#ooooof im so tired

[andsalttheearthbehindyou]

january reading wrapup

a bit weak this month but it was my birthday and thats a holiday in and of itself sooooooo

the shards, bret easton ellis - this was so perfect, top to bottom. moshfegh is obsessed with ellis and i totally see where she draws her inspo from, *I* feel inspired, like this is just an incredibly gifted writer and i feel stupid for being like, hey have you heard of this guy?? but i think everyone just thinks of the american psycho film when we really should be like my god this writer is insanely gifted. im gonna read all his work albeit slowly because i imagine a lot of his novels are similar in vibe and i dont wanna get overwhelmed by it hahaahaha. but this ones gonna stick with me for sure. hbo's making this into a show, im gonna message casey bloys and say cAlL mE I wAnNa Be An aCtrEsS!!!

the vulnerables, sigrid nunez - not much to say but it gave satc vibes for some weird reason to me that i cant even explain

vladimir, julia may jonas - chose this because of natalie portmans bookclub, and i could literally envision her envisioning herself in this type of role if this were a movie, especially after her may december performance. i did enjoy this but the moralist ending really wasn't...warranted? and im being vague here for risk of spoilers but the fire seemed like a very cheap cop out? if anyones read this id like your thoughts? also from the vague synopsis id read it made it seem like the prof was an older man obsessing over a younger woman so i was really intrigued by the role reversal here and i really did want to like this.

black swans, eve babitz - cant believe i didnt read this in 2020! especially since i read slow days back then. eves writing makes me swoon

tender is the flesh, agustina bazterrica - okayy. prefacing this by saying ive been vegetarian for 4 years now and that that greatly affects my take on this, i feel like book is heavily reliant on shock value and the grotesqueness of the real world and the author knows that the reader knows this is a real practice irl and is only forcing them to care because its being done to humans now instead of animals. which is so disturbing? maybe its just me but i think its horrific and cheap to pretend like youre making a statement and pretend like youre urging people to give a fuck about a real world problem but people dont see our irl food industry as a problem, if they did there would be more people with plant based diets. i hate to sound preachy in a 'review' where im condemning the author for being fake preachy but any positive reviews of this honestly are from people that will pretend to make a change in their diet for like a week and then revert to eating meat. and then the 'twist' where it also a commentary on surrogacy at the end, i was honestly appalled. modern day surrogacy as glorified by kardashians where its just rich women who dont feel like gaining weight or are only slightly inconvenienced by pregnancy so they turn to surrogacy is obviously disgusting but the main characters wife in this is obviously infertile and i dont see anything wrong with surrogacy in that instance -- (obviously not like its done here with the cattle-woman, hello??) but oh my god this book was really not....it. for me. and i think cannibalism in media had its fun but we need to move on already its tired. this book had nothing even interesting to say on it, whatever, im annoyed, at least it was short.

sirens & muses, antonia angress - very cute i liked this a lot! it reminded me a lot of this book i read in 2022 called cleopatra and frankenstein, which i also liked a lot. this just reads really well all the way through and i loved all the characters, i was a little upset about what happened with preston but only because i really liked him and i do realize that it was interesting to show flashes of his father in him it made him more complex sighhhh! this could be a good mini series tbh i saw karina so clearly in my head as sophie thatcher ooooof

pefume: the story of a murderer, patrick süskind - kurt rec so i knew it was going to be good, wasn’t expecting it to be sooo funny tho! loved

a knight of the seven kingdoms (the tales of dunk and egg #1-3), grrm - i kept putting off reading this one because ive been scared that i’ll never have a new grrm book to read :[ and also honestly i thought this one would be boring lol but it WASNT, i LOVED it, dunk and egg r literally babies omgmggmgmgmg. loved it so much :,(

the last tale of the flower bride, roshani choksi - i think i liked this, i dont know, i dont know if me not knowng if i liked it or not means i didnt like it, i think i did, but idk lol. I did! i did like this. very tangible and idyllic, i love 'we were girls together' relationships, a jennifer and needy type of thing which will always get me. i thought the switches in pov were fun. someone described this as gothic which is why i picked it up and i...wouldnt call it gothic, but it was good.

i guess this month wasnt as weak as i thought but whenever i dont hit double digits im like ugh. slump.

[danhoemei]

The sunsets we watch together [AO3]

For TYK week day 3: travel

Two men dashed on the empty road. Their pace was so fast and steps so light that for unsuspecting animals or occasional travellers here and there it was as if nothing passed them, the only noticeable movement that of a slow rise of their clothes as if caused by a gust of wind.

