#nonbinary miao miao

[cloakoforshun]

Happy (not) late birthday to my grumpy pookie bear 🐻🎉🎉

[vxo]

Miao?

Yes, anarchist catgirl presenting nonbinary seems like a good description for me. Bizarre 20 bay FM antenna, I don’t know what they were thinking but it makes for a good meme So it turns out in addition to bricking themselves, these exciters can also crap out their backup battery. Not sure if I’d call it an improvement over the system in the old Apex M2X as now it’s an unserviceable custom $300…

[incorrect-web-novels]

Altar Master Miao: Am I a boy or a girl? I'm a punchline.

Altar Master Miao: My pronouns are he/he/he/he

[catpats]

HAPPY TRANSGENDER DAY OF VISIBILITY FROM YOUR LOCAL CAT BLOG RUN BY A NONBINARY PERSON! <3

[wandering-bitch]

annotations: tenderness rises like bile

tenderness rises like bile is my lil beefleaf oneshot about touch and memory and mourning (with a little bit of gender)

here are some notes about the writing process!

title is something i did at the v last second. actually kinda like it though?? the working title was "beefleaf kissu" because i have no respect for what im writing

i first thought of this back in feb when the mxtx kiss flash fic exchange was announced. i thought perhaps i could write a beefleaf bit about how he xuan counts every kiss he gets from sqx, but then i realized it would be longer than what i wanted to write for that exchange (instead i wrote the wuning oneshot "before these hands pulled me from the earth"

gender opinions

sqx is nonbinary. i will allow trans woman sqx but sqx is NOT a cis dude jfc. the degree of unbridled joy they get from wearing their "female" form.... that ain't a cis dude, esp when u remember they bully other folks into wearing a girl form.

now sqx DOES have some problematique-to-modern-western-queers language around gender and bodies in canon but rather than criticise them for this (because they are fictional and also im a modern western gay and they are fantasy ancient chinese) i will just put "female form" in scare quotes

anyway sqx gets such gender euphoria from tiddies..... they not a cis.

im willing to have longer conversations about he xuan's gender bc so much of what we see of them is an act and a lie. all we know is they're willing to wear the "girl form" after some cajoling. i decided to write genderfluid + changing pronouns he xuan this time bc 1. i didn't want two they/thems in one fic, im lazy 2. changing aspects of identities is a big he xuan mood as they switch from black water to earth master to lady earth master to their various other clone forms scattered around the upper heavens... 3. that quote from jwqs where qi yan says she's "not a man not a woman not a human but rather a ghost"..... that's a he xuan mood

but i will listen to agender he xuan or undefined-third-gender he xuan or trans woman he xuan or many other things (including, sigh, cis dude he xuan)

ok now for the actual fic

he xuan's a moody bitch that's the fic

"sacred mysteries of the temple of the black waters" god bitch calm down

i need a better way of marking between scenes

"i'm investing in your peace of mind" get u a friend/crush like shi qingxuan

he xuan refusing to speak because again: big moody bitch

i specified that he xuan's not wearing the "female form" in the Smooch scene because i uh. dislike when cis ppl write gender fluid shapeshifters who always put the character in the "cis looking" body. i figure he xuan wears the tiddies when going out with sqx because it's funny watching sqx try not to stare, but for hanging out in the manor??? no tiddies, they hurt the back

he xuan uses their engineering knowledge to invent underwire bras and boned stays

i purposely never mention what form sqx is wearing during this fic bc again i do not like when ppl write shapechanging genderfluid characters as being About The Presence Or Lack Of Tits

Ah yes! the other important part of this fic! remembering miao-er! if i cared more about this i'd linger on the difference between sqx and miao-er, but god im just so tired

but i think a lot about the pull between he xuan's past and present, the drive for revenge and the possibility of a future

(can you tell i read and enjoyed jwqs?)

"i'd rather eat than be eaten" im the funniest bitch i know

as always i am afraid of writing kisses even though i write a lot of shippy fluffy bullshit

i just love casual kisses so much and also writing about smooch emotions is bad

but here we go! i imagine this is pre-canon and they start lowkey dating and then the events of the book still happen exactly as in canon and beefleaf hurts more bc he xuan still picked his family over sqx

and what's worse, sqx doesn't blame them