#reeading wrap up

[asexualbookbird]

What a good month for reading! I got through all books I wanted to read, plus some extras! Read a stack of graphic novels that have been sitting on my floor for months, AND books I've been meaning to read for ten thousand years. I deserve a medal to be honest. I played through most of Cult of the Lamb, which is very fun. I just have to big boss to beat, but I needed a break. Had a great time watching Good Mythical Evening, and made irresponsible book purchases with friends. What. A. Month.

Tress and the Emerald Sea by Brandon Sanderson ⭐ snore, snooze, boring, I have read more entertaining cereal boxes

To Shape A Dragon's Breath by Moniquill Blackgoose ⭐⭐⭐⭐ fun! thought provoking! Full of dragons! My only complaint was the lore was info dumped, but otherwise a very good read!!

Record of a Spaceborn Few by Becky Chambers ⭐⭐⭐ my least favorite Wayfarers so far, but I'm interested in how the audiobook version is because I enjoyed the first book better when I listened to it and I think I will feel the same about this one

The Unconquered City by KA Doore ⭐⭐ I'm sorry, this was my least favorite of the trilogy. I started it like five different times since it was released and I thought it was me, but we simply did not vibe

Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao ⭐⭐⭐⭐ I see why people are feral over this one. I would have liked more in depth world building and think it would've worked better as an adult novel than young adult, but overall a fun read

Beetle and the Hollowbones by Aliza Layne ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ WHAT A CUTE LITTLE GRAPHIC NOVEL! The art is fun, I adore the colors, and not to be dramatic but I would take on a scary necromancer for Blob Ghost

Kakuriyo 1-4 by Waco Ioka and Midori Yuma - I don't like rating individual manga volumes, I prefer to rate series as a whole, but so far! This is a good one! Reminds me of Ancient Magus' Bride but with more food

Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo ⭐⭐ okay my expectations were low so I wasn't exactly let down by this, but phew this sure is a debut novel from 2013 huh! I look forward to Six of Crows lololol the bones are there, but where is the muscle

SO MUCH READING it's almost as if I've been stressed out or something haha Surgery is next week, but also! I've hit some road bumps in life. My dog needs dental surgery and I'm upset about it. I'm trying to figure out crowd funding because oof I do NOT have 800 dollhairs for this. I do also have some stickers I made and didn't tell anyone about that I'm going to share soon. So. Look out for those lolsob

Please let September be kind, please,

[imjustheremam]

Can you do a Yandere Phobos general headcanon please?

Ok!! Phobos you god complex freak I'm coming for you!!

READ REEAD!!! Warnings: this is a Gender Neutral reader, Obsession, he has God complex, kidnapping, Murder, PDA, Possessive, Manipulation and Forced relationship, Threats, Suggestive things, Forced kissing, Biting, punishment and torture.

PHOBOS

Ok... I honestly hope you die really soon or leave Nevada really soon because good lord this dude is the WORST...

If its You that made this man obsessed with you, I need you leave Nevada and never come back!! But if it's someone else then your lucky...

Phobos is the type of yandere to force his obsession into a relationship even if means he has to break them...

Now remember Phobos has god-complex so this man well makes sure you worship him even if your different....

If your a scientist, agent, soldat, engineer, or an enemy to him... he doesn't give two shits he WILL make you worship him...

He is obsessed with you aswell as possessive with you...

Now he won't stalk you... but...will send his agents and soldats after you and his minions will be questioning there purpose after spying on you...

Poor minions have to deal with phobos stupid obsession and commands...anyway...

If he sees you with your friends, say bye bye because the moment phobos sees them they will be nothing more than food for the crows...

Phobos will send his minions to kill your friends. Oh wait is your friend one his minions...guess what BAM!! They're gone...

Now when phobos had enough of spying on you for too long, he will send his minions to kidnap you. But depending how you act...

...You might get beat up for trying to resist...and Phobos will be angry as fuck...

And yes he will punish them....

Now after the kidnapping, he will keep you very close to him where you belong...

remember Phobos has god complex...yeah he also wants you to give him all the attention and worship him like the God he is...

But if you dare to give one of his scientist like crackpot or other attention he will ruin the moment by just either sending them away or straight killed them right infront of you....

Yea you have no friends...but that o- yea that is not ok...

Anyway if you been a good girl/boy/grunt he will reward you with affection and cuddles, he will even spoil you and probably secretly worship but unnoticed by everyone including you...

Oh but if you don't act like one, he will punish you and punishments are horrible like God damn you won't survive...

Also I need you to kiss him before he grabs you head and kisses you roughly because it's fucking scary and I know it...

