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a2zillustration · 3 months

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(It's ok Yurgir will respawn in Avernus)

[[ All Croissant Adventures (chronological, desktop) ]]

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#...right- LOL #I was so scared of losing anyone I pretty much only summoned Yurgir!#ok let me ramble about this fight in the tags #I.....listen. Listen. I love this game with my entire heart. It's one of my favorite games of all time.#.....the final battle took me out of it a little bit ngjfkdlnshjk #It introduced a bunch of new mechanics and maybe I'm dumb but it felt like it wasn't super clear how everything worked #First I restarted it because I dropped a globe of invuln on the starting area thinking Orpheus could just activate the stones from that far #Then I restarted it bc I basically ran out of time on the rounds...except I didn't realize the fight would continue since every other-#-turn-based round counter was usually a game over #THEN I actually summoned the flaming fist to help clean up right at the end which made the camera SUPER confused when I went in the portal #It was a mess.#I still give the game an 11/10 tho lmao #Oh also Orpheus did something - I don't know what - and then the dragon just died with 120hp left. So. Good job buddy LOL #Lae'zel ended up killing the Emperor - I'm sure she enjoyed that #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #act III spoilers #croissant adventures #tav #prince orpheus #yurgir #shadowheart #lae'zel #gale #breadweave #comics

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frobby · 1 month

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one of my favorite senarios to imagine to put yukio in is sending him 10 years into the future (with the exwires usually) and everyone from their class are like chill adults including himself working their boring ass exorcist job and hes trying to assert dominance over them as the teacher™ but they're all like bro why so serious?

#somehow in my future au i accidently made only the boys active exorcists im so sorry to all the women in aoex #they all passed but i think shiemi and izumo would leave to persue other passions but still be in ajacent fields #like shiemi still runs her exorcist shop #idk what izumo does maybe she still is an exorcist but shes on leave trying to figure out what she wants to do with her life #cuz so much of her adolescence was focused vengence for her family i think she would be kinda lost as an adult #ive said this a bunch of times but rin isnt actually an exorcist for the same reason izumo isnt #ive been kinda muddy on my own timeline but either he passed and left or he dropped out of school and ran away #i think hes like an independent demon slayer like a contract worker #so he still is basically an exorcist but not sanctioned by the vatican like as part of a mercenary guild or something #but he can still take exorcist missions if he wants to but usually its not worth it so he just helps out yukio or bon on their missions #i think after being a literal terrorist yukio got demoted and lost his license for a bit so hes still the same rank as he is now #but now hes medicated and he went to therapy #he has like no memory of highschool to almost a concerning degree and hes generally pretty muted but is still well liked #bon had a completely normal exorcist experience against all odds actually so did koneko except koneko went back to the myoda #and then shima got scouted for his amazing spy skills and works overseas #sorry shima ur not allowed to be an idol that might be the trigger for the bad end #anyway i think teen yukio would hate adult yukio because he thinks hes not allowed to be normal and happy #this is like the 4th time ive made this post like i said its one of my favorites #the reverse is rin going to the past and like tutoring the exorcist class #nobody wants to do yukio psychoanalysis but me so i gotta step up to the plate #jk theres a lot of good yukio fanfics #blue exorcist #ao no exorcist #yukio okumura #rin okumura

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sweetsweetbumblebee · 2 years

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happy birthday 2 me ~^-^~

#🍯#me #mine #birthday set #anyway if u wanna treat me 4 my birthday. u can. ahaha #dont wanna tag this so m not gonna lol #anyway in case u were wondering today was rlly nice!!#my roommate left me a sweet note 2 wake up 2 #then we hung out w 1 of her friends who was rlly sweet i liked meeting her #she invited us out somewhere else but we were rlly fuckin tired so we went back 2 our dorm #then we ended up ordering in bc we didnt wanna leave lol #my roommates not from the states n hasnt had wendys so we got wendys #actually it was rlly good #better wendys than usual i was incredibly impressed #then we both individually ended up falling asleep 4 a bit #n i talked 2 my gf throughout the day #who apparently also had wendys 4 dinner lol #all in all solid day i had fun

