#on the bright side i got really really really good pizza and im getting phenomenal bagels in the morning

[learn-and-accept]

I'm back in the place I grew up for the first time since moving 6 months ago and it is so fucking weird and I have a lot of feelings

[teakiii-archive]

wow ahh eek okay !?? 2k? that’s insane wowow ily all sm

tbh i think im always a bit of a flop so a huGe thank you for making me feel so loved + happy ♥

but...ofc i have to mention people that have always stuck with me + go on tangents about how much i love these simblrs !!

@surreysimmer aH OK wOW molly *sweats* you are such a great friend + i love you lots !! you always make me smile and you make my day on the daily, a few months ago, we probably had no idea we were going to get so close but im so thankful that we’re just good friends i mean wowza your blog is top notch all the time. not to mention ahem my otp poppy and august (i can fight nicola thanks) is acc the cutest thing i’ve ever seen like???? how??? ilysm ♥

@honeyiko eek you know how much i love kate diego ! you are such a funny person to be around and you make me laugh so hard i can’t breatHE,,,,and like amara + zaRA gorgeous goddesses wow i love them, you make me feel better when im sad :’) idk what i would do w/o you tbh not to mention you pushed me to broaden my cc horizon ( i have 9 gbs now diEGO)  thank you for being the diego to my dora, ilysm

@littlemissnellie eL ah where do i begin? i remember meeting you back in around maybe august? and we talked about roast dinners and how adorable you and your accent is! i know youre not too happy abt your blog currently (psa: go send el some love !!) but i loVE it lots and the daleys kill me everyday ♥ ill miss them for sure; but you + your health come first! so never forget that. you are such an adorable lil bean and it really sucks for us to start drifting apart a bit eek!! i hope we get to catch up on the weekend a bit more ♥ always remember that i love you lots!

@rosypyxels wOO rose omg ! even though sometimes we go days w/o talking we just fall back into it immediately! you are so incredibly talented and sweet (um not to mention gORGEOUS) i know you’ve been going through a hard time recently; but i love how we constantly fan over how hOt all those models on pinterest are i mean wOWZA ! you never fail to amaze me with those crazy good makeup skills + your style?? where do i even start??? its so great??? ilysm + even though you don’t post much here; im glad to have you in my life :’)

@tiredtoothache saV oH my goodness gracious !! your blog like how??!! your sims are so prettY?? and i cant handle it?? and ken?? wow?? wcif that talent???????? i remember coming across your blog around hmm maybe late july/ august and thinking wow her story? john? i cant deal!! you are also v kind + super sweet, even though we don’t chat too much im v glad that we’re friends ! (ps we really should chat more but i suck at carrying conversations rip) ilysm sav!

@okyio chrisTy im sobbing where do i even begin? im still insisting that you were sent from the gods to make us cry bc of those dazzling editing skills (not to mention how cute sage + mu are ) i know recently things have been happening but im sending never ending love n support! (let me know if im overbearing) but seriously; you never fail to wow me with how gentle and patient you are. you are so kind and nice to everyone, i hope you feel a lot better soon but until then make sure to take care ♥ ily!

@dust-bubbles albertaaaa !! you are such a fun, genuine person to be around. you are so talented and not to mention super modest ♥ you are too sweet !! your cc is always top notch (i cant deal like actually) i hope we get to know each other better bc wowza you are such a cool bean and im glad i’ve gathered the courage to talk to you a few months ago because i’ve gotten to know one of the sweetest beans on the planet ily!

