house party /ˈhous ˌpärdē/ ,
an event in which the ' cool kids ' of derry gather and needlessly drink the night away ; no one leaves sober .
preparations had been long complete , her house - free of any adult supervision for the weekend . she'd been a rich girl , marilyn ; living on the same street of the likes of gretta and sally , so needless to say her house was large enough to be the perfect venue .
the venus - graced cheerleader stares at herself in the mirror , a small turn as hazel eyes carefully study and over think her entire outfit . interrupted by the eruption of guests already arriving , it'd been like flood gates ; a chorus of teenagers eagerly awaiting to drink , smoke , dance - just about everything they shouldn't be doing . and marilyn happily greeted each person who came through her doors , already sporting a drink in her left hand .
' you made it ! ' she chirps .
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availibility / anyone! / 7 out of 5.
setting / crave & co; sunday, july 28th, around seven pm.
happy birthday, estefania! she thought to herself, staring at the cupcake on the table. there was supposed to be the ghostly voice of her family in her memories, all singing to her as she blew out the candles on a birthday cake, but tefi was pretty sure her family hadn’t thrown her a party or celebratory dinner since she was in high school. even then, they had done it out of obligation and not from a place of pure celebration for the youngest betancourt child. tefi had gotten used to celebrating her birthday on her own, usually with some friends back in los angeles and whichever boyfriend she had at the time, but those friends and boyfriends rotated out constantly like the cast of big brother. whoever was at her birthday party the year before never came to the next one. now that she was stuck in blue harbor, she hoped that maybe her roommates would throw her a party, or any of the few friends she managed to scramble together in town.
instead, she was all alone; turning thirty-two, an age she never thought she’d make it to, not because she’d die before then but it just never seemed possible that she’d grow older one day. even worse, she was supposed to be laying low, letting foster think she took him up on his offer and would no longer interfere in his life. no one would ever host a parade in her honor, but buying her own cupcake and not even having a candle to put in it reached new levels of pathetic. she thought she might cry. no, actually, she was crying. sitting outside out of crave & co, likely scaring the other customers, she looked up from her treat and smiled meekly through the tears at the nearest patron. “sorry, don’t mind me. it’s just my birthday, that’s all.”
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prompts: prelude to ecstasy by the last dinner party.
here comes the feminine urge, i know it so well.
do you want me, or do you want control?
this is the only thing i know how to do.
i could never live with the guilt of lying.
and lately i've been thinkin', what if i keep sinking?
i hope they never understand us.
even when the cold comes crashing through, i'm putting all my bets on you.
cleanse my soul, make me whole.
she's there when i wake up, at the end of my bed with a smile on her face and a gun to my head.
do what i can to survive.
cause we're a lot alike.
a sailor and a nightingale dancing in convertibles/
i know i'm better off not looking back.
oh, anyone could kill me, and i'd never ever let it be you.
foolish thinking i could have you.
i don't exist without your gaze.
and just for a second, i could be one of the greats.
when i was a child, i never felt like a child.
you could swim in these eyes.
wine is on your blouse.
i wish i knew you back when we were both small.
what i'm feeling isn't lust, it's envy.
hold me, we can't go back.
you can hold me like he held her.
guide me, show me how, and let me be your arrow.
wish i could do without this blood on my face.
i will fuck you, like nothing matters.
time slips away.
to nurture the wounds my mother held.
i will hold your hands to stop them from shaking.
i am not the girl i set out to be.
the best a boy can ever be is pretty.
i fade away.
strike me, pierce me straight through the heart.
it's my fate to have never seen you.
my darling, believe me, i was born to be with you.
i wish i knew you before it felt like a sin.
if i drown will they make me a star?
you don't wanna hurt me, but i want you to.
how i wish the trees would swallow me, make me a forest, take away my soul.
i'm just a mirror, pretty glass, an empty heart.
i wish that i had the guts–the dignity to put up a fight.
when you laid like a wolf with your head on my lap. i felt like one of those portraits of women protected by a beast on a chain.
i'll leave you flowers, but not my name.
what good are red lips when you're faced with something sharp?
when i put on that suit, i don't have to stay mute.
i'll see you on sunday.
i wish that i let you have the dignity of letting me go.
you smiled so sweetly as you threw me down the rocks.
oh, ballerina bend under the weight of it all.
no one else is to blame.
i wish i could be a beautiful boy.
i have gotten too tall.
when you drown, do they know who you are?
i need to slow my thinkin'.
i want to take your picture.
i'd spend the mornings by your side.
if anyone could kill me, it probably would be you.
is it in this city?
i break apart without your arms.
i wish you had given me the courtesy of staying one more night.
a guard dog there just for her. if only she know that with one wrong move, he'll turn around and tear off her hands.
when i drown, will i get very far?
no i won't speak to you.
forgive me, father, won't you take it back?
let me make my grief a commodity.
break my glass to fix your heart.
burn me.
je ne veux pas penser.
i wish you had given me the courtesy of ripping out my throat.
we're both just addicts.
if it takes all night, i will be on your side.
there is candle wax melting in my veins.
it could take some time, time to talk freely.
he's got letters on his fist: r-i-d-e.
tell me how you're feeling, i'll reflect the reason.
i'd die for you, no questions asked.
everyone will love me!
i wish i didn't want you.
do you want me to care when you just disappear?
failure to commit to the role, i admit was a failure you achieved on your own.
i'll be ceaser on a tv screen, champion of my fate.
ain't it fun to hold the world in your hand?
when you're lying here i believe you love me.
when you drown, they'll forget who you are.
everyone will like me then.
there's nothing for me. here, where the world is small.
i'd break off my ribs to make another you.
i'm only here, for your entertainment.
do you feel like a man when i can't talk back?
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