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hirokiyuu · 3 months

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look at my alternate yuu concept boy

#i just think the idea of isekaing at age 22 and being shoved into high school is so funny. shes just here now #185cm makes her the same height as leona btw. nearly six foot one. absurdly tall #she did not have friends b4 twst bc she had a Lot of ppl approach her bc of her parents #was very good at keeping a polite distance and went a little insane in twst as a result #fails all her classes at nrc bc she is going home at the end of this to her Real life so who cares shes here for a Good time #girl w/no subconcious desire to stay in twst tho i do think itd be good for her in the long run #she wants to go back to her own reality bc she wants to finish her degree. she was so close #Everyone's Big Sister (self-proclaimed) and incredibly obnoxious abt it #gets on v well with kalim and lilia and then cater is there in the background like. Please Let Me Out.#shes in gargoyle research. malleus is a little brother to her and i think he actually does see her as family more than a romantic partner #WHICH IS RARE FOR ME im usually all abt malleus > yuu but here it makes sense. they are platonic. u kno how it is #book 7 is a really bad time for her bc she learns all of lilias backstory and realizes how much shit he wasnt telling her #as if she were telling him anything serious abt herself LMAO but him leaving w/o sayign + finding out his backstory from a dream is just. h #book 7 i think is whats solidifying her desire to return home. she has a place where she belongs and its not here.#anyways ironically despite how much ive written here + how much ive thought abt her shes only a secondary yuu. yjn comes first always <3 #i do really like her shes a lot of fun to think abt. very Messy and impulsive unlike yjn whos thoughtful and deliberate. u kno #god this was a tag essay. ok.#how do you art #twst oc #myuu stuff

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quirkle2 · 4 months

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I was wondering if there are any rare happy ritsu moments in ur zombie au since hes always miserable I think,, like is he always miserable or is he happy/not miserable and feeling kinda good sometimes?

VWHDGDGD NO YEAH OFC HE'S HAPPY SOMETIMES im just horrible and enjoy putting him through misery

ive never been able to get a genuine smile to look right on his face in my art style either i think thats part of it. as ive said his face is just built to be mildly uncomfortable and bothered and i lean into it sm it's starting to get kinda funny

but yes ritsu is happy plenty! i think, canonically, he just seems like the type of person to me that tends to turn lemonade back into lemons. he's easy to scare and his first reaction to things is often Dread and Anxiety. he dwells on the negatives a lot and seems to be a "hope for the best, expect the worst," kinda guy, but there's a section in this post abt shigeo always loving the little things in life, and ritsu steadily learns throughout the journey on how to do that and how healing it can rly be. even if he had to grow up too fast during this whole thing and learn things a kid should never have to, the journey also gave him some good insight and lessons in other places! ritsu is smart, he figures it all out

in terms of little things here n there he's the happiest lil guy on the planet when he finds one of his favorite foods—swings his legs while he sits and munches on a kitkat bar like he's got absolutely nothin in the world to worry abt. sometimes mob does smth funny that he laughs at; for the longest time i've had this silly image in my head of mob accidentally knocking down a bucket from a store shelf and it lands on his head and he just kinda stands there and makes noises.when the noises continue out of pure curiosity about the weird echoey quality it's giving them ritsu cannot help but lose it

besides tiny things tho, when tome comes around ritsu in general is a lot happier, just cuz he has somebody to talk to that will actually respond in some way. they're sorta reluctant partners in crime at first (at least on ritsu's end) but over time and over bonding they grow to rly like each other's presence. they bicker constantly but it's almost always fond eventually, and they shove each other and playfight until mob gets antsy enough to get worked up about it. rly, tome is a godsend to ritsu's mental health—after months and months of being effectively alone with his thoughts, he finally has another person to converse with. a person His Age, too!

