#pls let me remember stuff wrongly

[vampire-lord-garfield]

i did not learn anything, i refuse to improve as a person. Im going to rewatch Kuroshitsuji season 2, cause i want to character study everyone in Trancy household. I know all the cringy shit will give me -100 mental damage, but I want to search for some more stuff to overanalyze.

Last time i watched it was a decade ago and i don't remember anything from it... pray for me.

[housamo-side-blog-2]

Happy Birthday Harumo PART 1

 Okay so this my first ever fanfic and my first time ever doing a fanfic because why not hahahah okay my ingame name is Harumo MC5.here goes 

Happy Birthday Harumo 

Its another beautiful day in the city called Tokyo which being from 23 worlds live in harmony [maybe}but this particular day is going to be much more interesting because today is the birthmonth or summon day of our most beloved yet horny hero known as Harumo 

The sun”s rays pierce the windows of your dorm yet you seem very tired as a sign you dont wanna get up of bed you shruged it off and move on the other side yet your familiar Lil Salomon seems to be your own personal alarm clock 

“Master wake up, your going to be late for classes” Lil Salomon said as he tries to wake you up.

Harumo:HMMMMMMM JUST FIVE MORE MINUTES *snoring*

Lil Salomon:THAT LINE is so cliche!!!,MASTER YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP!!! its almost 8 am your going to be late for classes if you dont get up and brush your teeth.{Lil Salomon is starting to panic and wave around to get u up} 

Harumo:*snoring* 

Lil Salomon:*sign*

Lil Salomon is starting to give up when a sudden knock on your door wakes you up and a familiar voice wakes you up.

Mr Mononobe:Harumo are you up can i come in??!

Lil Salomon:*gasp* its father but why would he visit you at a time like this?

Harumo:*yawn* {Mr Mononobe??} yeah pls come in 

As Mr Mononobe hears Harumo”s respones he opens the door and waves at you and Lil Salomon and sees you in a grogy state and he gives you a slight tap on your forehead to get you to snap out of dreamland and as you wipe your eyes and a clear view you were shocked to see Mr Mononobe crouched to equal your eye level.

Mr Mononobe:Looks like you been up all night i assume 

Harumo:Mr Mononobe? why are you here? and.....

A sudden realization hits you as you checked your alarm clock you realized you set it at the wrong time.AGAIN.

Harumo: AHHHHHHHH!!! I FLIPPING SET IT AT THE WRONG TIME AGAIN !!!!

Lil Salomon:*sigh* *face palms self* Master i have to start reminding you of your alarm situation.

Mr Mononobe gives out a slight giggle as you start to jump out of bed to get ready for class,you start to brush your teeth and took a quick shower

Harumo:SORRY MR MONONOBE!! i was up all night because........*idea* i was helping out a friend in a charity organization.

You have to lie to Mr Mononobe because you were busy on your adventure on the seas along with Benten,Ebisu,and the gang in looking for great treasure which lasted for two days and you just came home last night very sleepy you were knocked out when you layed on your bed that time.

Mr Mononobe:*giggle* no worries i already know you were busy this days and..huh?

Mr Mononobe sees you wrongly button your uniform in the wrong pattern and quickly fixes your uniform 

Mr Mononobe:Your buttoned in it the wrong way...here let me fix that for you.

You noticed it too and you thank Mr Mononobe for that matter Mr Mononobe gives you smile and ruffles your hair and you just had that combed 

Harumo:Hey!! i just combed that!!! 

Mr Mononobe apolagized in messing your hair and you quickly fixed it as you done that you started to why is Mr Mononobe visiting you when class is about to start and to started to asks him why is he visiting you since you only have five minutes left before class starts and you dont want another lecture  from Shiro and Toji again.

Harumo; Wait,? why are you here all of sudden did something happen?

You started to question him about his sudden visit you expected it to be somewhat serious since he does”nt visit you before class starts instead he pats your head gives you a smile and says.

Mr Mononobe:Today:s a very special day for you Harumo!!

You tilted your in confusion since you don”t know why today is very special especially when it comes to you since you are literally a chaos magnet you gave Mr Mononobe a HUH? and you turn around to Lil Salomon and even he does”nt know what today is even he is also confused of why today is very special to you ask Mr Mononobe why today is very special to you and he gives you a pat on your shoulder and says

Mr Mononobe:You”ll find out soon after my class now hurry up your gonna be late for Mr Tritons class!

You realized Mr Triton is your first class and  quickly rushed out of your dorm with a worried look on your face since Mr Triton can be very scary when it comes to punctuality you wave Mr Mononobe goodbye and quickly rushed to  school,Lil Salomon whom you seem to have forgotten ask his father the reason for this special day and as he whispered it to Lil Salomon he was shocked beyond comprehension and jumping and as he was about to tell Harumo of the news Mr Mononobe tells him to keep it a secret because he was planning on announcing it to class as a surprise to him Lil Salomon says OHHH!!,and nods in agreement in surprising Harumo.

Meanwhile 

In class E-1 the summoners are chatting to themselves and possibly planning a guild meeting afterschool they heard the school bell rang and they returned to their seats but they are surprised to notice that one particular person is still not present yet 

Shiro:It seems like our guildmaster is running late again ,maybe i should rush over to get him.?

Ryota: i wonder what happened to Harumo? is he sick or something?

Kengo:He probably just overslept or something 

Toji:I wonder if got caught in someone else”s affairs again?

Moritaka: i do say,Harumo is the type to get into trouble often, maybe he was busy yesterday and got really tired?

With a concern look Shiro thinks of going to Harumo”s dorm room to check whether he overslept again but Mr Triton has arrived and quickly run an attendance to the entire class,Shiro being class representative performed attendance run and asks if he could check on Harumo and Mr Triton said to wait just 5 more minutes and if he is still not here then you could check,With that mind Shiro nod in agreement and went back to his seat, Meanwhile in the hallway on ground floor.

Harumo:*panting*crap! crap! crap! im so late!! im gotta get an earful from Mr Triton about this*panting**

Harumo continues to run like no tomorrow to get to class and possibly preparing himself of an earful lecture of getting late again,He continues to run and run and finally reach E-CLASS with him sweating so much he”s combed hair looks like he got up from bed and with him panting, everyone assume you run from the mountains, as you entered you quickly bowed to Mr Triton and apoligized and promise never to be late again,You assume in your mind that you’re gonna get an lecture from Mr Triton about being late,But instead of an angry look on his face,He pats your head with a smile and orders to you go to your seat and try not be late again,Your reaction is both confused and shocked since you assume your gonna get in trouble for being late,But Mr Triton said..