The road split up at one point, one branch circling around the mountain in a long but gentle journey, the other leading up the steep ground somewhere to the top, used rather by local animals and farmers rather than travellers. Having reached the juncture, the two figures took a sharp turn up the steep path, so in sync an observer would think that they communicated with one another beforehand.

It wasn’t long before the two reached the peak. Suddenly, only one was moving forward.

Wen Kexing dug his heels into the ground as soon as he realised that Zhou Zishu’s presence disappeared from his side. The sudden change was brought to his attention almost instantly because of his partial focus kept constantly on the other man, however, the speed of his movement caused him to land quite a few leaps away from the point they separated.

Worry flashed through his mind as he turned around and leapt back to the top of the mountain.

There, he saw the man he was looking for standing motionlessly, turned towards the side of the road.

Zhou Zishu was looking into the distance with an absent expression while one of his hands subconsciously rubbed at his chest, right at the spot where one of the Nails was previously embedded. His eyes were glued to the view in front of him, of the mountain peaks covered in a veil of intense golden light originating in the setting sun. The fiery orb was already close to touching the distant rugged horizon, lighting the bottom of the fluffy clouds, casting long shadows on the ground, and illuminating rivers and lakes flowing between the valleys like enchanted serpents.

“Yet another day passed,” his lips barely moved as he whispered so quietly that it was impossible to be caught by anyone who wasn’t very near and possessed an exceptional hearing.

A presence suddenly appeared by his side, and he didn’t even need to glance to know that it was Wen Kexing.

“What a beautiful view,” the man hummed. “I’ve always known you were a person of great sensitivity at heart, Ah-Xu.”

Without waiting for a response, he sat on the ground and reached for Zhou Zishu’s hand to tug him down. Zhou Zishu finally looked away from the landscape in front of him in favour of eyeing the other man.

“We have to keep moving or we’ll be forced to stay the night here,” his words sounded firm, but they lacked the usual harshness. Maybe even possessed an edge of softness.

“Come on, Ah-Xu, it won’t hurt to sit here for a little while. It’s not like we’re expected somewhere important,” Wen Kexing reasoned while continuously tugging on Zhou Zishu’s hand.

“We promised Chengling to attend the next meeting between the sects. Ye Baiyi is also going to be there.”

Wen Kexing nodded in agreement.

“See? Nowhere important.”

Zhou Zishu snorted, then sat down.

With no need to tag at his hand anymore, Wen Kexing still did not let go. Instead, he readjusted his hold to grasp Zhou Zishu’s palm more securely and set their intertwined fingers on his thigh. Heaving a content sigh, he swayed towards Zhou Zishu’s side and put his head on the man’s shoulder.

Both kept silent for a while, their faces warmed by the evening sun while their eyes shone with unspoken thoughts behind them. A bird flew by in front of the orb, covering its light from their gaze for just a split second but long enough to create an illusion of the sun blinking at them.

“Yet another day,” Wen Kexing whispered quietly, voice filled with fondness.

The only response he got was a small squeeze on his hand.

[selfshipseaside]

♡ Imagine kissing your f/o's with stubble! For those f/o's with stubbly facial hair, the prickly faces of those who have yet to shave or are growing out their beards! Holding their head gently to place a kiss on their cheek, pulling them in for a soft kiss on the lips and feeling the scratchiness of their beard on your face. Them rubbing their face against yours just to show you how prickly they really are, it's sweet isn't it?

[the-kipsabian]

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[storyblcd]

wow so I uh...was trying to do a draft at least today, but I had an exam and a lab and a huge af math assignment so uh.....sorry but I ain’t here today oof

[713-4th-ward-g]

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[doctorwormcore]

im also LITERALLY going to sleep but while I remember I drank three apple poppers today, paired the last one an hour ago with microwave popcorn and then was in my brothers hot room to play video games so I got super dehydrated so now I'm full of painkillers and water jfdjjcmxxm

[its-me-im-coraline]

NSFW Alphabet // Victoria De Angelis

words // around 1k

warnings // obviously this is nsfw, very badly written really but ooops

pairing // Victoria De Angelis x reader

author's note // this was so hot to write but i also felt so intrusive writing this omg 😳😂

request // yes, can't find it right now

summary // NSFW guide to miss Victoria de Angelis

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

I feel like Vic is even more like a puppy after sex (i swear this woman will be the death of me). She seems really caring so I feel like she would try to take care of you, and you would have to force her to let you care for her. Cuddles are an absolute must!

