A Disaster From The Start
Ransom One Shot
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I have to apologize now because no one wanted or asked for this. My brain truly never shuts up, and this the one the one shot I said was coming MONTHS ago. I don’t know why I’m like this, but I hope you all enjoy it! This is SO much longer than it should’ve ever been, but I there’s just so much I couldn’t leave out. Thank you so much to @maroonsunrise83 for this amazing moodboard!! I am so in love with it!! Without further ado, here's the novel y’all never asked for and I hope you all enjoy!!
Word Count: 31,694 ( I AM SO SORRY ABOUT THIS)
Warnings: 18+, MINORS DNI (I WILL PERSONALLY CALL YOUR PARENTS), smut, public sex, swearing, drinking, smoking, cheating, drama, angst, heartbreak, arguing, anger, Daddy kink, crying (so much crying), dub-con, unprotected sex, lying, family drama...I’m sure I missed something, enjoy it though!
Song(s) That Inspired This Chapter:
Heart Shaped Box - Nirvana
Trouble Sleeping - Corine Bailey Rae
Used To Like Neon Trees
Wild Side - Normani
Far More - The Honorary Title
He Can Only Hold Her - Amy Winehouse
Summary: Ransom was just supposed to be a good time; nothing more and nothing less, but when he becomes the painful center of your universe and heart...how do you stop?
I do not consent to gave any of my works/stories posted elsewhere.
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You sit on your bed and read your book, while the Nirvana’s ‘Heart-Shaped Box’ offers you a much welcomed background noise. You can barely focus but you’ll do literally anything to forget that he’s in your parent’s mansion. It had almost been two years since you two have been fucking and sneaking around and you hate yourself for it. You didn’t even want it initially, and now it feels impossible to stop. When you let yourself be honest with yourself (and only yourself), you know he’s the reason you come home for Winter and Summer break.
Your dad works for wealthy business people and helps them keep their finances in order, which is how you ended up meeting him in first place. Your father had worked so well with Harlan over the years that he recommended your father to Linda.
Insert Ransom Drysdale.
You weren’t surprised that he and your father hit it off so well; they’re the same type of scum bag. Sure, your father loves you, but he’s barely ever around, parties way too much for a man of his age, and cheats on your mother whenever he gets bored (which is more often than not). Your mother? She has a steady cocktail of pills and alcohol to keep her numb and able to at least stay upright. Yes, Ransom fit perfectly into the life your father had created for himself, which meant you wanted to stay as far away from him as possible.
However, it was a disaster from the start. The moment your father first introduced him to you two Springs ago at one of his business parties, you should’ve been able to tell that it would all go downhill.
“There you are, Sweetheart!” your father exclaimed as he saw you making your way around the pool.
“Yes, here I am and now I’m leaving,” you replied, annoyed.
As usual, a majority of his friends, clients, and coworkers were ogling you and making it very known that they were imagining doing filthy things to you.
“What? No! The party is in full swing!”
“I know, mom is in a trance having a wonderful time. You two enjoy, I’m leaving.”
“Well, where are you going?”
“Out.”
“Out where?”
“Out with a friend. Can you not? I’m not a fucking child.”
“Then stop acting like one and tell me where you’re going!”
“Jesus Christ! I’m going out with Sam!” you exclaimed, finally losing your patience.
“I fucking hate that girl.”
“Which is exactly why I didn’t want to tell you. I’ll see you later.”
“You can’t stay longer? You’re only gonna be home for a few more days and I want-”
“Well you should’ve thought about that before you decided to have one of your parties. This party was your idea, with your friends, your clients, and your associates. All of whom I hate. So yeah, I’m leaving.”
“You like Harlan,” your father pointed out, a small smile on his face as if he were proving a point.
“Well, he isn’t here, now is he?” you sighed, crossing your arms. You hated when he did this shit.
“He’s not but his grandson is. Y/N, meet-”
“I know all about Hugh Drysdale,” you muttered, looking over the painfully attractive Playboy asshole. He had fucked a few of your friends and treated them like complete shit. Plus, it wasn’t lost on you that your father was spending all his free time with him, doing God knows what. “I’m not impressed if that’s what you were trying to do. I’m going and I’ll be back later,” you simply dismissed before walking away as your father opened his mouth to say something.
Ransom stayed exactly where he was, smug smirk tugging at his lips, so you had no choice to brush against him as you walked by. You rolled your eyes before looking over the hedges and seeing that your Jeep was blocked in. “Can you tell whichever one of your dickhead buddies that owns the Beamer to move it? It’s blocking me in,” you asked your father, turning to face him once you were on the top step to get back inside.
“That’s my Beamer,” Ransom smiled coyly.
“Great for you. Get it out of my way,” you smiled sarcastically before going inside.
You should’ve known then. That was the moment he decided to make you his prey. He wanted you because you wanted absolutely nothing to do with him and Ransom loved a challenge. Especially if the challenge was a beautiful young woman.
He was still at your parent’s mansion when you got back that night.
You parked your Jeep and said a silent prayer of thanks to whoever was listening. You never drink and drive, but you weren’t aware of just how drunk you were until it was too late. Once you were out, you took a out a cigarette and leaned against your truck before lighting it. You weren’t a serious smoker, but you always had a burning desire for one when you were hammered.
“Those things will kill you, ya know,” a voice came from the shadows.
You turned to see Ransom approaching you, his own cigarette in hand, and scoffed. “You’re one to talk. All the shit you and my dad put in your bodies. It’s a wonder the both of you aren’t dead now. Especially him,” you slur a little.
“Is that why you hate me? You think I’m bad influence on your dad? The one who’s older?”
“I don’t hate you, I just want nothing to do with you. Also, I know you’re not influencing him, but it’s not like you’re helping him.”
“You say you don’t hate me, but it’s not like you were the most welcoming when we first met.”
“I have a feeling you’ll be just fine.”
“Go out with me,” he all but ordered you and you had to laugh. “What?”
“Why the fuck would I go out with you? Why should I go out with you?”
“Can’t hurt anything. You’ll get free food and mind blowing sex-”
“I’m sorry,” laughed “what the hell makes you think I’ll be fucking you?”
“Because you want to fuck me and I wanna fuck you.”
“Yeah, I’m not drunk enough for that shit, Drysdale.”
“Who said you’d be drunk?”
“Uh huh, as entertaining as this conversation hasn’t been,” you chuckled before taking a final drag of your cigarette and putting it out “I’m going inside.”
“Go out with me,” he repeated, annoyance making an appearance.
“Go home,” you laughed, making your way up the steps.
“Y/N-”
“The answer is no, Ransom. I’m not gonna be another notch in your bedpost that you treat like shit and shit talk about to all your friends. Now go on, you’re starting to be creepy.”
“You’ll see,” he smirked before turning and getting into his Beamer.
It’s not like he was wrong. You did wanna fuck him, but your pride and working brain wouldn’t allow it. Ransom was bad news and you had no need to put yourself through any of that. You had seen all the pain your friends had gone through and you weren’t about to sign yourself up for any of that.
You should’ve listened that night, but of course you didn’t. Because why would you? Why wouldn’t you believe that he would be bold enough to go after you? A majority of the guys your father works with or is friends with feel the same way, but they’d never be that stupid.
But Ransom was different.
For starters, he was bold enough to bring it up. Also, unbeknownst to you, he had been watching for a while. You’re the only reason he started hanging out with your father. He saw you a while back, you had just started university not too long ago, and he knew from the moment he saw you that he needed to be inside you. Him fucking your friends? That was just something to hold him over until the time was right.
After the talk you two had that night, Ransom found a way to be at your parent’s place almost every day until you left again. Waiting, watching, and planning.
If you had known what was in store for the both of you, you would’ve tried harder to stay away from him.
“What are you doing here?” Ransom asked, walking up to you in the nightclub you were trying to lose yourself in. You didn’t miss the way his eyes roamed over you, drinking in your curves.
“The same thing you are. I’m trying to get laid,” you responded nonchalantly, taking a sip of your drink.
“How many of those have you had?”
“What are you? The fucking police?”
“Hey Sweetheart, I’m just looking out for you. Your father is right over there,” he smirked, nodding in the other direction.
You look over to see him all over a woman who can’t be much older than you, in fact, she’s probably younger than you. “For fucks sake, can’t he just stay home with my mother just once?”
“You can’t say you’re all that surprised.”
“Doesn’t stop it from making it all that much more disappointing and pathetic,” you muttered, downing the rest of your drink.
“Let’s get you home.”
“What? No!”
“The chances of you getting laid now are slim to none cause you’re just gonna find an issue with every guy who approaches you. I’ve been around you long enough,” he stated matter-of-factly.
You hated that he was right. Whenever you were mad at your father, you were angry with all men. “I can take myself home.”
“Yeah I know, but you look hot as fuck and I don’t want you getting in some random guy’s car.”
“Since when do you give a fuck?”
“Since I’m pretty sure your father sees me over here and will kill me if anything happens to you,” he smirked, once again pointing to your father who had his full attention on the both of you.
“Christ on a bike-great, he’s coming over. I should’ve just stayed inside like I planned.”
“And then I would’ve missed this,” he smirked as your father approached the two of you.
“Sunshine, what are you-?”
“Save it, I’m going home,” you muttered, grabbing your purse.
“It’s not what it looks like-”
“It’s exactly what it looks like,” you interrupted, rolling your eyes. “You can’t play this shit off cause you’ve been caught in the fucking act. Just let it go. Ransom, I’ll be waiting for you outside. If you’re not there in 5 minutes, I’m getting a car service,” you huffed before making your way out.
Ransom was out in 2 minutes.
“Thanks for setting me up like that,” he snapped.
“You’re the one who offered me a ride home,” you shrugged.
“Come on, smart-ass.”
The car ride was mainly quiet, with you looking out the window. You didn’t recognize the way Ransom was taking you, but you didn’t think anything of it.
“You really shouldn’t give a fuck about what your parents do,” Ransom finally said, turning onto some dark street.
“No offense, but I think I’ll take advice on family from literally anyone other than you.”
“Ah, but you should be taking advice on family from me. Cause from one fucked up child to another, it’s stupid to get worked up over people who can’t see their faults and won’t change.”
“It seems to be that you’re encouraging my father’s toxic behavior, so why should I listen to you?”
“He’s an adult, Y/N. The choices he makes are his own, I merely encourage him to have his fun when it covers my own bad habits.”
“Of course,” you dryly laughed as he pulled into the driveway of a house you had never seen before. “What the fuck?”
“We’re gonna have some fun of our own tonight,” he stated simply, shutting off his car.
“This isn’t funny, Ransom. Take me home.”
“So what? You can wait for your whore of a father to come home? You can take care of your drugged up mother? We both need to clearly blow off some steam-”
“What I decide to do is my choice!” you quickly snap. “Take me home, now!”
“No, I’m going to fuck you until you’re completely ruined. I’m gonna fuck you and you’re gonna love it, because I know you’ve been dreaming of it.”
“Fuck you!” you yell, getting out of car and slamming the door shut. Who the fuck did he think he was? You made it maybe four steps before his arm was around your waist and he pulled you close to him. “Ransom, I swear to God that I will scream bloody murder until-”
“Scream as loud as you want, Doll. There’s no one for miles around,” he smirked against your ear, before grinding himself against you so you could feel his hard on, on your ass. “All of this is just getting me worked up, baby. You decide how you want it to go.”
“I’ll tell the cops-”
“Tell them what? That you were bouncing up and down on my cock all night? Begging me to fill your pussy with my cum? Go ahead, I’m sure they’d love to hear it,” he practically growled against your ear before taking a quick nip at it. “You’re not as coy as you think you are. I’ve seen you watching me, the way you bite your lip when you’ve had too much to drink and you see me talking to your dad. I know you’ve fantasized about me fucking you into daybreak. Wishing I was fucking you instead of your friends, haven’t you?” he questioned, hiking your dress up a little bit before running his hand lightly along the inside of your thigh. You couldn’t stop the moan that left your mouth. “Oh? Sounds like someone’s changing her tune?”
“Fuck you,” you spat, still trying to resist him.
“What’s the harm, Y/N? We both get we want out of this.”
“So you can run and tell your friends about how you finally fucked me? So I can be the new “bitch in heat” they shit talk? No thanks!”
“Can’t talk to my friends without your dad hearing, now can I?” he questioned as his hand slid down your panties. “Give in. We can fight this all night, but we both know what the end result will be.”
Two fingers applied pressure to your clit and a whimper escaped your lips. “Ransom...stop!”
“No,” he growled “I’ve been patient enough and you’ve kept up this stupid little charade long enough. Give in to what we both want.”
“I don’t want this,” you protested as your eyes shut and you leaned back into him.
“Your pussy is letting me know you’re lying, Princess.”
“Fuck,” your whimpered softly.
Somewhere in the middle of you debating whether to give into him or knee him in the balls, he removed his fingers and pinned you against his car, before forcing your legs around his waist. “This will stay just between us, Princess,” he husked out, lips only a few inches from yours.
And just like that, you crumbled. Maybe it was because you had wanted to fuck him for a while, or maybe it was the alcohol running through your system, but no matter how terrible he treated your friends, they all agreed that he was the best fuck they’d ever had. Maybe it was because part of you wanted your dad to find out, so he’d be so furious he’d never want to see Ransom, which meant you’d never have to see him again. Or maybe you really just needed to get fucked, seeing as it had been while. Like you told him earlier that night: it was the only reason you came out that night.
Somehow, he had gotten to the front door of his house and unlocked it almost instantly, quickly pinning you against it before slamming it shut. You kicked off your shoes as he toed his own off, leading you both upstairs. When the both of you reached his room, he put down and quickly broke away, untying the little bow that was keeping your upper half covered, exposing yourself to him.
“Fuck,” he moaned “knew you were gorgeous under those clothes, but...fuck.”
“Strip, now,” you breathlessly commanded, unstrapping the lower half of your dress, completely naked in front of him.
“That’s your underwear?” he questioned, looking at the slim and flimsy black material that barely concealed you from him, a small smile played on his lips as he quickly stepped out of his own pants and boxers.
“I told you my plan for tonight. Did you think I was joking?”
“Oh no,” he chuckled “just from what I heard-”
“Let me guess, Tommy mouthed off?”
“He said you don’t do blowjobs.”
“No, I didn’t give him a blowjob. One trick pony minute-men don’t deserve blowjobs.”
“And me?” he questioned, stroking himself in his hand.
“A big cock doesn’t mean you deserve a blowjob, honey,” you laughed, biting your lip. He was definitely bigger than you imagined.
Ransom quickly ripped his shirt off and threw it to the ground, before laying back on the bed, “get up here, Princess.”
You wasted no time climbing up his body, before reversing your position on his face so you were looking down at his cock while you positioned yourself on his face. Almost instantly, he had an arm wrapped around your waist and was pulling you down on his mouth, loving how you fought against him for relief.
“Fuck!” you moan, his tongue assaulting your clit as you placed your hands on his stomach, grinding yourself against him. “Shit Ransom!” you mewled, digging your nails deep into his thighs.
Ransom placed one of his hands between thighs and let his fingers replace his tongue, and used it to fuck you. You clenched your eyes shut, letting yourself forget how much you hated Ransom and everything he represented. He could get you off so easily and it had you believing that he did have the right to be such a dick to everyone.
In a matter of moments, he had you pawing at the bed, yelling his name as your release washed over you. When you were able to get yourself together (which was almost impossible because he wouldn’t let up), you stroked him a few times before taking him into your mouth. That earned a hard smack on the ass. As Ransom’s pace started to quicken, so did yours. For reasons you couldn’t understand at the time, you wanted him to cum hard your mouth. You needed it. However, Ransom wasn’t about to let you get your way.
He smacked your ass hard again, before loosening his grip. The whine that left your mouth made him chuckle. He laid back on the bed, fucking you with two fingers, before removing them and sliding them into your ass. “Ransom!” you hissed, getting your mouth off of him almost instantly.
