#putting no rbs just so this doesn't leave my blog

[inchidentally]

Ngl little bit sad that you're becoming kinda negative on here. I miss when you used to post those super cool thoughtful discussions and analyses, without the need to trash talk or bash on other ships.

(just to say, I'd normally post something like this behind a cut and I promise I always will in future. it just feels like today in particular is a good moment to state a few of these points. I'm not normally this serious lol I just want to kind of mitigate any more drama.)

I've always posted about wanting rpf to be kept out of the drivers' and teams' public spaces and I've always said it's stupid/unnecessary drama when fans of certain fictional ships get genuinely loudly "competitive" over other fictional ships and I've really always been against people hating on the girlfriends who get caught in the crossfire of the fans who truly believe their two drivers are in a secret gay relationship. it's how I've always personally felt and apart from it being my opinion (which is fair for my blog) I also feel like having even a smidgen of traction on my posts means I can potentially prevent landoscar going down the road of certain ships that have fans who've fully crossed over into aggressive/publicly disturbing territory. and who've been doing so for years and only gotten worse.

hell, I've even always openly hated when Lando's individual content gets taken over by people bringing up Carlos or Daniel or even sometimes Oscar or Max F. the man has a life beyond all of those friendships and he very much deserves for his content to sometimes stay just about him. only people like his family or Jon/Lando's team of 10+ years deserve any significant share of credit for Lando's successes but no one's bothering to bring them up in the comments etc.

also, it's still very early days for landoscar as a ship and we have at least two more years of Lando and Oscar as teammates (fairly likely more) so if we can keep out the element of fans who take rpf into widely public spaces/directly to the people involved, then I'm going to continue to occasionally post about it. those types of fans absolutely hate reality intruding and they hate real life partners even more so I'm absolutely going to post about reality and girlfriends regularly. even apart from the fact that I'd feel weird excluding girlfriends, there's a solid reason to do so.

especially when even apart from rpf, the girlfriends always get shit from people who want the guy for themselves or who have decided they get a say in who he dates. I'm not going to pretend like all of that doesn't happen just to avoid all negativity.

as far as the tricky/controversial asks I get, I always put them fully under a cut and tag appropriately so they're incredibly easy to skip. I also batch them up so one of those posts happens maybe once every couple weeks - if that. my content has always been massively on the side of fun content vs anything drama/wank related.

the one thing I will say is that I'm getting a lot of repeat anons about ship drama that I would otherwise not hear about (I rarely look at twitter and my tumblr dash is lovely and tidy with just a few things blacklisted) so I'm going to write one sort of roundup post to cover any more of those and not answer any more. I'm just repeating myself atp.

I also went on my first ever blocking spree in this fandom today when a post I'd rb had a bunch of ragey hardcore rpf people jump onto it and I also blacklisted a few more things. so that's the last I'm personally ever going to see of that drama myself. I still casually ship carland0 and dand0 as well and a whole lot of us are nothing to do with the people publicly pushing shippy shit or doing the whole - god I cannot believe this still happens - 'my rpf ship is real and yours isn't'. they're also the people who call all girlfriends "escorts" and "beards" so they're easy to identify.

one last thing anon is that I hear you but I've got to mention I delete a LOT of borderline hate asks and I leave a fair amount of trolls frothing by refusing to respond to their asks. so I'm very much always trying to keep the content on my blog free of useless drama or negativity.

[juiceofmoons]

💛🧡 milestone: just passed 1,000 followers! 🧡💛

it still doesn't feel real but thank you so soo much for enjoying my content enough to follow <3333 I made my first moodboard almost a year ago today so I find it crazy how much this blog has grown since then 🤍

:･ﾟ✧:･.☽˚｡･ﾟ✧:･.::･ﾟ✧:･.☽˚｡･ﾟ✧:･.:

To show my appreciation, I wanted to do something for this milestone so I have a few ideas so please request something below if you'd like 🥰

mb: dm me a skz pic and i'll make a mb! or just send me a req idm I love mbs

mb: choose a colour from the colour generator and i'll base an mb around it

gifs/gfx: make me choose (anything skz related eg mv, performance, era, album)

:･ﾟ✧:･.☽˚｡･ﾟ✧:･.::･ﾟ✧:･.☽˚｡･ﾟ✧:･.:

