#so i gave up. but i really want to try shooting and editing mvs. so bad. but my ideas always include people so i cant do it

[alchemiclee]

"if I can stop one heart from breaking" in star rail is such a beautiful song. I want to shoot a mv for it!!!!! I have it on repeat at work and have mv ideas.

the only problem is, once again, my ideas require OTHER PEOPLE to help. which I do not have 😭😭😭😭

this is why i haven't been able to shoot a video yet. no one ever wants to help me with anything. i'd do it alone if I could act 2-4 different parts at once and shoot and direct all at the same time. but cameras can't move on their own and I can't clone myself

[your-everyday-whore]

BangChan x Reader smut

From steamy argument to steamy “wrestle match” in bed

a/n: This is one of my first writings so all and constructive criticism is welcome and appreciated!! + English is not my first language, Korean is, so excuse grammar mistakes

Warnings: protected sex, vibrator, fingering, oral(f receiving), very slight power dynamics (ddlg), slight orgasm denial, argument

2.1 k words

You had been scrolling through every app and platform downloaded on your phone. Edits of your idol boyfriend, Chan, keep popping up.

*Ugh, when will he come back from work…*

Indeed, your boyfriend left for his music studio at 8:45 am , it was now exactly 9:57 pm. You had messaged him a few times throughout the day but no surprise, he had not messaged back. He must still be stressed as always. Being the leader of a whole eight member k-pop group sure as hell can be stressful but now with all the photo shoots, music recordings, M/V filmings, concerts and so much more that came along with the comeback, he was ALWAYS stressed. He came back home after you were asleep and left before you woke up every.goddamn.day. He was becoming so distant and way too overworked.

You decided to go over to the JYP studios to go find your boyfriend and possibly talk about the distance being put between you both, so, you threw on a pair of Chan’s black cargo pants and a simple crop top with a vest over it, paired with ankle high black platforms, perfect for the weather. You walked over to the closest train station and made your way over to the studios. You get off the train and speed walk about a mile before arriving. 

As you walked through the entrance of the building, the secretary (who low key hated you and was super jealous of your relationship with Chan) gave you the elevator pass and did not forget to serve you a side eye along with that. You, being used to that behavior with many of Chan’s fans, brushed it off and made your way to the elevator. As the doors were closing, you saw 2 girls rushing trying to catch the elevator, you held the door for them. You hear them whisper but you don’t think much of it.

You arrive at the 3rd floor. After a small walk in the long corridors, you arrive at Chan’s studio. You knock a few times with no answer, so you enter. 

– Chris?

There is a small dim yellowish lighting in the room so it contrasts well with the bright white light coming from his computer. You walk over to it and soon realize your boyfriend is not sitting behind his desk.

– Chan?

After a long second, you see your attractive boyfriend walk out of the restroom.

-Baby? What are you doing here?

You walk over to him and give him a hug

-I was tired of waiting for you to arrive, so I came here to see you! Can we go sit on the couch? We really have to talk.

Chan exits the hug to look at you

-Can you say it now? I'm really busy

You give him a sad- eyed look

-No babe, we  really have to talk, this is super important, we have to talk about how overworked you are.

-I appreciate your concern babygirl, but i really have to keep working, JYP want the documents i told you about, i have to write an email to our manager, i have to order our outfits for the future MV’s and i have to continue the music for “Megaverse”, and that's only the stuff i have to do tonight, i have even more planned for tomorrow.

You put on a stern face

-Chris, can you please take five minutes to come talk to me, please?

He finally nods.You grab his soft hand and you lead him to the couch, you sit next to him.

Chris, i really miss you, you leave to come to work every morning before i wake up and you come back at like, 3 am after i fell asleep, you don't respond to my texts and phone calls and we don't even go on dates anymore. I-I really miss having you.

You tear up a bit.

‘reader’, i understand what you’re saying but-

NO! You don’t understand! If you would, you would at least take a day off for both of us! It’s not healthy for you either! You barely even eat!

       Chan is visibly hurt that you screamed, but he is also 

       visibly angry.

Don’t fucking scream at me! I’m here making money for both of us to live! Did you forget who is paying for the apartment we live in?!

“We”!? “WE”!? You practically live here, in this fucking office! You’re never home!

At this point, you’re both just screaming meaningless things to each other, almost forgetting the love that still strikes between the two of you, but then, Chan crosses the line.

YOU KNOW, IF YOU FEEL SO ALONE, MAYBE YOU 

Yea, i -i know, and- I’m really sorry too.

He he pulled back slightly to look at you

Baby, there is no reason for you to apologize. 

He pulled you back in.

Chris, let’s go home, okaySHOULD JUST MOVE OUT! It wouldn’t make a difference to you and I could stop needing to pay for food and clothes for you!

Chan isn't poor, you could tell he did not mean anything he said, but it hurt you nonetheless, so you teared up and started crying, you fell on your knees in front of Chan and he immediately regretted what he had said. 

-Baby i-...I’m so sorry.

Chan kneeled next to you and took you in his warm embrace. You inhaled his now wearing out cologne and relaxed in his soft and gentle touch.

You know I didn't mean that, right?

?

Yeah, let’s go babygirl

Chan grabs his phone and headphones from his desk then comes back to you and grabs your hand.

-C’mon babe, let’s go

You both walk out the door of his office and into the elevator. After entering, Chan pulls you into a big warm back hug, but your attention goes straight to the huge bulge pressing against your ass. As you feel him, your breathing gets heavy and Chan knows you feel him.

You feel that babygirl

m-mhm

Use your big girl words

He slides his hands down your body until he reaches your hips, he gently pulls you in some more but the elevator dings and you both go back to holding hands. You made sure to give him your purse to hide his hard-on from the secretary and security. 

While walking by the secretary's desk, she gave Chan puppy eyes and a small pout to look “more attractive” which did not go unnoticed by Chan who gave her a discreetly discussed look.

You shared a few kisses and love full words while walking to his car. 

Once in his car, he placed his veiny hand on your thigh.

                                          ***

You arrived home and immediately after closing the front door, Chan was all over you, deep kisses and hands grabbing all over your body. You took his hand and guided him to your shared room. He sat on the edge of the bed with you in front of him.

Strip to your underwear for me

You do exactly what he said, revealing a matching set of black lace underwear. He admired your form, gazed upon every detail of your body before pulling you closer to him by gently tugging at the side of your g-string. He pulled onto his lap with ease.

You are so goddamn gorgeous baby

He placed his hands on your hips, slowly caressing the soft skin, he trailed his hands ever so slowly to your ass, cupping it gently.

You put your hands on the back of his neck, thumbs behind his ear, he backed his head into your touch.

He adjusted his posture and pulled your underwear higher. He then picked you up and laid you down on the bed gently. He backed up a few steps to strip himself, taking off his black jean coat, then his t-shirt. You admired the well formed muscles on his abdomen and his nipples contrasting well with the light skin of his chest. He then took off his jeans leaving himself in only his black boxers.

He got on top of you on the bed, giving you a small peck on the lips before giving you a sligh playful lick on the jaw, he then made his way down your neck, taking his time and leaving love bites here and there, left to be admired tomorrow. Once he arrived at you chest he rose up slightly and pulled your back by your hips, he reached his hand behind your back and skillfully unclasped your bra with one hand, he laid you back down and buried his face in you tits and gave a lick to the tip of your left nipple, hardening it, but then he let go of it and continued his journey down your stomach, soft kissed making you shiver. Arriving at the hem of your underwear, he bit the material and pulled them down with his teeth, discarding them somewhere in the room. He gave your pelvis a kiss and then entered his strong fingers inside your warm cunt, realizing just how wet you were for him already.

You're so wet for me babygirl, do I really turn you on that much?  He said playfully

You moan at his comment, bucking your hips forward, showing that you want him to eat you out.

Do you want me to pleasure you some more?

m-mhm! You managed to yelp out.

Use big girl words

Y-yes, please daddy, eat me out. fuck- ngh

Good girl

He dipped his head in, circling his tongue over your sensitive pearl, never stopping his movements with his fingers. It was all too much, you were about to cum and when he realized, he stopped his movement and removed his fingers from your cunt, giving a kiss to your clit before rising to his knees.

I want you to cum around my cock, baby.

He leaned over you and extended his arm reaching for the drawer in the night stand, grabbing a condom and a vibrator from it. He placed the black silicone vibrator down next to your thigh and removed his boxers. His huge dick popped up and slapped his lower abdomen. The sight of the pinky tip and leaking pre-cum arroused you even more. He gently took your hand and led it to his dick. You wrapped your fingers around his girthy length and gave it a few pumps, feeling his warm skin. You slopped and reached for the condom, opening it and sliding it on.

He positioned himself.

Ready, baby?

You nod and he pushes forward, earning a nice, long steamy moan to erupt from your throat.

Chris! AH! fuck- ngh

Chan speeds up after letting you adjust to his massive size. His tip hits your g-spot at every thrust. Chan was breathing loudly and it was so hot to you. He grabbed the vibrator and turned it on the  5 / 8  level and put it on your clit, adding the perfect amount of pressure.

NGH!    CHR-CHRIS~

Fuck~ Babygirl, you look so hot right now.

You felt you're high coming, Chan’s dick and the vibrations are so overstimulating.

He felt your warm, wet walls clench around his cock, and he knew you were gonna cum.

Oh baby, i know you want to cum, but try holding it at least one more minute

CHRIS!~ 

You did last the whole minute, Chan’s thrusts became more sloppy but harder and you both came at the same time, you both rode out your high. He pulled out after his dick started softening and he took off the condom, he then went out to the bathroom to get a warm wet cloth to clean you up, he after collapsed over you, pulled the blanket over you both and wrapped you in his muscular arms.

I love you, Chris, I love you so much and I hated arguing with you earlier.

I love you too baby, don't worry, i’ll try my best to be more…here i guess i could say. He chuckled.

He held you tight against him and you both fell asleep together.

[purpleyellow]

Firsts

BTS 8th member

Sunny’s masterlist

“Sunny’s first time shooting a mv”

a/n: Here is some fetus Sunny nobody asked for. Your opinion is very important for me, send feedback and requests anytime 💜 Also, don’t be shy and interact a little, ask box is always open

When Sunny first dreamed about being in a music video set, a room filled with ripped newspapers and an empty bed frame wasn’t exactly what she had in mind, yet the sentimental value it held was more than she could describe.  

The story presented to her as well as the little details everyone had thought about when coming up with the idea for the “I need U” music video was fascinating, plus everyone’s hard work when making the album made her want to do a great job even more.

“Sunny, come over here please” One of the directors called her to where Jungkook was just done doing a small interview for their behind the scenes video “Give us a little piece of your mind right now,” He said once she got to where they were and the cameraman focused on her.

Staring at the lens a little frozen, the girl hummed while looking around, trying to come up with something to say, Jungkook who had walked a little to the side to make room for her laughed at her lost expression.

“Just say what you’re hopping for today, if you say something dumb they’ll just edit it out” He smiled shyly at her and walked to where Taehyung was standing, the three of them being the only members on that set.

“I’m really excited to see how the video will turn out, though I’m a little nervous since it’s my first time. I’ll do my best so it doesn’t show off on the final product” Sunny talked slowly while swaying on her feet “I hope it gets well received by fans and they enjoy it as well” Finishing it off with a smile she looked at the director who gave her a thumbs up.

“It is a little nerve-wracking not to have dance portions because we’ll have to rely on acting for all of it” The girl caught the end of Jungkook’s sentence as she approached the two boys on the side.

“Hey, did you see your set already?” Taehyung asked when he saw her getting closer, gently draping an arm over her shoulder to show support.

“Yes, they showed me when giving instructions,” She said looking around the empty building they were on, her eyes landing on the hallway the room they had set up for her was at “Oh, we have a scene together”

“Yeah, they told me about it” He smiled at her and squeezed her tense shoulders “I’ll walk along the hallway when you suddenly open a door on my left right?” 

Nodding to him, Sunny swallowed dryly, if everything went right and people liked her enough not to demand kicking her out, that scene would forever be marked as her permanently joining the group. Something she really wanted to happen after getting used to the group of seven boys.

“Shooting music videos is always exciting” Jungkook commented bouncing on his heels and looking at a random wall “You’ll get addicted to it, just wait and see”  

“I’ve always wanted to do it” Sunny smiled looking at her hands, she was determined to do her best, even if she didn’t have much idea of what her best was.

Walking closer to them, one of the staff members told her to go stand on her spot, so they could shoot her scenes first. The two boys followed along so they could watch from the director’s screen and give her some encouragement.

“Okay, those scenes were perfect” The director called out to her after giving two distinctive commands “Now, it might be a stretch, but do you think you can cry?”

“Cry?” Sunny asked him with wide eyes and instantly thought of a hundred sad things that could get her to start bawling.

“Well, just shed a tear. We’ll get a scene of Jin with a tear sliding down his face and it would be awesome if we could do a parallel shot with you doing the same” 

“I can try, sure” The girl closed her eyes and focused a little, her thought process getting broken by Jungkook’s voice coming from behind the cameraman.

“Think about your dead puppy,” He said out loud and Tahyung joined him.

“Yeah, the one you raised during childhood but he got drastically killed by a drunk driver”

“What are you talking about?” The girl opened her eyes frowning “I never a pet in my life, not even a dog”

“Wow, that’s something to cry about,” V said genuinely shocked and the girl giggled at his judging eyes “What are you doing? You’re supposed to be crying not laughing”

“Oh, right, sorry” She closed her eyes again taking a deep breath and mentally chanting, tears, tears, tears. 

“Do you think she’s thinking about something sadder than not having a pet?” Jungkook whispered to the oldest who nodded.

“She can’t miss what she never had” He shook his head and placed a hand on his shoulders.

It didn’t take long for Sunny to open her eyes again, trying not to blink as she felt a tear on her right eye, it seemed like a strange miracle that it happened so quickly, but she just presumed it was her mind’s pressure who did the trick.

“Wow, she’s good,” Taehyung whispered as the tear slid down as soon as the director yelled action. “Truly a natural”

“Totally not because of the basic acting tips that were given to us” JK suppressed a laugh at his Hyung’s concentrated face.

Walking closer to the girl, the makeup artist touched up the foundation she had applied and Sunny got up from the ground where she was sitting. Walking back to the monitor to check on how things had turned out.

“You look sad,” Tahyung pointed out the obvious, making her smile from the comment while looking at the footage.

“You know, if you hadn’t done it, we could have used eye drops,” The director said and the girl sighed, feeling a little relieved he hadn’t brought that up before she gave it a try.

“At least now I know I can do it”

[kthstrawberryshortcake]

Headcanon: Jin’s s/o’s relationship with the rest of the group

NOTE: I didn’t edit this, I’m honestly too lazy. There may be some small mistakes. Also there are some specific personality traits and aspects of appearance included. That’s just how it is. :)

*lack of caps except in quotes is a stylistic choice here

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when they first met jin’s girlfriend they didn’t really know how to feel about her

she was very sweet and friendly but so very quiet, they didn’t really feel like they knew much of what she was like

this was not helped by events occurring during their initial meeting

jin was back-hugging her as he introduced her to the rest, and she was shyly smiling and expressing her excitement to meet them

then hobi happened

“Aww you didn’t mention she was this short, so cute! Hello little one!”

she gave him a sour look

in his defense she was indeed very short, appearing even smaller standing directly in front of jin with his comparative height and super broad shoulders

to try to push through the awkwardness the other boys introduced themselves one by one

she was really quiet for the first few weeks she was around the whole group (bringing lunch to practice, hanging out at the dorm, going with them to mv shoots or shows)

jimin and taehyung managed to befriend her first, thanks to taehyung’s earnest enthusiasm and jimin’s understanding of her shyness

once comfortable around them she was actually quite talkative, surprising everyone (except jin, obviously)

the next to warm up to her was jungkook because he spent so much time with jimin and tae

she decides she isn’t intimidated by him when she sees his bunny smile and cutely childlike behaviors

jungkook sometimes abuses his maknae status for snuggles and head pats like he does with tae and jimin

that is, until jin reminds him that she’s jin’s girlfriend not jungkook’s mom

the maknaes still call her mom at times to annoy jin

once the maknae line had befriended her, namjoon concluded she probably wasn't going to eat him alive and began to talk to her more himself

namjoon was surprised to find that once she was comfortable around him, she was a lot of fun to talk to

the two of them made a habit of nerding out together over books or interesting ideas they’d come across

despite being younger than most of them the boys found she was a great person to ask for advice, so they began to go to her when they were struggling with something

over time she befriended even yoongi, though their quiet friendship was such that it was easily missed if you weren’t looking for it

those who knew him well could tell she had grown on him by the warmth with which he treated her, like he did the boys

by this time hoseok was the last one left out, and because he’d never said another word about it she was holding onto the resentment of his initial condescension

hobi asks jin why she doesn’t like him, near tears

jin reminds hobi of the first words he ever spoke to her, which she had been pretty offended by

hobi is horrified, explaining that he only meant to compliment her cuteness

jin explains this to her and she immediately warms up to hobi now that the misunderstanding is resolved

one night jungkook breaks down because of hate, completely out of control upset

before his hyungs even have the chance to react, jin’s girlfriend is already across the room pulling him into a hug, calming him down by holding him tightly

the sight of the tiny girl holding this giant man child as he cries is both comical and heartwarming

jungkook slowly calms down until he falls asleep, leaving her trapped beneath him on the sofa, though the others are in awe that she successfully soothed him

this firmly establishes her as the mom / big sister to all the boys and the others start going to her instead of jin

jin is ecstatic that she's become part of the family

the maknae line can often be found hanging all over her with affection or talking her into playing games with them

thanks to her maturity she often takes a parent role like jin does

*tae and jungkook are arguing over a video game*

*tae yells something at jungkook in frustration*

*jin’s girlfriend breaks them up*

“BOYS! Stop fighting over stupid things. Now apologize to your brother.”