“Gonna have to kidnap you again, Princess,” he taunted, fucking your ass faster, “I definitely want my cock inside this perfect ass.”
“You better take what you want tonight, Ransom,” you growled as you sat up “this won’t be happening again.”
“Sure Princess, whatever you say,” he chuckled, and you could tell there was a smug smile on his face. “Get this wet cunt on my cock, now,” he commanded.
You were too blissed out to say anything smug back.
You quickly changed your position him, settling yourself right above his cock. You stroked him a few times before finally sinking yourself down on him. You both let out a moan at that.
“I knew you would be a good little whore for me,” he smirked as you placed both your hands on his chest, slowly grinding down on him as you tried to get used to the way he stretched out your walls. He really was as big as your friends described.
“Fucking bastard,” you muttered, looking him in the eyes as you started to pick up the pace.
“Yeah, but I’m the fucking bastard who’s gonna destroy this little pussy, aren’t I?” he moaned, taking your face in his hands. When you didn’t answer, he slapped you, hard. “Fucking answer me!”
“Yes! Fuck, yes!” you mewled, getting closer and closer to release and started riding him as fast you could. His cock easily reach that spot deep inside you that had you coming undone for him. “Asshole!”
“That’s right baby, bring yourself off on my cock. I want this perfect little pussy to explode all over me,” he grunted, gripping your hips and starting to upthrust, hard.
“Fuck, fuck, FUCK! RIGHT THERE RANSOM!” you screamed, hitting your orgasm so hard you could’ve sworn you saw stars for a moment.
Ransom was kind enough to give a moment to get yourself, and you thought it a shame that, that would be the only time you’d experience him. If Ransom wasn’t...well, Ransom, you would’ve been more than happy to sleep over. Happy to have him over and over again. However, the fact remained that you had just in fact fucked Ransom, and you needed to leave before he got the wrong idea.
When you started to get off of him, Ransom quickly placed his hands on your thighs and gripped them tightly. “Where the fuck do you think you’re going?”
“Home,” you sighed, too tired and in no mood to argue.
“Oh sweetie, you think you can just get yourself off and leave? That’s a little fucking selfish, don’t you think?” he questioned, slowly staring to upthrust again while still holding you in place.
“I need to get home-”
“Sorry, that’s not how this works. I’m gonna fuck you until I’m sick of you,” he grinned darkly, starting to pick up his pace. “Besides,” he chuckled breathlessly, “you’re the one who told me to take what I wanted, and Sweetheart, I’m just getting started.”
Ransom fucked you until you were both exhausted that night. Fucking you in each whole, before tying you up and watching you whimper and beg underneath him, only cumming deep inside you when he saw your wrists starting to darken from the ropes as you pulled against them, desperately needing to get your hands on any part of him.
You didn’t even remember falling asleep, but when you woke up, Ransom wasn’t in bed. You ordered a car service and quickly got yourself together. When you heard the horn honk outside, you made your way downstairs hoping to leave without seeing Ransom. However, he was standing in his study, shirtless (you truly hated how gorgeous he was), and on the phone. He gave you a quick nod and you awkwardly made your way out.
And that was the end of it....at least, that was supposed to be the end of it.
Two days later you received a text from a number you didn’t recognize.
‘Come over.’
‘Who is this?’
‘The owner of the cock you were bouncing up and down on two nights ago.’
‘Go away, Ransom’
‘Aw, don’t be cruel. From the way you were screaming and begging, I thought you had a great time.’
‘I did and now it’s over. I told you it was a one time only deal’
‘You actually meant that?’
‘Yes? Why would I...one and done, Ransom. Bye.’
‘Not bye, come over.’
‘What part of what I just said confused you?’
‘Come over here or I’m coming to you.’
‘What the hell? You can’t come over here! Just go out and screw some girl in a bar.’
‘I did and I’m not satisfied. Haven’t been satisfied since I was inside you...every part of you’
That instantly had your pussy throbbing with desperation. ‘Well, that sounds tragic. Goodbye Ransom’
‘Again, get your tight ass over here, or I’m coming over there’
‘This conversation is over.’
‘See you in 15, make sure you’re wearing nothing.’
Ransom was at your parents place in 10 minutes and decided to climb up the trellis to your room. You barely got a chance to shout at him before his mouth and hands were on you. Resisting him was pointless because your body betrayed you at every chance, because it missed him. The reactions he could get out of you, the choked cries he made escape from your mouth, the way he controlled you...all of it.
So, that’s when you decided to give in and just fuck him for the rest of the summer, because why not? You needed the release and Ransom was desperate to give it to you. You both had a clear understanding that it was just sex. He’d leave your place as soon as it was over and you were more than happy to leave his place when all was said and done.
It was just to take the edge off from dealing with your parents. Every midday hookup, desperate plea for him destroy you, your need to have him fill up some part of you that desperately needed to feel something other than frustration and anger...it was just to take the edge off.
Which is why when you returned to University for the Fall semester, you left a week early. You needed time away from everyone and school was the perfect opportunity for that.
Everything was fine for the first month, maybe 2 months, before there was a...shift.
‘What are you doing tonight?’
‘Go away, Ransom’
‘You know you miss me.’
‘IF I miss anything, it’s the sex. You are a still a complete and total dick.’
‘Be that as it may, you miss my dick and I miss your cunt...and ass. Leave school and come over.’
‘You are so pretty and so stupid at the same time. It honestly amazes me how you’ve made it this far in life. Even with the money.’
‘Because of pretty little broads like you’
‘Since you’re trying to get sex out of me, maybe you shouldn’t insult me? Just a thought.’
‘How is that an insult?’
‘I’m nothing like the girls you lie to at bars.’
‘Sure honey’
‘Goodnight’
‘Don’t be like that, come over. I’ll apologize with my tongue and make you feel special.’
‘Make sure to order a car service when you get too fucked up tonight’
‘See you in 50 minutes, Sweetie’
‘You CAN’T come here!’
‘Why not?’
‘Maybe because you fucked half my friends and they all hate you? Also, I take I school very seriously. I don’t need you fucking that up for me’
‘I don’t wanna fuck up your school life, just you’
‘You can’t come here’
‘See you soon’
You should’ve turned him away that night. You should have ended it there, but the fucking stress...for better or worse, Ransom was your stress reliever, even though he also caused you a great amount of it. You decide that the first time you let him come to your dorm was when the problem really started.
“Ransom,” you moaned as he started biting and sucking on your sweet spot “you need to leave.”
“You know, you always tell me to leave,” he smirked, sitting up and taking off his shirt before throwing it across the small room “but we both know that you need this as much as I do,” he smirked.
Arrogant fuck.
“Fuck,” you sighed, running your hands over his expansive chest. It really wasn’t fair that someone so awful was that gorgeous.
“That’s right, baby. Stop-ugh, fuck!” he groaned as your phone went off. The only reason he groaned was because you almost instantly went to reach for it.
“Be quiet,” you snapped before answering it “hello?”
“Please tell me you’re not committed to studying tonight,” Sam whined on the other end of your phone.
“That’s exactly what I plan on doing,” you laughed as you swatted Ransom’s hand away from your breasts. He scowled at you and raised an eyebrow.
“The Jimmy’s are playing-”
“You know I hate that band,” you whined, swatting Ransom’s hand away again, which resulted in him rolling his eyes and getting off the bed. He had learned the hard way that when you told him to wait, you meant for him to wait until you gave the all clear. He went home with blue balls that night. So, to kill time, he decided to start looking around your dorm.
“I know but I’m your absolute best friend, so you should go with me to a shitty little bar to watch them.”
“Ya know, instead of putting up with their shitty music, you should just tell their drummer that you wanna go on a date with him.”
“No, he needs to come to me.”
“What? Why?”
“So that way I won’t get rejected!”
“You’re an idiot,” you chuckled, as you watched Ransom look over your drawings and family pictures. That wasn’t sitting well with you.
“Just come with me, you don’t come out anymore!”
“Yeah, cause I have homework, which you should do also by the way.”
“Yeah yeah, you and your stupid law degree which makes no sense, cause you don’t even have interest in it.”
“It’s complicated.”
“Whatever, please come out tonight?”
“How about tomorrow night? I have don’t have classes on Friday.”
“You promise?”
“Yes, I promise. We’ll even go dancing after, if you want.”
“Fuck yes! I’m holding you to that, so you better put on something sexy!”
“I don’t have anything sexy,” you snorted, causing Ransom to turn his full attention to you and cock an eyebrow. You couldn’t help but laugh and smile at that.
“Bullshit! Wear something good or I’ll take personal offense! I’ll let you get back to studying though, I love you!”
“I love you too, babe. Have fun and get your man tonight!”
“Blah blah blah! Bye!” she laughed before hanging up.
“You don’t have anything sexy to wear, huh?” Ransom questioned almost instantly once you put your phone down.
“Don’t you worry about that.”
“Why not? I was going to come and see you tomorrow.”
“You’re gonna fuck me tonight, why come tomorrow?”
“To fuck you again?”
“You’re an idiot,” you laughed, shaking your head. “What? You’re gonna drive 50 minutes each night to fuck me?”
“Don’t go and get a huge fucking ego. Not every night, but more nights than not.”
“I’m having a hard time believing that I’m the only good pussy you can find.”
“You don’t complain, you don’t linger after, you clearly don’t need or want anything from me, and you’re wild. God, you’re so fucking wild,” he smirked mischievously. “So, why go without perfect sex if I don’t have to?”
“Fair point,” you sighed, laying back and watching him look around. “What are you doing?”
“You’re the one who decided to answer your phone.”
“Someone’s pissy that the world doesn’t revolve him and his dick.”
“Not pissy, just found something to keep me occupied while you appease others,” he shrugged. Liar. “Don’t worry, I’ll keep your secret from him,” Ransom smirked, holding up a photo of you with a man not much older than you.
“My brother? I would hope so, cause he wouldn’t be too pleased to find out,” you scoffed, getting up and making yourself a drink.
“Brother?”
“Read the tone of that shelf, Ransom. You see pictures of me with my parents, grandparents, baby pictures of me with my parents and the same guy makes an appearance in a handful of them. He’s my brother, John.”
“Your dad never says anything about him and he talks about you a lot. He literally never shuts up about you.”
“Because I’m the stupid one,” you muttered before taking a sip of your whiskey. “He and my dad don’t get along, never really have. He comes by once in a while, but keeps his distance,” you finish, ignoring the pang of pain and irritation that last statement made you feel.
“The smart one.”
“Bingo,” you smiled at him.
“Well, that’s enough of that,” he smirked, putting the picture and sauntering over to you. “You really going out tomorrow?” he asked lowly, towering over you as you stood by your computer desk.
“T-that’s what I said,” you stuttered out, your eyes fluttering shut as he slid his hand down your sweatpants.
“I’ll find you and fuck you there, saves us both some time,” he whispered huskily, rubbing over the thin material that was covering your throbbing clit. It always amazed you how quickly he could make you desperate for him. “You’re a college woman going dancing. I know exactly where you’ll be he smirked, gently pulling them down.
“Anything specific you want me to wear?” you questioned, tugging at the hem of his shirt.
“You already know what I want you to wear, gonna have to force myself not rip it off you,” growled, hoisting you up and wrapping your legs around him. “So fucking sexy.”
He pounded into relentlessly that night, like he wanted to prove a point. Wanted you to remember that he was the only one who could truly satisfy you. You were almost asleep when he called your name.
“Where can I get one of these pictures? Linda’s birthday is coming up and I know I’ll never hear the end of it if I don’t get her something. This is something she’d actually like, which means she’ll leave me the fuck alone for at least a month.”
“Just take it. I’ll make another one at some point. I always do,” you all but mumbled, pulling your blanket around you tighter.
“You made this?”
“I made every picture you see in that pile.”
“But you’re working towards a law degree? What the fuck?”
“It’s complicated,” you stated simply, before finally succumbing to sleep.
When you met up with Sam the next night, you found that she had invited Tiffany. An acquaintance you were nice enough to, but never let too close. When you saw Ransom later that night, to your true and total surprise, you saw him getting extremely friendly with Tiffany. You tried to not let it bother you (because why should it bother you), and dance the night away with Sam. You could tell he was watching you, but you refused to give him the satisfaction. When you turned around again, he was being led to the bathroom by Tiffany and it didn’t take a genius to figure out what that meant.
That’s the first time you felt it.
Jealousy.
However, you just took it as irritation, because who wouldn’t be?
It’s not like you had forgotten the type of man that he was, but still. You were the whole reason he came out anyway. You wore the stupid outfit he liked, bought new sexy lingerie, and he very obviously fucked someone else. So, you decided that payback was the appropriate course of action.
You waited until you saw him come out of the bathroom (it was rather quick compared to the time he spent pulling you apart), and found the hottest guy you could. Quickly, you made your way over to him and pulled him onto the dance floor with you, grinding against him and wrapping your arms around his neck. The poor guy was quick to do whatever you wanted, placing his hands on your hips and keeping you close to him. When his breath was on your neck, you felt a pair of eyes on you. His eyes. A small smirked played on your lips as you pulled the innocent stranger impossibly closer.
Ransom’s eyes never left you and when you briefly made eye contact with him, you could see the anger burning in them, and you smiled to yourself.
It’s what he deserved.
You smirked seductively at him before turning around and telling the guy that you wanted to take him back to your dorm, and he was more than happy to leave with you. Ransom eyes stayed on you until you two were out of the club.
You of course had no intention of sleeping with the poor kid and the minute car service pulled up to your campus, you pretended that you were gonna be sick and ran out before he even had a chance to offer help.
You weren’t surprised when Ransom showed up at your dorm hours later, banging on your door and demanding you let him in. Your response? Turning up your music louder and dancing while you drank whiskey straight from the bottle. If he wasn’t even going to pretend to respect your time, why would you respect him at all?
Neither of you said a word to each other for two weeks.
Ransom was the one who cracked first.
RD: Are you done being mad at me?
Y/N: Are you done being a dickhead?
RD: No.
Y/N: Welp.
RD: Jesus, it’s not like we’re fucking dating, Y/N.
Y/N: No shit, dumbass. However, YOU asked me to meet you there. If I wanted to be a second choice, I would’ve taken longer to get ready.
RD: You obviously weren’t my second choice, I just wanted to get off. Don’t need you being pissed at me and never fucking me again.
Y/N: Yeah, cause you’re such a fucking gentleman.
RD: Just fucking get over it, okay? Come by tomorrow and I’ll make it up to you.
Y/N: No.
RD: Why the fuck not?
Y/N: Because, Drysdale, I have shit to do.
RD: The fuck you do. It’s the weekend.
Y/N: The fuck does that mean to me? I have homework and have to study. I can’t just drive to your house because you’re horny.
RD: Then bring your shit here.
Y/N: What?
RD: Study and do your bullshit here. You don’t have to miss out on anything and we can fuck.
Y/N: So I have to pack up all my shit when we’re done on Friday? Yeah no. You and your dick can wait.
RD: I said the weekend, Y/N. If you think I’m only fucking you for one night, after going weeks without, college isn’t doing much good for you.
Y/N: I’m not spending the weekend with you, Drysdale?
RD: Why not? Scared you won’t wanna leave?
Y/N: Scared you’ll try to kidnap me again is more like it.
RD: Ha ha. Get your ass here tomorrow.
Y/N: We’ll see.
Of course, in the end, you caved and packed a bag for the weekend. Yeah, you were trying to teach him a lesson, but you hadn’t done anything for 2 weeks and your body was desperate. So desperate that the moment he opened the door, you were all over him and you didn’t feel any shame.
Ransom made good on his word and spent the weekend making up for being an asshole at the club. The only time he wasn’t sending you into mind shattering orgasms was when you forced him to pump the breaks so you could study and do your homework. Though he wasn’t happy about it, he let you do what you needed to do.
“Why is this shit so important to you? It doesn’t even seem like you enjoy it all that much,” he questioned, laying down next to you in bed, naked.