tome is rly good at knowing when ritsu is thinkin himself into oblivion and she's Also rly good at being the most annoying girl on the planet to yank him outta that and replace any misery with Oh My God Get Off Me You Freak. she doesn't even do this on purpose at first, but over time she learns how to tell when he's thinking too hard and, ofc, she's grown attached and she cares, so she's as obnoxious as possible to lighten the mood

when they find reigen n teru, ritsu gradually gets Much happier still. now that he knows they're safe and the gang is finally back together (and now that there's an Adult present and he can relax a lil and let himself be taken care of) his stress levels r exponentially lowered. having teru back is another instant lift to his mood—im always a big fan of teru and ritsu friendship, and i think adding tome to their dynamic simply makes it more chaotic. truly a trio of the 3 most normal teenagers in existence which will surely bring nothing but good (reigen sweats offscreen)

actually this makes me feel bad for forever torturing him im gonna go draw happy zau ritsus brb ,.,.ok imback <3

#qktalks #anon #zombie au #tw guns #<- for that glock in the corner . sorry #actually it looks like he's at gunpoint in that one and just going teehee about it #he looooooves tormenting tome .and tome loves tormenting him. it's their favorite pastimes #i don't rly like the second one too much tbh the sleeves are weird but i think that's just the Nature of how poofy they can get #oh this is a great time to talk abt their dynamic. sorry.this ask isn't abt that.but now it is #so i realize that tome and ritsu ??? don't rly interact in canon at all. and neither do tome and teru . as a matter of fact #but consider. uhm.what ifthey did <3 GVYIEAV #like i said they're all So incredibly normal it'll make for a great time #^ genuinely i do think so actually. most of the time anyway #i touched on it a lil bit in recondite but i rly like the idea of mob ritsu tome and teru all being a friend group #teru would undoubtedly piss tome off sometimes she'd call him out on his bullshit #but like.in terms of the canon timeline i think post-mob teru would Totally listen to her #and take what she says abt How he is into consideration. he's trying to rebuild himself into somebody better #teru and ritsu already have a dynamic in canon but it feels pretty loose and it isn't fully explored at all #i think they work together rly well tho. there's no real evidence to the contrary iirc i think they work together in canon quite well #they think alike in terms of fighting #and in a setting like this‚ once teru is on the same page as ritsu on zombies‚ they're prolly a pretty damn good team #there's a lot of room for things to go wrong tho #if i had to sum it up rly succinctly it'd be: ritsu's motive is fear‚ tome's motive is curiosity‚ and teru's motive is power #what i mean by teru's being power is Not the pre-mob teru ''wanting'' to be powerful and unstoppable #i mean teru wants to have power over everything that is trying to hurt them #he doesn't Want to cower he wants to Fight tooth and nail #and i think ritsu's fear versus tome's curiosity and teru's drive of power conflicts a lot #ritsu is passive in the sense that he'll do anything in his power to avoid altercations with anything to order to keep mob safe #he isn't Active until something goes Wrong. and usually things go Wrong when teru and tome rush ahead #WOW sorry i went on a rant that was Completely unrelated to the fucking question. im at the 30 tag limit bye

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berryblu-soda · 3 months

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Anyways update i just didnt bother to post earlier:

fr God is good and the whole car crash my parents got into last week was so incredibly mild in terms of injuries!!!! worst was a bruised knee im pretty sure

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*taps mic* HUG YOUR FREAKING LOVED ONES OR SO HELP ME!!!!!!!

