tag game WEDNESDAY ☀️
thanks macy for more Q&A! and thanks for tagging me @celestialmickey @energievie @creepkinginc 💗
name: deanna 🌿
age: Noel👏Aged👏
favorite season: 🍁FALL🍁
movies or tv shows? tv shows 📺
do you carry a bag/purse? what kind? i have a couple different things depending on how much im going to need to hold the stuff. backpack for holding, big mom handbag for when its just gonna sit somewhere, and wallet+carabiner+keys for when i mercifully dont need shit except my keys and a credit card.
what color is your water bottle? green with leaves on it 🌿
what color is your phone case? ...also green with leaves on it 🌿
do you sleep in silence or do you need white noise/sounds/music? cannot sleep without brown noise which is white noise but a lower pitch which i just find more soothing!
top sheets: yes or no? absolutely no fuck off 🚫
you’re in the candy aisle at the corner store, what are you grabbing? andes mints!!🍃🍫
preferred mode of travel (plane/train/car/bus/on foot/etc?): i yearn for the days of being able to walk or take the train absolutely everywhere.
what’s your phone background right now? lock screen is my kids in front of the big blue waterfall at pirate golf and my home screen is, as always, @kariniarts's portrait of my lavellan.
are you more of a minimalist or a maximalist? i used to fancy myself a minimalist until my therapist told me i should put pictures of things and people i loved all over my walls to feel less sad about being at home all the time and heck she was so right. 🖼️🖼️🖼️
it’s time to paint your bedroom! what color are you choosing? mint green!!
and finally, tell me something that brings you joy: morning coffee☕️
hey little nuggets, do you wanna play? @michellemisfit @mmmichyyy @mishervellous @themarchg1rl @metalheadmickey @maizzycakes @milkmaidovich @heymrspatel @harrowhark-a-vagrant @too-schoolforcool @tanktopgallavich @transmickey @grossmickey @scurvgirl @gardenerian @sickness-health-all-that-shit @crossmydna @rereadanon @grumble-fish @juliakayyy @sleepyfacetoughguy @canticle-of-apotheosis @callivich @sirrudo @mickeysgaymom @lingy910y @lizelandre @gallawitchxx @ardent-fox @thepupperino @vintagelacerosette @mikhailoisbaby @sisitrip and anyone else who wants to playyyy 💖
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More Than You Know \\ soukoku
Chapter V: 🍃 Gone 🍂
POV: Chuuya
(1,103 words)
It's Monday now, just barely. 1:00.
I had the same nightmare I've been having since Friday. I feel cold and clammy, almost feverish, and I know I won't be able to go to sleep again anytime soon, so I don't.
Carefully, so as not to wake Kouyou, I tiptoe into the kitchen. But as I draw closer I hear a sound, a soft sound, it almost sounds like laughter. I look around for a weapon but only find a vase.
Vase in hand, I peek around the corner.
There's no intruder, my sister sits with another girl at the kitchen table. The other girl has chin-length black hair and wears expensive-looking silk pyjamas. She turns, her face catching a shaft of moonlight from the kitchen window, she's crying, and her pyjamas are covered in blood.
"Why? Why?" She screams, leaning into Kouyou's shoulder, "Why did he do it?"
I jump at the sudden volume and the vase slips from my hand, crashing to the floor and shattering.
Kouyou and the girl turn to face me, looking equally surprised.
My sister clears her throat, she's been crying as well, "Chu-chan? Go back to bed."
The nickname sends waves of nostalgia crashing through me, Kouyou must be really tired if he's using it, so I know it's not the time to fight but I say, "No."
"Chuuya, please."
"Why, why should I? I just had a nightmare, and now there's some strange girl who looks like she walked straight out of a horror movie, no offence, in our kitchen. What's going on?"
Kouyou looks to the girl, but she doesn't seem offended by my comment. She gives the barest hint of a smile and Kouyou nods for me to sit down.
"This is Akiko, a, um, friend of mine."
The girl makes an expression I don't fully understand.