“I don’t, but I love my mother so...”
“She wants you to be a fucking lawyer?”
“No, I want to be a lawyer so I can get her out of that shitty marriage with my father. Fuck him.”
“No offense sweetheart, but they’re lawyers much better than you-”
“All the ones she would think to go to are best buds with my dad. She doesn’t trust them and I don’t blame her. If she has someone she can trust, someone she knows won’t do what’s in my father’s best interest, she’ll leave him. She’ll leave him and things will be different,” you sighed softly, going over your notes from Wednesday’s lecture.
“You can do that to your dad?”
“I love my dad, but he’s a piece of shit. You can’t spend your life raising your daughter to not date scum bags, then be one yourself,” you scoffed. “He’ll hate me, but it’s worth it if I can help my mom.”
“What does your brother say?”
“My brother,” you chuckled humorlessly “he’s kind of useless in this department. He’s kind of useless in all departments, but that’s nothing new. I’ve kind of always been on my own and that’s fine. If he wants to pretend that everything isn’t fucked...then so be it.”
“If you ask me, he’s just as terrible as your dad,” Ransom responded nonchalantly before lighting a cigarette.
“What?”
“You’re his sister. His baby sister. I know I’m not the greatest when it comes to family and all that bullshit, but if I had a younger sibling, I’d do everything I could to protect them from our shitty parents. I wouldn’t just abandon them because it’s the easier choice,” he shrugged.
“I don’t think he just abandoned me. He needed to get away from all of this and-”
“Horseshit. He never came back for you, Y/N. He left, made a life for himself, became successful, and fucking left you here to clean up this mess. He knows what you were left with and he just left you here. He barely even comes around. He just cares about what works for him and his bank account. He abandoned you and is as just as shitty as your father.”
You were thoughtful before spoke. “Is that what happened between you and Harlan?”
“You could say it was similar to that,” he scoffed, before taking a long drag from his cigarette then exhaling. “He knew how shitty everything was for me in that house. I heard my grandmother beg him time and time again to at least take me with them on summer trips, but he’d always say no and tell her that Linda needed to figure it out for herself. He and Walt just fucking....it doesn’t matter,” he sighed, putting his cigarette out. “What’s done is done.”
“It doesn’t have to be, Ransom.”
“Yes it does. I’m over it and I don’t care anymore.”
“Sure,” you smirked before looking back over your notes.
“Oh? And you think you’re in some position to say anything?”
“Of course not. Why do you think I’m fucking you?” you smiled at him, and let out a soft chuckle in response.
From then on, things became more...intimate between you and Ransom. You couldn’t explain or understand the shift, and a huge part of you didn’t want to. You and Ransom were complicated enough and you had no intentions of bringing feelings into the mix.
However, you couldn’t deny that the sex was much better. So much better. The little giggles, the sweet nothings, the way your name left his lips like a silent prayer when he got you off, and the way he held you while he was deep inside of you; it was everything you’d ever wanted and more. In the time you two spent together, you let yourself forget that he was who he was and you were who you were. Another mistakes on your end, but you let yourself believe that you were still in control of your emotions and what you were feeling.
Then Christmas came.
Your parents, well your father, had decided to throw one of his famous Christmas parties, and as per usual, he invited everyone you hated. However, when you saw Ransom saunter in behind his grandfather and the rest of his father, his arm around Tiffany’s waist, you suddenly wanted the floor to cave in.
You couldn’t ignore the pain you felt in your chest, but why should you feel anything at all? Ransom was never yours.
You didn’t want him to be yours.
Ransom’s eyes landed on yours, a weak smile playing on his lips, before he turned to greet your father. All you wanted was to drive back to campus, but you couldn’t leave your mother there alone. You knew your father didn’t care about her well being, and you’d blame yourself if something happened to her. Besides, your brother usually showed up halfway through and that always helped to smooth things over.
So, you did your best to make the best of the night until he got there. You made small talk with the few people you could tolerate, kept an eye on your mother as she started on her cocktail of drinks and pills, and made sure to stay far away from Ransom. When you checked the time again, you saw that the party had been going on for over 2 hours.
Where the hell was your brother?
You pulled out your phone from the pocket of your dress and made your way to father’s study as you dialed the number. When you opened the door, you almost screamed at the sight of your father fucking Joni on his desk.
“Sunshine!” he yelled, stopping abruptly and pulling out “It’s not-”
“Fuck off!” you spat before slamming the door to your room shut.
You couldn’t stop the tears that started to fall as you finally pressed the ‘call’ button on your phone.
“Hey sis,” your brother happily answered.
“Where the fuck are you John?!” you snapped, pacing in your bedroom.
“Oh, I told mom to tell you I’m not coming this year. Why? What’s-”
“What?! No! You have to come! I can’t do this without you!” you cried, coming to a complete standstill as Ransom makes his way into your room, softly closing the door behind him.
“Y/N-”
“No!” you interrupted harshly. “I don’t ask you for shit! I don’t ask for your help with mom, I don’t vent to you about dad, I don’t ask for you to come over for my birthday...I never ask anything of you, John! The only escape I ever fucking have is when you come home for Christmas and now you’re not even doing that?!”
“I just can’t fucking do it this year, Y/N,” he sighed pathetically. “It’s too much!”
“Too much?! Too...YOU’RE NEVER HERE! Three days is too much for you?! IMAGINE WHAT IT’S LIKE TO DEAL WITH IT DAILY!”
“THAT’S BECAUSE YOU MAKE THE FUCKING CHOICE TO STAY!”
“WE ARE ALL SHE HAS!” you yelled. “WE ARE ALL OUR MOTHER HAS BECAUSE OUR FATHER DOESN’T FUCKING CARE! SHE’LL DIE WITHOUT US! WITHOUT ME!”
“Y/N-”
“No, you know what? Don’t fucking come. In fact, don’t ever come back again! You’re just as selfish as the man you hate so much!”
“Don’t be like-”
“I’m not being like anything! You’re just as fucking awful as him and I hate you! I fucking hate all of you! Go to hell!” you spat before ending the call and throwing your phone so hard across the room the screen shattered.
“Y/N, you need to calm down,” Ransom stated calmly as he stood by your nightstand.
“What the fuck do you want?!” you snapped, angry tears still streaming down your face.
“I wanted to talk to you about-”
“I don’t really feel like talking right now,” you interrupt bitterly. “Jesus, do all of you fucking Thrombey’s suck?! This house is full of men and she has to go and fuck my father?!”
“Who?”
“Your fucking aunt!”
“Donna?”
“Joni!”
“She’s not a fucking Thrombey, Y/N. She’s a fucking leach.”
“Be that as it fucking may, she shares the same last name as the rest of you shit birds and I just caught my dad fucking her in his study!”
“Y/N, please calm down-”
“Why are you even here, at this party, at all?” you continued on, starting to pace again. “Why the fuck did you need to bring Tiffany?!”
“It’s been a while since I’ve seen your dad, and I didn’t want him to get suspicious about anything.”
“Why the fuck would he have gotten suspicious?!”
“I had planned on sneaking you up here-”
“That’s not happening tonight!”
“I know, Y/N, please just calm down,” Ransom pleaded softly, slowly making his way over to you.
“Just get out! I don’t want you here and I don’t want to see you! Get out!”
“No.”
“I mean it! Get the fuck out of my room!”
“I’m not leaving.”
“Ransom! Get off of me!” you yelled as he pulled you in close. The harder you pushed and hit him, the tighter he held you. “Get off! Get off of me! I hate you!”
“No, you don’t,” he responded softly.
“Yes I do! Yes I do!” you cried as you finally started to give in. “I hate everyone!”
“Y/N-”
“Why is it always me?! Why is it all always on me?!”
“I don’t know, baby. I don’t know,” he responded with a heavy sigh as he softly rubbed your back. “I’m getting you out of here.”
“I can’t leave her alone here. Especially after what I just saw,” you sobbed into his chest.
“Pack up some clothes and whatever else you need. When I get back, we’re leaving. You’re not staying here tonight,” Ransom commanded softly as he let go of you.
“Where are you going?”
“Do what I said,” he stated before walking out.
You took a moment to dry your eyes and get yourself together, before grabbing one of your overnight bag and throwing in random clothes and a few things for school. You picked your phone up and cursed yourself when you saw the giant cracks on the screen.
At least the damn thing still worked.
“Let’s get you out of here,” Ransom stated softly, coming back into your room.
“What about my-”
“Harlan’s gonna take her back to the mansion with him. All I told him was that being here wasn’t good for her right now. He didn’t ask anything and said he’d take care of her.”
“He did?”
“He’s good at taking care of people that aren’t his family,” Ransom scoffed. “Now lets go.”
You quickly grabbed your coat as you followed behind Ransom. You’d forgotten to ask him how Tiffany would get home, but it’s not like you actually gave a damn.
“Sunshine, please just talk to me,” your father pleaded quietly, coming up behind you and softly grabbing your wrist.
“Let go of me,” you growled lowly, turning to meet his gaze as Ransom went on.
“Please, you can’t just-”
“The only reason I’m not screaming at you right now is because I don’t want to embarrass mom,” you snapped coldly. “Do not call me, do not text me, and don’t try to visit me on campus. Stay the fuck away from me!” you quietly snapped viciously, ripping your wrist away from him.
“Y/N-”
“You’re a piece of shit and I want nothing to do with you,” you finished harshly before storming out.
The minute you got into Ransom’s car, you fell apart all over again. Ransom didn’t say a word, he just kept one hand on the steering wheel, while the rested on your lap. You kept trying to stop, but you just couldn’t. All of the pain and anger you had been holding in for years had finally become too much, and you couldn’t stop. To make matters worse, you were having a breakdown in front of Ransom of all people.
When you two finally reached his house, you barely had any energy left. You grabbed your bags and slowly made your way out of the car and up the walkway to his house.
“Give me those,” he demanded softly, grabbing your overnight back and your backpack. “Go upstairs and take a shower. You need to relax.”
“Ransom-”
“I’ll put your stuff in my room and bring you up something to eat. Go,” he stated, nodding towards the stairway.
You opened your mouth to speak but closed it when Ransom raised his eyebrow. You slowly made your way up the steps and kicked off your shoes in his room, before removing your coat and tossing it on the bed. As you made your way to the bathroom connected to his room, you stopped his dresser and made yourself a drink. How you’d manage to get through the whole day sober was a mystery you’d never figure out.
When you finally made it to the shower, you made the water as hot as you could stand it. You just wanted to disappear for a while and forget. However, no matter how much you always wanted to forget, you never could. Tears started to fall again as the days events played again in your head. You still couldn’t decide if you actually hated your brother, but your father...you were determined than ever to get your degree after what you saw.
Finally deciding that you’d burned your skin enough, you turned off the water and grabbed a towel that had been hanging up as you made your way out of the shower. You wiped the steam off of the mirror and gave yourself a good look over.
You truly were spent.
When you made your way back into Ransom’s room, he was laying on the bed and flipping through channels, a plate of pizza rolls next to him.
“It’s all I had, sorry,” he said with a small laugh.
“It’s fine,” you sighed, “I’m not all that hungry anyway.”
“You need to eat, Y/N.”
You sighed in defeat and slowly made your way over to the bed. “Sorry for ruining your Christmas Eve,” you mumbled.
“I was spending it with my shitty family. It was already ruined,” he shrugged.
“Why are you being so nice to me? This isn’t...you.”
“You’re not like them. My family, your parents...me. I don’t know, it just...you deserve better and seeing you like that...I couldn’t just leave you like that. It didn’t feel right,” he finished looking over at you. “You’re not eating.”
“Yeah yeah,” you sighed, grabbing a pizza roll and ignoring the little bit of your heart that swelled with happiness at his words.
“Do you wanna sleep in your own clothes or do you wanna sleep in something of mine?”
“Is it okay if I sleep in one of your sweaters?”
“Yeah, keep eating.”
“I’m eating!” you snapped, before shoving another pizza roll in your mouth.
He picked out of one of his gray pullovers and tossed it over to her, before grabbing a glass and making himself a drink. You pulled the towel off of you and pulled the pullover on before using the towel to dry your hair.
If Ransom hadn’t been...well, Ransom, all of this would’ve been sweet. It felt so normal and comfortable.
You two fit so well together in that moment.
“Would you mind grabbing my glass out of the bathroom and making me one too?” you asked, after you ate the last pizza roll.
“Anything specific?”
“I had whiskey before so...”
“I gotcha,” he nodded before briefly disappearing into the bathroom and reappearing with your glass in hand.
You tried to get into the holiday movie he put on, It’s A Wonderful Life, but your mind wouldn’t stop going over everything. Just as Ransom set your drink down, your phone started buzzing. You wanted to ignore it, but if your mother needed you, you’d hate yourself if you weren’t there for her. You scowl to yourself when you see it’s just a text from your brother.
Big Brother❤: What the fuck happened tonight?! Dad won’t stop texting me.
Y/N: Fuck off
Big Brother❤: Y/N, you can’t be mad at me for this. Whatever happened tonight, isn’t my fault. Dad is who he is.
Y/N: You abandoned me. I have been there for you every time you’ve needed me and you just, you know what? It doesn’t fucking matter. I’m going to bed.
Big Brother❤: Dad said you went back to campus. What about mom? What about Christmas dinner?
Y/N: So, it’s fine for you to skip it but not me?
Big Brother❤️: She expects you to be there!
Y/N: Fuck off.
You let out a frustrated sigh as you tossed your phone on the nightstand and grabbed your drink.
“Wanna talk about it?” Ransom asked, taking the plate off the bed and placing it on the nightstand by him.
“No, because it’s just more of the same shit,” you muttered before downing your drink. “I’m supposed to be the one who cleans up after everyone and I just...I just don’t wanna think about it,” you huffed as you felt your eyes starting to water again. “You said my father hasn’t seen you in a while,” you sniffled as you cleared your throat “why not?”
“Haven’t felt like going out lately...I don’t feel like being around him.”
“Why not?”
“It’s just getting old. Figured I’d just take a break for a while. Maybe when Spring starts up,” he shrugged as his gaze went back to the screen.
You scooted over to Ransom and cuddled up against him. You would never do this any other time, but this was different. You just needed to feel something other than the pain you were feeling.
“What can I do?” he asked softly as he wrapped his arms around you, holding you close to him.
“I just...if you could just keep being nice to me? Just keep holding me?”
“I can do that,” he whispered into your hair before kissing it.
You don’t even know when you fell asleep, but you did know that sleeping in Ransom’s arms was the best sleep you’d had in a while.
“Fuck,” you moaned softly, eyes still closed as you felt something wet and pleasurable on your clit. “Y-yes please,” you begged, still not fully awake. As your hand traveled down it was met with something soft and fluffy, and you gripped it, slowly putting two and two together. “I’m so close, please...please!” you cried, eyes slowly opening. When you felt something push it’s way inside of you, you let out a silent gasp as the assault on your clit became even more urgent. “Y-yes...YES!” you cried out as you came hard, your toes curling.
Ransom stayed down in between for a bit, cleaning up the mess you made, before slowly kissing his way up your body. “Just wanna make you feel good, baby. I just wanna make you feel so good,” he mumbled against your lips before thrusting himself into you.
Ransom was relentless on Christmas morning. He kissed you in all the places you loved and fucked you in every position that made you explode for him. He only stopped when you were truly spent.
“Do you...do you wanna go to Harlan’s for Christmas? So you can see your mom?” he asked, breathless, as he laid down next to you.
“Mhm,” was all you could think to reply with.
You both took a moment to rest up before deciding it was time for a shower. Even then, he was all over you, bringing you off with his fingers and his tongue, loving how you were responding to him.
“Ransom, if we keep this up, we’re never gonna make it to Harlan’s,” you breathed out heavily as Ransom got on his feet.
“Do you really wanna go?” he smirked, before kissing you deeply.
“No,” you sighed, once you two broke away “but I need to see her. To make sure she’s okay,” you moaned as he hoisted you up against the shower wall and forced your legs around his waist.
