#so I needed to clean and stuff

[almondpiglet]

was doodlin today… the new train attendent collab art goes hard

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

[bacchuschucklefuck]

doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what

[slavhew]

made them to strike fear into my heart whenever i falter in my studies

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[kyo-hiki]

i dont think im finishing this lol i realized halfway that i dont like dudecest that much, at least in a sexual way lmao, but someone else might like it idk

[wardingshout]

revstar tegakis

[wabbitears]

type of shit ive been on. guys can we talk about the red text can we talk about all the weird new instances of red text in chapter 4 and the preprologue can we talk about the red text the fucking-

[too-many-rooks]

Claiming Father's sword

[sodacreampuff]

Do characters like Dirk, Dolly, and Cam cease to exist whenever the MC cleans the house? Do they like slowly reappear again as the house gets dirtier? Is there a minimum requirement of laundry/dust/garbage needed before they become alive? Does Dolly know Hoove, the vacuum cleaner, and what do they think of each other?

[off-mozzarella]

A drawing of the hero from the ss manga, can you tell drawing the face is the part I like the least? xDD I struggle so much but it's so important! It really makes or breaks a drawing and it just wasn't working here

Also I don't understand his brace thingies lol

[idontmindifuforgetme]

every time i walk into my local library i make sure to look at the receptionists with big wet eyes before heading to my corner to study bc i really want them to hire me as a part-time aide

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Turns out getting laid is also great for my executive function. Who knew the boardroom just needed some backshots to get shit done

[iamhereinthebg]

My shoulder and wrist are getting better I can slowly draw again but I am plagued with visions

I have started idk how many things and finished none rip

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

hate hitting the point in doing a thing where you're 90% done but the last 10% is a wall because it's about refining everything you've done prior

tedious!!! don't want to!!!! someone take the last bit and make it pretty!!!!! and finished!!!!!!!! please!!!!!!!!!!!

[wigglebox]

First Day 🌙☀️

[sceebybeeby]

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[ID: Four digital illustrations of the Kris, Ralsei, Susie, and Noelle from Deltarune in their dark world forms. They're drawn with playing cards in mind, having the first initial and their suit in the corners. The backgrounds are pixelated resembling cross stitch borders with embellishments on top. End ID.]