#no u dont + demo it can sound like shit ...

[badnewswhatsleft]

THANK YOU FOR THE MANIA TEA POSTING like genuinely im so. interested in it i wish to know more…like we know some parts but i need the full picture u feel me

LITERALLY mania tea is fascinating im constantly microwaving it in my mind.... like don't get me wrong i rlly do love mania i will defend it always, but knowing joe was absent from and particularly unhappy with it... it doesn't affect my enjoyment of the album per se, it just always. sits in the back of my mind.

it was pretty obvious that joe was literally effervescent with pride in being more involved for srar. it was very interesting to me to find out llamania demos were likely joe & patrick close collaborations because you can tell joe really valued those sessions. for smfs: "[...] i have been more a part of the process from the ground up than i have been in years. i feel a personal connection to these songs." (p.211). and in that discord q&a "i like collaborating with my band" - like that guy clearly loves working with patrick/his band so much😭🥹

(and idk i have to shoehorn this opinion in llamania is soooooso so so so excellent to me like i promise thats not even joetrick brain speaking because i loved it before i even knew any of this info. like hello musically and LYRICALLY all 4 mins of it is already so good and interesting. im so serious)

so to see what happened with mania is so interesting. im just so stuck on the fact that joe says patrick initially agreed with him on the idea of returning to a more acoustically driven sound!!

like why would there be/who would make that sudden call to scrap everything...??

at about 00:58 in this vid patrick explains that the way it used to work, he and pete work so smoothly together they would produce a bunch of material and then ig the industry machine steamrolls on. from the sounds of it in joe's book as well, i wouldnt be surprised if maybe some version of that had happened again for mania? this is so tragic because all of srar they were so fresh faced adamant that the process would be different this time round lol. lmao even. but then... again: the fact joe says before going into mania, patrick had agreed with him on returning to a "band" sound again in the first place is still very intriguing?!?! which then leads me to think about the following -

there are also these points about mania from the guys that also give me much food for thought.

(source) "it didn’t feel like it was what me or Patrick really wanted to be doing but we both thought that was what the other wanted!" literally what. i dont like to extrapolate from one sentence where i cant even read his tone or body language but. what kind of dysfunction lol

(source) wild post-mania description of mania. everybody fights and everybody's miserable sweeeeep

also sorry for scuffed photos of book pages but the way joe describes it all is.

ummm i don't remember if i had a point to this. mania is literally like "this tea ain't shit" and half an hour later im pacing back and forth muttering to myself with none of this rocks open in my hands sticking book tab stickers on every paragraph. unfortunate album of strange creative frustration and pressure from pop culture and industry trends and joe clocking himself the fuck out of it we love to see it !!!!!

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hi cubeguy i sent u an anons a while ago that i dont use tumblr but i periodically check ur blog bcus it specifically rocks & im back. i listened to an album u recommended on here but im curtailed by the character lim to give a review so i typed out a real time extremely long reaction to the songs LOL definitely the logical nextstep. its @ pastebin.com/Ejd8E9VX idk if im allowed to link shit on tumblr?? anyway i hope to get around 2 other musiks u like bcus i lovedd this btw its get to heaven that i listened to THANK U 🎀🙇‍♂️💋💗💗💗

HEY YOU HAVE AN AWESOME WAY OF TALKING ABOUT MUSIC. GRINS SO MUCH. i’m glad you enjoyed gth it’s so so special to me genuinely the album of all time …. my favorite songs off it are s/s/w/d the wheel and blast doors Lways a joy to see someone go crazy about them

^ really fond of this descriptor here also i think it succinctly puts a lot of what i love about ee’s songwriting down into words…. the weird entanglement of love and hate and confusion and clarity it’s a very very special moodset

also YEAH the way you described the vocals…. the early everything everything albums play a lot with like. roughness and scratchiness and the kind of ‘animalistic’ register of the human voice. (honestly everything before raw data feel. this is literally because the singer just decided to learn how to sing in high registers without falsetto for the first time which is like cool but also AUGH i miss that old sound

OK SO the thing about this bit

absolutely YES the thing about get to heaven is that it’s literally just like. a complete album of bangers. going down through their other stuff is gonna be a little more rocky, you might enjoy the like once-per-album weird slow ballads you might not, even though i’m lazy about listening to some of their weaker stuff when i do go through the entire albums i still find a lot of quirks in the instrumentation or lyrics that manage to impress me. i’d recommend delving into either man alive or arc next those are basically on par with gth although a bit more weird and morose? if you’re feeling it id then recommend raw data feel which oscillates more around pop/new wave but still has some really interesting musical constructions, gets extremely electronic and synthy…. a fever dream is like a 50/50 split between really long slow songs which are just Fine and really fast heavy bangers. just go listen to notln, can’t do, desire, good shot, run the numbers and ivory tower LOL. uhhhh reanimator is arguably their weakest album probably the most unremarkable but it’s also like my second favorite right after get to heaven. it’s weird and glowy and flimsier than their other tunes. that enchants me i guess…. they’ve also got an upcoming album that once again seems to be more pop oriented, cold reactor is the best of the singles they’ve released for it yet. what else. there’s like a youtube playlist out there of demo/outtakes/non album stuff that you can find real easy, there’s some really good stuff in there. personal favorites are the come alive diana demo, even the dogs and dna dump

ok so the fucking thing about the “lore” of this album. there technically isn’t any and most of ee’s albums are a per-song thing usually revolving around like. modern social commentary. the genius pages for most of their songs have like. direct songwriting annotations by the band and explain the thought process behind them. however for gth there’s also like a small layer of overarching lore about this one guy called thomas silhouette as a character. he’s not so much the crux of any narrative or presence as much as he’s just like. funny anagram arising from a lyric in fortune 500 that gets alluded to in later albums because he’s loosely representative of a lot of themes that get tackled in ee songs like capitalism and dread and shit like that

[youkaigakkou-tl]

Earlier today, my sis and I tried thinking if terrifed teach was an anime, who would be the vas

We came up with:

Justin Cook (Kirishima [BNHA]) for Hijita

Justin Tindle (Karama [AssClass]) for Sano

J. Michael Tatum for Miki

Jonah Scott for Hatanaka

Landon McDonald (Ranpo [BSD]) for Akira (maybe, he was a hard one to pick)

Christopher Sabat (All Might [BNHA]) for The Principal

Kaiji Tang (Gojo [JJK]) for Karasuma

Luci Christian (Uraraka [BNHA]) for Kuniko

and then we got stuck

asgdsgafgdsf this isnt even putting the cart before the horse anymore this is fully loading the cart and building a stable before the horse

tbh. i dont watch dub anime so idk VAs (but also idk japanese VAs either. VAs just arent a thing i pay attention to in general really) but i have some free time so i guess ill look up some demo reels and give opinions on the ones i have any opinions on

(and find out that all the VAs i do know are from genshin)

Justin Cook (Kirishima [BNHA]) for Hijita

tbh i barely know any of the characters this guy voices. i guess its fine

wait actually. i know EXACTLY who should do hijita. max mittelman. that guy is so good

Austin Tindle (Karma [AssClass]) for Sano

shitttt ur right sano is kinda karma he's just less smug about it

oh what this guy also voiced kaneki i think i actually watched TG in dub back in the day

J. Michael Tatum for Miki

oh shit this is pantalone from genshin hell yeah

Jonah Scott for Hatanaka

JONAH SCOTT FRIEND OF DRAWFEE???

ok jonah cool and all but i have an actual opinion here. corey landis. the guy who voices welt in honkai star rail. i think he would fit hatanaka

Landon McDonald (Ranpo [BSD]) for Akira

too high pitched i think. takahashis voice gotta be low and sexy but also deranged (sanest takahashi liker)

consider: sean durrie (baizhu genshin)

Christopher Sabat (All Might [BNHA]) for The Principal

the characters this guy voices are all so gung ho the principal is more refined i'd like to think. and tired

have u considered. keith silverstein (zhongli genshin) (am i just typecasting yohaji chars to genshin chars at this point? perhaps)

now if i was a deranged person i would suggest the stanley parable narrator. thankfully i am a normal person so i would never say that

Kaiji Tang (Gojo [JJK]) for Karasuma

honestly? u know who would fit ranmaru? ranpos VA. landon mcdonald

Luci Christian (Uraraka [BNHA]) for Kuniko

ok going into this i already had an idea for kuniko. lilypichu. she would fit.

Alejandro Saab for Fuji

ah yes i see this guy on twitter all the time

my first thought was his voice is Too deep but then i heard his performance as miyamura and yeah i guess i can see it

Aaron Dismuke for Ogoso

idk i cant really see it but also idk what kind of voice would suit ogoso

and while we're on the topic of VAs anyway

kaeya's VA would totally fit ebisu

venti's voice but higher would fit mame

since jjk was mentioned: i always thought i could only recognise 1 jp VA (hiroshi kamiya, because araragi). i now know i actually know 2 because i was watching the new jjk and geto talked and i had to do a double take and still cant unhear reigen

the things i would do for amaaki to be voiced by hiroshi kamiya. i can only dream. or seimei but i think seimei is meant to have the same voice as haru. i think?

i have thought long and hard abt what harus eng voice should sound like. idk lol theres no genshin character i can typecast him onto. but i think max mittelman could do it too this man has sold me on him forever with his performance as itto i believe he has the range to do anything

tbh im like the worst person to discuss anime VAs with LOL the types of voicework i like is like. stanley parable narrator. superliminal glenn pierce. the beginners guide davey. getting over it monologue. (....honkai star rail welt)

[swangtup6]

Demo Review: Grausamkeit - Within The Abyss (1995)

heroin boy (BSoD)'s 3rd demo, released when he was only 15 and afaik not heroin Boy Yet. this shit bangs hard as fuck AND the intro was sampled in one of my favorite Sematary songs (10,000 Weeping Choirs). lets get into whats cool and not cool abt this funky piece of music

ok so first of all the production is absolutely AMAZING and by that i mean the music sounds kinda Like dragging a dumpster full of broken glass and used heroin Needles down a flight of stairs would sound. not that ive done that. or plan to. but u get the jist (gyst?) (fuck words). Real talk this isPretty perfect production for raw black metal, the riffs are (mostly) distinguishable as riffs, and the drums are audible but dont punch through The Mix very well, kinda creating a sonic slurry of analog distortion that creates a hypnotic atmosphere.

The songs r sick as fuck too. BSoD is prolly my favorite black metal musician ever, and one of my favorite musicians period. and i havent even been lsitenitt to him that long! this tape has dope black metal and he rly shows off his keyboard skills, espec on the song Dom Sathanas pt 1. Its kinda like if u got beethoven hooked on opiates and questionable political ideologies, gave him a cheap tape recorder n let him go at it.

