#since this is horror im just gonna make a tag if you want to filter that out or not

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

i replayed hypno's lullaby for a quick bit just to feel the nostalgia but replaying dissension made me realize how the strangled red story is probably one of the best creepypastas out there because there's a really good story behind it and it's not just of any ooo scary supernatural shit that every creepypasta falls under - the unnatural playstyle of the game is just the catalyst to tell a good story and the story IS good.

trading is such a simple concept in-game but the genuine horror realizing that a slight mistake in the trade can ruin a simple exchange just to finish a pokedex - which is what happened to poor steven's miki. i can't imagine the guilt mike must've felt and the anger steven carried just for this

[swampgallows]

Hello! Could I please ask you to not add / into tags, if I filter 'body horror' tag and you add the /, I'm still gonna see the post. Or if I could ask what's the trend with the slash anyway because I do see a lot of people doing in and I'm just curious like why so

hi!! first i want to apologize that it wasnt being filtered, im extremely sorry for that. i will tag body horror in complete now.

as for why i do it: this is a custom from before tumblr had its own filtering system and users relied on addons. i still use xkit rewritten for my blacklist since it's been imported from other addons over the years, and im primarily a desktop tumblr user.

the slash and other keysmashes ("body horror /", "body horror slkjfslkfjsd") are used with the intention that the post will be filtered, but not appear in a blog's own tags or the tumblr tags.

for example: i post stuff about teeth a lot. i have a "teeth" tag which is for cool teeth images, and a "dentistry" tag for dental info as ive been interested in a dental career. if i post about how my teeth are bugging me again, i might tag it "dentistry /" or "teeth /", as it will be filtered by a blacklist, but it won't show up in the tags on my own blog for "teeth" or "dentistry"; those will stay as just pics and info. for anyone following the tag "dentistry" on tumblr, they won't see a random post of me complaining when they're trying to find actual info. (also, in the past it was said people might purposefully trigger themselves by browsing a blog's tag, so adding extra characters or slashes would filter it on the dash but make it 'unsearchable'.)

however, tumblr's search and tagging system has changed over time, and browsing blogs is usually done within tumblr as part of the dashboard instead of opening in a new tab as an external site. so now when people search a blog it "searches" the entire post instead of just the tags like it used to, so this kind of tagging is specific to filtering the dash and tidying up the external site.

for tumblr's filters, i would recommend adding the phrase "body horror" into the blacklist POST filter, not just tags. that way it will search the entire post, including the tags, for the phrase. i dunno if their blacklist has a wildcard option like the addons do, but filters like "spider*" would catch spider, spiders, spider tw, spiders tw, spiderman, spiderweb, etc. more info on tumblr's filter system here.

[caught-a-ghost]

~time for a reread~

it's been well over a year since i read down to agincourt the first time. the deancas slowburn, the worldbuilding, and the brilliant cast of oc's you come to adore. i completely fell in love with it.

spn a la tolkien baby~

since i have a terrible memory i kinda wanna document some of my reread. feel free to filter #dragonfly rereads dta. this is for my own personal enjoyment more than anything else and it's not going to be that deep. i'm just using this to remember shit.

since i know people want to read it for that bookclub thing soon (awesome!) i'm putting the first one of these under a cut since i'm not going to be spoiler free. please block my tag if you want to avoid those!

chapter 1 here we go

"I promised Sam they'd be together in the end," Lucifer tells him, shrugging to rearrange his still immaculate coat. "Don't worry, Cas, he'll be fine. From what I understand, he had a pretty good time the first time. He'll adapt." "No," Castiel answers. "He won't." Lucifer looks up from his sleeve, a pitying smile freezing on his lips, eyebrows knitting together in dawning confusion. "What--where is he?" "How would I know?" he answers curiously. "Slaughtering the reapers was possibly a miscalculation on your part. Without their guidance, it's very easy to get lost."

god i think we're seeing a remnant of the cas who made Thee Deal here. and i think he used it to secure the safety of endverse dean's soul. im gonna cryy 😭

Pausing at the door of the jeep, Castiel hesitates briefly, and a surge of adrenaline hits him hard enough to make his hands shake, don't stop as clear as if the words were spoken in his ear, don't look back. Only Orpheus was stupid enough not to listen to warnings delivered without ambiguity; it's too rare to get one of those to discard with impunity. I don't want to hurt you. Castiel stiffens, turning to search the empty parking lot. "What?" There's nothing but the lack of breeze to answer him.

