#offleurs

[okayhaneul]

     getting a pet together had been something the two of them talked about for a bit now. more specifically, a dog — because haneul really couldn’t stand cats. he wasn’t bothered being around one, but the concept of raising a cat wasn’t interesting to him. he was glad seonhwa voted on a dog as well. they hadn’t been on an active hunt for one, since tour was so demanding of their time. now, that was changing. tour was over and they were all settled in together with him officially moved in. the timing just felt right. his girlfriend was the one to find a pomeranian litter of four up for adoption on the shelter’s website. if han was being honest, pomeranian wasn’t his top choice for a breed. he would have preferred a bigger dog, like a husky or doberman. however, one glance at seo’s pout had the bodyguard agreeing to being open to all options. the look of the dog of the shouldn’t matter. what mattered was the connection. apparently, it just clicked when owners found the animal that was meant to go home with them. they would see if today was one of those days.

      the two arrived at the municipal animal shelter in the late morning. haneul kept a tattooed hand against the small of seonhwa’s back to keep her nearby. as they were led down the hall towards the meet and greet room, he leaned down to murmur: “ i read that pomeranians only grow up to be 3.6kg. that’s fucking tiny. ” he couldn’t even properly imagine something being that small. the employee opened the door for them and he nodded in silent thanks, leading them both inside. the sight of four puppies caused him to pause. there were two cream ones, one brown, and lastly and the smallest of the litter, an orange one. han hadn’t even realized his expression softened as he watched them bark and playfully tussle each other. as always, his girlfriend had been right. the breed didn’t really matter. glancing over, a half-smile formed at the adorable expression on seonhwa’s face. she looked so happy. “ okay fine, they’re kinda cute. ” he admitted, perhaps a bit reluctantly. really cute, if he was being honest. pressing a kiss to seo’s temple, he nodded towards the puppies. “ alright, jagi. pick one for us to meet first. ” haneul was curious to know which one was calling to her first. for him, the sleepy orange runt shied away in the corner was appealing. they seemed to be the least chaotic of the bunch.

꒰ ♡ ꒱ — @offleurs​​​ !

[xojinnie]

     jinnie couldn’t express how grateful she was to seonhwa. even when the two of them were at their busiest and couldn’t hang out all the time, the soloist always checked in on her and made herself available if the maknae ever needed her. it was unbelievably kind of the woman and the brunette couldn’t thank her enough. honestly, it would never stop being a surreal feeling to think about how someone she admired for so long was now someone she trusted and felt comfortable around — but it made her so happy. now that tour was over, jinnie was trying to figure out her next steps on the type of artist she wanted to be in this industry, both within braveheart and outside of the group. seonhwa as fleur had always been a huge source of inspiration for the young woman, even during her trainee years. fleur struck such a wonderful balance of being vulnerable but powerful, and jinnie wanted so desperately to emulate that as she got older. the song she was currently working on fell in line with those hopes, and that made seo the perfect person to help her out. 

     jinnie was relieved that the other seemed open and willing to help. she was quick to agree to meet up with seo for lunch at the eatery of her choice, so the two could talk about everything over yummy food. as she walked into the tiny restaurant, the maknae inhaled the delicious smell of fried chicken and instantly felt relaxed. seonhwa had such good taste in everything, especially food, so she knew it would great. “ hi, unnie. ” she quietly greeted the soloist, who was stowed away in a private corner. stepping closer, jinnie was quick to wrap her arms around seo for a hug. it always surprised her how tiny she was, considering what a strong presence she was. “ thanks for meeting me. everything smells so good. i’ve actually never been here before. ”

꒰ ♡ ꒱ — @offleurs​ !

[choboss]

– – ｡˚ ˚☽ @offleurs

➜ a frown tugged at ayoung's lips as she looked at the text that had popped up on her lockscreen. julian was curious if she had seen eunji, one of the braveheart members, which made her anxiety spike and her heart flutter in her chest. she tried to remind herself they were just starting the tour and a lot needed to be ironed out and not knowing where a member was at that exact second wasn't the end of the world but she still couldn't help the slight tinge of worry that seemed to plague her so often. pushing the feeling to the back of her mind, she texted back that she was going to check around the stadium offices just to see if maybe she was hanging around the cafeteria or practice rooms.

as she turned the corner a seemingly familiar figure caught her eye as the owner turned down their own hall and out of sight. breaking into a slight jog, she tried to catch up to the girl, her hand reaching for her shoulder once she was within reach. "eunji, julian said he's been texting you all day. why haven't y- oh! you're not eunji. i'm so sorry!" she stuttered out an apology, bowing deeply to convey her embarrassment and sincerity. she could feel her cheeks burning and placed a hand to her cheek, cursing herself for being so bold to assume it had been eunji in the first place.

