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[mawguai]

Here was my final team for SV!

[fecto-forgo]

anyways heres some misc jamba cult info from the japanese version of star allies the official translation removed/changed the meaning of i found a couple days back (fan translations can be found here)

-this is implied but misworded in english, the jamba cult worships dark matter rather than be masters of it (this is prob why gooey gets positive nickname privileges from zan on twitter)

-the magic n science ancients old relationship prior to the magic clans ban is explicitly positive in japanese

-english hyness says magic overcame science n reached prosperity, japanese says science n magic could only reach prosperity when together

-for wtv reason, english replaced one of the mentions of the "book of legends" (the book abt void hyness has) w talking abt ambiguous ancient scrolls instead...?

-theres some references to a paradise void will destroy in the japanese screens w that one cult prayer that were cut from english (the second n fourth ones specifically iirc), the sisters guest star screens make references to paradise as well, make of that what you will regarding the religious side of the cult

-most if not all instances of void being called dark lord r used to censor out void being called god/god of destruction in the original version

-pon & cons japanese title (a-un guardian beasts) is a reference to a buddhist concept of beginning n ending, the pause screen states they surrendered to the enemy n thats why theyre doing guard work there, rather than they became cultists off screen between games like one might assume

-japanese hyness uses ~ when talking a lot, while most ppl associate that w a character having a sweet cute voice tone, for him it likely just indicates he tends to drag out the end of words a lot

-fully removed from english, hyness has a complex abt his face, which is why its so well covered

-zans second boss screen in english credits her loyalty to hyness' intoxicating charisma n her sense of duty, while japanese later does canonize she has a strong sense of duty in a different screen, it instead says for the second boss she feels indebted he took her in n is also "enamoured" by his charisma n "admires him from within the heart", quoting the used wording bc i think shes both adorable n so deeply worrisome

-weve all heard the english translation censored zan being heavily implied to have attempted suicide n being saved by hyness after it fails (succeeds?) after shes struck by lightning n nearly dies/gets bought back by him.wtv take on hyness saving the mages you prefer

-zan is never called the eldest of the sisters in the original, just the chief of the trio

-hyness misremembers zans name as zan paruru, a pun on the japanese word for forgotten (wasuraruru), that same pun is used for her boss themes title

-one of zans attacks in japanese is named after the "thunder candies" (type of wagashi) found in kaminarimon, where a statue of the shinto thunder god raijin is found, zans drums used during that same attack r literally based on raijins own drums

-zans first boss screen claims she toys w her enemies through her quick attacks rather than render them helpless like prey.just mentioning bc thats silly n has a slightly new show of her personality that line up w her depiction on the official twitter in a way

-flamberge wasnt taking a break in her second boss fight she was just slacking off n picked a nice star/planet on purpose for that.thats funny of her so its justified

-flamberge calls francisca kiss-chan in japanese, this is the same nickname zan gives her in japanese thats officially translated as franny

-this isnt mentioned in the documents but im bringing it up bc its funny.that part of HIAD where francisca calls flamberge "miss flamberge" was just flamberge-san in jp, -san is just a polite honorific to use that isnt immediately translated to miss/mister, specially if the characters know each other.why did they make it that lmao

-japanese explicitly says too much heat might straight up make francisca melt (english also implies that tbf)

-francisca dislikes "pointless murder", but is fine freezing ppl n keeping them for her collection if she deems them an enemy

-hyness' japanese title can be read as both mage priest n devil priest

-the sisters titles all have a reoccurring use of ice blossom, hellfire n thunder fang respectively, n theyre called the demon generals instead of mage sisters

-HIAD hyness' title fell priest has a reference to fallen angels.i feel thats giving pre corruption hyness too much personality credit but alright

-void is refered to both as devil n angel in different forms titles.this is awesome

-theres a kanji for hope thats associated w the jamba cult throughout the whole game

-the japanese guest star screens for the mages say theyre no longer praying n r seeking a new paradise together, for whatever reason, english completely removes the no longer praying part, completely losing the meaning of the sentence n development the sisters have (interestingly, hyness is mentioned in those n still called their master, n zans description straight up states she wants him to watch her triumph (translated officially as her wanting to make him proud), so its not actually explained if they disbanded the cult or theyre just.some kind of normal religion now? but theyre atleast touching grass now)

todays conclusion is the KSA translators just hate us 👍 check the linked fan translation for more examples of that

[matadede-good]

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Paruru I've made yesterday!

