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imjustavenuxwithaboomerang · 5 months

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istg istg istg

if OH MY GOD if there's less zeddison moments in z4 because meg's dating drake right now ISTG I'M GOING TO SOB

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doctorwhoarchive · 1 year

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was debating if I should post this or not bc I don’t love how it turned out.. but screw it here’s my Melissa drawing

#this is the first digital drawing I’ve ever done #and first drawing in general that I’ve done in like 10 years #so it’s a little rough but it took me too long to not post #I went a little crazy on the dogs and I feel like they look too realistic compared to her but it’s fine #my school sent me an ipad and drawing tablet and everything so I figured I should actually use them #maybe I’ll draw sam and tara stuff too #my art #melissa barrera

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vse-kar-vem · 6 months

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how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on #either way #im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred 💔#if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me #again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these 😭 fhskfbhsjfkg #i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever #but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do #and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying #like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative #but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me #oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you #but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't #like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it)#i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me 💔 which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable!#fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it #and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier #of my friendships #wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up #the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom)#i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a #'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order #not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i #may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me !#sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these 😭#vee rambles

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bangcakes · 9 months

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#personal #keep being like. if Only i had talked to him sooner. if Only i had been Friendlier sooner. but its like #Realistically.... probably wasnt ready. and also like. itd have to happen after school was over anyway bc 1. um i need to focus on school #and 2. how Awkward if i asked him out n he said no. or say we broke up or soemthing #like there were weeks i saw him every day. aint no way... i could handle the awkwardness of that #so ok ok ok. everything is fine JFJFJKFKFKFMFMFMFMFMF #i just have to remember not to get in my own head about it #like if i wanna message him i just should.....#its just..... hhhhHHhhhhh whyd this have to happen to me at 29. i could have been a happy spinster thank u NFJFJFJFJJFJFJFJF #but now ik what having an actual crush is like and oh wow is it painful. but also beautiful n fun. i just...... and lets face it this is #more than a crush. like its definitely Like like but i dont wanna say the Real L Word bc it seems..... idk JDJDJJDJD #but ive definitely um.... fallen. ya. ew JDJDKDJKDKDKDKDKS #but im just gonna follow my gut or whatever the fuck has been guiding me bc things have worked out so far #and like it wouldnt have without his participation. like ya....#im just like... what if he Forgets about me or like everything fizzles out #but then its like i Know if i see him again itll all come back.#bc in the summer i tried so hard to get over him (and kinda succeeded)... only to see him again in class and be like oh fuck oh no and the #n That Dinner. that was the final blow. i was so overwhelmed i got lost on the way home #which... the restaurant we were at is less than 10 mins from my house so you can imagine the uh Overwhelmingness #i cant even remember the original point of this but. i think we'll find a way ....... i say we but i should say 'i' bc until he tells me #that he likes me im gonna have to like Not Assume. hhhh #it doesnt help either that ppl were bringing up 'hes just not that into you' on twt bc Now im like #oh God. am i in that kind of situation???? i doubt it tho. i think hes just reserved. GAH. whatever happens happens

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grayintogreen · 3 months

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That “hazbin needed filler” post got me thinking how all these intermission fics for Roseverse are my “filler” episodes which makes them more justifiable beyond following my heart, but then I felt bad because I’m not writing them for every character.

#like yes realistically everything with Cherrisnake is off-screen and we’re learning so little about them #im adding throwaway lines everywhere to account for things that happened in the six months before the divergence #and that’s fine!! it proves I’m constantly thinking about where characters stand #but at the same time I feel BAD for my biases #which is dumb this is a fanfic series like ten people are following #and the number drops with every additional fic because it’s just so huge #I cannot focus on everything #anyway the third book does focus on more characters is four times as long #so like… that’s something #but I’m probably not going to do any Pentious-centric intermissions #even though I should #anyway this is a long panic spiral about nothing #red roses and dead things

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nightflame22 · 5 months

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Hm. Don't love experiencing The Horrors™ every time I make plans to go see my family.