[producermin]

❛ what are you thinking about? ❜

"At this moment? Chicken and beer. Which I am about to consume. Other than that, the world is on fire and it is cold."

[dxisiesdukes]

Infinite Collab 'Infinite Leaders' - 'Shhh' M/V // @offleurs , @mishiisms , @tbhsilver , @fieldofdeisies

'Shhh' and 'Wow Thing' now available on all streaming services.

[yaniidme]

ʚɞ | never meet your idols....sometimes  // @offleurs​

being on her own was something xin was used to. but solo activities had become…a place of darkness rather than comfort. when the company asked if any of them would be interested in solo activities heading to their ten year anniversary, xin had been the first to raise her hand, even if it had been a small gesture saying she wasn’t sure. it wasn’t until they’d come to her letting her know that they wanted one of them to have something released by summer that she realized they had taken her seriously. so she’d set to work on it, settled into long nights with flora’s usual producers to create her first solo masterpiece.

in the eight or so months she’d been working on it, xīn yán felt, comfortable. and that was the problem. everything was the same, same producers, same choreographers, same upbeat cute tune with bright colors and stunning visuals just as any other flora song that came out had. maybe that’s why it seemed like a breeze. little effort put in to convey emotions and concepts she had been perfecting since she was fifteen years old. but that was also why, she seemed so…disconnected, in her reaction video. watching herself, do exactly what she’d done for almost nine years now. never once before had that bothered her, and as far as she knew any of the other members. after 2018 they simply came to the company, clocked in, were idols and clocked out. same old, same old. and at thirteen when you dream of becoming an idol in this new industry you just learned about, she was okay with that. she enjoyed smiling and bouncing and making appearances as ‘ BAI  XĪN YÁN ‘ of ‘ FLORA ‘. there were never talks about identity and  self expression in their meetings just more about fitting their mold in the industry. and xīn yán had never been the ‘fit the mold’ type of person.

she could just remember looking at the screen, and the entire time waiting for eunhae and nari’s faces to appear, their verses to be sang or join the formation in her dance. it was all so distinctively ‘ FLORA ‘ that it felt strange not to see the others around. and that made her sad. how was she seeing herself and not recognizing who she was outside of that? she had an opportunity to show the world who she was and yet she showed them this. it bothered her, to not feel proud of her work, to not feel like and individual and reading the comments of her fans and seeing the clips of her self from that video, she realized she wasn’t the only one. pop was great, but it wasn’t…her. and by choice, she dismissed everything she’d learned from her father, everything she stood for for herself, and for what? comfortability? since when did she ever do that? xīn had been giving vibe, gold star and infinite hell and high water since she joined their companies. barking and preaching about who she was as a person and persevering through being a low ranked trainee, picked for beauty. it was the reason she stood proud littered in tattoos, head high as the only foreign member of her group. it was the reason she never let herself get torn down for her visual spot, pinned comments on her beauty. her only stamp on the world couldn’t be, being a member of a group. she’d always wanted to make her mark and she was given the stage to do so, flora being the stepping stone, but she got the opportunity…she fell flat.

when they came to her and expressed that the numbers begged her to do more solo work, she stood firm in her decision to work on it on her own, at her own pace. and her next stop following the meeting was someone she’d been dying to have a sit down conversation with. someone she’d practiced their songs over and over, and dreamed of being just like. the light being on in their designated room only pulled her, finally, to do so. with a light rapt on the door, xīn yán pushed it open, immediately falling into a deep bow.

“oh. uh...fleur sunbae-nim?” overly formal in her delivery xīn stayed in the doorway hoping she had time while this was fresh on her mind.