#ALSO DO NOT READ THE TAGS IF YOURE HERE FOR A GOOD TIME!!!!#ENDED UP VENTING AGHHHHH- (<- amongus ref in 2024???? l+ratio) (no but seriously stay safe; im not sure if i should add a cw???)#no but like the cars themselves?#FOLDED-#ive seen photos of worse ones of course lol (ty internet <3)#but we´re all in agreement that if it had hit anywhere else at that speed it wouldve been BAD Bad-#like; severe injury to the leg at least; drivers door wouldve crumpled; thankfully it hit the tire mostly #our car got what seems to be the lesser damage and theyre still debating if it counts as total loss xd #also oh goshhhh #so i usually go and say goodbye to my dad when hes headed to work; i did it that day as usual; car was already halfway out the driveway #my dog also loves to go and she was already in the car #but my mom (taking my dad to work) said she´d need to stop by the store after dropping dad off; so she handed her back to me #last minute descision-#my dog is a small kinda elderly chihuahua and wouldve been on my mom´s lap when they crashed #no seatbelt for her obviously #she wouldve gotten injured so freaking bad if she was there ):#overall feels like we dodged a life altering accident by a hair #i wasnt even in it and im still shook hahaha #i always go say bye to dad if hes leaving for work no matter if im pissed off or sad or whatever #half out of habit; half bc i know anything could happen at any moment and id rather not have been too proud to say goodbye #dammit im crying now hahaha #saying again; everyones fine!!!!! please remember to hug your loved ones !!!!!!#shut up sheo #but oh gosh too many reminders of death as a constant recently #that happened about a week after a cousin died; i hadnt seen him in forever but his family went to our church growing up; he was my age #it was a dull and distant pain even then to hear the news but it still hurt; i didnt go to the funeral #did go to the one a couple days later tho; for a family member i truly didnt know; it was a car crash i think #a special kind of heartbreak from meeting his mom and seeing his kids running around #now that i realize it; as im writing this; i hadnt stopped to process just about anything hahaha #freaking sobbing at 9 in the morning smh!!!!!

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mothgoddesss · 2 years

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“Yes, I am your Elder, and your Karmic servant. But we’ve also reached beyond those at this point. As it was, as it is, and as it will be ... your Mother and I will guide you towards when you begin your own legacy beyond this existence - every step of the way. I promise.

This year, I am filled with resolve to up my game as an artist and a person. I want to experiment with different methods of rendering, create more background work, and just overall share more of my paracosm because there is still ... SO MUCH. that I have yet to share with everyone!

I wouldn’t have been filled with this much resolve if it weren’t for all of my followers and friends over on InstaSky, many of them being on here, too. Regardless if you come from InstaSky or have just now learned of my existence, thank you all so much for your love and support!!

#sky children of the light #thatskygame #sky cotl #valley of triumph #sky kid #✧ MOTHGODDESS WORKS.#✧ ILLUSTRATION WORKS.#✧ THE PRIMORDIAL MOTH (KIDDE/TELFOSO).#✧ CERULEAN SERAPHIM OF THE VALLEY (SIR ELDER/ELDER-KUN)#✧ ELDERS OF THE SKY KINGDOM #COMMENTS: to think in an alternative dimension I just went with my usual rendering then this wouldn't have come out anywhere as good #Essentially Elder-kun is one of Kidde's fathers bc he is one of The Three Husbands of The Host (me).#Last year I discovered that Kidde is LITERALLY my daughter and child to be born in The Host Realm - AKA I want to be a mother someday!#When she is born in whatever form she takes she will begin a legacy of her own and live her life #Regardless if she is born female or male and chooses to change that later - I will love them no matter what.#And while the Three Husbands represent the bonds and needs I desire for my future spouse - Elder-kun embodies this the strongest #While EK and Kidde are not at all related whatsoever in any kind of way they are related spiritually in that regard

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imogenkol · 2 years

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IMOGEN KOL - Star Wars (x) (x)

#oc insp: imogen kol #I actually really fuckin love how this came out ok #I wanted to do this template for her sooner but it intimidated me and then Gen’s came out good so I went for it #finished my pt of fallen order and she has been ON MY MIND even more than usual #so suffer the hyperfixation with me #with the exception of Bix all of these affiliations are either frenemies or enemies lmao #I have a feeling she’s gonna be mon mothma’s annoyance once she joins the rebellion too