I would also like to mention the following people below who make my time in stayblr so enjoyable whether it be leaving nice comments on my posts or me being in awe of your work orrr me loving the tags you leave on rbs <33 🧡💛I also want to say that I recently made a wall of text 🤗 and I put a little activity there lmao

@15lix @acrobaticcatfeline @agibbangs @atinystraykid @babycatlix @bangzchan @blueprintchan @boba-skz @changbeens @chanstopher @chanrizard @chewysan @euphhorias @geniaparadox @haenglixie @holocenestatelines @hyunebear @hyunfected @hwan-g @j-0ne25 @jeonginny @jerirose @jinniebit @luvrli @minchanz @minzbins @nymeriaaa @shmalll @sstarryoong ⋆｡° ✮@sunnishine @sulfurcosmos @svintsandghosts @ughbehavior @zeroze @yonglixx

and also to the mb babes <33 @missyedits @snug-gyu @ggthydrangea @winterfloral I love our chats even tho I have been a bit busy atm and my timezone is a nightmare :(( but I am so glad I have met you and you're all so talented!! ✧˖°. also missy <33 my first stayblr friend <33 I can't believe it has been almost a year since we started talking ilu good luck with uni <33

also shout out to @seokmingming ⋆｡˚ ( ˘ ³˘)♥︎ gunwook tunnel vision besties <33333

sorry if I have missed anyone <33 pls know I love you and I just have a bad memory with urls :((

[mutt-victim]

Bug. 23. He/They. Traggot. Switch. Verse. Creepy crawlie little freak. Stay a while and get off to my trauma? His buttercup and favourite boy. 🔪

Send Me Praise | Anonymously Say Anything

CW: Hard Kinks. Dark Fantasies, art, writing, and roleplay involving violent topics. I'm gonna call myself a transexual furfag and talk abt rape and incest, plz leave if you can't handle that.♡

DNI: Minors. Racists, Homophobes, Transphobes, and Bigots in general. Kinklist and bio under read more.

Was victimmentality/whorror-film but I had to remake. Might be on better behaviour this time. Maybe.

This is a sideblog.

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Yes Please:

🔪 knifeplay, bloodplay, gore, whump, scarring and bruising, necro, snuff🩸

🔗 kidnapping, cnc, somno, dubcon, stockholm syndrome, rapeplay 🕸

🚬 stalking, yandere, obsession, forced intox, being recorded, blackmail 💌

🧼 ddlb/ddlg, ageplay, fauxcest, size diference, corrupting innocence 🧸

🐶 yiff, monsters + paranormals, petplay, hucow, breeding/pregnancy 🥛

🩷 misgendering, feminization, forced regression, hypno, mindbreaking 🩰

💞 humiliation, power exchange, pegging & anal play, gentle domming 🐻

⚕️ emeto/vom, omo, pissplay, praise + degradation, starvation & more 🫗

No Thanks:

scat. racial degradation/race play. most master/slave dynamics. military/police/governmental roleplay and uniforms. feedism. misgendering with detransition in mind. assigning me any sort of "mommy" title. gags, especially ball gags. impersonal, strictly transactional or businesslike kink environments and dynamics with contracts, etc.

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About me:

Tattooed, pierced, edgy alt guy. Total scenester. 5'6, pale, freckled, dark scruffy hair, and I'm kinda squishy. I'm practically the femboy doomer wojak! :3 as far as hobbies, I love taking photos, cooking for people, reading and writing poetry, modding my silly old games all to hell, experimenting with makeup, jamming out to music, thrifting, playin on my n64 and eating sushi. ♡ I also crave being fucked within an inch of my life, I live to please, and I absolutely love sharing my trauma for creeps online to ask intrusive questions about and sexualize what I went through. Who doesn't want their own whiny emo attention whore puppyfriend?~

Most often I come to this blog when I'm in a horrific lovedrunk masochistic mood, but feel free to keep in mind that I am both a switch and verse, as is my partner. There's the ever-present threat of my switchy brain going brrr and my posts being more service-top and body worship centered, gentle daddydom ish, or rather sadistic ♡ I welcome all kinds of interaction from all kinds of kinksters, so long as your age is in your bio and is over 18

♡♡♡ Being friends won't just pop out of nowhere, my dms are open~

For transparency's sake, I'm transmasc. I am out and very proud of my identity. Please don't try to win me over with any talk putting down men, and please don't rb me to "men dni" blogs. I have a cunt, and am rather large-chested, and I don't mind what words you use to refer to these parts of me. Clit, dick. pussy, hole. tits, chest. I don't mind ♡ Though please understand: I do struggle with dysphoria, so patience is appreciated in regards to misgen kinks etc...