*tae and jk mumble sorries to each other after being scolded*

“Go get ready for dinner, it’s almost done.”

*jin, watching from the doorway to the kitchen, finds it adorable*

“How did I get so lucky?”

as much as he wanted it, jin actually wasn’t the one to finally ask her to move into the dorms with them

they were having a movie night and it started getting late, so she started to leave to go back to her apartment

the maknae line whines about her leaving, then have an idea and demand that she move in with them

she’s shocked by the suggestion

the boys justify their question, “Shouldn’t parents live together?”

this makes her laugh as jin starts enthusiastically advocating for the idea

the rest of the hyung line is just as on board with the idea

she moved in shortly after that

[tipsydipsydo]

Study Break 📚 [M]

Pairing: Jimin x Reader 

Gender of the reader: female

Word Count: 2.6k

Warnings: !Mature Stuff! A bit Dirty Talk, Fingering, Vaginal Sex (In General Vanilla Stuff)

A/N: I got this Idea when I wrote on my Exposé for my following "scientific work" in January/Feburary. I'm still in High School but we should learn how to write these kinds of things when we graduate and go probably to a College or University. 🤗

Summary: College wants to kill you in the moment. Exam Phase and then you have to write a 20 pages long scientific work! Jimin and you barely see each other, you gave yourself completely to your studies. Until some specific needs wants some attention again...

「© tipsydipsydo」

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I’ll not accept any kind of reposting, stealing or using/editing my work!

That includes reposting my content on other social media platforms too, even when you link me as the original author.

Thank you.

Sometimes you wonder why you want to go on and if you really need a college certificate for your dream job.

For fifteen minutes, you've been looking at the eleventh page of your twenty-page assignment that your most hated professor gave your seminar class.

Deadline? Next week. It's not like there's the written exam phase right now and you also have a side job to cover your expenses.

Sure, your boyfriend Jimin would pay all your living expenses without batting an eyelash, but you vehemently objected and wanted to pay your part of the cost yourself since moving into your shared apartment. You are a autonomous and independent woman, of course you can accept when Jimin wants to pay for your dinner here and there but you can definitely stand on your own two feet.

That's why you also rejected his suggestion that you could take at least a leave of absence for these two weeks in your part-time job, so you have time to study and write your chores. But in the end, your guilty feelings of living on somebodys money and your pride keep you from doing so. And now?

Now you're sitting in front of your laptop, with tired and swollen eyes and an oppressive sense of panic in your stomach. You're surrounded by any kind of useful literature for this scientific short-term work, dirty plates and empty coffee and espresso cups sitting there in the table too. You've only taken the food and drinks that your boyfriend brought to you this whole Sunday. Concerned that you may have been thrown off your writing flow, you have refrained from cooking for yourself or at least making a sandwich. Too much precious Time you'd be wasting for that. Your goal is to finish this damn task today because you just don't have time to finish them in the following days. Tuesday and Wednesday are two important exams and you need to study for them, plus you'll have to go to the bar every night for your shift. For a million times today, you're counting on how fast you have to write the last nine pages tonight, so you still be done somehow tonight.

Meanwhile, Jimin has slipped away into your bedroom and binge-watch a few shows on Netflix. He doesn't want to disturb you, he knows how important your studies are for you and to be able to realize your dream job afterwards. Only on tiptoe he scurries through the apartment, trying to be as quiet as possible.

He takes care that you take food regularly and drink enough. You are ambitious and keep your promises, no question. Yet he misses you, even if you are only a few feet apart.

The last weeks have been exhausting and stressful for both of you, you're in your exam phase and he spends most of the week either shooting the new MV, doing practice or recording new songs in the Music Studio. Actually, you have hardly been aware of each other for the last three weeks, you two just lay down to sleep for a few hours at night, wrapping your arms and legs around each other half asleep.

You haven't really done much together lately, your last date was two months ago, because before all of this happens, there was one month where he has to film abroad for special scenes. And to be honest, the last time you had sex was three weeks ago.

You both had neither time nor strength for even intimate things. But the more your thoughts stray from your real job, namely, continuing to write this scientific essay, you'll realize how urgently you actually needed to be close to Jimin.

He would just hug you right now, without asking why and for which reason. Without reminding you that you actually wanted to continue writing your task. He would hold you close to him, put countless kisses on your forehead and cheeks, caress your back. He would just be there for you.

Without you wanting to, your fantasies continue, remembering the last time you gave yourself to Jimin in a sensual and loving way. How he was panting and groaning above you, sinking with deep but slow thrusts into you while softly whispering your name like a mantra. His body glistened with sweat in the dimmed light of your bedside lamps, damp strands of hair stuck to his forehead and the biceps of his arms tensed and relaxed rhythmically to his thrusts in your tight pussy.

Your breathing becomes hitched at the thought, you feel your body getting hot. You cross your legs to make the throbbing sensation between your thighs a bit more bearable.

"Dammit, concentrate!", you say quietly to yourself, shaking your head to get rid of those annoying thoughts and to return to the really important things in life and not these sexual fantasies. You know, in this moment, you don't need sex right now, you just have to get that damn writing done.

But you didn't have that deal with your sexual needs. Once they've licked blood with your sensual memories of Jimin, they kept throwing delicious images of his god-like body into your mind. His parted swollen lips, the way he always tenses his thigh as you ride him and how his abs contact with each other, even keeps your strong ambition from working.

After some unsuccessful attempts to start your next subtopic, you sigh loudly, close your laptop and stand up.

Slowly you go to the bedroom and want nothing more than to fall straight into Jimin's strong, but also incredibly gentle arms. You open the door and stand with hunched shoulders in the middle of the room, completely exhausted and wanting nothing more than that Jimin pamper you a little because you feel so pointless and helpless right now. Sometimes you just need a strong shoulder to lean on.

Jimin looks up from his laptop in surprise, then closes it immediately when he sees you. He doesn't need words to understand what you need right now and why you just came here. Your tired eyes with dark shadows under them show everything. He opens his arms invitingly for you, it will not take long for you to cuddle up to his chest and curl up on his lap like a cat.

You don't know exactly how long you spend time in this position. Jimin just lovingly massages your head and places butterfly-like kisses here and there in the crook of your neck and holds you with his other hand, presses you close to his chest. This silence is good. This silence in which you can only hear his steady heartbeat with your right ear on his chest is relaxing.

"Jimin?", You say softly, breaking the silence in the end.

"Yes, Mrs. Superwoman?" , He answers in a gentle tone and raises your head with one finger under your chin so that you can finally look at each other. Thanks to the nickname a smile creeps over your lips.

"... can you please make love to me?", you ask quietly, barely audible.

A smile lays on Jimin's lips. "Whatever you want, my dear..." he replies and slowly pushes his warm hands up under your sweater.

He puts his hands on your bare waist and pulls you even closer, so that your lips are only a few inches apart. "Let me kiss you, my beautiful queen," he whispers breathlessly.

"Please Jimin ..."

And your lips already touched, the first move of them is tender until you deepen the kiss and he becomes more and more sensual and passionate. Jimin's grip on your waist gets tighter, ask you to straddle his lap between two kisses.

"You're beautiful, I hope you know that. And to be honest, I'm glad that you're taking a little break, I was seriously worried about seeing you in front of the laptop for days.," he mumbles against your lips and looks with absolute honesty into your eyes.

"I missed you, even if we slept side by side every night."

He scatter soft kisses on your face. "You look so exhausted, please let me make you feel good again..."

Gladly you give in without a word on his offer, hum in agreement and lay your forehead against his. You literally feel his gentle smirk, so a smile creep on your lips too.

He pushes his hands up slowly, notes with a groan that you don't wear a bra under the top, which is underneath your sweater. Where normally the clasp should be, he finds nothing.

"All comfortable bras are in the laundry," you explain simply.

"You're so sexy, even when you're completely done with everything. God, I love you for that."

You giggle lightly, but immediately lift your arms at Jimin's intuitions to pull your hoodie and top over your head in one motion. He exhales shakily as he sees your naked torso in front of him.

"Damn, how can anyone be so beautiful? Please tell me, you look like a Greek goddess."

Even if you were actually used to Jimin's exuberant compliments, your cheeks blush again.

You feel like trash, with unwashed hair and blemished skin after you've stuffed your mouth with sweets in the last few weeks. And Jimin still loves you.

Even after three years of relationship, it's a mystery for you until now. Slowly, his hands slide up to your breasts, gently cupping them with his palms and rubbing your nipples until they're hard.

A small moan leaves your lips. Jimin needs only a few, targeted moves to make you instantly wobbly on your knees.

"Hm, you like that, right?" He doesn't even need an answer, instead his lips wander into the crook of your neck and begin to leave little bittersweet lovemarks on your skin.

"Oh god, fuck ..."

Why does your boyfriend always know so well which buttons he has to press on you. Almost automatically, you roll your hips against his, whimpering softly as you feel his prominent erection in his sweatpants.

"P-Please ..."

You barely recognize yourself, how you could be so turned on in such a short time? Probably because you haven't had any kind of sexual release for the last three weeks and all sexual frustration and tension has build up to this point.

Otherwise, your panties couldn't be completely wet within seconds.

"I know, I know, Honey ... I need you as much you need me, just give me a moment, we have to slow down a bit...I don't want to ruin the moment with my lack of self-discipline. I want to take my time with you..."

Before you can respond, his one hand slips into your leggings and finds his way directly between your thighs. His lips kiss their way down over your collarbone to your left breast, sucking your nipple into his warm mouth.

An electrical shock goes through your body, which isn't used to this stimulation after such a long time. You didn't even take the time to touch yourself. That's why you're so hypersensitive and totally reliant on any touch of Jimin.

"Oh my god, you're so wet ..." groans Jimin against your hard nipple as his warm fingers brush over your folds and wet them with your arousal. With a little devilish grin, he lets his index finger circle around your clit a few times before slowly and carefully letting it sink into you.

"O-Oh Gosh ...", escapes your lips.

"You're so fucking tight, Angel ..." growls Jimin.

This bulge in his pants is hard to miss. He seems to be just like you. If you imagine how sensitive you are to one of his fingers alone, you can only guess how fast you will come when his cock is in you.

Only the thought makes you clench around his finger.

"I want you so bad, sweetheart ..." he gasps, already dipping his second finger into the wetness between your folds. Your moaning and whimpering as well as his groaning fill the room as you begin to ride his second finger.

You cling instinctively to his shoulders, rewarding his actions with those sweet sounds that almost drive him crazy. He can't remember at that moment ever wanting you so much.

"Please ... please ... I-I'm ready ... I need you in me ... now, please!"

You whimper in his earshell and before Jimin can think about it, he tears your leggings with his bare hands in two pieces. You squeak in surprise, your boyfriend throws you an apologetic glance, but is too busy removing the annoying stuff from your body.

"Sorry, Jagi ... I know I ruined the moment anyway... I just need you so freaking bad! I'll buy you new leggings soon!"

You shake your head giggling and in disbelief as you grab his waistband and free his almost painfully hard erection. His cock lays proudly against his muscular stomach and impatiently waiting to finally get his turn of attention.

Jimin looks so good with his fucked out look, lips swollen by all this kissing, the first strands of hair stick to his forehead like in your imagination and only his gaze tells you how much he just wants you.

With a cheeky grin you grasp his cock and pump him a few times until you position yourself over him and slowly let you sink down on him. The stretch is delicious, so filling. Almost a bit painful because you haven't had sex for a comparable long time. Otherwise, Jimin and you have a very active sex life ...

Jimins rolls his eyes in pleasure, biting his lower lip, trying his best to not immediately pushing into you. The tight grip of your pussy almost kills him, he has to suppress his instincts to make it as pleasurable for you as it is for him. It takes a few moments for you to get used to this sense of fullness and start moving, riding him.

In these moments, he really wonders if you aren't the Cleopatra of the 21st century, so sensual and majestic you move on him, your breasts swaying gently to the rhythm, your Lips open to a silent moan.

While Jimin watches you breathless, you completely lose yourself in the pleasure. Your eyelids flutter in surprise as Jimin thrusts into you for the first time and you are completely overwhelmed by the sensation.

Searching for support, you lean on his chest, trying to get as much as possible of his powerful thrusts. His hands lays on yours, you open your eyes for a moment, see the smile full of love on his lips.

Holding hands in this moment makes the moment even more intimate. As you tense and relax your walls, Jimin let slip the most erotic and sensual sounds you've ever heard in your life. Despite all the years you've been in a relationship, you didn't know that his voice could reach these kinds of octaves.

"I'm so sorry, darling ... but ... I can't hold much longer ..." he whispers, his face telling a story of pure ecstasy.

You also notice how this fireball in your abdomen is about to burst. The moment when he interlock his fingers with yours it's too much. Only this gesture will make you come.

Your entire body tenses, a silent scream leaves your lips, showing Jimin that you have reached your high. Just that sight take his last bit of self-discipline, cum spurt into you and coat your pink walls white.

The silence returns to the room, Jimin wraps his arms around your upper body, enjoy the feeling of being so close to you what has been denied for both of you for so long. Your thoughts linger for a while until your voice breaks the silence.

"I think I've just build the perfect sentence for the beginning of my subtopic, Jimin!"

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Question | Chapter 2

Words: 2,104

Genre: college au, angst, fluff

Pairing: SKZ x reader

Summary: Your best friend, Minho, had been refusing to introduce you to his other group of best friends for months now, with no explanation as to why. One night after getting drunk after work together, he gave in to your pleas. Oops.

Warning: Contains mature content (such as coarse language, violent themes, etc).

A/N: SORRY FOR POSTING LATE! Just a quick reminder to check out the profiles post, and I’ll be making a Question masterlist for the series, too. In case you’re reading this first, I based appearances on the ‘I am who’ era. There is no real reason as to why apart from the fact that Jisung’s hair looks so fluffy and nice and oml I love it especially when he wears the cap in the ‘Awkward silence’ mv too I need help. Also, not edited because I felt bad about posting so late rip. Enjoy~

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You weren’t far from the apartment, but not close enough, to your disappointment. You were sobering up and starting to regret the whole thing. You didn’t feel that confident walking in in your work clothes, you were still tipsy and looking like a mess, and your feet were fucking killing you. Curse your uniform meaning you had to wear high heels. 

Minho appeared to sense your anguish, cutting short his conversation on a stupid argument he overheard at the bar, and focusing in on you. “You okay? Seem kind of, I don’t know, out of it, I guess…” He let his words linger in the air. Once he got tired of waiting, he poked you in the arm so you’d give him attention. “I’m just worried I’ll make a fool of myself.”