Mr Triton:i understand just please try to be more punctual next time! okay?And also Mr Mononobe told about today and he ask me if i could spare you on an earful lecture and i said okay then!!

You remebered what Mr Mononobe told you back in your dorm room and asks Mr Triton about what today is,Instead of an answer he gives you a smile and holds your shoulder and gives out a small laugh,You did”nt why he was laughing?or why is Mr Mononobe and Mr Triton acting very weird today with a confused look you went to your seat and Mr Triton with all students in his class he starts he”s daily teaching.

After Mr Triton”s class 

You let out a sigh of relief thinking this must be your lucky day since you did”nt get punished by Mr Triton for your lack of punctuality and thinking about what Mr Mononobe said being your special day you look confused and started to  wonder what today is,You were thinking of going to see Mr Mononobe about that but it seems you don”t have to worry about that because Mr Mononobe has already arrived and thought 

Harumo:Maybe i should ask Mr Mononobe about that after class,But still,what is it that makes this day so special?HMMMM?Did he told the other teachers about today?maybe after class then.

With Mr Mononobe started he”s daily teaching and 1 hour later as soon he was about to leave,He looks over to his shoulder in look at Harumo with a smile and said.

Mr Mononobe:HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARUMO!!!

After he said those words and left you and the summoners took a while to process what Mr Mononobe said and

Harumo&Summoners:.......

Harumo&Summoners:WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!

You and the rest of the summoners were both extremely shocked to hear that today is your Birthday and you are the most shocked of all since you came to this world with no memory of your life before you summoned to Tokyo you did not know when you were born or even your birthday you have no clue of your life at all.

Shiro:*sturrering* i did not realize that today is birthday!!

Ryota:I CAN”T BELIEVE ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY WHY DID’NT TELL US?!!!

Kengo:YEAH!! WHY DID’NT YOU TOLD US THAT TODAY”S YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTNER !

Toji:Even im shocked to hear its your birthday!!!

Moritaka:Its a very special today now your celebrating your day of your birth is that wonderful Harumo!!!

Harumo:Actually ...i did’nt even know that today”s my birthday!

Shiro:OH thats right you have amnesia so suppose you did not even remember your own birthday 

Harumo:Sooooooo Happy Birthday to me?

SO THATS PART 1 CAUSE IM RUNNING OUT OF CREATIVITY JUICE AND STUFF AND THIS MY FIRST TIME SO PLS COMMENT ON WHAT YOU THINK OF THE FANFIC AND I WANT YOU ALL TO BE BRUTALLY HONEST IN YOUR CRITICMS BECAUSE I WANT TO KNOW THE MISTAKES IM MAKING AND HOPEFULLY WE GET ALONG PRETTY SWELL SO THANK FOR READING AND AS ALWAYS HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARUMO!!!!!

[visceralcoma]

On this Indigenous Day (“Columbus Day” for the colonizer sympathizers), I want to talk about the game Greedfall.

A game which has been unfairly demonized and wrongly labeled as a game about colonization. 

Now before I get too much into it I want to say... I am saying this as someone who comes from people who were robbed, raped, enslaved, and brainwashed & propaganda’d into believing we were extinct. I didn’t have the privilege and luxury of being raised with my people’s culture but once I learned about it, I made a concentrated effort to learn as much about that side of my ancestry - and I’m still learning. Because even though part of my ancestry is also of the bastards who colonized my people - I think it would be better to concentrate on the culture that was nearly wiped out - to uplift it - remember it and recover what remains and keep it going by learning than to give any voice to the colonizer side of my ancestry. They have their own people to celebrate their culture.

So again, I’m coming out to talk about Greedfall. A game that has been largely mislabeled by many. Especially from other indigenous fans of games. Most notably those in the Dragon Age fandom.

I will also preface this that if you are someone who is triggered by topics and images that remind you of your generational trauma - this is not a game for you. I would never recommend this game for you in particular. 

But this is a game for people who are like me. People who were robbed of knowing their culture from birth; People affected by the continuing influence of British, American, and Spanish imperialism and their colonization, People who are getting to know their culture in adulthood - rediscovering it - connecting and even visiting the (in my case) island where your people came from and being amongst others who are keeping what remains alive.

Because that’s what Greedfall was for me.

It was a story of De Sardet who (spoilers) eventually learns their mother was kidnapped by the Congregation and was born away from the Island of Tir Fradee, raised by the Congregation’s Princess and never once told about their ancestry, their people, and their culture. And they only learn once arriving at the island and discovering the truth.  And while there, you have opportunities to learn about the culture - your culture -  to reconnect with what remains of your blood family, and eventually help shape the future of the island.

Now the game is not without it’s faults. Which I have brought up before. The game has a seriously unbalanced situation when it comes to how the Christian coded baddies are treated better over the Arabic/Muslim coded baddies. The game has a bad problem with white-saviourism (which is framed as the bad ending at least).  The writing is lacking in depth everywhere and not just the stuff to do with the Natives. But for a Double A game - it’s not bad. Especially for the first game I ever really had a somewhat similar backstory of the main character that I could relate to.

Are there problematic topics covered in the game? 100% percent.

But the game is not about colonialism. You do not colonize the island - it is already pre-colonized and you as De Sardet are meant to broker peace to find some cure for a plague that is ripping the continent up. Now this does mean the main character starts out aligned with colonizers, but through the course of the game - the things you uncover...it shows the organization you start off with... is the baddies and you can turn on them. Give power back to the Natives and drive the Congregation and all the other groups (Theleme and the Bridge Alliance) off. Which I’ve never seen done before in a game (pls correct me if I’m wrong here).  Even Dragon Age doesn’t let us give back land to the Dalish and drive out the humans (at least not yet...*eyes dragon age 4 suspiciously*). 

So again... the game is not all bad. But if you’re triggered by things that remind you of your generational trauma, don’t play it.  But also do not demonize those who enjoy the game.  Why?   Well.. I’m going to quote the biggest and loudest person (who never played the game btw) who came down hard on the game when it was released.  “You can enjoy something and still be critical of the things you don’t like about it, and wish for better." - Dalishious 2017

[incorrecttowerofgodquotes]

Tower Of God Anime Episode 1 Breakdown

Spoilers so Anime only’s beware.