i completely did not remember this bit and it's driving me insane. who are youuuuuu (one of the goddesses we've already met or someone new 👀)

and i forgot how much i love this cas! cas: ~only orpheus was stupid enough to turn around~ also cas: *turns around a second after having that thought*

"Why'd you do that to your hand?" Dean asks, settling beside him again; a hunter even now, eliciting information from the most useless of witnesses at the most pointless of all times. "Cas?" "I don't remember."

that cut was totally made for Thee Deal 👀

While he guessed the reason Dean was going into the city, it didn't occurred to him that Dean might not even know where it was he had appeared.

they're both missing time scully, they're both missing time

"Eventually I have to sleep, and I would prefer to do so with some assurance I'll wake up." "You think…" Dean stares at him. "I'm not gonna kill you, Cas, Jesus!" "Do you give your word?" Castiel asks, smiling slowly at Dean's horror. "Unless I take your soul as collateral, why on earth should you keep it?"

they're so messy <3 they have no fucking idea <3

It's been a week since he got here, suddenly scrambling for footing behind broken dumpster and staring at eight demons surrounding an armed man that even after three years Dean would recognize anywhere. The skinny, slumping mortal body in a too-big jacket with an indifferent hold on a rifle stared at him with the infinite blue eyes of an angel who might have traded his sword for a gun and immortality for the dirt of humanity, but had never stopped being a soldier. And very abruptly, to the surprise of those demons, he seemed to remember just that.

aaack i need to knoooow. were these demons a part of it??? is this where it happened??? (wasn't there some kind of reality damage that started in the city? was it here?) were the demons taken off-guard bc they had just worked together with cas and suddenly cas didn't remember??

what is the timeline here? dean seems to have been brought in before endverse dean's death. why??

seperis does this thing in particular that drives me completely bananas (in a good, but feral way). they'll drop little nuggets of information that feel off in the moment, ignore it until later, and then hit you with the realisation that the nugget hinted at a massive reveal or character moment (the fucking spanish thing!)

i'm not likely to do these for every chapter. just those damn nuggets

i also skipped most of the ancient rome stuff the first time around and im wondering if i should stick those out this time 🤔

excited though 👀

[roanoaks]

Deceit angst part two

Just a note but if u want to be part of the tag list from now on you gotta send me an ask it's to hard to dig thought the notes. I added everyone who asked in part one but I'm not gonna look through them in this one.

Tw for self mutilation, body horror, gore, bullying (kind of) self hate, etc

Deceit looks at Logan. It's a quiet moment.

"I can't say," he replies, "You should know that."

"Why not?" Thomas asks. Deceit raises an eyebrow.

"Because you don't want to know, obviously." Deceit replies, smirking. "Thomas, Thomas, you should know how your mind works."

He shouldn't, but he can't tell Thomas anything other then what he believes, unless Thomas wants the truth.

The rules are fickle and he barely knows how to follow them. If Thomas believed something strong enough, Deceit was able to verbalize that. If Thomas needed to choose what to say to someone, Deceit was there. If Thomas didn't want to know something because of emotional preservation, Deceit was there.

The mental filter. The self preservation. His beliefs and lies and truths. His secrets. Deceit was the hidden part of his mind, the one that worked in the dark.

All the sides worked together, whether they realized it or not. They could not survive without the other. Without Deceit, Thomas would have no secrets. No embarrassment or consideration.

But Deceit is not good in Thomas' mind. Deceit is bad. He is always bad.

He is secrets and lies.

He is a monster.

He can be nothing more, because that is what Thomas believes. And Deceit is Thomas' beliefs. Deceit is a villain, he will never be a hero. He will never be good. He is a monster. A vile, despicable thing. He is the dark in Thomas' mind.

Thomas frowns, he's upset. Deceit wants to help. He's self preservation, but there is nothing he can do. If he tells him, then he'll be going against his nature. If he doesnt, Thomas stays upset.

Truth and lies both hurt. Deceit has learned to stop choosing between the two. He cannot tell Thomas what Thomas doesn't want to know.