@citruswhims caL omG i was there back in the day with little callia bean !! and i remember i texted you to ask if you were doing okay and then blossomed a beautiful friendship filled with a lot of dog pictures and talking in all caps! you are unbelievably vibrant and just a bright person overall ! im glad we got to know each other (even though sometimes we don’t talk too much) i love you sm + im just so haPPY that we’re friends ♥

@amessofsims LINA LINA LINA you are such a spontaneous bright ray of sUNSHINE!!! exCEPT for the fact that we all know we pour the cereal first, then the milk (take notes lina) you always make me laugh + wow i just love you ok??? never forget that !! thank you for always making me smile ♥

@vvindenburg jiLLS!!! i remember finding your blog through i think a giveaway in june? (when i only had a cc finds blog that only tumblrbot followed omg) i fell in love with gem and julia the moment i saw their adorable faces !! and now we have delos + delphi (sorry phi; but delos is just the better twin :/) you always make me laugh through funny posts that reference memes oR your editing bc thanks for making me crY jiLLS ilysm ♥

@brndletonbae hILLS! (as you can see it rhymes with jills) but yes i remember i think in july?? i jumped up and starting screaming bc yesdarlingsims had followed me. (ahem nodarlingsims now) but you-POPPY- OLLIE sO mucH lOVE im going to cRY, thank you sm for inspiring me to make this kinda mess of a blog, even though we dont talk too much; im glad we chat through asks sometimes! ily hills ♥

@idioticjenna (jenna ok i had to move you down for the gifs im sorry)

people i love lots:

@alwaysimming (can we talk about how nice and supportive you are?) // @vvatore (ok but your textposts just make my day)// @simsluname (hello you beautiful gif queeN ily) // @tea-sims (your blog?? is goals? wcif all that amazing talent??????) // @sammyshuno (where’s bella is and always will be something that is worth staying up still 6 am to read) // @cellblocksimmer (betH omg can your sims kill me please) // @simshuie (tbh lauren we aLL know that lorcan + elide are the cutest + thank you for being sweet n great) // @smubuh (abby, your tutorials are the bEST and idk what i would do w/o you or your blog; your willingness to help never fails to astound me) // @sandy-sims (amazing poses?? great sims ?? phenomenal stories?? yes please!! ) // @thisk (your sims are my weakness wOW! your townies !!? i love!?) // @ahhkaitlyn (you are so sWEET??? i love your blog??)// @domiella (domi ily!!? sm!! wow you are so beautiful inside and out!) // @whiisker (you know i love frankie bc she wOW !! i love your aesthetic skdjf)// @woohoodlums (crazy gorgeous sims + edits?? sign me up) // @meisiu (your houses !! slay me!?) // @grapfruit (your psds !! your edits!!! wow!!) // @panda-plumbobs (ahh amber !! i love your blog?? sm?? we should def talk more ♥) // @tigerellasims ( i crY i love your legacy !! so much!! ) // @cowplant-pizza (your legacy *ahem* those amazing spICY posts !! your poses! ) // @sundaessims (quinlin!! ily!! your tags give me life + your bio too) // @mooon-sims (your lookbooks!! i die!) // @faeflowr (your gameplay pics! and your cc finds ahhhh) // @kiwiikio (im crying bc your blog is just so perfect and i love it so much im going to cry wow) // @harrybuts (you know ily mack ) // @ridgeport ( i LIVE for nES and your mind-blowing cc) // @rosetrii (your dOODLES I caNNOT) // @roseyki (your cc and your sIMS ahhh) // @starryllamas (jESS your sIMS i and your edITS ily) ps gotta spam your blog soon so watch out ;)

side note: i tend to forget things a lot!!! so if you think i missed you, message me ♥ (im vv sorry)

@idioticjenna even though our friendship didnt exactly start off on the right foot, im glad i’ve gotten to know you better! jenna you are hiLARIOUS omg i just love it, you have so much talent like wth ??? thank you for being so sweet n kind ♥ have a gif:

thank you all for all of this, i couldn’t possibly ask for anything better than this ♥ please take care of yourselves, i love you all so much. please dont forget that my messages and inbox are always open if you ever need anything !!