-The two hot boys have shown up. Interesting they’re both under honor and pride, since the two hate each other’s guts. Hatz strives to bring honor as swordsman and places a lot of his pride into that. Meanwhile, Khun strives to regain his honor taken away from him after his exile, and his overwhelming pride causes problems for him.

-In this small scene, there’s so much symbolism about Endorsi’s character. First, we focus on her shoes, which links to the idea of how Jahad’s Princesses are called the shoes in the king’s showcase. Right now, she is a shoe, walking towards her destiny of entering the tower. Then we get a shot of her face, a mix of adorable and pretty. These two shots indicate what everyone sees when they first meet Endorsi, a princess and then just a pretty face. Until it finally pulls back and shows the many other shoes in the showcase, to which Endorsi is compared to and what people hope she becomes. However, she stands outside the case because she wants freedom from her duties as a princess.

-Another interesting thing about the showcase shot is that while Endorsi is at first front and center, she’s ultimately dwarfed by the many other shoes that come into frame, showing that even if she’s a princess, she’s just one of many and can easily be made (replaced) again.

-The power and influence line shows Endorsi wants. She wanted power to become stronger than the other girls at her home, and eventually she gained it. Now she wants power to become a popular princess, which will give her influence. With her influence she might be able to change something about the princess system, just like what Yuri wants.

-Shibisu is under the money and wealth, replacing Narae. Now, we don’t actually know Shibisu’s backstory. We’ve gotten hints of it such as someone taking something from him, but we don’t know the full story. Might this give a clue into his past?

-Anaak is probably the most easiest to explain. She wants revenge on the Jahad family for her mother and father’s deaths. However she eventually mellows out with this, preferring to keep her teammates safe then strive for revenge (like in the Name Hunt Station Arc)

-Rak wants to transcend all. Basically become stronger than anyone, and he’ll gain this power by hunting down strong prey and proving he’s stronger.

-I can’t really do an analysis of the op cause most of it is just Bam walking and stuff, so here are my fav shots (Though the yellow one scares me). Interesting that we get a shot of the Jahad symbol in the op, though it makes sense with just how important it is. Though I don’t know what was up with the bird. I guess it’s meant to represent freedom, but ToG is more full of water metaphors than sky. (Also the only time birds are relevant in ToG is when they appear and then die)

-I love Rachel’s little smile after Bam tells her he doesn’t want her to go up the tower. It seems like she’s smiling to calm him down and explain the situation, however you can also see the fakeness in it. She isn’t smiling because she feels bad for Bam, she’s smiling because she feels like she has to.

-This shot still confuses me. It’s like the tower itself is vibe checking Bam.

-Subarashi

-Bam subscribes to the “No Waifu, No Laifu” train of thought. And just as I predicted, people are already calling him a simp. I guess I can let it pass for now, but’s gonna get annoying if people keep calling him that, even after S1.

-Thus, the meeting that forever changed the tower’s fate has occurred. And it all started with a kick to the face.

-Seeing Yuri and Evan together makes me happy. They’re such a great duo that feel better together than split. Also I’m interested in the language they’re using. Is it a real world language, fake, or a mix of a few languages? Either way, it seems that Yuri and Evan might be able to understand each other without a Pocket (maybe because Evan’s guide abilities allow him to know every language in the tower?)

-Gotta say, the CGI looks very crappy, especially in mix with the extremely cartoony style of ToG. Hope we don’t get to much of it.

-Why are they saying Non-Regular. It’s supposed to be Irregular. The trailers got it right, so why is this different?

-Love how Bam’s the only one who reacts to the threat of execution. Evan and Yuri probably hear that on a daily basis so it doesn’t matter as much.

-Yuri went from shitting on him to wanting to fuck him in a second. Normally I’d criticize such a thing but since Yuri has a different agenda, and the circumstances between princesses and men, I can’t blame her for wanting a handsome man to go up. (Seriously all the princesses must be sexually frustrated)

-Anaak’s my favorite girl in S1, but I think Yuri’s gonna convert me if she has more of these great faces.

-Another translation error, but one also translated wrongly in Japanese. It’s supposed to be needle, but they say katana (sword in japanese). If I’m remembering correctly, only one 13 Month Weapon is actually a sword.

-Poor Evan. Then again, even if it seems he has a weak hold on her, he’s probably the best one for the job. Since he’s one of the highest ranking guides, he’s probably stuck taking care of either hard to handle or strong princesses.

-Their relationship is adorable. I have a thing for tall girl x short boy and this fulfills it all the way. Also, Yuri saying she hates being bored is really telling of just how much of an adventurous spirit she has. Even in the tower where things are hectic all the time and she works under Jahad and Wingtree, she still desires a world outside of the norm. I wonder if meeting Phantaminum really broadened her horizons that much?

-Love seeing all the buildup just to get to Bam being eaten. It’s a great way to subvert expectations from him just cutting it normally. Also in the manwha, Yuri says the needle is for stabs and pierces, probably giving Bam the idea of entering the eel.

-Also Yuri for best big sister in anime pls.

-”Welp, let’s go home”

-Yuri was about to try and punt an administrator. How can she walk in such dense shinsu with balls as heavy as hers

-Can we talk about the amount of trust in Yuri and Evan’s relationship. Sure, Yuri protested when grabbed by Evan, but when she heard that Bam had taken the right path she immediately stopped fighting or rushing to break in there. Even if she couldn’t figure out what the path was supposed to be, she believed in Evan’s words that Bam had done it right and stopped fighting.

-Bam’s gonna need a bath

-I love these two shots. Just the raw determination Bam has is inspiring. We should all be like Bam, except maybe focus that determination into a hobby or work instead of stalking a girl.

-Yuri about to punt Headon part 2

-This scene had me tearing up. No matter how horribly the two’s relationship progresses in the future, this scene will always be sweet because it’s the two’s raw, positive emotion. Bam was stuck down there for weeks, months, maybe even years, and finally someone comes along and says they’ll be there with him. Even if he didn’t leave the cave, his world got brighter just by having Rachel there. I’m glad they included this scene because it shows why Bam is so desperate to get Rachel back, to get his light back.

