#ngl roleplay was fun as fuck before we knew we were a system

[divinerapturesys]

Can i ask how you gave up on rp because of did?

😃 oh a fun ask

we had to give it up because A) we were splitting alters from the oc’s created/characters used and B) for the majority of the time we were an active RP-er, we were a minor doing nsfw rp’s with adults 💀 (no we shouldn’t have, no we didn’t truly know any better, and yeah, the adults knew how old we were)

More specifically, we went through a 2-3 year long era of being groomed from 16-18 by an older woman who roleplayed pretty heavy nsfw shit with us; we subsequently split alters from those rps’ oc’s, and they are super fucked in the head from it lmao; they were heavily attached to her and because of daily rp-ing, were incredibly source heavy and struggled badly. She was an irl friend as well, so it didn’t go so great for us 😅

Now that we’re an adult and keenly aware of our DID, aware of being polyfrag + knowing how oftentimes a hyperfixation on an oc/character can spiral into a split, we’ve chosen not to rp anymore. Alters in the past used nsfw rp’s as coping mechanisms and as self harm tactics, and often the alters that split from those rp’s are pretty fucked up lmao. Overall, it’s just healthier for us to abstain from roleplay. We still make oc’s and enjoy world building, au making, headcanons, etc, but when it comes to the actual writing, we won’t.

I know roleplay for some systems can be healthy and/or helpful, and obviously not every system that rp’s splits from it. A lot of systems do it for fun and as a creative outlet, esp bc it’s so popular in fandoms n shit. But for us, it was a tool utilized by adults/older teens almost daily to groom us for years as well as used to fetishize our csa history and it sexually conditioned alters.

- Shiloh ❄️