He likes to bite you on your shoulder because it's probably the best place for him to show that he owns you and no one else....NO ONE ELSE...

now threats is not even a threat...it's a FACT, if you ever disobeyed him and act like a "bitch" this man will threatened you saying he will punish you and actually will do it... so behave...

Now you be force to be his little goddess, pet, or servant... depending on how you act... but hey atleast he spoils you...if you behave

Ok he will do PDA... like literally... but I don't like to talk about that so were gonna skip it....

Now Manipulation is something else... because it depends on how things go

if he had kidnapped you first, Manipulation won't work on you that much but you being in harms away, his words might persuade you...

Now if it was before he kidnapped you, I believe he would have easily have you wrap around his fingers, even if you work for the enemy he still gonna have it is way why? Because his a G O D

"Don't disobey me... pet/servant, you don't wanna end up like the others...do you?...so be a good pet/servant and obey your god..."

Bonus player and Viewer:

Now you probably know about a few aus about player, except for viewer that a new au I made up...

For Player being a world of madness that has godly powers is too much so this is what I would think of player

Is player(aka you) would have some ability like able to control the main 4 and others like puppets and can use cheat codes...

but even that power can't save you from phobos obsession...

But lucky for player they can control the main 4 and others, making him struggle more and probably would die trying to get to you...

Phobos wouldn't worship you why? Because their can only be one true god here and thats... him

instead he would force you into a relationship even if you disagree... but the relationship his going to be violent one...

Player may be able to use cheat codes but phobos will always get them back

Now Viewer

Despite you being a "God" in their world, your still a fragile human and phobos knows...

He even might try to break the game rules if he has to...

Viewer(aka you, again) isn't from the game we all know but the cartoon series we all know, as their ability is to rewind or go forward like a viewer...

Viewer can pause and move around but can't move the characters in the series...

However, when player pauses the game they can't move only go on menu but, for viewer it's quite the opposite...

But unlike player being called a God, viewer is call a parasite or a unknown entity in their cartoon world...

Now phobos can easily take advantage of viewer because viewer can't fight back...

But phobos would also be enraged, because viewer can just rewind the video and basically not let phobos capture them...

But then again viewers are more weaker and fragile than player, and it takes them like a few minutes or more to pause or rewind the video...

Just like any other phobos he wants you to worship him and force you into a relationship but it would be more of a... crazier than the game version of phobos...

Both phobos are the same but cartoon would be the worst...trust me viewer can fight or do anything so if viewer is trapped and can't use their rewind ability...their fucked...

Yeah now it's time for me to work on one-shot Sanford. I hope you like it if not then sorry to disappoint you buddy... here have a gif:

[hwauas]

🕊️: "the part of me that's you"

kang yeosang | 강여상 - 1,507 words

he used to keep reeading, again and again, your letters. all of them. the ones you sent him. the short ones you put in his locker back in highschool. the ones you gave him for his anniversaries, or for each one of your month anniversaries.

it was hurting him, but it was his sweet utopia; you were here, by his side, from the very first word to the very last one.

you had always ended the letters by ‘the part of me that's you will never die’. and he trusted this. this sentence always had his heart skip few beats. he never felt that loved before. and he felt safe by your side. you were accepting him with his qualities and flaws. you were loving his whole being and not only his body and face. you were cherishing every part of him; his behaviour even though he sometimes was rude, the way he thinks, the way he talks.

but, he didn't know why, he suddenly had anything anymore from you. no messages, no calls, no letters. not even you. nothing. he thought someone had kidnapped you, so he warned the police department. nothing. any tracks of you even though the investigation lasted for months. nothing.

and he slowly lost the last hopes he had. he had to admit it; he lost his beloved one, his soulmate.

he often though it was because of him. not caring enough, not good enough, not demonstrative enough, not kind enough. after all, who would like to have their someone not perfect enough?

but he then thought it was something else. you were so in love with each other, and you spent almost 4 years with him. how could you have been dealing with him for so long if you indeed never liked him this much?

it was hurting him to be this lost. he didn't know where you were.

maybe you were still alive? but where? maybe you forgot about him? maybe you were married now? maybe you were a mom?

how many times did you both talk about being parents. about getting married and about having your own children. it was your life goal.

but you left, and you took this dream with you.

as always, Yeosang came out to check his letter box. maybe he would find, someday, something from you? where there's life there's hope.

as he opened his letter box, the only thing he saw was a little sheet. he took it, and suddenly his heart was beating really fast. adrenaline was rushing through his veins. he could recognise your handwriting among millions.

‘did you forget about me? because the part of me that's you never died.’ was what you wrote on the sheet.

