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[suosteacup]

DAY 1 - Jealousy / Confession / Party 🫖🌸

Part of @suosakuweek 2025. Inspired by MNL48 Team NIV's version of Iiwake Maybe (original: AKB48), titled "Palusot Ko'y Maybe".

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[craniumflight]

Fidel and Klay's Nicknames/Descriptions for Each Other

in the 2 months they've known each other T.T

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FIDEL TO KLAY

Magandang Dilag (Beautiful Lady)

isang maralita at isang no sabe leer ni escribir (a poor person and one who can neaither read nor write)

Mestiza de Sangley (Chinese Mestiza)

Isang Dalagang Tila Walang Pakialam Sa Ano Mang Sasabihin ng Iba (A Young Lady that Doesn't Care What Others May Say)

Binibini (Miss)

Mujer Libre (Whore)

Babae (Woman)

Bruha (Witch)

Suwail na Pinsan (Rebellious/Disobedient Cousin)

Pinsan-pinsanan ni Ibarra (Ibarra's Fake Cousin)

Huwad na Pinsan (Fake Cousin)

Miss. Lamyerda (Ms. Truant/Ms. Wanderer)

Maingay (Noisy)

Baliw (Crazy)

Gulo Lamang Ang Dala (Only Brings Trouble; Troublemaker)

Sakit Sa Ulo (Headache)

Babaeng Napupuno ng Drama (Lady That's Full of Drama)

Malaking Sumpa (Great Curse)

Malas (Bad Luck)

May Tinatagong Ganda (One Who Conceals Their Beauty)

Unos (Storm/Typhoon/Disaster)

Delubyo (Deluge)

Tonta de loca (Crazy Woman)

Nakakayamot na Babae (Annoying Lady)

Eskandalosang Babae (Scandalous Lady)

Independence of Mind and Spirit

Babaeng Karapa-dapat Hangaan (Lady Worthy of Admiration)

Babaeng Aking Hahangaan (Woman I admire)

Sadyang matalas lang magsalita si Bb. Klay ngunit siya ay isang mabuting babae kahit minsa'y nakakayamot (Bb. Klay's words are sharp but she is a good woman even if she's sometimes annoying)

Napakatalas na Isipan (With a Very Sharp Mind)

Tunay na Napakatapang (Truly Very Brave)

Natatangi sa Lahat ng Babaeng Nakilala Ko Na (The Most Oneof a Kind Out of All The Women I've Met)

Matabil ang Dila (Sharp-tongued)

Kapesada (Annoying)

Kakaiba/Naiiba (Weird / Odd / Different)

Natatangi (One of a Kind / Unique / Special)

Malaking Kalamidad (Great Calamity)

Fiery Opinionated and Bullheaded Woman

Di mapapantayan ang talino at lakas ng loob (No one can compare with her/your intelligence and bravery)

My Dearest Binibining Klay (My Dearest Miss Klay)

Mrs. Fidel de los Reyes

Dalagang mas matalas pa sa kutsilyo ang mga salitang lumalabas sa kaniyang bibig (young lady who's words that come out of her mouth are sharper than a knife)

May napakabuting puso at kakaibang abilidad at talino na hindi mo mahahanap sa kahit sinomang babae rito (She has a very good heart, unique abilities and intelligence that you can never find in any woman from here.)

Matapang (brave)

Jele Jele Bago Quiere (Coy person who keeps refusing something even when they want it)

Nag-aalibughong Dalaga (Stubborn young lady)

Pagsubok ng Diyos Sa Akin Sa Mundo (God's Trial for Me In This World)

Tunay na Iniibig (The One I Truly Love)

Aking Asawa (My Wife)

Aking Puso, Aking Hininga, Aking Binibining Klay (My Heart, My Breath, My Miss Klay)

Pinakamamahal Ko (The One I Love The Most, My Beloved)

Klay's Nicknames/Descriptions for Fidel

Sir

Lolo (Gramps/Grandpa)

Ewan (Person that I don't care for / I don't give a damn about)

Pala-assume (Presumptuous)

Ang Kapal Ng Mukha (Thick-Skinned, Shameless)

Walang Pakinabang (Useless)

Pasmado ang Bibig (Loose-tongued / Loosemouthed)

Palusot (One Who Makes Excuses to Cover Up)

Basher na Manyak (Pervert who Criticizes)

Supladito (from "Suplado," meaning Snobbish/Condescending)

Bait-baitan (Goody-goody, A person who fakes goodness/kindness)

