Just got consensually manhandled for the better part of the evening, and oh boy, I don't know what to say. They're like over a foot taller than me, and also weigh double my weight so they were flexing, and I mean really flexing. Carried me up 3 flights of stairs, picked me up like I weigh nothing, fireman's lift, lift like a sack of potatoes. Wow. I don't know how to process all this, I've dated guys with the same build before but never this has happened, yeah I'm just baffled and you reassure people so well. I think I liked all that, but I'm having a hard time processing it because it also means they can hurt me very easily, not that they've done anything like that, but I try to be cautious. I think I wasn't enjoying it as much in the beginning because it's a completely new thing, but as it went on, it was good. I'm just a very repressed person so I always seek out external insight to make sure I'm not ignoring any beige or red flags. They were also complimenting everything about me, not just physical features but my personality. I feel like it was all lies though, also it's interracial, so hopefully I'm not ignoring any racism. Holy fuck, I'm about to lose my mind.
(I promise I'm not trying to be gross, it was just making out nothing else, I know you are very sex positive but also it'd be fuckinv weird of me to just be like, "I had sex!" so I feel the need to clarify)
cncwkejojncwncwoudnvousn anon, first of all you’re living my dream!
secondly, i’m so happy for you and so proud of you for letting yourself explore and feel and give it a chance <333333333333
there’s only ever two questions you have to ask yourself:
1. do i feel safe with this person?
2. do they make me happy?
if yes to both then whatever happens, just enjoy it <3 even if it is a little scary (big fan of the do it scared movement)
thirdly, re compliments: when you give compliments to others, are you lying? likely not 👁️👁️ i don’t think they would be lying either. and you seem lovely and wonderful and i can’t imagine they would give you multiple, seemingly meaningful compliments they don’t even believe.
wishing you and them all the happiest and most comfortable and wildest ;) times MWAH!
p.s. you defs weren’t gross. thank you for feeling safe and comfortable enough with me (and my blog) to share your stories.