This is music i can listen to In Almost any Mood.. i can chill out to it but it would also be somehwat Apprioptraite moshing Muisc to the exteant that black metal can be which TBF isnt Very. I do kinda wish there was more straight up black metal on this tape, as while i like the piano and keyboard stuff i really like when BSoD (Black Son of Darkness) shrieks with the force of a Methed out kindergartener over stolen Darkthrone riffs, pref with incredibly good synths playing in the back. overall super sick shit! could be more metal, but its still amazing

90/100 just bc its not as "metal" as id prefer

listen to it NOW

[jwowwsboobs]

luvvvvvvvwv how everytime im like ive wrrten a song time 2 record it while im recording it i realize how important the drums r n then i try 2 make a drum track n then i

[randombubblegum]

as much as i hate looking back and being like “omg awsten planned it the whole time” (bc tbh i am Tired of awsten and his schemes please just give me the product i’m gonna pay for) i do think the whole “deleting friendly reminder” thing was a total plan and he still has it somewhere. obviously bc he posted demos from it?? like it was never actually deleted. but with the theme of fandom being “the strangest dream of all” and middle/end of GH (idk where ice bath falls on the track list) being where he “wakes up” it would make sense that we’d revert back to friendly reminder era. not saying we’re getting those demos as real songs (altho i would love that) but just music like that you know? i also think it would be a way for awsten to crawl back to pop punk with his tail between his legs and play it off as “it was always the plan to do this obviously if fandom and GH were wild dreams they’re gonna sound crazy and different.” like i know and you know that’s not what happened, GH’s tik tok bait flopped, but i can see everyone on twitter being like “ommgggg GENIUS king shit he plans every move” yadda yadda. i kinda like the idea bc whatever it takes to get us back to old awsten, if we need to pretend the last two albums were fever dreams then fine.

this has just been my theory since the whole “GH was a nighttime album and parx5 is a day time album” and “ice bath being the wake up moment” but it’s a theory im clinging to out of pure hope lol

ya im totally in agreement with u here. although honestly i DO think he fully scrapped friendly reminder BECAUSE he released the demo versions yknow? like ya he definitely did not delete the album files, obvi. i think he said he deleted everything but the finished mastered tracks which presumably is what we got on the demo album. but i dont think hes ever gonna polish up the demo tracks weve had for 3 years at that point to release as “new songs” because even for him that would be desperate and pathetic…… which is like sad bc the demo songs are leagues better than anything on gh LMAO

i TOTALLY agree with you that i am sicklkk to bastard death of this “awsten had the WHOLE THING planned out years in advance!” like no. he did not. he does plan things and drop hints but theyre never as solid and concrete as people up his ass want to make them out to be LMAO like more often than not he just tailors stuff to reference things in the past and not the other way around, which is like fine, or else his “hints” are so vague and irrelevant as to be throwaways. like the phrase “next greatest hits” hidden in the fandom booklet…. that literally means nothing!!!!! and it could so easily be discarded and ignored to fade away forever if he decided g WASNT greatest hits lol

but anyway ya, u know and i know that gh flopped and his tiktok virality bait failed completely and he is SCRAMBLING to make up for it. hence crawling back to pop punk (and maybe hopeless records) w his tail between his legs…….. i can totally see him pulling something like that but honestly id be shocked if he ACTUALLY made reference to “we are doing friendly reminder again” bc that would fly in the face of his whole “NEVER GO BACK NOSTALGIA IS POISON FOR ART” uppity bullshit lol. and honestly with what weve heard of funeral grey it doesnt aound anything like friendly reminder (in a bad way…) so i dont have a ton of hope…… but i wish he would ☹️ regardless no matter what he does ppl are gonna look for ways to go “omgggg genius king of planning 🥺” even tho hes flying by the seat of his pants here

[clumsyclifford]

just finished writing this and realized how long it got oh jeez i am so sorry. i promise it is just me rambling about nothing and does not require a lot of thought.

i made a playlist of r5's entire discography and am listening to it (in order) because there is something wrong with me. if only it had their very first ever ep on it (ready set rock ep you may have been slight garbage but i don't love you any less for it). oh god i realized i fucked up and didn't add the songs by "ross lynch and r5" from the austin & ally soundtrack. i'm already three songs into louder and they would have been between louder and say you'll stay. what do i have to do is actually one of r5's best songs and i'm pretty sure i remember ross calling it one of his favs fairly recently?? which was so valid of him. anyways. this is now an r5 song ranking. i'm bored and avoiding doing assignments. i'm going to name my top 10 r5 songs off the top of my head. source: me trying to remember every song they've ever released.

no. 1: easy love. nothing comes close. my fav song they ever made. they haven't made anything that even compares since (this is /hj. tde has some valid songs).

no. 2: wishing i was 23. what do you mean i only love this song because of my nostalgia bias no i don't.

no. 3: what do i have to do? i will not elaborate i do not know why i adore this song as much as i do it's just a cute song.

no. 4: repeating days. THE END. THE FUCKING END AFTER THE SONG ENDS THE "all i've got is cheap wine" PART ross sounds so vulnerable and him with just the guitar makes me so :(((((( it's so gorgeous that part makes the whole song and that makes it top 3 for me.

no. 5: i want u bad. THAT SONG FUCKS LIVE. I DO NOT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THE FACT THAT I WILL PROBABLY NEVER SEE IT LIVE AGAIN. (speaking of concerts i can't believe you bought concert tix and fucking forgot??? that is actually so fucking funny bella it made me laugh i will not lie)

no. 6: dark side. so so valid of them. it just fucks. it's so good. it makes u want to dance. u named a fic after a lyric from it which was so valid.

no. 7: did you have your fun? i love this song. no i will not elaborate. it is a sexy song. what's that one lyric from it that's hot. "love me, leave me, left me numb" some lyrics you love for no particular reason and for me that's one of those lyrics.

no. 8: f.e.e.l.g.o.o.d. this has alwayysss been one of my favs by them. since it dropped. some lore about it: the like crowd yelling that's in it they recorded live at a festival they played and i remember there being hype about this being an unreleased song when they had the crowd chanting "f-e-e-l-g-o-o-d" with no explanation. also another fun fact is that the final version of this is just a demo?? source: my slightly faulty memory remembering ross saying something about some demos being so good that you keep them as they are and it later being revealed this was the song he was talking about.

no. 9: i know you got away. sexy song. they released a vocals only version of it (that has apparently since been deleted?? i went to look for it on youtube and couldn't find it?? wtf r5) that has stuck with me ever since.

no. 10: loud. but more specifically the acoustic or live version. this was their encore song that they played to end every show. i MISS IT. it holds a special place in my heart.

honorable mentions: hurts good (a good song and THEIR LAST THEY EVER RELEASED VV SAD), wild hearts (fun fact almost picked a lyric from this song as my senior quote till i found out they didn't write this song), fallin' for you (YOU LIKE MISMATCHED SOCKS WITH POLKA DOTS YOU LIKE YOUR PIZZA COLD I THINK THATS HOT i never saw this song live and i'm still fucking pissed about it ok), do it again (it's such a sweet song :(((( "listen to the airplanes as we count the stars" gives me the same vibes as six feet under the stars), things are looking up (generally just a cute song!! this whole ep is just very good and very cute!! when i saw it live one time during the bridge ross was like "everyone shut up this is my favorite part >:(" and that was so valid of him) i can't say i'm in love (it's just a fun song!! it was a bonus track on sln from another country), trading time (this is the only song from the new addictions ep that i listed and u know what i'm Not sorry)

ok. i will spare you and stop rambling. other honorable mentions: if you have never listened to cool girl (feat. the driver era) by new beat fund i highly recommend. it's an okay song but it was one of the first songs released after they rebranded as tde and includes ross saying motherfucker with his whole chest. i will never again feel what i felt the first time i heard that song having listened exclusively to them as r5 whose songs they couldn't curse in because they were on a disney label.

in conclusion. i miss r5. ross saying fuck is kinda hot. i listened to the entirety of louder while writing this. i am sorry to dump this in your askbox. i still have multiple assignments to do and should probably go to sleep at a decent time. it feels fitting to finally stop writing while easy love is on. when i was 12 and this ep came out i thought "dirtbags" was a curse word and was scared to sing it. they changed it to "douchebags" live.

that's all. goodbye. have a lovely night. listen to r5's discography for clear skin thriving crops etc etc. sorry to lovepost about them in your askbox i only have (1) former r5 mutual that i still talk to (a very interesting but long story. she's the gemini bestie) and she will only lovepost about r5 once in a while. feel free to ignore my ask calling cody bellinger hot i was a different person when i wrote it i am now a changed woman. LOVE YOU MWAH - bella but she misses r5

hi hi im going to answer this with minimal thought because im tired but i dont wanna leave this sitting in my inbox forever but for the record all your r5 opinions are valid. ok lets go

1. easy love slaps ive heard it a couple times over the last few days (it played in the car today while i was driving sam n meghna to the airport) and it does fuck i can see why it's your fave

2. i do not know this song

3. A BOP A WHOLE FUCKIN BOP

4. oh i do love repeating days great choice i would have to hear it a few more times to get it in my head but i remember really liking it when i listened to the album it's on

5. also a banger and i'm glad my concert tickets situation made you laugh it made me laugh too imagine being this useless gldskfjgs

6. DARK SIDE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS GIVE IN TO YOUR DARK SIDE YOUR DARK SIDE IIIIIIIII SEE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT MEEEEE

7. ANOTHER FUCKING BANGER this one is probably among my favorite r5 songs maybe top 5 LOVE ME LEAVE ME LEFT ME NUMB (guitar moment) DID YOU HAVE YOUR FUUUuuuuUUUUUNNNNN i feel the same way about this lyric as you

8. oh shit thats pretty cool i dont know this song tbh i cant remember how it goes i know ive heard it once or twice but. id have to listen to it again so i will keep you posted on that

9. i do not know this one either

10. interesting choice for top ten but i support you, this song fucks and ever since you mentioned it it's been in my subconscious and randomly getting stuck in my head i think i need to listen to it to get it out. it does hit ur right

11. i don't know hurts good or wild hearts or things are looking up or i can't say i'm in love or trading time well enough to say anything about them. but i really like fallin for you it's one of those cheap fun songs but emphasis on fun, and also really like do it again one day ill write a fic based on that song

i have not listened to cool girl i put it on my to listen playlist so hopefully i remember to listen to it soon ill be honest though i dont think im prepared for ross lynch saying motherfucker w his whole chest like i think itll take me out. so. anyway. i hope you got your assignments done. thank you for the r5 lovedump feel free to drop in anytime with more

[phobiadeficient]

Hey! First of all tell ya that holyfcknshit your writing gives me life! Like, ugh, youre my fckn fave writer!!! Aaaand this is my first request!: Transboy!Scout x Sniper x Demo! Maybe a little hurt/comfort centered on Scout? I just rlly love this three guys together!! Anything with them makes me happy! And your writing with this ship? Ugh ill be in heaven!! You dont have to do it if u dont like or arent comfy with it, tho! Thanks for letting us read your wonderful works!!

can you imagine being scout tf2 in this situation? “yeah im getting a little dysphoria guess i’ll talk to my two hot boyfriends abt it” like can you Imagine

(warnings for discussion of dysphoria and non-graphic PIV sex, i understand that not all trans men are comfortable with that but when i headcanon scout as trans i also tend to headcanon him not being particularly prone to most kinds of body dysphoria and having a generally positive self-image overall. just wanted to be clear on that)

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Overall, Scout felt pretty nice. With his two guys, fresh off of dinner and just a little bit buzzed, squished between the two of them all cozy and stuff, and Sniper was playing with his hair and Demo was telling some story about a dumb kid he knew in school and stuff was overall just real nice.