Mukhang Epek (lit: Face that has an Effect, meaning: A Hottie)

Umay (Disgusting, Distasteful)

Tangeks (from the word "Tanga" meaning Airhead/Stupid)

Stalker

Human CCTV

Daig Pa Ang Pamaypay sa Pagiging Mahangin (literal trans: "You are even windier than paper fans," meaning: You're so damn full of yourself)

Ang Taas ng Ego mo, Kasing-Height Mo (lit. "Your ego is so big/tall, it has the same height as you", meaning: You are so egotistical) (note: at 182 cm, actor is taller than the average filipino)

Feelingero / Napaka-Feelingero (Conceited / Very Conceited)

Buwisit (Nuisance)

Clingy (context: he keeps volunteering to accompany her)

Guwapo pag Galit (Handsome When Angry)

Selos (Jealous)

Cold (context: he didn't make jokes or flirt with her for ONE time)

Lekat (Dissapointment)

Mayabang (Cocky/Show-off)

Mahalaga sa Akin (Important to Me)

Nagbigay ng Tunay na Pagmamahal mula sa isang lalaki (only man who gave me genuine love)

Chill (Too Relaxed)

Gusgusin pero Epek pa rin (worn out but still a hottie)

Alagad ng Bayan (Servant of the Country)

Bayaning hindi nakasulat ang pangalan sa kasaysay (Hero who's name isn't written in history)

Bayaning hindi nanahimik, nanindigan pa rin at patuloy na lumalaban. (heroes who didn't keep silent, who stood for what's right and continued the fight)

Rason na na-survive ko ang world na to (The Reason I Survived in this world)

[ratedfleur]

THIS IS MY GAMER!HAO AGENDA

— gamer!hao lets you sit on his lap while he plays + rests his chin on your shoulder 🥹

— shows off to you

— “baby, watch this”

— when you’re playing together, he gets really cokcy when you lose or get killed

— “hina hina mo naman ganda”

— gets touchy when you’re on his lap

— LIKEEE, one hand would slip under your shirt until ma-cup nya boobie mo. palusot nya is “nangangawit na kamay ko eh 😅”

— victory = blowjob LOL

— “give me head when i win?” pero you shrug him off most of the time because huy! he is a GAMER gamer so he always wins! kawawa ang bibig huyyy

— victory also means fucking to him 😓

— “baby i won oh. let’s celebrate with a victory fuck kaya?

- 🩰

omg babe! 😔

he would be such a tease kapag pinaupo niya si ganda sa lap niya, he would buck his hips ever so often if you’re suuuuuper concentrated sa game.

and the palusot is so real?? he would smoothly slip his hands (yes, hands …… bc pogi just loves having his hands on you) and he’d let his hands rub your waist and hips before they move up to your underboob, keeping them there cupping your tits as you gamed.

“hmm? i’m not doing anything kaya?” he says as he’s literally toying with your tits, groping them with his hands.

tapos the victory thing.. AAAAAAA brain goes crazy heh as you’re playing, that idea suddenness comes to mind sakaniya, siyempre he needs to benefit something when you give him a win on his account no?

“babe, if you win— if you win ha? subo mo ko.” hao purrs in your ear as your hands are frantically tapping on the keyboard and mouse. your mind doesn’t immediately settle that information in, it took a few seconds before you replied.

“pano yan? nanalo na ko?” you said cockily as the screen displayed victory, siyempre his smile is triumphant din as you got down on your knees, slipping right under his gaming table as he stripped his shorts off of him.

and of course, that leads to fucking on his gaming area, laying you flat on the free space beside his gaming console. 😮‍💨

[forlyndonb]

una pa lang pinapublic ko relationship status natin, nagcomply ka naman. tapos naligo lang ako makikita ko tinago mo ulit! hahahahahahahahahahahaa

tapos nung chineck ko after maligo, sasabihin mo sakin ano? na kaya mo tinago kasi hindi mo makita yung profile ko na nakapublic din??? sira ka ba? nahuli na kita panay pa ang tanggi mo? ginawa mo na naman akong tanga! yung palusot mo hindi convincing!!

akala mo ata di ko titignan ulit??? huy! tinago mo kasi ayaw mo makita ng mga kachat mo 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[nuances-of-a-bee]

i'm stuck. again.

i cannot remember the last time i felt normal. feeling ko, i'm just going through life without actually living. i'm turning 30 this year pero hindi ko alam kung okay ba ako sa kung ano at meron ako.