[whydamnitwhy]

Hey!! Ik ur otdiaftg blog doesn't get many likes and RB's unless its a big plot point, but it is so special to me, because sometimes I open the blog and think oh!! Neils doing this rn!!! And I feel like I should get up and do my own things, so thankyou <3 idrk how to put this but I'll just leave this here

Thaaaaaank you! You're so sweet!

Honestly, I started the blog for me as:

1. See if I could keep up with a big project like this *crossing fingers still* and

2. To see what Neil was going through this year.

Not to be That Sap™️, but when I first read the books it brought so much of my own life in perspective (not in a my life can't be as bad as Neil's) but in a "People Struggle" but if you find something to fight for the "Struggle Is Worth It". And Neil shows that with every Speech Class and Midnight Practice he goes to for me :).

It was an added bonus that so many people seem to also want to be involved in his life, post responses be damned :3.

[leavingautumn13]

I SEE YOUR RB ABT ASKING ABT OCS SO I WILL ASK >:D

What’s the toughest case Nora ever took as a lawyer? Has she ever wanted to quit after defending someone bad/or losing as case on the offence?

What’s she proudest of? What‘s CONSTANTLY on her mind? Did her favourite sweater survive the bombs? What’s her opinion on Sentry Bots or Assaultrons? WHATS SHE THINK OF FATHER?? (and does she ever think about technically being the grandmother of all synths?)

Lots of questions but I am curious!

aaaa thank you! i'm always happy to talk about nora!! (i also talk a lot about her and do ask games and such over on my fanfic blog; here's her tag!) under the cut for length because i am longwinded

oh man, nora wants to quit being a lawyer all the time but sticks it out because she feels its a moral duty. if she wasn't a lawyer, i think she'd own a greenhouse or go to school for art history, but she really struggles with letting herself relax, or feeling like she's allowed to relax/do things she enjoys. i'm gonna keep a lid on the reason why, but it'll eventually get explained in this fic i'm writing. (which i am sooo close to posting chapter 1 of!)

nora most often wants to quit after losing defense cases. prison is a punishment and not rehabilitation, help with bad circumstances, etc, and since she's a public defender most of her clients are struggling poor folks who can't afford an expensive lawyer. she tries very hard to be a servant of the common people.

she actually did prosecution for a little while but quit because she didn't vibe with it at all. in my fic the prewar legal system is skewed heavily in favor of the prosecution, and juries are pressured to convict, even in cases where there's reasonable doubt, no motive, etc. nora doesn't like feeling like a weapon of the state used to punish its own people, so she walks away.

as for tough cases: i'm still ironing this out for the fic, but i wanted to expand on the corsino case mentioned in the scrapped sanctuary hills terminal. in the end, nora never gets to see it finished because of the war, and that weighs on her.

nora tries to be proud of making it through law school, because it was a struggle for her, but she has difficulty being proud of herself (her husband does a pretty good job of being proud for her, though). deacon talks her into being proud of the work she does for the railroad, even though it never feels like she's done enough.

unfortunately nora sometimes spirals in her thoughts, and one thing in particular is often on her mind: that she should have carried shaun that morning. fic snippet here, tw for graphic violence, suicidal ideation, and general bad brain stuff. she has a very unhealthy relationship with her perception of her actions that day, and it eats away at her.

her favorite sweater did not survive the bombs; none of her clothes or personal items did (save for the holotape from codsworth and her and her husband's wedding rings). she misses her wool peacoat immensely. mama murphy does knit her a grey sweater that she wears pretty frequently, though.

oh god, assaultrons and sentry bots both scare the hell out of her. her first gunshot wound is actually courtesy of a sentry bot she and her companions accidentally activated. she gets clipped in the upper arm and it leaves a nasty scar and puts her out of commission for a few weeks while it heals. [here's a fic snippet of just after she gets shot, and another where she's got cabin fever and disassembled nick's office (under the "anger" heading). tw for blood and injury in the first link!]