Based in this official artwork:

[ourloveisheavenly]

im a longtime supporter of people who just stand there ouran mori john the who paruru izone hyewon

[haropro-confessions]

been seeing some push back against haruka lately on both sides of the fandom. after watching 17ki perform at the 25th anniversary it’s clear which one of them is adjusting to the “performing” aspect of idols quicker. haruka has the singing down for sure but everything else leaves a lot to be desired so far, her rhythm sense in particular. ik she auditioned for 48G and coming from a fan of both h!p and 48/46G, she does seem like she’d be a kenkyuusei. she has the raw awkwardness but unfortunately her nervousness makes her look salty (think paruru). part of that is definitely high expectations and luckily there’s pushback from fans that are charmed by the awkward or are vocally saying others should be kinder. personally i think she needs more time and it’s super fine but she definitely has a lot of work to do and it needs to be done.

[mersdiary]

20/8/2024

Hôm qua ngày kỉ niệm 5 năm. Mình vui vì mình đã đăng ảnh Q lên ins. Hôm nay call Q tự dưng bực mình, vì Q không làm gì cho mình. Nói tự dưng cũng không đúng. Bao giờ mình cũng muốn được nhận sự yêu thương và muốn yêu thương đó được thể hiện qua những hành động cụ thể. Q nói mình nếu muốn thì nói trước để nó chuẩn bị, like a deal. Nhưng mà, vậy thì có ý nghĩa gì đâu? Đến cả chuyện bày tỏ tình cảm cũng phải chỉ từng bước thì nó vô nghĩa, vì sao gánh nặng này luôn đặt ở phía mình, vì sao mình phải là người lên kế hoạch cho mọi thứ. Mặt khác, Q đang bận (dù vẫn có thời gian chơi game). Năm ngoái mình còn khóc lóc giận hờn. Chừ mình chịu rồi. Nếu đây là thứ dẫn đến sự đổ vỡ của mình và Q trong tương lai, thì mình chịu vậy. Mình đã luôn lên tiếng, luôn yêu cầu sự thay đổi, mình nghĩ mình làm đủ phần mình rồi.

Chuyện mình thích vẽ Q, và Q thì không quan tâm gì đến việc mình thích vẽ Q. Q là người vô tâm trong việc khen người khác, mình lại luôn cần encouragement. Mình thấy chẳng có gì sai khi muốn người khác quan tâm đến sản phẩm sáng tạo của bản thân cả. Nhưng mình có cái sai. Mình không nên kì vọng vào việc Q thích thứ mình thích. Mình coi Q gần như là một idol, một tưởng tượng trong đầu, và mình nên treat Q đúng như vậy. Nghĩa là tình cảm của mình cho Q nó nên là vì mình muốn, và nó không cần sự công nhận từ bất cứ ai, kể cả đối tượng mình thích, thì nó mới có quyền tồn tại. Mình sẽ bắt Paruru hay Satsuki phải thích việc mình thích họ. Và mình cũng không nên kì vọng điều đó ở Q. Nếu tình cảm của mình dành cho Q nhiều chiều, đa dạng, thì mình cũng nên chèo lái sự đa dạng đó cho phù hợp, có chọn lọc.

Vậy còn gì cho mối quan hệ? Mình phải tìm được điểm cân bằng, có nhiều thứ Q offer cho mình, mình offer cho Q. Nhưng cân bằng ở đây chỉ có thể đạt được không phải thông qua tính toán thông thường, mà nó phải xuất phát từ perception của mình. Mình có thấy như vậy là công bằng chưa? Nếu chưa thì mình nên điều chỉnh perception như thế nào, hoặc yêu cầu sự thay đổi như thế nào từ Q? Mình sẽ trung thành với tình cảm của mình, yêu Q một cách ào ạt như vậy, vì mình là đứa không biết giới hạn trong tình cảm. Nhưng làm sao để mình không cảm thấy bất công, bất lực khi không nhận được thứ gì đó tương xứng với những gì mình bỏ ra? Hiện tại nói thật mình chưa có câu trả lời chắc chắn. Một trong những thứ mình nghĩ đến là phải giảm thiểu sự phụ thuộc của mình với Q, đặc biệt là về mặt tài chính. Mình phải tự kiếm tiền và tự chi trả cho bản thân, Q trợ cấp cho mình thì dù có là vì ý tốt, vẫn có một sự mất cân bằng về quyền lực, hoặc mình cũng có thể trở thành người xấu và lợi dụng lòng tốt đó. Thứ 2 là về mặt thời gian dành cho nhau. Mình cần dành thời gian cho mình, và mình rất muốn dành thời gian cho Q. Nhưng thời gian bỏ ra phải vừa vừa phải, nhưng cũng phải có hiệu quả. Không chỉ là đang làm công không lương, không nhận được lời cảm ơn hay sự trân trọng. Mình cần Q cần mình và hiểu thời gian hai đứa bỏ ra cho nhau là thứ không thể take for granted.