“Ah,” he smirked, “someone’s sobered up, huh? Well, too late now. I’m a nice friend but not nice enough to walk all the way back in the other direction and catch a bus with you. You have no choice now.” He taunted, looking dead ahead. Although he didn’t say anything similar, ‘told-you-so’ energy was emulating from his aura. So, you did what anyone else would do in that situation. Hit him for being a teasing ass and pout. “Not helping” You grumbled. He let out small laugh, massaging the point of impact with his free hand. He had still insisted on carrying your bag. You couldn’t be that mad at him due to the fact, playfully or otherwise. 

He piped up again, just as the previously stirred silence was starting to settle. “I know. How about we come up with a list of things for me to stop you from doing, so you don’t embarrass yourself?” He looked over at you, hoping you’d like his suggestion, or at the very least, appreciate it. He had limited brain cells, especially after drinking and working at that bar for so long. Pay some credit where it’s due. 

“Like, a set of rules, or something?” You looked at him, waiting for a response. “I guess, yeah.” He shrugged back. You shook your head, the teasing tone rising in your voice again. “Rules? Nope, not listening. I’m not falling them. Never have, never will.” Shock flashed across his face, then recognition took its place.

“Dude, come on! I said that once, like a year ago. I was immature back then.” Minho huffed out. “Yeah, like you’re much better now.” You snickered under your breathe, but you both know he heard it. He charged at you without warning, and you squealed, running behind a light post to take cover from his playful abuse. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry! I give in, okay?” You put your hands up in surrender as you retreated from behind the pole. The boy was laughing, and then so were you. He swung your bag over his left shoulder, and pulled you into his right side. An arm was slung around your shoulder. You crossed the street, encompassed by the peaceful harmony of breathing and shared heartbeats.

“Okay, we’re almost at the house. You have 2 minutes to give me any instructions to help you out. If you say nothing, I get no blame if you make a fool of yourself. Now, shoot.”

You sighed. He was right. At a time like this, a strategy was important. Minho was your best friend, and you wanted to make a good impression, not only for the sake of Minho, but also your friendship. The only time you went to his apartment was when all his roommates were out for the day. If you were going to hang out, you’d have to be able to go to his place without any awkward encounters. It made the most sense. Besides, you were bound to meet them, anyway. Minho’s birthday wasn’t that far off, and if they were his friends, how bad could they be?

“Okay. Most important thing first. Do not let me pull any stupid stunt-“ “Like stripping?” Minho inquired innocently, remembering that one time you got blackout level wasted after your mid semester exams. You didn’t want to that about that, especially not right now. “I was thinking more like standing on the table, but yeah. Hopefully, I won’t get THAT drunk.” You emphasised. “Oh, with our group, it’s highly likely that’ll happen.” You rolled your eyes. “Next?” He urged.

“Under no circumstances will you let me, or you for that matter, tell any embarrassing stories. Like, really bad ones that you save for drunken nights with close friends.” He nodded, “Got it. Anything else?”

“I guess, just don’t let me do anything I’ll regret. Anything bad that I’d remember in the morning with a bad hangover and want to kill you over.” The sudden threat caused the raven haired boy to tense slightly, but you both laughed it off.

“Any warnings for me? Anything I should be aware of about these guys? Like, you know, homicidal tendencies?” He threw his head back, laughing at the way you put the question to him. “Nah, nah. They’re not anything like that. One thing, though. They can be loud. Like REALLY loud.” He kept moving forward. The door to his apartment was slowly appearing, but you weren’t focused enough on your surroundings to notice. “Like, worse than you loud?” You said in mock fear. He just smiled cheekily. “Worse.”

He came to a stop at a midnight blue front door, removing his arm from around your shoulders and fishing out his keys from his right pocket. The nerves hit you like a brick wall now. “I’m still way too sober for this.” You sighed, more to yourself than to the boy ahead of you, hands retreating to your jacket pockets as you said so.

He chuckled. “Don’t worry. We can fix that.” He winked and ushered you in.

You stood in the small entry way, looking around at the clutter, which strikes you as typical for an apartment of nine boys. You took a step further in as Minho manoeuvred from behind you, placing your belongings by the door. He slipped off his shoes, and you followed suit, as he dumped his keys carelessly on the table beside him. 

As Minho closed the door behind you, a loud voice came from the passage way to your left. The owner was hidden behind the wall, but it definitely belonged to a guy your age. 

“Hyung!” he called out, “Finally! I’m starv-“ His sentence was cut short when he rounded the corner, and his eyes met yours. His mouth fell open and brown eyes were grew wide. “-ing... You’re not...” his words faded as he finally realised Minho was, in fact, there. He recovered, smiling, as realisation adorned his feature. His smile was so warm when is gaze returned to you.

“You must be the one trying to steal him away from me.” The boy had no trouble teasing you, despite this being your first exchange. Minho smirked at the boy’s antics before introducing the two of you to one another. “Jisung, this is Y/n. She’s older than you so behave. Y/n this is my housemate, Jisung.”

You smiled, feeling comfortable around Jisung almost immediately. “Nice to meet you,” you waved.

“No need to be formal with him, don’t worry.” You laughed as Jisung acted offended by Minho’s words. The older moved towards him, throwing an arm lazily over the boy. Both beamed at you.

“Did I hear a girl’s laugh, or is Jisung flirting with Minho again.” a sharp-tongued boy emerged from the opposite hallway Jisung had appeared from. He looked pleased with himself when the colour drained from the two faces his eye fell upon. If all of Minho’s friends gave him this much shit, you could see yourself getting along with all the boys without trouble. He then turned to you, bowing slightly and introducing himself with a softer smile. “I’m Seungmin.”

“Y/n.” you replied. You soon found out just how blunt Seungmin could be. “So how’d you get stuck with him?” He pointed to Minho, who had a genuine expression of annoyance and shock. “Dude, I’m right here.” 

Seungmin continued to smile at him and shrugged. Then had a hand on his left shoulder gently usher him out of the hallway, revealing a smaller guy. He grinned just as brightly as the rest had when his eyes fell on you. He moved away from Seungmin and bowed, a small smirk gracing his lips. “I’m Changbin, Minho hyung’s good looking friend.” 

Seungmin rolled his eyes, mouthing a not so subtle ‘sorry about him’ at you, just before Jisung shut him down. 

“You wish, hyung” Jisung snorted. He looked proud when laughter erupted from everyone, with the exception of Changbin. He looked like he had no clue how to react, letting out a small, unsure laugh.

“I’m Y/n.” you smiled after calming down a bit. Changbin’s bright smile returned to his lips. Minho looked back at you, “Since you’re going to get sick of introducing yourself five more times,” he turned to face the large archway behind him, that appeared to lead into the main living area. Then he proceeded to shout notice of your arrival. “EVERYONE! MY FRIEND, Y/N IS HERE. YES, SHE’S A GIRL, AND IF YOU HURT HER YOU’RE NOT GOING TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING. THANK YOU!” He huffed a sigh, turn back to you, then at the boys. They were all quiet, shifting uncomfortably at the thought of Minho’s shallow threat. You and he both let out a laugh, which was quickly halted when a shout came from the room beyond you.

“MINHO HYUNG HAS FRIENDS?!” Minho turned expressionless as the young boy’s voice had the rest of the entry way in stitches. Jisung leaned on Minho’s shoulder, which was aggressively pushed away by the latter. Jisung lost his balance, almost falling over completely, only egging on everyone else’s laughter. 

The boy, whom you guessed had made the comment judging by the huge grin consuming his face, entered with an older housemate in toe. They boys appearances made you feel as if you were being approached by a fox and a teddy bear. 

The younger boy waved at you, before the older began to speak. “Hi, I’m Woojin, and this is Jeongin. Welcome.” He turned to the other boys, “Ever thought about letting her further inside?” He raised his eyebrows, followed by Minho using the opportunity to usher you away. “Thanks, hyung.” he smiled up at Woojin as you passed through.

He walked you through the entry into the living area. It was an average size considering there were nine boys living in the house. Two boys were lazing on the couch in front of the large tv, eyes trained on the fantastical figures there were controlling on the screen. Jisung, Changbin and Jeongin headed their way after following you and Minho into the communal room. The kitchen linked in, more so hidden out of sight to the left of the entrance. Woojin headed there, Seungmin in toe. Minho guided you over there as well.

“So Y/n, how did you meet Minho?” Woojin smiles politely as he poured water for the four of you. Jeongin appearing behind him, making his way to the pantry before Seungmin grabbed him in a back hug. “Hyung~” Jeongin whined, resulting in Seungmin releasing him and turning back to the conversation. The others were watching the exchange, too, so you didn’t have to worry about replying right away. 

Everyone’s attention returning to the topic at hand, you replied with small “uni.” Minho took over the conversation to give a more in-depth explanation. You were so grateful he could read you so easily. Jeongin joined the conversation momentarily to make fun of Minho. Seungmin managed to grab a couple of chips from the bag in the Maknae’s hands before Jeongin was out of the kitchen. The boy proceeded to make a desperate run to save his snack from unwanted hands, leaving to the couch with his Honey Butter Chips. You laughed at their behaviour, more so when you shared a cheeky smile with Seungmin.

Steps were heard from yet another passage way, this time one that was located to the right of the kitchen. He emerged, a calm aura surrounding him. His hair was a brown, slightly fluffy mess, his fingers running through it. His over sized shirt hung on his frame nicely, partially exposing the left side of his collar bone. His eyes landed on you, just as quickly as yours had on him.

“Hi, I’m Chan.”

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[sakurasakiyama]

Goodies I’ve Received During My Offline Period! ❤

Since it’s always been a tradition for me to share with all of you what I’ve received on arrival of some of the DVDs, CDs, Magazines and Good’s that I buy; I thought I would make a *little* post of some of the things that I have purchased and has arrived since being offline! :D This won’t be as long since I haven’t purchased much since I was away due to pre-ordering and a hectic December, but I try my best to keep up with what I can :) And a head’s up that some of the photos have the flash on since my room is at the back of the house and the light doesn’t come through my window xD

There’s a lot to get through, so all of it will be under the cut (especially things that could be spoilers) ♥

1. Di Kita Malimot Drama DVD & Magazines!

I pre-ordered the Di Kita Malimot DVD back in August last year. I was really excited to see the Drama for the first time, and I wanted to have a copy of the extras as well as the visual book that came as a bonus. Unfortunately since I don’t have a Blu-Ray player for my laptop (as it’s a laptop without a disc drive), I was only able to watch the extras once on the Blu-Ray player I have in the living room for the TV when no one was home xD The Drama itself is quite funny and good to watch! You’d see them act in ways that you never thought they would, which is a good pick-me-up on days when you’re sad and in need of a laugh xD Overall, the Drama was definitely worth the wait! :D And, the visual book has a text mistake in it as well that was pointed out to SLF, and they made a note on the item page for those who purchased it. But they didn’t request for people to send it back, only to just be aware of it and what the part was meant to say. 

The magazine contents for all of them are amazing (especially the photos ♥), and the magazine’s in that photo are:

CDJournal October 2018 Issue

B’s LOG November 2018 Issue

Stage Fan Vol. 3 Issue

Cast Size Summer Special 2018

JUNON September 2018 Issue

JUNON November 2018 Issue

2. Stage Stars & Sparkle Magazine’s (Present)

These were one’s that I didn’t buy myself, a friend ended up getting them for me as a present in November! :D This was actually a big surprise for me since I didn’t know that they were going to get them for me, it just arrived at my door xD So, at least this post allows me to say thank you to them for getting me these magazines and I love them very much! ♥ The magazines here are Stage Stars Vol.3 and Sparkle Vol. 35 :)

3. UTOPIA Albums & Sakiyama Tsubasa Birthday Event Goods

I’ll start with the Birthday Goods first xD I pre-ordered them the second pre-ordering started, which actually happened to be during my lunch break when I was doing my teaching placement LOL! But, there’s a long story with these and the UTOPIA albums. Due to December being a busy and a not very financial month for me (I went on a trip to the city, I had to pre-order the Toumyu nendo’s, and I had to pay for subscriptions, phone bill and Christmas presents), I had to put off getting these shipped out to me (along with the albums), until January this year. Luckily I got paid on the first of the month, so I was able to get them shipped out as fast as I could xD They arrived to my proxy around the end of November. The bromides are literally dangerous and cute, and the pamphlet photos are just as perfect, along with the interview being quite deep interesting! ❤ The contents in this photo are:

Birthday Event Pamphlet

Birthday Event Bromides A, B & C (there was no bonus for getting all 3 of them as that was only during the event run)

Birthday Event Ball-Pen (Pink) & Automatic Pencil (Blue) (it’s one of those pencils that you push on and the lead just comes out, so you don’t have to sharpen it, just buy lead refills xD)

Next is the UTOPIA Albums xD I pre-ordered these in November and they arrived the day before release day to my proxy xD I wanted to have them as a Christmas present, but because of the lack of funds was an issue for me in December, I had to wait >.< I got them online which included the online purchase bonus with 2 RAW photos per album (one as a bonus, one as an extra), and there’s 2 in each of those 4 holders. With the RAW photos and the Trading Cards, let’s just say that bad luck is still on my side, and you’ll know what I mean in a moment xD

After listening to all of the songs in full for the first time (excluding “Dancing☆Samurai” thanks to KENZO and TOMO from DA PUMP collaborating with Tsubasa to make a Music Video for the cover of the song by doing the choreography and producing the MV), I fell in love with all of them instantly! ❤ The lyrics for them all have a purpose behind them and you can really feel the emotion in his voice. For the songs Tsubasa wrote the lyrics for himself, “Re:quest” for Kurogarasu and “Snow Gift”, I was really proud and amazed by them! The lyrics for “Re:quest” gives that dark, powerful vibe, which i feel links perfectly with the theme of his main starring movie “Kurogarasu”. “Snow Gift” was a lot more softer and kind of brings out his loving side. But it could also be perceived as him and his passion and never wanting to let go of it. This is his first time writing lyrics, but I do hope in the future, he will be able to write more songs and let his feelings come through ♥

As for the MV, MV Making Video & Special Movie, the short MV of UTOPIA gave us a preview of most of it, so the last part was a total mystery, and it was really beautiful ♥ As for the other 3 MV’s that were on there, I STILL love them to this very day xD The MV Making Video was short but sweet :) They just showed some of the places he took photos at and a couple of other little things that I had a good laugh at, as I had my suspicion that the Special Movie would give the full making in Macao. And I was right xD But I still loved the Making Video since there was some good shots :D The Special Movie was really good! ♥ The way it started I had a bit of a laugh at, but it was really cute. It follows through the 2 days he was in Macao doing his MV shoot and the photos as well for the cover, trading cards, and etc. He really did seem to have a lot of fun and was grateful to be able to do it in Macao, and Tsubasa would still have his little antics here and there as well xD Overall, I loved all of it! ❤

These are the RAW photos I got: 

I got doubles AND triples LOL! As expected of me to end up with the random draw like that, but I still love all of the photos anyway! ♥ They’re all of Tsubasa’s good sides and he’s really attractive in them all ❤ And if anyone has any doubles that aren’t in this photo and I have one of the photos in the triple and double that you’d like to trade with, by all means don’t be afraid to ask! :D If not, I might sell them or do a giveaway xD

The Trading Card bad luck continues to play with me and get worse each time xD So, I’ll let the photo speak for itself:

THEY’RE BOTH DOUBLES LOL! So, I ended up with 2 out of the 5 this time. It’s the same with Crescent Moon, except I got 3 of the same in that one xD I got the two top ones in the MV and Special Movie editions, and the bottom two in the photobook and CD only editions xD The trading card photos are really cute (not to mention quite good looking ♥), and I was super anxious when opening them as well as the RAW photo bonus also. Again, if anyone has a double of the other trading cards and you don’t have one of the ones in this photo, I’d be glad to trade with you! :D If not, again I’ll either sell them or do a giveaway :)

4. Surprise Birthday Present

Since what I’ve purchased is a surprise birthday present for a friend, I’m not going to show or say what they are (hence I took a photo of what it looks like from behind, and put a line in it to keep it as a surprise as it had the name of it on the back xD) since their birthday is still a while away and I don’t want to ruin the surprise! xD I got these off Mercari for a reasonable price and brand new! Thank you to the lovely An, @beansproutsong, for helping me purchase these for me through her proxy! ❤ I have used her a few times and her service fees are very reasonable for second-hand goods and her service is literally 10/10 in every way possible! So don’t be afraid to message her here on Tumblr or on Twitter (@Angelic1408) if wanting any goods that you can’t get shipped overseas, or from second-hand sites! :D She’s one of the friendliest people (out of the many others who are friendly too) who is willing to do a personal proxy for everyone, so don’t be afraid to ask questions or get a inquiry on something :) More info about her proxy service can be found: HERE

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Electric Shock

Part 7/30

Genre: drama, romance, fluff Rating: PG-13 Group: Monsta X Summary of previous chapter: Ellen warns Hyo-jin if she ever meets Monsta X again, Hyo-jin should pretend she has never seen them before the music video shoot. Hyo-jin then thinks back to when she started noticing holes in her memories. She gets a call from an unknown number.