that obviously is a pretty awful first introduction to sentries. she tries very hard to avoid fighting them when possible. she feels the same about assaultrons. nora's main advantage in combat is her speed and stealthiness, and she really hates having to fight things that are faster than she is and can find her. (she likes kleo a lot, though, and considers her a friend.)

oh, father. god. okay he's a huge part of why i'm even writing this fic in the first place. nora genuinely loves him and tries her best to convince him to change his plans and... it doesn't work. she's just another experiment to him and whether he cares for her or is lying to string her along is unclear, but she loves him and so she can't let go. it's an emotionally abusive relationship on father's part, and part of nora recognizes this but... that's her baby, y'know? as awful as he is she can't help but love him.

how she resolves this is uh, spoilers, sorry. it's one of my favorite moments in the fic, though.

she soundly rejects the idea of being a grandparent to the synths. she does consider many of them family (danse, x6, and shaun in particular), but in a found-family way like she considers her postwar human friends family. i talk a little about it in this post, but to sum up, she thinks father's take on it is very paternalistic, especially given that he doesn't see synths as people. biological relation doesn't mean very much to her.

tysm for the ask!! <3 i could talk about her all day

[cockneydio]

I actually don’t follow either of you or know anything about jojo, this person just showed up on my dashboard and upon opening this (25 yr old’s) blog the first thing I see is a huge post demanding everyone block a list of people. I believe people should be allowed to know if someone is talking about them, but it sounds like you were already aware. sorry!

I started to put this n the tags of my rb but said fuck it, but.. There are people in the world who don't like you and that's OK? it serves no one to be informed of individual people's dislike of you...bc they're always going to exist. "I believe people should be allowed to know if someone is talking about them" like please reexamine that sentiment and why you want to/think you should play the role of informant, and what purpose any of it serves except to create stress and conflict.

Clearly it bothers you that that person (25 yrs old) has this list, so maybe you should take it up with them directly. But it doesn't bother me, so please leave me out of it.

[violynsolo]

seeing some of my arcanetwt friends confused by tumblr so here are 10 tips, hopefully i can explain them in a succinct way that is specifically relevant for you all!

follow blogs and tags to see posts! eventually tumblr will accurately recommend things you like and show them on your for you page/"try these posts" on the explore page but i usually just scroll my dash.

you can sort your dash by most recent or recommended, but unlike twitter you aren't going to see other people's likes or replies on your dash, just posts and reblogs.

people love getting asks! (as long as they're nice!) asks are basically built in curiouscat. you can turn anon off if you want or turn asks off altogether but they can be a good way to spark a conversation/discussion.

people treat tags kinda like qrts! most people will throw their personal opinions about a post in the tags, because unlike hashtags you can use spaces and some punctuation. i rarely put my thoughts in a reblog unless i feel like it adds to the content of the post in some way/continues the discussion. basically if you just want to share your opinions put them in the tags but if you definitely want ppl to see what you're saying put them in a rb (either way people can look through the notes to read all the tags too)

on that topic, once your post has been reblogged it CANNOT BE DELETED! you can delete the original post off your blog but any rb is essentially a copy. it's not gonna disappear like on twitter. you can edit your posts on tumblr, but rbs that happened before the edit will not change. (this is why you'll sometimes see a deactivated blog's addition in the reblogs of a post)

you can private your likes and following list! honestly i recommend doing this, i think a lot of unnecessary twitter drama comes from those features being public but on tumblr no one knows how many followers you have but you and you don't have to share who you follow either. (keep in mind that privating your likes only hides the likes page from your blog, it doesn't hide your like in the notes of a post)

tumblr's tagging system is actually pretty great (whenever the search function decides to work lmao), you can tag a post by #gif, #art, #video, etc. so you can search your blog for it later. unlike twitter tumblr is shit when it comes to searching specific phrases, like it just refuses to work and i have no idea why, so i recommend this!

while tags technically do show up like hashtags in site wide searches, people very commonly come up with tagging systems just for their blog, like ways to reference posts to find them later, this is not really how people use tags on twt but it's common and useful here.

you can queue posts! if you don't want to spam you can schedule a post to be sent out at a certain time, or just leave your queue to post them in intervals throughout the day. people usually come up with a personal tag for their queue (often a pun where the word "queue" is replacing something) so their followers know they aren't actually active and the post was scheduled.

finally, and oops this ended up being long, tumblr posts have a ton of formatting features that make them a lot more like blog posts, feel free to play around! for the people who are really into blog design you can also actually edit the html of your blog's desktop site and fully code the page how you want (or just pick a premade theme)

happy blogging and don't hesitate to ask me any questions!