#realistically nothing's going to happen and everything will be fine #but theres always the possibility that we'll get into a Conversation #and that possibility is always more likely than it really should be #nyeh

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thesmallworldofsamizayn · 7 months

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i have something very personal and ugly and probably incoherent that i need to get off my chest about israel. to preface im not a zionist, i am jewish and disgusted by israel on a daily basis, and this is me mostly speaking from that. i am sorry and if anyone who follows me doesn't want to read this from me/hates it i ask that you just scroll on by and forget it. and if you do read it and respond im happy to talk but just please take it in good faith. in reponse to this post

#it's not black and white. maybe in purely theoretical moral dilemma terms it seems that way. but not in reality.#what do you do with an israel that should not exist on principle but does? it does and the people in it have been there for generations now #and it's jewish. this DOES complicate things and i wish people would stop pretending it doesn't.#it makes everything literally everything so. fucking. complicated.#cause you end up with this implicit ultimatum: side with hamas or be a zionist. what other options are there under this world view #if you only think israel should stop mass murdering palestinians but speak in favour of 2 state solution or talk about 'right to exist'#are you saying you're fine with everything else; the occupation was justified just not outright genocide?#it always has to go back to the ideological origin of zionism which means a call to abolish the state of israel entirely.#and in parallel if you talk of atrocities on 7 october or terrorists this takes away from the palestinian struggle right #because hamas are the armed resistance to israel and to call for their condemnation to withdraw support from the unrwa #is to renounce solidarity with the palestinian cause in any way that matters. do you really care if you deny them the right to resist?#but here's the other side. you just cannot ask this of jews. maybe some jews but the vast majority? telling them they need #to essentially throw their support behind an organisation that hates their existence?#hamas ARE antisemitic. the houthis are antisemitic #it's a different kind of antisemitism to the white/aryan supremacist kind. it's complex and it comes with an actual weight of grievances #but it's still antisemitism. the future desired by the resistance is not kind to jews certainly not in palestine and realistically #not anywhere else either. islamophobia and antisemitism have both seen huge upticks since 7 october. do you think it's just #nazis and far right bigots enjoying free reign? no. there is a real inter ethnic inter religious hatred here. you can't just wish it away #there's a real sense i get from the circles i follow here that you have to be 'all in' with your activism or else your views are worth shit #but then i guess it's okay if your wholehearted antizionist rhetoric is just a bit antisemtic as well or supports those who are #so yeah actually for jews this is not an easy solution. at least for this jew it is not. the only uncomplicated thing for me #s seeing what israel does and calling it a crime against humanity and demanding an immediate ceasefire #talking unreservedly about the evil that israel has committed against palestinians for decades #i wish it was as uncomplicated as going from that to saying israel needs to disappear completely. but im jewish and i have a jewish family.#i cant boycott my father like a problematic celebrity for getting upset when i said israel should never have been established at all #i cant sit in judgment of every jew who feels some personal connection to israel when i'm 2 degrees removed from victims of 7 october #anyway. me personally i fucking loathe israel. not Just Its Government i hate the mocking cruelty of its army and many people in it #and also for how it is tied up with jewish identity despite me wanting no part of it. whether i like it or not.

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astrxealis · 1 year

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leveilleur twins favorite twins best twins no competition

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#i am also insanely biased but that is not the point here #as a twin myself you see i also have more uh say other what makes the best twins so LMFAOO ??#i love them sooo much oh my god #i'm more. leaning towards alisaie personally but my twin likes alphinaud more!#it's really cute to me bcs i'm also more red she's more blue i'm younger she's older and personalities fit tbh #but aside from that. the leveilleur twins mean so much to me can you tell i obvs cried w that garlemald scene #that whole place scared me tbh i was really hoping nothing bad wld happen to them my god i was pissed af #i'm really proud of their development and love how they're both reaaally good characters #you have alphinaud struggling w ofc what happened w the crystal braves and alisaie she keeps dealing with people close to her dying #have not played 6.3 but i amfekhdiwnfis alisaie ...... my girl my love #look it's also fine for me to like alisaie that way as a fictional character bcs i am literally the same age LMFAO she is everything to me #often twins in media don't really appeal to me. like. i mean they do but personally i find the leveilleurs to be the best #i actually relate to them which is really nice? and they're actually realistic lmfao #it's funny though that they're opposite gender but identical. which should not be possible. so that implies yeah LOVE IT LMFAO #okay tht's all for now anyway i just love love love them two sooo much #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚#alisaie leveilleur #alphinaud leveilleur

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rosicheeks · 2 years

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What's like one big goal you're hoping to accomplish this year?

(PS I hope you don't get COVID! Even a "mild" case sucks, my sense of taste has yet to fully recover months later!)

Oh BOY that’s a complicated question hahahah. To try and put it simplistic as possible - figure out what I want to do with my life. Or like what path to take?