-This is precious

-I can’t believe I’m actually saying this but Rachel looks adorable

-These shots are so simple yet so powerful. If only they could have stayed like this

-Bam is smooth. This dude spent years in a dark hole with no one to talk to and yet he can still pick up girls. Also I think this scene shows that Bam and Rachel have more of a sibling relationship. Ruffling his hair is more of a big sister type of thing.

-Based on Yuri’s reaction, this is probably the most determined she’s seen Evan

-Black March is top tier waifu material even though she’s just a needle. I like that the animators made her look more mature. It shows that she’s an old weapon without needing to say it.

-BEGONE THOT

-I love how Black March’s preference in men was a superstition. Also can we talk about Evan’s face in the last panel? It’s beautiful.

-Honestly, it’s hard to tell who’s in charge of who

-That feeling when a sexy, needle lady will never hold you in her arms, why even live?

-I love how Bam’s first reaction to entering a new place was to eat it’s grass. Bless this precious child

-And finally, it ends off with the RaKhunBam trio. I’m so happy to see all three of them together.

This episode had it’s good points and it’s bad points but either way I’m excited for the rest of this journey, especially seeing the anime onlys reactions.

[aristccrvcy]

( gavin leatherwood, trans male, he/him, fire emblem: three houses ) * &. i know it must be scary for you, ferdinand von aegir, after surviving the takeover. to turn into someone like aeric-ferdinand “ferdie” vittori, a twenty-four year-old actor at castle town centre of theatre & dance, right here in castle town. just remember that you are as sincere as you are opinionated, and to be wary, be safe, be true to who you are : neutral through and through. ( hylia )

         i could never drop him i just. i could Not. i rly couldn’t but i DID ..... want to revamp him a bit so here’s take two on ferdie !! politics, war, death, & divorce tw under the cut !!

BEFORE THE SNAP.  /  F E R D I N A N D  V O N  A E G I R 

So alright. Chances are , if you’ve heard of Ferdinand , it’s because you’ve heard the infamous ‘ I am Ferdinand von Aegir ! ’ quote goin’ around which . . . attributes from. Him introducing himself every time you select him on the battlefield in FE3H. Don’t believe me ?? WATCH. 

...u don’t need to watch that whole thing I’m just tryna get the meme out of the way before I talk abt everything else.

BC ALL JOKES ASIDE I HONESTLY LOVE FERDINAND SOOO MUCH n I promise I’ll take him seriously bc holy fucking shit this character is my babyyyy.

So for STARTERS. Ferdinand is the legitimate son of House Aegir in the Adrestian Empire , which is the house that produces the Empire’s Prime Ministers. Now , here’s the thing ; Ferdinand himself isn’t involved in any of this , but thanks to the Adrestian nobles pretty much stripping the Emperor of their power in the past . . . the Aegir house ( much like the other houses , but Duke Aegir’s implied to have like , spearheaded it ) is pretty damn corrupt.

NOT FERDINAND , THOUGH , considering Ferdinand is actually someone who has very opposing views to his father. Ferdinand , in a nutshell , is basically the snobby noble trope you’re expecting turned upside down crossed over with a Disney prince. That’s the best way i can describe him.

Ferdinand is very aware of his noble status , but he is very steadfast in his opinion of what is truly means to be a noble. He’s well-aware of the difference between nobles & commoners , but where you’d expect him to use that to degrade people of lesser status , he . . . doesn’t. 

Ferdinand strongly believes the duties of a noble constitute of protecting & helping the common people , and that is why they’re so high in status - they’re there to assist and make things better , and not to make things worse , and it absolutely sickens him to his core when there are corrupt nobles who very clearly use their power for selfish & malicious gain. 

Like , he’s confident - he’s very confident and sure of himself , but he isn’t a dick ( in that sense ; he can be kind of a dick , don’t get me wrong ) about it. He’s actually extremely polite & respectful , very kind & genuine - like I really don’t think lying is something that this boy is capable of doing , I really don’t. But he’s humble in the sense that he isn’t afraid to admit when he did something wrong , or that he needs to apologize - IN FACT , a lot of his supports have him apologize for approaching someone wrongly or when he’s accused of something.

One example , he has a support with Dorothea where she tells him that she hates him , and instead of fighting her on it , what he does is he tries to figure out why she hates him so he can better himself and fix something he did wrong. 

Another example , his B-support with Bernadetta has him apologize for spooking her , and he respects her comfort levels by speaking to her on the other side of the door to her room because now he understands that Bernadetta feels extremely scared & uncomfortable during confrontation.

LIKE . . . okay , in the simplest of words , Ferdinand is just good. He’s a good person and he tries his hardest to be better if someone brings it to his attention that he’s doing something wrong.

BUT ALSO . . . the thing is , Ferdinand is also extremely opinionated to the point where he’ll share his thoughts even if not asked ; and sometimes , it comes out. Dickish. Like , really , he’ll criticize anyone if he believes he should because he hates the idea of someone who doesn’t - exemplified in the beginning of his supports with Hubert , where he condemns Hubert for not openly criticizing Edelgard but Ferdinand’s criticism can come out . . . harsh. Like , he’s respectful still , but he’s harsh. And that is because Ferdinand firmly believes in speaking his mind.

His determination also makes him stubborn & extremely competitive to a point where it becomes damn near annoying and this is , because again , he always strives to better himself - even going as far as to declare Edelgard his rival when she . . . really doesn’t think of him as one , and then he gets his ass kicked and runs with his tail between his legs because he lost. He’s. He’s competitive. I will not lie to you. Like he’s great but aLSO... this guy doesn’t. Know. When to let go.

Bt yeah in a nutshell - Ferdinand is a rich guy who criticizes other rich guys for being jerks and not caring abt other people , and he can come off as a dick but ultimately he means well & he is a LOT better than some of these other assholes out there. Ferdinand’s.... he’s just GOOD. 

Bt now that I have the basis of his character out of the way , I want to mention that a major change about him is that I’m changing what route I’m pulling him from - originally , I pulled him from Azure Moon , where if you don’t recruit him you have to kill him at the Great Bridge of Myrddin. So instead , now , I’ll be pulling him from Crimson Flower , where he’s still sided with Edelgard but now she has Byleth & she’s triumphant and everything’s okay on the Empire’s end. But - in other routes - while he’s still with Edelgard , he unfortunately doesn’t make it so if u have AM or VW muses . . . Ferdie didn’t make it.

BUT THAT’S WHAT MAKES THESE THINGS INTERESTINGGGGG and I love it so for that reason ,,, shoves. Ferdinand. In everyone’s direction.

