#soukoku angst

[little-blurry-stars5]

[kyoukamybeloved]

"Chuuya. This is my farewell to you, too. It’s such a shame that it came to this."

happy new year's! hope 2024 treats you well and thank you all so much for the supports on these its very appreciated :)

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credits:

art by @lotus-pear// afterwards - Hieu Minh Nguyen// the great war - Taylor Swift// the way i loved you - Taylor Swift// i had a dream about you - Richard Siken// suburban legends - Taylor Swift// illicit affairs - Taylor Swift// faithful and virtuous nights - Louise Glück// official art from the Dazai and Chuuya: age fifteen manga// saying your names - Richard Siken// wonderland - Taylor Swift// state of grace - Taylor Swift// art by @iztea// deathless - Catherynne M. Valente// art by @iztea// we’re all sinners disguised as lovers - Unaiza N.// red - Taylor Swift// cowboy like me - Taylor Swift// hesitations outside the door - Margaret Atwood// art by @zaerxa// i’m your man - Mitski// panels from the manga drawn by Harukawa// haunted house - Florence+the machine// art by @itotypes// a history of my brief body - Billy-Ray Belcourt// birds hover over the trampled fiel - Richard Siken// art by @pleucas// little weirds - Jenny Slate// say don’t go - Taylor Swift// delicate - Taylor Swift// quote from Arron O’Hanlon// official art from the dazai and chuuya: age fifteen manga// Iain S. Thomas// art by @cryptidkey// now that we don’t talk - Taylor Swift// labyrinth - Taylor Swift//

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[rinnereii]

Sorry for posting another version of my redraw of Into the Night, when I posted it first I didn't think of using their colors, but after some hours of sleep... here it is

[luneariann]

... chuuya and dazai except they keep doing shit for each other. neither ever acknowledges it. chuuya makes crab one night and almost has a breakdown before throwing it out the window. dazai's passing under and it lands on his head. stuff like that.

Sorry to twist your prompt a little! The angst took over me

[mithseafowl]

Look me in the eyes and tell me Dazai didn’t fall first for Chuuya but Chuuya fell harder.

"what a violent way to wake snow white" dazai wanted a kiss, u can't deny it💀

“ur the one who hid it in ur mouth” bro was hoping u would kiss him, find the pill and give it to him 💀

[etrevil]

BSD wan is therapy they say

IT'S THERAPY THEY SAY

[flamie-42]

Chuuya wasn’t sad that Dazai left the Port Mafia

In fact he was happy!

He went out drinking to celebrate.

He was happy that bastard didn’t ask him to leave too

It was better without him.

That is until he got home.

Where no one could see.

And he let himself cry into the coat that Dazai had left behind along with Chuuya

[cutie4me]

Best Soukoku Fanfics That Bring Immense Nostalgia!

Someone on YouTube asked for recommendations for Soukoku fics so how could I give up such an opportunity to share some of my all time favourites?! Some of them will make you cry. Some of them will make you smile. But most importantly, the immense wave of nostalgia you’ll feel after reading some of these fics are surreal! I swear, sometimes I wish I’d forget about these fics just so I could rediscover and read them all over again! All these amazing works are on AO3 so please check them out and support the authors! I’ll continue to update this each time I find a new SKK fanfic!

“Overturn even the heavens and the earth” by sssoukoku

Chuuya uses corruption but Dazai’s too late to save him, or is he?

“My skull crown” by YunaYamiMouto

Mori is dead so Dazai has to go back to PM and take the throne as the new PM boss.

“Baby Executive” by BlowingYourMind

Chuuya gets turned into a child and goes through the life stages growing older under Dazai’s care, Dazai manages to develop empathy and a widespread of new emotions around each new stage of Chuuya. (Cross posted on Wattpad!)

“I Was Screaming Your Name Through The Radio” by ElectricSplatter

I’ve not read this yet but it’s really popular and has a lot of positive reviews from what I’ve heard. It’s a rockstar/band AU but it’s super long, probably the longest one here.

“The God and his Vessel” by Churroburrito

Arahabaki lives in Chuuya and they can interact and sometime Arahabaki can come out to talk to people. Arahabaki is surprisingly sweet and overprotective of Chuuya, quite like an older brother. (I absolutely adore Arahabaki and Chuuya’s dynamic in this fic!)

“Silly delusions” by Grinch1234

Arahabaki and Chuuya are one person and Arahabaki is a God stuck in a human’s body confused with how humanity works. He tries on many occasions to convince Dazai that he is a god to only one time in which Dazai actually believes him.