Thomas fixes himself with a brave look, looking up at Deceit with determination. "I want to know." He says.

Deceit smiles, a villainous smile. "You don't," he replied. "Remember, Thomas, I am your lies."

"I do." Thomas says. With conviction.

Deceit faulters. "I.." he starts, but his voice fades.

No. He is the villain. If he tells Thomas... He'll be worse. If he tells him, then he'll hurt Thomas so much more. He would rather stay the villain.

He's a villain. He's Thomas' villain. That's where he fits.

"I want to know," Thomas says, again, and Deceit can't fight it.

"You all have dark in you," He says, monotonously. The truth forced out of him. "I'm just the villain in Thomas' mind. Because he is good, and you are all more good then bad. But I am not. I am more bad then good."

With forced honesty comes forced emotional honesty. Deceit can't hid the tears that threaten to spill from his eyes. "I am the villain," he hisses, "I am the monster and you are the good because I am not allowed to be."

He feels choked. He doesn't want to keep talking but he can't stop. Thomas wants to know. He cannot hide from Thomas.

"I am the villain, the evil because otherwise you are all forced to deal with your own darkness. I am the monster-" his voice cracks and he bites his lip. He squeezes his eyes shut. "I am the monster," he says calmly, "Because there is nothing else I'm allowed to be."

Truth hurts and it burns and it tears but in acceptance you find a numbness. Pain is real and he lives and breathes in it. It is all he can see and feel and hear and touch and taste and smell. Pain is real and it lives in every one of his senses.

Insults like barbed wire, twisting deep and cutting through skin. Chainsaws and knives and hell and pain. He cannot outlive pain.

Pain is real.

Pain is real and truth is pain.

He is a monster.

There is silence. Deceit looks around at the others, and he knows in that moment something is different. So he leaves, and he hides in his room and let's the stars of truths and lies in the ceiling blind him as he drags his nails through his skin.

Because pain is real and he doesn't know what's real. Pain is real and it is safe. Pain is real.

And he is not a monster.

Deceit is called down again. Two days since last night's spill of truth. He grins as he appears. "Evening," he greets jovially. "What dreaded thing have we come to discuss today?"

"Deceit, we need to talk," Thomas says immediately, "Like really talk, where you don't disapear."

Deceit smiles. "Do we? And what about."

"About you being a monster-" Deceit flinches. His stomach is being torn apart. "Or a villain or whatever."

Deceit feels pain, it brings with it comfort. Pain is real. "Oh Thomas," he says, still grinning. "We've run through this before. I can't tell you what you don't want to know."

"Tell me!" Thomas insists, voice raising for the first time in a while.

"Tell you what?" Deceit can't control his voice. He hates it.

"About how you feel-"

The truth chokes him, forces him to speak. A garbled mess of words, of truths and pain. "I'm a villain. I'm bad, I'm not allowed to be good. I'm lies and truths and pain- so much pain- pain is real- I'm not bad but I'm bad- villain-" the words come out choked. How he feels? He cannot deny Thomas an answer if Thomas wants one.

The air isn't working right through his lungs. He holds his throat to stop the choking as words tumble out of his mouth. "I'm a villain, a wretch. Disgusting- bad- pain, so much- hurt- pain is real, pain is real, pain is real- truth and lies- doesn't matter, always hurts- disgusting- bad- villain- monster-"

The words tumble out faster, why did Thomas word it like that? Why can't he control his mouth? Why? He doesn't want to say this, stop, stop, stopstopstopstOP.

"No!" The word is shrill and screamed. Panic flares through him. He doesn't want to say this. He doesn't want to. Why can't he stop?

He falls to his knees, curling up and biting his lips. Sounds of concern surround him, he's choking on words he doesn't want to speak. They force up his throat and try to escape but he refuses to open his mouth. He doesn't want to say it, he doesn't want to keep talking. No more, he's said enough.

Please.

The words break free, forcing him to keep soeaking. "I'm a monster, I'm a monster, I'm bad, I'm a villain, monster, monster, I'm a monster- I'm a monster!"

He screams, but all it does is make the words louder and tears, hot and unctonrallble flood his eyes and he sobs, and still the words force themselves out. "I'm a monster, I'm a monster, I'm the villain I'm not allowed to be good, I'm a monster, monster, monster, monster-"

The next words tear through him, leaving him breathless and broken. Pain is real, and he doesn't want to feel it anymore. "I don't want to be a monster!" He sobs, and still the words force themselves through.