AFTER THE SNAP.  /  A E R I C - F E R D I N A N D  “ F E R D I E ”  V I T T O R I

So the more major changes from his pre-revamp portrayal lie in his CT life - his name’s changed , his occupation’s changed , and almost his entire whole past has changed.

Aeric-Ferdinand Vittori was the only child of a film actor & stage actress , pretty famous people , and he was born with the spotlight on him immediately given that he scored his first role as a child at six years old. Since then , he never really had much of an easy time.

His big break was as a teenager in a teen drama that lasted from when he was fourteen to when he was nineteen , the co-star of a vampire television drama in where his character was a fan-favorite. He ultimately left the show and his character was killed off , and he had some starring roles in other movies & the like before he ultimately moved to Broadway. And in that , he had a bit of an easier time , but he would still often feel like he was about to crack under pressure since all eyes were still on him. He was known as a talented young man with a beautiful singing voice , and unfortunately , everyone wants something to do with you when you have something like that.

His parents were also always in the spotlight because of their very public divorce , and it started to bleed into Ferdinand’s career & public image as well with many people poking their nose into his life and asking his opinion on it. Multiple scandals came out claiming that he leaned one way or the other during it and ultimately , that ruined his relationship with his parents. So at twenty-three , he left the Broadway spotlight , and decided to step out of any light in general for a while.

Settling down in Castle Town , a place where nobody bothered to look , was a good start.

He still loved performing , so he worked as an actor at the local theatre on stage - trying his hardest not to get the big roles and take those up , because he was still a relatively big name & when you’re a big name , people lean into their biases.

And then . . . at this point was where he “woke up”. Because his whole past was fake - but there’s always a point where you realize it is.

He had a girlfriend in Castle Town beforehand that he broke up with due to his paranoia that she’d get caught up in the publicity that he did - Nerissa. And he had parents that he didn’t even talk to anymore , and it threw him for a loop because he was reminded of his father back in Adrestia. And suddenly , he’s no longer a soldier or a noble , but with his celebrity status , he’s basically the closest there is to modern nobility at this point.

So . . . Ferdinand feels. Strange. He always loved the opera & he always loved performances but he never thought of himself as someone who would actually do so. It’s strange , but he likes it.

So now , he’s trying to figure out exactly what the hell happened and how he got here and he’s grown pretty used to people not remembering who he is , but it still . . . hurts.

And THAT is where I end this !! I’m gonna go back 2 my plotting DMs and message more ppl but if this gives u some ideas pls do hit me up bc I love Ferdie SOOOO MUCH and I’m excited for his revamp !!

Also if ur curious ab his old intro still I’ll link it here bc there’s probably some pre-snap stuff I forgot in here that’s in there so !! yes. i’ll b around n will probs try n get an open up soon !!

[jaeminlore]

Not Yet // Mark Lee

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the prompt:MARK FLUFF ABOUT TRAVELING THE WORLD AND THEN YALL GO TO VANCOUVER AND HE GETS EXCITED BECAUSE HES GOING TO PROPOSE OML PLS IM REALLY DEVASTATED FROM WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY

words: 2377

category: fluff + older!mark (??)

author note: told you i’d write it tonight and even though it’s late I did write it! you’re probably sleeping rn but i hope you see this soon! anyway alex i hope this cheers you up and pls remember that tomorrow’s a brand new day. i know you can’t see it now, but things are looking up ^^

- destinee

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“It’s so nice here,” you said.

Mark stopped paddling and looked around in awe at the cherry blossoms around the two of you.

It was the summer after you had graduated college and NCT was given an extended break, so Mark wanted to spend it traveling the world with you. The two of you had decided to play a game in your travels, in which you both would take turns picking the place you would spend a week in.

This week, Mark had chosen to take you to Tokyo. Specifically to Inokashira Onshi Park, where the cherry blossom trees overlooked a large pond. There were boat rentals, where people could paddle along the pond and feel the scented breeze of the air.

Mark had a real reason behind taking you traveling, and that was to make the best proposal ever made. He wanted to ask you to marry him before his break was over, and he figured the best time to do it would be somewhere beautiful and memorable. Somewhere new and exciting, just like the thought of marriage.

He wanted to show you how much he loved you, and how much he wanted to be with you. For the rest of his life, there was no other person he wanted to spend his life with. There was a ring burning a hole into his pocket as he sat in the boat, watching you admire the petals that fell every now and again. This would be a great time to propose to you. Now, while there were blossom petals in your hair.

However, he couldn’t find it in himself to pull out the velvet box. For in a boat across from you two, a couple sat, having the same thoughts apparently. The man pulled out a box similar to the one in Mark’s pocket and proposed to the woman.

Mark quirked a smile when he saw you watching the couple. You squealed softly and looked at him, making sure he was watching as well. “Aren’t they cute?” you asked.

Mark nodded, but he felt a tad bit annoyed at the other couple. Now his proposal wouldn’t seem as nice. It wouldn’t be as original as it once was. So he kept the ring in his pocket and refused to propose to you.

Not yet.

-

“I told you Italy was a good idea!” you giggled, tossing the pizza dough into the air as Mark struggled to tie an apron around his waist.

Mark smiled, “I can’t believe our whole week in Italy is just so you can make your own pizza.”

“This is the home of pizza, Mark. We have to do this here or we’d be missing out.”

“I understand,” he said, finally getting a hold on his apron and coming to join you. The pizzaiolo, or pizza man, as you had dubbed him, handed Mark a ball of dough and explained the process of spinning dough to him.

Mark was thinking about sticking the ring in the crust of his pizza. Even if you thought it was cheesy, he could play that off well, saying the two of you were in a pizza shop so cheesiness was allowed.

Just as he was beginning to think it wasn’t such a bad idea, the pizza man spoke up, “It’s so nice to have a fun couple visit for once. Usually we get a bunch of lovers who like to put rings in the dough and stuff like that.”

You snorted, “That’s so lame.”

Mark rolled his eyes. Of course. Of all the lame things he did that you supported, you chose to laugh at this one. “Totally lame.”

You stared at Mark for a minute, and Mark knew he had been caught. Of course, after dating for four years, the two of you knew each other from the inside out. “You liked the idea of sticking a ring into pizza!”

Mark shrugged and turned away, acting indifferent. “I was just thinking that it’s not the worst idea on the planet.”

