Clexa x reader headcannons
Part 2
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Part 1
Warnings: mentions of sex(nothing TOO detailed), violence.
- You were a desertor. A traitor. To both your nation and the aliance.
- Nobody would want you. So. You hid.
- Did what you did best and pretended to be someone else. And it worked.
- You found a little village. And set roots there. Though you were still a stranger, an outcast.
- You kept to yourself.
- You would hunt. Cook. Clean. Sell.
- You were the misterious outsider. It shed some light on you. But not enough.
- To them, you were just an outcast. Dishonored. That left battle.
- In a way, they were right.
- In your time there, you caught winds of rumors, news from the world you once left behind.
- Some didn't make sense, like the army of Azgeda being possessed by demons and Heda were the one to defeat them all.
- You had no doubt she took a lot of them down though.
- You were relieved. She won. She survived. She's alive.
- Queen Nia lost. Maybe even died. You don't know if you should mourn her.
_ In a weird way, you cared. Not as little as you hoped, and not as much as you feared. But enough to make you confuse. Not knowing how to react.
- You ended up gathering informations. (Some habits never die)
- You learned Heda rescued her people on the mountain.
- Skaikru and Azgeda were both banned from the coalition.
- You also learned of the girl that singlehandlely killed all moutainmen. Wanheda.
- For months on end, you stayed like that. Hunting. Selling. Trying to get news from the world.
- And yet, for months, you were alone.
- Until you were not.
Your relationship with Clarke
- Strangers to friends with benefits to lovers :)
- You never talked directly to Clarke, but you saw her. Killing Finn, with Lexa, when Gustus died. You knew what she looked like.
- So, the red hair didn't fooled you.
- She tells you a fake name.
- You never say anything, though. You understood the need to run. The need for anonimity so you don't confront her about it.
- You take her into your cot.
- At first, you wouldn't talk much to each other. And, when you did, never about your life, about the past.
- You develop a dinamic of some sorts. If she hunted, you would cook. If you hunted, she would cook.
- But you always went to the village alone to sell what you hunt.
- Sometimes, though, she would let some things about her slip.
- Like when got hurt hunting, and while she was taking care of you, you asked how she knew so much about healing. She gave you a look, the one that meant you were bordering subjects that were forbidden. She sighed and murmured something along the line of "i learned from my mother".
- You didn't press for more. You never do.
- Sometimes, you'd surprise and scare Clarke with your silent footsteps.
- She'd flinch and reach for her gun.
- The first time that happened, you also reach for your knives.
- Both always are armed. She with her guns and you with your knives.
- Clarke would sometimes murmur a curse in another language. English, you recognize. You weren't very good at it, but caught some words. "Fuck" being a constant one.
- You would complain about the bullets in her killings. That it made it difficult to cook and soured the meat.
- She would scoff and tell you to do better.
- The next day, you apperead with a smug smile and a bigger animal in your hands.
- You teach her how to hunt. She already knew some stuff, obviously. But you taught her how to be more efficient.
- Sometimes, Clarke would be sad and angry. Her humour very unsteady.
- She was hurting. So were you.
- Somedays, she wouldn't get out of bed. Others, it would be you.
- With time, you formed an unspoken agreement. When one was in such state, the other would bring them food and take care of the house.
- You liked that. You liked not being alone anymore.
- You don't really know how that happened, but you and Clarke start having sex.
- The first time was when Clarke was upset with something. And to that point, you started to care about her.
- Her snarky humour, acid words, standoffish behaviour but still caring, still soft.
- You tried to talk to Clark. Try to help. Though that wasn't something you two did. Too personal. Too close to open wounds.
- You did, anyways.
- Amidst that, somehow, your lips met. And later you were in bed.
- You don't know if it were you or Clarke, that iniciated the first kiss. It didn't matter. Not when her body was pressed against yours, her moans so close to your ears.
- You don't talk about it in the next day.
- You never discuss the nature of your relationship. You just let it happen.
- And it happens. Again and again.
- And despite yourself, knowing you shouldn't, you feel your heart being shot, ensnared by the girl of blue eyes.