#first of all thank you! I really hope I don’t get it either. I mean I’m not super worried about me cause I know it’ll suck but I’ll be fine #but now that I live with my parents I’m scared that I’ll accidentally give it to them and both of them aren’t doing the best physically #but there’s nothing I can do now…. tbh I’ve been slacking with masks and being cautious so I should probably go back to that #masks are just expensive and I’m broke #need to either find my disposable or buy new ones #I hope your taste comes back soon!!! that sounds awful 😔#anywayyy to your question #right now I just kinda feel lost in life #I need to feel like I’m going somewhere again #cause right now I just feel like I’m in limbo????#obviously would love to figure out my mental bullshit but idk how realistic that is #honestly would just love to figure out everything that’s wrong with me so I can start to feel idk normal?#idk this is probably more loaded than you were expecting haha #but especially ever since the move I’ve been so fucking lost and I want to figure out my life but idk where to even start ya know #but yeah I guess that’s my goal #on a smaller scale I would love love love to get more traffic and sales on my Etsy #I just really want to make my Etsy shop a way to be creative and make money at the same time #cause paint and art shit is expensive 😭#and when you’re already broke it’s hard to justify buying paint or canvases ya know #buuuuut if I get more sales and a bigger profit then maybe it’ll be worth it???#also I LOVE seeing my paintings somewhere else its just so bittersweet #cause I love my paintings so much so it’s hard to let go of them #but the thought of someone else hanging them up and seeing them everyday????#it’s so heartwarming 🥺#like I could help warm up your space???? with color and some love 🥰💖#I just love it so much #thanks for the question lovely 🥰🥰🥰#ask #lovely mutuals

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distantwave · 2 years

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#really think I actually need to find a psychiatrist one of these days #not to quote my shitty roomie but I really don’t have to live like this #I am. doing not as bad as I have at other points. but I am definitely not doing great I would say #like I mean things are fine at the moment. but there’s definitely the edge of a precipice kinda feeling to it #like I do really enjoy my job that’s a really good thing for me actually and I finally found a place to live so that’s excellent but #I do REALLY think I need to get help before I move out. which realistically isn’t going to happen bc it’s less than a month away #but uh. I am. not going to do well on my own admittedly. sure I was practically living on my own the last few months in the last place #just bc no one would speak to me. but there were still other people in the house. I think my potential for getting really bad again is #perhaps going to be alarmingly high if I’m on my own without a roommate or a therapist/physiatrist to figure shit out #I don’t want it to take away how excited I am to live at my new place but I genuinely should not be on my own. like practically I’m fine #it’s mentally I won’t do well with it I think #on a totally different note tho if I did ever end up getting diagnosed with what I think I’ve got going on it opens up a ton of #diners drive ins and dives jokes for me lmaoo #so that’s something I guess lol. but yea anyways idk what to do really. am bad at bridging what I can bring up to people and what I can’t #as that is literally one of the defining reasons my relationship with her fucking crashed and burned. so idk when/what/how much I can #talk about things anymore. went from telling no one anything and it completely ruining my closest friendship. to telling her everything and #it ALSO ruining our friendship. so my grasp of what’s appropriate is evidently nonexistent ya know. but I do need to talk to someone bc #I am perhaps doing less than optimal ya know? and I don’t really want to go back to my last therapist I feel like it’s been too long #don’t know what my plan of action is here but this was slightly cathartic at least

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needsmustleap · 2 months

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every few days i go into office, fumble social interactions, and leave

#needs must say things #it's fine. it's fine. ill try again next time. i'll try better!#everything changes nothing is static i can redeem myself in the eyes of the ppl i work on the same floor with #thinking i should bring cookies as an ice breaker/apology/i'm not a snob just a freak......... but that involves making cookies and i have #so many dishes i need to do and laundry this weekend and it's hot :////#but maybe i can just slowly prepare things so i just have to throw them together and bake during the week. that's totally realistic yep yep

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fingertipsmp3 · 3 months

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That last post just reminded me of something honestly mind-boggling that that friend did