[choco-chip-cookie]

SugarDaddy!Cal Pt.14

A/N: So you guys, this time this whole chapter was written with Harry Styles' album on repeat because girl...that's my shit. I could’ve ended it better, but I honestly didn’t know how to. Anyway, you all know the drill of 100 notes and feedback is always appreciated. Enjoy, lovebugs💕

 **WARNINGS**: Nothing besides profanity. A nice vanilla chapter

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"Mmm, good morning, princess." Calum whispered as he pressed loving kisses to your jaw.

You sat there stiffly cuddled into his chest, your voice holding no emotion as you told him,"Get your shit and leave."

Calum's eyebrows met together and he pulled his arms from around you, sitting up so that he could see your face. You wouldn't even look at him.

"I thought we-"

"Yeah, I did too." You cut him off before telling him what you came to realize when you woke up nearly an hour ago."You fucking used me."

"What are you talking about?"

"You don't remember what you texted Michael?"

Calum's eyebrows never parted during this whole conversation, his face showing nothing but confusion. When you unlocked and handed him his phone, it was already opened on the messages between him and one of his best mates.

"You went through my phone?"

"Michael text you something about work and I told him I'd tell you when you woke up, because I knew you wouldn't want to talk to him at seven in the morning. I just so happened so see my name and got curious."

"Yeah, but you-"

"Cal, it was never a problem going through your phone for three months straight. Why is it a problem because you're in trouble?"

Calum shook his head and went to read the conversation, mentally choking himself from what was said. Of course he didn't mean it like that, but now that you've seen it there's no way your going to believe him.

Calum: I just miss her mate. ~I miss everything about her from how loud her laugh is to the way she scrunches up her nose when she sees something disgusting ~And the way she always smelled when we cuddled ~And the sex...the sex was fucking phenomenal...I miss that the most Michael:Then go get her Calum ~I couldn't if I wanted to ~Go apologize and fuck her, you said that works every times she's mad ~This is different... ~I'm just telling you what you told me you do when she's upset with you ~ You go buy her some shit, apologize, and have sex with her. Isn't that how the ordeal works or something ~Well...I guess you're right ~I’m always right ~I'll try

"Y/N, I swear to you that really wasn't my intention." He held his hands in the air as if surrendering."I drunk a few beers and came over to talk and it just led to something else."

"Wasn't that the point, though?" You spoke, your voice laced with attitude as you crossed your arms.

"No! No, I promise!" Calum seemed panicked, but you payed it no mind.

All Calum was thinking was he somewhat got you back last night only to lose you again over some stupid text that seemed worse than it actually was. He felt as if he should have the word "IDIOT" written in big bold letters across his forehead.

"I honestly missed you and it wasn't just about the sex. I just wanted a way to feel close to you that's why I went through with it. I thought- I thought that meant we were going to be okay."

You heard the sadness in his voice and saw how his face softened as if he was actually hurt, but no. He shouldn't be the one hurt, he's the one who keeps hurting you.

"You're just..." you laughed lightly, shaking your head in disbelief."you're unbelievable. Feeding me dreams just to get what you want. Do you even actually like me?"

"Yes! Of course I do! Everything is just too complicated right now, but-"

"Just go." You interrupted, standing to show your bare body. When you saw him eyeing you and watched as he sucked his bottom lip into his mouth, you had to remember to be mad at him. "Don't come back, Calum. Seriously."

"No."

"Go to your fucking model girlfriend and tell her how you cheated on her with a bitch like me. See how she feels."

You slowly began to find some lounge clothes consisting of a pair of black tights and a polka dotted shirt and ignored the fact that Calum was still sitting there on your bed. Sadly, he was still fully naked, so the multitude of thoughts that were running through your head contradicted what you initially were thinking about him. God, the things that boy did to you. He waited until you began to re-moisturize your curly mane in the mirror before he spoke again.

"Princess, I really am sorry. I didn't mean for any of this to happen."

"Yeah, me either."