He is broken.

His lips close, and then open in sobs that rip through his body. He grips his hair, drags his nails down the side of his face. Feels the skin and scales break and the warm blood. Pain is real. Pain is real. Pain is real. Pain is real. Pain is real. His nails scratch again, deeper and deeper and deeper, pain screams through him and only furthers his tears but pain is real and he needs it.

Something rips his hands away, pulling them apart from his head. Sticky blood on his fingertips and matting his hair while fresh blood spills from torn skin and ripped scales.

"Deceit!" Someone is calling his name, he blinks passed the tears and the sobs which have passed, fading to dull sharp inhales. He turns his head, vision clearing enough to see Patton's concerned face. His wrists are firmly secured in the cheery side's hands, held away from his hand.

Deceit wants to speak. He wants to bat them away, be the villain. Laugh in their faces, because he is not allowed to be anything else. But tears stream from his eyes and misery pulls at his heart and rips it from his body. Pain is real and all he feels is pain and misery and he doesn't want to anymore.

Pain is real. He is a monster.

Truths burn.

Everything hurts.

Deceit swallows. "Pain is real," he says quietly. "Pain is real," he repeats. And he moves to scratch his head again, but Patton doesn't let him.

"Kiddo I need you to breathe-"

"No, I'm the villain you can't- this won't- no-" Deceit pulls away.

He is not allowed to be good. He is the villain. He is a monster.

"No, kiddo," Patton says softly, "You're not the villain anymore."

Deceit stills. "Impossible. No. I."

"You're not a monster."

He can't comprehend the words he hears.

Pain is real.

He moves to scratch again but Patton remains steadfast, refuses to let him. Deceit swallows dryly. He can't speak. His tears are gone, something else is in him.

Shock.

"I'm.." Deceit's voice fades off. "I can't..."

He rips his hands away from Patton, backing away. "Villain- Monster?" His words are desperate,,pleading.

I'm not a monster.

Patton shakes his head. Deceit looks at the others, they're concerned..

For him?

I'm not a monster.

Pain is real, his fingers itch to let him feel it but he holds it back. He swallows again.

"I'm not.." his words fade off, and he whispers the next few. "A monster."

There's something that clicks, then, and he hugs himself. "No," he mumbles, laughing bitterly, "it doesn't work like that. Where else do I fit? I'm a villain, a monster-"

"No," Virgil cuts in. "You're Deceit. You have your own place in Thomas' mind, too."

"Yes," Roman agrees, "You may be a bit.. darker but you're not... it's not.." he fades off, unsure if he can continue.

"You're not a monster," Logan states, "Only Deceit."

Deceit almost believes them. He settles his gaze on Thomas. Thomas opens his mouth.

"You're not a monster, of course not-"

Deceit feels something click.

"I'm not a monster."

His words are emotionless, and he fully processes them. "I'm not a monster."

I'm not a monster.

I'm not a monster.

I'm not a monster.

There will be a part three.

Deceit Angst taglist:

@impatentpending @axyzel @accio-hufflepuff-power @forsakethegodsbeforetheydoyou @wikartsy @dragonsight9 @salty-lamp @wicked-universe @whenilearnedtofly @princeanxious @limitededitionsanderssidesblog @galaxy-lilies @to-precious-to-process @hogwartszombie @average--human @doing-my-demibest @llamaavocado @gemini-the-kitsune-rp @asexualsinner @aricana8 @unisaurioamorfo @prinxietyforlifefightmeiswear @thisis-theroadtoruin @anonymoussalsa @ierindoodles @midnightalex12 @shattereddreamsamongotherthings @bubblycricket @fillyourteacup

Normal taglist:

@velvetpsychokiller12 @dailypattondoodle @snakeboicouldbegayer @book-of-charlie @theunoriginaldaisy @pokii-jonas @beach-fan @joyfullyyouniquefangirl

If u want to be tagged in one of these tag lists or removed send me an ask

[nodlefisch]

Holy Moly This is a long tag thing!

tagged by @the-dork-crow-smiles (BRUH....) ((also sorry it took so long I saved it my drafts to finish later and I fuckign forgot it!!)

