#relooping to hell

[carsonian]

[solar-cycle]

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when i have the same dream more than once there's often a moment where i realise "wait, i've been here before" and change my actions from the previous instance accordingly as if i'm trying to beat my best run in a video game level or something. no idea if this is a common experience or just another point in the mountain of evidence that there's something wrong with me on a fundamental level.

[saltylandland]

Idia cucks Leona with blackmail 🥺

Word count: 722

Looking at the video on his phone you can see a distorted reflection, you can clearly make out Leona but most of your body is hidden from view, your moans and the heavy sound of skin against skin fills the room. Leona’s ears are pinned back in anger, not bothering to hide it as he stares daggers onto the creep across from him.

“Wouldn’t it… wouldn’t it be a shame for this to go viral?” The creep smirks as he sees the horrified look on your face grow as a deep growl reverberated throughout the room. “The second prince, so brazenly taking his lover out in the open, ah, what a headline that would be.”

All Leona wanted to do was to attack this guy, he was unrestrained and the urge to turn him into sand was growing bigger and bigger but he had to keep a level head. Although his name looked like it was the only thing on the line, he knew you could be in serious danger too. So he stayed silent. The creep smiled at Leona’s restraint. “This could just all disappear right now, if you do me a favour”. Before he could refute that, you suddenly spoke up. “What do you want?” Fear was evident in your tone, making Leona’s heart clench.

“My request is simple, let me fuck you, for however long I need-“ looking over at Leona his smirk grows “and let him watch” a shroud of silence quickly followed, the only noise being the video relooping around. Leona was thinking of what damage control he’d have to do next, how he’ll have to deal with the sex tape scandal, as well as the murder charge to soon follow that he almost didn’t hear your voice.

“I’ll do it.” Looking at each other you silently try to plead for Leona to calm down. You didn’t want to complicate Leona’s life any more, you just hoped this won’t damage your relationship too much. Leona could only look down, he would never admit it but tears of frustration threatened to fall as he felt so helpless. He wanted to protest, to protect you from this creep and deal with the consequences later, but this was your choice. He’s the one who got off easy, and yet you’re still strong.

Trapping you on his lap, the creep wastes no time and starts to grope at your body, moving fabric away to access what he wants. From there he gives you a bottle of lube to prep yourself, while he shreds your clothes like a doll. The experience was jarring as even at Leona’s roughest, he always made you feel like a goddess. Every time Leona comes close to looking away, the creep snaps his fingers “keep your eyes on us, lion” while you play with yourself on his lap. Roughy grabbing near the roots of your hair, the creep obnoxiously makes out with you, his lipstick smeared across your lips.

Soon enough he has you straddled on his lap, your breasts close enough to suck on so he does exactly that. While you sink on his girth slowly, you start to regret not stretching yourself more, he was so big.

Like clockwork, a familiar sound to the video is heard around the room. But the moans were louder, the pants were heavier, and the skin on skin smacking noises were wetter.

Of course the creep made you cum, he’s not that selfish. Multiple times actually. But he doesn’t hesitate to come inside you either. Grabbing your ass to hold you down as he comes, fucking you doggy style as he made Leona come closer to get a better look, fucking you in missionary as he paints you with his cum. Then in a mating press as he frantically humps you like a dog in heat, licking messily at your lips, kissing you sloppily.

And he keeps going, surprisingly strong stamina for someone like him. It’s only till you begged him for a break, overstimulated to hell and back, where he relented… and let you clean up his cock with your tongue, roughly guiding your head back and forth on his girth as your struggling sounds to swallow as much as he was forcing down your throat rang out in the room.

And all Leona could do was watch.

[rhettdempsey]

an unexcused absence // self para

summary: in which rj has an identity crisis and loses something most precious to her. 

Her eyes woke up red and puffy as the night before. She had only hope she was having a nightmare, but just like the morning before it wasn’t. Rubbing back the sleep from her eyes, she rose from the couch for the millionth time this week. She’d felt so depressed she hadn’t even managed to make it to her own bed.

‘ Mum? Dad?’, RJ’s voice strained out, looking for a hope of company. She’d been alone for over two and a half weeks now and she had just hoped for somebody to come save her from this hell hole. Her mind was slowly beginning to darken, and she felt those weeks of therapy were slowly draining from her mind. She was being consumed by the darkness. 