And of course his stupid brain had to come along and ruin it by making him think about sad shit.

They were in Demo’s room since he was the only one of them who was smart enough to get a big mattress. Scout had Sniper’s arm just sort of thrown over across him, he and Demo’s hands intertwined on Scout’s stomach, and he just kinda looked at them for a minute. He thought it was kinda neat just seeing all the little details there, how Demo kept his hands cleaner but his nails were longer, Sniper’s clipped way short but still just a bit dusty. Or maybe that was just his callouses and some weird tanning sort of thing going on, who could say? Demo’s hands always kind of ran warm, and Sniper’s always kind of ran chilly, and Scout would go way warm or cold depending on the day, super susceptible to temperature because he was such a skinny little fuck.

Maybe that’s what he was staring about. Looking at their arms, it was made all the more clear how much scrawnier Scout was. It wasn’t even like Sniper was a particularly buff guy, he could be described as “in-shape” at best, but he was still just... bigger than Scout.

And the other thing, he realized, was that man, Demo and Sniper were both pretty fuzzy dudes. Hair on their arms and legs and all across their chests, Demo with a pretty nice beard and Sniper with almost a beard on accident.

Wham, just like that, like a bat to the temple, self-consciousness, self-doubt. Because that was just one of those little tiny things that Scout would get super insecure about all the goddamn time. Just the little tiny differences. Like the slightly different jaw, the slightly longer eyelashes, the slightly different build. And Scout was lucky, he knew that, because he was tall, and he knew how to work out to build his muscles so he could pass pretty easily in that regard, and his chest wasn’t anything to brag about to start with let alone when he started binding.

But the lack of facial hair, and the hair everywhere else on his body being kind of pale and nothing, and his scrawnier arms, it just...

He exhaled slowly, letting his eyes fall closed. Okay, he needed to slow down and take a breath. Here he was, squished between his two favorite guys on the planet, and who just so happened to be willing to date him and sleep with him on a regular basis, and who were also really hot, and he was getting all up in his own head over nothing. It was dumb. He needed to quit it.

But his brain kept cycling him through it, again and again, and it was Sniper who eventually pulled him out of it.

At some point he’d started playing with the hair on Sniper’s arm, just sort of fiddling, pushing his fingertips across his forearm idly, and Sniper tilted his head to watch him do so. That made Scout suddenly aware that he was doing it, and he faltered for a second, but he continued anyways, even as it made his thoughts a little harder to ignore when doing it consciously.

“One day, love,” Sniper said quietly, and Scout looked up at him, a little wide-eyed with surprise. Sniper smiled a little. “You’ve been doing that for about twenty minutes and staring off into space like you’re waiting for your spouse to come back from the war, love, it was a pretty easy guess to make,” he elaborated.

Scout looked back down and away. Chewed on his lip and his words.

“Is it, like,” Scout started, and had to pause for a second to think of how to word it right. “Is it ever,

y’know, weird? How I’m all... smooth and stuff? And not fuzzy like you guys?”

“Not particularly,” Demo shrugged, the shift minute since Scout could feel it. “Not a big difference.”

“I’ve met plenty of blokes who shave or wax anyways to look nice for other blokes, you’re a good few steps more hairy than them,” Sniper added.

Scout nodded slowly. “...And the... you’ve already said all the other stuff isn’t weird,” he said carefully.

“Aye,” Demo agreed.

Scout was quiet again for a few seconds.

Sniper stopped playing with his hair and removed his hand entirely, and Scout went to complain about it, but was surprised into staying quiet by Sniper rolling to prop himself up over Scout, looking down at him. “Love, are we not telling you enough how handsome you are?” Sniper teased.

Scout flushed. “You tell me plenty,” he mumbled, glancing off.

Sniper took hold of his chin and tilted him back to face him, mouth very very close to his own. “Could tell you more.”

“Could show you more,” Demo agreed, finding a place to wrap his arm over around Scout, kissing at the space under his ear and making him shiver lightly.

“I—guys, it’s fine,” he protested, but it was weak and halfhearted, because Sniper promptly moved to the other side of his neck to nip and kiss, following Demo’s lead. “I-I-I don’t need the... the extra sort of, the...”

He kept trailing off as his breath caught, the two of them being extremely distracting when they wanted to be. He jumped lightly when Demo pinched him lightly on the side, and heard the rumbly little chuckle of amusement that the motion got him.

They finished off getting him properly distracted, Demo parting with one last hard kiss on the lips, and then they were both just grinning down at him, leaving him there probably looking like a complete mess, spots on his neck surely starting to redden.

“Handsome,” Sniper observed simply.

“Gorgeous,” Demo agreed, and gave him another peck for good measure.

Scout’s face was on fire.

“...Well what are you gonna do about it?” he finally prompted impatiently, shifting a little.

Chuckles from both of them, and then they were in motion, starting to strip.

Scout took off his own briefs and the tank he used to bind when they were off work, and mostly just set to distracting Demo as the other tried to get out of his own clothes, much simpler than his uniform but more challenging when Scout was hanging off of him and kissing him absolutely silly.

Sniper pulled Scout off of Demo and back into his lap to free up Demo’s attention for a moment, and Scout’s breath caught as he felt a bare chest against his back and bare thighs under his own. Sniper kneaded at his thigh idly and tucked his head in to nose just under Scout’s ear and speak. “How d’you feel like doing this, love?” he asked softly, sentence punctuated by a little kiss. “Feels like it’s gonna be your night tonight, that sound right, Tavish?”

A sound of agreement from Demo as he struggled free of his shirt. Scout chewed on his lip and thought a little, shifting his weight back against Sniper and enjoying the way Sniper steadied him with arms wrapped around his waist, the hardness beneath him, situated in such a way that he had to really roll his hips down hard to apply any kind of real pressure and make Sniper exhale softly against his neck.

“I dunno, you could fuck me, maybe,” Scout suggested idly, rolling down against him again for emphasis.

Sniper considered that. “We got any rubbers, Tavish?” he asked, and Demo paused where he was pulling free of the last of his clothing, thinking.

“...Should,” he confirmed, moving to the bedside table to check, and coming up with a few foil squares a second later triumphantly.

“Alright then,” Sniper nodded, kissed at Scout’s neck some more. “Who d’you want for what then, love?”

“You fuck me, just like this, I suck Demo off,” Scout decided, eyeing up the bomb-maker in question as he joined them on the bed again, now naked and smiling a bit as he passed over the condoms to Sniper.

“Sounds good to me,” Demo agreed, and pulled Scout in with a hand on the back of his neck to kiss him, other hand drifting over his thigh and guiding him up into a kneeling position to give Sniper room.

Then there was a pair of fingers drifting along the inside of Scout’s thigh, moving between his legs to tease him for a few long moments before Sniper was slicking them up and slipping them inside with relative ease. Scout moaned softly against Demo’s mouth, earning a chuckle.

“Lovely thing,” Demo teased, both hands stroking over his thighs as they started to tremble under the force of Sniper’s fingers moving into and against him in throbbing waves, a skill afforded by experience he’d only gained since he’d gotten with Scout, but fuck, he’d really learned a lot in a short period of time, knew exactly what Scout liked, knew his tells, knew when he could add another finger, knew when he could pull his fingers out altogether and guide Scout back down into his lap carefully, carefully, and Scout was grateful that Demo had the foresight to get lubed condoms because the slide was so nice as he sank down.

Demo pulled back to let Scout moan and curse and make all sorts of noise, visibly admiring the show as Scout rolled and shifted his hips to try and find a good angle, Sniper muffling soft noises into his shoulder. A long few moments were spent with Scout trying desperately to get used to the feeling, only to be thrown off his rhythm as he found a good angle, then again as Sniper rolled his hips gently and the pressure shifted, then again as Demo pulled him back into a kiss.

“Gorgeous,” Sniper murmured against the top of his vertebrae, kissing there lightly, breathless. “Gorgeous thing.”

“You’re—“ Scout started to say, but it was cut off by a shaky sigh as Demo nipped at his bottom lip playfully, Sniper mirroring the motion against his backbone.

In no time at all, he was shifting his legs slightly to get comfortable and starting to move, a gentle up-and-down, barely exerting himself with how extremely fit he was, himself doing most of the work with Sniper rolling along when he could.

And Scout was lost in sensation for a little while, and Demo had been making himself busy lying a series of hickies all up one side of his neck, so he was a little surprised and largely pleased when he blinked his eyes open and saw that Demo had a hand around himself as he took in the view the two of them made. And once he realized that, Scout didn’t waste time nudging his hand aside to try and take over, and then he was being treated to the always-lovely experience of being caught between the two of them, all giving and taking pleasure as well as they could with their brains getting increasingly scrambled.

And Scout could vaguely remember having said something about sucking off Demo, but every time he tried to pull his hand away so they could readjust, Demo mumbled some vague complaint and urged him back into place again. And somewhere along the way Demo slid a hand down his stomach to toy with him in much the same way he was being toyed with, and then all motion was kicking up a notch—

Sniper was done first, surprisingly, swearing through gritted teeth, pulling out midway through as he shuddered through aftershocks that seemed to drag on and on. Scout gasped, and found himself desperate and just a little bit demanding. But man, he really did get lucky enough to find two guys who were real hot and pretty smart, because when Sniper had finally settled down a little Demo had already rolled on a condom and was urging Scout into his lap instead, and he exhaled with relief as he sank down again, mouth locking together with Demo’s as soon as he could get the breath for it, Demo working a hand back down between them to then work at Scout as best he could as the other lifted and rolled Scout with very little effort involved.

And at that point they were both worked along to the point where it barely took any time at all before Scout was trying to muffle himself into Demo’s neck—yes he got loud in bed, no he couldn’t help it, even if he tended to be the one the team then took potshots at over breakfast for being a noise complaint. And Demo was there too, swearing in a choked voice and breathing hard.

Actually, they both were breathing pretty hard. And Scout felt ever-so-slightly steamrolled and extremely pleased with himself and the state of the world around them. And he found himself playing with the abundance of hair across Demo’s chest as he came back down, melting into a nice little puddle  in his lap and humming, gone soft and relaxed.

“Handsome,” Demo quipped, kissing at the side of his head, and Scout couldn’t help but smile at the feeling of a beard rasping against his hair.