like “here, drink this love, you need some water.” “oh, come on, you need to get up a go to the bathroom, love, just go” and then you sit down again and she just sits there waiting for cuddles “victoria, did you drink any water after we got done?” “no, ill drink later, its fine” “no its not fine, im getting you some water” and she would just argue with that until you threaten with no cuddles

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

On her self Victoria really likes her lips and fingers (i mean she would loooove devouring you.... stop me)

now, on you, for some reason feel she would either have a chest or arm thing hmmm. i can imagine her just practically drooling any time you wear something low cut

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

i feel like cumming tends to make her hornier sometimes. would def like to cum on your face no hesitation, but other than that nothing crazy

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

hmm can't think of something really crazy here but she could possibly like teasing you in public.

or there is something she hasn’t told you… wears your shirt to masturbate when you cant be with each other, but again nothing crazy

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

i wouldn’t say she is insanely experienced but she knows what she's doing. if there’s something you like and she doesn’t know how to please you she is glad to learn from you. there are surely things that you both explore together

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

i don’t much about sex position names and shit but i see Victoria as being decently dominant so I’d say anything that gives her the leverage of being in control. maybe riding you…..

G = Goofy (are they more serious at the moment? Are they humorous? etc.)

considering her personality, she is quite goofy but can be really serious if she is really concentrating (no but like her eating you out and just being so focused her eyes never get away from your heat ooooooof)

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

she is really loving, really. whether she is dominant or not does not matter. she will always just hold your face tenderly every once in a while, lots of sweet kisses afterwards

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

just from the whole image the band puts out, i think, victoria is pretty comfortable with masturbation. she looks like she would be into mutual masturbation a little bit..hmmmm

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

she’s into hair pulling (her doing the pulling omg), i’d say she is dominating but not really into the whole “mummy” thing. would maybe prefer mistress.she’s into leather accessories if that could be considered a kink. maybe a bit of voyeurism, she would be into you seeing her masturbating

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

prefers the more comfortable places, that way you can both have the ultimate fun

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

lingerie is a big turn on for her. for some reason i get that she would get turned on by photos of you all blushy and stuff, like after the gym.

“what are you doing, babe?” “oh nothing, I was just working out a bit” *sends pic* “how are you?” “oh...uhm, you know… busy… gtg”

also finds extremely hot when your face is a bit red during the summer from the sun…. I don’t know why i get that vibe i just do ok? sue me lol

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

she's pretty open to most things, hasn't exactly encountered something she would say no to. exept feet fetishes! i might be projecting cause i hate that but she finds it kind of... well, to put it nicely, uncomfortable

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

she loooves giving you oral. I mean, I get the vibe that she specifically likes eating pussy so maybe this isn't the same if you have a dick. like I see her as a service top 😶

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

she is quite sensual and goes at a middle pace; not too fast or too slow, simply quickly enough to make you both enjoy it but also tease a little

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

doesn't love them, but if she is very insatiable due to how horny she's gotten she will be open to the idea. otherwise she believes quickies don't give her the opportunity to love you as you deserve

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

as i said before, she's willing to try most things, except fucking feet

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

def a few rounds, but gets really tired after maybe 5 ?

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

she loves using toys when teasing you. vibrating panties, cock rings, even vibrators that connect to an app so she can control it from afar, anything and everything shes got it!

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

she is in general a loud person so def moans a lot. she speaks all the time, especially when teasing you, mostly throwing encouraging and taunting phrases like "come on, baby, is that all you can do? be louder". she gets really hot and bothered by your sounds

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

i mentioned it before but I trully can not get the idea of victoria eating pussy out of my head. like I can imagine her being so concentrated on the task at hand, unless she is teasing you she is very quiet and just ooooof drowsy eyes and all... s t o p m e from thinking

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

id say on a balanced medium (lol sounds like a steak). like on a week scale, 4/7 days a week

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

depends on her day. usually she tries to wait till you fall asleep as you are cuddling but especially if you are the big spoon she's asleep in seconds i swear

[dhyosungh]

2/18/21

OOOOOF today was a long day I had a couple of meetings that I needed to get to so I did not get to study much today ;-; but its okie i have some time tomorrow but UGH im losing motivation im very very tired but hopefully motivation will be back tomorrow

on the other hand ive been talking with my old friends a little more cause of some projects i needed to do with them so that was a ton of fun :) it was nice to meet them all again

[vulcan-highblood]

I don't know if I've asked this yet, but if you could plan out a Brainy backstory episode for Supergirl, how would you do it (what would lead into the flashbacks), what would you want to see in those flashbacks, and (if you have an answer) who would you want to see as young Brainy? (besides Jesse himself)

Ok well first of all I am so bad at actors, I'm a super auditory person so I have no idea who should play young brainy, I'll leave it up to the casting director.

