#bpd hmmm

[confusion-x-central]

me : "I don't think I actually have BPD because my emotions aren't really that intense. Like, I hardly feel anything ever."

also me : *had a full meltdown and was on the verge of unaliving after my family laughed more at my aunt's card than mine in a game of Cards Against Humanity*

[bunnihearted]

i cant fully control my emotions during a breakdown and then i come out of it and im like oh fuck........ ._.

[eclaire-went-bam]

empathy is such a confusing thing for me. its like i have two modes(?) but it doesn't make sense that i do

sometimes, i'm completely oblivious. i have little (but not no) empathy and struggle to understand why someone would feel a certain way about something. i often don't even realise when i do something that set someone off. i find myself completely unable to find appropriate words to comfort someone, or just generally tactfully respond to people. my worldview tends to suddenly lack nuance, as it becomes harder to understand the reasons why someone may do the thing they did

but sometimes, i feel like i understand too much. but not in a feeling or hyperempathetic way. i can suddenly read people like a book. i pick up on very subtle cues that lead me to guessing various things about a person, that usually aren't wrong — to the point it has alarmed multiple people before how i seem to know things about them they never told anyone. i'm able to know exactly what to say to charm someone or make them feel better, to get them to like me — know exactly what sort of person they like, i know exactly what issues i can have that will pull at their heartstrings. conversations get boring and irksome, because i understand why someone is saying everything they're saying — what they want me to think, how they want me to respond. can tell what sort of memories someone may be drawing on based on what they say to me. able to predict when someone is gonna finally tell me something they don't even know that i already guessed

it's a very dramatic stereotypical aloof autism experience vs a stereotypical manipulative narc experience & it doesn't make a lotta sense to me. either i have the ability to read/understand ppl, or i don't, right? like,,, that's a physical brain process?? Right ???????????

how does it work that it seems to be something that can just spontaneously click on and off, outside of my control?

[clovover]

So funny being aroace and BPD like

"Oh I bet you're like an IRL yandere so hot"

No bitch I need approval from authority figures or else I can't move ain't nothing romantic about it at all

Screw you BPD romanticizers

[noys-boise]

in other news I don't know if I've ever looked up generalized anxiety disorder symptoms before I was just like. that's an unusual amount of anxiety surely that's not normal. but yeah it's a 1 to 1 match. which is not surpsining

[kavehater]

SOMEONE SAID KAVEH HAS QUIET BPD

[ezbakedchaos]

it's not that i keep to myself to be alone, necessarily... it's that i keep to myself because i've been left alone for so long that it's the only company im agreeable to

[vaugarde]

Playing with the idea of making Skylar have bpd

[jimothy-salmonwich]

the hyperfixating on a literal person is fucking REAL. They send a message in a server/gc??? Gonna send one almost immediately. They like something i did??? I will be on cloud 10 for dayssss. YES im aware this sounds like a crush. Nah, I don’t wanna date them or anything. That icky- datings weird. Its like that show you’re fixated on, you see something related to it or fanart, whatever and you get happy! Think of the person like that show, replace something related/episode with a message and replace fanart with compliments. There ya go. Now ya got it

[babygirlcowboy]

Okay so....I am actually starting to think that I may in fact be bipolar....

[yiling-patriarch-kinnie]

Me: No, I don't involve my special interest in everything! What are you even talking about???

Also me 0.5 seconds after watching show/reading a book: *looking frantically for the DSM-V and ICD-11 files on my tablet* Let me just analyze their symptoms real quick-

[confusion-x-central]

[cylonbarnes]

GOD i just finished 2x04 and it's so lovely to see wille overjoyed and smiling but like.... baby...... you are putting so much onto every single action and interaction. too much.

[denizenhardwick]

also almost every single callout post i have seen has been about someone with bpd which. hm. that's suspicious. that's weird.

[clovover]

Once when I was in the mental ward and the psychiatrist there suspected I had BPD and I asked about the symptoms because lol no internet access at the looney bin but he was lim "intense interpersonal relationships and mood swings" and I was like "moodswings yeah! But no I'm not attached to anyone"

Anyways guess who recently realized her whole existence hinges on her father's approval?

[werewolf-femboy-maid]

oh wow haha that's so cool and interesting

I had a pretty good childhood, I had a roof over my head and a good education. it came at an interesting price tho, y'know just a little brain damage here and there