It all started the day she got a call at school from her mother two and a half weeks ago. She could remember the vision very clearly since it was being played on loop in her mind three times a day.  

It had been a great start of the day for RJ. She’d received her first C from her Chemistry test, and for once no panic attack had started to come. ‘It feels so wonderful out today.’, she thought as she walked out of the science buildings and heading her way straight towards the university center for lunch. ‘Blessed.’, she silently muttered to herself as she realized, she had gotten out of class twenty minutes earlier out of class which meant she would beat the Wednesday lunch crowd and could actually have some spare time to relax before her next class. Instead of typically spending her time in the library as she felt it was obligation, RJ decided that she was going to relax and watch some Netflix instead. In her therapy sessions with Dr. Howzer, he’d explained how she needed to stop pressuring herself to be perfect all the time. She’d been diagnosed with a panic disorder, and gladly she had gone through different medications trying to find the right one to help her calm the panic attack. But eventually they found the right one. 

As RJ was about to deciding to which food place she wanted to eat at, her cell phone began to blare through her back pocket causing the brunette to jump out of her skin. Reaching into her back pocket, she grabbed her cell phone as her eyebrows scrunched together in confusion as ‘Mom’ lit up the screen on her phone. ‘Why is Mum calling me?’, RJ mentally questioned before clicking the answer button and bringing up the button to ear. 

‘Jacy, dear. Are you there?’, her mother questioned, sniffles coming from her voice. An instant worry ran through her veins and suddenly RJ was on sudden alert. Something in her gut didn’t feel right, and her voice was really shaky at her greeting. ‘Hi, Mom? Is everything okay?’, she asked curiously. 

‘Your Nanny is dead.’, her mother’s voice chimed in her head. And in that moment, RJ was sure the entire university center could hear her heart breaking too. 

That had been almost a month ago, and she spent her entire time back in North Carolina hiding back from all her problems she’d had to face as soon as she gotten back. The entire sequence would reloop in her head from the news, the visitation, and all the way to the funeral. Soon after the funeral, her parents left back to get back claiming ‘they had to get back to work.’ 

So, here was RJ stuck back in the apartment for last month by herself wallowing in her own self pity. The last conversation she had with her parents was her about starting an internship at PBS the following summer. With losing the person that meant the world to her, RJ didn’t even have the effort to fight them more. She even started to call herself ‘Jacy’ in some senses. 

All of the progress she’d made with her therapy session, developing feelings for Ezra, and even all the friendships she made seem to have gone out the window. She was a hollow shell of a person, and that’s when she realize she was back to where she started...an anxious little mess again with more crippling panic disorders eating away at her...and she seem almost lifeless everytime she passed by and looked at her self in the mirror. In fact, she couldn’t even recognize the reflection staring back at her. 

Letting out a silent sight, she knew that she had done enough of hiding for over a lifetime. She needed to get back to Monarch because she sure not only was going to have a lot to explaining to do, but the amount of homework she know she needed to catch up on gave her a mini panic attack on it’s own. So, standing off the couch she packed up her belongings and booked the next available flight for California..not really to face her fears but knowing her nanny wouldn’t her to treat herself like this. So, RJ wasn’t sure if she was going back to Monarch as Jacy or RJ but there was only one way to find out. Rolling out her suitcase, her Nanny’s face appeared in her mind and a silent tear rolled on her face. Pushing the door, she embraced the cold chill of a North Carolina winter before heading her way down to the car to make her way to airport.  

[cannedvampirejuice]

Life has happened so all my creative work is being pushed to ??? But the gist of what's in my head is

Fantasia with Arjuna, Scathach, and Murasaki and his themes of balancing practicality and reality of his job and what's expected of him as a mage vs allowing himself to be human and cling to the few scraps of a normal life he allows himself. I may do more design rehauls, making Murasaki giving him his hair ribbon happen sooner and be a catalyst to not give up on the little things.

??? gets stuck with Izou, Salieri, and Oberon and the themes are all about externalizing yourself. It's essentially a powder keg about being stuck in your head and feeling like your creative outlets fail to express yourself in basic ways, and how even these outlets which are supposed to help you can eat you alive. And letting people in so you aren't alone in your head is a good thing.