Now that we've settled that, ooooof im.... Brainy backstory is such a delicious topic! One option would be someone rejecting him for being Coluan, triggering Tragic Backstory Part 1: The Child Who Was A Genius But Also Everyone Hated Him Because He Was The Wrong Kind Of Genius

I've always seen Brainy's rejection stemming not only from his family background but his own idiosyncrasies, and the insistence of others to lay those idiosyncrasies at the feet of his Brainiac heritage rather than consider it a personality or character trait

Imagine every part of who you are is immediately written of as "well you're a Brainiac I'm not sure what I was expecting". You're constantly being held to ridiculously high standards, but if you meet them it's treated like the bare minimum, and people all fear or hate you because of your family tree. Being hated for a shared ancestry with Brainiac 1 is old hat, but I get the feeling it doesn't get any easier.

That's part of my theory about why brainy was in a "dark place", too. If all the expectations are so high but you never get any positive reinforcement, it's very hard to see the point in continuing to do what's expected. I don't think Brainy was evil, but I could definitely see him in a sort of Chaotic Neutral "i do what I want Because people hate me anyway so why bother appeasing them"

I feel like you'd start with a minor breakdown - like, Brainy is confronted for being a "collector" (because yeah timeline wise they're probably not wrong) by some random alien and him having a rough time answering that because he Was (as a child), and his inability to deny the accusation might feed into some other aliens sort of verbally assaulting him. He runs off and is comforted by [Dealer's choice, I'd probably choose Kara but I'm chill with Dreamer or even Alex filling the role] who pries a bit like "people who know you know you're not like that, though"

Brainy meets their gaze with a tired resignation, "Do they?"

Cue flashback - kids his age, calling him collector, mocking his inhibitors, yelling "run away, the Brainiac is going to go crazy and bottle you!!" Etc.

Cut back to Brainy, who says something like "maybe so, but for a very long time, people who thought they knew me held a very similar opinion to those [aliens] in there."

Cue flashback two - Querl is older and even more isolated. We see his father, watching him, not the way a father watches a son, but the way one watches a feral dog - curious, vaguely sympathetic, and above all else, wary. Querl glances up to his father, a smile blooming across his features, until he catches sight of the look on his father's face, and the smile drains away.

"My own father likely would have agreed with them," he says in a softer tone.

"I'm sure he wouldn't," his comforter insists, but Brainy shakes his head.

"If he hadn't, then he wouldn't have sent me away"

Flashback 3 - querl, packing his bags, his father watching without expression, arms crossed over his chest. Querl, boarding a ship, the broad hand of RJ Brande resting on his shoulder, guiding him aboard as he describes the quality of research resources available at the Time Institute. Querl dates a glance back over his shoulder. His father is already walking away, his back to the transport ship. Querl's shoulders hunch inwards as he turns forward once more.

"He sent you away? To where?"

"A place called the Time Institute, though there were abundant research projects unrelated to temporal phenomena of which to avail myself. There were not, however, many research labs that welcomed someone as young, and... Obviously troubled."

Flashback: "Can't say I've ever met a Coluan before, your kind don't go offworld very much. What did you do, bottle a planet?"

Querl flinches, though his reaction is significantly less dramatic than his reactions when he was younger. "I'm not interested in shrinking technology," he says awkwardly, "I was interested in temporal anomalies."

"Right, whatever, just stay out of the way."

Another flashback. Querl is older, his face less expressive, his eyes colder. He's working alone when someone approaches.

"Hey Brainiac, what are you working on now? A way to bottle-"

"My name is Querl,” he interrupts tersely, not bothering to lift his gaze. "do me the honor of addressing me as such"

A few more 'advanced bullying tactics' like "oh sorry, I didn't see your name on the lab requisition, Brainiac' "It's Querl Dox, I signed up last week-" "What are you gonna use the lab for anyway? There's no planets for you to collect in there"

"Hey Brainiac, are you collecting labs now? You have projects going on half the floor, why don't you bottle a few and leave room for the rest of us?"