[lvminosityy]

@offleurs

[wtfxeden]

with the five year anniversary of their season of 'we got married' rapidly approaching, the company was forcing him and seonhwa to collaborate on a song. honestly, he still has fond memories of that time. he never expected to actually fall in love- but that felt like ages ago and those feelings had long ago withered away. still fans persist that seo and him still had an ongoing fling behind the scenes. he's not sure what was more exhausting- the thought of keeping a relationship a secret for that long or being delusion enough to think that was the truth. nevertheless, he complies because he enjoys his alone time with seonhwa, certainly far more than she enjoyed his company. eden sits down at the piano in the reserved practice room for them to work on a song. his fingers lightly press on the keys to form a soft melody. he doesnt bother looking up from the keys when he heard the door open- he knew exactly who it was. "you're late." he states. "not a very good display of strong work ethic." he teased, his fingers continuing to play. @offleurs

[ofyoonas]

☆ welcome to infinite entertainment! it's BAE YOONAH (YOONA), who is the MAIN VOCALIST of BRAVEHEART. i’ve heard whispers that the 26 year old is pretty ADAPTABLE but lowkey SCEPTICAL. also, doesn’t she remind you of JEON SOMIN?

Yeah, I know, it's Esme again. Truth to be told, I've been working on this darling for about a year and I can't believe she's now a reality. Yoona is my onion, as my good sis Donkey would say, and you don't get to see her true self unless you earn that right. So don't get discouraged if she's not the most open of my muses. Despite that, she's very friendly and likes to be around people, so give her a try. As always, you can message me on @offleurs to plot with her!!

Childhood

Born during a snowstorm, Yoonah was always meant to bring chaos into the world. Her mother was barely nineteen when Yoona came into the world screaming her lungs out, all on their own as the father ran as soon as he knew about the pregnancy.

Her mother did what she could to give her a good life, finding any job that gave her enough to pay for a small one-bedroom apartment and keep food on their table. It was never enough, and Yoona learned from a very young age that life was very difficult for those who couldn't afford it.

Her mother dated plenty of men, looking for acceptance and a family for Yoona. But they were mostly men who only wanted to take advantage of a single mother and were pretty much always mean to Yoona.

So Yoona grew up hating men, thinking they were really just a mistake of nature. Men never brought anything good into her life, and she was always relieved when she found her mother crying because she had been dumped once again.

Despite that, her mother was still very loving and wanted Yoona to have everything she didn't - a good life, and a good education, so she wasn't allowed to date anyone and she couldn't befriend boys. Which, really, Yoonah was more than happy to accept that because they weren't worth her time.

By the time she went to high school, tired of the life they had, knew she had to do something to help her mother.

In reality, being an idol wasn't something she wanted to do. In fact, she thought that maybe a modeling job would be good enough. It was then we scouted by Vibe Productions, because of her pretty face and how nice she would look in a girl group. Her singing voice was a surprise, one that needed a lot of work because she had no training, but it could be great if she actually tried.

Training Years

It was funny how she went to a house where she barely had anything to a dorm where she had to share every single thing and yet there was always food in her belly and a warm bed to sleep in. It was crazy how she could take a hot shower every day and stop taking those cold but quick showers at home just to save water and gas. It was a whole new world for her and she wasn't going to waste the opportunity.

So she kept to herself and minded her business, worked hard, and trained. She wanted to debut and finally make some money so she could take her mother out of that place and give her a better life. After so many sacrifices, her mother deserved peace.

It was difficult, though, when the company made sure all the girls fought for their place in the next group, practically encouraging them to step on each other or move the other out of the way no matter the way just to earn it. It could have been easy to do it, she was competitive enough and had reasons to try and be better than others, but Yoona didn't fall for it. She did her best to stay at the top without hurting others in the process. That didn't make her immune, she went through a lot and others did hurt her, and yet she managed to rise above.

Still, it was a surprise when she was selected to be part of a group with other three girls. She didn't mind, she could adapt and work with them, as long as they could make it. But she was terrified - there were so many things that could go wrong. Every day she went to practice hoping they wouldn't be told that their debut wouldn't happen, that when it did happen, Yoona wondered if this was what she truly wanted.

Debut

Sharing everything with other three girls was a challenge, not wanting to step on anyone's fingers but also trying her best to work hard and make sure Braveheart did well. She hadn't expected to feel comfortable around them, even if they all were so different. Yoonah didn't want to be the leader, she didn't want to be the spoiled maknae or anything at all. Being on the stage was fun, she got to see the world in a different light, and that was enough for her.

She really didn't have a role in the group, she felt. She went out there and did her job, but other than that, she was more than happy to be away. After all, she wanted to stay out of trouble so there was no reason to kick her out of the group.

So it took her a while to open up to her members, but when she did, they became her world.