whenever i try to reflect on my life, parang okay naman. i have a stable job. i'm on my third year in law school. i have an amazing boyfriend. but the biggest disappointment will always be the one closest to your heart. my family sucks. and this is an understatement.

pakiramdam ko 90% ng problema ko sa buhay masosolve if maayos lang mag-isip magulang namin. my brother is getting married in a few months. i'm happy for him. kung ano man, ako ang pinakamasaya para sakanya. when we were kids, lagi namin sinasabi na sana hindi naghiwalay mga magulang namin, na sana pwedeng hindi lang kami tuwing summer or christmas magkasama. and now, he's creating a family of his own. sobrang malaking bagay sya para sa aming dalawang na lumaki sa napaka-dysfunctional na family. and yet, just two months before his wedding, yung nanay namin ang daming problema sa pera na sa amin pinapasa.. and our dad? hindi ko alam. hindi ko alam saan mag-uumpisa para ilagay dito kung anong problema sa tatay namin.

i'm turning 30 and all i can think of is how stuck i am. alam ko naman, ako lang makaka-ayos nito. but believe me, it's a fucking warzone in my head. may maiisip akong gawin, decided naman ako, pero biglang.. boogsh! wala na yung will. hindi ko alam kung saan napunta. bilib na nga lang din ako sa sarili ko na halos mag two months na akong hindi gumagamit ng vape. yun lang ata nakaka-proud sa sarili ko ngayon.

it's friday today. tatlong araw na akong hindi nagttrabaho. kung ano anong palusot na sinabi ko sa manager ko para lang hindi pumasok sa office. may pasok ako mamaya sa school. pero yung utak ko, sobrang pagod.

sabi ko nga.. i'm stuck, again.

[sakurapersona]

Feb 25-Feb 26

My mom asked me a question yesterday. (Feb 25) bakit ako naiinis kay daddy these days. Now (Feb 26) I'm writing about how I feel about the question and answers in my head that I could never tell anyone.

Whenever I see dad I always pity him. Nakakaawa sya. Kung wala talaga si mommy walang wala sya. Ni magluto ayaw nya, lagi nakihingi kay nanay (lola). Nahihiya ako pag iniisip ko yun, na nanghihingi sya pagkain kase hindi sya marunong magluto. Paano pag bigla ako nawala paano na sya? Lalo si mommy pag nawala paano kame? Para bang araw araw ko iniisip na magiging ganoon ako tulad ni daddy.

Kaya parati ko naiisip na gusto ko na umalis dito ayoko na makita si daddy. Para bang natatakot ako, kase ayoko maging ganon. Gusto ko sa mga taong gusto ako magimprove at tintulungan ako magimprove kung tutuusin kahit nagtatake ng advantage un pinsan kong si te rose ng ibang tao, mas may matutunan ka doon sa buhay kaysa dito sa amin na parang nasa same loop araw araw.

Nadedepress ako sa work from home ko kase same old ginagawa ko, oo tamad ako pero nagccrave pa din ako achievement at bagong matutunan.

Sa totoo lang rin hindi ako pihikan, duwag lang ako. Kakaiba nga kapatid ko ang hilig mag boyfriend, ako kasi takot na takot sa commitment. Kase baka tulad siya ni daddy. Na manloloko. Hindi alam nila mommy sobra lala ng trust issues ko.

Alam nyo ba kaya hindi ako naka experience ng pagjojowa noon college, kase kapag wala sila pambili ng gusto ko umaayaw ako, agad kasi pumapasok sa isip ko na si daddy ko na nakakaawa na walang pera, simula noon nagkawork sya hanggang nagkapamilya at hanggang ngayon, wala sya naiaambag, lahat si mommy nagastos. Expenses sa business at mga startup business pera ni mommy gamit.

Isa rin na palagi ko narirnig kay mommy na hindi sya tinutulungan ni daddy. Bigat nun sa puso.

Narealize ko lang tong lahat nang makasama ko tita at tito ko sa staycation. Nakita ko paano nila handle lahat. Isip ko pag ako un, puro grown up things na hihilingin ko at gagawin ko haha. Hindi un puro computer ako at tulog.

Siguro din hindi ko kaya blame sarili ko kaya naghahanap ako ng palusot at maisisi haha. Pero lagi ko naiisip mga ito even though ngayon lang ako umiyak at naitype itong mga thoughts ko.

I'm already 27, I'm still nothing.

I also and always have pitied myself a lot of time.

But.

Everything is going to be fine.

Hopefully.