"Hey Brainiac, what's your problem, don't feel like eating with the rest of us or are you too busy collecting planets to take a break"

"Hey Brainiac,"

"Hey Brainiac"

"Hey Brain-"

"MY NAME IS QUERL!! Sprock!"

Cut back to present day. "I was not... Popular among the research residents. I became increasingly isolated, and felt as though there was no one who knew me, or would even care to know me. So I... I stopped caring, too."

Flashback: Querl, alone in a lab. Querl, shoulder-checking people as he walks down a hallway, nose buried in an omnicom. Querl, eating alone in his lab. Querl, running between experiments that would benefit from an extra set of hands. Querl, sleeping alone in his lab. Querl, typing furiously at a keyboard, scowling and muttering at the formulas. Querl, an explosion ripping through the building, him barely blinking from behind a forcefield while anguished cries sound from behind him.

Querl, seated alone in a chair, RJ Brande staring across his broad desk at him.

"You know the protocol for potentially destructive experiments, Querl," the man says in a calm, disappointed tone. "Why didn't you follow it?"

Querl, staring at his lap, mumbles, "I didn't think anyone would notice"

From this point on, the bitterness becomes more pronounced.

Honestly I could go on to the point where he is actually put in holding for willful endagerment of sentient colleagues, but I think we can guess the story from there. Mon-El. The Legion. Bitterness slowly softens. Friendships blossom. Querl takes the very name used to abuse him, and finds strength in it. He becomes a hero.

[jello-fello]

✨, 💕, 💔, 🏳‍🌈, 🍀 for self aware!!

✨  what draws you towards your hyperfixation? what is interesting about it?

I just really like stories, and since this is my own, I keep getting ideas that work with it and get excited!! And also, not that SA is like,, a “I’ve never seen anything like this!” story or anything, but I just haven’t personally read anything much like it before so I thought it would be fun to make a story to fill that gap for myself. Other people enjoying it is just a REALLY cool bonus!!

💕  tell us about one of your favorite characters and why you like them!

tbh I’m torn between both Mell and Kai. Mell because he’s the MC and he’s my first oc, but also because he’s not a “I’m gonna save the world!!” kind of protag. idk, he has anger issues and he hates just about everyone. He’s tired of his own world, can’t deal with himself at All, and resents literally everything and takes it out by being violent. He’s just v much “I’ll save the day, but I DON’T WANT TO!” and I like it

as for Kai, you guys will learn his backstory in the webtoon short story (well, not ALL of his backstory :) ), but he’s very much a character that is morally grey. i wanted a character where instead of seeing what they’re going, you see the WHY behind it first. I wanted the big question with them being “okay we know why you act the way you do, why you’re motivated but.... what is it all leading to?”. I just like his character a lot!! and the relationship he has with Mell is going to be Very important to the story

💔  tell us about one of your LEAST favorite characters and why you dislike them. ooooof. i’ll answer this one as a “I don’t like them as a PERSON” because like, I like all my characters as characters.  a bad person can still be a good character. ANYWAYS. Kei. Hate that guy. oh My God I Hate Him As A Person. You guys know him as a drug-dealing clown, but everyone who knows his full story despises him. He’s the opposite of Kai in the sense of “okay we know WHAT you’re doing, but WHY??”  and let me say, he’s justified in precisely nothing he does.  also Aaron. He’s a dick too 🏳‍🌈  do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you? Tbh, all of them are super important so I’ll make a list?? Mell - He’s mostly Cuban. He has Intermittent Explosive Disorder and just a whole SLEW of stuff we can’t get into yet. As for sexuality, Mell has always thought he was ace/aro up until a Certain point in the comic (seeing as he’s all “im a comic character! these people aren’t real!). but I don’t know the exact term for him so he doesn’t really have a label. he’s not demi, I’ve heard some people try to say he is (me included because at the time it was the Closest label, but the more I thought about it, the less it fit. it’ll make sense in the story). but  it’s okay, he doesn’t need a label Ellie- He’s Korean! and for most characters I keep sexualities nonspecified. A safe headcanon for all characters I don’t specify is Bi tbh. People have ships and I’m sincerely tired of people fighting over canon stuff. A lot is up for interpretation here. Have your own headcanons for people, that’s like half the fun of reading a story to me. Elliot Does have a preference to One Specific Person, who’s a guy (if you can’t guess who it is then RIP), and he has anxiety Aspen- He’s half Japanese and half white. He has PTSD and he lives with disabilities (I would say what exactly, but like,,,,SPOILERS). One thing he has briefly mentioned is being partially blind. Yet again nonspecified sexuality. (Lily is his little sister, not known enough to have her own section yet but she’s deaf!)  and Kai- he’s white, and he’s a demi-boy and also uses they/them pronouns (he just leans more towards he/him but doesn’t mind which of the two people use for him), and he’s gay. As for headcanons about other stuff, a lot of it is spoilers. He does have extreme anxiety though, he just never really mentions it to anyone (yet). This kiddo can pack,,,, so much trauma into him,,, ANYWAYS I just wanna say literally everything about the characters are important to me. I once got asked if most of my main characters being POC/LGBT+ was because I was “sick of straight white protagonists” or something. And while Yes it is kind of frustrating seeing a lack of diversity in media, I didn’t make characters the way they are specifically to spite that, or for the sake of having POC characters, if that makes sense? Basically, my characters being people of color is a default for me. Them not all being cishet is a default for me. If I have a good representation, then i’m glad 🍀  do you have any kins or comfort characters from your hyperfixation? I don't think so?

