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“If you're not ready to stop being with someone, I don't really know how to cope with it.” - Hannah | Jason Sudeikis and Hannah Waddingham on Richmond Till We Die, Ted Lasso Season 3
#tedlassoedit#tedlassosource#tedlassogif#hannah waddingham#jason sudeikis#tedbecca#ledtasso#trueloveistreacherous#ted lasso s3#ted lasso bts#im gonna go into a corner and cry myself to sleep now#manigif#hannah and jason#1k
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A thing for @breakfastatmiles' dtyis challenge on instagram :)
Been a while since I drew the world's most favourite boy (like. almost a year ago???? uh woops) I wanted to draw something for Percy's birthday but alas I had no idea what to draw :'') consider this late Percy Jackson b'day art
Variants under the cut
#also stop i literally just realised one of the texture images i used has the fucking “stock photo” in it im literally gonna cry#praying to every god that yall never find it. and if you do.... exclusive pictures of dino agni :)#anyway i spent probably the whole day on this. my anatomy exam is tomorrow and i know jackshit#(convincing myself that it's okay i was using anatomy knowledge to draw percy lol haha hashtag in denial and sleep deprived)#i guess now i have to go back to finishing assignments..#percy jackson#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson fanart#pjo fanart#pjo#myart#artoftheagni
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"yue qingyuan deserves to know the truth about sqq." well yes but also, it would completely destroy his life bc he literally would not rest until he found shen jiu again. He would actually he horrified to think he had left xiao jiu all by himself for several years AGAIN. Ended up in shen yuans world without his memories? He's finding him. With his memories? He's finding him. He's actually still in his actual body, but isn't the main consciousness? Qi ge is bringing him back out, I fear. He woke up in some rando book extras body? He's finding him. He ended up in a whole other mxtx book? YUE QINGYUAN WILL FIND HIM
Doesn't matter if it takes him a day or a month or a year or 800 years or 1600 years he'll find Shen Jiu again
#he'll find him and shen jiu will ask what took him so long#im gonna go cry myself to sleep now#mxtx will actually write a whole series just for them and let me show you my presentation on why thats gonna happen#let me have my delusions in peace#let me just pretend#im gonna hyperventilate thinking about Them#qijiu#yue qingyuan#shen jiu#original shen qingqiu
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hrhhrhrhhh jovier hghrhhh brokeback mountain au hhehjrhjjhgjhkejgdjnhknj its literally 5 am and i just finished these and i hate how they turned out but WHATEVER
i just cant stop thinking about these two and its making me sick!!!!!!!
#jovier#javier escuella#john marston#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#au stuff#will probably draw more for this but for now...#have this little thing jovier nation#my art#michsmeesh#idk this au is just. eating me up from inside#because its literally THEM#im gonna go cry myself to sleep now bye#and tmrw i'll draw more requests#well.#later i'll draw more requests
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im gnawing on this interview like a dog on a fucking bone.
#I LOVE THEM I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH OH MYGOD#'thats just who this characters happem to be' YES!!!! EXACTLY !! IM GONNA SOB HYSTERICALLY THEY FUCKING GET IT#GOD#'s2 ACKNOWLEDGES the QUEER SUBTEXT between aziraphale and crowley' !!!;!!+!;;!;;!!;; WHAY IF DIED WHAT GHEN#im gonna go and cry myself to sleep now / pos#good omens#good omens s2#good omens 2#azicrow#good omens nina#good omens maggie#neil gaiman#good omens s2 spoilers
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the picnic table scene
#this isnt going to make sense to literally any of you for a long time and im sorry about that#but FUCK was i writing this morning#man. man man man man Man the motivation Hit#this fic might get done after all...#i need. to go sleep. OUASGAHSAKJSNCADCLSKDVMS;#THEY MAKE ME INSANE THEY MAKE ME INSANE#YALL ALREADY KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT#THEY MAKE ME CRAZY AGH AGH AGH#ok. ok. ill sleep. and we'll see if the scene holds up when my brain is Refreshed#absolutely unprompted#throwing myself to the ground and howling#who do i need to BITE#oh 7 am me we're really in it now#literally getting myself too worked up. im. Emotional. i almost feel like tearing up#if that was something i could do lmao#fortunately crying does not come easily to me but in my heart im like. idk. Sobbing#anyway in order to calm down im gonna go think about something that makes me equally insane#which is the OG reason i designed a butterfly look for howdy. yass!howdy's origins <3#slamming my face through drywall ok bye im off to crazyville where i can catch a layover to sleepytown
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#SOBBING#SCREAMING#CRYING#JUMPING OFF A CLIFF#AJDJFN WHO LET HIM LOOK SO BOYFIE AND FLUFFY#the wonwoo brainrot is stirring#im gonna go cry myself to sleep now#skye thoughts#skye talks about seventeen
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THEY LOVE HIM SO MUCH.....
