees, you tried your best to crawl to him.

Despite the threat of the gun, he ran towards you.

He buddled you tightly in his grasp, he buried your face in his chest. He kissed your hair, begging you to look away.

MONI’S NOTE: Mafia Doyoung’s third installment. I hope you all enjoy it. If you do, please consider reading the other member's parts. They are all a part of the same universe, and you may even notice some cross-over between them.

TAGLIST: If you’d like to be tagged in this fic please send me a message.

[icedcappujaeno]

guide:

♥ (fluff)  ➝ your daily dose of sweetness. ❅ (angst)  ➝ some days you just had to go bitter. ✿ (mature)  ➝ hot drinks are here to warm you up. ♡ (personal rec.)  ➝ the owner’s favorite choice.

taeyong

fish, knives, and everything nice ♥ | ❅ ➝ A story of your adventures with your dog and the gang leader next door.

twist  ♥ ➝ A story of how you met Taeyong twice, in unexpected ways.

short stuff:

→  taeyong prompts: pubg things  ♡ ♥ - gamer taeyong (orig. jackbabewang)

doyoung

crossfire  ✿ ➝ A story depicting ludus - a playful love bridging two different worlds together.

ten

11 ♥ ➝ A story of how you learned that first impressions never last.

jaehyun

one-shots:

broken machines ♥ | ♡ ➝ A story of how a cute doctor uses your office’s microwave at midnight & how you messed up a lot of times.

untitled (0917) ♥ ➝ A story of a chill Sunday morning with your two beloved Jeffreys.

redamancy  ♥ | ❅ | ✿  ➝ A story of how you learned to love back in return.

sweet solutions ♥ | ♡ ➝ A story of a blossoming, sweet, and warm love in the chilly air of November.

short stuff:

→  browser  ♥  - boyfriend jae → “date night?”  | not mr. jung   ♥ ♡  - accountant/boss jae →  [ 00:00 ]  ❅ - bestfriend jae →  Professor Jaehyun Jung  ♥  - professor jae →  college student Jaehyun  ♥  - college student/barista jae →  (asked) physics student jae   ♥ | ✿ | ♡ →  coming home - fiancee jae  ♥ | ✿ | ♡ →  [ 22: 21 ]  - boyfriend jae  ♥ | ♡ →  nerdy/competitor for student council jae  ♥ →  the jung triplets  ♥

series

on going:

jaehyun | kingdom come ( ♥ | ❅ | ✿ | ♡ ) ➝ Jaehyun remembers you, and he hopes that you remember him as well.

discontinued:

jaehyun | unheralded salvation ( ♥ | ❅ | ✿ | ♡ ) ➝ Hebrew 13:6. “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?” - except that he was no man.

jaehyun | Moominpappa

seasonal

→ christmas alphabet with nct  ↳ fluffy drabbles taken during the holidays with nct  ♡ 

→ very special days. ↳ birthday drabbles ♡

1:27 AM | mark lee (02.08.2019)

collaborations

stories behind with [ jackbabewang ] ↳ Elaine suggested that we send each other random photos and the challenge is to write a drabble with jaehyun in relation to the photo. 

1. Goblin’s vandal 2. Red Lips 3. Signal 4. Yin and Yang

mini-projects

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my adventures of being an anti to being the biggest stan of EXO

Hey ~ this post isn’t really a need-to-read blog but if you do read it then thank you. Since EXO’s 5th year anniversary is coming soon, I just wanted to share how much I fucking hated the whole genre KPOP itself and how EXO like legit changed my life. cheesy af but bear with me it’s a good story i tell ya, or so I think lol.

I haven’t been a kpop fan for long, but since I’ve been exposed to kpop since I was a kid I grew up listening to a few selected kpop songs which are from the groups every kpop stan should know about. I’m from the Philippines, and I’m still a junior in high school ~ ever since I was a kid me and my elder sister (who also legit turned into a kpop fan herself because of me // both of us were antis before) always tuned in on MTV because music is just the world to us. Back then, I was the biggest brat for One Direction ever since they debuted. So me and my sis would always tune in on MTV to see them, but since it was MTV Asia, ofc they would show groups from all over Asia. That’s when I saw all legends and the biggest hits on kpop  like SNSD, 2NE1, 2PM, BIGBANG, SUJU, WONDER GIRLS, PSY, and EXO themselves. 

Since EXO was already a big hit during the Wolf era, that was the very first time I saw them on TV and I sure as hell hated them the first time I saw them. I was all like, “Ugh, they’re disgusting” and “Why do they even exist” during that time ~keep in mind this was 2012 ~ I tried to let myself watch them but they never just grew on me that time, like ever. And so at school, my classmates were already aware of this rising kpop group EXO, and I could always hear the name Luhan and Chanyeol. I can never forget how much of a fangirl my friend was to them and I was always glaring at them for liking those types of music and bands since I was a hardcore Directioner during that time. 

It wasn’t long since Growl was released, and it became a really huge hit here in the Philippines! I swear to God I remember always hearing the song in malls, in public markets, in stores, in the sidewalks and basically just everywhere! I began to hear more about this group but just ignored it since kpop just really wasn’t my style back then. I saw them around tv, on the news, newspapers and magazines and they just legit boomed during that time. My classmates went really crazy for them and I was still like, “Meh, those idiots aren’t even as famous as One Direction”. 