Merge

Just another company, right? They still got to be on the stage and got paid, so what was the issue? Infinite couldn't be worse or better than Vibe, at least she supposed. As long as Braveheart was still together and could make music, Yoona didn't mind much. It was difficult to see so many familiar faces and have to see them around as much now, when she was used to Vibe and being just a few artists around. But still, she made new friends, allowed herself to relax, and maybe being around others wasn't so bad.

And maybe, as she realized how big the group was and that she was irreplaceable, then maybe she began living life and enjoying the fact she had the freedom to spend her own money as she pleased, to have fun, to go out and meet others. Men were good between the sheets at night, but the morning came and so she walked out the door before she could be stopped.

Tour

She got to travel and be on the stage with her girls, she didn't need much. She explored every city, had fun, did many things at night and forgot the next day. Met people in a city and left them behind, because that was life, and getting attached sounded like too much job.

Yoonah is a free spirit, she doesn't really need to overthink or feel when she can just enjoy life as it goes. Whilst it was really long, she still managed to survive without any major scandal or having the managers lose all their hair trying to control her ways.

Present

Life is boring, she accepts. Traveling was fun, if anything very tiring, but at least she didn't feel the need to run because they were moving every two weeks and she didn't have to worry about what she left behind.

Now she's forced to stay in one place, dealing with the consequences of her actions and having to be more careful with what she does.

Her wanderlust asks her to run away and never come back, she has enough money to make it and she can make sure her mother has everything she needs in her absence. But she's attached to the other Braveheart girls and can't do that to them. Oh, but she considers it every day.

Random Facts

Even if she's closed off with her thoughts and feelings, you don't have to get close enough to her to be her friend.

She has two sides - the one she gives everyone; funny, daring, reckless. And the real one; a girl that never got to be a child, so she can be quite childish and silly when she feels comfortable with the person.

She's perceived as the silly member of Braveheart - she's a sore loser and still always loses lmao. She also always says the wrong thing at the worst possible moment, she has just terrible timing to speak.

[mishiisms]

ʚɞ

so far the stops in south america had all been so beautiful, walking through the streets of their respective cities and seeing all the sights that made her wish she could stay just a little longer to see everything. but she was excited for the future stops and these past ones would be stored for a trip of her own personal agenda — especially ones with friends, the memories with them are too great to do just once.

just like now with seo, trailing along the skies in the cable car they were currently riding as it navigated them towards the park near cerro el ávila. the view of the city below paired with the mountains was gorgeous and their plans of doing all the outdoor activities had somi practically bouncing in her seat.

“next time we’ll come back and plan a camping trip here. we’ll take han with us just so he can put up our tents,” she giggled. ➳ @offleurs​

[thatsohkai]

KAISO fifth mini album ‘Hope World’ track teaser image // @ofseok , @okayhaneul , @soulfm , @offleurs , @xojinnie , @lvminosityy

pre-order ‘Hope World’ all versions now! https://weverse.io/kaisohw/pre

**credits to coffee_66 on pinterest for the photo! not sure if they’re the original artist but that’s where i found it!

[okayhaneul]

    considering how competitive both haneul and seonhwa were, it shouldn’t have come to much of a surprise that they decided to do the scavenger hunt. the team who solved all the clues the quickest would get a prize and while he doubted infinite would actually have something they would want, the mere satisfaction of beating everyone else would be more than enough for him. in one hand, his tattooed hand clasped his girlfriend’s, keeping her close as they walked down one of the camp trails; in the other, he held the paper full of instructions and clues. “ we have to collect all the items on this list. apparently, some of the clues lead us to places where the items will be waiting. ” he explained, glancing over at his partner in crime. it honestly sounded like fun. he was an expert camper, but he usually did adrenaline-based activities. nothing like this. “ first one’s a location: i’m full of water where winged friends take a sip, or if they prefer a proper splash and sip. . . ” the bodyguard handed the paper over, so she could read the clue as well. his lips pursed in contemplation. “ well, winged friends are obviously birds. ”

꒰ ♡ ꒱ — @offleurs​​​ !

[xojinnie]

     la boqueria reminded jinnie so much of the markets back in seoul, always bustling with activity and smelling so delicious. she felt right at home right now. sure, the language barrier could be a bit confusing but being there with seonhwa made her feel far more at ease. the woman was so sure of everything; it was easy for the maknae to feel safe in her presence. keeping her arm linked within the soloist’s own, jinnie’s excited gaze flitted from stand to stand to survey their options. there were vendors serving fresh meals like paella and croquettes, but there were also booths to shop at or buy groceries from. she wasn’t even sure what they should try first. her attention span had never been the best in places like these. if jinnie had it her way, she’d try it all. 