“I’ll always come for Chuuya” by anonymous

Dazai and Chuuya back in PM and Dazai tries to distance himself with Chuuya cuz of his feelings to the point Chuuya loses trust in him and thinks Dazai’s grown bored of him because of his new friend, Odasaku. (Such a shame we don’t know who the actual person one because this fic was so well written and such an emotional rollercoaster!)

“We Are Never Ever, Ever Getting Back Together (Right?)” by sabiEMr

ADA and PM do an exchange thing where Chuuya works at ADA for a while and Atsushi works at PM. Chuuya tried to get over his relationship with his ex Dazai but it’s not really ideal when you’re now stuck with your ex at his workplace.

“Unexpected” by lemoncandy751

Soukoku get paired together for a project and they hate each other… except when they start to fall for each other. Well that was unexpected!

“It takes two, to create a whole” by X_DRAMA_QUEEN_X

Roommates/College AU. Dazai’s a player and Chuuya gets stuck being his roommate and they absolutely despise each other with a burning passion. Chuuya gets a little too close to Fyodor and doesn’t know who to trust anymore. Is it Dazai playing the mind games to make Chuuya fall for him or is it Fyodor? (It’s over on Wattpad as well!)

“If we can’t run together, why did we from the start?” by amythecinnabunny

Immortal Dazai x multiple reincarnation of Chuuya. Dazai loves each of them differently and learns to find and fall for each Chuuya reincarnation again and again! (I cried too much with the angsty ending of this. Lots of character deaths).

“Inseparable” by milwritescausewhynot

Highschool AU where Chuuya and Dazai have known each other for 12 years and are practically inseparable! They love to pull pranks on each other but when a certain prank of Dazai’s is taken too far that it puts Chuuya’s life at risk they must face the consequences of being apart for each other’s safety (due to Dazai’s guilt) yet still yearning for each other.

“Pretty Little Thing” by wallows_4

Chuuya, an assassin, is assigned a job to kill the Prince of a very wealthy and successful kingdom. Chuuya walks in thinking this will be easy when no threats are present, but the next thing he knows everything is dark. When he wakes up again, he is "interrogated" by three idiots. And the stupid prince is insistent on him being his personal pet!

“Of Libraries and Liberties” by Grinch1234

Chuuya Nakahara is the escaped government experiment known as A5158 seeking refuge as the librarian of his own little library sanctuary. Osamu Dazai is the notorious boss of the Port Mafia and by some illogical miracle, they manage to cross paths.

“Still, Still, Still” by icedlightroast

Actor/popstar Dazai x Rockstar Chuuya idustrial rivals AU! After a public drunken tweet confession professing his true feelings for his rival, Chuuya has no choice but to play the ploy of fake dating his rival, Dazai, to help this mess he’s made in his career. Except Dazai is a completely incompetent asshole who Chuuya can’t help but hate himself for falling for. Besides, there’s more to Dazai that meets the eye.

“Untainted Memories” by serenathea

BEAST! Chuuya shares his memories and emotions with the original Chuuya, and Dazai has to fix the mess and pain he has created.

“I can’t dare to dream about you anymore” by kiroiimye

High school AU where Dazai and Chuuya have been best friends and next-door neighbors since childhood, never seen apart despite their differing, respective lifestyles as the genius class president and the school’s beloved soccer star. Everything is perfect, except for the fact that Chuuya’s been in love with Dazai since forever and Dazai has a girlfriend.

“Always Yours” by anonymous

Kingdom + Omegaverse AU where Dazai has been betrothed to Chuuya since they were both children—an arrangement that never particularly interested him—until their wedding night, when he sees the omega’s face for the first time. (EXPLICIT Rating for NSFW scenes but you can skip those if you wish)

“The Shepard and His Shadow” by LynyrdLionheart

Everyone knows the monster in the woods is why the village suffers a lack of resources. It's been that way for centuries. Then Dazai meets the monster, and everything he knew turns out to be a lie.

“The Life We Could've Lived” by Xena_Lemon

A very confused Dazai wakes up in a Highschool AU instead of his usual Agency dorm room. And strangely enough, Chuuya’s the only one who seems to be from his world (him and the mysterious girl who keeps watching them).

“Four Years Ago, Four Years Later” by Nightingale231

Chuuya knows before Dazai, does, really, that the younger man will run. Before anything - even before Mori and the home he has carved for himself in the Port Mafia - he will take Dazai's side where it matters. He hates the mackerel, he does; yet he wants Dazai to follow the goals that Odasaku set for him, because he… (loves him).