Disclaimer: This is 100% fictional and my own story. It is unrelated to the actual events and real persons of Monsta X and Starship. Hyo-jin Lee is a completely made-up character that I created for this fanfic. Parts will be written in Korean with English translations. I did not major in English/Korean, nor was I ever strong in English/Korean grammar, so there will be grammatical mistakes. This is also the first fanfic I have ever written, so please overlook small mistakes. This fanfic is written in third person and past-tense for ease of writing

" 예... 누구시죠? " (Translation: “Yes... and you are?”)

" 저는 유PD라고... 아, 박PD랑 아는사이죠? 제가 뮤비보고 박PD한테 연락처 받았어요... " (Translation: “I'm PD Yoo... oh, you know PD Park right? I asked for your contact info after watching the MV...”)

Hyo-jin's eyebrows crinkled with discomfort before replying, " 아... 예... 그런데 왜...?" (Translation: “Uh... ok... so then...?”)

" 아, 몬스타엑스와 1일 예능 할 예정인데 일반인이 필요해서요... 근데 뮤비에서 나온 이효진씨가 딱 좋을것 같아서요... 할수있을가요? " (Translation: “oh, I'm planning a one day variety show with Monsta X and we need a normal civilian... and I thought you'd be the perfect one... can you do it?”) She frowned, hoping he would somehow feel her frown through the phone, and said nothing. He must have felt desperate after feeling the silence, so he added,

" 딱 하루고, 하시면 상품도 드려요. 어떻게 안 될까요? " (Translation: “It's just one day, and you'll also receive a prize if you participate. Do you think you could make it work?”) Although she was tempted to say yes for the prize, she mentally punched herself for almost giving in just for a prize.

" 제가 내일밖에 시간이 없어서요... 따른 날에는 일이 있어서 못할것같아요. " (Translation: “I only have free time tomorrow... I have stuff to do on other days so I don't think I can do it.”) Hyo-jin hoped he would get the hint, but before she could cut the call, he quickly yelled,

" 몬스타엑스분들이 보고싶어해요!! 셔누씨하고 주헌씨가 또 보면 좋을것같다고 했어요... 진짜 안될가요? " (Translation: “Monsta X wants to see you!! Shownu and Jooheon said they want to see you again... will it really not work?”)

She hesitated. Then she laughed out loud.

" 되게 급하신건 아는데... ㅎ 그런 거짓말은 너무 웃기잔아요. 시간이 안 되는데 어떻게 해요? 내일 촬영 할수있어요? " (Translation: “I know you're desperate but... lol that kind of lie is too funny. Well, I don't have time anyway? Can you shoot tomorrow?”) Hyo-jin surprised herself, coming out that boldly, but she thought it was childish of this grown man trying to lure her with false advertisement. She didn't think he'd agree anyway, since there's probably too much to prepare to shoot the very next day.

"..." The silence coming from the other line seemed to support her thoughts exactly, until

" 할수있어요. 할게요. 그러면 오실거죠? " (Translation: “We can do it. We'll do it. Then you'll come, right?”)

Bewildered, she asked,

" 진.짜.괜.찮.으.시.겠.어.요. " (Translation: “Will.You.Really.Be.Ok.”) PD Yoo sighed deeply twice before answering confidently,

" 네. 할수있어요. 제가 이렇게 부탁한 이유는 누가 저한테 부탁했고 박PD가 칭찬을 되게 많이 해서 그래요. 장소하고 시간은 문자로 보낼게요.  " (Translation: “Yes. We can do it. The reason I'm asking this much is because someone requested me to do so and because PD Park praised you a lot. I will text you the time and place. ”)

Although Hyo-jin was confused that this was actually happening and she was promising to show up the next day, she managed to ask a few more details about the show and what exactly her role would be. PD Yoo gave her a short rundown and told her there would be more details when everyone is gathered. They quickly said their thanks to each other and hung up.

She stared at her phone after hanging up, not believing that she was going to be in a variety show (even if it was a short 30 minute edited episode). Furthermore, seeing Monsta X again...! Hyo-jin's head snapped up, remembering Ellen's message. She turned on her phone to check the message, scrolling up to the warning:

"I know you said it was like a one in million chance that you got casted into the MV, so it's difficult to meet again coincidentally like that... but still just in case you meet them again, treat them as if you met them for the first time at the music video set. this is for your own good"

'Damn it. I should have just said no all the way. Why the hell did I even agree?' Though the thought crossed her mind, Hyo-jin knew deep down. She was curious about this memory she lost that consisted of the Monsta X members. This lost memory was probably why Shownu's smile seemed familiar. And a part of her didn't want to admit that she wanted to see that smile again. She pushed the memory of him handing her that caramel and static electrifying her fingertips away into an imaginary cabinet.

A short buzz from her phone woke her up from her daydream. Hyo-jin pulled up the text message that followed:

" 유PD이에요. 받아드려서 고맙습니다. (Translation: It's PD Yoo. Thank you again for accepting.) 내일 12시 XX에서 뵐게요. (Translation: Please come to XX at 12pm tomorrow.) 옷은 캐주얼하게 입어도되요.  든든하게 입으세요, 촬영을 거의 밖에서 할거에요. (Translation:  You can wear casual clothes. Wear thick clothes, as most of the shoot will be outside.) 질문이 있으시면 문자로 보내세요." (Translation: Please text me if you have more questions.)

She replied with a simple thank you and sighed.

*** TBC ***

[all-the-kookies-fall]

A THEORY: Linear Timeline of reputation

This is going to be a very long read; but it may just include unlocking the 15 Taylor's from the LWYMMD MV so read on if you dare…

 (OK it totally includes the theory, please read and tell me what you think!)

An Introduction:

I've been a casual fan of Taylor Swift since she started. Loved all her radio singles, listened to her albums (at my leisure upon release), and admired her platform and brand image. I guess I became a huge fan after 1989, but around the release of reputation, I realized just how much this woman's music has been there throughout my life and decided to fully stan her. As I fell down the rabbit hole of  learning everything I could about TS as an artist, I became completely enamored with her wits & charms. However, the more I learned to love about her, the more I could feel just a slight inauthenticity; I was constantly thinking of the hypocrisy of how she "never names who her songs about" yet she created this scavenger hunt with her liner notes that seemed to point in an obvious direction of one of her "ex-boyfriends." It didn't align with how she presented herself in every other aspect. Then, I felldowntherabbithole for real and found all of the incredibly documented and organized realm of the Kaylor's, and everything was literally in screaming color.

reputation made even more sense with fresh Kaylor eyes and once I read this Taylor Swift quote: 

reputation, in my mind, is an album that is very linear in it’s timeline. Meaning that it kind of starts out where I was when I first started making the record. The album ends more where I am now in my life. So this is more towards the end of the album, it’s called ‘Call It What You Want.’

my mind became OBSESSED with cracking this code. I had combed through all the kaylor blogs and while I had read everything I could, I still couldn't place it within any timeline. Then, Delicate came out and the code started to crack; I could peek inside and make sense of something, but was still unsure what it was. I put together a loose concept which had some plot holes, but it was when I remembered to revisit the 15 Taylor theory that everything completely revealed itself.

  I would like to start with a disclaimer: I have never, ever actively participated more than lurking or even posted anything on Tumblr. I would like to fully acknowledge that there is a huge, fat chance none of this makes sense to anyone but me, but my husband was really getting fed up with me talking about it and I just needed to share. THANK YOUS to the Kaylor blogs I frequented with incredible analysis and POV of Tay in the media and her music-  @all-my-possessions​ @howyougetthenerd​  @jennyboom21 @karlitakloss​ @kaydar​ @kaylorrepdetective​ @larrienation​ @out-of-the-klosset​ @paradisekisses  @tallcurlygirl​ @taytaysbeard​ @that-curly-haired-lesbian @thoseflashinggreeneyes​ @whaler13bg​ to name a few. (Sorry, tumblr is not letting me tag a few of you.)

 A lot of the information I am providing is not new and connects the dots from the amazing posts from this community. I tried as best as I could to cite all relevant posts - you can definitely let me know if I've made any errors. Please feel free to edit//contribute//comment because I have a feeling that a more seasoned eye would be able to expound on so many more clues and easter eggs!

Let the Games Begin!

Overall Concept/Themes

There are truly some insightful analysis of the overarching themes and concepts of the album already. Secrecy, partners in crime, forbidden love… In general there's a complex theme of Duality to the album; conflicting feelings, Brand vs Self, bad vs good, truth vs reputation etc. I think it's most important to note is that any analysis that views these tracks differently than listed below, can still be correct. Our Queen is a lyrical master plus there's that added layer of intentional dualities in her story telling; there's always at least 3 different meanings to her songs and that's one of the reasons we admire her wordsmith ways.

 The Timeline!!!

 …Ready For It?  - So It Goes… 2012* - 2014

This has long been inferred in every side of the fandom to indicate this is Part 1 of the Story, implied by the ellipses as the beginning and end of the track names. All the timelines I've previously read started at either the introduction of  1989 or even later beginning with 2016/2017 events, but it didn't make sense applied to the album as a whole. Once Delicate MV came out, I began to notice that all of the nods to RED in all these MV's were not just for nostalgia. She is literally telling us that this part of the story was about the end of RED era leading into 1989 - not quite 1989 era just yet. ;)

*2012 is an estimate based on the beginning of the Delicate video; it's possible that TS & KK met before Swiftgron was officially over but who will ever know? Karlie's buzz cut was December 2011 (x). The first half of the album is difficult to theorize specific dates within this period because we really have no idea when KK & TS met.

LWYMMD - New Year's Day 2014 - 2017 (NYD)

I gotta tell you - immediately after reading this, go watch LWYMMD. It was (is?) literally hiding there in plain sight; it's a GENIUS video walking you through EXACTLY what she did (you could say from a satirical standpoint more how the media/GP thought she did) to prepare for this era! When she refers to the "Old Taylor," she's using the term in the exact way her fans have been using: to refer to Country Taylor. She is officially Pop; Look What We Made Her Do when RED, a pop-country album, "a patchwork of songs," didn't win the Grammy. She went full POP princess. This post in particular helped me remember that these songs are not fresh in regards to her life even though they are brand new to us. Part 2 of the story more clearly follows the events of the 1989 era through just before rep's release.

Track by Track // 15 Taylors

…Ready For It?  Intro

I believe this is an introduction of what's to come, an overview of the story. Yes, she's definitely asking herself if she's ready to come out of the closet (x/x), if Karlie is ready to glass closet (x), is her beard ready for the consequences(x), and most specifically, are we, her fans, the GP, are we ready for her to come out and live her truth unapologetically? It's her laying the groundwork to prepare for 1989; her literally coming up with the concept for the whole era which is why we see the references to her 1989 MV's in the glass room. This post  cites the connection to the Dykes on Bikes; are we ready to accept Taylor to not only come out, but be a strong voice and activist of the LGBTQ+ community?

End Game April 2013 - June 2014

I KNOW Taylor is singing to KK about them first meeting - and I KNOW we think they just met before VSFS 2013 (even though there are rumors that say they met sooner…) But, hear me out because this lines up way too easily with the information we get from the MV (x/x). Remind yourself… Who opened for Taylor's RED tour? That’s right, our favorite ginger. It's a nice additional nod with the callback of Everything Has Changed duet with Ed Sheeran. Miami (shoutout to my hometown even though I have no inkling to its significance) tour dates were 04/10/13, London was  02/01/14 (Did she really show us their first  NYE together?!), and Tokyo was 06/01/14.

Irrelevant now but important for later (LWYMMD): And I bury hatchets, but I keep maps of where I put ‘em. This post highlights a cool interpretation of the line that applies to this whole post!

I’ve been doing some digging to try and somehow link Miami in this mix, and this is pure speculation but I feel like Future represents her bearding with Harry Styles. Karlie’s “buzz cut” was in December 2012, and shortly thereafter she was in Miami for a photo shoot. 1/4/12 marks the official break up of Haylor in the US Virgin Islands… it’s a stretch and I’m totally grasping at straws but they are geographically close and it’s all I got for now.

   "Me, I was a robber first time that (s)he saw me…"

I Did Something Bad early 2013

So, I have to admit… IDSB and DBM were the two songs I was having the most trouble placing within the linear timeline; my initial thought was this must have been a metaphor for her confessing her "sins" a.k.a. bearding, to Karlie when they first started dating. This was the song that clicked once I looked through the lenses of the 15 Taylors and reaffirmed my thoughts with the visuals of this Taylor on the cross in LWYMMD. In digging a little deeper, I found a Vanity Fair article - one of the only cover stories found online about TS during 2013. I'm not as confident about my perspective on the linear timeline with this track, however I feel like it's a good start especially considering the next holy church track.

In regards to the "light me up" lyric, and clear visual reference in the …RFI MV as well as the crucifixion of Taylor in LWYMMD, I thought this answer she gave the   73 Questions With Taylor Swift | Vogue video was also interesting to note. The question was what is the one thing she wishes she would have known at age 19 (8:03)?

"Hey, you're going to date just like a normal 20-something should be allowed to, but you're going to be a national lightning rod for slut-shaming."

I'll leave this quote from the April 2013 Vanity Fair interview right here:

"But nobody calls them the kinds of names that get thrown at Swift. “They’re ‘playboys,’ ” Swift says wryly. “They’re ‘having fun.’ ”

By the way, in the Vanity Fair article there's an "authorized source" giving insight to what "really happened" to Haylor aka probably lies.

 Every lie I tell them, they tell me three

Don't Blame Me early - mid 2014

I can really only hypothesize through the lyrics and the Taylor line up that this may be a reference to how the RED "media" circus (as quoted from the VF article cited above) literally made her do crazy things - maybe how her past experiences had caused her to react a certain way in an undefined relationship, maybe how the media circus in general had her guarding her heart, and of course the religious context of the song leads me to believe of course it is connected in that aspect to the confessing of her actions in the previous track. Big Sur trip also falls within this timeline. (x/x/x) 

I once was poison ivy, but now I'm your daisy…

Delicate 2013 - 2014

I think this one has so many beautiful analysis with the music video that syncs perfectly with this time line with no need for additional explanation, and I think it's especially apparent why this Taylor represents TraKK 5 in the line up. (x/x)

It's interesting that Fearless Taylor and Red Taylor were the ones actually fighting on Taylor Mountain in the LWYMMD MV; this may be a reference to her insecurities and headspace during the RED media circus//break up anxieties fighting contrasting to her want to just dance in her best dress Fearless with KK with no inhibitions.

Dancing in my best dress, fearless 

LWYMMD End of 2014

Has anyone noticed the crows in the beginning? It literally hit me as I was finishing this post - a group of crows is called a murder.

We see her Driving a new Maserati (well, car with significant meaning) down a dead end street and then crashes into the pole. (x) She literally killed the "Old Taylor" to get the Grammy - as well as set up clever disguises as red herrings* so that we missed the most obvious clue that this is about the release of 1989. I think even cleverer, how she walks away from the crash unscathed at the end of the MV to imply she rose up from the dead, she does it all the time (with each era release). (x/x/x/x)

*Red herring: something, especially a clue, that is or is intended to be misleading or distracting. In reference to the post regarding hatchets in End Game, she's definitely sending us on the hunt… remember that post above I asked you to note?

 Then of course another hint to the timeline is in the lyrics and MV (look at the date of the tweet...)