[binulatlatnaburat]

Baka nakakalimutan mo ganyan din mga palusot mo saakin noon sa time and horniness.

Kaya 'di ako nagpapakampante ngayon. No expectations as well. No expectations, no pain, no disappointments.

...

Sa time kesyo ganito ganyan

Sa horniness, pag trip lang sumusulpot. Madalang daw magsolo pero malaman laman mo madalas, sa isang araw minsan nakakailan pa. Ngayon pala may magic.

[neekochan]

this is a public account and also my rant account. i hope to god that you read this. dear j, my dear sister I is fucking your boyfriend D. my sister also happens to be your cousin V's girlfriend. everday, inaaya sya ng boyfriend mo na umalis and surprise! kasama ka. inshort, thirdwheel sya, pero para sa gago mong boyfriend, kasama niya yung main at side chick niya. hindi ko na kaya yung ginagawa niya. gabi gabi madaling araw umuuwi. sa pagkakaalam ko after niyo gumala hinahatid ka nila, tas hahatid niya bf mo kasi gamit niya lagi kotse namin. so ang tanong, ano oras ba talaga kayo umuuwi? kasi baka after ihatid ka nag cacar fun pa sila diba. one time papasok ako ng 6am sa work nakita ko yung camping chairs namin sa labas ng bahay namin naka set up. kami lang dalawa tao nun sa bahay at madaling araw na siya umuwi. he also gives gifts to my sister at dinadaan niya sa bahay or sister ko mag pipick up nun. ang nakakainis pa salahat is yung sobrang painosente niya at pa anghel. siya pa galit sakin kasi lahat na lang daw binibigyan ko ng malisya. BITCH??? CHEATER NA MASAHOL KA FUCKING OWN UP TO YOUR MISTAKES. wag kang painosente kang gaga ka. ngayon ikaw pa galit? ulol kala mo papansinin kita? ilang beses ka pinag sabihan pero wala epek sayo. syempre di. naman ako snitch para sabihin dun sa pamilya ng jowa mo. wala ka konsensya gago. pag nirealtalk ka galit ka. dami mo palusot wag ako. sabihin mo gusto mo lang yung attention kasi 'heartthrob' kuno yang D na yan nung highschool eh tangina wala namqn may pake dyan. hindi na kita pinapansin simula nung confrontation natin pero kung mamalditahan mo ko ulol ka im up for that. ikaw yung mali. MALI KA MAGISING KA SANA SA KAHIBANGAN NA NASA ISIP MO. MALIBOG LANG YANG D NA YAN KASI AYAW PANNG GF NIYA. gusto ka lang nyang matira tas tapos na siya sayo. pag naging emd game kayo nyan hinding hindi ko yan iaacknowledge ulol ba siya. nakakatawa pa na willing kang i cutoff kaming mga kapatid mo kasi cinacall out ka namin? reasons mo pang ulol typical reason ng cheater kesyo madaming problems ulol lahat tayo may problema kaya wag ako. yung jowa mo nagpapakahirap sa training maawa ka. maawa ka sa girlfriend din nyang kabit mo na araw araw mo tinitignan sa mata . sasabihin mo pa na super bait nyan tas naguigility ka kasi niloloko niyo. yun talagwa yung nakakatawa sa lahat. umaalis kayong tatlo jusko tas ang sabi mo mabait yung lalaki eh puta dinadala niya yung kabit niya sa date nila ng original niya. what the fuck. SANA MAGISING KAYONG TATLO. J BUKSAN MO MATA MO. D AT I MAHIYA KAYO SA GINAGAWA NIYO. syaka I sana hinayaan mo na lang kami na gaguhin ka sa chat hindi yung sasagot sagot ka pa dyan edi mas lalo kita pag iinitan. ulol. ikaw pa ngayon tong tatarayan ako sa chat? kala mo dedelete ko to? eto na ganti ko. SANA MABASA NIYO TONG POST KO!

[ghostlywriterspeaksbruh]

Speaking of inspiration, dahilan daw ng babaeng stalker ko ako raw ang "inspiration" nya, kaya pala pag nai-insecure sya pinapamukha nya sakin yung lalake nya na kung sino sino nang tinikman before maging kanya 😂🤣

Todo palusot rin eh ano, stalking me... tapos inspiration daw ako 😂 well... inutos rin ba sayo ng friend mong mangkukulam na gayahin ako mula ulo hanggang paa kaya 24/7 kang nakabantay sakin ? 🤣🤣🤣

[benefits1986]

amp...on and on and on

It's all about perspective...always?