Hôm qua là sinh nhật của M-J, một ngày rất hạnh phúc của cá nhân mình. Mình đã đi ngủ trong sự hào hứng, mong đợi D hoặc M-J sẽ đăng ảnh sinh nhật lên insta. Không ạ, sáng dậy mở mắt ra là tin show mình thích đéo có phần 2. Chững hững thật. Phải nói thật, mình không buồn kiểu tuyệt vọng. Mình nghĩ một phần mình cũng không có hy vọng, mình không nghĩ phim kiếm đủ tiền để con tư bản muốn tiếp tục (không phải lỗi phim, lỗi là ở con tư bản cho phim 8 tập, mỗi tập dưới 40' và vẫn phải truyền tải trọn vẹn cốt truyện và thông điệp biên kịch muốn, loz). Mình nghĩ về nhiều thứ. Nghĩ về việc M-J có thể là đã luôn nhen nhóm hi vọng về phần phim mới, vừa làm việc trong tâm thế biết rằng chưa chắc nó sẽ thành sự thật, nhưng vẫn hết mình 200% để hóa thân thành nhân vật. Có thể sáng tạo trong một trạng thái đầy mâu thuẫn như vậy, thật sự rất đáng ngưỡng mộ. Mình nghĩ về việc fan chúng mình trong mắt tư bản chỉ là một chấm nhỏ không có sức ảnh hưởng. Họ đuổi theo cái loz j mình cũng không biết nói thật, mình không hiểu cách business hoạt động. Mình nghĩ về việc bản thân mãi là một đứa powerless không có tiếng nói, không thể làm gì để níu được thứ mình muốn. Bây giờ đến cuối đời. Hoặc cùng lắm như M-J, trải qua bao khó khăn, tôi luyện và trở thành một người tuyệt vời chỉ để tiếp tụp trải qua những khó khăn mới, chỉ là lần này với một tinh thần thép hơn; nó không bao giờ chấm dứt cả, dễ hơn, nhưng không bao giờ thôi làm ta mệt mỏi. Mình nghĩ về những bộ phim giải trí nông cạn hay thích gây dựng scandal luôn dành được sự ưu ái mến mộ. Cái loz j organic và đén từ cái tâm thì không được nổi, lạ thật, tởm thật. Mình sợ một tương lai M-J sẽ thay đổi và đánh mất lí tưởng của bản thân, mình thích M-J vì con người và nhân cách nhiều hơn cả khả năng diễn xuất của ảnh, và rất sợ một ngày sẽ cảm thấy thất vọng. M-J chính là một Paruru với tình thần vững chãi hơn, bư��c qua sóng gió nhưng luôn giữ vững sơ tâm. Mình sợ idol mình sẽ không như mình nghĩ.

Mình muốn vẽ. Mình đã tìm ra lí do để phải sáng tạo, đó chính là không phụ thuộc vào media do người khác tạo ra. Những gì mình có sẽ luôn thuộc về mình. Chỉ vì ai đó nghĩ rằng câu chuyện không cần phải viết tiếp, không có nghĩa là mình không được phép viết tiếp. Mình sẽ tự vẽ nên câu chuyện của mình, và không một ai có thể tước nó đi cả.

Mình không khóc nổi, không buồn nổi, chỉ mong tìm thấy lối ra trong con đường không chút ánh sáng này.

Bài học:

có tài chính vững vàng hơn

biến mình có giá trị hơn, thời gian dành cho nhau phải có và có một cách hợp lí

Communication skill (energy, wit, charm, articulation, social awareness)

Career (you have to be good at your job)

Aesthetics (your presentation, writing, creating)

How to treat people around me

[radically-katrielle]

a coining post? on paruru's blog??? it's more likely than you think.

transathenacykes

a transcharacter term for those who feel as though they are, want to be, or should be Athena Cykes from Ace Attorney!