“Feeling better?” Sniper prompted, and Scout could only hum for a moment, still a little overwhelmed. That got a chuckle out of the both of them.

“Must’ve done something right, aye?” Demo asked, and Scout heard the two of them sharing a brief kiss over his shoulder, and that got him to grin all the more.

“You guys are the best,” Scout decided, mumbly but pleased.

A hum of agreement. “...Y’know that, er, thing you tend to do? Where I’ll be acting like an absolute bugger and mouthing off and you make me go eat lunch and then suddenly everything’s all better because I wasn’t in a bad mood, I was just hungry?” Sniper asked.

Scout hummed in agreement.

“Think this might be that for you,” Sniper concluded, smoothing hands down Scout’s sides, and Scout leaned into it. “A little attention and all’s right with the world, seems like.”

Demo cupped his chin and tilted his face up to kiss at his cheek, and Scout was sure he was grinning like a total dope, but he couldn’t help it. “More attention might be just what the doctor ordered,” he agreed. “That sound right to you, lad?”

Scout hummed in agreement, melting back forward into Demo’s chest again.

“Alright, lovely as you are you ought to get up so we can mop up, doll,” Demo urged, and helped shift Scout up and out of his lap gently. “Made a damn mess of you, would like to avoid ruining the sheets.”

“Shower?” Sniper asked, pulling Scout to his feet.

“Shower,” Scout agreed.

And maybe it was just that Scout had been a little pent-up and it was doing things to his head. Or maybe it was that the two of them were excellent at comforting him in any way he could when those doubts started to spring up. Either way, he found it really hard to be worried about something as simple as him being less hairy than your bog-standard guy off the street when he had Sniper playing and helping to wash his hair and Demo humming more gentle compliments into his ear and bickering quietly with Sniper over nothing important.

[t-underneaththeradardancing]

been a while - since wrote in the evening proper and yah i been scarce - here for a hot minnit only  - fer instance - i started - got a text w info hadda pay attention - before wrote another - word - yet another interrupt - shun a fone call one i wanted yay - but - gone baby gone again if only for another minnit - as far as i can - teenspeek  amminnit is somewhere between at best 5 or ten minutes from now - more likely 30 and maybe forgotten or fone need charging 

it get like that and then radio silence 

and the usual errands taking longer lately rainy holidazed shopping and the energy suck the real world  i usual dont hafta live in much  i dont wanna  - tried straight life a few times i can fake it clean up good like omg tho it make u crazy and i dont use the term lightly - yes u do t 

and a melody my head and fingers meet at the odd times - pick up guitar and work out - it only take a  “minnit “ lol i teenspeak to my own self if itz convenient then repent like bob sing  - it takes so long to crow feed  3 murders sometimes well 2 for sure and stragglers - the birbs always welcome - seagulls and pigeons only if they play nice and they dont the usual  - or the weather - cuz itz winter  - t u fucken go on and on about the fukken winter - u live in temperate sf where it only hit freeze 1x so far and only for     -          - drum roll .....

a minnit      ( puleeez i hope u laffen )

have we mentioned the kitty omg so good she 

got good sleep that something a lot actually 

and about winter 

its a fucken metaphor of a metaphor for an actual weather change and little light and death  - some really sucky stuff has happened  - t some goddawful inna summer also - but at least its warmer? wtf  u dont look for the deep end of the bakery 

and fuck it - bet the whole fore sea able future on recording  - all in before finish  - knowing a couple fucked up cards and a slightly rigged deck  - called life on lifes terms or sum shit  - the unlikely alliance  alliances relationships alone - we all got problems  - but then again everybody  - at least that i know up close and personal and that really aint all that  - but then again wat is - ffs if u read me for any time u know its a little uh wacky in t’s hed  - vitas book has schizophrenic in the title  - we love niko and i aint asked permission - he is a perfectly well adjusted young male speciman of a human - at least by our standards lol - closest thing to an adult in the room - we fukken love him and back gonna meet in 3d his gf tomorrow and know we gonna love her - i hope she bring her bunny but maybe too loud at rehearsal demo recording in a rehearsal studio  - we getting fancy as fuck here  - and yah i bet big but not enuff to ruin - anything - we tawked out failure  “if we the recording gets fucked up are we gonna b good ? “ she ask - if anyone at that time it wood b t who did the fuckupping  - cmon fuck upping oh never mind i gess itz 2 wordz excuse me - no hesitation “ yah we gonna b fucken good  we been thru so much worse - its only fukken money and no one i love is gonna do without “  if we both survive it we gonna b good thru anything even of 1 of our own making cuz we that kind of ppl - sometimes - but when we come thru it is magic  - as long as we act in love as much as and yah we ppl means we fuck up act out - not too long w each other or too often mind u we aint toxic esp to each other or each others loved ones and we both love plenty - and niko says he could ez make a final mix out of rehearsal demos so far - except he duznt have much of my guitar recorded  - it dont matter - imma catalyst  we been making magic - my guitar gonna b there  - prominent in a couple few unless i just fuck up worse than imagine lol and i fekken worse than i spellz - no aint gonna resort to spells bad things happen - too often - cant foresee and its ego - srly the sound the way he shapes vitas songs - there is 1 demo good enuff shape it could b released - we betz we outdo inna studio - theres one important vocal more than good enuff .... imma blather 

laterz 

love

[msyuume-blog]

I LOVE YOUR QUESTION!

His hot sexy-smoochy-ramen r18 drama cd.. lol, serious, I still remember his debut in rated drama cd in end of 2015, he is still new but he keep progressing until now and never fail to make us more crazy bout him~

Ok ok, sorry, let’s leave that topic aside, now, WHY?

- He is Libra guy (29/9), his zodiac tells almost everything bout his personality, and it is true! Libra people especially those first half of Libra (23/9-8/10) is CRAZY.. I follow his Nandemo Hero radio shows since episod 8 till now, so.. yeah.. Haha no offense.. I’m a Libra myself (6/10)..

- I had a crush who is same age with Makonyan when I was a freshman in junior high, I was 13, and he was 19.. therefore, I cant help it but they related sometimes... the feels was too nostalgic

- Makonyan is friendly, and caring, especially to his kouhais!

- Libra person like us, friendly in real life, but actually have less friend, and yeah, Makonyan said this in his interview with Kiki Voice.

- Love to spend time alone? I think.. but I forgot where I read bout this, or actually I heard it at his Nandemo Hero radio shows.. (will reconfirm)

- HE IS DO-S, Kyaaaaaa! I’m an S, but I love when a guy can tame my S side.. (eh?), he often shows his Do-S side at his radios shows, gosh, dear Makonyan’s fan, pls pls pls support his radio shows ok? Here is the link

- He loves mint! Us love mint! (Eh)

- We love blue!

- He has nice smile, very warm smile.. and the feels is like that one friendly guy in the class who is always ready to help you.. (lol)

- So humble.. (I love this!)

- I loveeee his broad back! *nosebleed* Sorry.. 実話ね～お背中フェチだよ！>///<

- He joined his table tennis club and school band during high school, pretty satisfied with his high school life, so do I! ^_^ , If I were to compare my high school life with my campus life, I were more active back then.

- We LOVE Hikaru Midorikawa!

- Ohmygod, please, I love his slender nails and fingers, so pretty and neat.

P.S. Left, holding that super pervy pants drawing.. xD

- He said he loves shopping for clothes and will cherish his favorite clothes so much that some of it he only wears it once.

- Oh! We don’t like shiitake mushroom.. Erh..

- He listens to music to start his day! (Same! Same!)

- I love his white jacket (Do u guys call it jacket too?), I often see his pics with that jacket..

- He has nice voice~ I collect all of his solo songs or sang along w other seiyuu like SOARA, SideM, still cant get enough of his song, I really wish he will release a debut soon, please please please..

- His VAW! Demmmm.. (I wish I possess one, I hope I can buy it from anyone someday or anyone who is good enough to share even a scanned one.. huhu), I can only take a peak on few parts of his VAW.. tch..

- Recently, I notice that he gained weight (or actually he went to gym? Anyone?), which I think he looks nice with lil bit muscular body.. Pls maintain that ok Furukawa-san? (But he said he is losing some weight now for his tour with SideM.. so... naaaa I dont mind, dochi demo ii wa yo!)

- His normal voice is actually loud and cheerful, haha.. I can always imagine him as that one Mr loud neighbor who will never forget to greet you out from his window every time you pass his house.

- He looks dem nice in yukata! Uwaaaaaaa.. I saw him in yukata only once during Rengoku event, I want more! >_<

- He loves OPPAI! Hahahaha.. He said this in his radio shows, I don’t remember which episode, but it was between 10-20 (If my memory serves me right).. “I.. I love oppai” Makonyan said and Yukke laughed, then he added “But all guys love oppai right?? I think that is normal! Yukke does not like oppai??” Haha that one backfired at Yukke.. and I forgot what was Yukke’s respond coz during this time I was still polishing my Nihongo listening skills so I often missed some details.

- He sounds too cute when he spoke English.. >_<

- He’s my ideal husband material tbh

[Nandemo Hero! Yukke to Mabo! Ep 43]

And lots more!! I cant list out everything, it is tooo much.. coz I follow his radio shows and this Mr loud never stop give hint or share bout his likes/dislikes.. lol (nahh not all the time, but he DID)

In summary, I genuinely love him for his dedication on being a seiyuu, his talent, and him. One of my life goals is, I wish I can meet him in person someday, I even wish that I can come to Kumamoto someday, I watched a documentary bout his hometown, Kumamoto, a year after the earthquake.. which is narrated by Makonyan himself, I empathized them and in the same time I wish I can do some volunteer work at Makonyan’s hometown!

Makonyan is still young, he’s 28 this year, and I’ve foreseen his long seiyuu journey in the next few years, I hope he’ll release a debut soon, it will never be too late! I hope he’ll get more main roles or even minor one in anime, I hope he’ll never stop give some fan service (ahem) to us.. lol

かっこよくない？?  \(>////<)/ ..my friend saw this and asked, “Idk u engross with K-idol now” , HOLY SHIT NO! I’m loyal ! .. this one is from his latest interview with Kiki Voice (TQ, God bless them, register and you guys can read more of the article! <3)

“…. and do you follow any other seiyuu too?”