[here2bbtstrash]

SO YOU’RE TELLING ME I COULD’VE BEEN SOMEHOW REPAYING ALL THIS EXQUISITE GOLDEN LIFE-RUINING FIVE STAR ASS CONTENT by reblogging😭😭😭😭😭 I feel like an ungrateful spoiled child (even though you said you don’t mind) 😭😭😭 I don’t even understand tumblr and I have like 10 followers???? Still, be prepared everyone bc YOU’LL BE HEARING FROM MY RANTING🤭 honestly I thought rb was like another way of commenting?? Am I already old to the point where I don’t understand apps??

I love praising authors for the hard work they do writing beautiful stuff for us so this is such god news to meee I CAN ACTUALLY HELP THEM🥲🥲🥲💜💜💜💜

LOLLLLL JAZ!!!! you can respond to things in whatever way your heart desires!!! it genuinely doesn't matter to me and you are the furthest thing from ungrateful so DO NOT EVEN 💀

but YES, the technical way this trash site works is that reblogs help boost engagement! however many followers you have, whether it's just 1 or 1 million, when you reblog something, it will show up on all of their dashes, thus spreading it that much further. so if any of your followers don't follow me, they'd see my post and perhaps be intrigued enough to check the series out, because of youuuuu~ it's like commenting but with a much further reach than just leaving a comment/ask, because you're also sharing the original post!

but it's seriously whatever you feel comfortable with 🫠 i love receiving feedback via asks as well, or comments, or however you prefer to do it 💜 i know some people don't like to actually put anything on their blog and just prefer to comment and message, and that's totally fine by me! real life is hard enough like why do we need rules on "the right way" to use tumblr ya know 🤣

ANYWAY i love you and i love that you care so much about making sure authors feel appreciated 🥺 it's so encouraging and i can tell you from authors everywhere that it really does mean the world.... 💜

[nazukisser]

I posted 2,786 times in 2022

That's 2,650 more posts than 2021!

1,306 posts created (47%)

1,480 posts reblogged (53%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@nazukisser

@lisxdumbr

@lilikags

@runanadwiddles

@nikikyuuun

I tagged 2,762 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#qian rbs - 1,375 posts

#srb - 934 posts

#qian talks - 680 posts

#qian answers - 444 posts

#enstars - 176 posts

#ensemble stars - 157 posts

#enstars x reader - 149 posts

#ensemble stars x reader - 118 posts

#enstars x you - 115 posts

#enstars x y/n - 110 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#first quiz i did gave me arashi the queen herself <33 but then the next one said eichi and i was like fuck no and then i took another one a

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

୨୧ 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐘𝐎𝐔

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266 notes - Posted May 27, 2022

#4

SYNOPSIS | aira getting an idol!s/o

PAIRING | shiratori aira x gn!reader

TAGS | fluff, drabble, request

REQUEST STATUS | regular reqs & matchups closed. event reqs open if there are slots left.

NOTES | from the shuffle x scribble event {status :: open} also! combined two requests (aira w idol!s/o and aira finding out an idol is also a big fan of his)

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282 notes - Posted July 25, 2022

#3

┊❝ their love languages

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371 notes - Posted July 7, 2022

#2

* ˚ ✦ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒

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409 notes - Posted April 18, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

ARE YOU STARVED FOR CONTENT?

Do you need more content of your favorite character(s)? Are you always going to writers/artists' inboxes and requesting more of it because you feel like there won't ever be enough content?