“I promise,” he grunted as he thrust himself inside of you “we’ll leave in a bit.”
“W..what’s with you this morning?” you moaned, your hands running through his hair as you met his gaze. “Am I not-”
“You’re perfect,” he groaned “and I just wanna make you feel good. My gift to you is fucking you senseless.”
“Well it’s an amazing fucking gift. Best gift I’ve ever gotten,” you giggled with a moan as your legs tightened around him.
After sending you over the edge for what felt like the millionth time, you both cleaned yourselves off in the shower, before finally getting dressed and making your way to Harlan’s. As you arrived, you felt a wave of anxiety wash over you, and you let out a heavy sigh as Ransom turned off the car.
“Hey, we don’t have to go in there. We can go back right now and-”
“No no, I need to be here for her. She’s my mother.”
“Exactly. She’s your mother. It’s not your job to play parent.”
“If I don’t do it, who will?” you asked, turning to meet Ransom’s gaze with watery eyes.
“If you feel uncomfortable or upset at any point, you let me know and we’ll leave.”
“Ransom-”
“I mean it, Y/N. My family sucks and I know Joni is here. If at any point you want to go, just tell me and we’ll go back to my place, okay?”
You merely nodded before wiping away the few tears that had managed to escape.
“Everything is going to be fine,” he whispered before kissing your cheek.
Your mother almost knocked you over with the hug she gave you as you both came into the house.
“I didn’t think I’d see you today! Your father said you went back to campus!” she beamed, holding onto you as if her life depended on it.
“I’ll always come back to spend time with my mom,” you smiled, as you wrapped her in the tightest hug you could muster.
“Thank you for bringing her,” she smiled towards Ransom once she finally let go of you.
“I was out that way so it just made sense,” he shrugged as if it were nothing, before walking past the both of you and settling into the living area.
You made your rounds and said hi to everyone, glaring daggers at Joni when she approached you, before you and your mother decided to have a talk in Harlan’s study.
“You can just leave him, you don’t have to live like this!” you snapped at your mother before taking a sip of your drink.
“Everything is in his name, Y/N. The accounts, the cars, the house....all of it is in his name. If I leave, he gets everything.”
“Okay, then you’ll have to start all over again! What’s the problem-”
“I got him to where he is!” she snapped after lighting her cigarette. “Your father had nothing before he met me and I was dumb enough...” she trailed off as she started to cry. “He wasn’t like this. He was so much better and loved me. Truly loved me.”
“Ma, you can’t keep going on like this. You’re gonna kill yourself.”
“Maybe that’s not such a bad thing.”
“Mom! Don’t say shit like that!”
“It’s not like I’ve been the best mom and I’m clearly not the best wife-”
“He’s a fucking idiot! Don’t downplay yourself! You raised John and I-”
“John doesn’t even come around! He hates me!”
“He doesn’t hate you! He’s just a selfish piece of shit.”
“Y/N-”
“Mom, if you could get yourself a lawyer that you trust, truly trust, would you leave him?”
“I’d like to think I would,” she laughed humorlessly “but I love him, baby. I know how stupid I sound, and I know I shouldn’t but we built a life together. I met him when I was 14 and...baby, it’s not as simple as I want it be. As simple as I wish it was,” she sobbed.
After that talk, you needed to get out and as far away as possible, and Ransom could tell the moment he laid eyes on the both of you as you made your way back into the living area.
Almost instantly, he had the servers put together to-go plates for the both of you, before telling his family that he needed to go and he’d be taking you since he brought you. When your mother offered to have a car service come and get you, you told her that it was better for Ransom to take you because the earlier you got back, the earlier you could finish up on the work you had started on.
The minute you both got inside his car, the tears started right back up.
“Y/N-”
“What is the purpose of any of this if she isn’t even sure she’ll leave him? Why am I stressing if she’ll probably just stay with him?!”
“Just take a deep breath,” he cooed, taking your hand in his as he raced back to his house.
“She’s at Harlan’s fucking mansion! What more of a sign does she need that it’s time for her to fucking leave him?!”
“You can’t force her to make better choices. Isn’t that what you told me a few months ago when we were talking in your dorm?”
“That’s different!”
“How? She knows who he is, how he is, and she still loves him and keeps waiting for him to change. You’ve done all you can. At some point, she has to do the hardest part herself. She can’t just keep making you her lifeline,” he finished softly as he pulled into the gravel filled driveway of his home.
“I just...I don’t fucking know what to do anymore,” you cried, embarrassed to be crying in front of Ransom once again.
“What will make you feel better?” he asked as turned off his car.
You answered before you could stop yourself. “You.”
You were on Ransom in a heartbeat, straddling him in the driver’s seat of his Beamer. He left you in control as you took what you needed from him and he kissed your tears away. Riding him as hard and aggressively as you could, bringing you both to heaven in almost no time at all.
You spent the rest of your Winter Break with Ransom. Underneath or on top of him, letting him fuck you into oblivion, because you just didn’t want to feel or think anymore.
At least, that’s what you told yourself.
You both knew that there was another change in your “relationship”, but neither of you wanted to acknowledge it, because neither of you wanted to admit that it had become more than just sex. When it was finally time for you to go back, Ransom drove you despite you begging him not to.
“Do you need me to grab you anything?” he asked as you both sat in his car.
“No, I’m good. I have everything I need,” you mumbled looking out the window.
“Well...I guess I’ll see you around then.”
“I guess so.”
“I’ll text you.”
“Sounds good to me,” you smiled weakly before you grabbed your bags and got out of his car.
You and Ransom didn’t speak for a month after that. While it hurt you for reasons you refused to talk about, you understood why. That break had been too intimate for the both of you and all of the lines had been blurred. You kept telling yourself that didn’t want or need Ransom, but the fact that your heart longed for him so much let you know that was a lie.
However, you weren’t ready to admit that.
You’d gone out and had random hookups, but they all felt wrong. You knew he was out doing the same thing, but you still felt as if you were betraying him to an extent, which only made you feel like shit afterwords.Well, that and no one could truly satisfy you like he could.
So, when Ransom showed up announced at your dorm room door, you didn’t turn him away. You didn’t protest when he didn’t leave after you got him off the first time, and you didn’t wake him up and send him off when he fell asleep next to you; holding you tight.
Instead, you decided to lie to yourself and tell yourself that it was still just sex. You told yourself that you’d never been fucked so good in your life and you just weren’t ready to quit him yet. When you pulled him back into your bed when he tried to leave? You told yourself it was because you weren’t truly satisfied, even though you knew it was a lie. You let him hang around and watch you sketch and paint pictures because you told yourself it was better than being alone with your thoughts, when in reality, just being with him was better than anything else.
“You’re not you, at all,” Sam laughed as you two walked to another bar. “What the fuck is going on? Are you in love?”
“What? No!” you laughed, as you two stumbled across the street. “I’m just getting fucked regularly,” you laughed as you pulled out your pack of cigarettes and lit one.
“Oh? By who? Steve Daniels? God, he looks like he would be such a good time,” Sam groaned as she stole a cigarette from you.
“No,” you laughed “Ransom Drysdale.”
“Y/N...you can’t be fucking serious!” she snapped coming to a complete stop.
“What? Oh, come on! I’m not that stupid!”
“You clearly must be! You fell in love with Ransom?!”
“I’m not in love!”
“Babe, I hate to break it to you, but you are. You are so in love-”
“Stop it, Sam,” you warned.
“Why? We’re best friends and I’m supposed to tell you when you’re making a bad choice. Ever since Christmas-”
“There’s your first mistake, Sherlock. We were fucking long before Christmas.”
“Jesus Y/N!”
“You’re ruining my buzz! Stop!” you whined as you took a drag from your cigarette.
“Fine Y/N, but I’m just going to tell you to tread lightly,” she warned as you two finally reached your destination.
“I thought fucking Ransom was a right of passage around here,” you smirked as you put your cigarette out.
“You’re not like the rest of us,” she humorlessly laughed, putting her own cigarette out.
You did your best to put the conversation you both had out of your mind and just have fun with Sam, but the reality of her words wouldn’t leave you alone. It didn’t help that you saw Ransom that night, dancing with another girl and very much enjoying himself. When his eyes landed on you, you quickly turned away and made your way back to the bar, ignoring the pain that only he could cause.
“Hey, I didn’t expect to see you here tonight,” he slightly slurred as he made his way over to you.
“Yeah no, I just thought I’d have a girl’s night out with Sam,” you smiled softly as you motioned towards Sam, who was glaring daggers at him.
“You haven’t been available lately, so I just thought-”
“No, it’s okay,” you say with a faux smile “you’re free to do whatever you want, Ransom. You don’t owe me an explanation.”
“I can leave with you-”
“That girl has been working hard to leave with you for about an hour, it’d be a shame if I ruined it for her.”
“Y/N-”
“Enjoy your night,” you smiled before walking off with Sam.
You quickly settled your tab and quickly made your way out. You couldn’t have stopped your tears if you wanted to.
“Y/N-”
“No, I’m fine. I’m perfectly fine. I’m just tired,” you cried as you walked as quickly as you could away from the bar.
“Babe-’
“Sam please,” you cried “I made this choice. I decided to start this up with him and I’m fine. I’m fucking fine!”
Sam walked you back to your dorm room and stayed with you for a bit, before stumbling out of your room and making her own way back to her dorm. You were finally ready for sleep when you heard your phone buzz.
RD: I hurt you tonight, didn’t I?
Y/N: What do you mean?
RD: I saw the look in your eyes. I hurt you.
Y/N: Did you enjoy your night?
RD: No, she was annoying and the sex was bad.
‘So he did sleep with her,’ you thought to yourself before responding.
Y/N: Well, better luck next time, I guess.
RD: I wanna see you.
Y/N: You already saw me.
RD: You know what I mean, Y/N.
Y/N: Not tonight, Ransom. You’re drunk and so am I. It’s probably best for us to table this for a while.
RD: Because I hurt you?
Y/N: You didn’t hurt me, Ransom.
RD: Don’t lie to me. I know you.
Y/N: You didn’t. I hurt myself and that’s nothing new.
RD: Let me come over and make it better.
Y/N: Not tonight.
You put your phone down and turned off the light in your room, before rolling over and trying to drift off to sleep. You were almost asleep when you heard your phone buzz. Against your better judgment, you checked to see who it was.
RD: I don’t want to be him. I don’t want to hurt you. I’m sorry that I hurt you tonight. I’m not like him...your father. I mean...I guess I am, but I don’t want to be that way with you. I’m just...I’m sorry, okay? Enjoy your night.
You read that message over and over again until you fell asleep. You weren’t at all surprised when he text you the next day trying to explain himself and the conversation you two had the night before. You simply shrugged it off as no big deal and telling him it was fine because you both had way too much to drink.
In reality, it had meant the world to you, but you weren’t going to admit that to him or yourself. You both agreed that it would be best if you two took a break, and you told yourself you were fine with it because you needed to focus on school.
In reality, school wasn’t all that hard for you and you had no desire to focus more than you needed to. Instead, you went back to painting and drawing, and spending way too much time focusing on your mother and all of the issues there. In two months time, you were ready to text Ransom and ask him to come over, but you couldn’t. You knew you were in too deep already, so you decided to visit your mother one weekend instead.
As fate would have it, Ransom was back to hanging out with your father and was there when you arrived to pick your mom up for lunch.
“Sunshine! This is a-”
“Fuck off,” you snapped at your father, pushing right past him and making your way upstairs. As soon as you reached the top step, Ransom was coming out of the bathroom. “Oh,” was all you said.
“I didn’t know you’d be here today...we’re supposed to go out tonight, but he wanted-”
“You don’t owe me an explanation,” you smiled softly. “Have fun.”
“You okay?” he asked as you tried to move past him.
“Everything’s fine,” you lied, refusing to meet his gaze.
“I know we decided to stop for a while, but I’m not sure if you wanna talk to me or not, and I don’t-”
“You can text me whenever you want, I really do need to go though. I’m taking my mom to lunch so...”
“Yeah no, of course. I guess I’ll talk to you later,” he mumbled as he awkwardly stepped aside.
When you got to your parents’ room, your mother was standing there with a shit eating grin on her face.
“Don’t,” you stated simply.
“Yes ma’am,” she chuckled before stepping out of her room.
You two spent the first hour of your lunch catching up and talking about school. She asked if there was anything that could make your time there any easier. You, in all your snarky spirit, told her that a divorce from your father would be the best gift she could give you for graduation.
“We can’t all be as in love as you and Ransom,” she smirked as the waiter dropped off another round of drinks.
“What are you talking about?” you scoffed before taking a sip of your whiskey.
“I saw you two today.”
“You saw nothing. We were just talking.”
“I saw how you two looked at each other. How he looked at you. He loves you.”
“Ransom loves sex, not people. Besides, it would never work out. He hangs out with dad.”
“He hasn’t for a while. This is the first time he’s seen him in months.”
“Well, good for him.There’s nothing going on and nothing ever will,” you shrugged, taking another sip of your drink.
“Whatever you say,” she chuckled before sipping on her Mai Tai. “So, how do you feel about a little retail therapy?” she questioned, raising an eyebrow.
You two spent the rest of the day laughing, talking, boozing, and shopping. As per usual, she hated everything you wanted and you took deep pride in that. By the time the car service brought you two back to mansion, you were both pretty drunk.
“You are staying here tonight?” your mother asked as she stumbled into the kitchen.
“Nope no, I’m going back to campus,” you hiccuped.
“If you wait till the morning, I can get a service-”
“I don’t wanna be around him,” you stated firmly.
“You know he loves you.”
“And I love him, but he’s still a piece of shit and I’d prefer to be around him as little as possible,” you grumbled, pulling your phone out just as Ransom came into the living area. “I thought you were going out?”
“Uh yeah, we were but business came up and he’s been doing that for the last...4 hours? Everyone else is waiting in the other room, but I’m gonna head out.”
“Well, drive safe,” you mumbled, looking back at your phone. He looked too good and you were way too drunk.
“Ransom, are you going home or are you going to out for the night?” your mother asked, leaning against the entry way leading to the hallway of your father’s study.
“I honestly hadn’t decided yet.”
“Well, would you mind giving Y/N a ride back to campus? I really don’t want her paying-”
“Mom, it’s honestly okay,” you chuckled running your hand through your hair. “I’m sure Ransom-”
“I was thinking of going out,” Ransom interjected a little too eagerly. “If you’re going back tonight-”
“I don’t wanna get in the way of your plans,” you smiled at him as politely as you could. The last thing you wanted was to be alone with Ransom.
“Suit yourself,” he shrugged, as he grabbed his leather jacket off the sofa.
“Y/N stop it, let him take you back. He’s going in that direction anyway,” your mother snapped, cocking her eyebrow.
“Give me a second to grab my things?” you asked looking over to Ransom.
He nodded before grabbing a few of your bags.” I’ll be in the Beamer,” he simply stated before walking out.
“What are you doing?!” you hissed at your mother as soon as the door closed.
“One of us should have some fun tonight,” she chucked, making her way to the drink cart.
“Mom!”
“Oh come on! You’re young and he very obviously wants to have some fun with you!”
“Aren’t you supposed to be telling me not to sleep around?!”
“I’m a cool mom,” she laughed before taking a sip of her vodka twist. “I’m not telling you to marry the boy, just have some fun. If anyone deserves it, it’s you,” she smiled.
“You’re nuts and I’m going back to campus,” you laughed softly as you got up from the sofa. “No pills tonight. It was a good day. I love you and I’ll talk to you tomorrow, okay?”
“Mhm, be safe in whatever you do tonight,” she laughed as she wrapped you in a hug. “I don’t know what I’d do without you, I love you so much,” she whispered.
“I love you too, Mommy,” you sighed, feeling yourself getting worked up. “I’ll text you when I’m back.”
You grabbed the few bags you had left before quickly making your way outside to Ransom’s Beamer, him waiting inside of it patiently.