“y/n?” he looked around him. he wanted to find you. maybe you were nearby? hidden somewhere as you were looking at his reaction?

but the only thing he saw was a little girl that was running to him. she was very young, and he could tell she learnt how to walk properly not too long ago.

she held onto Yeosang's leg, crying. but Yeosang didn't know how to react. was she lost? was she scared of something?

he kneeled down, and took both her tiny hands. “are you lost, baby?” but he got any answer. he didn't know if it was because she was crying or if she just couldn't talk.

he tried to calm her down, and hugged her tightly.

after a moment, he pulled away to look at the tiny human being in front of him. “are you good now baby?”

she nodded, and this was enough to melt his heart.

she looked incredibly cute. the way she nodded had woken up his desire to be called a father by your side.

but he had to help her before letting his emotions getting the most of him.

“where are you parents..?” he asked, but she stayed still. she just looked into Yeosang's eyes.

the girl's gaze reminded him of someone, but he couldn't tell who. it was like he already met her. maybe he was crazy, but it felt like she wasn't unknown to him.

behind him, Yeosang heard footsteps coming closer. the little girl in front him looked up and went to take your hand.

“she.. she can't talk.. she never talked..” you shyly said, looking down at her. 

Yeosang's heart stopped as he heard your voice. he straightened up and turned around to face you.

you were here. he waited for this day to come for so long. and now, he felt stupid for not knowing what to do.

“y/n..? i- i can't believe..” without realising, tears were forming into his eyes and rolling down his cheeks.

he couldn't express what he was feeling at this moment.

he was relieved you were here. but he was kinda lost too.

where were you all this time? why did you leave him? why didn't you come back earlier?

the little girl took Yeosang's hand, and brought him to reality.

“i-is she.. yours..?”

with a little smile, you shook your head as a no. “she's ours. you are her father.”

Yeosang was shocked by your word. you looked deep in his eyes, signaling him it was right. and at this moment, Yeosang recognise the same gaze as the little girl's. if she was his, he could tell she was yours.

“i waited for you for so long y/n.. where were you..?”

you sighed a little, and bent over to pick up the baby. “let's talk about this somewhere else.”

Yeosang nodded and invited you to come in, where you used to live. he let you in, and locked the door behind you.

nothing had changed. it was the same house you left.

you went into the living room, and sat on the sofa. you let your baby walk around, but she stayed quite close to you.

“i had to leave. without saying this to anyone. i'm sorry.” you said as you were fiddling with you own fingers. the little girl noticed it, and went into your arms to cuddle you — or to have cuddles. Yeosang frowned, not sure about what he should understand from this.

“i told you i was in bad liaison with my family, and that's why i had to leave. he would have done anything to hurt me. i was scared for our baby. and for you. so far, you were only my boyfriend. but what if he learnt you were also my baby's father..? i don't want anything to happen to both of you..” you hugged your baby so tightly in your arms, as if it would be easier for you to face Yeosang's reaction.

Yeosang put a hand on your thigh and softly stroked it. he still couldn't believe you were here again, by his side..

“nothing will happen to any of us. i promise. i just.. want you to stay by my side now. it hurts to lose the person you love. it hurts so damn much.. i couldn't stop thinking you left because of me..” he said as he lowered his voice.

“if it was your fault, i would have not keep her when i learnt about my pregnancy, and i would have not come back either.”

Yeosang hesitantly wrapped an arm around you. he held you close, and landed his eyes on the little human being that was his baby. his daughter. he softly grabbed one of her tiny hands.

“y/n.. why can't she talk..?” he asked you, but was still staring lovingly at the baby.

“i don't know.. she never talked. she never said anything. i tried to get her saying mama or dada. nothing. she never babbled. but according to the doctors, she should have make sounds already, and she should have say her first words already. they think it's not a physical problem with her vocal cords or something. she's maybe just a little bit late.”

Yeosang softly picked her up and sat her in his lap, facing him.

“so baby never talked..? why you never talked..?” he kissed her forehead, and softly hugged her. he closed his eyes, enjoying this moment. he was meeting his daughter. he couldn't be happier.

“i showed her some pictures of you almost everyday. she knows your face know. and she recognised you lately. that's also why she ran to you. because she finally got to meet her father.” you were smiling, looking at the two loves of your life hugging each other.

“dada..” she whispered. your eyes widened. “dada!” she said loud enough to be heard. your eyes were watering.

Yeosang was shocked. he pulled away from the hug, and looked at her.

it was the first time you got to hear her voice.

“dada..? that's me..? i'm your dada? i'm.. your dada..!” Yeosang said as he lifted her up in her arms to hug her tighter than before. “i'm here now princess. dada won't never leave you again.”

she babbled, letting you both know she was happy. “dada!”

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