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arolesbianism · 28 days

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Some au antag doodles

#keese draws #eternal gales #decided to finally try my hand at drawing au fydd #and decided to also draw the two I’ve already designed #I kinda chickened out hard with this au fydd design but that’s mostly because I don’t know how I’d go about implementing the big thing I cut #I wanted to include a nod at my old tazian (the species I recycled for fydd) worldbuilding by giving him some rainbow ‘hair’#but I definitely am not capable of drawing my vision well enough for my standards rn so maybe one day I’ll go for it but not rn #but long story short in the original version of the species those who were more middling height would have strands of or even entirely #rainbow hair which was like 90% me bullshitting but I have thought of a retroactive excuse #long story short most tazians would either be super tiny or like stupid tall and more middling height ones were rare #but one thing I realized lately is that all my tall ones had white hair and all my short ones had black hair #so the retroactive excuse is that the rainbow is a transitional period that usually indicates young age but can sometimes be permanent if #they don’t end up becoming properly tall #and I wanted to nod at that concept with au fydd since he’s 15 and is what would be considered pretty middling height #but that would mean figuring out how I’d wanna go about coloring that and that would make me lose it #for context fydd’s hair is supposed to be a smidge feathery #and also I like to keep my characters having somewhat manageable color pallets #not that I’m particularly good at that but I try #oh also second biggest failure of this drawing I made it so I couldn’t draw his other eye rip #he’s missing his other eye due to basically completely destroying it in the process of blowing up his original universe #the other two aren’t missing any major design elements that I can think fo fortunately #these three are all favorites of mine amongst the au antags they’re so silly #and by that I mean one of them is a grown ass adult torturing teenagers and the other two are heavily traumatized teenagers that are #helping said grown ass adult torture teenagers #well only one of them is properly helping owl is just here to meet her crush #she genuinely did not think the others would get as far and go as hard as they did #au fydd was the first member of the squad au bloom recruited and he is easily the most loyal to her #he’s also the only one au bloom even mildly gives an actual shit abt #au fydd went through a Lot in his original universe and is very ‘let’s burn it all down’ with his approach to helping #owl also went through a lot but she came out the other end just desperately wanting to stop fighting

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cuteniaarts · 2 months

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Digitalised + coloured + redesigned version of my Suiren and Vaatu sketch from two days ago, as promised!!

Coming up with Suiren’s design was a very long process of trying and failing because after you’ve drawn 9+ different versions of one character, the creativity starts to run a little dry, but I’m actually really proud of this one, she looks absolutely adorable <3

(Also yeah I did mostly just scribble Vaatu’s pattern because who has the energy to draw the all out accurately. Not me, that’s who, I’m chronically tired. People who draw him on the regular have my utmost respect. He’s still a funky little guy though :D)

Bonus, Raava incessantly screaming inside Suiren (and being completely ignored because Suiren is tired of her) while all this is happening:

#and yeah I did say I’d do a fuckass background but all my energy went to figuring out Suiren’s design #plus I suck at backgrounds so.. woe. LoK screenshot be upon ye #my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #avatar suiren au #original character #sotrl suiren #vaatu #I don’t really know what to say in these tags lmao #usually I reach the tag limit really really easily but between my previous post and answering that ask I’ve ran out of things to say #someone please indulge me in this au I have Way Too Many Thoughts about it #hmm…#you know. I think people often make different avatar aus because they dislike Korra or think she’s a bad avatar #I don’t. I love Korra. I would kill and die for her #(says the red lotus stan. yes I’m well aware. no need to call me out)#and I think she’s a good avatar who was dealt a shitty hand both in universe and by the show’s production team #I’m making this au BECAUSE I love Korra. if Suiren is the avatar Korra gets to be a normal SWT girl #she’ll get to grow up with her parents. not isolated and degraded all the time for not being perfect. maybe she’d have a sibling or two #and Suiren gets spared her sotrl trauma too. win win for everyone!!#(I return Suiren gets the weight of the world on her shoulders lmao. but it’s fine. 1. she isn’t alone in it. she has her family #2. three quarters of the LoK threats are basically automatically eliminated for her. the RL are her parents. she fuses with Vaatu #and all she has to do to defeat Kuvira is to take her dress off 😁 /hj. basically. she’ll be okay. better than in sotrl at least)#also look. I love Suiren. she’s my dear child who’s been with me since I was 12. of course I wanna make her the main character in everything #and dark avatar Korra AUs have been done countless times before me. Kat’s doing one right now!! I just wanna do something that’s my own #and also I wanna focus less on pain and trauma for once and more on the sheer hilarity of the shenanigans that will occur post-fusion #cause this isn’t Adumbration where Korra lets Raava go and fuses with Vaatu instead. here Suiren’s got both of them at the same time #and they have 10000 years’ worth of grievances to air out. it’s like living with your divorced parents #trust me I would know. except mine aren’t divorced. they’re Worse and everyone wishes they’d just separate #anyway. that aside. Suiren’s not getting any sleep any time soon while those two duke it out