      “ where do you want to go first, unnie ? ” she inquired in her usual happy tone, looking over at the other as she spoke. it had felt like forever since jinnie had last gotten to properly hang out with her, so she wanted to make the most of it. a part of her still couldn’t believe that she did get to be around her like this. “ are you thirsty ? i saw a coffee booth. but if you’re hungry, that paella over there smells really really yummy. ”

꒰ ♡ ꒱ — @offleurs​​ !

[ofnari]

☆ welcome to infinite entertainment! it's CHO NARI, who is MAIN VOCALIST of FLORA. i’ve heard whispers that the 27 year old is pretty RESOURCEFUL but lowkey GUARDED. also, doesn’t she remind you of JENNIE KIM?

Hello darlings !!! This is Esme (21+, she/her) and I'm here with another kid (yeah, I know). Some of you might remember this muse from before (new name and face), but she's my baby and she has always belonged here in Infinite. 

There was a time when she was known as South Korea’s Little Sister, a child actress that was in a lot of dramas and was invited to many variety shows because she was cute and charming, and her quirkiness was adorable. But then she grew up and she wasn’t the cute girl anymore, so girl went and become an idol because it kinda just fell into her lap. She went with the flow not really knowing it was her father’s doing, but hey ignorance is bliss. 

But life taught her not everything's perfect. She's nothing like what people expect her to be when they see her. Once a happy and outgoing girl, she's now very closed off and shy, protecting herself from getting hurt again. The industry hasn't been kind to her, and it has made her wonder if a career as a singer and being part of a company that doesn't care about anything but money is what she really wants for her. If you want to plot message me at @offleurs or like this and we’ll figure something out !!!

BIO °° ABOUT °° PROFILE °° PINTEREST °° PLOTS

Childhood

She was born under the first full moon of july, in a year when said month started and ended with one, which was supposed to be hopeful, but it only was the beginning of her parents' downfall.

Was raised by her dad, and in part her brother since he is eight years older than her.

Her dad is Cho Sungmin, a known actor both in movies and dramas.

He married a non-celebrity woman against everyone telling him not to, completely in love that he didn’t realize she only wanted to secure the bag. Of course, it all went to hell at some point.

Her parents got divorced when she was three, hasn't heard from her mom since then.

Although his dad went through a lot during the separation/divorce/all around mess, he always made sure Nari had a happy childhood.

Doted on from the moment she took her first breath, her father gave her everything she wanted. It was more out of the guilt he felt for being so busy and not around as he should. So there was nothing she could ever wish for that she wouldn’t get. Nari wanted to dance? There was a ballet teacher waiting for her the next day. She wanted to learn to play piano? There was a big one in the living room the very next morning. Money was never a problem in the Cho household, but it can’t really buy happiness and Nari, as grateful as she was, would have wanted to see her father and brother more often.

No surprise that, when a eleven-year-old Nari said she wanted to be an actress, her father got her a minor role in a drama.

Debuted as a child actress in 2007, a minor role in the drama Witch Yoo Hee.

Good student usually minded her own business, friendly at all times. All of it not to cause her father any problems.

In reality, and it’s something she still deals with, part of her always thinks that no matter what she does, she will never be as good as her brother. He is a popular idol from a popular group, then debuted as a soloist. People love him, seems like he has his life figured out, and their father is so proud. So she’s trying to follow the same steps and failing.

The thing is, his brother was a very much wanted child. Nari was her mother’s last chance to fix a broken marriage.

Bullying TW // But it wasn't perfect. She was the golden child around the people who loved her, but things at school were different.

Nari wasn't the pretty girl around, she wasn't popular, too shy, and spoke too quietly. Other girls made fun of her because of her being an actress and her family. And she didn't have many friends, she spent the breaks reading and studying.

Becoming a teenager didn't help, because as the other girls worried about their looks and what they wore, Nari worried about becoming the actress she dreamed of.

After many minor roles, she finally decided that she wanted a lead role, but it wasn't as easy. It didn't matter that she wanted it, and without her father's doing, she couldn't do it on her own.

She needed a manager and a company.

She got an audition for New Star Entertainment and ended up becoming a trainee instead. Of course, she got the audition and got accepted because her dad pulled some strings.

