#posts to probably delete later

[ace-of-feathers]

not me suddenly fantasizing about kissing an irl friend

[froggerland]

"One morning this sadness will fossilize / and I will forget how to cry"

This song snippet has been stuck in my head all afternoon and compelled me to draw nedward trying to hold everything together while crozier is in rehab (yeah I'm on a ambient candle lighting kick I can't help it)

I need to step up my steven universe tears game but here's a version of him crying <3

(+ short vent/rant about my relationship to "sopping wet kitten Edward Little" bc my mind won't won't let me rest)

I kinda hate feeding the "wet sopping loser Edward Little" agenda (I've seen so many posts criticizing how some parts of the fandom oversimplify him and his character and boil him down to "useless pathetic wet cat who cant do anything right" and a part of me is scared that I've been (perceived to be) part of that bc I've produced my fair share of "nedward looking pathetic" art but I get that he's more complex than that!!! He is stuck in a situation that ANYONE would crumble in, his superior is an alcoholic who treats him like an errands boy but hes bound by the chain of command. Much more eloquent ppl have pointed out his wins and accomplishments on and off screen. Also I haven't seen anyone mentioning this but I think a lot of it is also just mcnultys looks. Those big brown eyes and eyelashes, the lips.. He can look sooooo pathetic and sad and beaten up on a level not many actors can imo. Anyways I hope this will shut the voices (in my head) up and won't cause any drama plssss)

(That being said tho I still love the memes don't get me wrong. Also yeah he's just fun to draw like this (sad/wet/pathetic))

[captainpricespuppyboyfriend]

Me

[haveyoureadthisbook-poll]

Question: is it worth it to start beef with someone on their goodreads review bc it reads kinda homophobic?

[missusruin]

Selling leftover pin stock from this year's patreon member merch-tier for anyone interested. 👁👁👁👁👁

https://missusruin.bigcartel.com/product/eye-pin

[icantdothistodaybruh]

I love tiktok so much

SO much

[franollie]

if dee just went to a lesbian bar and got super wasted she’d have 20 year old gay girls hanging all over her begging her to ruin their lives

[lalasimmer]

Played around with babies for a minute, wonder would anyone ever really care for baby cc considering they're only babies for 2 days and I'm wasting my time 😭 but eh whatever it was fun and frustrating at the same time (the clothes anyway and resizing the head cause I always felt like the babies heads were too big for the body😅 and changing the face a little cause I always thought all babies looked the same no matter what) I'll maybe keep converting some hairs and share those though.

[thebibliosphere]

Whenever I get a particularly nasty message, I always check to see if they're following me first. Nine times out of ten, they're not. But they're also, unfortunately, the same people who feel entitled to send me multiple messages in a row, most of them heavily steeped in the language of moralization and purity.

Like whenever I talk about painkillers or pain management, I always get a handful of well-meaning people who are maybe new to my blog or are just young, asking me if I've tried diet/exercise/meditation, etc.

Sometimes I'll respond to them. Other times I'll just ignore them because I get those kinds of messages so often it's like white noise, and maybe part of me hopes if they stick around on my blog, they'll learn it through exposure via my incessant bitching.

When you see me responding to someone offering that kind of advice, it's either because I'm at my fucking limit or because I'm hoping it's a teachable moment and an otherwise seemingly nice person might unlearn some harmful biases.

The people who don't follow me are not interested in any kind of conversation on the subject. They do, however, feel the most qualified to tell me, someone they didn't know existed until one of my posts crossed their dash, how to manage my life, everything I'm doing wrong, and why I'm a bad person.

And for them, my disability is proof that I am a bad person because they view health as a moral issue.

If you're sick, it's because you don't exercise enough, don't eat the right foods, don't pray enough, don't do enough. They genuinely believe that if they say and do all the right things, like a Good Person, they'll never get sick.

It's their security blanket against the harsh reality that anyone is one bad day away from disability. One faulty gene, one bad infection, one bad accident away from a life-long diagnosis. And if they do get sick, it's a test. A challenge to be overcome with Willpower as they learn the True Meaning of Life.

It can never just be a simple fact of life that sickness happens. That disability exists without a moral reason.

And it's suffocating.

Day in, day out. Folks who don't know me from fucking Eve telling me I'm being punished. Not always as outright as that. They don't always use that word. But sometimes I appreciate it when they do because at least then they're being honest. They're not couching it in the softer language of leftist circles. Not hiding it behind concern.

Because the truth is, there are just as many folks who think they're liberal and enlightened who'd be happy if disabled people just stopped existing. They don't like thinking about us because it makes them think about themselves. About their own fragility and mortality, and they hate that. They hate that there's something they can't control with their thoughts and actions. That they can't moralize their way out of.