I do! But other than Makonyan, I like other seiyuus like Junjun, Massu, Yuukyan etc fairly and not more than that.. Oh but I do follow Nakazawa Masatomo frequently when I dint spend time with Makonyan, I dunno why.. but I don’t follow too much mainstream seiyuus.. dunno.. don’t ask.. xD

Ok, sorry for my long post.. xD

[tellytantra]

Healing Touch - 1 Back Story: Dr Ishani says sorry to Dr Sid and warns Dr Rishab.  All the junior doctors plan to visit Dr. Sid's home for Ganpathi pooja. Dr. Ishani feels happy on meeting Dr Sid's mother. Though she doesn't like to be touched by any other person she likes when Sid's mother (gayathri..iam giving name for reference ) feeds her & hugs her.  Sid happens to take care of her so that others don't touch her ( more for her comfort).  Just then Asha fights with goons & ishani also happens to fight with them & Sid is oblivious to this situation & playing with Kids.  At Sid's Chawl: Please remember the look of all the doctors .. same as it is...  One of the goon takes Ishani's Dupatta  and proceeds towards her. And there Naman, rahil & Sam struggle to save both the girls.  That goons are about to touch Ishani  and just then Sid appears before them and says; Sid: arey! Bhai Do not bother them.. Today is a Ganpathi's day. so please leave.. Ishani: Dr Sid! are u insane ? why are requesting them ? they misbehaved with Asha & with me and now u are requesting them. Goon: Arey! this girl has lot of audacity to speak like that.. i'll not leave her ... Sid: Places his hand on him & gently pushes him aside and says Bhai! leave her na .. I am sorry .. on behalf of her ...  please..1 Goon: no! we want her right now.. she has to  dance with us.. Sid: (in mind) i think i have to fight now ..what a situation first i have to fight u & then i have to treat u...(speaks out) OK ..So let me do some rehearsal before her.. and starts fighting them.. by then..Others also join and fight them...1 In midst of fight , sid happens to  help Ishani , so that none touches her while actually he being very close to her.. Gerua ...only music plays as bgm...she feels a different kind sensation with his touch.. at last she happens to hide her face on Sid's chest.. & Sid comforting her saying nothing!!! Just then Gappu mama comes with kids & other Chawl members  and chases goons ..  Goons run away from there..(angrily).. Sid & Ishani gets themselves separated..  In fight Sid & other boys get hurt.  After this Ishani feels little drowsy & was about to fall , just then Dr. Sid holds her. She gains her consciousness. Gerua ...only music plays as bgm...  Sid gives her dupatta  but it is torn. bgm continues...He covers her with that..  He asks everyone to visit his home. so that they can fresh up & go. So they all visit Sid's home. Ishani gets surprised seeing his home. As soon as they enter, Gayathri gets shocked seeing them.. They explain her what happened and she takes gappu mama inside...Asha & Ishani start treating their wounds ( boys were hurt due to the fight).  Ishani first dresses Sam's wounds . Asha tends to Naman's wounds. Sid treats Rahil. Just then Ishani happen to see a wound on Sid's hand. She promptly  catches his hand and starts treating.. Just then Gayathri also sees the wound & before she can approach him.. Ishani catches his hand starts saying... Ishani: are u crazy ? ur hand is bleeding! first u get treated before treating others..  Sid: ok ok! Dr. Ishani. Ishani: Why did u fight ? U can simply talk and finish the matter na!! See how deep the cut is!! Oh ..No....! Iam Cleaning!! Wait dont worry ...Sit! 1 Sid: Are u insane?  Ishani: What? .....Why are u scolding me now? Sid: I mean first u scolded when iam talking with them for not fighting & now u r scolding me for fighting !!! Seriously!!! are u ok!! All laugh at Ishani... for this... Ishani: (fumbling) I mean i got scared at that time.. but.. but u should fight in way u  dont get hurt...OK..So this is ur mistake.. (not looking into his eyes...& treating his wound)   Sid: Seriously! So u mean I should ask those goons like.. Bhai! Please beat me slow & dont hurt me ..because Dr. Ishani doesn't want me to get hurt... 4 Gayathri smiles at her innocence...! Ishani: Very funny!! U should know to protect ur self first.. Sid: Well! But u were my Priority at that time.. Ok.. (She just stares at him after listening this remembering how he took her protecting from everyone's touch) Gerua ...only music plays as bgm...Dr. Ishani ..DR. ISHANI....! (comes to reality) what happened!! Ishani: let me complete dressing ur wound. dont disturb me... Gayathri gets happy looking at them caring for each other.  Just then the chawl kids come there & say Kid 1: Arey ! this is something new... we saw Sid bhaiyya treating others & see he is getting treated by this Didi.. Kid 2: are u also a big doctor like Bhaiyya? Sid: Oh! she is bigger doctor than me...! Infact all of  my friends are bigger doctors .. U know..  Kid 3: so u wont take fees na.. i mean  same like Sid bhaiyya..! Every week he treats chawl people for free... Ishani stares realizing how generous Sid is & smiles.. Just then Gayathri asks kids to leave as they are tired & says: Gayathri: achha! beta.. eat something na .. its already evening!! Asha: No! aunty ji.. Me, Naman& Sam ate at mela .. we ate bajjis, laddu, Modak & Golgappa...(naman signs her to stop) Sam: No! aunty we are fine.. actually Ishani didint had anything except prasaad!  Asha: This babydoll doesnt eat out na .. !!  Naman (to Asha): Oyy.. Madammm! Chale.. lets go.. Asha: Aunty ji we shall leave... Ishani: wait iam also coming.. Gayathri: Where are u going ? U wait for sometime.. u didint had food na.. i'll feed u ok.. Ishani was happy hearing & was about to agree ..but just then Sid: No Maa! He asks others to leave & says...she doesnt like all this .. I'll take her out & make her eat something . Gayathri : Also drop her home safely.. OK!! Ishani was disappointed for some reason & given an angry glare to Sid. Sid doesnt understand anything.. Ishani was about to leave just then gayathri comes & cleans her face & hands with wet cloth like a mother doing it to her child..She feels emotional .. Ishani feels emotional... Gayathri also gives her one of her dupatta (not so new one).. to her as her dupatta is torn...  Saying 1 Gayathri: u r going out right.. it is not good to go like that.. & see ur face.. u didnt even clean it ..it is all coloured... u r just like this Sid...She Completes cleaning & signs like now perfect... Sid panics seeing this thinking that she might not like it.. but he is surprised to see Ishani accepting it... HIS mom pins dupatta to her dress & what Ishani does next makes Sid's jaw drop!!! She just hugs his mom's dupatta tightly to her & takes blessings from her .. Gayathri blesses her.. Seeing this kind of Ishani is  new to him.. but he just smiles ( with .. Whoa! this is new kind of expression) & both start from there..  They complete  their dinner & start towards ishani's home.. Sid finds Ishani to be more happy today... Just then Sid gets call from Rahil , saying that he reached his PG . also Asha msgs Ishani that she also reached her PG & others also msged Sid that they reached to their PGs.+ Ishani then insists Sid to leave from there she can manage . But Sid doesnt agree...  Madhu_123 "Please Don't leave me"-2 Dr. Sid: No! No! NO way.. i am not leaving you here until i drop u at ur place. Ishani: No need Dr. Sid. I am fine. I can manage.. So stop being stubborn Dr. Sid: Ok till u reach Highway.. OK? Dr. Ishani: What! y did we take this route? We can take highway very much before na!! Dr. Sid: (turning other side & smiling) Oh! i haven't noticed it.. its okay only 20 more mins. we can reach highway.. (he deliberately took that route so that she would take him with her.. well he really want to accompany her ,, ofcourse for her safety)  Just then  its starts raining. they run to nearby tree for shelter...  Ishani: see Dr.Sid..now we gonna be late.. we will not be able to reach highway in 20 mins.. its just because of u.. Sid: Dr. Ishani, u cannot always mourn or panic on situations .. just think of bright side.. atleast we got to spend some time.. (aw! look on Ishani's face) and u r not alone.. thank god i didnt leave u alone to go.. right .. y u have to always run.. stay calm & cherish all good things of today!! ishani remembers her meet with Gayathri & her care & concern. She sees her dupatta & hugs it tight . just then a car passes by as the land is muddy due to rain ..just before it could splash muddy dirt water on ishani Sid pulls her towards him.. Gerua bgm plays.. Ishani stares at him.. she feels a different sort of comfort around him..   Just then sid realizes their position.. immediately moves a bit & says Sid: So sorry! i forgot..  Ishani: still staring ) its ok..  Sid: what? Ishani: Coming to reality) its not ok . not at all ok..(looking here & there.. Sid: ok sorry. but By the way.. u seems to be so happy today. Ishani: ha! kind of.. i just felt it.. (smiling & looking at her dupatta). Thanks for taking care of me.. understanding my phobia.. Sid: If u dont mind i just wanna tell u one thing Ishani: yess! Sid: u r not germophobic..OK .. stop saying that, ok. u r not afraid of germs or dirt. U r afraid of people & trust me the people made u feel like this are real shit. just ignore them because u will find lot of people who will hold u anytime & everytime. OK Ishani(looking into his eyes till now & keenly listening): I am feeling like i can agree.. but iam afraid..  Sid: chalo.. Then lets give it a try now.. Friends? (extending his hand). Ishani: Hesitatingly.. trying to give her hand... in midst sid  saying  try it ishani u can do it... & atlast  join her hand with his..  Sid: Whoa! ..at last got it.. OK when we are friends, no Dr. Sid.. simply, Sid goes fine for me.. now say the truth,, u felt happy meeting my mom.. did u remember ur mother? Ishani: (little shocked).. ha.. actually... Sid: come on Ishani we just became friends u cannot cheat me.. Ishani: i really don't remember my parents, not even their faces..it might sound weird..but i felt a motherly warmth from ur mother.. U r so lucky to have her.. Sid: I know.. but trust me.. its not weird . sometimes it happens. So u r willing to diagnose ur idleness disease..nice Ishani: But some diseases cannot be cured totally.. Sid: May be. but this is curable..  & u want demo.. Ok I'll give u instant reliever.. give me a "jaadu ki jhappi"  Ishani: (with What !..look)Dr. Sid.. no please.. Sid is approaching her with open arms.... Rain stopped. so Ishani starts running on road towards.. Sid smiles looking at her childish behaviour.. and runs behind her... They run & run and finally stops to breath. they laugh a lot . sees that they almost reached highway.. Just then a goon comes & hits Ishani . she happens to fall down on side of road.. just then Sid realizes the situation & blocks them & fights them.. Ishani gets up  & asks him to take some log or stick ... he doesn't listen & takes her into his hug..so that they doesn't harm her..She stares at him.. & cries .. they hit him on head.. Still Sid Yells POLICE.. where the goons get scared starts to run back.. here Sid takes her hand runs towards Highway.. before goons realize the lie & come back to Sid& Ishani.. they reach highway.. So the goons leave on fear of getting caught by anybody.. On reaching highway, Sid collapses there..  Ishani: SID!!!!!!!! Please open ur eyes .. sid Please.. she hugs him & shouts somebody help.. please ...  Sid: Are...U Okay...?   Ishani: I am fine.  Sid.. please dont close ur eyes .. Stay like this.. stay with me.. She hugs him tightly  rubbing his back.. checking his wounds & condition.. she gets panic and now & then shouts for help... Sid happens to open his eyes slightly in blurred way he sees Ishani hugging him, crying, asking him open his eyes, shouting for help.. he smiles slightly..  Just then some people hear her & a poice passing by in his vehicle, stops & enquires about situation. She asks him to give his phone & he gives her a phone & she phones Ambulane & thanks him. She tries to do first aid & analyse his situation.. (GUESS who is this POLICE?) Police observes that she is a Doctor.. he happens to see her very tensed.. so he informs his polce people to inform the traffic persons to let ambulance pass through traffic, so that it reaches their place early..   Police : Madam! dont panic. I have spoken to the police nearby, they will make sure that ambulance reaches here at the earliest...tell me where are ur mobiles  so that we could inform to ur family or friends & tell me what happened with U.  