I'm not sure what to say and going for the typical greetings sounds stupid so I just say, "Oh, okay. What's with the blood." I don't know why, I know it's a terrible thing, but it just slips out.
"Nakahara Chuuya, how dare you! Her brother just committed suicide! Apologise right now!" Kouyou looks mortified herself as soon as she says the words.
Akiko pats her shoulder, "It's okay, I'm not ashamed of it, just sad, and confused, and angry."
"I'm sorry, I can, uh, make you two some tea?"
"Thank you Chuuya-kun."
I nod, eager to escape the odd situation, trying to remember exactly how to make Kouyou's favourite green tea.
When I manage what I'm sure is only a weak imitation I bring it out to them, and Kouyou tears up. I look away embarrassed.
We drink the tea in silence. I know it's too bitter, but they don't mention it.
It's only after Kouyou has lent Akiko some of her own blood-free pyjamas that I work up the courage to address the elephant in the room.
"I'm sorry about you're brother, I didn't know him, but I'm sure he was a great guy. Kouyou probably already said this, but if there's anything we can do to help, her friends are my friends so, we're here you know." The awkwardness is only increased by the way she looks at me.
" . . . Did I say something?" I trail off uncertainly.
"What do you mean you didn't know my brother? You go to the same school, he's in your grade?" She sounds like she's about to start sobbing again.
"Oh, well, I kinda keep to myself, what's his name."
She nods, but hesitates, "Osamu."
I freeze.
Of all the names I'd expected to come out of her mouth, I hadn't expected that one. I should've guessed. Mori Akiko shares the same porcelain pale skin and thick jet-black hair as her brother.
"Chu? Were you two close?" Kouyou asks.
I don't know what I should say so I ask something I probably shouldn't.
"How?"
"What?" Akiko's voice cracks uncomfortably.
"How? How did he die?"
" . . . C-cut himself i-in t-the bath, I'm not sure which killed him first . . . the blood loss or the-the water." Akiko begins to sob and waves of guilt wash over me. Guilt for upsetting her but also for something I can't quite define even though I know I had absolutely nothing to do with any of this.
I don't know why it feels like this.
I mean I guess I can't just feel nothing, I'm not a robot. He was someone I'd seen nearly every day for the last two years, still I barely knew him. And he was an asshole, but he was no older than me. A child died, that's a terrible thing, even if they were a bastard.
"Were the two of you friends?" Kuoyou tires again, stopping my thoughts before tehy go any farther.
I don't want to say no, it seems rude. But I can't say yes honestly.
I never told Kouyou about my relationship with Osamu, and as much as I would have loved to rant about his stupidity, our squabbles seemed hardly relevant when Kouyou had much bigger things to deal with.
I try to open my mouth but it feels glued shut. Akiko, to her immense credit, hands me tea, I feel even guiltier.
I stall with a shaky sip, then answer.
"I don't know, we didn't know each other that well, we didn't actually talk much." The half-lie sounds as shaky as I feel, I think I should lie more, "It's just surprising."
It's not really a lie.
We didn't know much about each other, nother personal or important.
We didn't talk, we argued or punched, and we never had a real meaningful conversation.
It is surprising.
I saw him barely three days ago, maybe not well, but alive.
He was alive . . . And now he's not.
After I've stayed silent for a few minutes, Akiko and Kouyou continue the conversation without me, talking about anything, just to fill the silence. I try to tune it out but the words are as heavy as the quiet. Eventually, I retreat to my room.
Even in the familiar space things don't make much sense.
He always joked about suicide, (got detentions for it too) and I always said I wouldn't miss him, I always told him to just get on with it already.
But I never thought he'd actually do it.
I think about calling Shirase or Yuan, or even walking over to their houses, which aren't more than a block away, but I don't think they'd understand if it were anyone, and Shirase made his opinion of Osamu very clear.
Osamu.
The word catches on my tongue only after I register it. I just used his given name without thinking. I shake my head. He never gave me permission to use it, doing so is disrespectful to the dead, as Kuoyou would say.
But Osamu's dead, what does he care?
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