Then came Overdose and EXO boomed even more but I still ignored. I saw them on TV when they had their first concert on Manila, they were on the headlines for singing a very famous filipino song called “Hawak Kamay” and was praised a lot by people and impressed some elders for that. ugh such an iconic time says my exo-l self who missed a lot during that time

Tons and tons and TONS of EXO merchandise were around the Philippines and everyone I see was always wearing them! Although some were not aware of who EXO was, the name EXO and the members numbers were a big fashion hit here in the Philippines. I always saw WOLF 88 printed on their shirts, some with the other members numbers and printed names like shit they still are a big fashion hit here in the Philippines until now. 

Moving on, I didn’t hear much about EXO during the Call Me Baby era but I still saw them on tv and online. I kind of faded away from 1D since Zayn left lmao lol iconic time but I still liked the band and their music and all. After I faded away from 1D I was addicted to anime and became an animaniac lol. This isn’t much of an important part of my story so I’ll fast forward.

Fast forward to when I was like in the middle of high school, I have a friend who was a kpop fan since 3rd grade according to what she said, and as I’ve mentioned, ever since before I used to listen to a few kpop songs and I forgot how but I did discover Jay Park on tv and then listened to his music and had a huge crush on him for about 2 years before I became a kpop fan (i still listen to him now i luv his music) and then I listened to some of Taeyang’s music (ofc Eyes,Nose, Lips), with which I had no idea was part of legit the biggest kpop band in the world until I was tempted to listen to some BB songs and secretly listened to Growl when my sister wasn’t watching lmao because who doesn’t like that song???, So back to my point, my friend whom I never knew was a die-hard kpop fan since 3rd grade, was always silent since understandably not much of my friends were kpop fans when I first entered high school.  

This part is for me, a hilariously pathetic excuse since this is the time I started being a kpop fan: 

It was when we were tackling about the Music of Korea in class, our book had SNSD, Red Velvet, SUJU, 2NE1, and Wonder Girls and had a fun fact part about Dara since she’s called the Pambansang Krung-Krung (”krung krung” is a filipino slang which means foolish weird or crazy and “pambansang” meaning national so she’s legit called the National Weirdo of the Philippines lmao nothing offensive btw dont take it srsly) here in the PH. So after our class, our teacher told us to prepare a dance or a song in korean and put us in groups and I was a group leader since, not to brag, I’m pretty good at singing lmao, I got a little excited over the thought that we would probably sing Eyes Nose Lips or dance Growl and Fantastic Baby like that was already awesome for me. I had a friend who was really good at dancing so I assigned her to help out learning the choreo with me and I searched for what we were gonna present. I ended up choosing Come Back Home by 2ne1, EXO’s Growl and Good Boy by GD and TY. We didn’t have much time for practicing so we just dropped Growl and mashed up Good Boy and Come Back Home. 

But while we were practicing our dance, we considered Growl and I downloaded the dance practices for our chosen songs, me and my group watched the choreos carefully and guess what? While watching the Growl dance practice, I suddenly felt weird while watching this EXO member I never noticed before. I asked my kpop friend about it, and I eventually found out this little cute boy was Baekhyun. He wasn’t my bias though, my first EXO bias was Tao but after I found out there were 3 members who left the group and Tao was one of them, I became sad. Tao wasn’t my ub tho. 

After our presentations in class, when I got home I suddenly itched to search for EXO some more. I mean it wouldn’t hurt to know about them right? And so I searched and started watching interviews and watched EXO Showtime since people had recommended that watching that would be a good start for a new fan. I din’t watch all the ep’s of EXO Showtime but I did watch the famous episodes of the show, including the last EP which was when I suddenly fell head over heels for the fucking maknae Oh Sehun. 

After that, Sehun just became my universal bias, and then I watched Monster and fell in love, and then I became their biggest fan after just one month. Always keeping up with updates, following all the members who had IG accounts, and officially became an EXO-L just when I celebrated with other EXO-L’s online during Yixing’s birthday last year when What U Need? MV came out and then eventually Yixing became my biggest bias wrecker ever. 

I’ve only been an EXO-L for seven months, but I have memorized almost every lyric of all their albums and have downloaded every album on my phone. I know all their birthdays and their facts and their ideal types and I’ve memorized some choreos of their songs, I havent’t met them yet but I’m positive to see them before Xiumin’s military enlistment this 2019. 

I’ve realized there’s nothing wrong with trying something new out, EXO became a big inspiration for my life, they made me change into a more hard working person. Because of them I actually considered not giving up my dreams of becoming a singer and because of them I actually learned to appreciate dancing lmao. They’ve helped me into focusing on my studies and suprisingly my grades went higher ever since I entered a new life of being a kpop fan.

I explored kpop a bit more after becoming an EXO-L, I also joined the BTS Army fandom shortly after becoming an EXO-L and after seven months of being a kpop fan I legit stan a lot of groups and singers now. I’m a multifandom girl now even tho EXO is my bias group.

I stan BTS, Seventeen, NCT, KARD, 2NE1, BIGBANG, BLACKPINK, DEAN, Red Velvet, GOT7, Jay Park and Heize. I know almost 500 kpop groups and I know a lot about the history of kpop and I know how to speak average Korean now and its only been seven months lol.

Anyways, that ends my long post lol. Cheers to you if you finished reading this. EXO SARANGHAJA! EXO AND EXO-L FIGHTING! Cheers to 5 years with our beloved idols! 

(IM LEGIT SO EXCITED FOR THEIR NEW COMEBACK OMF BYE)