And ??? Is going to be an incredibly strange woman who's navigating being free from her families hellish mage basement, and she's experiencing a lot of the world for the first time with Merlin and Douman, while also heavily relating to Mash. The key difference between them is perspective, where ??? doesn't actually care much for humanities fate and sees living as entertainment first and foremost. Douman and Merlin essentially end up the angel and devil on her shoulders but instead of steering any actual morality its to a happy end or to a bad end.

and I'm sure anyone who's seen my OC page is wondering why I called this oc section REloop, the basic plot is the fujimaru twins fail during the transition to LB7, but the world attempts to still prune/correct itself and it goes to square 1. So now they actually have a working team of varied rayshifters like team A, and contract fuckery since it's technically a redo. their meetings are still established and anyone can show up at any time. The previous timelines on Fantasia's old sheets were from when I wanted to stick to the rules harder and gate reunions.

The general idea for this is essentially emulating the strange feeling you get joining a gacha nearly 8 years in, you're getting characters and don't know who in the hell they are or why or how you managed a contract with them.

i might go insane and branch fantasia into two more master ocs but like. tomorrow after work

[vatsunara]

It was crazy

I had spider children who are wonderful amd make great party decorations. Yet I get them to do iy in such a way that no one knows they're in a room full of baby spiders making cool decorations. Apparently I had regular children amd robot children too. Yet my just got her period daughter doesn't know about them as I unclogged the toilet for her but used ut befire that. She's kinda at that age... So I had to go downstairs to another room and keep people out of it. Not before taking some of a girls really yummy omelette sandvich though. She didn't want to give it up and I totally understand. Yet after that I could rotate my spider children in to say hi to all of them, give them praise, see how they're doing, amd tell thrm I love them. Then the rooms closing time came around and I was so sad and started crying. I didn't get to say hi to all of them and love them so much as they left without the room closer noticing. Then reading a paper about kaneki with a hell hound might be coming to kill me. Then remembering one of my spider chuldren Kou that is also a humanoid robot is friends with him. As I scream to him about his friend possibly coming to kill me. That I need him down stairs now to stop his friend before they get here or at least downstairs when they do. While I enchant the kitchen so that Kaneki and his hound can't get in. Which doesn't ever work for some reason in most dreams. So K&H come crashing through my front door and to the kitchen where I am. While I still try to enchant the kitchen into a barrier while screaming for Kou. Who eventually arrives downstairs and stops things right after K&H get into the kitchen. So after that I go with my goldish yellow robot spider son to say hi to his sliver robot friend that he brought over. I hug my son and ask how he's doing since he hasn't been home in a while and because he's scratched up. He says he's fine and has to look that way in order to blend in. I love my robot spider son so much. Then I went up front to check on OXIII since they were at mu place and sone where on thr balcony and outside. I think my sis kept fucking up my food in the fridge and didn't save/use it properly. Which was upsetting since I was worried about Axel. He hadn't come back yet and Xald and Xig told me he was outside. Xem was being dramatic at the pool. I just wanted to cuddle and hold Axel since I knew he was going through a hard time. I spotted him and fed him a bit. Then it relooped and I was told Axel was going to do something so I jumped off the balcony shoeless amd hugged him tight. He said after his brother passes from Luekemia, he would follow. I didn't want him to and was kinda confused since it felt like i read that there's a cure for it. I held Axel tightly as I looked it up but didn't say anything since I wanted to be sure. Yet fir some reason Saix went beserk and tried to kill Axel. Then both of us since I wouldn't let axel go/protected tried ti protect him from tge attacks. It didn't work too well but I was able to grab isa keyblade sword out of his hand and cure axel and i. Other members of oxiii tried to help out. So then i cured axel and i. which for some reason made axel and his bro reborn and his brother was healthy. Then they aged rapidly. Axel to his nirmal ate and his brother was still young but not as if he was just born anymore. Axel was super happy but later we fou found out he got luekimia again. Then a little animal creature that was taking care of him tolds us that it seems that no matter the time line, he gets it. Axel and I don't know what to do.