Here is a guide on how to encourage writers/artists/graphics creators and other content creators to continue their amazing work.

don't just like our posts, reblog it. tumblr doesn't have an algorithm that suggests posts that people liked on others' dashboards. the only way the posts are going to circulate around and actually reach people who want to see it is when you reblog it for your followers to see. that's how we keep this place alive.

comment on our works! tell them how you felt when you saw it/read it. what kind of thoughts did you have? what were you doing? keysmash only? that's amazing, we love that. any words. "i love (character) so much" or "aojfossfiasjo help" or "I really love this work aaaa" or "bitch you're going to make me cry /pos" are all great. bonus points if you tell us in detail about what you liked about our works!!! like "I really like this phrase here..." or "the symbolism you used is really fitting for (character) because..." we don't just put work out there and say "hey this is amazing everyone should read it mwahaha" no we hope that you genuinely enjoy reading it and hope that we make someone's day. sometimes our confidence goes down in our writing and makes us want to stop but when we see such heartwarming comments, it really helps us with our self esteem.

be nice when you request!! don't just say "(character) + (prompt)" and press send. Say Hi! Say thanks! Where are your manners? Please don't act like you're my best friend who I talk to every day at the lunch table and joke around with- because I don't know you. Congratulate us on milestones if we have one going on. Because that goes a long way in making us feel appreciated in our works. We don't like feeling our work is being not appreciated and when the tags are dry it's going to be the fault of those who never supported their content creators.

INTERACT WITH US !! I cannot stress this enough. We are humans too, we want to be treated like humans, not some sort of authoritative figure or some account that puts out content every so often. We are human, we like interactions, we want to be appreciated not only for our works but also for ourselves. It's fine not to be our best friend or whatever, but one of the reasons people leave this site is because nobody talks to them. we are not some sort of business where you present an order and we give our content out and it just continues. we are humans, we are people, and we do this for free, so at least make it a pleasant experience to be on here.

728 notes - Posted April 21, 2022

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[x3rrorx]

I know no one cares about my thoughts on this, but I've been reading all the crap going on and just want too put my thoughts out there...

First, I 100% agree with you all these girls are complete wackos and needs to log off and seek professional help!

Second, I truly don't see how anyone can feel bad for RB. Noah didn't string her along, she strung her damn self along. She lowkey hoped Noah was going to change his mind and return the same feelings she had for him back to her. She did that to herself. No matter how she tries to spin it, that lands on you girl not Noah!!! Piece of advice girl, that can really help if you see this.."always remember, IF HE WANTED TO, HE WOULD" and it damn well won't take him 15 years to figure it out. Accept that you allowed all of this to go on, let it go, forget about him and move on!

Third, you will not convince me that MG didn't start all this sh!t because she is trying to get Noah's attention. She knows how private he is and she knows that he won't ever combat her publicly on the internet. If he was going to say anything, he would do it behind the scenes and to her that just opens the door to try and sneak her way back into his life. Again girl, accept that he didn't want anything more from you, and you along with RB probably thought you could change his mind and he would return the same feelings one day. Again, not on Noah, that's on you! You created these scenarios in your head all on your own. You also need to just log off and go touch some grass or something.

Lastly, J. People need to stop giving her grace because she's "18". In the eyes of the law you are an adult. I'm an adult, you are an adult, doesn't matter the number, both are adults and if you want act up and do dumb shit, be prepared to reap the repercussions like and adult and own it, don't try and back petal. People will have more respect for you when you just admit you fucked up and it's done. I think she's loving the attention good or bad, People are talking about her and I think her insecurities are thriving from this. I thinks she's truly convinced herself that if she is friends with ANYBODY who has ever even looked Noah on the eyes brings her closer to him. That's really sad, an low key scary. I also believe that one of the reasons, she's attached herself to Noah's to past flings ( I refuse to call them "Ex's" because they aren't every worthy of that title, if you never called him your Boyfriend. You don't get to call yourself his EX) is because i think she secretly hopes that someone who doesn't know much about the situation will assume that she is also one of his "past flings" and that is absolutely psychotic.

They all need help. They all need to leave Noah, his band, and his fans alone. You don't look cute, you don't get sympathy because everything that happened you allowed and you don't get to blame that one on Noah. And if your plans were to ruin his reputation with his fans, I actually love him even more now than I did before this, so you couldn't even succeed at that.

Sorry so long, but love the blog 🖤

[docheros]

OOH and how about DapperAnti with 🩹 (tending to each other's wounds), 💀 (saying goodbye to dying lover), and 😭 (unrequited love)?

i went full Álvares de Azevedo on this one

WARNING: mentions of dubcon, suicide and necrophilia. yeah. but nothing is in detail here i prommy 😘

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Jameson sat back on the couch. That was one hell of a day.

But a good hell.

He looked back at the body. So relaxed, so calm, so angelic. As if he was only sleeping. An eternal sleep.