#mairuma spoilers#i guess#this is so sweet im gonna cry myself to sleep now#Sometimes family is you your grandpa who is the demon summoned to take you and your butler and two cats#truly my heart is full#FINALLY a soft ending to deviculum#mairuma#the way sullivan so gently touches irumas hair im going to be ill right now
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theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to
#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot#but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons#each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl#but its just dumb#if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then#its what ive always done#if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something#but right nows the hard part#im not even over my childhood home/s#i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years#i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile#we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but#its still different#im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space#it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere#idk maybe its stupid#if everything goes according to plan#we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day#and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything#im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away#tbd#i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining#whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep#if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍#any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy
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This will probably be up on Spotify by midnight tonight or tomorrow (your time zone) Ghost has pulled this exclusive thing before. But if not here's the link to listen/download it from dropbox
Thank You Children of Ghost ✌🏻
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In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!
#i am losing my sanity day by day#drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day#why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about#don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha#ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't#fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess#am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story!#i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow#vent ig#my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol#nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays#at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig#anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs#when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop#anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go#please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you#i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just.#all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this#for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect#and care made me expect it more? fuck#i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person.#everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things#long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider#my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at#at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person.#my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got#to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me.#this is showing so many issues.#so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12#i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering
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having a category 12 "thought about william wisp for too long" moment
#that last scene in 40 . got me fucked up so bad. motherfucker. aauagahaghhhhrrghgh.#idk if its the paranoia anxiety of animal sounds in my ceiling again finally catching up to me but im srs like.#almost starting 2 cry right now and im not even LISTENING to the episode.#thought abojt david kaufman again. fuck . part of me is like god i need 2 go listen to his lines again but the other part of me is like.#no mac you have work jn the morning and youre ALREADY not gonna grt enough sleep due to the fucking animals in your ceiling.#head in hands. we need 2 dismantle capitalist society so i can spend the next 24 hours fucking weeping over william wisp.#then maybe ill get my thoughts in order enough to actually write about him#having soioooooo many blood and gore thoughts about [redacted for spoilers] . i havent seen ANY art of it#except one like. vague abstract thing. whcih was awesome dont get me wrong. but i want 2 see something visceral.#and im not good enough at blood and gore to do it myself . plus ive burnt myself out so hard on the painting projects.#and im still not DONE with them#ughhhghgh. anyway. on 24/7 wiwi lockdown ovwr here