“You know, you really didn’t have to take me back...thank you,” you stated meekly, your gaze staying on the view outside of your window.
“Do you really want me to take you back to campus?”
“Ransom...lets not,” you sighed.
“We spent time away from each other. We’re fine.”
“Not enough.”
“It’s been two months, Y/N. I think that’s more than enough.”
“Don’t. Just...just take me back to my dorm-”
“Is that what you really want?”
“You know what I really want, but-”
“Then we’re going back to my place,” he huffed, turning down the all too familiar road.
“Ransom-”
“Why? Why deny us of what we both want? Things were a bit much over winter, but we’re fine now. This can go back to being what it was.”
“You truly believe that?” you asked, finally turning and looking at him. His grip on the steering wheel was letting you know that he didn’t actually believe what he was saying.
“We’re both adults, Y/N. We can handle this,” he sighed as he pulled into his driveway.
You knew it was all bullshit, but you wanted him just as much as he wanted you. You barely waited for him to close the door before your lips were on his. Ransom hoisted you up and you instinctively wrapped your legs around his waist, wanting to waste no time getting you both to what you truly wanted. He only made it to his steps before laying you down and ripping your pants open before pulling them off, then pulling down his own jeans and boxers.
“Can’t wait,” was all he said before thrusting himself inside of you. “Missed you so much! Missed having you beneath me like this,” he grunted before licking the side of your face. “Such a good little girl for me,” he moaned.
“Fuck Ransom!” you moaned, digging your nails into his shoulders.
“Anyone else fuck you as good as me?”
“No...no baby, it’s only you for me! Needed you so much!” you whimpered, wrapping one leg around his waist. “Only you can get me to where I need to be.”
“That’s right, sweetheart. It’s only me,” he grunted as he started to pick up his pace. “Are you gonna be a good little slut for me tonight? Are you gonna let me destroy you?”
“Ye...yes Daddy!” you mewled, feeling your release coming on. “I want you to remind me who this pussy really belongs to, Daddy!”
“Ugh fuck!” he groaned, his grip on you getting tighter. “You keep talking like that and I’m gonna cum right now!”
“I wanna feel you, I missed you so much,” you confessed too blissed out and drunk to lie. “I missed you so much, Ransom!” you yelled, cumming
“I missed you too, baby,” he moaned as he came hard deep inside of you.
Ransom fucked you all over his house that night and told you, repeatedly, how you’re the only who could really get him off. He told you how much he missed you and how much he missed fucking you, planting desperate and feverish kisses down your chest, and you did your best to hold on because it was all you could do. When he was deep in your ass, you let out your own confessions.
“Don’t wanna be without you, Daddy,” you moaned, as he relentlessly pounded into your ass.
“Yeah baby? My good girl loves it when I fuck her like this?” he questioned, roughly gripping your hair as he picked up his pace.
“I love when you do anything to me! Need to feel you all the time!” you mewled as you gripped his pillows tight.
“I know, baby. I know,” he whispered hotly against your ear before nipping at it “Daddy feels the same way.”
“I want you to make me yours, Ransom. I want you fuck me so hard that I’ll never want anyone else!”
“Fuck Princess! You know I love it when you talk to me like that!”
“Then show me, Daddy! Show me how much you love it!”
“I promise I will,” he grunted, before removing hand from your hair and using it to rub your clit. “ I’m gonna ruin you for every other man,” he promised softly before pressing a soft kiss into your hair.
Ransom didn’t stop until you were a puddle in his arms. After all was said and done, he was so gentle with you, like you were made of glass. As he cleaned you up, your phone buzzed and it made you remember that you were supposed to text your mother. You couldn’t help but laugh when you saw that it was your mother who’d text you.
Mama Bear❤: I’m gonna take you’re not texting me as a sign that you decided to have fun tonight. Just wanted to let you know that there was no one else here. Ransom was the last to leave and I truly believe it was because he was waiting for you. Have you fun but be careful with this one. I love you, babygirl.
Your mind wouldn’t allow you to focus on her words, you just wanted sleep. When Ransom got into bed, he pulled you close and whispered sweet nothings into your ear, as if you two belonged to each other. He was probably thinking you wouldn’t remember because you were so drunk.
That’s when it hit you: you were the only one drunk at the moment. Everything Ransom had said that night he truly meant. However, you were too tired to focus on any of that. You just wanted Ransom and sleep.
When you woke up the next morning, he was still sound asleep and you were too enamored with the peaceful scene to ruin the moment. So you just laid there: taking him in, listening to his soft snores as he slept beside you, holding you close. You knew you couldn’t live in that moment, but still. Everything was simple and happy for a second. You could pretend that you were Ransom’s, and that he was yours. You could pretend that you’d have that for the rest of your life.
Why couldn’t life be kind to you just once?
Ransom had you twice before returning you to school; as if he hadn’t said all of those sweet and caring things to you last night.
“When’s your last week of school?”
“Next week, I’m packing up and going home. I figured I’ll look for my own place during next Winter Break,” you shrugged, watching different college kids shuffle back and forth with things they’d pack up from their dorms. That would be you in a few days, and that prospect seemed dreadful.
“Come to the Hamptons with me for the week,” he said as if it were the most simple thing in the world.
“What?” you laughed incredulously.
“I’m going to the Hamptons the week of July 4th and I want you to come with me.”
“What? Why me? No,” you scoffed. “Go with your friends or Tiffany.”
“I don’t like my friends or Tiffany. What’s the harm? You get a free vacation and we both get to have fun without any distractions.”
“Ransom, stop it. I have my summer classes and my mother-”
“It’s just a week, Y/N. There’s no harm in going away for a week,” he sighed, not bothering to meet your gaze.
The words Ransom whispered to you last night spun in your head over and over again, and you knew you should say no, but you weren’t ready to stop pretending. Not yet. “Just a week, Ransom. That’s it,” you mumbled.
You didn’t miss the small smile that came to his face, though he quickly tried to hide it. “I’ll pick you up from your place?”
“We’re driving?”
“We can fly if you want.”
“No, I just...I didn’t peg you as a road trip kind of guy,” you smiled to yourself. “If you’re picking me up from my parent’s place, you might wanna come really early, or right after sunset.”
“7am early enough?”
“It’s perfect,” you smiled at him. “Guess I’ll see you then?”
Ransom opened his mouth to say something, but quickly closed it and let out a soft chuckle. “I’ll see you then, Princess.”
From that day on, all you could think of was spending a week alone with Ransom. You told yourself that you’d be smart and just have fun. You needed a break, and so did he. Sam tried to talk you out of it, but you told her (and yourself) that you knew what you were doing. You promised both Sam and yourself that you wouldn’t fall for any of his games: that when you came back you’d focus on school and your family. Your mother wasn’t thrilled about being alone for so long, but she wanted you to have fun and not feel the weight of everyone else’s responsibilities on your shoulders.
You spent the week prior putting together your best outfits, telling yourself that it was just a week of fun. You told yourself that you didn’t need or love him. That when it was all said and done, everything would go back to the way it was.
However, when he showed up to your parent’s mansion in a 1953 Chevrolet Corvette on July 3rd, you couldn’t stop the smile that spread across your face.
“That’s definitely not your car,” you laughed as you made your way over, bags in hand.
“I borrowed it from Harlan,” Ransom smirked as you loaded your bags into its small trunk.
“Does Harlan know you borrowed it?”
Ransom’s smirk only grew bigger.
“Jesus, what did I just get myself into?” you laughed slightly nervous.
“The best week of your life,” he winked as you got into the passenger seat, closing the door behind you.
The four hour trip to the Hamptons was filled with horrible sing-a-longs (led by you), rest stop quickie sessions, terrible jokes told by Ransom, and you taking a ton of pictures that would never be seen by anyone other than the both of you. You told yourself that you two had developed some sort of a friendship, but you knew it was more. It had been so much for a while.
Ransom let out a soft chuckle at the gasp that escaped your lips. He pulled into a long driveway leading up to a beautiful, luxurious home.
“What were you expecting?”
“A hotel you psycho!”
“Hotels have people, rules, noise policies...” he smirked your way.
“I think we would’ve been fine on the noise issue,” you quip, flipping him off.
“Sweetheart, I’ve had you enough to know that’s a complete fucking lie.”
“Fuck off,” you laughed as he parked and shut off the car. “This must have cost a fortune. Let’s at least split it.”
“No,” he said simply before getting out of the car and going to get the bags.
“No? What do you mean ‘no’?”
“I already planned on coming out here, Y/N. Why would we split this?”
“Because it’s a lot of money!”
“Do you think I’ll be going broke anytime soon?”
“If you keep spending money like this...” you mumbled, following behind him.
“Don’t worry, Princess. I’ll take care of us for the week,” he laughed as he unlocked the front door.
“What the hell am I supposed to do then?”
“Be a good girl for me,” he laughed with a devilish grin.
The first two nights you both went out to clubs and got drunk as hell. You hadn’t realized how possessive Ransom was until multiple guys tried dancing with you.
“Jesus, if I had known that keeping you all to myself in public would be this hard, we would’ve just stayed in,” he muttered as he drunkenly pulled you back to the bar with him.
“Awh, is someone mad that he has a little competition?” you giggled, a small hiccup escaping you.
“Do I?”
“Nope nope, I’m all yours Ransom,” you smiled as you waived the bartender over. “There’s nothing I want except you,” you sighed, leaning against the bar.
“Yeah?”
You looked up at him, ignoring the very small part of you that was still sober and telling you to shut the fuck up, and gave him a tepid smile. “What do you think?”
“I have no idea, Princess. Don’t know if I’ll ever be good enough for you.”
“Do you wanna be?”
“Do you want me to be?”
You debated back and forth with yourself, whether or not you should answer him, before deciding it would be best to not go there while drunk. “Order a car service, I wanna get back to the house,” you smiled before pulling out your credit card and handing it to the bartender.
“I told you that I’m taking care of us this week, Princess,” he slurred, pulling out his phone.
“Thank me for it when we get back,” you giggled.
Ransom was all over you the minute you two got back inside the mansion. While you were used to him being needy and desperate, there was a hint of tenderness. His eyes said all of the things he wouldn’t, and it made your heart yearn for him that much more. You tried to lie to yourself and tell yourself that you were still in control, but you knew you were completely gone for him. You’d crossed every single line you’d drawn for yourself long before you two got to the Hamptons. For the time being you just didn’t wanna think about it.
You just wanted Ransom.
So when you woke up to the smell of coffee and breakfast the next day, you were completely thrown off.
“You can cook?” you asked, coming downstairs in nothing but one of his t-shirts.
“I am a capable adult,” he scoffed, placing eggs and bacon on a plate that already had toast and blueberries on it. “I know you like strawberries, but we used them all up the other night,” he smirked.
“Blueberries are fine,” you quipped, sticking your tongue out at him before walking over and taking the plate he made for you. “Thank you.”
“It’s not a big deal,” he smiled softly before kissing the top of your head softly and getting his own plate of food together.
“So, Drysdale. What’s your plan of action today?”
“What do you wanna do?” he asked, leaning against the counter top and taking a bite of bacon.
“Well...do you know how to steer a boat?”
“No, but I’m sure I can get us a boat and someone who knows how to steer it in no time,” he shrugged.
“I’ll steer it, you just get us the boat.”
“What? You want me all to yourself?”
“Yes,” you smiled softly as you popped a blueberry in your mouth.
Ransom was able to get a boat for you two in no time, and you put a lunch together for you both. When it was time to leave for the marina, you told him you wanted to drive.
“Well look at you,” Ransom scoffed, tossing you the keys to his grandfather’s car, “just running the show.”
“I am a capable adult,” you teased, starting the car.
The short trip to the marina was filled with questions from Ransom, and you refusing to answer until you two were out on the water.
“What else do you know how to navigate?” he asked, handing you a full champagne flute. “A rocket ship? A fucking plane?”
“Just a motorcycle,” you laughed. “My grandfather taught me how to steer a boat. He and my grandmother would take John and I when things got out of control with our parents. He taught me how to fish, how to go crabbing, how to fix a handful of things, and so on,” you shrugged as you anchored the boat in a secluded part of the sea.
“Your grandfather meaning...??”
“My dad’s father. My mom’s dad has kind of been M.I.A for a while. He comes around when he needs money,” you scoffed, taking a seat next to Ransom in the boat’s center console. “She’s used to shitty men.”
“Is that why you feel guilty about leaving her on her own all the time?”
“That and a few other reasons. People have always failed her and I just...I know she’s close to giving up. John likes to pretend it isn’t as bad as it is, because he doesn’t wanna deal with it, but...I’m pretty sure we all know. My father included,” you sighed, taking a sip of your champagne.
“Linda is the polar opposite,” Ransom scoffed, looking out at the water ahead of you two. “My grandfather could kill himself and she wouldn’t budge. She still has a chip on her shoulder. A chip she put there herself.”
“You’re better than you let everyone think, Ransom. Better than what they think,” you confessed softly, looking over his sad and frustrated face.
“Yeah? You think so?”
“When you let people in, really let them in, you’re pretty fucking amazing. We’ve been doing this for a while and the small amount of times that you’ve let me in...it’s been really nice. Getting to know you has been really nice.”
“That’s a first,” he laughed, finishing off his beer before grabbing another.
“Because you shut people out. You keep them away on purpose.”
“It’s better that way...I can’t be like this with everyone, my family especially. They’re a pack of wolves.”
“Then distance yourself from them. Hell, I’m pretty positive Harlan would actually tell you he’s proud of you if ya’ did.”
“Yeah sure. If it had been that simple, I would’ve finished college.”
“You went to college?”
“Why do you always sound so surprised when you find out I’m capable of doing things beyond the level of a 4th grader?” he laughed.
“Cause you try so hard to make everyone believe that aren’t capable of doing much more than a 4th grader.”
“Not you.”
“And what’s so special about me?”
“It’s just easy with you, I don’t know. You don’t complicate anything and you just get it. You get me.”
“Only because you let me,” you chuckled awkwardly, turning away from him.
“Well, why do you keep letting me come around if I’m such an enigma?”
“Because it’s simple with you,” you shrugged, taking a big sip of your champagne. “We’ve always been up front about what this is and we’ve always been up front with each other. When your life is full of bullshitters, it’s hard to push one away who isn’t one. Besides, like I said before,” you smiled at him, “you really aren’t all that bad. Just a bit rough around the edges and that’s not entirely your fault.”
Before you could react, Ransom’s lips were on yours. In any other situation you would’ve pushed him off and told him that it was time for you two to head back, but it wasn’t any other situation. You two spent the day opening up to one another, and just being your most honest and true selves. There were a million reasons to stop, but none of them were good enough as far as you were concerned.
“Ransom,” you moaned as his hands traveled down to the hem of your shorts, unbuckling them.
“I fucking love hearing my name leave your lips,” he rasped as he pulled your shorts down and trailed soft kisses down your neck. “I love everything about you.”
“Need more of you,” you mewled, tugging on the hem of his shirt. “I need all of you,” you whined pathetically.
“You can have whatever you want from me,” he moaned, sitting up to pull off his shirt while you undid his swim trunks and pulled them down. He pulled the strings, undoing your bikini top strings, and groaned in satisfaction when your bare chest was revealed. “You are so fucking beautiful,” he husked before slowly pushing his way into you.
“Fuck Ransom!” you cried, loving the way he pulled you apart.
“Just wanna take my time with you,” he moaned, bottoming out. “I wanna remember you just like this,” he sighed, looking down at you with nothing but love and adoration in his eyes.
“Take all the time you want,” you smiled, softly stroking the side of his face.
Ransom dipped down and kissed you deeply while starting to slowly move inside of your warmth. “I love you,” he rasped against your lips. “I love you so fucking much, Y/N! I tried to stop it...I can’t,” he moaned, his pace quickening as you dug your nails into his back. “Don’t wanna fight this anymore!”