#so i’d just gone back to uni after being home for the weekend and i messaged my friend to let her know #and she said ‘oh awesome i’m studying in the library with my friends from my course all day; come up!’#i lived a 15 minute bus ride from campus and had a free pass so it wasn’t a problem at all for me to get myself there #(and i went to campus tons anyway. like i think i went to the library once a day that whole year to be honest. i was writing my dissertation #so even though i didn’t like her friends (they were snooty; cliquey; all the guys would try to flirt with you in creepy ways) i said ‘sure’#but there was one problem: i’d left my wallet at home. my grandma had lent me some cash as soon as i’d realised (too far into the journey to #go back) and i’d be fine for the few days it took for someone to get my wallet to me; but i didn’t have my student ID #and i needed that to get to the upper floors of the library. where my friend and her friends were #SO i communicated that to her and she was like ‘yeah of course i’ll let you in! just let me know when you’re there’#so i did that and got no response. didn’t think anything of it. but then she messaged saying something about how her friends were having an #argument; someone was having a breakdown and she couldn’t come down right then #i was like ‘fine take a few minutes’ but i was obviously annoyed because what do you mean?? just walk away for a second #use me to diffuse the situation and change the subject if you have to?#so i said to let me know when she was coming down but i didn’t hear anything and it was crowded as fuck on the ground floor of the library #so i think i gave her like 10 minutes and just went to the business school’s cafe #nearly an HOUR later my phone rang and it was evidently her standing in the reception area of the library wondering where i was #i was like did you honestly think i’d still be waiting?? did you think i had nothing better to do with my life than wait around #like a schmuck to hang out with you and your godawful friends who i don’t like. jesus christ #and i mean it’s still not the most insane way she’s disrespected my time. like a few months after that she called me asking if i wanted to #go for a walk. i said ‘yeah’ and proceeded to get ready and everything. waited for her. she’s like ‘actually i need to do x’#then i didn’t hear from her. after like an hour i gave up and started working on my dissertation #she pulled up to my house THREE HOURS after she initially called and was absolutely bamboozled when i said i no longer wanted to go #on a walk and that i was working on my dissertation and had gotten in the zone #like if you’re going to be That late you’ve gotta tell people. you can’t expect them to still be waiting on you #past a certain point; especially with no communication; i just assume i’ve been stood up and i go do something else #because like realistically why the hell WOULDN’T i go do something else if i more than likely have 3 hours to do it in lmao #i can’t with this type of behaviour. i really think she thinks other people don’t have lives #or want to hang out with her so badly that they’re willing to sit around for hours waiting #i just think she should manage her ego to be honest #personal

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halfbit · 3 months

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i am getting started on productivity for the night but haven't figured out yet if i want to write or art first and there's also the tiny part of my brain that just wants to stare at kabru until it is ok to stop staring at kabru

#i don't talk about fandom stuff much here since i don't really get involved with it #but i do fixate on characters and right now i am circling around him like a wolf #tempted to draw him too but i can never capture his big beautiful eyes properly #i've also been tempted to draw beefcake laios but UHHhh thats for another day and i dont know if i will share that LOL #i finished the manga but i haven't had the energy to watch more of the show so i'm just thinking about the characters on my own and going :#also contemplating if i should draw a pride pfp (unrelated)#basically there is so much to do and it is overwhelming to work through the list #and i keep wanting to add more to it #also need to promo my commissions again more and add those sketches still but trying to figure out how to price them and don't have the #energy to type up explanations for them yet blagh #and i'm trying to balance that “realistically- i need more income coming in” with also “but i can't overwhelm myself with tasks”#<- which is very unambiguously clear that i do that just fine even without working on things for other people #is it obvious that my therapist relocated and i haven't been given a new one yet.#i can therapize myself So Good (actually overthinking and spiraling)#<- but please do not worry this is actually not a bad spiral which is good it is just a “things to do” spiral but it is fortunately #missing the key component of doom and horror and the world ending because i did not accomplish everything right #which is what a bad spiral contains and i've actually been on a pretty good streak avoiding those lately in spite of circumstances!#but if i linger on it it will probably turn into a lie so i will stop doing that #speaking of shows i watched the new episode of kaiju no. 8 today and i am just aggghrrhekrjskfj #i love hoshina so much #and he's been getting a lot of focus in these episodes so im happy #i love the way they animate his fights like!! wow #i need to watch them all on sakugabooru later #but i can't tonight if i want to do things #but i will later because they deserve frame-by-frameing #also i'm going to go pick up two volumes of wind breaker tomorrow i think #unfortunately i ordered them before i learned my hours were getting cut but #i have enough to cover my bills this month and since i'm not buying lunches or dinner for myself anymore because i'm not leaving the house #i'd rather just get them now instead of worrying about someone else buying them if i take too long #and let that be my last personal purchase for awhile

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sadlazzle · 7 months

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the whole right side of my chin and bottom lip r still very much numb … if it persists past the end of the week perhaps it’d be a good idea to call and mention it …

#i mean the dentist did say afterwards tht everything looked fine n there was no apparent nerve damage #so by all accounts the numbness should go away within a few weeks #but i think it’s still something id like to be certain about and realistically know my options/the outcomes #plum.txt

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papus-clown-enclosure · 7 months

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Me at idk how long after i finished todays reading and getting ready for sleep and then haunted by my thoughts: now isnt the time to go thru a crisis

Lmao im fine