“Silver Claws, Silver Tongue” by CandiWolfe

In which Chuuya gets turned into a cat whilst on a mission and (unwillingly) seeks the misfortune of Dazai’s help to not only temporarily nullify the ability but to track down the bastard who dared turn him into a wretched feline. Except doing so is easier said than done. Especially when they’re from a whole new foreign organisation.

“How To Woo Your Husband in Seven Days” by moonlitsorrows

When Dazai accidentally performs a grave accident that angers his precious chibi husband and forces him out of their shared apartment and out onto the streets, he tries his hand at his backup operation of “How to Woo your husband in seven days” with seven articulate plans in hopes that it would finally convince Chuuya to invite him back home. Except each plan just seems to fail and give the redhead an even bigger blooming headache. Plan 7 was the last straw. Maybe Chuuya should finally invest in some long awaited (and deserved) divorce papers after such a hellish week of putting up with that stupid mackerel of a husband’s BS.

“Another Love” by infernaa

Dazai desperately wanted to get rid of everything dark and ugly in his life. Even if it meant leaving his love for Chuuya behind. (Slight Sigma x Dazai).

“When Will You Confess?” by Chuchu_hua

Dazai and Chuuya have been best friends since childhood. One day, Dazai gets himself a girlfriend and Chuuya feels jealous. He then realises he has feelings for his best friend, but doesn’t want to confess. One night under the stars plus the influence of wine becomes one heated make out session. The two continue to have random make out sessions, but don’t think to put a label on their relationship. One school dance is what it took for Dazai to grow a pair and finally admit his feelings out loud.

“Empire of Dirt” by arkastadt

Artist Dazai's bored and lives in a mansion, Mechanic Chuuya's the mysterious garden boy working for his family, and fate brings them together over and over again only to rip them apart. (Super angsty major character death! You have been warned! EXPLICIT Rated for NSFW).

“They said the eyes are the windows to the soul.” by Aprusalve

5+1 fic of Kyouka as she observed Soukoku and tried to guess their relationship and one time she finally decided to ask.

“catch me once, catch me twice” by seedus

Chuuya gets stuck in an ability loop where he’s basically wiped out of existence and Dazai decides to become the Demon Prodigy once more to hunt down the ability user responsible for daring to target his dog and bring him back.

“Something More Than A One Night Stand” by ShireHorses

It was supposed to be a one night stand and nothing more. The last thing Dazai expected was to catch feelings for Chuuya. Much less hurt him so badly by saying the night they spent had meant nothing. It hadn’t mattered when Dazai had said that to all the previous women he’d slept with so why did it pain him so much to see Chuuya cry and act so cold? (EXPLICIT Rated for NSFW scenes).

“build a temple in me” by oursorrows

Dazai wants to surprise his husband, Chuuya, on their one year anniversary, and he can't help falling in love all over again. (EXPLICIT Rated for NSFW scene).

“Tempus Fugit” by Imabukuhoe

Teenage Soukoku time travel to a their future are in for the shock of their life as they witness many (good) things they never expected to happen in their lives- and that they’re gay for each other but we don’t talk about that just yet. (EXPLICIT Rated for NSFW scene! Cross posted on Wattpad as well! It’s angsty midway through but with a happy ending!).

“No Longer Human” by Wolf___Spirit

When a stranger starts stealing people's abilities, the ADA and the Port Mafia team up to figure it out. However, something goes wrong and Dazai loses his ability in the process. The big problem? His ability not only nullified the abilities of others, but also his own emotions. And now, for the first time in his life, Dazai has emotions, chaotic and in turmoil. In the midst of this identity crisis, Dazai sets out to explore the world with Chuuya as his grumpy bodyguard, only to discover that he has never felt so...alive. And then they find out that if they don't find a way to give him back his ability, Dazai will die within two weeks. In a race against time, chaos ensues.

“Twisted Ties” by Cutie_4Me

Serial Killer Chuuya tries to hunt down his stalker who's been stalking him by breaking into his apartment only to be met with an unexpected and (un)pleasant surprise. (Yes- I’m shamelessly promoting my own fic)

"Backstage Pass" by the_most_unhappy

When world-famous violinist Dazai Osamu announces his early retirement, a part of him is sure he will never love music again. He’s in his twenties, but he’s already tired of everything. Meanwhile, up-and-coming frontman Nakahara Chuuya is everything Dazai is not: reckless, smug, and a rockstar. They’re total opposites. They could never fall in love, right? (Implied Sexual Content But Nothing Explicit)

"More like a crash" by Jickas

Chuuya loses his memory and Dazai decides this will be a great opportunity to mess with him. But what happens when he goes a little too far and old feelings begin to resurface?