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goofyguppy · 2 months

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#i went to the dentist and the lady who cleaned my teeth had an Australian accent #she was very sweet and asked me a lot of questions about myself #i asked her a lot of questions back about herself and dentistry #she thought i was only 25 #she seemed surprised i was interested in her at all and that's a pretty common way for people to react to me #I'm just interested in people and things and i guess people aren't used to that?#she and her assistant described me as observant #i mean. i guess?#it makes me sad that people are surprised and affected by my interest in them like... someone should be interested in you...#someone other than me #i hope you have people who care about you in your life and how you feel and think #the stuff they put on my mouth smelled like chocolate but she said it was cocoa butter #the stuff they put on my teeth smelled and tasted like eggnog but she said it was bubblegum #i said i hoped she was the one who will clean my teeth next time I'm there #did you know that you're not supposed to wash your mouth out after you brush?#apparently it's good for the flouride to stay on your teeth longer #she said my teeth are slightly more transparent than usual #and I thought...#/I/ am more transparent than usual #there was a painting in the exam room of white flowers on a blue background and I spent a lot of time looking at it #I have to go back on Tuesday for a filling but she reassured me it wasn't my fault #overall it was really something #and I just wanted to talk about it a bit #very very very sleepy ramble #if you read all this #i don't know why #but i love you #i can't remember how i used to tag these because i do this so rarely on this blog #oh well

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ame-to-ame · 3 months

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there are things that you don't do for a year or more and pick up just right where you left off and these days i fear loving you might be one of them

#double meaning on that but. yeah.#it's like. i haven't touched the imaging software i use for an entire year. soldering iron in decades. pick it right back up. to my surpris #muscle memory is crazy #i don't draw for months and pick up right where i was with a few sketches bc the work you put in stays even when you don't actively practic #when it's something you've practiced weekly and daily it sticks with you and ig that's good #but then it's like. the horrors. that haunt you. yk? what if a part of me will always save a soft spot for my ex. what then.#what if I'm fine now and I'm doing okay and i don't miss it and I think i'm okay moving forward and i see her and suddenly I'm on the floor #what if some part of me that was in love never really went away what if i haven't managed to kill all of it yet #bc i genuinely would not know what to do. i. i don't want to admit it but one of my worst fears is liking someone who doesn't like you back #and what's even more horrifying is if it's obvious. if everyone can tell. and usually I'm good at hiding it! (not really) but it's just. id #it's shame in liking someone who you tell yourself you don't want to like and you know you shouldn't. and not having control over it.#hoping praying that either she does something that turns the little switch in my head that sends her into the unforgivable category #or that i become straight. or that i become straight. mhm. yep. or ig the other option is i get a crush on someone new but like. mm.#i kinda have gotten w every person I've had a crush on since hs and i kinda don't think im ready for another rs so soon.#the baggage i just got is. hm. idk i kinda don't wanna unpack it. it's something that can easily be done if i had the missing pieces but.#i don't think I'm ever gonna get them. so. instead I'm gonna take. maybe another 3 months or 5 months or a year or a few. to just. slowly.#idek. it's just triggering old things. bringing me back to when i was 14. i never really got closure from that either. it took me 3 years.#I'm sure this time it'll go away faster but idk experiencing it a second time has a different feel to it. idk. it's weird.#it's like. idk. it's like you're watching it happen and you're not even there anymore. idk. i really don't know.#oh. I've been dissociating.#idk maybe it's for the best i really don't know i really don't know and everyone says i have to do what's best for myself but idk what is #my life is on track things are moving forward I'm doing better and healing but i can't escape the feeling of dread #something is going to catch up with me sooner or later and idk what it is idk at what intensity and idk if i will be ready for it #but anyway. when you love someone intentionally every day for a while. when does it go away? will it go away?#or will i have to live haunted by ppl who are alive but changed. so practically dead w/o the opportunity to mourn. for the rest of my life?#like i don't think i get it. loving this person was like. cooking and eating. intentional. ingrained into everyday life. effortful.#what if my mind does forget but my body still remembers. what then. what if it's like searching for sth you don't remember having anymore #ig I'm just trying to figure out how much to forget these days. how much won't hurt if it all comes back to haunt me #delete later