“Then show me,” you all but whispered, wrapping one of your legs around his waist. “Show me just how much you love me,” you begged. “I wanna feel just how much you love me!”
Ransom trailed skillful kisses down from your cheek to your neck, stopping to bite and suck on your sweet spot, while one of his hands traveled down in between your legs and started rubbing your clit teasingly. You gasped and arched your back, pressing yourself into him more as you gripped his hair tighter. You clenched around him as he started to pump into you harder; you felt his smirk on your skin.
“That’s it baby, be my good girl,” he grunted hotly against your neck. “I know you wanna cum for me, don’t you?”
“So bad baby, so fucking...so fucking bad!” you whimpered.
“Do it for me, I wanna feel that warmth all over my cock,” he grunted.
You had no choice but to do as you were told. His words and the pleasure he was giving sent you over the edge in no time. Before you had a chance to come down from your high, Ransom had one arm around your waist and was pulling you upright with him, so that you were in his lap, pushing himself deeper inside of you.
“I wish you could see how beautiful you look right now,” he moaned as you placed your hands on his shoulders, trying to steady yourself as he as started to upthrust into you. “How beautiful you always look when you’re on my cock. Such a sweet and good girl for me. Being inside of you...in these arms...it’s the best feeling in the world,” he moaned, looking up at you as you planted your feet and did your best to hold on.
“Please,” you whimpered, your core tightening again. “Baby please!”
“What do you need, Sweetheart? Tell me what you want,” he husked, thrusting into you faster.
“I need...to hear you say it. Please say it again!” you whimpered.
“I love you,” he grunted as he started planting kisses all over your chest. “I love you,” *kiss* “I love you,” *kiss* “I love you, Y/N! Fuck, I’ve loved you for so long!”
“Jesus!” you screamed, cumming hard and pressing your forehead against his.
Ransom kissed all over your face and deeply on your lips, before holding you in place and slowly pulling out of you, loving the moans that escaped your lips.
“I want you on all fours for me, baby,” he cooed, looking up at you in your exhausted state.
“I can’t,” you practically sobbed.
“You told me that you want me to show you how much I love you, baby. I know you’ve got a little bit left for me, Sweetheart,” he cooed softly, brushing your hair behind your ear.
How the hell were you supposed to say no to him? You’d never been able to before, so it made no sense at that moment.
You got yourself on your hands and knees for him as quickly as you could, but you were so blissed out that you could barely hold yourself up, but that wasn’t something you had to worry about for long. Ransom wrapped an arm around your waist to hold you in place as he smacked his cock against your pussy.
“You’ve been such a good girl for me today, Sweetheart,” he praised hotly against your ear before biting it softly, as you whimpered beneath him. “You’ve cum so hard for me and have done everything I’ve asked of you. You’re so good to me,” he huffed before thrusting himself into you, and you cried out in pleasure as a response. “So, I’m gonna be nice and make sure you feel my love for you, okay? I’m gonna give you what you really want. You want me to do that for you, baby?”
“Y-yes...yes PLEASE!” you cried out as your nails scraped against the surface of the boats panels.
“So good for me,” he grunted before grabbing a fistful of your hair and pulling hard enough to force your gaze on the water in front of you two. “There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you...nothing I’d deny you, Y/N,” you grunted as his thrusts started to become erratic.
You faintly heard the waves crashing against the boat as his balls slapped against your ass, and were somewhat aware of how public you two were. You couldn’t bring yourself to care about how easy it was for you two to get caught. In your mind, you’d been Ransom’s for a while, even though you’d never actually admitted to yourself. As far as you were concerned, if anyone saw you two fucking on a boat in broad daylight, they’d have no questions about who you truly belonged to.
“I’m so close,” you cried, the knot in your core becoming stronger and more powerful. “I need it, PLEASE!”
“I wanna feel you all over me, Princess,” he encouraged, his grip on your hair becoming even tighter. “Give it to me, Sweet Girl,” he pathetically groaned.
“RANSOM!” you cried out as a mind shattering orgasm broke over you, your arms giving out completely.
“Fuck!” he sobbed, his own orgasm washing over him almost instantly as he continued to pump into you. He slumped over on top of you.
You both stayed there for a moment, completely exposed to anyone who may have sailed by and all the residents with an ocean front view, not caring about the repercussions of your actions. You two had finally told each other how you two truly felt about one another, and nothing else mattered at all.
“I...I love you too, Ransom,” you breathed after a moment. “I have for a while, but we just...this wasn’t supposed to be that.”
“I know, baby...I know,” he sighed before peppering a few kiss all over your back. “We’ll go back and talk about it, okay?”
“Mhm,” was all you had the strength to respond with.
You both took your time getting dressed before cuddling together in silence. Yes, you were both happy to have finally told each other how you honestly felt about the other, but all you could think was ‘what now’?
You both ate the lunch you prepared in a comforting silence, your toes touching as you two faced each other, trying to come up with a plan for the night ahead. When you both reluctantly decided that it was time to go, Ransom held you close from behind, peppering little kisses up and down your neck and whispering that he loves you, while you steered back to shore. The car ride back was light and couldn’t remember the last time you felt so happy and carefree. Ransom just looked at you, love in his eyes and a smile on his face, watching you as sat with your feet up and eyes closed. You could’ve stayed in that moment with him forever.
However, the mood changed as soon as you two got back to the mansion. You let out a heavy sigh as soon as Ransom closed the door behind him.
“This doesn’t have to be a terrible talk, babe,” Ransom humorlessly chuckled as he kicked off his sandals.
“We both know it’s not about to be a fun one.”
“Why not?”
“You know why,” you scoffed before making your way to the kitchen and grabbing a bottle of wine and drinking from it.
“Y/N-”
“You’re not a relationship kind of guy, Ransom. This isn’t gonna work and I’ll end up hating you.”
“Why are you so sure I’ll fuck this up?”
“Don’t make me be a bitch.”
“Then don’t be one!”
“Ransom, you don’t know how to commit and I’d really rather not be your crash test dummy. Cause when you break my heart-”
“You don’t know-”
“When you break my heart,” you repeated, finally meeting his gaze “it’ll destroy the one last part of my world that hasn’t caved in yet.”
“I don’t want to break your heart, Y/N. I know I’m a piece of shit, okay? I know that I’m the last person to deserve your love, and that you have more than enough reasons to keep your distance from me. I can’t promise you anything, but I really want to try. I’ve never been in love and I tried to run from this, us, but I just can’t. God, if you only knew how hard I tried,” he laughed softly to himself. “Loving you is the scariest thing I’ve ever done, because I don’t want to hurt you, Y/N. I don’t want to disappoint you, I don’t want to break your heart, and I don’t want to lose you. I told myself that just sex with you was enough because it kept you close, but the thought of you sleeping with someone else? Another guy holding you close, making you laugh, feeling your warmth, seeing that smile...I can’t deal with that, babe. The moment I laid eyes on you, I knew you’d change my life. I didn’t think you’d change my life like this,” he laughed before pouring himself a shot of whiskey and quickly downing it.
“Then what do you want, Ransom? What do you want from me?”
“I want you to say you’ll try with me. I want you to want this, us. I’m selfishly asking for you to trust me, because I really do think I can be the guy you want. The guy you deserve. It may take some work and it won’t be easy, but I’m going to do my very best. I’m gonna do my best to be my best.”
“And if it all goes to shit?” you practically sobbed, quietly.
“At least we can say we tried,” he smiled weakly.
You had to ask yourself if he was really worth it. Yeah, the sex was amazing, but relationships are more than sex and good times. It’s also hard work, trust, bad fights, long nights, and compromising. It’s ‘I’m sorry’ and agreeing to disagree.
Relationships are everything...but so was Ransom.
“We’ll start off slow,” you stated softly after a beat. “I know we love each other, and you don’t know how happy that makes me, but you’re not this guy in Massachusetts. I can’t just dive right in with you like it’s nothing.”
“That’s fair,” Ransom smiled, hope very prominent in his eyes.
“We’ll see how the rest of this summer goes and then...we’ll decide from there,” you smiled softly.
“Yeah?”
“Mhm,” you nodded enthusiastically.
You couldn’t help but laugh as Ransom ran over to you and picked up, spinning you around and placing kisses all over your chest.
“We can do this,” he smiled breathlessly.
“I really hope we can,” you responded, looking down at him as you cupped his face in your hands.
The rest of the week was filled with making plans, cuddling up and watching movies together, dance parties (though that was mainly you and Ransom laughing at you), making love all over the house, lots of talking and bonding, and lots of late night boat trips.
“What if I bought that mansion?” Ransom asked as you two sat in the bow cockpit, cuddled up under the stars and wrapped tight in a blanket.
“What?” you scoffed, turning your gaze on him.
“I could buy that mansion and we could just live here.”
“No,” you laughed, grabbing your glass of wine and taking a long drink from it.
“Why not?”
“We can’t just run away from our lives because they’re not perfect, Ransom.”
“We’re not running away, we’re starting over.”
“Ransom, you’d have to get a job and-”
“1. I’m capable of holding a job-”
“Mhm,” you scoffed.
“I am!” he laughed “and 2. I have actually set up investments and I own a lot in stocks. We don’t need to work.”
“I’m not just gonna be a housewife, Ransom. I need to work. I want to work.”
“Well, with you being a lawyer and your love of arguing, I’m sure we’ll never have to worry about anything,” he smirked and you nudged him playfully.
“Fuck off,” you laughed.
“You don’t think I can provide for you?”
“I don’t care if you can, because I can provide for myself. I just don’t want to be one of those couples that-”
“You don’t care?”
“No, why should I? What does money matter to me?”
“Someone’s pretty full of herself,” Ransom scoffed and it was your turn to nudge him.
“No, you big dummy,” you laughed. “I mean, your parents have money, my parents have money, and everyone is still miserable. Why does it matter how much money either of us has? We can be the richest people in the world and it wouldn’t matter at all. Why should I care about how much money you have? I can make money just like you can,” you shrugged.
“I’m gonna marry the shit out of you one day,” Ransom smiled and you burst out laughing.
“Baby steps, Richie Rich.”
“Lets at least stay another week.”
“You know I can’t,” you sighed, laying your head in the crook of his neck. “I really want to though.”
“Then why can’t we?”
“Cause that’s just not how life works, baby. You know that.”
You both put off leaving the next day for as long as possible, but decided it would be best to leave while it was still light out. After Ransom packed away all the bags, he had you lean against the car, and he took a few pictures before you made him stand by you and take a few cute selfies of you both. If you two were able to make it work, they would be adorable in a scrapbook.
You asked Ransom to take you to his place, since you didn’t wanna risk being seen with him by your father.
“That’s something else we’re gonna have to figure out,” you sighed as you leaned against the window, waiting for the car service Ransom ordered for you.
“We’ll think of something,” he shrugged, coming up behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist. “Stay with me tonight,” you begged, placing small kisses up and down your neck.
“I have to get back to my mother,” you responded with a small and sad smile, leaning into him more. “I want to stay though. Sleeping alone is gonna suck.”
“When am I seeing you again?”
“I don’t know, tomorrow? Ugh, we’ll figure it out,” you huffed.
“I can come by and see you tonight.”
“This is so absurd. We’re both grown and we’re sneaking around.”
“We’ll take this at whatever pace you wanna take it, babe,” he cooed softly before kissing the side of your head. When the car pulled up, you let out a mourning sigh. “I’ll come by and see you tonight.”
“Ransom-”
“I’ll see you around 11, okay?” he questioned, turning you around in his arms, lifting your chin with his forefinger.
“Okay,” you responded meekly, suddenly aware of just how much you truly didn’t wanna leave him.
He kissed you deeply, forcing himself to stop when you tried to deepen the kiss, and kissing you softly on the forehead. “You better get going before I make you stay.”
“Maybe I want you to.”
“Y/N-”
“I’ll see you tonight,” you giggled, giving him a quick peck on the lips before grabbing your bags and running out of his house.
The entire drive back to your parents’ place, you went through a roller coaster of emotions. No, you didn’t doubt that Ransom loved you, but Ransom was Ransom. He didn’t know how to commit to anything, but also really tried with you. You could tell that he tried to pull back and distance himself, but he was just as in love with you as you were with him.
You two were inevitable.
Everything was fine until you got home.
“So, you’re telling me you didn’t see Ransom at all?” your father questioned for what felt like the millionth time.
“What did I say the first three times you asked me?”
“I’m just having a hard time believing you both left on the same day and came back on the same day-”
“I honestly don’t give a shit what you believe,” you scoffed. “I don’t give a single fuck about any of your thoughts. I went away with Sam for a girl’s week and now I’m back. Believe it if you want or don’t. Your feelings matter nothing to me at all,” you shrugged, putting your phone down and meeting your father’s worried gaze.
“Sunshine-”
“Stop calling me that,” you snapped. “I’m not your fucking ‘Sunshine’. I’m your blood relation and that’s it.”
“You can’t hate me forever, Y/N.”
“I don’t hate you at all, Father. I’m just over your shit and I can’t wait for the day that mom leaves your sorry ass,” you smiled at him.
“Y/N-”
“Close the door on your way out, we’re done here.”
“Y/N-”
“We are done,” you repeated, your voice angrier than it had been the entire conversation.
Your father opened his mouth to argue, but stopped when he saw the look of pure anger in your eyes. He simply nodded before walking out and closing the door behind him.
Ransom text you and said he’d be over by 11, but you couldn’t help but laugh when you saw him standing outside on your terrace an hour early.
“Miss me?” you joked, letting him in.
“You have no fucking idea,” he chuckled, giving you a quick kiss before making his way inside. “How’s everything been?”
“Annoying,” you muttered, closing the glass door before going over and pouring Ransom a drink. “My mother was numb by the time I came home and my father interrogated me about where I was and who I was with.”
“Oh? Who does he think you were with?”
“You.”
“Your father’s a smart man,” Ransom smirked, settling into your bed.
“Fuck off,” you scoffed, handing him his drink before getting in next to him and cuddling up close. “What do you wanna watch?”
“What have you been watching?” he questioned, relaxing as he wrapped his arm around you and held you close.
“My So-Called Life”
“You and this fucking show,” he laughed softly.
“Leave me and my teen dramas alone!”
“There’s only one season! How many times can you watch one season of a show?”
“Apparently a lot!” you snapped before stealing his drink and taking a sip of it.
“You’re so fucking annoying,” he laughed “but we can keep watching it.”
“No no, I wanna do what you wanna do.”
“I have you in my arms. I have everything I want,” he smiled down at you.
You two spent almost every day together that summer and on the days that you couldn’t be together, you both text each other all day long and talked all night on the phone. Of course, there were days when problems came up.
“I’m not fucking talking to you while you’re like this,” you snapped, grabbing your jacket and going to leave Ransom’s room.
“Stop,” Ransom snapped, wrapping his arm around your waist and holding you tight to him!
He’d gone out with some of his friends and asked you to come over. You’d expected him to be a little fucked up from drinking, but the louder your argument got, the more you realized he was high on something.
“Let me go!”
“No! You don’t just get to leave because we’re having an argument!”
“You’re fucking high, Ransom! I’m not putting up with this shit!”
“I’m not high!”
“So you’re gonna fucking lie to me now?! Like I haven’t seen you fucked with my father?! Like I haven’t seen you fucked up at clubs?! Getting fucked up at clubs?!”
“Y/N-”
“I’m not dealing with you when you’re like this! I’m not your fucking babysitter!”
“Baby, I’m sorry,” he sighed, his tone breaking. “Please, just don’t go. I’ve been thinking about being with you all day. Please,” he begged desperately, grinding himself against you.
“D-don’t,” you moaned, excitement building between your legs.
“I’ll make it up to you, baby. Please stay,” he moaned softly, one of his hands sliding down into your shorts and finding its way to your bundle of nerves. “I’ll make you feel so good,” he promised before kissing the shell of your ear
“Ransom,” you moaned breathlessly, your head lulling back into the crook of his neck.
“There’s my good girl,” he groaned, rubbing your clit faster.
