"I can hear my furniture," you say and it's truly impressive how calm you manage to sound. You scoop up the stone in your hands, "My table remembers dinners, it remembers being a tree--all of the wood in my house remembers being a tree."
"You can hear the language of the worlds Primordial? How is that poss--wait! You're talking to me! You understand me! You're using the innate language built on the connectivity of all matter speaking Primordial!"
The stone answers you slowly at first, and then the voice becomes more animated and awake. You struggle with the strangeness of their sentences; there's an odd overlap, like a translator struggling to find the right words to describe something in a second language. Slowly you catch up, cradling the stone carefully in your hands.
"I am talking to you," you say, awestruck to have gone from vague images and emotions to full sentences literally overnight. A laugh that's half incredulity, half hysterics bubbles up and out of you. Is this too much? This feels like it might be too much. It's certainly a lot.
You look down at the stone, and think for a moment that the veins of emerald green look a little thicker than they did yesterday. That thought is interrupted by the chatter of a few birds outside your window, and then a chorus of murmurs that come from the plants in reply.
what do u do on days u wake up feeling empty and the only things that stir smth up in ur brain and body are memories of times/places that are long gone…. like what am i supposed to do with that….. i don’t feel like a person today i just wanna wake up in my childhood bedroom and smell the way it smelled in winter but i can’t do that so i just go through my day feeling vaguely nauseously unsettled and untethered…. and that doesn’t feel fair but i don’t know what can be done about it
For no reason in particular I decided a while back that I would watch all of pokemon. I have not seen all of it yet, but 468 episodes in (I've seen all of the first series and just finished advanced, besides a movie or two that I'm about to watch) I got a lot of thoughts about Ash and Gary's rivalry.
Gary's opinion of him for some reason just means the entire WORLD to Ash, but Gary knows next to nothing about who Ash even is at this point I think. It's only natural seeing as he has like 40 episodes max and a pretty decent amount of those are 5 second cameos and/or imagined.
Just think of all of the shit Ash gets into in all that time. He deals with Team Rocket just about every day, he solves several crimes (most of which were related to Team Rocket), he changes countless lives for the better, he dies twice (maybe three I know I missed at least one movie) and he subdues several gods.
But all Gary sees, and might ever see, is just the same kid he's always known. So far Gary has only seen Ash do anything of note like four times and the rest of the time it's just Ash losing as usual. And Gary does show respect for what he's seen Ash actually do, but he hasn't seen ANYTHING.
And yet? The opinion of this guy who doesn't know the first thing about him anymore matters so god damn much to Ash. And because of that he ends up just how Gary underestimates him every time they cross paths.
Gary's opinion means so much to Ash, that even though Gary acting more neutral toward him should be seen as an improvement, Ash seems to miss when Gary used to insult him. The fantasy sequence Ash has after receiving Gary's post card depicts him exactly as he was before season 1. Gary hasn't been like that for what's probably years at this point and Ash still can't wrap his head around the fact that Gary could have any respect for him whatsoever.
Ash just generally has some really weird priorities with where he gets his self-worth from. He really truly can only see the value in himself he gets from winning pokemon battles. Nothing else he does seems notable enough to mention.
I actually made a post about this a while ago because it was just so mind boggling to me, but when Ash fought Gary for the first time he bragged about two things. Being in a higher place than Gary at the Indigo League, and winning the Orange League. Okay sure those are pretty good things to brag about. But you know what probably would've sounded a bit more impressive?
Being called upon by name in a prophecy to help the water god stop the bird gods from destroying the entire earth.
And it's not like the second movie wasn't canon either, because Ash literally mentions it in the series at one point. (That one little arc with Richie and the Baby Lugia and Butch and Cassidy)
Ash is trying so hard to impress someone whose opinion of him is inherently skewed and shouldn't matter anyway, and Ash can't even see his own merits as a person besides being a pokemon trainer. Really sad, honestly.
One log down, 5 (hopefully) to go. He's a little concerned the largest log is too big, so the current plan is to trim off the sides so it hopefully fits
A herd of Queer Deer that Becky is friends with. I keep forgetting to upload the shorts they’re featured in (my bad) but Becky spends a week with them and they teach each other valuable life skills. Tenderhoof teaches Becky how to regulate her emotions about boys, and Becky teaches Twig Snout how to cross the road without getting hit by a truck.