Honestly, it's a relief when people are just cunts about it because I can hit the block button, safe in the knowledge that they were never the kind of person who would see me as a person. But when it's some 20yo kid with their pronouns, orientation, and "ACAB" in their profile spouting the same kind of moralization, sometimes even with the language of eugenics, it feels like such a betrayal. Like a loss.

And perhaps if I wasn't multiply disabled, I'd have the energy to pull them back. To tell them why they're wrong and hope like hell they realize what they're doing is harmful. But then, if I wasn't disabled, they wouldn't be messaging me, so I wouldn't be dealing with it.

I wouldn't be expected to use my existence as a teachable moment to spoon-feed them compassion. But I am, and I do. When I can. Not always with the grace that's warranted. Not always with the thought and compassion I ought to. (And I don't; I acknowledge that. I'm prone to anger and off-the-cuff remarks that are hurtful too. Though I try to keep most of it to myself or save it for therapy.)

Basically, if you've made it this far through the TED talk, don't be fucking cunts to disabled people. Don't tell chronically ill people to try yoga. Don't moralize pain relief. Suffering is not noble.

You need to kill the cop and the priest in your head telling you otherwise.

And also if you're the nice people sending me nice messages. Thank you. It helps cushion all of *gestures* this.

[unforth]

*writes a long rant about Tiktok conspiracy theories*

*deletes it and tries again*

It's antisemitic to insist that Tiktok solely went down because of issues related to Palestine. Netanyahu, Israel, Jews, zionists, whatever term people have settled on to denote ~the bad Jews~ none have the power to do that and there are a ton of reasons Tiktok got banned. Jews don't control the US, the media, the internet, or whatever other repackaged antisemitism some leftists have decided is okay today. Stop it. Shut up. It's antisemitic.

Signed, an anti-zionist Jew who is about to start blocking people who say this shit

[suja-janee]

I don’t really take them too seriously but here’s (almost) all my kny ocs that aren’t fan children of the hashira or any of the main cast.

I know kny takes place during the taisho period in Japan so most of my characters being of mixed race makes little sense but the way I see it, if Mitsuri can have pink and green hair or practically half of the hashira have blue/ purple highlights in their hair- then there’s no issue making them mixed 🤷‍♀️

I dunno, I think some folks on insta take this too seriously

[softaestluv]

I wasn’t going to post this because I really don’t want to be negative or unprofessional, but I keep getting comments and anon asks like this, so I just wanted to preface. I can promise you that if you comment under a post or submit an ask and complain about something I’ve wrote or a concept you didn’t like that I will not change it on your behalf just bc it’s “boring”, not smutty enough, not angsty enough, not how you wanted it to play out, or you simply just didn’t like it.

At the end of the day everything is fictional. Fanfiction written about fictional characters for free. None of it is real. And unless you put in a request (even then I pick the concepts I want to write about) I’m writing for me, improvement, my preferences, ideas, and my enjoyment and fun to share with the fandom.

You’re free to scroll by, unfollow me, or block me, but a rude comment isn’t going to do anything but get yourself blocked. There are plenty other works out there that WILL meet you fancy, other authors that WILL write deeply painful fics or dabble into more dead dove concepts than I do or literally anything you’re upset I didn’t do. But that’s not me! Your comment won’t make me change that.

If your opinion is so strong that you have to make a rude comment, great! I’m glad you’re passionate, write your own fic about it then!

Thank you!

[unrelatedsideblog]

I think Sanji would feel a lot better if he started buying himself plushies of sea critters.

Like he would start with that IKEA shark but then his bedroom has multiple, mostly anatomically correct (as much as possible) plushies. Different sharks, smaller fishes, crabs, lobsters, maybe some big ass octopus or squid or even plesiosaur or mosasaur or nautilus and so on.

[kawareo]

"I knew a guy with wild opinions, i'm going to share them cause they were so insane that they were funny"

A bunch of people who have never met anyone ever, apparently:

Also damn, viral on tumblr.com. Definitely something everyone wants and is useful and is in no way an annoying and kinda shitty thing to happen to you

[pali-and-proud]

Hey, Fast-passers!!

I know it's still pretty early, but just wanted to say thank you guys for being so good about spoilers so far <3<3 While I know some people did struggle a little, it's so nice to see other fast passers respectfully and politely ask for spoilers to be removed or to warn non-fast passers about dangerous ground.

Also, ya'll have been absolutely amazing about encouraging theories and speculations for things you definitely already know about. It's genuinely those little things that create the "safe space" that a lot of people enjoy about this fandom.

Lots of love, fast-passers <3 You guys are doing amazing and please keep doing amazing until our favorite victorian child graces us with the single best name reveal in media history and burdens us with the knowledge you carry

[collophora]

Never found any valid crossover with theses, have just my two big guys fav characters side by side