Deep down she knows it, or at least suspects it, but she always wants to believe that she got it on her own.

Debut

There was a part of her that thought she would ever really debut, that she would make it as a lead actress first.

Surprise, she was actually talented enough to be selected as the main vocalist for a new girl group.

She considered quitting, but anything was better than waiting for something that didn't seem to happen.

She was worried about how the other members would react, she knew people talked behind her back about how everything she had was thanks to her dad., but she found her home with them. They didn't care about any of that, but about the person she was.

Still, she kept that cheerful facade she had built, not wanting others to see her insecurities.

She doubted herself, her talent, and everything she did.

But being on the stage changed it if even for just a few minutes.

She was highly criticized at first for her voice, but people never wasted time saying she didn't have what it took to be a main vocalist.

But she trained her voice, worked hard, and practiced harder. Pushed herself to her limits and definitely got better. People always talked shit, but she gained a lot of confidence in herself.

Being part of a group with such loving and accepting girls helped her to get out of her shell, and she began socializing a lot more.

Slowly, that shy and quiet girl became such a ray of sunshine, someone who easily made friends everywhere she went.

She finally landed a lead role in 2016, Love in the Moonlight.

See, for a moment, she thought this was about her being a talented actress and that people were finally seeing that. It was really how pretty she was and how popular Flora was getting, so adding an idol to the drama would help ratings.

And so it became her life, her looks were more important than her talent and her hard work.

So it was like that - her voice wasn't enough to be a main vocalist and her talent as an actress wasn't enough to please people, all she got was the way she looked. It really affected the way she saw herself.

But she pushed and pushed, and tried to get roles that at least challenged her as an actress, and to be the best singer she could possibly be.

2018 (Death tw)

It was the most bittersweet year in Nari's life.

Whilst Tempted had a mixed reception in South Korea, it was well-received internationally. Nari ranked second in the list of the top 10 most talked about actors and actresses in South Korea. Despite the question of idol singers in lead roles, Nari was subsequently praised for her improvement and potential in acting, opening the door for her. It led her to get cast as the lead in the historical drama 100 Days My Prince.

It was a huge opportunity, and despite how busy Flora’s schedules were, Nari gave her best to be present for both.

Flora had become one of the biggest groups in the industry thanks to their hard work, catchy songs, and lovely personalities

Right after the incredible success of 'Yes or Yes', the girls were preparing for the repackage comeback when tragedy reached their life.

It was no secret how close the girls and all their families were, so when Silver's brother Eunwoo died in a car accident, the girls felt devastated by the news.

Nari was away at a location filming for the drama when she received the news, the manager in charge to look after her was the one who had to tell her. Still, she had to go out and finish her day before going back to Seoul.

As it should be, Silver went on hiatus to go home and be with her family, leaving the other girls to promote 'Best Thing I Ever Did', and their Japanese comeback.

Nari became the acting Leader, looking after the girls and the group in the best way she could, trying to stay strong for everyone. It was exhausting to be there for Flora and filming at the same time, but Nari knew she had no option.

It was no surprise when rumors took over social media, people wanting to know the real reason why Silver was on hiatus. All of them were upsetting, but it seemed that people enjoyed kicking them when they were already down.

Nari knew there was no special treatment in any way, but she had expected New Star to protect Silver's privacy, and instead, it seemed that their way to fix this was to force Silver to come back before she was ready so Flora didn't lose their popularity.

It was heartbreaking seeing Silver going through something so painful and still having to work so hard, to practice every day, forced to act like nothing was wrong. It made Nari sick, and for the first time, she saw the real industry and how rotten it was.

There was a shift in the Flora energy - Nari couldn't help but stop trusting their staff, to think there were always ill intentions behind their actions. It was a horrible way to live, but she couldn't change the way she felt.

Suddenly, she became too quiet, keeping to herself. She only spoke to the staff if she really had to, keeping her interactions for her members only.

People couldn't be trusted - no staff, no other idols, absolutely no person that was part of New Star deserved an ounce of their attention.

2019-2020

Mental health TW // Soon, the stress took the best of her. Nari often felt like she couldn't breathe, trapped in between the walls of the New Star building or even the Flora dorms.

It was her father who, worried, suggested she went to see a therapist. The company didn't seem too happy with it, afraid that the information would become public and Flora suffered another hit to their image. But her father wanted the best for her and still took her.