[the-prosecutors-fated-pen]

babe, wake up, paruru posted another chapter of her ryunosuke naruhodo selfship fanfic

[officialrhaenyra]

paruru's graduation song came up, 9 dead 15 injured

[kthingz]

香草喵露露

[specttral]

[shinapit]

#ぱるる #島崎遥香 #paruru #haruka_shimazaki https://www.instagram.com/p/CXSUSPLJwym/?utm_medium=tumblr

[retard4846]

Under the same sky (SayaMilky AU)

 “Happy 3rd anniversary.”

 Sayanee whispered to Milky’s ear while both sitting side by side with their body touched on the rooftop, looking at the vast dark sky and its countless stars. “I love you.”

“I love you too.”

A memory that will be forever in Milky’s mind.

A memory.

“Hey, so we got some work to do this afternoon.” Said Yuihan her best friend, her class mate and her partner for the drama show their university theater team will held in 3 months.

“We got to send this proposal to potential sponsor…are you listening to me” she asked, knowing that Milky hadn’t move a bit since she sat down in the chair next to the girl.

“Ah, sorry what did you say?”

“What is it?” Yuihan glanced at Milky’s phone.

Milky didn’t want to answer it at first.

“Sayanee?” Yuihan guessed.

“Someone tagged me in a post with her.”

“Who’s that motherfucking insensitive bastard?”  Yuihan took the phone from Milky’s hand and check it herself. It was her girlfriend, Haruka.

“Oh…umm…I’ll tell her later if I meet her.”

Milky just shook her head lightly.

“She looks happy now.” Milky said.

A silent crept between the two girls for a while.

“Well, you are happy too, aren’t you?”

“Yes. It’s just…it’s nice to see her achieving her dreams.”

That was what Milky said, but Yuihan could see clearly the emptiness in her best friend’s eyes.

Milky suddenly changed the topic to the drama show. Yuihan explained about it once again without questioning or mentioning anything about it again and they went to finish their duty after eating.

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Paruru visited Yuihan in her apartment late in the night. She also had quite a lot of things that day but she wanted to eat some late-night snack with Yuihan so, she came.

“Why did you tag Milky and Sayanee together? You know how Milky feels about the breakup still, right?” Yuihan confronted Paruru when they were sitting face to face in front of the gyudon, Yuihan’s favorite food, and melon bread, Paruru’s favorite.

“I know. But Sayanee is my friend just as Milky is your friend.”

Yuihan looked at Paruru confused.

“I know how she feels.” Paruru added.

“You got me lost here.”

 “Sayanee did it all for Milky.”

It had been 2 years or so since Milky and Sayanee broke up. It was not a nice one if one had to say. Sayanee had betrayed Milky. At least that was how Milky knew it. Then, Sayaka went away, far away to the place that she always wanted. Milky didn’t really know about this because there were no more ‘they’ for them. It had been Sayanee or Milky  since.

Milky’s heart was broken, that is for sure.

She never heard anything about Sayanee after. For the longest time, her life felt empty. But as people always say, time is the cure. Slowly but sure, Milky felt okay. Terribly okay, in fact.

But she never thought that it would feel like a lightning struck when she saw or heard her name again. She didn’t know why. It was just like that.

And what about Sayanee?

Sayanee betrayed Milky, it was true. She made it that way. Because she realized that if she kept being with Milky that time, they could never achieve their dream. With a bit of a selfish thought, she decided to make as if she didn’t love Milky anymore. So, she could get away. Just a few months after their third anniversary.

She made it.  

There was this sort of relieve at first. Then she felt sad. Milky was everything to her. The sadness, she couldn’t explain. But she had decided and she determined. She thought that she’ll comeback after she settled herself. Although she was not sure if Milky will be alone by that time, but she thought that she needed to take the risk. For both of them.

Paruru knew about this, even though not from the start. Sayanee only told a fragment of her side of story to Paruru after they ended up having a conversation where Sayanee had no other choice but to tell her best friend about it.

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 Sayanee was playing a mobile game while lying on her couch when Milky came and bring some foods for her. Something that she did sometimes when Sayanee’s parents were not home. Milky put the big plastic bag with two meals for their dinner on the table.

She approached the older girl and sat at the space beside Sayanee’s leg. She looked at her girlfriend who was still focused on her phone.

“Am I just gonna be here watching you for hours?” she asked.

“What? Of course, no.” Answered Sayanee quick. She let her right hand off of her phone so that she could see Milky’s face.  “Come here.” she grinned and tapped the small space left beside her body telling Milky to lie down with her.  