You heard the Māori sigh behind you and him shuffling around to unravel himself from the sheets. You watched through the mirror as he got dressed with the most defeated expression and fought the urge to let him back in. It was heartbreaking to say, but you really had to let Calum go. You refused to keep him in your life if that only meant you'd be angry and jealous twenty four seven over some white girl you didn't even know. Some girl who snatched him from you within days and ruined what the two of you had going. You weren't going to be bitter over a man who was never really yours. Calum wrapped his toned arms around you from behind and you stiffened, looking at him through the mirror. He had his face hidden in your hair and began to sway you from side to side, letting out another sigh, but this time in contentment and not disappointment.

"What are you doing?"

"Getting one last hug before I see you in God knows when."

"Get off of me."

He placed a kiss to your shoulder and mumbled out,"Bye, princess.", and finally exiting your room.

You huffed and bent over to lean over your dresser to rest your face in your hands. Who knew catching feelings would be this complicated?

You groaned loudly as you continued to bang on your friend's door, praying that he'd come open it. You knew he was in there due to hearing the sound of what seemed to be Adele playing somewhere in the apartment. Typical Connor.

"Dammit, Connor, open the door!" You shouted and waited a few minutes to see if he'd come to the door. When that didn't work, you began to threatened him."Don't make me go to headquarters and tell them that I don't know if you're alive or not."

It wouldn't be the first time you had to check on both him and Felix for locking themselves in their apartment for days at a time. Soon enough you heard the sound of a lock turning and there stood your best friend in all of his...glory.

"What the hell?" Your eyes widened at his appearance.

You'd known this man for two years and you've never, not even once, caught him slipping like this. His hair was definitely in need for a cut and it seemed as if he hadn't washed it in a weeks. His usually glowing tanned skin was now a bit pale, he had dark bags underneath his eyes, and the sparkle in his bright, sky blue eyes dimmed to a dull blue. You were pretty confident that if he could grow facial hair, he'd be sporting a full beard.

"Connor, oh my God. You just...wow."

"I know, I look like a homeless man, shut up."

"Okay, you're definitely getting out of this apartment." 

“Y/N, no.”

“Connor, yes.” You used the same tone back on him as you pushed passed him to enter.

Surprisingly the nicely designed apartment was nearly spotless besides the empty pizza box and half a two liter coke sitting on the coffee table. However, the house had lost its usual smell and its comes to help you realize that it was Felix's cologne that surrounded these walls. Connor always wore something light with a fruity scent whereas Felix wore some heavy polo cologne.

"I'm not going anywhere."

"You haven't left this apartment in a month." You deadpanned."The only time you do leave is for groceries."

Connor didn't say anything as he plopped into his couch. You took a seat beside him and watched as he picked at a string on shirt that you realized belong to Felix, the difference between their height causing it to be a little longer on him. You two sat in a comforting silence until he finally broke it.

"Have you seen Felix?" He asked his eyes darting away from you the second you made eye contact.

"You don't know where he is?"

"We haven't uh...He won't return my calls or texts." He shrugged."Im actually kind of worried because if he's with some other guys getting comforted he might not ever come back,because that's how I met him and-"

"Connor, Felix's been sleeping on my couch for the past month."

"And you didn't fucking say anything?!"

"I thought you knew!"

"Oh my fucking God, Y/N! All this time I could've been banging on your door trying to win him back instead of thinking he was on the other side of town or some shit!"

"All you had to do was ask." You said as you crossed your arms."I thought you were ignoring him on purpose."

"Of course I'm not ignoring him. I saw Felix as my future husband, I'm not letting him go."

You noticed the tears in his eyes and sighed, opening up your arms and gesturing for him to hug you. You knew the blonde most likely hadn't spoke a word about the breakup to anyone and had been alone in his apartment letting it all out. He sobbed loudly on your shoulder as you rubbed comforting circles on his back.

"I miss him so fucking much."

"He misses you too, C."

"I wouldn't fucking know. He's being so bitchy about the whole thing and-and-"

"Shhh, it's gonna be okay." You reassured."I'm gonna get you two back together, I don't care how long it takes."