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#bandudhfuwufhrbdjvhsbbgbfndjeybfnzuchdndhdbdbgbsjfyskiwurbrbcjdbfnskayfis8 ch dnbcje I fyebaichfnduwjfnoxuend hai fudbsja#i fucking hate being a system#i hate it here#i dont want to be here anymore let me out#let me out or take me out back and shoot me in the head#blah blah the SAME SHIT I KEEP FUCKING COMPLAINING ABOUT EVRTY SINGLE FUCKING YIME INCOME HERE AND CRY AND SOB AND COMPLAIN I JSUT ALWAYS#FUCKING XOMPLAIN HUH? maybe i should jsut shut thr fuck up forever#i dont even want. to yell about it anymore#i screamed for help last time and no one fucking helped me no one actually fucking listens and im tired#if you dont give a fuck about what im ACTUALLY saying and feeling dont just feel pity for me#im not a kicked dog i m asking for HELP#but okay . thats fine .#ill jsu t go bash my head on a wall.#this is just great too cuz youre gonna see this and assume its you and youre right! its partially you im going fucking insane#and its mean for me to be like this and do this but i cant#i just give up now i literally am . giving up i dont have the energy to try and keep fucking foing yhis#i front once every 2 months to everyones distain and sob uncontrollably for hours and then go to sleep and eventuallly find someone else#to come here and front so i dont have to look myself in the mirror#i dont even know how started this rant anumore jone of this makes sense#if you see this and you know who you are just dont even. mention it i dont want to talk about it#its always the same shit ans the same shit keeps fucking happening and i keep getting worse so whatever .#yeah ur gonna feel bad and pitiful and im gonna feel like a piece of shit even though i do this ervery fucjing time#id off myself atp if that was a fucking option#whatevrr . im not tagging this shit on who it is if u dont know play a guessing game akd if you do then congrats go finger ur ass or smth#I will regret this in the morning but wt v .#stnkkkk if u read this then thank u for sloppy jane req i sobbed quite hard while lsitening to it 10/10 /pos#youd yave to be reading pretty far atp to see this but wtv .
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#unirevival week 1: the moment you got into pentagon
↳ Pentagon explaining the five pillars of a pentagon on Before School Club :)
#pentagon#unirevival#uninet#kflopc#kpopccc#kpopco#maleidols#ray.gif#10#i cant even think abt tagging rn bc im absolutely sobbing my eyes out#mommmmmmm i miss themmmmmm :((((((((((#this was THE first video of them i saw iirc and i was immediately smitten#like i used to watch asc for jamie but they just stole my heart in those short 7 minutes#i had to look them up after the show and i was enamoured with their entire album i was obsessed right away#and this was before i knew any korean whatsoever so the fact that they were able to hook me in like that is a testament their power#anyways im gonna go cry myself to sleep now
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woe another tag vent session be upon ye
#one of the girls in my class looks just like her. oh my god.#like im not being dramatic i literally thought it was her in my peripheral vision.#literally almost burst into tears in the middle of the room lmaooooooo#and then for the rest of the day every time i saw someone with her hair color i just saw her.#this shit sucks fr y'all i have never almost cried in public this much#and then i had to drive to pick up some groceries and fuck.#ive never been an anxious driver. i quite enjoy driving actually.#but i literally almost had a panic attack when i first pulled onto the road. i was so fucking anxious the entire time i was behind the whee#someone came up behind me pretty fast and i legit had to pull over to calm down it was so bad#so uh. not gonna be driving for a while lol. gonna kill myself or someone else doing that.#idk. idk i think this has me pretty messed up and i probably will be for a while. idk#my roommates and i finally decorated our living room and it was . fun. we laughed and made jokes and it was fun#but well. predictably i am feeling guilty over having fun now. which sucks ass from every angle#should i probably maybe make an appointment for therapy ???? probably ???????????#idk. might be good to talk all this out out loud yk. but also i Know i will cry and i dont want to do that.#sigh. anyway.#also predictably i cannot sleep. couldnt last night either.#i might go paint in the living room. i dont know.#anyway if u read this whole rant ily ur earning the veteran's pass to Winter's Breakdown Sessions#winter speaks#personal#grief tag#<- once again if u need to blacklist. will not hold it against anybody i prommy#tw death#tw panic attack
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It's 7 am and I have a doctor's appointment at 10 and I haven't slept. At all. Hope I don't fall asleep while getting blood work done
#i feel sorry for myself#i need sleep#sleep deprived moment#how do I stay awake???#I think I need coffee#i'm gonna go cry now#I should also write#but I'm having writer's block#I haven't updated my fics in YEARS#okay not years#but months#idk how people manage to read my fics#I update like twice a year#or start fics I end up never finishing#haha oops#im a mess#okay that's enough tags#sleepy rambles
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