"Everything or Nothing" by Wellthathappened (Cataclysmic_Calamity)

College AU where Chuuya finds out that the boy he drunkenly made out with the night of orientation is his new roommate. His arrogant, smug, very straight roommate. And the boys are each convinced the other is trying to ruin their life by making them go absolutely insane. But of course, things don't go as planned and they somehow ended up with the typical fuck buddies arrangement. Feelings become more complex and they both soon find that the other is hiding something, a secret that could very much rupture everything in their relationship. (EXPLICIT Rated for multiple NSFW scenes and sexual exploration).

^Based off the song 'Everything or Nothing' by Picture This.

"Lost in Translation (Found in Love)" by archerwrites

Dazai is convinced (forced) to join his friends for a year spent in Paris, and he doesn't know a word of French. Chuuya is just hoping to get through school without any strange encounters, and he doesn't know a word of Japanese. They collide (literally) and the situation devolves from there. They figure it out. Falling in love in Paris is a very romantic cliche, after all. Even if there's a language barrier between them.

[owlbeasty]

Headcanon:

Chuuya is an alcoholic and always smells of it, Dazai is a chain smoker and always smells of that, so, during their mafia days, they would always smell of both cause they spend so much time together until Dazai left and someone asked Chuuya if he quit smoking cause he didn't smell of it anymore and he broke down in tears in his room right after

[clemenlush]

as the world caves in

[karmicpunishment]

and what about when the vampirism is broken and chuuya wakes up and sees dazai's body?

do you think he'd leave it there? do you think he carries it out with him? do you think he uses his ability to do it and the feeling of being able to hold him with gravity manipulation feels just so wrong that he has to stop? does the feeling of dazai's cold skin on his make him want to throw up? does he hold his wrist to try to find a pulse? how long does he wait there thinking it has to be a joke or another one of dazai's tricks? does he think about using corruption right then and there, knowing no one in the world could stop him anymore?

[kyoukamybeloved]

the moon will sing - the crane wives

I feel like this is very niche but I couldn’t get it out of my head and out of my heart so here ya go

[ashleyh713fanfics]

Hello fellow Soukoku simps! I'm new to the bsd fandom so wrote a little song based on what I think Chuuya's thoughts were on the night Dazai left the Port Mafia. Hopefully you enjoy! (Also if people like this I'll finish the song with Dazai's part so let me know if you do)

Lyrics:

Goodbye Good riddance I say adieu  And for all the foolish things That Make me think of you Yeah tonight I’ll drown myself in this 89 And if anyone asks obviously I’m doing fine For this bottle I’ve been saving for a special occasion  Waited for the proper moment to pop it’s persuasion  Cause I know this was all too good to be true That one day you’d leave like the rest did too So here’s to you, my partner, man, not friend You’ll see me suffer till the annoying bitter end And for a moment I guess thought I knew What human was like when I was with you Raise your glass for the hurricane By the monster of a boy who will throw you away Can’t catch him now No matter how you try He will always break your heart And then say goodbye And raise your glass For the fool who almost just believed Yes raise your glass  For the fool tonight who is me

[luneariann]

Continuation of the other comic I made earlier as @fixation-central s prompt! And in honor of my dear friend @evilkaeya who came up w this specific scenario :)!!

[dunnowho180125]

Skk headcannon #24

I feel sad so may you all suffer with me

When Chuuya ‘’ woke up’’ from corruption, after the fight against Lovecraft, his mind was so foggy that when he saw Dazai, he thought that they were back to their mafia days, when they were still partners. That’s why he told Dazai to bring him back to the base before passing out.

He was still a bit confused when he woke up and, even if the pain associated with corruption was present, the comfort, the heat and the feeling of hands carding through his hairs weren’t there and the first thought that passed through his head was-

« Is Dazai ok? »

[3-raccoon-in-a-trenchcoat]

Dazai is scared to love Chuuya he knows the pain he has brought to those around him. The Misfortune and pain he has been brought to accept is not something he wishes to push onto the one person he has learned to love. Dazai knows all the pain Chuuya has been through the idea that he could cause more harm is probably just as painful as actually causing that harm.