I've got a list of names and yours is in red underlined 

So It Goes… October/November 2014

This was definitely the most challenging to figure out, but there's definitely two clear ideas that are represented here - the linear timeline alludes to the HOT KINKY SEX our girls probably had after VSFS '14 (x/x/x) and the death of her 'innocence.' Coincidentally, I had read Slaughterhouse Five for the first time earlier last year and lurking around the Reddit TS  community where they spent so much time trying to figure out how they could circle this back to Vonnegut. Unluckily for them, it is the most heteronormative//homophobic community where even Kaylor posts are censored/deleted/ridiculed etc so they weren't ever going to get it. This song represents a toxic relationship with CH in their eyes, and I can see that perspective… another Salute to the American Queen of Wordplay.

 Anyway, here is a quote from a NY Times (https://www.nytimes.com/2011/12/18/books/review/and-so-it-goes.html)

That is, the constant repetition of “So it goes” makes readers ask themselves about the meaning of death (or its lack of meaning) and the incalculable human costs of war.

The 2009 VMA's Taylor is the epitome of everything her art, brand and music spoke to prior to 1989; and with the Pop princess she was no longer the relatable girl next door. She had gone full big-city, celebrity friends, glitz and glam - feeling so Gatsby for that whole year. With 1989, represented by the LWYMMD music video, that image was shattered, it was the death of her reputation but the true beginning of laying the groundwork for her and KK's future and she truly felt alive. 

Not to mention a song about kinky sex is a huge step away from that image.

So it goes...

And so it goes, now Part 1 of our story is done.

Gorgeous Met Ball 2015

Part 2 moves into the 1989 era starting with the Met Gala. (x/x) I read a great analysis using the lyrics to prove why this song is not about someone you just met because of the intense conflicting feelings. (I have scoured Tumblr to find it and link it but can't rediscover it… sorry I explained I've been a noob and a lurker and I never liked or reblogged anything, I'll update with a link if I ever find it again!) That made me reevaluate my original thoughts of this track being Enchanted 2.0 and representing her meeting Karlie for the first time. This was the first public event Kaylor attended together; it must have been strong conflicting feelings of joy & giddiness of the relationship quickly overtaken by nerves, fear, and anger that she would be found out and/or couldn’t show any outward PDA towards KK at the event. I would imagine there was a lot of drinking that night to cope, thus the “drunk” perspective.

 PS she probably didn’t go home alone that night (DING)😉

 'Cause you're so gorgeous it actually hurts

Getaway Car May - August 2016

There are great analysis looking at this song from two main POV's- 1. the bearding CH-TH circus(x/x) and 2. a reflection of Swiftgron in hindsight (x). For the sake of the timeline/15 taylor line up, it was too coincidental that this was the Taylor snapping at the beards in I <3 TS shirts and  from that perspective, fits perfectly into the linear timeline. It is suspect  that TS went against her management in anger of how the "break up" with CH unfolded, and so it would make sense to be a little apologetic towards TH -- the one beard aftermath she may have regretted but that is just pure speculation.

And a circus ain't a love story, and now we're both sorry

  *I JUST NOTICED! She POPS HER LEG for the 7th boyfriend in line - AKA CH. She is SO EXTRA!

King of My Heart August 2016

The below quote and Taylor line up don't need further explanation. 

"I think it’s very interesting when people talk about their love stories. Like when you guys blog about, “my and my husband, me and my boyfriend” or just anyone talking about how they fell in love. 

There seem to be these very definitive phases. It doesn’t matter how long that phase lasts. There seems to be a moment where you know it transitioned to the next phase. People will be like, “Oh my God, we were friends for six years and there was this moment and we knew and then it changed. Then there was a moment and it got even deeper. Then there was a moment and we knew” or like “I saw this person and there was this moment and we knew.” Everyone has a different story with how they connect with someone else and what i find interesting is the moment where it switches. You always hope that switch is going to move forward and not backwards because it can happen either way. I always wanted to structure the song where each individual section of the song sounded like a move forward in the relationship but still being listenable. So I wanted the verse to seem like it’s own phase of a relationship, the pre-chorus to sound like it’s own phase of a relationship, and the chorus to sound like it’s own phase of a relationship. I wanted them to all have their own identity but seem like they were getting deeper and more fast paced as the song went on. So finally I was able to achieve that in a song.”

 Here’s a couple of my favorite analysis regarding this song. (x/x)

 Up on the roof with a school girl crush

 Dancing With Our Hands Tied Mid - End 2016

This analysis  really explains the lyrics and matches the allusion of the Zombie Taylor to make it seem like it is a hindsight song about Swiftgron; however Out of the Woods is the last MV of 1989 era released the end of 2015 (aside from New Romantics your video) and this can perhaps be expressing the death of Taylor’s 1989 reputation after the slew of public feuds. It can also be interpreted as a hindsight song in regards to Kissgate in 12/2014(x/x); how she had found herself coming into 1989, but was a zombie version of that because she had to beard with CH and TH and it perhaps made her feel dead inside. Maybe she’s implying that she would have just taken the fall from grace then put herself through another (particularly long and grueling) fake relationship.

I had a bad feeling

Dress October 2016

Not only is Dress pretty frequently analysed, it's also the most obvious and blatant within the theory.  I thought it was very cute that this was represented by the Ballerina in the line up as a not so subtle nod to Karlie. October 2016 was the infamous Golden Tattoos at Drake's birthday party. (x/x/x)  

Made your mark on me, a golden tattoo. 

Sorry I couldn’t help myself with this gif :P

TIWWCHNT November 2016

Originally, I thought this was the easiest one- yes, the Snake Queen is sipping and serving tea on her infamous feuds however it just didn't fit in the more transparent timeline of the second half. There's been a few posts that hint the track may be a slight diss to her fans. Once it hit me she was alluding to herself as our (the fans) American *dream* Queen, I realized: this song is not a slight diss - it is harshly directed to us, all of us. Hear me out: Just like KOMH is about a love that reflects back on different periods in life, this track also calls to a couple different conflicts with the relationship of TS and her fans. She's never enough for either aspect of the fandom.

I thought it was curious that she would have the "ET TU BRUTE" (x)  as a reference to Kanye because let's be honest, she probably never trusted him after 2009 and rightfully so. "Et tu, Brute?" is a Shakespeare reference and a phrase that is now used to describe a friend stabbing you in the back. This would be more applicable to us, her fans. V1:

It was so nice throwing big parties

Jumping to the pool from the balcony

Everyone swimming in a champagne sea

And there are no rules when you show up here

Bass beat rattling the chandelier

Feeling so Gatsby for that whole year

This easily refers to 12/2014 - Kissgate. Feeling so gatsby for that whole year; throwing big parties. She had to close the gate before she was outed prematurely by the fans watching her during the concert.  We were the last ones she ever expected having to protect herself from; she had been so open, glass-closeting, but the fans took it too far and crossed the line of her privacy. She was surprised by the network that had expanded to track her every move. A couple years pass, V2:

It was so nice being friends again

There I was giving you a second chance

Think back to the election of 2016; Taylor being back in the media and more open again with her life wasn't enough at this point. America had reached a boiling point and everyone had to pick a side; even Taylor's most dedicated fans were constantly expressing their disappointment at her so she changed her priorities and went into hiding.

 As @paradisekisses once posted, “Not everything is about Kanye.”

 Salute to you, our American Queen of Red Herrings

 Because you break them, I had to take them away.

Call It What You Want End of 2016

The lyrics all harken to 1989 (x) and this is when her reputation has never been worse (again), but she’s stronger this time and it didn’t break her as much as post RED era. Not to mention, she’s madly in love and found her end game so nothing else really matters to her; her priorities have been shifted and she knows what truly matters in her life. 

Call her what you want, she is Karlie's Partner in Crime.  it's an obvious call to the gold cage, hostage to my feelings; she will jail herself once more with this ((hopefully)) last beard and that will be the official death of  (2.0? 6.0?) Old Taylor. The best part is the BTS video showing how much fun she was actually having in the gold cage. There are beautiful analysis of this song (x/x/x/x/x)   , and to me it's just the most real/pure love song. Love isn't just about all the good times, it's how your partner and you navigate the bad. Sometimes the worst moments in life show us just how strong our relationships are and bring us closer together.

Karlie what you want, call her what you want to (I can't unhear this in the background now <3)

New Year's Day January 1, 2017

This Taylor is hidden from us because she will probably never be as open with the GP, media, or her fans ever again. Who knows what to come in the future, but she actively tells us "don't read the last page" and to "hold onto the memories." Ugh, this is making me tear up --  I just officially joined the fandom!! Don’t tell me this is it already... (x/x/x) 

This post highlighted the importance of the sunshine necklace with Taylor's obvious sarcasm in the BTS in saying “It’s really important to wear subtle jewelry in music videos, I’ve learned.” (If anyone can forward the gif I’d love to add it to the post :))

Sidenote: technically, isn't this another closet she's in during the rep era?

Wear you like a necklace…

And I will hold on to you...

I had so much fun putting this together and being inspired by all the amazing perspectives the Kaylor fandom has been churning! Hope you like it :) Let me know your thoughts!

[axiumin]

Snapshot | Chen x Reader

Hi, lovely! Guess who? ;) You've got Admin T here from Noona-Clock! Sending you a fluffy Jongdae request. I'll let you choose- either a Model!AU or Backstage!AU (like the Little Something MV). Looking forward to it, dear, and fighting!! ❤️ Admin T

 @noona-clock Admin T, I am thrilled to bits that my first requested story is for you! I had a lot of fun with this one and may have gotten a bit carried away at times, so I hope dearly you find it to your liking. <3 

Perhaps it was due to your nature as a photographer, but treasured moments stuck out to you as if frozen in time, like snapshots. After you met Jongdae, you found that there were plenty of such treasured moments.

Pairing: Chen x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Model!AU

Words: 2.5k+

It was way too early for it to be this bright.

You’d been in the business long enough to know the importance of getting an early start for the day, yet you couldn’t help but sigh as your sleep-heavy eyes squinted against the studio lights.

Still, at least you had something to make it worth being up at this time of the morning. Today, you’d be working with Jongdae, an up and coming model whose career took off quicker than anyone expected. Well, maybe not totally unexpected. You’d seen the pictures, same as anyone else: the high cheekbones, the expressive eyes, the curved mouth. The man was gorgeous and— more importantly— he photographed well.

The artist in you was thrilled at the chance to take photos of him. You may be one of many photographers working with him, but you knew that if you pulled this off well enough, your career might soar just as high as his.

You were fiddling with one of your film cameras when Jongdae arrived. He was clearly just as affected by the early morning hour as you, but even with his baseball cap and the faint circles under his eyes, he was strikingly handsome.

His handsomeness increased tenfold when he made eye contact with you and grinned, bright and charming.

“Hi, I’m Jongdae,” he introduced himself, sounding far more energetic than he looked. Butterflies erupted in your stomach; you already knew this was going to be a fantastic shoot.

“I’m Y/N,” you returned, putting your camera down so you could gesture around the studio. “What do you think?”

Jongdae looked around, taking in the lighting, the backdrops, and the props. He nodded approvingly. “I like it. I think this is going to turn out great,” he said. He wasn’t the first person to say something like that to you, but when his eyes returned to yours, you were struck by his earnestness.

You cleared your throat. “Alright, then. Good. How about we get you set up with the stylist and ready to go?” You nodded at him and turned back to your camera, watching him walk away out of the corner of your eye.

.

There’s something honest about photography. Sure, there’s retouching and editing that can make a picture look nothing like its reality, but the photograph itself, the original version, is one of the most truthful things in the world. You’ve seen firsthand the raw honesty of photographs: a fleeting emotion, immortalized in film; impatience, exemplified by a blurred border or overexposed brightness; the clutter and mess of humans.

But just as photographs are a reflection of the humans they capture, so too do they reflect the perspective of humans. You became a photographer so that you could share your view with the world, and you take great pains to do that, no matter what project you take on.

.

You had already finished setting up and double checking all of the equipment by the time the stylist was finished with Jongdae. That meant he had your full attention when he stepped into the studio lights, every detail of his appearance carefully curated, from his slightly mussed hair to the bold, contrasting colors he wore.

Now more than ever, you were eager to get started. Already, you could imagine the different details to hone in on, the different ways of capturing this man in photographs. You were still reflecting on this when he spoke.

“I’m ready to go if you are,” he said. Your eyes flicked back up to his as a confident smile spread across your face.

“Let’s do this.”

.

Here’s what you saw: dark hair falling into dark eyes. The sweet curve of a mouth hinting at mischief. Bright lights playing off the curve of a cheekbone. A glimpse of a strong chest hiding behind a bold shirt. A face unable to hide its honesty as it asks, “Can you see me? Do you know who I am?”

Click.

.

After the shoot concluded, you flipped through the stills on one of your digital cameras. You were amazed; you had expected a successful shoot with Jongdae, but you hadn’t expected nearly every photograph to come out looking this good. You cycled through more shots, impressed when you found that this guy didn’t seem to have a bad angle on his body. And by the sound of the low whistle coming from behind you, you weren’t the only one impressed.

You looked over your shoulder to see Jongdae, his eyes fixed on your camera.

“You know,” he started conversationally, “I had heard rumors that you’re good, but I didn’t expect you to be this good.”

Your face heated a bit as you shrugged.

“You’re the one who’s so unbelievably handsome that he apparently can’t take a bad picture,” you replied. Only after the words left your mouth did you realize how flirtatious they sounded. You shot Jongdae a worried look, but he was just smiling as brightly as ever.

“Let’s just meet halfway and agree that we work well together, then,” he said cheerfully.

.

Your prediction was right: your photoshoot with Jongdae was very successful and garnered a lot of positive attention for the both of you. You suspected this was why you found yourself working with him again, just a couple of short months after the first shoot.

This time, you didn’t have the luxury of working in your studio with your perfect lighting and your air conditioner. No, this time, you were doing a shoot in a garden. It was a beautiful location for a shoot, you readily admitted, and the late spring sunshine provided wonderful lighting for the time being. But there was still the pressure of knowing that you only had a limited amount of time to work with this lighting, and you were discomfited to find that the same sunshine that gave you said pleasant lighting was also attempting to burn through the back of your black shirt.

Still, despite any complaints you may have had about your slightly less-than-ideal conditions, you couldn’t quell the excitement that came from knowing you’d see Jongdae so soon. You tried to chalk it up to professional interest, but you couldn’t deny the part of you that just wanted to see his bright smile directed at you again.

Fortunately, it seemed Jongdae was just as excited to see you again. As soon as the stylists were finished with him, he sidled up to you, bringing with him the wonderful shade of his umbrella.

“You look hot,” he said as way of greeting. You watched, amused, he visibly processed what he just said and hurried to correct himself. “I just mean, you know, the sun is bright. And you looked—” He decided to stop while he was ahead.

“Thank you, Jongdae,” you said with a laugh. “Are you ready to get started, then?”

Grateful for the way out, Jongdae nodded. “Very.”

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Here’s what you saw: sunlight dancing on bronzed skin. Soft petals resting against soft lips. Blades of grass weaving through dark hair like the delicate caress of fingers. Eyes both piercing and gentle as they say, “I see you. I know you.”

Click.

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The shoot ended as the sun began its descent and took with it all the best lighting. You were far from disappointed, though; again, you couldn’t help but be impressed by how flawlessly these pictures had come out.

You heard footsteps approach from behind you and half expected history to repeat itself with a low whistle. You were surprised, then, when Jongdae spoke.

“You know, we’re not too far from my favorite cafe.”

You turned away from your camera to give Jongdae your full attention.

“Would you like to get something to eat?” he finished, smiling bright and beautiful as ever.

You smiled back.

You went home that day with several rolls of undeveloped film and a scrap of paper with a scrawled phone number.

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The next time the two of you met up, it was by your own arrangement. You’d made good use of that phone number, and it was just over a week before you found time to plan a date.

“I’m a bit worried,” Jongdae admitted. You were halfway through lunch at a cafe of your choice, seated outside at a wrought-iron table that offered a lovely view of the nearby park. You felt a flash of concern, but it settled when you saw how open and relaxed Jongdae’s face was.

“What are you worried about?” you asked, idly taking a sip of your tea.

“Well, I thought I knew what I was talking about when I took you to that cafe last time, but now I’m worried that your taste in food is much better than mine. How am I supposed to impress you now?” Jongdae, bless him, actually pouted a bit.

A slow smile tugged at your lips without your permission. You comfortingly patted Jongdae’s hand, heart fluttering a bit when he turned his palm to yours and intertwined your fingers.

“Ah,” you cleared your throat. “I suppose we’ll have to keep sharing our favorite places with each other to see who really has the better taste. Don’t you think?”