Since my December calendar has been overtaken by Silang, let me plug in more notes here because it's definitely one for the books.

Since my "office bestie" is R, I am so amazed to see that IRL what I'm finding weird (like making crazy sounds in between huddles) is totes normal. Also, Tito Ro being the Gen X that he is doesn't find "fault" in our system. He's actually laughing at us and with us. Hahahahahaha. Shemay. While he reminds us na 'wag seryosohin masyado work and all that stuff, he's accepted this very millennial flaw 10000%.

Tito Ro as an INTJ is into processes and super details. I'm amazed at how he's able to nail down shoyu chicken, a staple in his childhood spot, Hawaii. And what impresses me more is that he's able to link Hawaiian and Japanese heritage to Filipino culture. He shared na baka shoyu chicken is just a derivative of adobo. Also, ansarap niya magluto. Hindi fancy pero pak na pak. Hindi maalat pero super tasty.

Tito Ro is a legit handy handyman. Pero sa true, OC levels niya malala. Tawang-tawa ako sa ick na 'to. Ayaw niya talagang walang ginagawa kahit 'di naman kelangan pero sige. May explanation pa siya ng undulation eme ng blue light and yellow light na mala-Sineskwela. Me to myself: Puwede namang malamig sa mata. Relaxing. Kung anu-ano pa sinasabi pero okay sige. 'Wag mo na explain white balance dahil iba ang culture sa Pinas. Hahahaha. Kidding aside, super legit na mas malala pa mag-explain sa akin ito. Mamaw talaga. LOL.

Feeling ko lang, mas mag-try si Tito Ro ng folding bikes. He felt sheer joy overtaking nasty road bikes on his way to Tags. Dad ko: Maiksi lang naman Silang to Tagaytay pero ahon malala. Sobrang mamaw niya kasi 'di raw siya nahirapan at his age. Shemayyyy. Naol.

And for ego stroke, naka-record sa suking Strava niya. His bike buds back home were "dumbfounded" when they saw he winged that route. He also found it super convenient to tote MatchaME is cafes. The wonky B ate it up, babyyyy. Pero sabi niya, he'll ship his bike when they visit again para raw makapag-Talisay atbp na siya. Hassle talaga aralin gears ng B. Hahahahaha. Yung feeling ko na masisira ko na naman siya anytime because bobo tayo sa anything technical. Oks lang. Bayad naman na saka sarap talaga mang-laspag ng mga dati pinapangarap mo lang as a gutter girl. LOL.

Tita F is really a mothering na aging. Maaga gumising. At 72, mhiemaaaa. Mamaw levels 1000000000 din. She easily zooms in and out of the house and nearby ganapans. Her balance is spot on. Juicekooo. Hiyang-hiya kami ni R kasi kami pinaka bata sa Casa A. Sabi ko, oks lang tita to chill since I don't eat breakfast. Sabi niya, bakit ganun daw ako? Hahahaha. And poof. Luto siya overeasy eggs na di ko talaga kaya plus sarap ng sinangag.

She's officially part of my "collection" of moms, next in line with Tita Lu, and Tita Cha (not their real names). Lahat masarap magluto. Lahat mabango at masarap akapin. Hihihihihihi. Obsessed talaga ako sa mga nanay. But this time around, in the same way that they mother me, I'm mothering them. I see mother dragon in them, kahit syempre, hindi fully. Walang ganun. Ulol.

I gifted Tita F a very pak pill box na kitang-kita kung may kabulastugan siyang ginawa. LOL. AM and PM splits, na nakaayos weekly. First time daw niya gagamit ng ganun. Me to myself: Palusot ka pang susot ka a. Hahahaha. Now, it only takes 1 photo sent to me and R para makita ang resibo ng ganaps niya.

Tita F's devout kung devout vibes is just an ick. Syempre, tinanong namin ano gagawin on a Sunday. High mass daw. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Me to myself: Talaga ba? Andami ng misa ni Tito B forda eternal repose of the soul. Ang ganda ng weather para humilata, mag-bed rot. Puwedeng tumanga lang today. Magpahinga at huminga. But, gesi lungs. Gusto mo 'yan. Tita F and I talk na no filters na. Hahahahahaha. Buti nga, responsive siya at nagre-reflect when asked about her grieving journey. Syempre, shocked pa 'yan and all. Kaya wala pa akong tiwala na she'll power through but she needs to. Sayang bagets vibe niya and supple skin noh! Hahahahaha.