He licked his smiling lips, remembering everything that happened. Him finding Anti in a dark alley, tending to his wounds after bringing him home, having sex with him and then hearing the screams of a mad, traumatized man. It was like a perfect imitation of Heaven.

And, when he found the boy with his wrists slit, in the middle of a blood puddle. Jameson just sighed.

"Why are you doing this? You know I love you."

— How... can you... love me? You met me... yesterday...

"But I still love you," he crouched down, next to his head, "we were made for each other."

— You're... you're a sick man. I hate you.

And nothing more came. JJ just kissed his cold lips and tended to his wounds again.

He could do a statue of Anti, to eternalize his beauty. And while the statue were being made, he'd put him on a glass coffin, under his bed. It'd be perfect.

Jameson sighed again, undoing his belt.

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i woke up today and chose violence

also idk how long you can still be conscious when you slit your wrists but anyways

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With You Masterpost

Alllllllllll the Ida and Oren things!

Premise: Ida managed to escape Oren years ago, but you can't outrun love for long. We are going full-on yandere for this boy. Very whiplash, much scare, yes pain. All the conflicting feelings and reconditioning in this one.

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Please check individual trigger warnings at the beginning of each chapter (constants are non/dub con kiss and domestic abuse).

MAIN STORY:

Part 1: Rumors of My Death Have Been Greatly Exaggerated Nameless (whumptober piece that started it all), but Ida is enjoying their newfound life in recovery when Oren finds them again.

Part 2: Home Oren brings Ida back home. Let's pretend its a good experience.

Part 3: My Name Oren isn't super thrilled Ida forgot about him so long. He thinks of an appropriate punishment to make sure they never forget him again.

Part 4: Something True Pain tolerance? Never heard of her. Let's build our own via branding. Why are you looking at me like that? It builds character.

Part 5: Aftercare With Oren Yandere who? Torturer what? No. You're crazy. Only soft bois here. You just need some sleep. You'll feel better in the morning.

Part 6: Waking Oren is just really happy to be waking up to Ida. Nothing creepy at all going on here. He's got to clear his schedule to get some new locks today though. Not that he needs them, but...just in case.

Part 7: Sense Oren leaves Ida alone so he can go shopping. Ida...should not be left alone right now.

Part 8: Dust to Dust Ida cleans a lot. Ida cries. Also a lot.

Part 9: Unforgettable Should this be in the prequel chapters list? Maybe. But I'm not putting it there. This is how Ida and Oren met. Much angst, such wow.

Part 10: Tomorrow Ida is tired. Just let them rest, don't judge them for falling into conditioning.

Part 11: Penelope All the false metaphors and dubcon comfort here. Ida's dissociated from the panic attack, and drifting through thoughts and life, just listening to Oren read.

Part 12: Back to Basics Ida is still a little dissociated. It's easy to fall back into old habits when you're this tired.

Part 13: Piano Man Someone new comes to the house. Is Ida brave enough to beg for help, or will they be a good little dove and stay quiet-?

Part 14: Back To Your Roots Oren doesn't like Ida's hair. Oren fixes that. Of course it's traumatic, this is a whump blog.

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PREQUEL CHAPTERS:

Part A: You Always Win

Oren and Ida flirt and are a generally cute couple in every way you can imagine. Except...you know...for the pretty much everything.

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Ida ref sheet by @meowsikbox!

Shittily drawn visual of Oren's house

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[blueprint-han]

Dawn, what a masterpiece you have crafted with Silver Rose. I wish you could have seen me reading it live and just the amount of times my face scrunched up and I felt like bawling and sobbing like a baby, because this hurt me so much and I'm going to need some time to emotionally recover from the rollercoaster of a ride this was.

I don't have my laptop rn and can't rb smh, so I'm just going to tell you my thoughts here and then do that some time later okay. be warned. uh.... long, very long rant ahead, because I took this fic personally and would like to thank you but also spew out some profanity because holy SHIT THIS WAS TERRIBLY PAINFUL

wait uhh a SPOILER FOR SILVER ROSE AHEAD!!

where do I even start? from the beginning even, you established this very heavy, very dark atmosphere that like, made me feel like wherever this story was going, it wouldn't end up good and like, yeah that was the dread speaking I think oh gods uhh my thoughts will probably not make sense but bare with me

I can't even come close to imagine the pain jeongin must have been feeling all throughout this and you just described his emotions so fucking well and wow it, just reading it made me so emotional and teary and so reading him just beating himself up over and over and over inside just broke me oh man

and his guilt for "not loving" reader is just, that line in the beginning broke me because IT WASNT TRUE!! YOU DID LOVE HER, JEONGIN!! but it wasn't the same way as reader and he realised it and allowed himself to love her in that way much too late- what I'm trying to say is, he loved her so so so much, but it wasn't romantically, but that doesn't lessen the value any less because cmon man, he cares for reader so much????