You patted Mark’s cheek condescendingly, getting flour on his smooth skin, and smiled. “You’re cute.”

“Shut up.” He batted your hand away in mock-annoyance. He wanted to propose to you quickly, but it seemed he would have to wait once again.

-

“Let’s get matching hats!” you said. “Then we can watch the fireworks.”

Mark had chosen Disney World in Florida, in the hopes of doing the classic and romantic proposal in front of Cinderella’s castle.

It was his best plan yet. He would wait until the firework show started. Then, while you were distracted, he would get down on one knee and hold up the ring. It would be perfect.

There were fifteen minutes until the fireworks started. To pass time, you and Mark were hanging out in a nearby gift shop to pick up souvenirs. You wanted to get the classic mouse ear hats. However, you couldn’t decide between Minnie, Donald Duck, and Chip. It actually could’ve been Dale, since Mark could never remember which one had the red nose and which one had the black nose. He had already chosen his hat: Winnie the Pooh.

You glared at the hat in his hands, “How is it so easy for you to have a favorite character?”

Mark shrugged. “I don’t know. You’re looking at all the classic characters. Why don’t you look at the princesses, or the ones from Toy Story?”

“Well the Ariel one it really cute…” you mentioned. “I’ll get the Ariel one.”

“Great. I’ll go buy them.” Mark said, accepting the hat you handed to him.

“I’m going to go check and see if the fireworks have started yet.”

Mark let you go before walking up to the counter. “I’ll take these two, please.”

As he was extracting bills from his wallet, you came back inside, your hair slightly damp. “Bad news. It’s raining so they aren’t doing fireworks tonight.”

“Really?” Mark frowned, “You can’t even hear the rain from inside.”

“It’s our last night,” you said, pouting slightly. “We should still stay until the park closes. What do you say we go watch a show or something?”

Mark smiled at you after paying for the hats. Although he really wanted to propose under the fireworks, he supposed he would have to wait, yet again, for another opportunity to present itself.

“That sounds great.” He placed the Ariel hat on top of your head. “It suits you.”

You giggled when he put the Pooh one on his own head, “We look like annoying tourists.”

“We are annoying tourists, babe,” he answered.

Throughout all of your fun and laughter, he still couldn’t help but want to pull out the ring right then and there. However, he had to remind himself to wait if he wanted it to be special.

-

“It’s beautiful,” you mentioned, leaning on Mark’s shoulder and looking out at the view.

The two of you were currently at the top of the Eiffel Tower, both lost in thought. There was only one week left before Mark had to return to SM for another comeback, and he knew he had to propose soon if he was going to do it at all.

He had chosen Paris, claiming that a couple in love should be in the City of Love at least once in their relationship. You agreed, of course, especially because you had always wanted to see the City of Lights at night. Now your dream was coming true, as you stared out over the railing. Windows flickered off and lamp posts flickered on as the night grew darker and colder. Mark thought proposing on top of the Eiffel Tower wouldn’t be such a bad idea at all.

“I can think of something more beautiful,” Mark said.

You elbowed him in the stomach, emitting a laugh from your awkward boyfriend, “What? I can’t say you’re beautiful?”

“Not in a cheesy way,” you answered, your cheeks heating up at his words.

He laughed. “Hey, Y/n, can I ask you something?”

You turned to him, a contented grin on your lips, “What is it?”

Mark reached into his pocket to find nothing. It was absolutely empty. He hastily checked all of his pockets before realizing it must be in the hotel, for the only thing in his pocket was his wallet and the hotel key.

“What are you looking for?” you asked him, amused at his panicked expression.

“What? Oh, I just thought I had lost the hotel keys. But here they are!” He held up his key awkwardly.

“So, what were you going to ask me?”

“I forgot.” Mark said. He threw his arm around your shoulder as the two of you walked towards the elevator. “Let’s get back to the hotel before it gets too cold. We need to pack for the airport before we go to sleep. By the way, are you ever going to tell me where we’re going next?”

“No,” you smirked. “It’s a surprise.”

“But it’s our last week before we have to go back to Seoul. Shouldn’t you at least give me a hint?” Mark would have to propose to you there, wherever you chose. Otherwise, he would have no time to even think about proposing as he practiced for the comeback.

“Your hint is that you’ll love it,” you said. “It’ll be the best week out of all of our weeks.”

“I doubt that.”

-

Mark doubted, but he doubted wrongly. As soon as the two of you were in the airport and you asked the woman for two tickets to Vancouver, Mark couldn’t stop the smile from forming on his face. “Y/n! You’re taking me to Vancouver?!”

“Yeah! Surprise!” You grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the line so other people could buy their tickets. “We can spend a week there. I’ve already talked with your family. We’re having dinner with them tonight.”

You knew Mark’s family from the few times they had visited him. However, you had never had the opportunity to go to his hometown and visit them, since Mark was always so busy. It wasn’t a surprise that you snatched the opportunity up as soon as you saw it.

Mark had thought about going to Vancouver, sure. However, he was afraid it would be too selfish of him to ask for a whole week there. He should’ve known that you knew him too well, and therefore thought ahead. You knew he wouldn’t ask about it, so you took it upon yourself to just go without consulting him.

The result was a very happy Mark.

-

Mark’s older brother was the first to the door, grabbing Mark by the shoulders and pulling him in for a hug. Mark’s parents weren’t far behind, and he suddenly found himself being pulled into a group hug, courtesy of the Lee family.

He reached out, grabbed you, and pulled you into the hug as well. “If I suffer, so do you.”

“I’ve just set dinner out on the table!” Mrs. Lee said after finally letting go of her son. “Let’s go eat before it gets cold and then Mark can show Y/n around the place.”

Everyone agreed and you let Mark pull you into the kitchen to eat, as you were both starved from the long flight.

“So, how has the traveling been going?” Mr. Lee asked you. “Has being with Mark twenty-four-seven completely annoyed you yet?”

“Dad…” Mark whined. “I’m trying to keep her, not scare her off.”

You laughed, “We’ve been dating for four years, Mark. If I had a problem with your annoying self I would’ve left you a long time ago.”

“Hey!” Mark protested as you gave his dad a high five across the table. “Don’t high five my dad!”

You only laughed as his family continued to taunt him.

-

“You’re family is so fun,” you told Mark. “I love them.”