Solid invites sa house niya since she's now an official "empty" empty nester which is not easy since R is flying back to Cali na rin. I tested out their home if it's conducive for remote work, and yes na yes na yes. I can no longer say no. I just have to ensure that dad and I have ample time para 'di magselos. Hahahaha. Or baka i-ship ko na talaga sila ni Tita F para double whammy. I get a mom and dad gets his super domesticated GF na pak na pak. Hahahahahahahaha. Abangan!

Ansarap ng walang trabahong bahay and that is my life goal talaga. 'Yung wala na lang talaga akong gagawin 'pag nasa bahay. LOL. During my stay in the Casa A, syempre, may "chores" pa rin like pag-lagay ng plates sa sink. 'Pag bili ng mga foods, atbp. Pero, iba talaga 'pag 'di mo need isipin anong ulam. Gusto pa nga ako paglaba ni R e. Sabi ko, hell no. 'Wag ganun. Anong oras ka need maglaba. Lordddd, bigay mo na 'to please. Pagod na si Mulan. CHZ.

R and I... since 17 years old. Sobrang bilis pero sobrang diesel girlies talaga kami and that's how I like my connections. Slow burn. 'Di kasi kami chummy talaga. Very chill lang kami. Walang regalo. Walang trips. Walang expectation. Walang 1-UP-an at all. And solid talaga progress namin kahit napaka bobo namin pa rin sa mga bagay na basic tulad ng 'wag ma-anxiety sa mga bagay na may workaround naman talaga. At 'wag i-feel na asking for help is burdensome. Hahahaha.

Also, R is very solid sa support sa akin sa chapter eme ko. Hahahaha. Sabi ko nga, dapat i-enable niya ako tulad ng pag-tolerate ko sa mga kabobohan niya noon. LOL. Pero no. Sobrang alaga mode for both sides si accla. Badly put, her wisdom about dating is on full throttle. Sabi niya: Don't fuck things up because you can. Hahahahahaha. Shemay. Gagi noh? 'Pag ako, sige, push mo 'yan. Pero gets ko naman we're she is coming from. So, ayun. Maging mas mabait na raw ako and baba ko raw talaga pride ko. Sabi niya pa: pride and co-existing are the same sa perspective mo. Ayusin mo 'yan. Compromise.

R and I are the legit "salitan ng saltik" ABGs. Hahahaha. Sabi nga ni Tito Ro, napansin daw niya na we're super sync sa mga bagay na only we get. And that our vibe is vibing at the highest level. Syempre, 'di ganyan sinabi ni Gen X sir. Hahahaha.

As a legit ampon na spoiled, layunin kong maging emerutttt. Pero, alam ko, eto na naman ang isang chapter na I am facing the real phases of grief, only better. Emeeee. Abangan!!!

Legit na wish ko this Christmas: rest, sleep, recharge. Tahimik lang sana. Pero, baka sabak daan kami ngayon kasi alam mo naman, attendance check malala tayo. Ugh. Traditions. Tamad na tamad akong kumilos kasi sobrang wagas ang Q4 natin. As in. Gusto ko na lang talaga mag-cocoon mode sa probinsiya with my siomai, al dente instant pancit canton, and kanin + malasado egg + sabaw + isaw baboy. LOL.

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Tapos Na ang Palusot! Ang Pagbabawal sa Pagpapalit ng Kandidato sa Eleksyon

Bagong “Laro” sa Eleksyon Isa sa mga pinakamainit na usapin tuwing halalan sa Pilipinas ay ang pagpapalit ng kandidato. Ito ay isang taktika na ginagamit ng ilang partido upang makapaglaro ng kanilang mga baraha sa huling minuto—isang taktika na madalas na nag-iiwan ng masang botante na nalilito at tila na-isahan. Ngunit ngayon, tila tapos na ang ganitong palusot. Kamakailan lang, ipinasok ng…

[thekimmyrist]

Huli na 'yon.

Hindi na 'ko magpapaumaga kahihintay sa'yo. Lalampasan ko na ang pag-iisip nang malalim, sa tuwing kukulitin ako ng sarili kong kuwest'yunin ka kung ako pa rin. Hindi na 'ko maghahanap ng mga sipi para aluhin ang bigat sa damdamin. Sa totoo lang, nakapapagod na rin humanap ng kanta na babagay sa pag-iyak ko habang inaalala ka.

Malinaw naman 'yong sagot, nag-iisip lang ako ng mga palusot.

Pinapalamon ko ang sarili sa mga ideya kong haka-haka; marami ka lang ginagawa, pagod ka lang, pinili mo munang magpahinga.