Milky moved her body heavily as if she didn’t want to do it. Meanwhile Sayanee getting her right arm ready as Milky’s arm pillow. She then pulled the eyesmile girl closed to her body. Wrapped her tight.

“My baby.” Sayanee said.

Milky also wrapped her arms around her girlfriend’s body and felt her warmth as she hugged her.

“I told you to just come here first then we can order from here.”

“It will cost us a delivery fee while I can just get the food on my way here.”

Sayanee gave her small girlfriend a peck on her forehead.

“Let’s play together. You tap this button when I tell you, okay?”

Milky didn’t say yes, but she played along.

“Tap! Tap! No, no, no.”

Sayanee screamed and they were laughing together.

They lost the game.

“Did you tap it wrongly on purpose? Huh? Answer me honestly miss.”

Milky smirked and sticked her tongue out a little.

“You…you have to give me a kiss as punishment.” Sayanee pushed her lips to Milky’s direction.

“Aaaa….” Milky looked away and tried to hold her girlfriend’s body with all of her strength from getting closer. But Sayanee was strong and managed to kiss Milky slightly on the cheek.

“Next time, I’m gonna aim for your lips.” Sayanee teased. She fixed her position.

Milky did the same.

“Anyway, what are going to do after this? After school, I mean.” Sayanee asked when they were already in a comfortable position.

That question got Milky think a little. She didn’t really know what she wanted to be but there was one thing she always sure about. She wanted to go far away from home to continue her study. She wanted to know how it feels to miss home.

“Let’s go together.” Sayanee said.

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“Hey, Milky...Are you listening to me?”

That brought Milky back to her sense.

“Oh, sorry. What is it, Kei?”

Years passed and they were all graduated from university. Milky got her job, so did Sayanee. She got a pretty good position in the place she lived.

“Are you spacing out again? I see that you do that a lot lately.” Kei, Milky’s co-worker, was seriously concerned about her.  

“I just, I got some stuffs in my mind now.” She replied.

“What is it? There’s a company dinner this evening.”

“Can I skip it? I feel a little bit dizzy.”

Milky naturally hated crowd, but that day her head felt heavier than usual indeed. She just wanted to go home early and sleep. Kei understood and she told their boss that Milky might have to skip it this time.

Meanwhile, on the other side, Sayanee was back in town.  She called Paruru for a meet up. Paruru was with Yuihan by the time Sayanee called her. That evening, the three ended up having coffee together in a café near Paruru’s workplace.

They were talking and talking. Mostly the two best friends, catching up things.

“So, how’s Milky?” Sayanee looked at Yuihan all of sudden.

“She’s…” in her mind, Yuihan wanted to be angry at Sayanee. She wanted to ask her a bunch of questions about why she did what she did.

“She’s great!” she said at last.

“Is she with someone right now?”

“Are you?”

“I’m coming back for her.”

Yuihan just couldn’t believe what she heard. Although she knew quite a bit of it from Paruru, but hearing that sentence coming out from Sayanee herself, she couldn’t help but wondering how it seemed so easy for her. Like, there was nothing wrong and there’s never a heart that’s broken.

“I personally prefer that you never comeback.” Yuihan voiced out her opinion without thinking about what Sowon would think of her. By that time, her phone rang.

A call from Milky.

“Yuihan, can you pick me up? I’m not feeling good.” Milky said over the phone.

“What happened? Where are you?”

“I just feel a little dizzy. I’m outside my office now.”

“Okay, just stay where you are. Don’t go anywhere.”

Sayanee and Paruru knew that it was from Milky. The short girl asked about what happened but Yuihan refused to say it. Yuihan packed her belonging. Just when she was about to leave her seat, Sayanee grabbed her hand.

“Where is she?” She gave Yuihan a serious look. “Let me pick her up.”

“Are you kidding me?” Yuihan took turn to look at Sayanee and Paruru. She was kind of hoping that her girlfriend would be on her side and say something to Sayanee to get rid of that idea, but Paruru didn’t say anything.

“Woah” She looked away in disbelief.

Sayanee didn’t let go of her grip.

“I’m gonna punch you if you don’t let go of my hand.”

“Do it. Punch me. As long as you let me pick her up.”

“You crazy bi…”

Sayanee strengthened her grip to Yuihan’s hand.