“I love them too,” Mark smiled as the two of you walked towards the lake near his house. “I wish you all wouldn’t gang up on me, though.”

“It’s fun!” you said.

“That’s not an excuse,” Mark replied, acting offended.

The two of you walked towards the end of the dock and sat down, your feet hanging over the edge. It was dark out, so the only light came from the moon as it reflected off the lake. Mark took your hand in his as the two of you watched the stillness of the water. “In all honestly, though, I’m really glad my family likes you.”

“Of course they like me,” you joked, “I’m wonderful.”

Mark snorted and spoke sarcastically. “You’re hilarious.”

He suddenly knew this was the moment to go for it. There was no place more special to him than his home. Not Japan, or Italy, or France. Just his happy little home nestled in the heart of Vancouver, Canada. This is where he wanted to propose to you. This is where he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you. In this moment, while the two of you were comfortably joking around with each other. “Y/n?”

“What?” You yawned, leaning into his side and resting your head on top of his shoulder.

“Will you marry me?”

You pushed yourself off of him quickly, and examined his face. “Are you serious?”

“Well, yeah. I mean this isn’t how I originally planned to propose and the ring is tucked away in the abyss of my suitcase, but I really want to marry you. I want you to be with me even though I have this job that doesn’t allow us a lot of time together. I want you to always be with me. So, will you marry me?”

Even in the moonlight, Mark was able to capture the dark hue of pink that appeared on your cheeks. “Of course I’ll marry you, Mark.”

“Great,” he mumbled before leaning in to kiss you. As your lips met, a sudden crash of thunder appeared and the two of you parted, jumping at the noise.

You looked up just as it began to rain. “Should we go in?”

Mark looked at your wonder-filled expression, taking in the soft pellets of rain as they fell and bounced off of your cheeks. He smiled to himself, “Not yet.”

~the end~

[janiedean]

(part 1) ur gonna roast me for this but im legit curious why mafia AUs are so bad? im asking in a non confrontational way, i get it romanticizing mafia is wrong, but i also believe that 1)most mafia AUs are a really toned down type of mafia;2)they do make for some interesting kinds of dynamics with fanart and with fics; 3)in a fic specifically u can create your own world and call something mafia and still make it so they don't kill innocent people but only idk members of other gangs or sth

(part 2) plus theyre a way to put ur charas in a completely diff context and see what theyll do. i mean i dont believe that writing ships in a certain context (like mafia) equals romanticizing that context. mafia AUs arent even my fav things to read (in fact i almost never do), im sure many ppl romanticize it and i obvs dont agree with that but im just trying to udnerstand bc i believe fandoms are a way to explore things that we normally wouldnt.

I’m not gonna roast you don’t worry xD okay wait let me check if I replied to this already if yes I’m gonna c/p because it’s half past midnight otherwise I’ll just go at it again wait *checks tags* fff obviously I don’t have a general post but anyway pls read this after you’ve done with my post and then this which is also choke-full of links. plus for a (not nice) laugh: here. AH WAIT I FOUND THE POST.

okay, so, let’s have it out of the way: I have nothing against mob aus or crime aus. I have a problem against calling them mafia AUs because in the US mafia = organized crime at large, in Italy mafia = ACTUAL EXISTING ORGANIZATIONS THAT ARE ACTIVELY HARMFUL. now that I introduced the topic I’ll c/p you the reply I gave to another anon who while discussing the issue pointed out that most writers don’t even know Italian mafia is a thing, which is pretty much on the same discourse so...

*The thing is - in the US it might not be enough of a deal anymore and I honestly do get why people make the mafia = regular mobsters, since the mafia was the first foreign organized crime being exported to the US via italian immigrants (sorry if this sounds horrible in English but I just woke up and I still didn’t have coffee) so I understand that mafia became the umbrella term.But the thing is that - as you said, these people don’t even know that there’s a mafia in Italy anymore or where the word comes from.

 I’m going to link to italiansreclaimingitaly’s tag about the mafia and its perception outside Italy because they posted about this extensively and it’s an excellent resource, but meanwhile I’m gonna do a very short bullet point list and about the topic:

Mafia might not be a big deal in the US, but it still is here. We have the beauty of four different mafias (Cosa Nostra - the Sicilian one, camorra which is the one in Campania but has tendrils spread everywhere, the 'ndrangheta which is in Calabria and the Sacra Corona Unita in Puglia) which are all active [especially camorra and 'ndrangheta] and whose actions have direct impact (negative) on our economy and on our society. Actually mafias are one of the main reasons we’re currently economically fucked up, and if I start talking about how mafia culture keeps some areas literally backwards I could talk about it for three months.

There are still people who are killed for standing up against them. These days the most prominent personality is Roberto Saviano who is a writer who dared to put together a book documenting minutely the way camorra works and he’s been living under protection for years by this point. Like, they want him dead because he wrote a book. And I’m sorta sure that he was talking about leaving Italy and going to the US after years of sticking with it here because he can’t take it anymore but I don’t know if it was a taken decision or if it’s still debating it.

It wasn’t even thirty years ago that we had the stragi di mafia - in english it’d be something like the mafia slaughters, basically around the beginning of the nineties there were a number of bombs planted by the mafia targeting people who were trying to oppose it including judges Falcone and Borsellino, actually the anniversary of Falcone’s death is like... tomorrow. And they’ve killed people for way longer than that. Here is a list of only Cosa Nostra victims including the ones from the eighties/nineties. And people are still dying because of it. The slaughters I’m referring to are just the ones in the nineties which are enough of a number.

They also perpetuate a culture where if you testify against your mafia-employed relatives you’ll be shunned forever. There are women who testified against their families and couldn’t see their children anymore never mind that they weren’t automatically considered a relative anymore the moment they sided against the mafia. Some people have committed suicide after becoming witnesses also because our police force/justice system can be terribly non-supportive in this kind of situation so they got left on their own. Never mind that back in the day - it was the beginning of the nineties? - I recall at least a particular story of - I think, correct me if I remember wrong but I can’t remember the names for the life of me - where this guy testified against the local mafia when he either used to work for them or was forced to pay them the pizzo and in retaliation his six-year old (or five? Anyway he had a son younger than ten for sure) got kidnapped, killed and thrown into acid to dispose of the body. That happened in what, 1993? 1994? It’s pretty much yesterday. And now the camorra is doing the same - there’s a list here of camorra victims among which accidental passerbys that got killed because they were in the way which I can tell just by glancing is not complete. And I’m not even going into the 'ndrangheta. That is to say, here mafia still kills people and cripples our country.