Pero ang totoo, sinasabi ng kilos mo na wala na. Pinapagod mo lang ako, hanggang ako na 'tong magmukhang hindi lumaban.

Huli na 'yon, hindi ko na hahayaang mapunta ako estadong kailangan kong kalabanin ang sarili, para lang paniwalain ko itong magiging maaayos tayo ulit.

Panalo ka na, pagod na 'ko.

[gelley-thoughts]

Here me out on this,

Okay, so the thing with Earl resurfaced again. Not the type you could imagine tho, Kasi remember when I told that my cousin admittedly told me na before me, ang kalandian daw ni Earl is a guy. So, I felt betrayed. We've been talking for months, he could have told me. And I'll understand. Tapos every time nalang, di nagmi-meet both schedule namin. Kasi before my cousin told me that, Earl invited me na mag hangout after the new year. I distanced myself, thinking na I couldn't date someone who is not sure about himself, kasi baka it would come and bite me back in the future. And I don't know, a lot has happened last year. The insecurities, me, not being sure if kaya ko ba panindigan pakikipag date. It was stupid. I wasn't able to give Earl the exact energy he was giving me. I was rather unaffectionate. I couldn't keep up with our convos tapos I told him pa na I would always communicate to him kapag things aren't going as we had hoped. The connection was weak, but he was one the most wholesome person I had known.

Pero you know, at the back of this story, at that time, it was January, I was still willing to go kapag inaya niya ako. I would still want to get to know him in person. For the longest time, he was the only one na nakausap ko ng matino. The biggest problem with me is I never take initiative. I was always scared na mag first move. The fear of rejection na baka mapahiya ako if I were to make a first move. I should have even given him some hint. Pero what I didn't. I wish I could have though, para walang misunderstanding. And even when things didn't work out between us, he could have been my friend.

The last convo we have is a week after his birthday. It was January rin. Siguro last week of the month. He sent a reel. I even doubted if para ba sa'kin yun kasi baka wrong sent lang. I said sorry for not greeting him on his birthday kahit na ang lame ng palusot ko, kasi I viewed his IG story that time. It was full of greetings for him. Sinabi ko na, I didn't know it was his birthday until Nakita ko na ng late yung facebook notif about it.

I accepted all of it naman. I have a big contribution about this whole thing, why it didn't worked. And the last straw was his IG story. It was not in the close friends. Pero he hard launched his date. It was a candlelit dinner sa unit niya. With steak (ang sarap ng steak). I somehow felt down that time upon seeing it. But I am happy for him. He deserves all the love and affection and I hope she wouldn't hurt him, at least not purposely.

So that was the story and this whole thing resurfaced again kasi my cousin messaged me saying na it was fake news daw. Yung kinwento niya sa'kin noong new year's eve. He was straight daw. Like, ano pang magagawa ko? The timing is off again and I couldn't turn back time. I'll just let things be. Let these things be as the Lord's will.

[thatgirlwithuntoldfeelings]

18:46 • 24 february 2024

it's funny bc i know hindi naman ako dapat nag-iisip, but, have you ever had a trauma na nakalimutan mo na but something triggered you? parang bigla kang nakaramdam ng takot uli?

it was february (my curse and lucky month), year 2017. it was after a school event and i was supposed to go somewhere w the before guy. i kept on waiting for his update kasi this was on a saturday and he went out w his workmates— including the girl na pinagseselosan ko bc alam kong may chance— the night before. my mabait self eh hinayaan lang kasi nga group naman sila.

nakabalik na akong schl and naglunch out w workmates pero walang update. around 1pm, i chose to went home. he messaged siguro mga 2pm na and said kagigising niya lang and saying sorry bc hindi kami natuloy. i shrugged it off.

sadly, ito na pala yung start nung isang linggong sumpa ko bc that same week went messy. hindi ko alam if kay L ko ba nalaman pero that saturday na we were supposed to mee, he lied. hindi siya late nagising, he stayed in a hotel with his workmates and yes, nasa isang kwarto silang lahat daw, pati si girl.

hindi ko na ikukwento pa yung nangyari or whatever. i just remembered this feeling kasi D went to a party last night. may isang pinay na bet ata siya and yun yung may bday. sabi niya magyayaya siya ng 9pm. pero kanina, they got home past 1 na.