Ishani says the location where the goons attacked. All the time she doesn't leave Sid. Police: DD! please go there check if there are any phones!!! (guessed who's this police.. yupp! Its Neil Khanna IPS from Namkarann)  4 after some time ambulance comes. DD brings back their phones. Ishani calls & informs her friends.. All get shocked & immediately start to hospital. Dr.Rahil informs to Gayathri..she also starts to hospital.. Ishani throughout the journey catches his hand & says "please dont leave me.. please dont leave me.."  to Sid which he hears it now & then.. """"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""" PREVIEW: Sid: Why Ishani didnt come to meet me after my treatment? All look each other faces.  Scene-2: Sid in his mind lets see how u are going to avoid me.. Scene-3: Ishani in her mind iam the reason all this happened. Just then nurse comes & says Dr. Ishani..actually Dr. Sid.(muted)... Ishani panics & leaves to Dr. Sid room.   Sanjivani's Apple of Eye-3 Dr. Sid was brought to hospital. Everybody who so ever sees him carried to the OT just follows him.. Ishani: Dr. Sandhya please inform Dr. Shashank & Dr. Juhi about. Please arrange for a scan & we might require OT.. please do arrange for it also..  Just then Reema Head Nurse comes there tensed asks: Reema: What happened to Dr. Sid.? Oh god! he's bleeding like hell.  Ishani: (Crying ) Its all because of me .. I'll explain u later reemaji . Please arrange for blood and  inform Dr. Shashank.  Reema: OK. I am on to it..  Just then all her friends enter the Hospital , they need not even ask them where is Sid because everyone are talking about the same..  Meanwhile Reema  comes to where shashank & Juhi are there.. Even Vardhan & Dr. Anjali were also present . they are having some meeting.. Reema: (breathing heavily) Dr. Shashank ..Actually.. huh.. Sid is hurt.. Dr. shashank: what? please take a seat & have some water..(signaling Juhi to handover water) Reema: After having some water.. Dr. Sid is hurt very badly.. i dont know whether accident or what but he is loosing lot of blood & there's an injury on his head.. Dr. ishani is calling you both..   Dr. Anjali: Where is he now? & head injury ...i hope nothing bad happens .. Vardhan: I'll ask to arrange for OT right now.. Everybody are shocked for his response.. but he leaves from there saying that.. They all rush to the check up room where Ishani along with Rahil & Asha are checking Sid. Dr. Naman & Dr. Sam handling the crowd who were rushing to see what happened to Sid ..so they finally  handle them..  Just then Juhi, Shashank , Anjali & Reema enter the room.. And Dr, Rishab who passing by sees this & says Dr. Rishab: Well, only a doctor is hurt.. I dont understand why people are behind him.. They can do their duties just for one patient they wanted to disturb the whole hospital... tries to enter room but is stopped by Dr. SAM & Dr. Naman  Dr. sam: Dont get disturbed by this & please continue your work.. Dr. Naman: Bhai! cant u understand in a simple way.. just leave.. Rishab leaves from there angrily.. Dr. shashank gets tensed looking Sid like that.. Dr. Juhi understands his situation & send s him out & asks Anjali to take care of him Anjali nods & says to take care of treatment & leaves taking shashank with her.       Dr. Juhi finds Ishani crying and she is also hurt.. her hand & head (slightly) is bleeding but still she   holding his hand "You cant leave me" again & again. She sends her also out with Dr. Rahil & asks him to treat her. Before going she explains all the symptoms & conditions to Dr. Juhi in one go.. Where Dr. Juhi calms her & says She will handle everything.. Dr. Rahil Comes out with Ishani  & there they see Gayathri..Dr. Ishani runs and kneels down in front of her & pleads   Dr. Ishani:  I am Sorry aunty. its because of me.. Dr. Rahil explains that Sid is being taken to OT. Gayathri makes her stand & takes her to  nearest bench &  says  Gayathri: U r not the reason. never feel guilty or sorry. Sid, is like that only.  Dr. Ishani: He made me friend when everybody are avoiding me. But i made him to suffer.. Gayathri: Never say that . U didnt even understand him & his friendship. he always places his friends over him.  if u r still not satisfied then I'll believe u. only if u make my sid say that this happened because of u. OK  Dr. Ishani : looks into her & cries.  Gayathri: i can see u were also hurt. please treat ur self  beta! Rahil: Yes! u should be treated soon. please come with me..  Dr. Ishani: BUT.. Rahil; please ! U really require treatment.. He takes her.. &  on their way they happen to see Anjali & Shashank:  Anjali: Dad! please control yourself. Nothing shall happen to Sid. Dr Juhi is there to take care.  Shashank: Yes! (sighing) I hope so! Nurse: Dr. Anjali, there's an emergency case . Dr. Rishab needs ur help. Anjali: I am coming.     (looking at Shashank & latter assures her to go) Just then,Dr. Ishani abruptly goes & hugs Shashank cries her heart ..    Dr. Ishani: I am the reason this happened with him. I am always bad to those who are good to me. Dr. Rahil: Ishani please calm down..  Sir, she has to be treated ..she is injured..  Dr. Shashank: please get first aid kit to me. I'll treat her.. U can leave.. Rahil handovers kit.. but he doesn't leave .. he helps him .. like cutting bandage ..giving cotton soaked in solution etc.. Dr. Shashank:  Ishani, see beta! u cannot think like that.. everything will be fine.. please. See Ur uncle is treating to u.. Right. He will be fine.. and if u feel guilty u ask him sorry once he is fine. OK. but no more tears..OK. cleaning her face with his hand. Dr. Rahil smiles at there bonding & Ishani's concern.. Dr. Juhi performs the operation with team consisting Dr. Asha, Dr. Naman, Nurse Reema & other 3 doctors  Vardhan visits operation theatre from outside & wishes that u should be alive ..!(to himself but audible) Dr. Anjali : I thought u hate Dr. Sid! Vardhan: then u dont know me. I dont know about me. But one day someone might hate him.. Dr. Anjali: what? Vardhan: Just kidding! who will hate one of best doctor of Sanjivani.. I'll take leave & could u please update me with his condition. Dr Anjali: Ofcourse! (with suspicious look) Operation is suuccessful.. Juhi comes back & informs everyone.. All are happy..   Juhi says he is taking rest & u people can see him tomorrow.. All people leave happily & Juhi leaves  to inform Dr. Shashank. Asha to gayathri: aunty ji we cannot see him now. he is out of danger. We can visit him tomorrow. Gayathri thanks god. leaves to home after looking her son for one last time through the glass door.. NEXT MORNING: Asha , Naman, Gayathri, Rahil & Sam visit Sid's room. First all the people just visited him & wished him to get well soon & left ..  Sid: Whoa! today I am feeling like I am a celebrity!! isn't it cool! (smiling) Gayathri: Sid! u will never change .  Sid: Maa! but they were about to attack her.. Gayathri: I know . I know.. but u should also consider me.. I don't have anyone except u.. U cant leave me right. U protect anybody.. I dont care. but don't get hurt.. I can't take it. Sid: Maa! now u r speaking like her.. how can i not get hurt while I am fighting.  Gayathri looks disappointed...While all others smile.. Sid: OK sorry Maa!.. How is ishani? Is she fine?  Rahil: She is with Dr. Shashank.. She has some scrathches on her hand & head.. Sir, treated her.. I mean she was not willing to get treatment..yaar! Gayathri: She was just crying & crying .. She is thinking that she is the reason for your state.. I think u Can only make her understand..  Just then Nurse Reema comes there..  Reema: So our Celebrity is awake.. Good Morning, Dr. Sid! Sid: Good Morning, Beautiful! So how much did u miss me? Reema: Shall i say the truth, Not at all .. because from the moment u were admitted the whole hospital is talking about u.. so i didn't miss u. & moreover i know u would come back, because we had a pending date!!!!   Sid: Yeah!!  Gayathri: thank you for taking care of my son.. Reema: Oh! when did I take care of him..? Well he got a new care taker now!  All just looked at eachother.. like who? Reema: I mean Ur partner in crime.. Dr. Ishani!!!  Yeah ! she is the one stayed the whole night with u.. gave u medicines, dressed Ur wounds, ..all ! she was just sleeping holding your hand while i came in the morning shift.. Asha, Naman, Rahil & Sam..altogether: Holding his hand!!!!!! Sid just smiles remembering how she hugged him.. how she told him not to leave him...All the moments flashed in his mind..  & was smiling!! Asha: What happened, Dr. Sid. Sid: nothing !  Gaythri phone rings; Gayathri: what? OK I am coming right, now. Sid, Guddu is troubling vidya Aunty, I have to leave. I got Ur breakfast & fruits. please have them. I'll come back in the evening..OK saying this she kisses him on his forehead & leaves.     Within few minutes, Dr Shashank visits him. Dr Shashank: Dr. Sid, u really scared me.. Sid: Sorry, but i didnt mean to. Dr Shashank: U should be careful. I shouldn't hear such news again.. U can leave us & sanjivani. U can't leave me ..! Sid: I know.. u'll need me . How will u be able to handle Vardhan alone? Dr Shashank: hahah! yupp! please be safe next time atleast for me.. and Ha! have you talked to Ishani, She is hell tensed about you.. Sid: I know.. but why didn't she come & meet me after my Operation? Dr Shashank: she feels she is the reason.. Sid: I feel like Iam  babysitting her! Dr Shashank: Well Ur babysitting is working.  She finally found a friend & totally worried about him.. Sid smiles Dr Shashank: Iam happy about it.. But this is really new. I mean she is the first  person after Rishab & vardhan to fight with u.. &  now u r like a close friend to her.. Sid : Yeah! I am waiting to see her since i Opened my eyes Dr Shashank: really!! with a smirk!!  Sid: I mean She is also hurt right, So..  (covering) Dr Shashank: OK, ok but i dont think she would visit u.  Sid: she will only if u both help me! + Dr Shashank & Reema look at Sid, with What? look! Hunterwali-4 Sid: She will Ofcourse, Only if u both  help me Reema & Shashank look each other With What ? Kind of look.. Sid explains them.. & they smile. Just then Dr. Juhi visits them .. Juhi: Dr. Sid I hope u r fine now..! and what were smiling for? Sid: Iam fine Dr. juhi. I mean u r the one who treated me so I'll be more than fine.. Juhi: Good to hear that..and Sir! what is going on here? will anybody tell me or not!  Shashank: Woh! Actually, it is Sid's secret. I guess so.. Juhi: Oh really! now I am really feeling that he replaced me as Ur favourite student now...! Shashank: Hahha! i was just kidding. actually we are planning to make Ishani to visit him..  U know right, how she is avoiding speaking to him.. Juhi: Finally, u r back with naughty team sir.. Well i think I can help u people..  Sid: Oh really, But how Dr. Juhi  Dr. Juhi & Dr. Shashank exchange looks & the latter sighs understanding her intention & both smiles..& all leave from there  saying just a second & all the best to Sid.1 Sid: Dr. Ishani... IN OTHER CONSULTATION ROOM AT EVENING: Dr. Ishani completes her shift & was about to leave.. suddenly she just remembers how everyone was talking about his condition & how her friends asked her to speak to Sid.. But she is very much guilty & angry on her that she just let goes of the thought of visiting him.. just then Dr. Juhi enters her room saying Juhi: Dr. Ishani actually I need u to work for extra shift . is it OK for U? Ishani: A..Yes Dr. Juhi. I will. Juhi: Take this. U r now to take care of Sid. Please ensure that all the tests are done , medicines were taken time to time..OK. before she could respond to it: Dr. Juhi: I have to leave I am already late. OK Dr. Ishani . Good night. please update with the status.. Juhi comes out & signals Reema ..  Reema smiles & gives Thumbs up.. IN SID'S ROOM: Sid: Maa! why didn't u come now? (in video call- phone)   Rahil (other side): Bhai! I came here to bring her & guddu mama to u.. but today's weather is not good Bhai!.. So i should also stay here.. that's why I arranged this video call  Gayathri: Beta! how are u?  Sid: Iam fine Maa!! Gayathri: Oh! so tell me did Ishani  meet u? Sid: we have planned .. but don't know madam would come or not! Gayathri: PLAN??  Sid explains everything.. She smiles listening to that ..  