Now, I get that it’s a word, but the point was: let’s say that instead of the Italians the Japanese came to the US first and the umbrella word for organized crime was yakuza rather than mafia and let’s say yakuza was still what it was originally in Japan while in the US it stopped being a big deal and people write yakuza!AU instead of mafia AU. Let’s say someone Japanese gets angry at that and goes like 'listen the yakuza is a real deal it does this this this and that and it’s a plague in our country so can you please at least look it up before writing your fanfic’, which is what had happened way back then when this whole mafia and fanfic thing blew up. A bunch of people told us to get over it because it’s just a word and if it’s a problem in Italy it’s not in the US so why should they care? Now, if we had been Japanese (or Chinese or Russian or Mexican) would they have said the same thing? Considering the general tumblr attitude I’m pretty sure they would have received either an apology or 'this is an important deal let’s keep that in mind’ with signal boost reblogs and stuff. 

It’s the fact that we should get over people not knowing that it’s still a real problem for us and that they can’t take five seconds to google it that is the problem imo. Especially when instead of mafia au you can just say mobsters au or tag it as organized crime and everyone is a lot happier, mostly because as the tag above explains romanticising the mafia is a good thing for them because it means they can act outside Italy with less stigma because everyone thinks that the mafia is dead or not relevant anymore, if I’m explaining myself. (And it’s active outside Italy - like, there was a mafia kill in Germany in 2007 where six people died (sorry the link is in Italian but there isn’t an English wiki page, if you look the city up you’ll find something probably) and it was because of the 'ndrangheta.

I’d really like to not get worked over it because it meant it was a thing of the past y'know, but the problem is that it isn’t and I’d rather spread some awareness in hope some of these writers look it up (because it’s a good thing that people know what mafia is since as stated they have tendrils everywhere - if you read Saviano’s book the entire first chapter is about how camorra regularly deals with Chinese import/export in Italy for one) than shrug and figure that since they’ll think everything is good for fanfic then it’s not even worth my time.*

Now, ^^^ that was the c/p-ed reply that should answer most of your doubts. What I didn’t address was:

im sure many ppl romanticize it and i obvs dont agree with that but im just trying to udnerstand bc i believe fandoms are a way to explore things that we normally wouldnt.

aaaand as we say here in Italy, this is where the donkey falls (sorry we have weird sayings), because in theory there’s nothing wrong with that... except that in 99% of the mafia aus I’ve seen around the thing is that they’re supposed to be cute.

like, I see a lot of shit with TINY MAFIA BOSS STEVE ROGERS with RUSSIAN ENFORCER BUCKY (????? bucky isn’t even russian???) and the yoi thing I saw before had the japanese character being the leader of a russian mafia gang which is... like... guys it doesn’t happen it really doesn’t, and a lot of them re-use wrongly terminology taken from the godfather without context or knowing what the hell it means, and it’s always from the criminals’ pov and they’re somehow seen as criminals doing justice where the police can’t (???) and like... no. mafia bosses/enforcers/employees are bad people period, and at least here if you try to leave or repent they kill your family in retribution. like, not even ten years ago there’s been a woman who used to belong to a mafia family (or one colluded with the mafia) who testified and her entire town/family shunned her and she couldn’t take it anymore and... killed herself drinking acid if I don’t recall wrong. it’s not even special cases. this shit is not funny, it’s not cute, it’s not adorable and it’s not good fodder for your imagine your otp scenario (srsly I saw one like.. let me find it,

LIKE. just look at this shit. in a regular context, the enforcer goes to the show owner to force them to pay a monthly sum to their boss lest they destroy their shop and their lives and their family’s life never mind that mafia culture is deeply homophobic so the mafia enforcer flirting with the shopkeeper is like completely fucking out of the question. I mean, people here like to shit on the sopranos but that show was actually excellent representation of Horrid Criminals Who Were Never Supposed To Be Good People and the small arc that happened when one of tony’s friends turned out to be gay (closeted) was REALLY well done. btw, it ended that when they found out he was gay most of the crowd rejected him and thought badly of him until I think they killed him also for other reasons, but that spiraled from finding out he liked dick. and that’s american mafia that they actually based on well-done research of the culture in Italy it came from, I assure you that here it doesn’t work that differently. like. the shit above is so inaccurate and frankly offensive, it’s like... I get people romanticizing problematic stuff but the thing is that when you tell them that it’s actually offensive you get brushed off as ‘ah well you’re being too sensitive it’s just a word u__u’. now, I’m all for exploring shit we wouldn’t be into, but not like THAT, because that’s like mafia romantic comedy and that’s not how it works. now, you wanna do a fic where the mafia characters are deeply flawed and bad people and the police tries to catch them? fine, great, go ahead. you wanna do a fic where the enforcer above deals with dunno an entire life of internalized homophobia when he finds the shopkeeper attractive and feels conflicted over having to con money out of him and doing horrible shit for a living and maybe understanding that crime isn’t worth it and then he actually collaborates with the police and gets shit from about everyone he knows and loves for that? okay, awesome, go ahead. nothing bad in that.

but the shit above is not exploring things we wouldn’t/writing darkfic, it’s THINKING THAT A CRIMINAL ORGANIZATION WHICH IS STILL A THING IN OUR PART OF THE WORLD IS CUTE AND ADORABLE. and that only plays in their favor because it takes the bad aura out of the word and we really should not let that happen. like. that is what is bad about mafia aus and mafia discourse, that people don’t realize the mafia is alive and well and thriving and not a thing that doesn’t exist or a generic word for organized crime.

you wanna write the shit above? okay, CALL IT CRIME AU or mob au, not mafia au.

btw, add-on: idk if I mentioned it in the above post or not, but in case I didn’t, I said that people would balk at the idea of a mexican cartel au. sadly since then I’ve found out a fandom where not only there is one but it’s also extra cutesy and people apparently love it and it has a bunch of kudos/comments and idek I’m not even touching that with a ten foot pole but like... I’ve avoided it and everything that author wrote because to me it’s just... nope. like, nope. if you do mafia aus don’t make them fucking cute. (also: in the same fandom I had to mute a v. famous fanartist whose art I actually liked but did cutesy mafia aus and.. like... haahahhaahahahahaha nah sorry. can’t go there. nope.)