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bunnyb34r · 3 months

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Knock on wood, but I think this has been one of the most peaceful and pleasant birthdays I've had

Too hot to go to the outlet mall like usual and I don't feel like going anywhere really so we're just chilling at home and I gotta be honest, it's pretty great

#marquilla #ill take a tacky 20s pic later this week bc im not feeling like getting up really but yeah it's nice #it's like i think my 23rd? bday whichever one was the one where we went to the creek and explored under the bridge for a while #that was really nice we took a really nice selfie together and it was just genuinely such a nice time really relaxing no expectations no #fuss just hanging out in the creek looking for little fishies or these tiny shells (some kind of mussel i think)#anyways usually we go somewhere but im just not feeling it this time #Friday we went to steak and shake to finally celebrate moms bday meal (neither of us felt like going out day off and s&s is in the opposite #direction of where we usually go out so it's like either a 'we're soley going for food' or 'we're going for food and shopping out there'#treat. we used to go all the time when there was one closer by us but it shut down :( still sad ab that im ngl it's now some shitty chicken #place that is so narsty :(( i only know bc we had it catered at work once ... someone exploded theirs reheating it in the microwave #which was really funny bc it was only in for 90 sec and it was apparently 60 too much #anyway we went there and the grocery store over there thats pricey for ice cream and cake mix (and we got wine coolers and some baked goods)#and we went to a local store that sells like home decor and garden stuff? lots of seasonal stuff #i always take my wheelchair there bc it's a huge warehouse type place but we got more garden decorations we dont need #and mom picked up some fake flowers for stuff she needed and i got some ugly clothes that were like $3 #gddgdgdg oh and we got our cat a cat couch (a chaise to be exact) that we went halfsies on with the excuse that it's my cats bday today as #well as mine bc thats when we adopted her and shes 17 ❤ my little old lady #anyway anyways we did that friday then Saturday we tie dyed which was a lot of fun and today we're just chilling 🥰