His hand squeezed yours and he smiled like the sunshine.

“You know, I think you’re right.”

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Here’s what you saw: fingertips grazing a painted coffee mug. The peek of a tongue chasing a fleeting taste. The flash of joy in familiar eyes. A warm hand clasping another tightly as if to say, “I want this. I want you.”

Click.

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Your first date had set the tone for the beginning of your relationship. Whenever the two of you found time between your respective new projects to meet up for another date, you took turns choosing where to eat. After the cafe you had brought him to for your second date, Jongdae had made it a point of pride to try to find the best eateries— not that you particularly minded. As far as you were concerned, both of you were the winners if it meant you got good food.

With time, your friendly competition had moved on from cafes to sophisticated restaurants and again on to—

“Ice cream?” you asked dubiously.

“Yeah! I mean, it’s summer. What better way to cool down? And we both know that not all ice creams are created equal.” Jongdae tugged on your hand, leading you to an ice cream stand that he insisted was one of the best in the city.

You had to admit, once you were seated on a park bench, swirled ice cream cone in hand, Jongdae might have been onto something. And he knew it.

“It’s good, right?” he asked, watching you with an almost cheshire-like smile as you tasted your ice cream and made a show of thinking about it.

“Hmm.” You forced yourself to keep a straight face as you scrutinized your ice cream. “I’m not quite convinced yet,” you teased.

“Yah, Y/N! Don’t pretend that you don’t like it!” he whined. He wrapped an arm around your waist and leaned against you. “It’s perfect! And if you don’t like yours, then you can try mine!”

This time, your skepticism was real as you looked at his ice cream.

“Jongdae, didn’t we get the same flavor? Why would yours taste any different?”

He just shrugged and made a show of taking a bite of his ice cream.

“You never know how these things work until you give them a try, Y/N.” He suddenly leaned further into your space, face softening into a more sincere expression. “So let me give you a taste.”

Your heart hammered in your chest as he leaned forward to press his lips against yours. They were lightly cool from the ice cream, but you immediately felt warmed by the kiss. It was slow, unhurried as the summer afternoon around you, and when you pulled away, you felt almost sluggish as if you’ve been basking in warm sunlight. Warm, comfortable, right.

His face hovered close to yours, his eyes watching your face as if it held all the answers. You slowly licked your lips, chasing the feeling of the kiss, and you were surprised to find that the ice cream somehow tasted sweeter than before.

Yeah, Jongdae was onto something here.

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Here’s what you saw: tree leaves casting mottled shadows across an expanse of skin. Eyes dancing and crinkling at the edges in laughter. A smear of ice cream decorating a shining face. A fierce grin softening around the edges as if to say, “I love you. I love you.”

Click.

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Months later, things settled into something steady and comfortable and warm between you. It was this warmth that reminded you of the spring day when you met, even now in the dead of winter.

Unfortunately, that was just a metaphorical warmth. In reality, you were sitting bundled up on Jongdae’s couch, wearing old sweats and two pairs of fuzzy socks to keep your toes from freezing off. Really, the only thing keeping you going at this point was your personal space heater, who had taken to draping himself across your legs while you two spent a lazy afternoon watching an episode of the latest drama.

“Yah, Jongdae,” you whined when he got up from the couch, taking the heat with him.

He tossed a quick smile over his shoulder as he disappeared into his bedroom.

“Wait right there, Y/N. I promise it’ll be worth it!”

You pouted, bundling your blanket tighter around you while you waited for him to do whatever it was he was doing. After a moment, however, your face melted into a curious expression as you listened to him rummage around in his room.

He came back soon after, hands behind his back and smile bright and contagious as ever.

“I got something the other day,” he sing-songed. You were still confused, but you couldn’t help but grin back as you craned your neck to see behind his back.

“What is it?” you asked, trying to catch a glimpse.

“Ta-dah!” With flourish, Jongdae showed you the camera he was holding. It was an old polaroid in surprisingly good condition, and you were sure your puzzlement showed on your face.

“I know you’re the photographer and all,” Jongdae said, “but I thought it would be nice for me to have my own camera! That way, I can have pictures of you for once.” Your heart swelled with affection.

“Oh, Jongdae,” you sighed, voice halfway between teasing and dreamy.

Jongdae tilted your face up to be level with his, eyes dancing.

“I love you, you know,” he said, just before kissing you.

It was as slow and sweet as your first kiss, and you sighed softly as he pulled away, far too soon for your liking. You had barely opened your eyes to look at him again when you heard the click of a camera shutter.

You gasped, your shocked expression making Jongdae snicker as he waited for the instant film to finish exiting the camera. He held it up victoriously, and you grumbled a bit even as you pressed against his side, waiting for the film to develop.

As you watched your form slowly materialized in the photograph, you felt more keenly than ever the love you held for this man.

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Here’s what he saw: wisps of hair falling softly against a sweet face. Cheeks flushing with warmth and affection. Lips parting as if to call after someone. Half-lidded eyes confessing without fear, “You are my moment. You are my forever.”

Click.

[osakaso5]

Riku Nanase RESTART POiNTER Rabbit Chat Part 3: Behind The Scenes

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 4 | Part 5

Tsumugi: Riku-san, good work. Yor newly released video for RESTART POiNTER has been getting a lot of attention..! Isn't that great!? 

Riku: Manager, good work! It's gotten popular, despite my worries. Thank goodness... 

Riku: I was kinda embarrassed that they used the part where our sheet music gets blown away by the wind, do you think they liked it..? 

Tsumugi: You were filming without a script, so we took plenty of liberties with the editing >< We wanted to use that scene because the messages everyone wrote on your sheet music flash on the screen briefly..! 

Riku: I see! lol You should've included the part where Yamato-san uses a fishing net to get the sheet music back! He was so brave and cool back there. 

Riku: Though maybe I shouldn't say this, since it was my fault they got blown away in the first place! *sweats*

Tsumugi: We decided against showing that footage, so it was cut >< I also wanted the MV to have more of your cooking scenes, but that would've made it too much of a cooking video... 

Riku: I liked the cooking part, too! Nagi was pouring that olive oil from so up high, it was amazing! lol

Tsumugi: He was elegant as always... 

Tsumugi: The little props you used in the kitchen, such as the little notes, have been getting attention, too! It's nice that they're looking at it so closely! 

Riku: They're seeing all the little details! I wonder if they'll notice the little thing I did? I bet you haven't seen it yet, either! lol

Tsumugi: Huh..! What is it!? I'll have to go rewatch it frame-by-frame again, lol

Choices/outcomes:

1. Was anything about the shoot hard on you?

Riku: It was all so much fun that I don't know if there was anything!! I wanna do stuff like that again. I wish we could go on a trip with that mega yacht thing! 

2. Was anything about the shoot fun for you?

Riku: The sky was really blue and there was a nice breeze, so I couldn't help humming RESTART POiNTER when we were on the deck. I was happy that the others joined in and started singing with me. All of us really do love singing!

3. Was there anything especially memorable about the shoot?

Riku: Splitting the watermelon! The way Iori cut it up was so pretty. I want to try doing that, too. Iori said something about calculating his distance to the watermelon and the amount of steps he needed to take, but I'm not sure if it's actually that difficult... 

Riku: Also, I found out that I don't get seasick. Sogo-san did, though... 

Tsumugi: Tamaki-san gave him medicine that should've made him feel better >< Were the others alright? I hope none of them felt ill after returning to the dorm... 

Riku: We're fine! Sogo-san's more sensitive than the rest of us. But the medicine seems to have worked by now! 

Tsumugi: That's good to hear! Your legs must've felt shaky after being out in the sea. 

Riku: They felt really wobbly! lol So when we got back, me and Tamaki pretended to be a ship and its captain. 

Tsumugi: A ship and its captain? 

Riku: Tamaki told me "I'll be the ship, so get on", and put his hands on his knees, and when I climbed on he said "We're taking off!" 

Tsumugi: You and Tamaki-san make such a cute pair... 

Riku: You think so, too!? Yamato-san said the same thing. Even though we were trying to be a brave sea captain and his trusty, cool ship. 

[yoonseokminappreciation]

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just a comment about the tummies in fake love:

when i first watched the mv, i was shocked by jimin and jungkook showing skin since they haven’t done this in a music video since debut (bulletproof pt. 2 and no more dream). but while it may seem like the producers wanted to provide fanservice, this is too far from the truth. 

jungkook and jimin’s skin gave me the immediate impression, above all, of vulnerability. the exposure made them look, instead of confident and “manly,” (like in bulletproof and nmd) very small and desperate, slightly scared and self-conscious but obediently following the producer’s directions. right away i also worried that jimin, hoseok and probably jungkook as well starved themselves for a while before shooting the mv due to their looking gaunt and like they might fall over at any moment during the choreo. (note: i’m not saying that this actually happened, i wouldn’t know for sure. regardless, it was another level of artistry to the performance, and they did it perfectly.) edit: obsessivelyintoeverything said “Jimin said this is the first comeback where he didn't lose any weight,” so that’s good xD anyway, vulnerability. this is what they are emitting. while jimin and jk are wearing tiny shirts that ride up easily and expose their skin, the other members are wearing belts or chains (or in hoseok’s case, even handcuffs) around their body, PREVENTING their skin from being exposed. these contrasts are representing two ideas: jungkook and jimin look like they are being eaten up by the attention from thirsty fans and trying desperately to please them by showing their torso, and the rest are tying themselves, locking themselves up in self-consciousness, trying to maintain their appearance, terrified that their body will not be good enough for the fans. both are forms of fake love, in bangtan’s case likely from thirsty fans and for the viewers from society, friends, partners, anything. 

the tummies added a huge layer of vulnerability to this mv that really drove its message home. the exposure was not meant to be attractive but instead eye-opening. (for me, it made me cry more ;_;)

this whole mv was just such a masterpiece i’m-

[kpopisthereasonihavenolife]

When MX realized the moment they fell in love with their best friend

Shownu: He had been friends with you for the majority of life.  You both shared similar interests and that included dance and singing.  Although your tastes in the subject would sometimes clash, they still kept the friendship between you.  In high school, when Shownu was introduced to your new boyfriend, he felt a strange nagging feeling in the pit of his stomach when he noticed how you smiled to your boyfriend.  Over time, he’d notice how he would start seeing you less, of if you were with him, your conversations would be cut short by your boyfriend coming and pulling you away from Shownu.  Not wanting to interfere with your relationship, he just shut his mouth and let it all happen.  

Texts from you also shortened, and soon both your presence, voice and text messages were all gone from his life.  It was a short time that you went without contacting him at all, but it felt like a horribly long, torturous time to Shownu.  It was early on a weekend, that Shownu’s phone was ringing, waking him up from his sleep.  

Early may be an understatement, as he saw your name light across his screen at 3:14 AM. When he picked up the call, he sat up in bed and answered you.  When you spoke, your voice was low and almost raspy as you only asked if he’d let you inside.   

He darted to the door, keeping his phone to his ear as he unlocked and unlatched it before swinging it open.  You stood in front of him, eyes puffy from crying and head hanging slightly with your phone to your ear.  He quickly pulled you to into the apartment he lived in, and then held you to his chest as you cried more. You went on to tell him about how your boyfriend was a jerk who was just trying to get in your pants and have someone to order around.  You apologize for not contacting him, but Shownu knew it wasn’t your fault.  He took you to his room and let you rest on his bed with him as you wept yourself to sleep.  

Looking at your swollen, saddened face, he had the strongest urge to protect you.  He didn’t want anything, or anyone, to hurt you again.  He wanted you to stay with him, as his.  Seeing you at your most vulnerable, and also knowing your smile and laugh as well as your tears and fears, made him realize he was in love.

*Shownu’s phone rings with your name across the screen*

Shownu: Hello?  Y/N?  What are you calling so early for?

Y/N: Sorry, could you just, let me inside?

*bounds out of bed and opens the door to pull you inside after seeing your swollen eyes.  You continue to cry and talk to him finally*

Y/N: I’m so sorry.. I didn’t- i didn’t mean to ignore you, he just- he wouldn’t let me have my phone.  A-and he always followed me around and all he just wanted to fuck around with me and I-i didn’t

Shownu: Hey, it’s okay.  I won’t let anyone inside, and you’re safe here.  I know it wasn’t your fault. 

*takes you back to his room where you fall asleep with him on his bed as he stares at your sleeping figure* 

Shownu: When you wake up, I hope you realized that you need to be with me, stay in my arms where you’re safe.  I won’t let anyone hurt you, not ever again. 

Wonho: You were both gym rats.  Of course, Wonho, on one of his many trips to the gym, he met you.  You were casually jogging at a steady pace on a treadmill, hair pulled back and where a crop-top with shorts and supportive tennis shoes.  He thought you charming, so even if he was an awkward mess to new people, he decided to start up the treadmill next to yours and eventually, somehow a conversation started.  

It started with you lip syncing and humming to the music the gym had playing for those without headphones.  Then it progressed to your favorite method of exercise, then to vitamins, foods, health products, the whole nine yards.  

Eventually, you both started seeing each other at the gym regularly and you even learned about his status as an idol, and having listened to his music, you were a pretty big fan of his work, as well as the rest of MX. 

After a while of being at the gym together and chatting, becoming closer friends, you’d started calling these meeting ‘dates’.  Soon enough, you two even started meeting outside the gym. He’d invite you to eat at his favorite ramyeon place, or he’d even bring you to the dorms so you could meet the rest of MX, whom you are also now close with.  

It was one day when Wonho was laying in bed on his phone, texting you when Minhyuk causally suggest him liking her as more than a friend that it seemed to click.  As he interally freaked out about liking someone, and potentially having a future girlfriend, he knew dating an idol was a pain in the ass for the non-famous side of the relationship.  

So, sitting down with Minhyuk as they talked, he was able to accept the feelings he had towards you and Minhyuk was already planning, with the rest of the members, the best way for him to confess to you.  As you already talked to Changkyun about how you like Hoseok too.  

*Wonho casually texting you, deciding your next gym date* 

Minhyuk:  So, you have a thing for Y/N?

Wonho:  I’m sorry?? What? 

*proceeds to have an entire conversation, making Wonho come to terms with his feelings*

Wonho: I can’t have her as a girlfriend, dating an idol is hard.  I don’t want to hurt her. 

Minhyuk: I don’t think she’d mind.  She knows you love what we do, and we care about our Monbebe.  You don’t really have to worry about it too much. 

*Has a new conversation about the pros and cons of a relationship with you until they’re discussing confession ideas with the rest of the members who eventually gather into the room, one by one.*

Minhyuk: You were an assistant manager for Starship Entertainment’s boy group Monsta X.  Following orders given by their official manager, Mr. Kim, or stepping up when he was sick or unable to attend certain occasions, that’s when your role was the most crucial. However, despite this, you were able to act naturally around the group of 7 boys and created a positive relationship with all of them. You were especially close to the mood maker of the group, the ever loud Lee Minhyuk. 

You two became closer when he was directing the acoustic film making of Beautiful.  He ran off his ideas past you before finalizing something.  He’d ask for your opinion on the setup for each member as well as their wardrobe.  You’d give your pointers and also help manager the time in which he had left in completing the filming. 

That long day gave the two of you more time to work as well as bond than most would.  Now, every time he could, he’d invite you over to the dorms if you weren’t busy.  He’d text you if you weren’t around while he and the rest of his team were out on his schedules and you couldn’t make it.  You both made sure that you’d keep each other healthy, making sure to check if each other ate or are staying warm/cold in the weather outside. It wouldn’t take long for him to realize how he felt towards you. 

 He was also so use to seeing you dressed in your business slacks and a button up shirt with your hair put up neatly (If your hair is short, just have it neater than your everyday look), but when he and the rest of the team were out walking around shopping, they’d spotted you.  You’re look had changed and you looked too cute for Minhyuk with your hair loose and your clothes much more comfortable fitting.  He knew at that moment, how hard he fell for you. 

*Jooheon, Minhyuk and Hyungwon are out shopping with MX, but are by themselves with the other four somewhere else* 

Hyungwon: *spots you* Ah, isn’t that Y/N over there?

*Minhyuk and Jooheon look around* 

Jooheon:  Waaah, they look different outside of work hours.  It’s almost weird. 

