#npd + alexithymia culture is

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd + alexithymia culture is genuinely being confused about how to know whether youre feeling love for the person themselves or if youre feeling love for the supply rhe person gives you

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[confusion-x-central]

umm..

so I didn't even know that you were supposed to actually feel empathy and not just force yourself to act a certain way based on how others seem to be feeling...hmmm

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

NPD + alexithymia culture is being so tired when people keeps using empathy as a way to decide if a person is good or bad. .. ?? I can't even tell my own emotions and now i'm no different than a bigot or a criminal for not understanding other's ???

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[narcissisticpdcultureis]

NPD culture is rewording something (usually a text, but it can be anything) over and over again until it is perfect. Proofreading it for typos and anything you have to reword. Also looking for things that come off as arrogant or annoying to remove so that you appear as likable and charming. Even going as far as to find synonyms for words and deleting anything that comes off as repetitive. And it doesn’t have to be with strangers, it can be with friends and people you trust. I feel the need to proofread everything I write so it conveys my feelings and thoughts perfectly(Autism and alexithymia make that difficult). It’s also why I prefer text over call/talking, because that way I have the freedom to proofread what I want to say so it comes out as perfect as I can make it. I don’t know if that’s considered people-pleasing or not though. I find myself rereading the things I write over and over again to either admire how I perfected it or to analyze it for mistakes. I also have Dyslexia, so I mess up a lot—and get mocked for it, which spirals me into a crash immediately. Dyslexia sort of gives me a lisp in a way, I constantly mess up in writing and speaking. I want to perfect what I say but my comorbidities just won’t let me have that. And of course people look down on me and think I’m dumb when my brain physically cannot articulate a sentence (usually neurotypicals in this case). It feels like my brain purposely sabotages me from sounding smart and charming—instead people are confused and can’t understand what the fuck I’m saying(sometimes I can’t either).

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