i ignored his messages. until now hindi pa ko nagsiseen or nagrereply kasi tbh, i felt scared. petty, i know pero everything happened nung saturday nung feb 2017, naramdaman ko ulit. alam kong safe naman ang lahat and hindi naman siya maglalandi dun pero okay lang bang maramdaman ko yun? yung sa before guy nga, all his workmates knew i exist pero naging messy pa rin, what more now? i dont even know if those people who's w D know my existence.

praning nga ako maybe but mali bang maging praning? lagi kong sinasabing may tiwala ako sa kanya pero hindi ko alam if pano ko magkakatiwala sa mga tao sa paligid niya bc hindi ko naman sila kilala, and vice versa.

siguro ito yung issue ko na mabubuhay paulit ulit bc again, i dont know if alam nilang may ako. it's sad, and it's petty, but can you blame me?

and babe kung mababasa mo 'to, im sorry. issue ko 'to w myself. either it's a trauma or naghahanap lang ako ng palusot para sa sarili ko. i'm sorry. i'm trying.

[atamabs]

Huling araw na magonsite kame. O diba pangalawang building na pero na-kick na din kami. Hahahaha charot! Hindi ako nag aral kasi alam kong aantukin ako sa byahe pa lang. (Lol palusot 🙄)

Maaga ako dumating sa work pero halos 10:30PM na ako nagsimula magcalls— nagkaroon kami ng system issue. Hiniling ko syempre na sana hindi maayos hahahahaah pero failed. Nagcalls pa din ako at dahil avail ay puro chika at tawanan lang kame sa odc lalo pag puro tisay nandon.

Nagusap din kami about sa team building namen sa april at konting details about sa baguio.

Huling elevator-fie sa opis ✨️

[thezoeydiaries]

ENTRY #2

Hi blog!

So just the other day, I went to the mall and had this idea of going to a K-Grill place and eating Samgyupsal alone. The idea was sort of intimidating at first for a few reasons:

I am currently a pretty hefty girl and I know I'll earn some weird looks from strangers.

I know I'd have to eat a lot of meat when I'm not even that hungry.

I have this irrational fear of being photographed by a random person while eating alone in a public place. (I don't want to be posted online with a sad empathetic caption and be pitied for being "alone" in public lol)

But despite having second thoughts about eating Samgyupsal on my own —I still did it. Because quite frankly, it was what I wanted to do at the time. So I braved my way into the place and asked for a table, and when the girl asked for how many —I chickened out and said it was for two.

I know, I shouldn't have lied about it, but I was kind of embarrassed knowing I'd be eating a ton of food on my own and I just wasn't prepared to see the judgment on their faces if I said I was dining alone. And since that happened, I had to find some excuse halfway into grilling, to say that nobody else was going to be joining me. LOL.

I'm usually the type of person who does what she wants, regardless of what others might think (don't get me wrong, there's a time and a place for this kind of behavior). As long as I don't hurt or disrespect anyone in the process of making that decision, then I shouldn't really care about what others might think right? Wrong. It may be easier said than done. While in principle, yes it should be that way, but as humans, we have the fundamental need to not be seen as socially deviant; that includes not doing things out of the ordinary to avoid being seen as odd. And going to a K-Grill place alone (when you usually go in groups) can somehow be seen as a peculiar move.

Regardless of this, I went to see just how far I could push myself out of my comfort zone. I went in there grilled some meat, watched videos on my phone, had a small chat with one of the waiters, and enjoyed my meal while I had a short catch-up with my dear cousin —Anjellikah over a video call.

As I finished talking to Jelly, one of the waiters came up to me and asked where my "companion" was and this is where I had to come up with a lie to cover up the fact that I intentionally went there to eat alone HAHAHAHAHA. I told Kuya "Ahh ang tagal nga po kaya nauna na po ako kumain", then he asked me where I worked and I told him that I worked for GMA Network. And after a short conversation, I pretended to get a text saying that my "COMPANION" would no longer be joining me. I told Kuya-Waiter this, and he removed the plate and other side dishes in front of me.

After the whole *palusot* thing I felt more at ease and I enjoyed the meal more since I didn't have the pressure of "waiting on someone" when there was no one to begin with. And that's when I realized how silly I was acting; people don't really care if you're alone or not, and even if they did, it's not like they're the ones getting full from eating all that glorious grilled meat lol.

Overall, I enjoyed my time in that K-Grill place near my dormitory, and I look forward to the next time I get to eat there again. For now, I think I've had enough beef to last me the next couple of months (si OA naman haha). But next time, I'll surely have more confidence entering that place and only asking for a table for one :)

Till my next grilling adventures~

Love,

Zoey na medyo amoy usok