WITH ISHANI: Reema: Dr Ishani, please hurry up.. actually Sid! is not moving at all.. he might have paralysis..! Ishani: What? How can that be possible! there is no complications mentioned in his report!! No!! starts slightly crying out of tension... and runs to Sid's room.. SID'S ROOM: Sid is lying facing other side, though his monitor shows normal pulse rate she didn't even observe and enter the room, walk till the bed.. just then Dr Asha, Dr. Naman reach the door & stand there. All others come out.... She understands that she has been tricked. tries to leave but  Dr. Shashank: Wait Ishani, this is not fair.. U should speak with Sid. Ishani: Uncle, seriuosly ! You are also involved in it  Sam with Sid's phone in video call both Rahil & Gayathri..watching themm.. Dr. Shashank: U told u will ask sorry.. atleast ask it.. Sid: I mean u feel sorry! Why ishani for saving me.. u hate me that much!! oh(with cute pout) Ishani: (controlling her Anger) I am not only sorry but also angry SIR (to Sid). anyway I am ur post OT doctor. So if u could please allow me Let me check ur stitches  & please take ur medicines SIR Sid: Ishani , now y r u addressing me Sir? we are already friends right! Ishani: No! we are not Sir. u r my senior.. and by the way U'll not be able to take my friendship right now.. and u all didn't even leave.. anyway .. Sid SIR please cooperate with me.. Asha: Oyy! Babydoll , why r u reacting over? He saved u . u should thank him.. Ishani: Yeah! i know but that doesn't he has to harm himself.. and .. huh!! whatever! SIR please let me do my job.. Dr. Shashank, Dr. Juhi & reema just watch them to let them sort the situation.. Sid: OK fine. next time I'll be careful fine..! Ishani gives a deadly glare to him Ishani: Next time..! Next time!(little slowly but with full on anger) SId: Yeah! u r sorry.. my punishment is be my friend for today! Ishani: (still controlling anger- sarcastic smile) i told u SIR u can't handle my friendship! Sid: no! No ! I can handle give it a try! Ishani: So u say I am Ur friend.. right Sid: Only for today ..if u feel bad.. but yeah I don't mind for lifetime! Ishani: I only require 5 mins. I am really warning u, dont tell me that i didn't warn u. Sid: R u going to kill me..Haha!! Ishani: OK Ishani.. u can do it.. by this time Asha & all others are near Sid. None at the door. just then Neil enters the room silently but none observes .   Ishani: (loudly) How dare u? U stupi.. Idiot.. Duffer...u r mad.. like what do u think of u? ha .. superman, spiderman , hero.. I told u before we shall take Main road.. u deliberately took short cut.. then again i told u do not fight them ,, u fought.. & ok again i told u take some stick or log to fight & i'll also help u.. NO! because u r the only Hero.. what a fight.. & then u dont listen to me . u got hit on ur head.. I am alone.. what if they attacked us when we are faraway from highway? No! even that doesn't seem logical.. and what u r saying .. NEXT TIME.. I mean  NEXT TIME.. so u want to get hurt again..  Iam telling if I happen to listen again that I am going to give tight slap on Ur face. Do U get that??!!! &  remember ur mother gave me right to do..(she told all this one go & stopped breathing heavily) 1 BY this time all were like.With Eyes open widely.. Dr. Shashank ..whoa!  Dr juhi & Reema : Smiling  Dr Asha, Dr Naman & Sam: i think she got mad because of tension.. Iam scared of her now!!! Sid: with million Dollar Horrified Expression!!! Ishani: Now tell me ? Sid: (in trance) SORRY!!(with shocked expression)1 Ishani: Not Sorry! will U again do such act..? (being close to him, keeping her hand on one side of his bed) Sid: nodes NO! but immediately smiles!!!! Ishani then stands back.. Neil : Hello guys! Hi Shashank Uncle.. Did u recognise me? Juhi: Welcome Mr. Neil Khanna!!  Shashank: Neil.. khanna,....Oh! Tillu beta..! Wow! 1 Neil : Uncle..TILLU! Not Atleast here please ..  Shashank: OK OK.. I forgot How are U? please meet my bachha! Neil my friend. prakash Khanna's son! U here? Juhi: then u need another intro.. meet mr. NEIL KHANNA, IPS Shashank: IPS,, Iam proud of u! Hmm. So..   Neil: Uncle we shall have a long chat later .. but I am here for my duty.. Juhi: Yes officer! Neil: we have arrested those goons & they are in jail now.. I just came to inform u all & some other case related.. but yeah! i have seen quite a good scene .. I mean she is crying like hell yesterday & today new avatar!!  He saw Ishani still looking angrily at him  Neil:  Whoa!! she is same like my wife!!  HUNTERWALI! 1 VOICE AT THE DOOR: What?!!!!!(any guesses?)1 All turn to door!!  VOICE: U mean to say I am hunting u , torturing u everyday! This is not fair Tillu!!! Neil: Avni!! what r u doing here? Avni: Yupp! when husband like u doesn't respond to calls, doesn't eat & take selfcare , then wives has to be behind themm DD: I am sorry Sir.. Bhabhi..actually.. Neil looks at with " i'll deal with u later" expression.. Neil : SHHH! calm down Avni this is my last case .i was just going to come home after this.. See meet my favourite Uncle,, Super famous Doctor.. Shashank uncle.. Avni: Sorry ! uncle ji. I didn't realize u were here.. (she takes blessing.. shashank blesses her) just then Neil says slowly like a whisper to everyone : (Bola na Hunterwali hain!!) All smile .. Even Sid & Ishani .. but Ishani gives a glare to sid again.. Ishani: Thank you officer.. U were very helpful  to us yesterday!! Neil: No! No! its my Duty .. Now I think ur friend is fine now.. he comes near Sid & extends his hand Dr. Sid.. Nice to meet U.. (slowly whispers Ur friend is so worried about you ..she is dangerous .. be safe atleast for her)  Sid smiles nodding & whispers yeah! i think so. I have got see this side first time..  Neil:(loudly) NEXT TIME if it happens just remember  to inform me I am here to help.. hearing next time.. Ishani with What? (little angry) expression. SID & All others(youngsters) make not again! expression   Elders smile.. Neil & avni are confused.. Neil: What.. guys! Sid: sir please don't say next time!!(signalling to see ishani) Neil: (remembering Ishani's  one go warning)OOps! I am Sorry Doctor....? Ishani: Ishani(with smile) Shashank : Chalo atleast I came to see My daughter (to avni) today..Come we shall have a tea.. & u both should visit me today .. Avni& Neil know that they cant put down Shashank & accept the offer.. they leave with Shashank.. before leaving he signs Ishani & Sid to sort out their differences.. All this is seen by Gayathri & gets overwhelmed that someone is taking care of her Sid. Rahil cuts the call after Ishani speaking to Gayathri..  She supports her.. All leave one by one where Ishani starts dressing his Stitches.  Sid: I am sorry.. Atleast talk to me properly.. See I am not used to ur silence..Ok it doesnt make me  feel good Ishani.. Ishani: And iam not used to see like that.. Sid: What? Ishani: See Sid! i can see u treat others, i can see u fighting with me , i can see arguing with vardhan, I can see making everyone happy.. But I cant see U..(by now she starts crying slowly) with lots of blood not moving not respond like a lifeless body!!(closing her eyes)1 Sid: holds her face with both hands & cleans her tears .. & says  Iam sorry. I never thought this affect u this much.. Ishani: u made me friend.. I am trying it ..but don't make me feel my friendship is curse.. Sid: Never !!  u can't think like that .. See the bright side.. its because of u i am safe. I have seen u have done my first aid.. u made sure we got help.. u informed..everyone.. that made their job easy.. u r a brilliant doctor & a great friend Ishani.. Ishani giving a small smile.. how come u knoww? Sid: I can see .. i am not totally unconscious.. Yeah! one more thing U hugged me..! See ur first  "JAADU KI JHAPPI" worked & i am safe!!+ Ishani slightly blushed at this.. Sid: I can get another ,, so i'll be fine..What do u say? Ishani with smile.. really? kind of expression. SCREEN FREEZES JAADU KI JHAPPI-5 Sid: So I think I can get another .. So that I'll be more fine..! So Will u give me another Jhappi? (with pout & with open arms) Ishani:(with  Really!!!! wala look ) No! atleast not now.. For that I have conditions, are u ready? Sid: Oh ! Excuse me I am Ur senior!!  Ishani: Achhha ! OK Senior SIR!!(with cute pout) Sid: Ok,, OK dont call me Sir. tell me what are those?  Ishani: First- take Ur medicines, then take rest.. then- take proper diet, then- no doctor job till u r totally cured.. Then- Jhappi.. Sid: But..! Ishani: No more Arguments..! Sid please !! Sid: OK..  Ishani leaves from there , just then Shashank enters the room just to check if their patch-up went fine or not? he silently watches whole Sidisha's conversation..   Ishani: Uncle u r still here? Shashank: Actually, i came to see if Sid is safe.. I mean u were very angry! Ishani: Uncle!! (pout) Shashank: (with smile) U go & clean urself . I have asked Sunil to get dinner here.. today we will have dinner together!! Ishani: really ! I'll be right back..!  Sid: What a girl, Sir!!  Shashank: I know..(he approaches Sid.. holding his hand )... THANK YOU.. Sid: SIR!! it's nothing! she is very nice & naive!! Shashank: No! Sid its a huge thing .. After these many years I have seen an Old Ishani..that baby ishani who is so stubborn, cutely angry, compassionate & caring!! I really owe u for that because I have seen how she lived her life.. I hope she start accepting everyone.. slowly..Earlier i was worried, but now I am sure .. the day is soon to be arrived.. Thank you beta.. and GOD BLESS YOU!2 Sid feels happy knowing how emotionally he is connected with her.. Shashank: I hope ur friendship never vanish .. Sid: Arey! Sir! Never ever. U know me right! Shashank: Hmmm!! Later, they have their dinner.. In midst she feeds Sid.. (with spoon.. only ! i mean  she genuinely has a problem she cannot be so comfortable all of a sudden.. she is good with holding hands & rarely with Jhappi only with sid.. she need to still work on her socializing skills..) But shashank is very happy.. he just felt like that this friendship is definitely going to go far & far..){OFCOURSE WE KNOW THAT TOO :] :] :]} Later sid was properly taken care by ishani.. ha every now & then Dr. rishab used to trouble her..1 Still they manage to spend time together after ishani's shift.. Sid made sure some or the other doctor from their friends gang present with them so that ishani could try gelling with others.. FEW DAYS LATER:  Sid is totally cured & resumed his Duties as Senior Resident. Ishani started working on her Socializing skills..  They became good friends..  While everybody were busy with their daily routine.. All our doctors gang & Rishab were called to meeting hall by  shashank  sir. IN MEETING HALL: Juhi, Reema, Anjali, Shashank were present.. All wished their Sir & Madam .. Good evening..All elders sitting..  Shashank: Alright Doctors.. We are speculating that there might be a field trip in next month.. So we have to send a group of doctors & nurses to that trip..  Juhi: If that trip turns to be true, then it is a great opportunity for u to learn.  Shashank: So as u guys haven't been to any external trip.. we want to send this team..  all are excited.. they are happy to get this opportunity..  VOICE: one minute  Dr Shashank..  All look towards door.. Vardhan(yupp).. But Dr. Sid cannot be part of this..  Shashank: Mr. Vardhan, u came to wrong place & that too without invitation.. u don't have any business in this..  Vardhan: ofcourse Dr. Shashank.. Nothing personal.. but Rules u know.. I can't let u break rules for ur favourite  students.. Right ! Juhi: what do u mean? Vardhan: relax, Dr. juhi. Dr Sid likes to treat people for free.. right. so he treats them without admitting them into the hospital . though u people know that u wont say anything ..  Shashank tries to interrupt... one second Dr. Shashank.. I am not here to prove him wrong.. i have left that , but that's why he can't attend for trip.. i mean in this year, he has not taken enough no. of cases to allow him to be part of such trips.. vardhan: we have to play by rules!! Right Ishani!! (smirking)..  Rishab feels happy..  Anjali: He is right we can't  send him there.. Anyway he has been to such external trip earlier . so that will be fine .. but if u really have to go then u should complete cut-off no of cases..  u may try...we have time..  Juhi: Yeah! she is right.. we have time..  u should try Sid..  Vardhan: well let's see then.. thank you Dr. Anjali. Atleast u understand me well.. Shashank: please disperse..(little angry) Asha: Yaar this Vardhan & rishab!! they are always on our back..  Ishani: Dont worry we will play by rules & sid will definitely be part of trip. (with a wink to Sid)  Sid smiles to it.. Shashank, Juhi & Anjali smiles..& leaves.. All leave from there excitedly.. Sid: i dont know what i will do.. u all might have to go without me.. Ishani: no.. not at all . u have lot of time.. Sid: Rishab & Vardhan will not let me go! I feel sick, now. Ishani looking here & there sensing that no one is there .. gives him a tight hug!!! Sid smiling, reciprocates hug Ishani: see I gave u my JAADU KI JHAPPI.. now u will come & u should make it possible to prove that my jhappi has power!!(smiles  shyly removing hug)+ Sid: Nice one! yeah.. i have to now.. chalo its already late.. I'll drop u home & leave. SOMEWHERE ELSE: RISHAB: I'll see how u are going to join this trip!! OTHER SCENE: VOICE: I want u to join them  Sid.. (guess who?) SCREEN FREEZES...