[the-kipsabian]

top five lady wrasslers ~

immmmmm gonna. go with from the current roster? idk how much the answers would differ for like all time, but yeah, thats easier for my brain to process rn lol also in no particular order cause oooof i cant decide for sHIT

my favorite wife carmella. shes fab, shes adorable, shes actually hilarious and talented no matter what ppl actually say. shes the first ever miss money in the bank, and well deserving of that title. ive always really liked her, and also her theme song just fucking slaps

it shouldnt be a surprise that i love lacey evans if you know how weak i am for strong women and the 50s style lmao. shes also like an actually damn strong (both physically and mentally, fuck shes an ex-marine) and just. ooof her arms. i am weAK

its not a secret that i am extremely gay for rhea ripley. ..also its a worrying fact that it seems all these ladies on this list are blonde and i didnt know i had a type LMAO. anyways. shes gorgeous, shes badass, hER ACCENT, shes like a superb strong and athletic and every time she as much as moves a muscle i cant help but to watch her. shes perf tbh <3

alexa blisssssss. shes like. one of the very first current ladies on the roster that i fell absolutely fucking hard for tbh?? i love her attitude, her skills are amazing, shes cute as fuck and also i relate to being 5 feet tall LOL, and i just. love her so dang much. her hairs are ridiculous amount of goals and her fashion style is so cute and im just aaaAAAAA i love lexi so much

i could have. named so many ladies on the last spot but my heart will always and forever belong to zelina vega so oooooof here she goesssss. shes tiny and talented, im so sad shes not so active in the ring anymore, but she does her managerial duties so well and im never gonna get tired of listening to her talk tbh. i adore her gear and the colors she wears tho, and. her heels. she could step on me and i would thank her for it tbh, im honestly very gay for her and i cant fully explain why????

(honorable mentions go to becky lynch, bianca belair, asuka and lana cause ooooof)

ask me my top 5 anything ~

[benhardyisdaddy]

Royal Protection - Part 7

MASTERLIST 

(hello ooooof okay hope u enjoy)

Word Count: 1,746

“Alright,” starts Ben as he opens up the door to your hotel room. “Here we are.” 

It’s a decent sized room and you were thankful for it. You stepped inside and look around, glancing inside the mid size bathroom. A jacuzzi tub, you think to yourself. Yes! You walk in further and place your purse down on a small table that’s surrounded by chairs. You slip your shoes off and turn your head, noticing that there’s only one large king sized bed in the room. You spin around to face Ben, raising a brow. 

“Only one bed again, huh?” you teasingly ask. 

Ben’s eyes shine for a moment and then it’s gone.

“Actually,” he says walking over to a door in the middle of the wall. “This is my room.”

He unlocks it and opens it up wide, revealing a conjoining room identical to yours. You frown for a moment, a bit sad that you didn’t get to share a room with him again. Little did you know, Ben felt the same way. 

“Conjoining rooms? Hm, that’s different.” is all you say. 

You turn around and walk over to your luggage and unzip it. Ben’s stood there and watches you as you dig through it and pull out some comfy clothes. You were tired from the long trip and just wanted to relax. You spin around and watch as he’s still looking at you. 

“Aren’t you gonna go to your room?” you ask. 

He stands up straighter and nods. 

“Oh, um, yes. I was just making sure you didn’t need anything.” he says. “If you need me, I’m just right there.” 