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edelorion · 4 months

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#edel vents #disclaimer: really personal issues in the tags. also wishes of death upon others. this is PROBABLY too much information tbh...#so if you're not up for it scroll down fast!!!! the deluge is coming!!!#today was... eventful. bad. also very bad. grandma's birthday celebration was today #and while she... definitely has Old People Issues (racist) shes also very lonely since the death of my grandfather so i can't really not go #i'm the only one who really visits her regularly to begin with #aside from the... very serious racism issue... she's “alright”. i guess. but that's besides the point. there's family there #and among those... my parents. which i don't like to talk to #discovered they threw more of my old stuff away. typical. wanted to strangle them. as usual.#had to “talk” with my mother (read: spend approximately ten seconds reciting exactly why i *don't* talk to her anymore)#so that whole ordeal completely soured my mood.#went home tired. can't really do anything right now.#at least the food was good i guess. but i also really want to cry... which i can't. which sucks.#...i really like to think i've improved as a person. i used to be really hateful of everything and everyone #worst of all myself. still kinda do but i'm... getting better..?#i like to think i've grown past most of it but every time i see my parents i feel this gripping at my heart. as if i haven't really changed #as if instead i'm still the hateful person i “always was” deep down... bc there's this visceral joy that i feel whenever i'm mad at them.#when i looked at my mother and told her how much i despise her i felt a shiver of happiness. righteousness.#to be clear: i do NOT care for her. at all. she's the worst person on this earth #and the only person whom my philosophy of “nobody deserves to die” does NOT apply to. i'm not scared of hating her.#she genuinely deserves this. but...every time i see my parents - and thus her... i feel as if i'm slipping back into that mindset of hatred #i don't want that. not anymore. it consumed me whole. i was a horrible person back then and i've caused so much grief for so many #i can't let go of this hatred. i can't forgive them. they don't deserve my forgiveness anyway. but i'm tired of hating.#i'm tired of letting that hatred define me. i'm tired of letting that hatred direct me. i'm tired of letting it bring me to ruin.#i'm tired of being who i was. i'm no longer “that”. i'm edel now and i'm happy for people now. if i don't like something i just walk out.#i can just leave. “if it sucks hit the bricks” right?.. but i didn't. i had to say it. i had to tell them. her. and i liked it.#and... i'm scared of that. because it tells me i haven't improved.#i'm not sure what i'm expecting out of posting this i guess. maybe help. maybe i wanna be told that this is normal or something.#maybe i just want to get my thoughts in order. i don't know. i'm gonna stop writing now.#sorry for making you read all this. thanks for doing it anyway. tags were cut off on this one btw so it may look like a mess. but. yeah.

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rosicheeks · 5 months

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#gonna go watch hairspray 🥰🥰🥰#used to be my favorite movie growing up #everyone told me I’d make a perfect Tracy 😇#usually felt like they just said that cause I was a cute little fat girl who could sing #then this other girl came in senior year and she was an actual dancer #and probably would have made the *perfect* Tracy #cause I can’t dance lmaoooooo #but I still think I’d make a pretty good one 🥰#I sang I can hear the bells for an audition back in the day and went ALL out #maybe I’ll sing that for you guys sometime 🥰#gonna try and post some singing TikTok’s one day #but until then audios are a lot easier cause I don’t have to worry about my face 😂#what are your guys’ favorite musicals?????#go off in my inbox or in the comments #I love musicals so much 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#shut up rosie

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rubberbandballqueen · 6 months

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#the worm speaks #i used one of my dad's envelopes for the paperwork and they had like these strips to peel away for the gum seal #but they weren't very good and i also had to open the one for my state taxes a couple times bc i forgot stuff. like the page w/my signature #and my dad saw me opening them n was like 'huh? you can just open them?' n i was like 'ya'#n he was like 'well that's not very safe.' n i was like 'nope!' n he told me to tape it shut n i was like 'i could wax seal them'#n he didn't believe that i had the supplies for it so he just laughed it off and so i went back to my room n got my wax seal stuff #and usually i do it w/a little candle in the bathroom w/the fan turned on n i strike a little penny match i bought in eighth grade #n i light the candle n do all that in the private of the bathroom but this time i just took it all down to the kitchen n used a stove burne #the first envelope i didn't flatten enough before putting the hot wax on and so it almost dripped off before i could actually seal it #but the second one turned out nice n so then i went over to my parents' room where they were discussing smth or other abt their own returns #and i was like 'look father the envelopes have been sealed' n he was like 'HAAAH? ...aiya...' and my mom was like '幹嗎? 她做甚麼?'#n so my dad just handed her the envelopes n she squinted at the seals n touched them disbelievingly #and then she was like 'how did you do that?!?' n i just showed her my wax sealing spoon n said 'with THIS!' n then my wax pellets #'and this!!' and then pointed in the direction of the kitchen 'and the stove!!!!'#anyway i was going to then also tape the sides like my dad told me to at first but then i couldn't find the tape

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