You were ashamed that he was able to get you to cave so easily, but you weren’t surprised. No matter what state he was, Ransom knew you could never resist him. It only made sense for him to resort to sex when he was afraid of you leaving him. As disappointed in yourself as you were, you told him off the next day.
“You can’t just fuck me to keep me, Ransom. That’s not how relationships work,” you mumbled the next morning as you cuddled up next to him.
“I didn’t want you to go.”
“Then maybe you shouldn’t have gotten fucked up and called me a bitch.”
“You know I didn’t mean it, Sweetheart.”
“You still fucking said it, Ransom,” you snapped. “I don’t like you when you’re on that shit.”
“I know you don’t. Truth be told, I don’t like me when I’m like that,” he confessed, running a frustrated hand through his hair.
“Then why do you do it?”
“Because it’s what’s expected of me, Y/N.”
“And what about what I expect of you?”
“Y/N,” he scowled, looking away from you as his face went slightly red. “This all still new to me, okay? I’ve never had someone else in my life that I needed or wanted to worry about. I told you that I’d try and I am trying...it’s just gonna take some time.”
It was now your turn to feel small. “I know you are,” you responded, bringing your hand to his face, and softly forcing his gaze on you. “I love you for trying and I appreciate it. I know we’re still figuring it out and it’s gonna take time, but Ransom...I’m not putting up with the drugs. I just can’t do it.”
“I’ll do better,” he promised before pressing a soft kiss into your hair. “I will.”
From that moment on, you two were fully committed to each other. Ransom made it a point to check in with you every night, and you did your best to go easier on him. By the end of the summer, you truly believed you two had a fight chance. No, you both still hadn’t told your friends or families, but that was something you decided on (wanting to stay in the bubble for as long as possible), but it was enough for the time being.
However, love and life have and life have a cruel way of knocking you on your ass.
You’d been back at school for 2 months before Ransom destroyed your world and crushed your heart into dust.
Sweetheart: I fucked up.
That’s all it took. The simple text held so much weight. The minute you read it you knew it was the end of you two.
Ransom text you every day and tried calling you on for two weeks, but you weren’t ready to talk to him.
You couldn’t.
So when you came back to your dorm one day and saw Ransom standing outside of it with a bouquet of flowers in his hands, you couldn’t stop the automatic scoff that left your mouth.
“You have to talk to me-”
“I don’t have to do shit, Ransom,” you quietly snapped as you unlocked the door to your room and shoved him into it, before slamming it shut. “How long have you been here?”
“Maybe an hour. Two at most, why?”
“Because I don’t need people knowing I was stupid enough to believe you,” you muttered, spiking your sweater down on your bed. “What do you want?”
“What do you mean what do I want? I wanna talk to my girlfriend-”
“Oh, I’m not your girlfriend!” you quickly corrected.
“Don’t say that-”
“No, you fucked someone else! We were together and you fucked someone else! Don’t stand here all misty eyed and heartbroken like I-”
“It was a mistake, it meant nothing! I know I messed up and I’m so fucking sorry-”
“No! I told you we should’ve never tried and you were so dead set on-”
“Because I love you!” Ransom shot, throwing the flowers down, “I wasn’t myself and I fucked up, but I hated myself the entire time! I hate myself now!”
“I don’t care because I don’t forgive you!” you yelled, finally letting your tears fall. “What? Were you waiting for me to fully trust you before you decided to get your dick wet in some other bitch’s cunt?! You thought it would be funny-”
“You know that’s not true! You know I love you!”
“Then why?! I want to know why!”
“I was out and I was fucked up...you weren’t answering me and I don’t know why...I just felt neglected and I got angry with you-”
“I can’t fucking respond to your every beckoned call! I’m at school, I have a fucking job, I have a life-”
“I know you have a life! Caring for your drug addict mother, to which I’m always taking a backseat to!”
“Get out!” you yelled at him, your anger ready to explode.
“Y/N,” Ransom begged with an exasperated sigh, “I’m sorry, can we please just-”
“No! Get out!” you screamed.
“Baby,” he started, moving closer to you, “we can just-”
“Do not touch me!” you snapped,quickly backing away from him. “You’re not going to fuck your way out of this! Get out!” you screamed, tears coming freely now.
Ransom stood there silent, his own tears falling, before slowly starting to retreat.
“You just need time,” he sobbed softly as he reached for the door. “I’ll call you in a few weeks. We can work this out.”
“Don’t fucking call or text me,” you cried. “We’re done. This is over. It was a fucking disaster from the start.”
“Baby-”
“Just fucking go, please. Just go,” you cried.
Of course Ransom didn’t respect your wishes and did text you a week later, but you forced yourself to ignore it. All of it just hurt too much and you weren’t handling it well. The only reason you kept up with school and your job was so that you could help your mother, but you stopped going out. You didn’t leave your dorm unless you had to and you ignored all your friends and family. Eventually Sam wore you down and you told her everything before falling apart in her arms.
She was kind and didn’t tell you “I told you so,” instead she just held you close and let you get everything out. From that day on, she tried to get you to go out and have fun. She wanted you to forget about all of the Ransom drama, and all of the pain he’s caused, but your mind kept getting in your way. After all, how could you simply forget when you couldn’t even bring yourself to delete the pictures you two had taken over the summer? They were the ones you looked over before reading all the texts he sent you when everything was perfect or when it was late and you couldn’t fall asleep. How could you just forget about the only person you ever let yourself truly love?
You couldn’t, but you had to try.
The week before winter break you let Sam take you out to one of your favorite bars. You didn’t think you were anywhere near ready for sleeping with anyone else, not yet. Dancing with your best friend or a random stranger seemed like a very good place to start, though.
You were three drinks in and had your back pressed against the handsome, random, stranger you were dancing with when you felt a pair of eyes on you.
His eyes.
You did your best to ignore his intense gaze on you, but the harder you tried the more you felt it. When you felt the handsome stranger’s breath on your neck, you knew that Ransom was ready to storm over and break up the scene in front of him.
“I’ll be right back,” you smiled sweetly before getting yourself out of the the rather strong grip he had you in, making your way to the bathroom.
You were only alone for a few minutes before the door flew open with a bang. “What the fuck was that?!”
“This is the womens bathroom, Ransom. Or can’t you read?”
“Don’t be fucking cute with me!” he snapped.
The glaze inside his eyes said it all. “Oh, you’re high. Fucking great,” you mumbled, finally turning to meet his intense gaze. “What do you want, Ransom? I’m a college student, you aren’t. This is my part of Massachusetts.”
“Jesus Y/N, it was a break up, not a fucking divorce!”
“What’s the difference?”
“I’m not playing this fucking game with you tonight, lets go!” he growled before grabbing your arm and attempting to pull you out of the bathroom with him.
“Where the fuck do you think you’re taking me?!” you snapped, ripping your arm free.
“We’ve been apart long enough! I learned my lesson and you’re clearly-”
“This wasn’t a fucking break! We broke up!”
“I said I was sorry and wouldn’t do it again! What else-”
“Ransom stop it, please,” you begged pathetically, your will to fight weakening. “I don’t have the strength to fight and I don’t want to. I didn’t fuck this up, you did. This has been the first time I’ve been out since everything and-”
“Y/N, you can trust me. I’ve never regretted anything more than I’ve regretted breaking your heart. I love you. I love you and I’m so fucking sorry. You have no idea how much I wish I could take back what I did, but if you just let me show you-”
“No. No, we tried and it’s over now, Ransom. Please just let me-”
“You don’t mean that,” he stated lowly, making his way over to you.
“Stop it,” you warned so quietly you barely heard yourself. “I’m not falling for this again. I’m not falling for you.”
“There’s nothing to fall for, Sweetheart. I love you and you love me,” he rasped as he pressed you against the bathroom wall.
“I’m not strong enough to do this again,” you cried softly. “Please.”
“Just trust me, I won’t-”
“Ransom...if you ever actually loved me...please don’t do this. I’m not strong enough to...please,” you cried looking up at him.
All the determination and intensity in his eyes quickly went away, and was soon replaced by regret. “I don’t want to hurt you-”
“Then please just leave me alone,” you cried pathetically.
All the tension and anger in his face fell away instantly and a softness overcame him.
“Y/N...I just-”
“Please,” you sobbed softly.
Ransom let out a sigh of defeat and stepped aside and you practically ran out of the bathroom.
That night ended with you once again crying in Sam’s arms, inside your bed, until you both fell asleep.
You decided to stay on campus until it was time for break and couldn’t believe how happy you were to be going home. Thirty minutes before you reached your parent’s place, you received a phone call from Harlan. He asked you to come to his Christmas party because he was worried about your mother.
“I love you Harlan and I love my mother, but I really don’t wanna see-”
“Joni isn’t going to be there, darling. Joni, Meg, probably Ransom, and Richard all won’t be there.”
“You’re sure?”
“Positive. Ransom stays away as much as possible, I can’t remember the last time he came to one of these things. Probably not since his grandmother passed,” he heavily sighed. “That’s besides the point though. Will I see you?””
“I’ll be there,” you responded as happily as you could muster.
When you got home and saw your brother’s car you scowled in frustration. After the stunt he pulled the previous Christmas, the relationship between you two had soured greatly.
“You’re home!” your mother squealed happily almost as soon as you stepped foot inside, tackling you with a hug.
“Hi Mommy,” you laughed, trying not to lose your balance.
“Hey Sweetie,” your Father smiled sweetly.
“Father,” you responded curtly, cutting your eyes at him.
“Hey sis,” your bother smiled, as the girl who had her arms around his waist let go of him. She made her way over to you.
“I’m Ashley! It’s so nice to meet you! Your brother talks about you all the time!” she beamed as she held her hand out to shake yours.
“Oh, it all makes sense now,” you smiled as you shook her hand. “You need money,” you laughed towards your brother.
“Y/N, don’t-”
“Don’t even worry about it,” you smiled at him before letting go of his girlfriend’s hand and grabbing your bag. “It’ll be like I’m not even here.”
You quickly made your way upstairs and went to your room, slamming the door shut. You’d been home for all of 5 minutes and you already felt like you couldn’t breathe. You took a deep breath and took a moment to appreciate the silence and comfort of your room. However, your relief was short lived when you looked over at your bed.
The last time you’d been home, you’d been with Ransom. Very much in love, very much together, and very much believing that everything was going to work out just fine.
God, you hated how much you missed him.
You kicked off your boots before slowly making your way over to the bed and climbing in, a small part of you hoping that maybe some of his scent lingered, even though you knew it wouldn’t. You’d never known pain like what you were feeling, and you were truly hoping you’d never have to go through anything like it again.
The soft knock on your door pulled you out of your one woman pity party. “What?” you snapped, irritated that you weren’t being left alone.
“Ya know, you used to be happy to see me,” your brother chuckled as he made his way in.
“Yeah, and you used to not be a piece of shit. Things change.”
“Y/N, I’m sorry, okay? I really am sorry about everything that happened last Christmas. I-”
“I’d really rather not fucking talk about it.”
“I was wrong, Y/N. I’m owning up to that and am accepting full responsibility. I completely understand if you still hate me and never wanna talk to me again, but please don’t take it out on Ashley. She’s been really excited and nervous to meet you, so please just be nice.”
“When am I not nice?”
“When you’re mad at me,” he smirked before making his way over to your bed. “Scoot over.”
“Take your fucking shoes off before you get in my bed,” you cracked, but moving over none the less.
“Yeah yeah, okay mom,” he mumbled before taking them off and getting in next to you.
“Speaking of, how’s she been?”
“Up and down. She took a few pills earlier so I’m guessing dad did some shit.”
“That’s not surprising,” you sighed, looking up at the ceiling. “Harlan wants me to come to his party tomorrow so we can talk about her. He probably wants to put her in treatment or something, and I’m gonna be the one to have to tell him that we’ve already tried that.”
“She’s not your responsibility, sis.”
“I’m all she has. You’re never here, dad’s a piece of shit who just doesn’t care, her friends are fake and on the same meds she’s on, her mother’s dead, and her father’s useless. I can’t just abandon her like everyone else.”
“She’s the adult, Y/N. She knows that this isn’t-”
“Jesus, you sound like Ransom,” you groaned before you could stop yourself.
“Ransom? Ransom Drysdale?”
“Fuck.”
“You’ve been fucking Ransom?! Dad is gonna lose his shit!”
“Stop! Shut up! It’s fucking over anyway.”
“Don’t tell me you fell for him.”
“I really don’t wanna talk about it. Getting through the day is hard enough as is.”
“You’re supposed to be the smart one,” your brother teased, nudging you softly.
“Fuck off,” you laughed.
“You good?”
“In time,” you shrugged, wiping away a lone tear. “In time.”
“I’m gonna get back to Ashley because leaving her alone with mom and dad is a fucking death wish.”
“Yeah, you kind of suck as a boyfriend right now,” you mused. “When are you gonna propose?”
“Christmas.”
“You’re such a fucking dork.”
“Yeah yeah, don’t stay up here too long, okay? Mom misses you...and so do I,” he smiled genuinely before getting up and making his way back downstairs.
From that moment on, you really tried to be in the moment. You went downstairs and made small talk with Ashley, who you actually really liked, and you stayed close to your mother, but you just wanted to vanish. Your mind kept going back to the Hamptons and how much you wish you’ve taken Ransom up on his offer and stayed there. You kept telling yourself that you made the right choice, but the pain you felt made you think differently.
When you got to Harlan’s the next day, you were so emotionally spent that you didn’t even wanna talk about your mother, but you needed to try; if not for you, then for her.
“Harlan, we’ve tried treatment. The problem isn’t the pills...well, that’s part of the problem, but it’s mainly my father. He has everyone in his back pocket and she feels like no one is gonna be in her corner. She isn’t gonna get better until she leaves him, and I don’t know she’ll ever do that,” you sighed in frustration, before taking a sip of your whiskey.
“Is there nothing we can do to get her away from him?”
“She doesn’t like to go on trips without him. She doesn’t like being away from him. At the end of the day, the issue is that she’s too in love with him. Which is something you’d usually want to be the case for your parents, but he doesn’t deserve it. He doesn’t deserve her,” you finished solemnly, looking at your shoes.
“Maybe if-”
“Hey, I just wanted to...oh,” Ransom interrupted as he made his way into Harlan’s study. “Didn’t think you’d be busy.”
“You’re here!” Harlan beamed. “I didn’t think you’d come-”
“I just thought we’d talk, but I can-”
“No, you two talk,” you smiled weakly. “Family is important. Harlan, we can continue this later,” you smiled weakly before heading out of the room.
You only made it a few steps before you heard him call after you. “Y/N please!” he begged as he ran after you.
You stopped and took a deep breath before you turned to face him. “What, Ransom?”
“I didn’t know you’d be here...I’m sorry.”
“It’s fine. He’s your grandfather, I just didn’t think you’d be here,” you replied softly, looking at everything in the area except Ransom.
“I’m trying my best to respect your wishes, but I fucking miss you so much. I’m so sorry and if you could just-”
“This isn’t the place or the time, Ransom.”
“Then where? When? Tell me what to do, please,” he begged softly, slowly making his way over to you.
“I don’t know. I truly don’t because this hurts too much and I’m just...please don’t touch me,” you sobbed as he wrapped his arm around your waist.
“I miss you, baby,” he repeated softly. “Let’s just go away. We can get the fuck out of here and just-”
“That’s now how it works! We can’t just pretend that life doesn’t-”
“Why can’t we? Why can’t we just pack up and move away. Far, far away and fucking be happy? Be together?”
“Ransom-”
“Just...this doesn’t have to be over. I know I fucked up, okay? This is my fault and I did this to us, but we can still...I can do better,” he promised, tears running down his face as he used his forefinger to lift your chin so that you met his gaze. “I love you.”
“I love you too, Ransom,” you confessed breathlessly.
“Do you wanna-”
“I fucking knew it!” your father snapped, seeing you both in the hallway. “You’re trying to fuck my daughter?! You piece of shit!”