“Or I can just text you.” you say. 

“Text?” he asks. 

You narrow your eyes confused. 

“Yes, text. It’s when you type a message and send it to someo-” 

“I know what texting is.” he says, half laughing. “Yeah, or text me.” 

You awkwardly smile and nod, standing there waiting for him to go. 

“Oh, right.” he says, turning around walking into his room.

He shuts the door and you exhale. You look around once more and frown. You miss home so much. You were now officially alone and it almost terrified you. You were almost never alone. You sigh as you drag yourself to the bathroom and turn on the light. You place your clothes on the sink and start a bath. You grab a small bottle of body wash that the hotel gave you and dump the whole bottle into the tub. You smile and slip your clothes off, allowing them to pool at your feet. When the tub was filled up with water and bubbles, you tie your hair up and slowly dip a foot in. It’s hot and inviting, making you shiver. You slowly lower yourself into the water, allowing the bubbles to cover you completely. You lean your head back and sigh as your sore muscles start to relax. You were so exhausted you could fall asleep in here. 

Which is exactly what you accidentally do. Your eyes flutter closed as exhaustion overtakes you. Before you know it, you’re in la la land. It doesn’t last long at all. You’re jolted awake by a loud banging sound. You look around and half forget that you’re still in the tub. Bubbles are still surrounding you completely, telling you that you haven’t been asleep for too long. You sit up a bit when suddenly your bathroom door is flung open fast and slams against the wall. You scream out and slide yourself even further down into the pile of bubbles, hiding from whatever or whoever that is. All of a sudden, Ben runs inside and looks down at you. The look on his face is wild and red. He’s breathing fast and his brows are knitted together, clearly showing a mixed expression of anger and frustration. 

“Ben!” you scream, covering your upper front with your arms. 

Your cheeks are pink with embarrassment. 

“I called your phone and texted you! I also stood there and knocked on the door a million bloody times and no response!” 

Your eyes are wide as you look around and back to him. 

“I’m in the bath! Naked! Clearly, I’m fine! Now get out!” you screech. 

Ben freezes and realizes what you’re saying. He looks away fast and is fumbling to find words. He turns quickly and walks out, shutting the door behind him. You’re breathing hard as you sit up and look back to the door. You quickly rinse off and get out of the bath, unable to enjoy it anymore. You’re frowning hard as you dry off and throw on a white robe that the hotel had provided for you. You tie the string around your waist as you walk back into your room. Ben’s stood by the door that leads to his room. 

“How dare you burst in like that while I’m in the tub!” you yell at him. 

Ben’s brow raises up as you walk in front of him, your face filled with anger. 

“How dare me!? I’m the one who’s supposed to protect you! When you don’t reply back to me, I’m supposed to think the worst!” 

“What am I supposed to do!? Text you every detail of what I’m doing?!” you yell. 

“Well maybe,” he shouts back. “You should bring your phone with you at all times!” 

“Well maybe you shouldn’t freak out over something so tiny!” 

“I’m allowed to freak out when your life is in possible jeopardy, princess!” 

“It’s not princess!” you scream. “It’s y/n!” 

Before you know it, your lips crash into Ben’s. His hands are cupped around your face as yours are tangled in his short hair, pulling him even closer to you. Your tongues clash together as you both groan out. Everything had been pushed from your minds as you stood there, clinging to each other as if he was the air you breathed. The kiss lasts for several more seconds until Ben leans away, causing you to frown. 

“I’m so sorry.” he whispers, wiping his mouth. 

You’re stood there in shock as you watch him take another step back, his eyes still glued to you. Your heart broke a bit by him stopping the kiss. 

“Are you?” you ask, licking your lips. 

He stares at your mouth once more and then back up to your eyes. He doesn’t say anything for a moment, deep in thought. He opens his mouth to say something, but shuts it fast. He swiftly turns around, walks back into his room and shuts the door. You’re left standing there confused and dazed. Did that really just happen? You know you teased him a lot, but you didn’t expect that to happen. You bring your fingers up to your lips and gently graze them. You had just kissed him. You lightly smile to yourself and turn around. You walk to your bed and fall back on it as you stare up at the ceiling. You make yourself comfortable and close your eyes, reliving that moment over and over again until you fall asleep, finding yourself dreaming of him.

You’re asleep for several hours, exhausted from that car ride. The bed is so soft and comfortable, feeling like you’re asleep on a cloud. You roll around and feel yourself starting to wake up. You squeeze your eyes shut and groan as you toss and turn, blinking your eyes open. 