Yuihan shook her hand off hard and swung the other hand to punch Sayanee. She didn’t hold back. Sayanee got pushed back and probably would already fall if she didn’t grab her chair. The sound was so loud that everyone inside the café was looking at them. Sayanee got the end of her lips bleeding. She wiped it as she stood straight back up to face Yuihan.   

“Thank you.”

The short girl packed her bag and walked out soon as Yuihan told her the address.

“Now Milky is gonna hate me forever.” Yuihan muttered.

Paruru grabbed her girlfriend’s hand but she shook it off.

“I don’t want to talk to you anymore today.” Yuihan avoid her girlfriend’s gaze annoyingly.

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Milky waited patiently for Yuihan to come and get her. She was checking her phone when a white fancy car stopped in front of her. The door opened and she was so shocked to see Sayanee coming out of the car. Her heart beat so fast. Memories started to flash in her head. She almost couldn’t breathe at that moment but she tried not to show it.

Sayanee with bleeding lips and the skin around it that started to getting darker was only inches away from Milky. The girl was quite sure that Sayanee said something to greet her, but she couldn’t hear it.

The she saw Sayanee smiled at her.

“What are you doing here?” suddenly Milky’s heart filled with rage.

“I came to pick you up.”

“No, I’m waiting for Yuihan.”

“I get this from Yuihan so that I can pick you up instead.” Sayanee pointing at her lips.

“What do you want from me?”

“I want you to let me to take you home and maybe say a few words on the way.”

Milky wanted to say something but her headache was getting worse.

“Are you okay?” Sayanee grabbed Milky’s body that was getting weaker. She guided Milky to her car and took her bag. Milky didn’t have any other choice but to let Sayanee did it.

“Should I take you to the hospital instead?” The stoic girl asked when she sat on the seat opposite of her.

Milky told her that she just wanted to go home. Sayanee complied.

Then she remembered she had some medicine for headache in her bag and insisted Milky to take it. It made Milky feel a little better.

There was a silent between them for a moment after that. Before Sayanee broke it by saying sorry. She knew that Milky wouldn’t going to forgive her as easily but she wanted Milky to know her true intention. Hoping that at least she would understand.

“You fucking said that we’ll go together!! But you left me!!!” Milky wanted to scream those words in front of her ex-lover, but she didn’t. Instead, she looked outside the window. It felt like she stayed still while the people, the building and the trees were moving past by her.

“I want to be a successful person for you. And I realized back then if I kept being with you, I would only get distracted and I wouldn’t achieve this.” She paused. “I know that a lot of things could happened. That includes you probably found someone better than me. But I’ll risk it all cause I think you deserve someone great.”

Milky only reciprocated after a while.

“Have you ever thought that you’re using ‘I’ so much?”

Sayanee was surprised. She never really paid attention on her speech.

“If you have to be away from me to be successful, then you don’t need me in the first place.” Milky continued.  “You don’t have to comeback.”

Those words cut deep into Sayanee’s heart. Milky was the only thing she could think of when she was away. Or maybe she was wrong? Maybe she only thinks about herself all the time.

“I don’t want to be in your way…”

“No, that’s not what I…”

“I don’t want to reap something that you worked on so hard all by yourself while I was not even there to cheer you up.”

Sayanee wanted to say a lot of things, but she couldn’t get herself to say anything.

“You can drop me here.” Milky said.

The car stopped. Milky took her bag at the back seat and opened the door. Sayanee wanted to reach her ex-lover’s hand. She wanted to tell her to not go. She felt like she did, but she didn’t. Her hands tied tight where they were. She stared blankly at the empty seat while Milky closed the door and faded away.

Where did all go wrong? Sayanee asked herself. When did all go wrong? Maybe from the start? Maybe somewhere in between? It’s not important. She knew the consequences. Milky’s gone. Sayanee couldn’t fix it.

Milky walked back to her house carrying her bag that felt heavier all of sudden. She loved Sayanee. She did. She never cared about what Sayanee would become. She thought that whatever it would be, they could get through it together.  So, the moment the stoic girl explained everything in the car, she knew that they were not meant to be together. Sayanee was better without her.

She was happy for Sayanee though, it was also true. She just thought that they had a future together.

Maybe in another life.

If I miss you which I am sure I will, I’ll look up and remember that at least, at the very least, we’re living under the same sky.

Thank you for reading this silly fanfic again. If you wondered why I kept making SayaMilky’s fanfic was bc I don’t know what ship should I write for 48G fanfics. Lets say I use sayamilky as my default characters for my OS. Let me know if you want any ships to be written!

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