RULES: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions. 

Whooo BO I

1. coke or pepsi: neither ew cola

2. disney or dreamworks: disney!

3. coffee or tea: do I even need to answer thi s

4. books or movies: Books!

5. windows or mac: mmm. yeah. def windows.

7. xbox or playstation: Im gonna go with playstatio n--it was my first system and the ps4 is my newest...

8. dragon age or mass effect: DRAGON AGE. Tried to play mass effect, but it didnt stick with me as much. dragon age all they way. (esp since I’ve wanted to replay origins!!)

9. night owl or early riser: I would say night owl but really--im sorta both. Depends on if im getting up early for myself or something im being forced to do, though.

10. cards or chess: chess.

11. chocolate or vanilla: ...vanilla.

12. vans or converse: ....all my shoes are vans or converse. But theres more converse than vans...

13. lavellan, trevelyan, cadash, or adaar: LAVELLAN. DALISH FOREVER. Im always gonna choose elves in DA

14.  fluff or angst: why not both?

15. beach or forest: 1000% forest. fuck sand.

16.  dogs or cats: both you fuckerts.

17.  clear skies or rain: I like clear skies--it makes me feel more excited for the day. But I also love rain because its just so easy to get cozy....

18.  cooking or eating out: out.

19. Spicy food or mild food: brin g the heat

20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: halloween. Good spooky stuff and an excuse to shove my face with kitkats.

21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: I am always a little too cold.

22.  if you could have a superpower, what would it be: More time. Let me procrastinate or do whatever for as long as i wan t and not worry.

23.  animation or live action: animation

24.  paragon or renegade: even tho i dont play mass effect I can tell Id do paragon.

25. baths or showers: shower. But i guess baths have their place...

26. team cap or team ironman: Ironman

27.  fantasy or sci-fi: dont. just. DONT. 

28. do you have three or four favourite quotes? if so what are they: none that I can think of on the spot OTZ

29.  youtube or netflix: youtube. 

30.  harry potter or percy jackson: Harry Potter

31.  when do you feel accomplished: When I clean, actually finish projects, dont mess up when I think I have.

32.  star wars or star trek: STAR TREK.

33.  paperback books or hardback books: gonna sound weird but I actually like paperbacks more. 

34. horror or rom-com: Horror.

35.  to live in a world without literature or music: fck of f

36.  pastel colours or dark colours: all my art says I am only allowed to say pastel

37.  tv shows or movies: TV shows. I never get around to actually watching movies, and I like how there can be more development in shows.

38.  city or countryside: not sure...

39.  if any other zodiac sign could describe you, what would it be: Im an aquarius and while it fits okay, I can see myself as a virgo. 

40.  if you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life what would it be: why would you do this? The Flaming Lips - At War With The Mystics (I could really put any flaming lips album bu t)

41.  cinema or theater: is there a difference I dont remember

42.  if you could be any fictional character’s best friend, who’d you be: I would be too shy

43.  smiling or smirking: smiling

44.  are you an ‘all or nothing’ type or are you more consistent: what does this mean

45.  playlists or your whole library on shuffle: whole library

46. traveling or staying at home: home

47.  books or fanfiction: I mean one sorta relies on the other a bit yknow

48.  If you could live in a fantasy world, what world would it be: What th e fuck uhm. When it says fantasy does that mea n the genre or. I’ll just say Elder Scrolls because it fits both.

49. your favorite cartoon: I was going to answer this seriously and say Avatar: TLA but I am tempted to say chowder

50.  name the weirdest five songs on your music, current or past: all of my music is fucking weird but....heres some... next level ones 1  2 3 4 5

51. mountains or plains: mountains

52. favorite anime (or tv show if you don’t watch anime): sto p. nge is one Ill rewatch over and over if that counts but I still wouldnt call it my FAVORITE

53. which social media platform are you most like yourself on: hmm. Hard to say between here and twitter. Twitter, when I actually remember I have one, is a bit less filtered, I guess.

54. What are some of your passions: is this a job resume stoP

55. What are some of your current goals in life?: Finishing school improving art finish up my computer stuff and more genetic etc etc

56. A pet that you would like to have (or already have) that is NOT a cat or dog: I miss my rats ; m ; sweet babies...