“Dad, stop it!” you snapped in a hushed tone.
“You stay away from her! You’re nowhere near-”
“Nothing happened,” Ransom growled as he clenched his fists.
“Bullshit! I know my little girl! I know her and I know that-”
“You don’t know shit about me!” you interrupted, taking a stand in front of Ransom as if you were protecting him. “You don’t get to talk to him like that! You’re worse than he is, but you’re gonna tell him he’s not worthy of me? Of my love?! Jesus, you fuck anything with a pulse and you think you have the right to talk down to anyone?! What I do or don’t do is none of your fucking business!”
“Sweetheart, he’s no good for you!” your father tried to explain calmly. “He’s just gonna break your heart and-”
“You would know, wouldn’t you? You’ve seen all of his tricks and games up close. You’ve heard the lies he’s told women and fucking laughed, because it’s the same shit you’ve been feeding mom for years!”
“This isn’t the same....I’m not-”
“No, you can go fuck yourself!” you spat, “I’m fucking leaving!”
You only got a few steps away before you felt his strong grip on your arm.
“You’re in no condition to drive, let me at least take you home,” Ransom whispered in your ear.
“I don’t need to-”
“Yes you do, babe. You’re drunk and you’re upset. I’ll take you home and I’ll leave you alone, but please don’t drive yourself. Not when you’re like this.”
Once again you found yourself at the mercy of Ransom Drysdale, because how were you supposed to turn him down when he was genuinely concerned about you? When he was very ready to fight your father for you?
You grabbed your coat and followed him to his car, despite your father’s desperate pleas. You let out an angry and frustrated scream the moment you closed the door to Ransom’s Beamer.
“Where do you wanna go? What do you wanna do?” he asked as he started the car and pulled off.
“I don’t want to exist,” you mumbled, slouching down in your seat as you looked out the window. “Just throw me into a fucking ocean and leave me there.”
“Stop it.”
“What? What do you want? I’m heartbroken over you, I’m stressed out over my family, I’m fed up with school, and I feel alone as hell.”
“You’re drunk and upset,” he huffed, keeping his eyes on the road while resting one of his hands on your lap. “What do you want?”
The words left your mouth before you even had a chance to process them. “You.”
“Sweetheart...don’t. Don’t make me-”
“Ransom, it’s the one thing we’re good at. Fucking. If I can’t have you completely, at least let me have you physically,” you begged.
“You’re not thinking straight-”
“Since when do you care? It’s all just sex to you, right?”
“Don’t. Don’t fucking paint me as some monster when I’m trying-”
“I’m not. I’m really not and I’m sorry. You’re not the issue here, everyone else is. Just...you always make me feel better, Ransom. I just want to feel better.”
You spent that night underneath Ransom, both of you telling each other how much you love the other and telling the other how much you both missed one another. Ransom apologized repeatedly as he kissed away your tears, begging for another chance with you. All you could do was beg him to keep loving you, because even in your drunken state, you couldn’t bring yourself to trust him enough to take him back.
When you woke up the next morning, Ransom was already awake and making breakfast. A small smile came to your face as memories of him making you breakfast in bed over summer started to cloud your memory.
“I was trying to have it ready by the time you woke up,” he chuckled softly as you leaned against the kitchen entry way.
“No, it’s fine. You didn’t have to-”
“I wanted to. I miss making you breakfast...I miss doing things for you.”
“Let’s not do this. It’s Christmas and I don’t wanna argue or cry...I don’t wanna hurt you.”
“Then don’t. Just take me back, Y/N. I made a mistake. A mistake that I can’t take back, but I’ll never make again.”
“This is my fault, I shouldn’t have slept with you last night-”
“Just stop!” Ransom snapped, throwing down the plate of food in his hand. “I don’t do this, Y/N! You know me! I don’t beg, I don’t care if I hurt others, and I don’t care who I piss off or offend! But you...you’re the only person who has ever actually given me a chance and I know... I know I hurt you and I hate myself for it. You can’t say that I don’t care though! I fucked up and I told you! I didn’t lie, I didn’t keep it from you, and I didn’t try to spin it and make it your fault! I’ve owned up to it and I’ve done my best to try and be better! I know I don’t deserve a second chance, but this is something worth fighting for! We’re worth fighting for!” he finished, tears streaming down his face.
“I just can’t do it, Ransom,” you all but whispered.
“What if we take it slow? Like we did over Summer?”
“Ransom-”
“Just hear me out,” he desperately begged. “We can start over and just take it slow. There’s no pressure, you’re free to do whatever you want, and we just go from there. I can earn your trust and you’ll see that I can do better. I can be better!”
“Ransom,” you sighed running your hand through your hair.
“Baby please.”
So, you agreed, because resisting Ransom was the hardest thing you’d ever done. Once again, you kept it a secret, but your father wouldn’t leave you alone about him. After arguing about it for the fourth time, you finally told him to stay out of it and to leave Ransom alone. You understood why everyone wanted you to stay away from him, and hell, you wanted to stay away.
But you loved him.
Ransom was everything you’d ever hoped for and more...when he wanted to be.
You tried not to get too wrapped up and lost in him, but after only a month, you were all about Ransom as if nothing ever happened and it was great. You spent weekends together, he came to visit you on campus whenever he had time, he helped you look for places to live after you graduated (though he wasn’t all that helpful since every place he found was close to him), and he laid off the drugs for the most part.
Yes, for the first 3 months, things felt as if nothing had gone wrong at all. You and Ransom were more in love than before, school was going great, your relationship with your brother was on the mend, and your mother was slowly starting to distance herself from your father.
However, Ransom was a time bomb that was always set to self destruct when things are finally going good.
Maybe it was your fault. You hadn’t responded to his texts, but you were in the middle of an interview to be the assistant to one of the best lawyers in Massachusetts. You’d ignored his call after it was over, but you were so excited to tell him and didn’t want to tell him over the phone. You hadn’t given him a heads up that you were on your way, but you wanted to surprise him with the good news.
So no, upon further review, none of it was actually your fault. Ransom was just Ransom and you should’ve known better.
“Fuck! Hugh, don’t stop!” the bartender from the bar you two had gone to last week begged.
“ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!” you screamed, hitting his bedroom door as hard as you could.
“Shit!” he exclaimed, quickly getting to his feet while the bartender tried to cover herself up. “Baby-”
“Don’t fucking ‘baby’ me, you piece of shit!” you screamed as tears started to stream down your face. How the fuck was this happening again?
“I know you’re angry but please just-”
“Shut the fuck up and stay away from me! This?! Me and you?! We’re fucking done! Don’t call me, don’t fucking text me, don’t come to see me...we’re done!”
“Just let me explain-”
“I don’t want your fucking explanation! I want you to fuck off!”
“Y/N, please!” he begged, wrapping his arm around your waist and attempting to pull you close.
“Do not fucking touch me!” you yelled, instinctively pulling away from him. “I hate you!”
“You don’t mean that, Y/N. Please just hear me out,” he sobbed, reaching for you again.
“Ransom, I swear to God, you fucking touch me again and I’ll kill you,” you warned, your anger reaching levels you didn’t think were possible.
“Sweetheart-”
“No, shut the fuck up,” you sobbed in a menacing tone. “I don’t trust you anymore and I don’t want you anymore. Jesus, fuck, I may be damaged goods, but you...you really take the cake, Drysdale.”
“Don’t be like this! Just talk to me!”
“There’s nothing to talk about! Just stay away from me! Stay far the fuck away from me!” you yelled at him before walking out and slamming his front door shut.
That was almost 3 months ago and since then you’ve avoided Ransom to the best of your ability.
Well, almost to the best of your ability.
You hadn’t blocked or deleted his number, you hadn’t blocked him on any of your social media accounts; you constantly went to all of his hangout spots in hopes that you’d just catch a glimpse of him. No, you hadn’t responded to any of his calls, texts, or acknowledged any of his advances, but you also hadn’t really pushed for him to leave your life all together. You still have your photos from the Hamptons, and how the fuck were you supposed to just erase him when you’re unable to forget?
Besides, it’s not like Ransom was any better.
He knew how to play your father like a fiddle, so you knew that it wouldn’t be long before Ransom found a way to get his forgiveness. You knew your father did love you, and his anger towards Ransom was pure, but your father also liked to pretend that he was still in his 20’s. Ransom could get him girls half his age and the best drugs.
Your father was putty in his hands.
Ransom came by your parent’s place every other day, if only just to get a glimpse of you. Most of the times he was smart enough to stay away from you. He knew you’d lose your shit on him without hesitation.
However, when he caught you at your most vulnerable, he had to try. You both knew he was playing dirty in the same way you both knew nothing was beneath Ransom when he really wanted something.
And God, he wanted you.
He succeeded only once.
You’d been in your room crying because for another weekend you couldn’t bring yourself to spend it on campus. You were in fear of seeing him if you went out, just like you were in fear of seeing him with someone else. So you just hid out in your childhood bedroom, crying to ‘Used to Like’ by Neon Trees.
“Y/N?” he asked timidly, making his way into your room in the middle of the night.
“Jesus, what the fuck do you want, Ransom?” you sobbed wiping your eyes, sitting up.
“I heard you crying and I-”
“So what? I’m not yours to worry about. Get out.”
“Baby-”
“Enjoy another night out of hooking up and getting fucked up?”
“I didn’t do anything with anyone, babe.”
“That’s right!” you smiled sarcastically at him, your tears still running freely. “You can only fuck other women when you’re dating me!”
“Sweetheart, if you could just-”
“Stop calling me pet names!” you quietly hissed at him, not wanting to wake your mother. “Is this fun for you?! Fucking with my head? Seeing me like this?!”
“You know it’s not!” he quickly responded, closing the door behind him before making his over to your bed. “I don’t know...there’s no excuse for what I did...how I am. I’m so scared of fucking this up that all I ever do is fuck things up, but I swear I don’t want to. You’re right, I do take the cake for damaged goods, but I don’t want to. I don’t want to be someone else you can’t depend on because you’re my whole fucking world. I swear to God, Y/N...” he finished softly, his own eyes welling with tears. “I love you.”
“Please stop, Ransom. Just leave me alone, if you really love me-”
“I do, baby. So fucking much. A better and stronger man would stay away and respect your wishes, but I’m neither of those things. How can I stay away when we both feel the same way?”
‘You once told me I was all you had, I guess I know life and it doesn’t work like that’ the song played softly in the background.
Maybe it was because you missed him so much, or maybe it was because it had been so long since you’d done anything. Hell, maybe it was simply just because you loved him and you’d never be able to stop, no matter how foolish it made you feel. Whatever the reason was, you gave into him that night. The feeling of him deep inside of you while he pressed soft and feverish kisses all of over had you feeling better than you thought it would.
For just a moment in time, you and Ransom had each other again and everything felt right.
However, morning came quicker than either of you would have liked, and you were kicking him out of your bed before 10am.
From that day on, he didn’t give up, which is why you’re currently sitting on your bed, listening to ‘Heart-Shaped Box’ by Nirvana while reading Edgar Allen Poe’s, ‘The Tell -Tale Heart’. You know it’ll only be a matter of time before he’s at your door, and you really don’t have any fight left in you anymore.
“We gonna do this again or are you finally ready to take me back?” Ransom asks, barging into your room just as ‘I Hate Myself For Loving You’ by Joan Jett and the Blackhearts begins playing.
The universe truly does love making jokes at your expense.
“You’re not even knocking before harassing me now? That sucks,” you mutter, your eyes on your book.
“Y/N, just stop it okay? You told me a month ago that you love while we made love on that very bed!”
“You were fucking me, Ransom. I have a tendency to be way too honest with you when you’re deep inside me, which is my pussy and heart are off limits to you from now until forever.”
“Stop it! Stop acting like-”
“Acting like what?!” you finally snap, slamming your book shut and throwing it across the room. “Acting like you broke my heart? Acting like us doing this stupid little dance doesn’t hurt? Or acting like that no matter what, you still own my heart? What exactly would you like for me to stop doing?!”
“You know I love you-”
“I DON’T BELIEVE YOU! NOT ANYMORE!” you scream, not caring who hears you two. “One time is a mistake! But two?! I caught you two that night! You can’t fucking lie your way out of it or make it seem like I’m overreacting, because I’m not! You wanted me to trust you, and I did! You wanted me to be with you, and I was! You wanted me to love you freely, and like a fucking idiot, I did! I didn’t cheat on you! I didn’t break the promises I made to you!” you scream, doing your best to hold back your tears.
“Y/N...I can’t be the man you need me to be here! I just fucking can’t! They won’t let me and-”
“They?! Who the fuck is they?!”
“My family! My friends! Everyone-”
“Oh fuck off! You’re almost fucking 30! You make your own choices and you need to stop trying to live up to everyone else’s expectations! What about me?! What about what I want?!”
“You don’t get it,” he sighs, frustrated with himself and the situation. “Too much has happened here and I can’t...I can’t change if I stay. If you would please just-”
“I’m done doing things to make you happier and your life easier! I do like it here! I like my favorite coffee place, I like Massachusetts, I like being able to see my mother whenever I want. I like my life here! No, it’s not fucking perfect, and thanks to you and a few other people, it’s got some fucking dark memories for me, but it’s still home! Why do we have to leave for you to choose me over everyone?!”
“I do choose you over everyone!”
“You very clearly don’t!”
“I bought the fucking house, Y/N!” he shouts, throwing his hands up in defeat. “The fucking house and the fucking boat...I bought it! It’s ours and it’s ready to live in! You just have to say you’ll go with me and we’re gone,” he finishes softly, his own tears coming as his exhaustion becomes apparent.
“You...you did what?” you questioned, dumbfounded, taking a few steps back.
“I bought it last month right after we-”
“Why would you do that? Wha...why?!”
“I want to be with you! I want to make this work and be the man you deserve, but this place....Y/N, I just can’t here, but if we leave, just fucking pack our shit and go, I can start over. We can start over and be together. Really be together! No sneaking, no lying, no distractions, no-”
“Ransom, I can’t just leave! I have school-”
“You’re graduating in less than a month! You think they don’t need lawyers in the Hamptons? Hell, half the people there are lawyers!”
“Ransom...no. No, I can’t-”
“Why not? Why can’t we just-”
“Because it doesn’t work like that! This is not a healthy relationship-”
“But it can be,” he pleads. “Just...trust me. I know I don’t deserve it and I know it’s asking a lot, but baby please, just trust me.”
You sit on the edge of your bed, a million thoughts racing through your head. The words he said to you the night before he asked you to go to the Hamptons with him still echoed inside your mind; the words you were supposed to be too drunk to remember.
“I wish I could just take you away with me and we could start over,” he cooed softly in your ear, as you slowly started to give in to sleep. “We could have something real and I could be someone you could be proud of. I wish I wasn’t a fuck up and such a coward. Maybe then I could tell you all of this when you’re sober, so you’d know how much I mean it. Fuck, you have no idea how bad I wanna be someone who’s worthy of your time. Worthy of your love. Love,” he scoffed, wrapping an arm around your waist, “something I never believed in until you came along. Pretty sure I’ve never loved anyone outside of my family, but now...I’m pretty sure I love you, Princess. And that scares the shit out of me.”
What are you supposed to do? Yes, he’s hurt you and you don’t know how much more you can tolerate, but...he bought the house. He bought the house and he really is making his best effort. The best that he knows how.
“Baby, please,” he begs again, getting on his knees. “Just say yes and we can go. We can leave all of this behind, and just be happy.”
You sit there blank faced and dumbfounded because you truly don’t know whether to listen to your head or your heart. As Ransom looks up at you with tears streaming down his face, and desperately pleading eyes, you have to make a decision. Do you make the pain go away by running off with Ransom and trying again (for the third time) or do you make the safe and smart play by standing your ground and staying where you are?
As you stare back at him, you know you’re both wondering the same thing: love or safety? Forgiveness or goodbye?
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Part 2
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