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for kate its boring

this is for kate and it is boring its just me answering questions bc i wanted to and im only sendingi t to kate ok?

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.

i only have like 1 album but ok....

all night - bey, maybe sweet one u wont have nightmares tonight - father john misty, demo of the adams administration - hamiltn?, thrill of first love - falsettos, im breaking down - falsettos, sandcastles - bey 2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? omg idk.....maybe jenny slate or like .. oprah.......would be a good story 3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. im so lazy but the book is the secret history  4) What do you think about most? hpw much i hate the whole world!!! at least lately AMIRIGHT 5) Ever had a poem or song written about you? no who am i the pope??? 6) Do you have any strange phobias? tsunamis D: 7) What's your religion?     death 8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? going inside LOL ;) 9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? a group of oscar isaac clones 10) What was the last lie you told? that i took tylenol when i didnt bc im afraid ill die if i take it :/ 11) Do you believe in karma? no 12) What does your URL mean? its my name w my last name as the a 13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? greatest weakness is that im lazy and strength is ?? people stuff i guess?? 14) Who is your celebrity crush? i think...we...all know 15) How do you vent your anger? calling 6 of my friends in a row 16) Do you have a collection of anything? playbills i guess but not on purpose except i spent 45$ on one once 17) Are you happy with the person you've become? ya 18) What's a sound you hate; sound you love? hate is men talking and love is kates beautiful and versatile voice 19) What's your biggest "what if"? what if i cleaned my room 20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? bobvisutlt 21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. left is my starbucks cup and right is a pillow im in BED 22) Smell the air. What do you smell? like sweat im so gross and sweaty rn 23) What's the worst place you have ever been to? hoboken new jersey 24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender? ??oscar? 25) To you, what is the meaning of life? being perfect for OScar 26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? no i dont but when i was a kid i was in the car alone and put it in drive and drove it into a building 27) What was the last movie you saw? inside llewyn davis 28) What's the worst injury you've ever had? concussion 29) Do you have any obsessions right now? suits and the crumbling state of society 30) Ever had a rumor spread about you? probably idk! 31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? na 32) What is your astrological sign? sagitrasu 33) What's the last thing you purchased? food proabbly 34) Love or lust? love????? 35) In a relationship? with kate??officially

36) How many relationships have you had? 100?? 37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? lie and say we like the same thing even fi i dont like it

38) Where is your best friend? halifax :( 39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? watching tv 40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? yes 41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? call the fire dept ? obviusoyl? 42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? a) yeah id get so much free shit are you kidding?? id tell people i dont know b) idk im really poor but id want to go somewhere nice w my friendos c) obviously ??? 43) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? that one song by the weeknd. u know it 44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? jokes and lying to eachother 45) How can I win your heart? ^^ 46) Can insanity bring on more creativity? i mean i guess?? 47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? lowkey it sounds dumb but probaly like making a tumblr bc i met jess thru there and made other connections?? 48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? “lived gay died gayer” 49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word "heart." blood 50) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors? purple  51) What is your current desktop picture? its like a painting but then w emojis replacing the OG face 52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? I THINK WWE ALL KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT QUESTION....... 53) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on? idk probably none i love intrusive questions 54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? idk flight w no issues... like i dont die or get cold or whayever 55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? watching wicked w stephanie j block when i was 11 bc i didnt appreciate it enough 56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? lmfao HONESTLY my FUCKING BIRTH  57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? ??OSCAR? idk that feels like cheating ...... i dont want to bang other ppl 58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? usually id say ny but honestly rn probably like somewhere w a fancy beach 59) Ever been on a plane? yes 60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities. oscar isaac, eddie redmayne in jupiter ascending, the other hot guy in jupiter ascending (NOT thumb man channing tatum), thats it honestly :/

[t-underneaththeradardancing]

my other broom is a rolls 

a deja  like a view of an oasis watchamacallit when ur parched 

a mirage t     

blame it onna teenz   -  this time last week i wuz  

it was another lifetime and next week as well im spinning sounds swirl - i gotta go sit on my rock  under my tree w my murder surrounding 

someone the nerve sitting on my rawk  - s’ok dokey as hannibal sez  before disemboweling  - naw im under my tree on some concrete  - a crow fam above hiffen sleeping and im diggin the scene w a gangsta lean - oh t stop - u in ur dining room now yah digging wars n ghettoes yo  - should i take up bass - how bout yoga 

there wuznt a rode map ever to start and  omfg they just babies and my heart breaks 

then 

here we r  -  yah we always  - hear and zen rabbit  - wuz there yah - the simpsons guy hadda bunny a yo rengi ko kind - u no like tina turner  - watta bout gandolf   -   okay t   - straight up yo homie  - if im bein real   - my kidz tawk that talk of the town  - sounds dated to me but im old as fuck  - but - no shit 

NO ONE   I MEAN     

NOBODY

ever gonna make sense o that mess o words u strung together with half finished half baked  nonsense and in jokes undastandable only by a few kids who dont do tumblr  - maybe the zen reference and the groening or watever the fuck his name  - like ur jim nabors shouted when u and vita wuz laffing - loud as fuck but ffs laffing  ( we might have been laffing about something vaguely obscene  but we adults yo )    “NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR YOU”  

at least we werent making music  - a neighbor applauded one time 

i wuz making this shit up as we went along to start with  - then things got fucked  - up - and - like a circular motion  - remember the jerk - the dance not the movie or jamaican chicken 

so iz t overdo the do  - he iz still old af and the heart thing and 

fuck if i know  -  i usually stop for a minnit at least if im suddenly overheated - happens when i dont take off a layer before playing esp if im playin srs - which - lol - u wood think a basement or a porch is carnegie hall  and if there iz an audience  - hydrate  - assess  -  the kidz specially vita pay attention  -  i have been ordered to just sit or lay quiet then have soup  - lol 

i dont know what im doin half the time  - f neil

vita singing mercy a new song  its in my bones slow cooked deep it fukken killz and its just a knock off demo  - its got a capo but i cant see it so it dont scare me  - when i can get a teen to post it for me   - 18 year olds shouldnt sing like she  - it fukken breaks my heart even as i play along loving every note  

is that fucked up    idk   

u cant overlook the lack jack - of any other hiway to ride - its got no signs or dividing lines - and very few rules to guide   - r hunter rip

aint dead yet 

playin music when we can - with ppl i love  - trynna juggle and spin without dodging hard truth  

its late af after 2 am - endless laundry awmost dun - just the current load mind u - endless is endless 

this poem is not 

its late its caturday hooray did i mention she a good one the kitty 

laterz

love