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK 

You sit up fast, your heart pounding. You look around and forget for a moment where you are. You exhale and hear another knock on the door. You roll your eyes and stand up from bed, groggily walking over to it. You turn the handle and fling it open, revealing Ben. He’s stood there with a silver platter in his hands.  

“I ordered you dinner. I hope that’s okay.” 

It smells delicious as your stomach growls. You smile to him and nod as you turn and walk back into your room and sit on the bed cross legged. Ben walks up and places the tray in front of you then turns to walk away. 

“Wait!” you say, causing him to turn back around. “Will you join me? I don’t like being by myself.” 

Ben’s once frown turns into a half smile as he walks back and sits on the other side of you. You open the tray and dig in, your mouth watering like crazy. 

“Good?” he asks. 

“Delicious.” you mumble with a full mouth. 

Not very princess like, you can practically hear your mother telling you. It makes you feel better when Ben half laughs and looks away. You smile back and continue eating. 

“Aren’t you scared?” he asks, causing you to freeze and look up at him. 

You were shocked by his blunt question. You lower your fork and look away, shrugging. 

“Not really.” you lied. “I’m totally fine. Looking at it like a holiday, remember?” you ask, forcing a smile. 

He feels something off with you when you speak, but he nods anyways. 

“Well,” he says standing up when you finish the food. “It’s getting late now. We should get some more sleep.” 

You nod and watch as Ben walks back to the door, but before he leaves, he turns back around. 

“You know,” he starts. “It’s okay to be scared. I would be.”

You stare at him with a serious face, causing him to sadly smile to you. 

“Good night, princess.” he says as he shuts the door behind him once more. 

Right now, nothing made sense. You pull your knees to your chest and lay your head against them. You squeeze your eyes closed and sob silently to yourself. You miss your home, your family and friends. Friends. You remember that you haven’t spoken to Claire since the night of the concert when you got taken. You scramble to find your cell phone and type in her number to text. You remember your mother telling you to not text anyone besides the contacts on the phone, but you don’t listen. Claire isn’t a threat, only your best friend. She needs to know what’s happening. You type your message to her that reads, claire!!! it’s y/n! im okay btw. i got shipped to america over something ridiculous! please tell me you’re okay??

You wait several minutes when suddenly you get a new message from Claire. It reads, y/n!! omg, i was wondering what the heck happened to you!! tell me exactly what happened and where you are!!! i need to know every detail! 

And so... You do.

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[zzariyo]

give us a trivia dump

ooOOOF ya put me on the spot here………………………….um lesse…

have y’all heard the story of the Cinderella wolf !? !?!? !? ?! i think it’s fucking AWESOME but im pretty sure it’s…..not as cool as i think it is. 

alright okay so this happened in a Yellowstone wolf pack, right ??? The Druid Peak pack to be precise.

okay so in wolf packs, there are two different kinds of leadership. there’s the alpha male, who oversees the other males, and the alpha female, the main mate of the alpha male and overseer of the other females.

so the alpha female of this pack was a MAJOR bully. she pushed everyone around and was especially vicious to females below her. she took more than her fair share of food and all of the females were scared of her.

and, if memory serves me right (it probably doesn’t) “Cinderella” was the omega female. she was the female at the lowest rank of the pack and took a constant beating because she was so submissive. she never tried to stand her ground, especially against the alpha female who harassed her relentlessly.

and I think for one reason or another, the alpha male eventually ended up taking on Cinderella as another one of his mates, raising her up in the hierarchy and making her a beta. Because of that, Cinderella gained confidence and became less and less submissive. and, of course, the alpha female did not like that at all.

so much later on when Cinderella was in her den with her brand-new pups, the alpha female snuck over, ready to kill her and her pups off when she was the most vulnerable.

BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED NEXT !?!?!?! ?! 

all the females of the pack who were tired of being cruelly tormented by the alpha female for so long appeared, blocking her off from entering the den and hurting Cinderella.

and then they mauled her!!!!!!! Cutting her down at the spot!!!!!!!!! ENDING HER TYRANNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and making Cinderella the new alpha female, fully supported and respected by the other females in the pack for the rest of her life.

[foundherselfs]

god i want 2 upload this youtube vid so bad! ive spent literally 6+ hours trying to get it to upload! on top of the 2 hours i spent editing and the hour i spent filming! ooooof im so tired i just want to put it up