Nari was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, which lead her to take a break from acting for a while. Deciding that if she ever went back, she would do it for a project she truly wanted to do and with people she was comfortable with.

However, since Silver had already taken a six-month break in 2018, Nari wasn't allowed to take time off Flora’s schedule.

Her therapist suggested she found activities that kept her mind busy, and after she tried a few, Lego building and knitting were the ones that worked the best for her.

Nari received a script from a director she had worked with in the past. It wasn't a lead role, but an important character for the drama. Nari hesitated for a while before deciding to go back.

The great working environment and meeting so many new people made her remember why she loved acting. It was great for her, and for the first time in a while, she felt more herself.

Merger

If she has to be honest, she didn't care much about it. All companies are the same, and she still gets to be in Flora and perform. She didn't expect Infinite to be better than New Star, but she was with her girls.

It was difficult to see so many people she wasn't used to, feeling insecure and anxious. She tried her best, but Nari couldn't trust anyone.

This made it difficult, really, because she couldn't find it in herself to socialize with people.

For the most part of 2021, Nari did her job or was at the dorms.

The only major change was that she got her own apartment for privacy and to have a room completely for her Legos only.

Still, she decided to keep living with the girls in the Flora dorms.

Tour

Traveling the world with the girls is fun, but because of the tour she has missed great acting opportunities and that has been troubling her.

Sharing with so many people makes her anxious, she usually keeps to herself or her members. She's trying not to be noticed that much.

Nari has been slowly opening up, letting her true self be seen more often than before, but she still is very careful.

After almost a year of traveling, she had given herself the chance to open her mind and maybe try to get to know others.

It hasn't been easy, but it's been a big step to at least try to.

Present

Nari has been focusing on herself and healing.

she’s been working on a solo project, still not so sure about it.

Hoping for a good acting role after almost two years of no acting.

Random Facts

Despite how quiet and reserved she might seem, she's a ball of energy. If she's comfortable around you, she'll always be smiling.

She's actually quite funny if given the chance.

The clumsiest person you have ever known, but only off stage. When she’s on the stage, she transforms completely, she’s a whole different person who seems to know what she’s doing (spoiler alert, she doesn’t), and you can’t believe she’s the same person who fell backstage just a few minutes ago.

Big big fan of everyone, has albums and lightsticks, has gone to concerts, and collects photocards. But she won't say so.

If you’re her friend, she has probably knitted something for you. it’s her love language. Loves knitting and she does vlives just so the fans can see it.

She also absolutely loves eating and baking, but on tour, she hasn't had the chance to do it as often. She's always been in charge of feeding the Flora members, making sure they always have something to eat ready for them.

Nari wears her contacts all the time. But if she trusts you enough, you'll get to see her with big round glasses and hair in a messy bun.

She still doesn't trust any staff, they're all the same. And she doesn't trust people's intentions either.

Living like this is exhausting, and she often wonders if it's worth it.

She loves building legos and has a big collection, like huge.

People online are so mean, always judging her and saying awful things about her. She posts on instagram for their fans, but she is always afraid of reading the comments.

She always has dating rumors even for breathing too close to someone else, she's always dating a new person every three seconds and she hates it. Reason why she doesn't like being seen with others.

Which is crazy, because she doesn't really befriends people, and it's really all about how good she looks next to someone else.

She’s pretty nice, you just have to work past all the walls she has built around her to see it.

[dxefillz]

here she was again. sitting within the four walls of a practice room that probably made her feel a bit more frustrated than it should. maybe that was a good sign though, it meant she cared at the very least. many others have the impression she’s completely careless- and lately she can’t exactly deny that with an earnest heart. not when she herself started to believe it. maybe she got too used to being a face in the background of tidal that she’d grown complacent with the small amount of burden placed on her. now, things were changing. v!olet demanded more of her, and for some reason she didn’t know what type of energy she wanted to approach things with. dae was confused, and unsure of what she wanted- and even began questioning a bit of herself. 

her manager told her to focus on one thing at a time, and just take initiative when she felt like she should. so, for dae that meant practicing even when they already had morning practice. for this session though, she called on a friend- someone she thought was phenomenal on stage and even more so, off of it. 

dae let out a stressed sigh before she opened facetime, clicking seonhwa’s name and video calling her. the moment she heard the answered set of tones, she frown into the camera playfully. “seooo, where are you? hm?” @offleurs​

[dxisiesdukes]

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