Minhyuk: *interally screaming*  Yahh, who said they can be that cute when they’re not working.  That’s not fair and I’m not going to stand for it.  Literally anyone can hit on them when they look that nice.  

*exagerating to the max and JH and HW just stand there like wft bro* *Jooheon groans and Hyungwon smirks* 

Minhyuk: What?

Jooheon: The team took sides on if you liked Y/N or nooot! *pouts*

Hyungwon:  He was on the losing side, if you can’t tell. 

Minhyuk: … YAH! DON’T BET ON MY LOVE LIFE YOU CRONES!

Kihyun: You were the personal photography of Monsta X.  You were one of the lucky individual’s to receive copies of their schedules and follow them on occasion to snap the photos that their beloved MONBEBE’s craved to see.  You had just finished up and graduated from majoring in photography and were lucky enough to be hired by Starship to follow the boys around. 

Your tasks would rotate from giving advice on the best selca angle, to taking professional pictures at fanmeets and concerts and even sometimes working the rolling cams to capture videos for MVs or interviews.  

You were going through a role of your most recent shots on your laptop when you felt someone come up behind you, scanning the photos with you.  Nonother than Yoo Kihyun.  You knew Kihyun had an interest in photography himself, and he was very skilled at the art of picture taking, whether he recognized his talent himself or not.  You had shifted over a bit and pulled up a stood for him to sit on as you invited him to help evaluate what photos to save, what to edit and what to post with filters or without.  

Soon, you both found yourself doing this almost every jacket shoot they took. He’d go over the photos of himself and his team and pick out his favorites.  On your days you weren’t photographing and the boys were free, you’d go through the camera roll on your phone as Kihyun peeked over your shoulder to see what your phone had.  

Then, one day you had come over to hang out and once again share photos, but as Kihyun walked into the living room from his room to change, he saw your slumped body sleeping on the couch.  As a photographer, life wasn’t easy.  You’d always fret about the smallest things, and those would keep you up at night.  You’re sleep schedule was nearly as horrid as his own. 

So, as he sat himself down next to you, he pulled to rest your head on his shoulder and pulled his phone from his pocket.  Opening the front camera, he took a sneaky selca of you sleeping on his shoulder and rather casually put it as his phone background.  He knew he was attracted to your skill from day 1, but maybe that was just him trying to deny his attraction to you as a person. 

Kihyun: Yah, Y/N, have you gone through the photos of the fanmeet in Seoul yet? 

*sees you sleeping on the couch and sits next to you, pulling you to lay on his shoulder* 

Kihyun:  I suppose, you are tired.  I’ll let you sleep, but not for free.  *pulls out his phone and takes a selca of you sleeping on his shoulder*  This is your fee.  If you’re aloud to fall asleep in a boys dorm, at least make sure it’s always with me around, you understand? 

Hyungwon: You both met while Hyungwon was a runway model.  You were as well, advertising and wearing the latest fashion to show off.  There was a couple model event and you and your co-workers were to be paired up with a group of male models.  You ended up being paired with Hyungwon.  

Before the photo-shoot and the modeling job was to arrive, you were to spend time with your partner so you would be able to act like a real couple. Hyungwon was usually with you walking around a park, or sitting at some random cafe drinking a coffee as you talked and got to know each other.  

You both took your jobs seriously, so when you exchanged numbers for work, none of your expected to truly become so close.  Even when the day of the job came and went, you two still remained close, and soon as time passed and he was already competing on and finishing No.Mercy and debuting with Monsta X.  

It was no surprised that all of the members knew you, as he would often talk about you to them and you met most of them while they were filming on No.Mercy.  So when you would show up at the dorms, no one was surprised, they’d just be delighted, Hyungwon the most. 

He’s known for sometime that he had something of a crush on you, but he didn’t act on any of his feelings, knowing he is busy all the time.  However, on one of your visits, Kihyun, who happens to know Hyungwon likes you, decides to tease and ‘flirt’ with you.  Effectively, Hyungwon announces the two of you will be going out on your own and you spend the rest of the afternoon walking around.

Of course, Hyungwon walked you home and returned to the dorms, only to have a long conversation on why Kihyun decided to be a twerp. 

*You’re over for a visit today and Kihyun keeps standing closer than normal to you.  He’s talking more about your interests and jobs, and even praising photos that have been released recentlly as you’re still doing modeling* 

Hyungwon:  *Annoyed*  Hey, Y/N, we’re going out.  Put your shoes on.  

Y/N: Uh, what?  Okay??

*Hyungwon glares at Kihyun, leaves with you and leaves Kihyun a laughing mess at his reaction*  

Jooheon: You were a new, rising rapper.  You had posted a few of your song you had composed and written onto Youtube and from there it seemed like the world was ready to welcome you.  Your content had spread through social media and the amount of views of your videos skyrocketed.  You had received shout outs and comments from all sorts of people and even small companies praising your work, but only one company decided to go out on the limb and ask if you’d like to contract with them.  

That’s how you came to be recording and producing at Startship Entertainment as a solo artist.  Your speciality stayed in rapping, but you had a talent for the singing side of performance too.  You had asked if you could begin to take dancing lessons and that way you’d have a pretty good regiment under your belt.  

You happened to be working on a song, sitting in the middle of a practice room with your headset on and a notebook on your lap, twirling the pen in your fingers.  You had an idea on what you wanted to write, but the lyrics wouldn’t come out right.  No matter the rhythm of the words used in different orders, nothing seemed to sit right with you.  You were nearly scared out of your skin when someone tapped on your shoulder, causing your headset to fall to your shoulders and you to throw your pen in terror as your notebook slid from your lap and you turned to see who touched you.  

Lee Jooheon stood behind you, one of the two rappers from a group of senior debuters, Monsta X.  YOu took a breath as you calmed your racing heart and slumped to the ground, your back laying on the hard floor.  Jooheon apologized for scaring you and asked what you were doing.  

After an intense conversation about your songs, and his as well, you discussed lyrics and beats, as well as the way you two found inspiration to write and sing and rap.  It didn’t take much for Jooheon to admire the way your spoke so happily about your songs and he immediately proposed a mixtape with the two of you.  He asked without a beat, and almost flushed out how direct he was, but nonetheless, you happily agreed. 

So, for the next few months, the two of your would meet up to work on concepts and what not for the single.  It was no mystery that the two of your got closer and enjoyed the presence of the other.  Jooheon would perk up when he caught a glance of you, or if you stopped by to talk with the members.  

Unbeknownst to you thought, Jooheon was working behind the scenes with I.M. to write yet another song he was going to release, not too long planned after his and yours.  Only difference is, the song I.M. was helping him with, was basically a vague, indirect confession to you.  The maknae never stops teasing him about it.  

I.M.: I don’t see why you don’t just come out and confess like a normal person. 

Jooheon: No way!  Why would I do something as cliche as that?  I need this to be awesome, it needs to be lit and the only way for that to happen is if it’s in a song with swagger. 

I.M.: *scans the lyrics*  Yeah, a song about how their hair is shining and their tongue parting their lips in concentration is real swaggy.  

I.M.: You two were internet friends.  You had met when he was on No.Mercy and was having a rough time.  He never mentioned he was on an elimination show to debut as K-Pop idols, until he actually debuted.  He ended up sending you a link to the Trespass MV and casually mentioned he was one of the rappers in the MV.  

You ofc, freaked out and praised him on how good the song was and how talented he was, as well as chewed him out from hiding it from you.  You two would text, call, Skype and facetime as often as possible.  

You both shared similar interests in science and he learned that he actually lived in the states, but you were born in Korea and moved to the states when you were young, so you spoke both languages.  So, you would occasionally speak in both languages.  Some in English, some in Korean and some in both mixed together which always turned into a disaster.  

So, when you one day, our of the blue, sent him a picture of a plane ticket to Korea, more specifically Seoul, Changkyun basically flipped his shit.  He ran around the dorms, freaking out about the fact his best friend was coming to Korea and he just couldn’t stay calm.  He made you call him and tell you what it was about and you said it was a surprise you had been planning. 

About a week later, Changkyun was pacing back in forth in the airport, waiting by your gate number as he waiting for your plane to land.  Soon, he caught a glimpse of you and shouted as he ran towards you.  You caught sight of him and ran to him and finally you two held each other, happy to finally meet in person.  

It was when he was holding you that he knew he choose the right person to fall in love with. 

*Changkyun pacing back and forth as you plane landed and people are soon walking into the airport, luggage tugging behind them.  Soon, he sees you* 

I.M.: Ah!  Y/N!!

*You hear him as he’s running towards you and you start running to him to, suitcase behind you.  You soon meet and embrace each other, not ready to let go for a long time*  

Y/N:  I finally made it. 

I.M.: I finally get to meet you.  I’m so happy to see you F/N.  Welcome to Korea. 

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[apotheosisocean]

The First Music Video I Directed. When I was still in college and was so engrossed with looking for great music to feed my soul; I was slowly appreciating video production and how they made music videos. Being an art student opened my eyes to the process of making such art. From preproduction to post production. It’s not easy at all. The concept for the music video had to somehow match with the message OR make you feel somehow. 

I wanted to make those kind of stuff but the kind of work I got in the past few years were weddings, behind the scenes, corporate work and a few events. It was not until I got a stable job that I thought maybe I can pursue making a video on a few bands although it’s going to be difficult to find one to let me shoot a music video for them. Nowadays, there are plenty of people who are well equipped and more experienced than me so I sort of gave up on that idea and thought maybe I could do a band profile video instead. I thought to myself, “It’s easy! All I have to do is shoot, compile, interview and edit!” but I was wrong. 

The First Move

I reached out to my favorite band, Tonight We Sleep, and asked if I could help promote them with their upcoming EP. It was a long shot. I didn’t have anything to show except for my demo reel and the promise that I can make a video out of the “shoots”. I had no concrete plan on how it was going to look like. It will depend entirely on what I have. Then I got a reply! I think my offer wasn’t accepted immediately. I gave pegs first on what I wanted to achieve and eventually after a series of exchange, they allowed me to come and check out their recording. It was surreal. I felt so small. Haha ‘cause they were those adults you see in movies. I wasn’t sure if I could really keep up with the language, the knowledge and everything.

I don’t remember the number of shooting days but there were plenty. I also went to their gigs and I was really thankful they put me and Ferlyn in the guest list. Surreal. I never thought I’d get that kind of pass. I had plenty of struggles trying to finish the band profile video and yeah it was difficult but worth it. They were really happy with the final product and for me, I thought it was the end. I was OK with it because, I already did something I wanted with the band I wanted to create art with. 

The Gears in Motion

But after a few weeks I got a message that Argee and I would discuss the preproduction of his solo project I Belong to the Zoo. He said we’d make a music video for a new song he was going to release around May/April. I was excited and at the same time nervous because it felt like a big responsibility that I wasn’t ready for. 

We discussed the concept around May and polished it after a few days. Then we looked for talents. I pitched a few but Argee found a pair he really thought would fit in the video. After that, we discussed with the talents what they should wear and also the locations of the shoot. It was a run-and-gun type of shoot by the way. No permits. Hahaha I’m not proud of it though but we had to work with what we had. Before the day of the shoot, I had to go to my former bosses’ house to rent a Zhiyun Crane 2. It was already 11PM and when I got back to my apartment, it was already 12MN. I had to learn to balance the gimbal for the first time. LOL

The Actual Shooting Day! 

Ferlyn and I went to the first location early so that I could practice using the gimbal. Hahaha I know right. So, it was only when Steffi (Lead Girl) arrived that I started to get nervous because I wasn’t sure how to talk to her and since I feel a little tired from last night’s errand. Argee arrived a few minutes later. Before 11 AM everyone was there and we already started with the shoot. One of the memorable things that happened was when we discussed how the actors would act in certain scenes, the continuity and the blocking. When the first scene was done we moved on to find a decent street to shoot the scene where Steffi opens the gift. It was a bit difficult to shoot that one because of the inconsistent sunlight but we managed.

We then moved on to the scene where they had to go bowling. We almost weren’t able to shoot the bowling scene because they thought we had a big setup and had to call the manager in. Good thing Argee knew how to talk to them and make them feel at ease. He said “Trip lang namin na magtropa etc” something of that context. We were assigned the last lane because all lanes were occupied. The employees said to not include other guests playing in the video but I guess it’s ok if they are blurred. :D

The next thing was Satchmi. The coffee shop was kind to let us film without any permits and all. We just asked through their Facebook page and said just go shoot. When we arrived it was so cool there and we just acted casual while we were shooting. Parang magbarkada lang na may taga picture. So far it was the most difficult for me because I think my lack of sleep was kicking in. Ferlyn stepped in to help me direct and shoot. While she shot the scenes I had my shot of coffee and that made me even more talkative which helped us push through with the remaining scenes.

The most challenging scene for me was the one at B-Hotel, we had only limited sources of light and we had to work fast to get all the shots within the day. The rest of the remaining shots after the “room scene” was Steffi walking around at night and Steffi and Carl in the backseat. After that we were done.

It was around 1AM when we finished and everyone went home with a smile on their face. It was the most memorable shoot this 2018. I remember everyone laughing every hour and having fun discussions about the shoot and other related stuff. It was the best. Simply the best first MV experience.

[lendy15]

Shuuka Fujii Q & A 100 (01 - 50)

Q01. How can I be the same as Shuuka ?

A. make yourself real.

Q02. How do you like your hairstyle?

A.Fashion's playability is very wide, I feel so happy!

Q03. What’s your phone standby screen ?

A. Sara Cummings photo.

Q04. When you did your own make up, which part will you spend most of the time ?

A. eyebrows and eyelashes. Although it is still the original eyebrows, it is difficult to achieve a wonderful balance of shape and concentration.

Q05. What kind of hairstyle would you like to try next time?

A. very short hair. I think Emma Watson as the example of pretty-short hair is also very cute. Wouldn’t interested to keep a long hair for now

Q06. How did you manage to maintain the skin care ?

A. The first thing is to moisturize. Although I think the other skin care routines are ‘Ah, whatever.’, but I do take moisturizing seriously. Especially when the weather is super dry. I place a humidifier in each room.

Q07. Favorite wine is ?

A. both at home and outside are whiskey.

Q08. What is the most effective way to lose weight?

A. Kickboxing. Do kickboxingfor one half hour before you start your everyday work can reduce body fat

Q09. Recently favorite food ?

A. simple and easy to do omelette, (TamagoKakeGohan : Japanese Rice with Egg). Rich in protein, with balanced nutrition. I will also put a lot of Carmen Bell cheese inside!

Q10. What things do you want to want to get so bad?

A. Speaker. I bought a turntable, it was a dream came true. Wanna listen to some good vibes that come from some wooden products.

Q11. Feel the moment of happiness?

A. Bath and shopping time.

Q12. Song you listen recently ?

A. addicted to a poisonous voice from Syd (Syd Bennett) ? MV is also very good, recently made a new album so I give it a listen. Electronic and soul blues combination, I feel very wonderful, so yahyel (indie pop band from Tokyo) can not help but recommend.

Q13. What is the track you played on piano?

A. Flower's "CALL" and "Hatsukoi" songs. Would like to try to play Miyuki Nakajima’s "Shito" .

Q14. Recently obsessed artist is?

A.TRENDY ANGEL's Mr. Saito! Us sisters are both big fans

Q15. Would love to know what photo book do you recommend to buy ?

A. I bought Larry Clarks’s photobook just because its cover looked nice. So it became my room decoration.

Q16. Life motto？

A. "Time is the money". I heard "young time is the most valuable" from the elders more often recently. I think it’s important to cherish my time and live in the moment.

Q17. Think "super terrible!" thing?

A. insects. Any insects are unacceptable.

Q18. Closest relationship between the E-girls members ?

A. Manami. Same ages and went to high school together. Understands my personality, just like a sister.

Q19. The opportunity to start dancing ?

A. Parents sent me to dance school to learn. Probably about three years old? Don’t really remember (laughs).

Q20. What lipstick color will you choose when you want to look confidence ?

A. nude color. Choose something that looks not so white and suitable for their own lip color.

Q21. What is your character that is similar to Karen ?

A. basically none. Or because it is sisters so I don’t  want to be too similar (laugh).

Q22. What is the most boring quarrel ever happened between Karen and you.

A. No matter how many times that I talk, she keeps ignoring my words, then we began to quarrel (laugh).

Q23. When do you think ‘Karen is so cute’?