"Promise?"

"I promise." You held out your pinky finger and Connor laughed through his tears, wrapping his pinky around yours."So, I'm gonna talk to him and we're definitely having a girls day tomorrow, okay? Give you time to get back to your fabulous self."

"It's a date." He agreed, ruffling the curls on top of your head.

"Felix, we still need to talk!" You shouted as you made your way into your apartment, placing your purse down on the coffee table. "Felix?!"

You saw that he was missing from his usual spot on the couch and went to check the other rooms in the apartment to see if he was there or not. You told him while you were out earlier running errands that when you arrived back home, you'd have along talk about his relationship situation. You weren't really too surprised to find out he went ghost on you tonight.

"Of course he leaves when we have to talk about Connor." You said out loud, rolling your eyes in annoyance. As you went to enter your kitchen you stopped in your tracks after spotting several gifts on along the countertop. "The hell?"

There sat three dozen roses, a large bag, and two other boxes placed neatly on the marble isle. Your eyebrows were furrowed as you searched for a note or something regarding as to where this all came from. Your initial thought was that Felix went shopping and just so happened to buy roses since those were his favorite flowers, but you knew deep down exactly where this came from. As you finally found a small card tucked neatly in one of the roses, you couldn't fight the smile that made its way to your face at the sight of his handwriting.

I'm sorry about what happened this morning and well I guess last night too. I don't regret it, but I do apologize. Hope you can forgive me, princess. - Cal

You reread the note over and over again, soon allowing giggles to escape your lips. It was like you were in ninth grade with your first crush all over again. You smelled the roses and felt the softness of the petals along your fingertips. Then you suddenly felt extremely excited as you pulled the paper from the bag to reveal a new Louis Vuitton Speedy 30 and you squealed at the sight of it. How Calum remembered that you wanted this purse before everything went down, you had no idea. You even forgot that you wanted the purse. You gently placed it back into the bag before opening the larger box first which happened to be a large assortment of chocolate covered strawberries. There was another note tucked inside, but this one was computer generated letting you know it came shipped with them.

I remember you told me chocolate covered strawberries were "to die for" on our second date. Please don't die, though :) - Cal xxx

"Idiot." You mumbled out as you picked one up, moaning as the sweetness of the chocolate and strawberries juice filled your mouth.

You gasped as you saw that the third and last box contained a beautiful heart shaped pendant encrusted with diamonds around it. In the middle were the simple letters "C.H." engraved in a beautiful cursive font.

"He didn't." You whined to yourself as you examined the necklace in disbelief.

You had always joked about getting his name on a necklace so that everyone could know you were his, but it was always all jokes to you. The necklace was cute, yet subtle. You really had to see the necklace up close to see the small letters and that's exactly what you liked. Only you and a few people would actually know the true meaning of the necklace.

Before you could come to your senses and get over the elated feeling, you had your phone in you hand waiting for Calum to pick up his phone. Once the sound of his voice came through you grinned wider than you were before.

"It's kinda hard to be mad at you and push you out of my life when you're buying me gifts."

"That's good news, then."

"Thank you, Cal."

"It's nothing, really. " he blushed on the other side of the phone."You deserve it after all I've put you through. I know it can't make up for it, but it's a start."

"Yeah, I guess so."

There was an awkward silence until Calum broke it , attempting to make conversation." So...whatcha doin?"

"I just got home, I guess I was gonna shower."

"Do you think we could uh...we could talk on the phone like we used to?" He questioned nervously.

"Where's Nicole?"

"She's not here. Are you seriously going to always bring her up?"

"I am." You confirmed.

"When you told me you were petty, I didn’t take you serious.”

“Oh, I bet you wish you would’ve prepared yourself then.” You flopped onto your bed and leaned back against the multiple pillows that were placed at the head of it.

“Nah.”He chuckled.”I’m pretty sure I can handle it.”