"Could Jeongin ever forgive himself?"

NO MAN WTF ALL THE WAY INTO THE ENDING IT JUST PAINED ME BECAUSE EVEN AFTER YEARS AND YEARS HE STILL COULDNT oh dear i-

the reason reader was suffering was all technically because of him, it all led back to him and just imagining the sheer amount of guilt he was facing and it killed me inside when you wrote how even he was shrinking down and sick with worry and everything but the when jeongin finally confessed in that garden, the days after that, he started to get better while reader started to worsen???

the first moment I actually felt so emotionally stricken by was when he told reader to not leave him and that was when I finally cried and it ACHED

and something about the reader saying "One last time" and the fact that she couldn't even get to finish the sentence and struggled… the way jeongin knew that and felt like dropping to his knees and just sobbing his heart out, yet again, right then and there… it hurt

and the contrast between ↓

the parallels are so amazing and heartbreaking

the moment in the garden scene where reader tell jeongin "I love you" directly, it just hurt my heart to read about Jeongin's dams just bursting and him breaking down in tears just from those three words, because reader was dying for that exact same reason, because she loved him is just… my heart reached out for him even though this was just a fictional story

and jeongin begging reader to not hold him back and to let him just…. to just love you

the way reader notices the year streaks on his face after cleaning the bloodied bowl, the time when reader says that she would rather die, knowing that jeongin loved you, instead of just living in that numbness, AND THEN YOU HAD TO HIT US EITH "but he knows he hasn't faced the worst part yet." like, HOW MUCH MORE WRONG COULD THIS GO????

much worse apparently.

him dragging out some time to stay with reader longer before she died because he was still so so so scared of letting reader go?? my heart?? does not properly function anymore??? pain??

there was this thought that I had while reading the silver rose part.

the rose signified a pain, a beautiful pain, right? I just found it so sad, that the meaning was so different to a silver lining. silver linings represent something good amidst the dark and dreary clouds, yet this silver rose just brought so much pain and… fuck you, rose. I won't look at flowers the same way again.

the second time I had to put down my phone and just weep for a moment was near the end, when jeongin finay visits her grave and tells her that he would make her proud, that he would not let her be forgotten. it brought me a feeling of closure, and I felt so fucking bittersweet. THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME, DAWN. WTH.

MY POINT IS, I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE A LEGEND FOR WRITING THIS ROLLERCOASTER OF A JOURNEY

okay I actually hate Tumblr because I answered this ask and Tumblr just crashed so I have to write it out again zmzhzj

🥺😭❣️ oh my gosh, this is going to make me cry. Your words have definitely made me feel very happy, and your excitement and analysis of the story is making me feel KAKDJLDNSKIS on the inside thank u so much vera :((((

NOOOO I DIDN'T WANNA RUIN ROSES FOR U 😭😂 but your analogy of the silver linings and roses is an interesting thought! I hadn't thought of it that way but now that you've told me it makes sense! It's such a good way to think of the symbolism and 😭🥺😭🥺 you've just made my whole day and your words carry a special place in my heart.

ALSO SKSJSKJS THE PARALLELS THING WERE ONE OF MY FAV LINES FROM THE WHOLE THING!!

Also I had to give these two butterflies closure or my heart wouldn't have let me live in peace ;-; it is very bittersweet and ngl it made me cry when I wrote it smxbxkxn

KSMSKJSKSJ I am no where near a legend dear but just because it's you I will accept that title 🥺😭❣️ and thank YOU for writing me this ask ;-;

ps if u wanna rb the fic via mobile, u can go to my blog and you'll see some self Reblogs of the fic below the pinned post, and u can rb them! Tumblr won't crash when u do that that's how I've been self reblogging them via mobile zjzjzmjzh </3