A. When she acts like a spoiled child and sends me those messages on LINE. Not very often (laughs).

Q24. On the contrary, when will Karen look handsome ?

A. When she did the rap in a song

Q25.What music genre that ShuuKaRen want to try ?

A. E-girls "Rock n Roll Widow", but also want to challenge the Kayokyoku.

Q26. What’s ShuuKaRen future goal ?

A. want to break through the shackles. More clearly show the sisters’s personality.

Q27. Do you want to write or compose songs for your own song in the future?

A. Although when during choreography I often picture some stories in my mind, but I have no confidence to tell them out loud. Experience is not rich enough. It is too early to think of it right now.

Q28. What is the favorite local food?

A. from Osaka performances’ gift - takoyaki, it is quite delicious

Q29. And if Flower members go to Karaoke, what song will you sing ?

A. We sing our songs with everyone! I do not sing, just look at them silently (laughs).

Q30. Year 2016 highlight moments

A. ShuuKaRen's song revealed on B.LEAGUE. In front of everyone for the first time to sing and dance, Fujii sisters unit for the first time appear, did the live performance,in Yoyogi Stadium and so on ... Because it’s the first time so I was too nervous to fall asleep.

Q31. Do you want to perform the other artist's song?

A. I wanna perform Hideaki Tokunaga’s song.

Q32. Fave Flower song to dance ?

A. "Shirayukihime". This song gave us a chance to be known by the public. Its MV also contains very strong emotions.

Q33. What Flower song you like the most ?

A. Still the same "Shirayukihime", as well as "NettaigyoNoNamida". "Shirayukihime" lyrics are beautiful, the first time I listen to it, it gives me goosebumps. I want to hear "Nettaigyo No Namida" in rainy days.

Q34. Favorite E-girls dance

A. "Pink Champagne". Giving a very stylish impression, very cool impression. Very handsome and I like it.

Q35. E-girls members who has the feel of good fashion

A.YURINO. Because she has her own unique style, free with a variety styles of clothes.

Q36. Which gift that received from members made you very happy?

A. A facial steamer that I received as a birthday gift.

Q37. How long did you do the practice for solo piano live ?

A. I use the piano that Karen used to practice at home. But I didn’t have time to practice so I just watched the piano teacher’s hand video and imitated it. I didn’t know how to read the musical notation, I just learned it by myself.

Q38. Which Flower song and its lyrics that make you feel connected?

A. "Colorful". Looking back to find that many dreams have fallen, but this is also a precious part of our journey. This part makes me feel really connected.

Q39. How do you like Karen?

A.She always looks very cheerful.

Q40. What do you think about Karen recently?

A. She always looks very cheerful, I hope she never changes.

Q41. Let’s get Karen a fright! What are you gonna do?

A. Dress completely like a man and go hook her up to see if she will be fooled (laughs).

Q. Which of the JJ models that you wanna be with?

A. Au-chan. (Audrey Ayaka). Just simply standing beside her could makes me so happy.

Q43. If you can become a staff at the scene, what will you do ?

A. Photographer. Recently got the film camera, started a variety of shooting. I think that I  want to decorate the room with photograph.

Q44. What do you talk about when the staff are together?

A. Common matters. The topic of music, the topic of the film or something. It's fun to chat with people that I like.

Q45. If  one day you can exchange the body, which JJ model will you choose ?

A. Takizawa KAREN. I was curious what she was thinking in her mind.

Q46. How is your feeling being on JJ covers ?

A. The increase of responsibility. It is not only being one of the members, but as Shuuka Fujii herself, I have more time to shine. Really thankful to the people that helped me.

Q47. JJ photography, where do you want to go to do the shooting ?

A. Paris. Want to take pictures in beautiful street scenes.

Q48.If you can do a serial, what will be the theme ?

A. Personal wear and movie-themed page. Also introduce some photographers. I want a place to share my true voice.

Q49. What is the new challenge you want to try this year?

A. pole dance. Recently also learned drums.

Q50. How to kill the waiting time?

A. Most of the time listening to music

From JJ magazine - May 2017 edition

Many thanks to @caindayo (http://caindayo.tumblr.com) for helping me proof read and correcting this translation. Apologies if there are still many mistakes that we made. Hope you enjoy reading it

[subjisoo]

Check In chapter 10

Words: 2.3k

Genre: ??? idk drama? angst? not sure yet lol

Synopsis: Seungcheol and his best friend Wonwoo have been running a small drug dealing business for the past two years, along with Wonwoo’s boyfriend Mingyu on the books and new recruit Hansol to manage the second hand shop they use as a cover story.

This Chapter: everyone hates Mikyung and Mingyu gets in touch with his cousin

Warnings: abelism, drugs

Author’s Note: based on the MV for Check In which I edited into a kind of trailer for this fic and u can watch it here.

Check In: chapter one / two / three / four / five / six / seven / eight / nine / read on ao3

Mingyu held his breath as soon as he woke up. He knew in his brain that Wonwoo wouldn’t be there, but that didn’t stop his heart from dropping when he found the bed cold. He turned over onto his back, duvet draped low on his hips and looked up at the ceiling.

“I just got him,” he said to the peeling paint.

After letting out a long sigh, he picked up on voices that were coming from the kitchen. He made to get out of bed and immediately grimaced at the sheen of sweat on his body and how it made the sheets stick to him. His night terrors were back.

He cursed Mikyung under his breath as he swung his legs over the side of the bed. There was an outline of his body in sweat on the bed and he grimaced again, standing and stripping the bed. Grabbing his dressing gown from a hook on the back of the door, he wrapped it around himself and stepped out into the hallway and over to the linen cupboard. He pulled out a new towel and slipped into the bathroom before Mikyung could catch sight of him.

Once the water was scalding hot, he got in and scrubbed his skin almost raw. When his skin was too sensitive to bear the water, he stepped out of the shower and patted himself dry, wincing around the areas he had focused on more. Back in his room, he threw on a pair of jeans and a shirt, trying to soothe his skin where patches of it were still red.

When he went out to the kitchen, Wonwoo and Mikyung were standing side by side in front of the stove.

“Morning,” he said as he walked to the fridge and stifled a yawn.

“Afternoon,” Wonwoo corrected him and Mikyung tutted.

“What’s the time?” Mingyu took the bottle of orange juice from the shelf.

“Half past one.”

Mingyu’s eyebrows shot up his forehead and he had to think around the curse word he wanted to blurt out. “Oops.” He grimaced. “Did I miss anything?”

Mikyung put some chopped up onions in the frying pan in front of Wonwoo, who poured some oil over them and started stirring them around.

“Not really. Do you remember waking up last night?” Wonwoo didn’t look up from the pan.

Mingyu shut his eyes and walked to sit at a stool, taking a glass of orange juice with him. He opened his eyes again when he was seated. “Nope.”

“You woke up last night.”

“No kidding.”

“You were crying too.”

Mingyu took a sip of his orange juice in place of a reply.

Mikyung spared Mingyu a look over her shoulder, her face surprisingly soft. “Are you hungry?”

“Uh, yeah. What are you making do you need any help?”

She smiled at him - a smile that was entirely Wonwoo’s - and shook her head. “We are making curry. You are sitting right there and leaving us to it.”

Mingyu narrowed his eyes at her back as she turned back to help Wonwoo with the rest of the curry. By the time they had finished, Mingyu’s stomach was rumbling.

“Should we sit on the deck?” Mikyung said, looking out at the balcony.

“Okay. Could you please get the plates, Eomma?”

Mikyung opened a few cupboards and Mingyu pointed to the one with the plates. “Thank you.”

“No problem.” He stood and looked down at his empty glass. “Do you want anything to drink.”

Wonwoo, holding the frying pan full of curry in one hand and a bowl full of rice in the other, started to say “orange juice”, but Mikyung spoke over him.

“Water for us thank you.”

She went out to the balcony with the plates and cutlery. Mingyu gave Wonwoo a look that said “do you want orange juice” and Wonwoo returned it with one that said “she said water so I’m having water”. Mingyu got three glasses and filled a jug from the tap.

They started their meal more or less in silence, Mikyung at one point wiping the corner of Wonwoo’s mouth with her thumb. Wonwoo was the first to finish his food, leaning back in his chair and absent mindedly turning his fork over and over on his plate.

Mingyu had long grown used to the sound of Wonwoo’s fork against the plate; so much so that it barely registered. What took him by surprise was Mikyung’s hand shooting out and slamming the fork flat on the plate, Wonwoo’s hand pinned down. The action made such a sound that Mingyu leapt out of his seat.

Mikyung paid Mingyu no mind as she wrenched the fork from under Wonwoo’s hand and placed it by her own plate.

“Don’t be annoying.”

Mingyu, still standing, clenched his jaw. Wonwoo looked up at him and nodded towards his chair. After a second’s hesitation, Mingyu sat down again. He could feel his blood boiling in his veins.

Not wanting to be rude and further anger the beast, Mingyu quickly and politely finished his food, leaving Mikyung as the only one still eating.

“So how did the two of you meet?”

Mingyu was brought out of a stupor. “Sorry?”

“How did you meet Wonwoo?”

Mingyu looked to Wonwoo for help, but he was staring at his fork by his mother’s plate. Mingyu decided to tell the truth.

“We had mutual friends,” truth “and we all ended up going to a movie together” it was a blind date “Wonwoo and I got along well” they had sex in Mingyu’s dorm room “so we started hanging out” they had sex in Mingyu’s dorm room “and here we are.”

Mikyung nodded, swallowing and clearing her throat delicately. “What about Seungcheol?”

“Ah, I met him through Wonwoo.” He walked in on them having sex in Wonwoo’s dorm room.

Mingyu made eye contact with Wonwoo, whose mouth twitched in a trace of a smile. Their stories matched up.

As Mikyung made plans with Wonwoo to go to a museum together that afternoon, Mingyu cleared the table for them. He washed the dishes and put the leftover curry in a plastic container in the fridge, thinking it would be good for someone’s dinner.

As he dried his hands on a tea towel he felt his phone vibrate in his pocket and pulled it out to see he had a few texts piled up. He checked the texts from Hansol first.

[Received: Hansol, 9:51am] ya bois gonna be late to the shop today

[Received: Hansol, 9:52am] The Shop*

[Received: Hansol, 9:52am] Cheol says hi btw

He pulled up the keyboard to reply as Wonwoo and Mikyung walked through the living room into the hall way.

“We’re off to explore,” Mikyung explained.

Mingyu bit his tongue before he accidentally outed himself. “Okay, have fun.”

He stood watching the door for a few minutes after it closed, then turned back to his phone.

[Received: Sejoon, 2:43pm] Free now.

Mingyu didn’t like being alone so he got his wallet out of his room and descended the stairs to The Shop.

Hansol and Seungcheol were giggling and whispering behind the counter, Seungcheol practically sitting in Hansol’s lap. Seungcheol put his feet on the ground and stood up straight when he saw Mingyu.

“You look like hell, what happened?”

Hansol kept his hands on Seungcheol’s hips as he turned around to look at Mingyu over his shoulder. “Jesus, are you alright?”

Mingyu frowned at them. “Fuck you guys, I have night terrors.”

He tried not to notice the softening of their faces as he stamped around the counter to the door to the back room. With a hand on the handle, he turned to look at them. Both of them seemed concerned. His shoulders slumped.

“I’m fine, thanks for your concern. I gotta make a call.”

He tried not to slam the door behind him and fell into the chair closest to him. He reluctantly pulled his phone out of his pocket and pressed the call option on Sejoon’s contact.

“Mingyu! How are you?”

Mingyu couldn’t help smiling at how happy his cousin sounded to be talking to him. “I’m doing alright, thanks. What about you?”

“Never been better. It’s been too long, what’s new?”

Mingyu let out a long sigh. “I don’t wanna take up too much of your time.”

“You could never. Plus I’ve got Kyungmin handling shit for the rest of the day so you don’t have to worry.”

He found himself unloading everything on Sejoon. He didn’t realise how much he was holding back until he let it all out; everything with Wonwoo and with Mikyung, the fact that his night terrors were back. Towards the end he felt himself tearing up and willed it away.

“Shit it feels good to get all of this off my chest. I mean I’ve got the others, but they’re too involved, you know?”

He could almost hear Sejoon’s understanding nod. “I get you. Any time you need me I’ll be there, you know that right?”

“Yeah, I know. Thanks.”

“No problem. Now what were you actually calling for?”

Mingyu had almost forgotten that he was calling him about the business and not just for a catch up. “Do you know of any drug dealers in my city?”

“You’re not getting into drugs, are you? Because you know it fucks you up.”

Mingyu laughed. “You run one of the biggest cartels in the country, how can you tell me not to do drugs?” “Never do your own shit, you heard that before?” Mingyu hummed the positive. “I go above and beyond; don’t do anyone’s shit.”

“Fair enough. I’m not doing drugs.”

“Good. Why do you need to know?”

“I may or may not be helping my boyfriend deal drugs.”

There was a pause. “I can’t tell if that’s better or worse.”

“I just run the books and shit, you know, because of what I learned from you.”

Sejoon sighed. “I knew it was a bad idea letting you in the meeting room. What kind of scale are you operating on?”

“Really small, we have like a hundred people on our list and all of them are uni kids. Plus it’s only weed.”

“You have a list for a hundred people?”

Mingyu’s face heated up. “We didn’t want it to get out of control.”

“Okay yeah, smart move. Wait, what was the question?”

“Are there any other drug dealers in my city?”

“Ah, right. Maybe a couple smaller ones but as far as I know most of the deals are overseen by some couple. The Lees, I think.”

Mingyu stood from his chair and moved back to the door. “One second I just gotta check that.” He held the phone speaker to his shoulder and opened the door, groaning when he caught Hansol and Seungcheol making out on the counter stool. “Guys, keep it professional for god’s sake.”

Hansol looked away, his neck going red as Seungcheol stood beside him and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.

“Everything okay?” Seungcheol wouldn’t meet his eyes.

“Would be better if you weren’t in each other’s pants during work hours. Holly?”

Hansol spun in his chair so fast he almost fell off it, grabbing onto Seungcheol to keep his balance. “Yeah?” his voice was choked.

“What was the name of the lady that came in here?”

“Lee Minji.”

“Cool thanks. You better not be fucking next time I come out here.” He shut the door behind him and sat back down again, putting the phone back to his ear. “Is one of the Lees called Minji?”

He heard Sejoon hit a table. “Yeah! Lee Minji, I forget her husband’s name.”

“Well I know for a fact that Minji turned up to our Shop and was looking around.”

“Shop?”

“We sell it out of the back room of a second hand store.”

Sejoon let out a low whistle. “Smart. What was she doing there?”

“I wasn’t there so I don’t know exact details.”

“Get me the kid who was there.” He thought for a second. “I assume it was a kid?”

“Two years younger.”

“Shit. Get him on.”

Mingyu opened the door without looking outside. “Put up the sign, I need you guys in here.”

He left the door open for them and sat back down, putting his phone on speaker in the middle of the table.

“Sejoon, this is Seungcheol and Hansol. Guys, this is my cousin Sejoon.”

Seungcheol plopped himself haphazardly in a chair. “Drug dealer cousin?”

“The very same,” Mingyu sighed.

“So who met Minji?” Sejoon asked.

“I did,” Hansol said, watching Mingyu anxiously.

“What did she say to you?”

“She just asked to buy some,” he paused for a second, “marijuana and then I said she wasn’t on the list and she kinda laughed at me and then left.”

“Was she alone?”

“No uh, there was a guy with a goatee with her.”

“That’s the husband.” Sejoon let out a long, deep sigh. “I’ll ask some questions but I don’t think you really have anything to worry about. It’s not like you’re out there trying to start a cartel with like fifty guys. How many are you?”

“Four,” Mingyu answered before Seungcheol could. “Wonwoo’s not in at the moment.”

“I really wouldn’t worry if I were you, Gyu. But for your peace of mind I’ll look into it.”

Mingyu saw Seungcheol and Hansol let out relieved sighs.

“Thanks, Sejoon.”

“No problem. Remember, any time you need me.”

Mingyu reached forwards and picked up his phone. “You too man. Talk to you soon.”

“I’ll be in touch.”

Mingyu hung up and put the phone back in his pocket, looking at the potted weed plants in the corner of the room.

“Guess now we wait.”