- So when two weeks later, she doesn't come back from hunting, you grow anxious and panicked.
- Maybe she left you. But what if she didn't?
- You weren't a tracker as good as Ronan, but you were enough. And felt an urgence rise in you when you noticed traces of fights. Clarke were taken.
- When you saw the traces led you to Polis, your heart grew restless. But you kept going.
- And almost turned away when you learned she was brought to Lexa.
- You were determined, though. So, you spent days relearning the routes of the guards and where Clarke was being kept.
- You thought it was weird when you saw her not in a cell, but in a room. For guests.
- "Clarke, wake up!" you whispered in the middle of a night. She got up in a flash.
- "Yn?? What the fuck are you doing here?"
- "Getting you out! So, come with me. The guard is set to come back in 3 minutes!"
- "What do you mean 'leave'? I can't leave! I don't want to!"
- "what do you mean 'you don't want to leave'?"
- Needless to say, you were caught. If Clarke fucking followed you, you would've made it. This was not on your skills. It was on Clarke.
- More guards were on you in a second.
- Clarke tried to help. To tell them to go easy on you. Which made their work harder. You don't go easy on them.
- But, you were overwhelmed shortly.
- Doesn't take long for Lexa to appear. And you both freeze. You stop resisting.
- She recovers her posture faster than you.
- "Throw them in the cells."
- You gulped. Looking down.
- You hear Clarke's voice. But you have no idea what she was saying.
- Only later Clarke realize you called her for her real name.
- You stay at the cell for days. Alone.
- Clarke had left you.
- After what you think is 3 days (you counted by the meals), Clarke came.
- She was gorgeous. Blonde hair. Green facepaint making blue eyes stand uot even more. A dress you knew to be for special ocasions.
- She looked like a goddess. You almost feel compeled to kneel over.
- "Well, you look... Good, Wanheda. Fitting for a leader just like you."
-" Why didn't you tell me you knew who i was?"
- "It's not like you were the most honest and open person."
- "How long have you known?"
-"I've always known."
- She just looks at you for a few moments.
- "Who are you, really?"
- "Didn't the commander tell you that already? Or Indra and Titus? I'm sure they would be thrilled to fill you in."
- "I heard enough from them. I wanna hear from you."
- "It's a long story. Don't you have somewhere else to be?" you point to the clothes.
- "I have time." she leans against the wall.
- Not seeing why not, you start to tell your tale. About being trained as an assassin since a child, given the task to spy and murder Lexa.
- You don't say why you gave up on finishing your assignment.
- " So, i ran, hid, you came in and i took you in and here we are."
- Clarke doesn't speak. She keeps you under her scrutinizing gaze.
- You look away.
- "When I realized you were taken, I... Thought you needed help." You look at her attire and your surroundings. " Clearly that wasn't the case."
- She sighs from where she was seated. " I was taken. But everything has been sorted out."
- "I can see that."
- "Why didn't you kill Lexa?"
- You shrug. "Didn't feel like it. Why have you stayed? For you to run away and taken back by force, well, i take you and Heda aren't on the best terms... At least not anymore.
- It takes a few moments for Clarke to respond, but eventually she does.
- "She betrayed me. She left me alone on the Mount Whether."
- "Looks like Heda isn't that different from me."
- "We all make mistakes and things we regret thinking it was the best."
- "...Did you forgive her? You are too kind, Wanheda."
- "I gave her a second chance."
- For a moment, the silence reigns.
- You huff. "What have you came here for, Clarke?"
- She looks unsure then, and avoids your eyes.
- "I guess i wanted to know if the you that i knew was true."
- "It wasn't like you were truthful."
- "So it was all a lie?"
- "You lower your voice to almost a whisper. Hoping if you were quiet enough, maybe, you wouldn't feel as exposed "No, it wasn't."
- She nods and gets up to leave, but not before saying "For what it's worth, it wasn't a lie to me either."
- And she leaves you with all that conversation spiraling in you head.
- "It wasn't a lie." Your heart felt lighter.
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Part 3
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