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sleepyjim · 1 year ago

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i start school in like 12 hours im gonna explode /neg

#so scared im gonna throw up #none of my accommodations hav been like . Done yk #need an elevator pass and a staff bathroom pass .they said theyll send it to us or we can come pick it up from the school sometime #but as far as i know they havent even Made it #i need someone to help me get around the first couple days or I Will Die and they havent gotten back to us about that either #at least i got out of marching band but like #i really wanted to be in some kind of music class :(#but apparently ! in order to be in Any Music Class At All its Mandatory to take marching band for a year #girl that will kill me .i will die #but the band teacher was a huge ass about it and wouldnt even let me switch to another kind of band #like concert band or jazz band cause theres less physical activity than marching band #AND theyre Supposed to Do that for me anyways cause of my 504 plan #but idk the director just doesnt give a shit about it i guess #still rlly sad about that tho :( im taking music theory/history instead of an actual music class but like #it aint the same yk #OH YEAH!!! and the school introduced a new tardy policy!!!#if you're late to class At All theyre going to confiscate ur phone for the whole day #and report u to the dean #like #?????#but the thing is #im gonna be late to almost Every Class cause i gotta hustle my crippled ass around the school without any kind of mobility aid #cause they wont let me bring em #and im gonna hav to find someone with an elevator key to get to like . over half my classes #so gonna be late to a couple classes obviously #BUT !!!!!#if you're late more than 5 times u get in school suspension !#im gonna . Get That just in the first day #and they wont make exceptions for me #and it fucking sucks

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lets-all-calm-down-a-bit · 5 months ago

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yeah. anyways-

#i need smiling friends to pull a morel orel and slowly get... genuinely fucked and realistic #i need there to be a breaking point episode where pim finally is like:#“i did all of this cause i wanted to make you happy. you know after you died ive constantly been scared to death its gonna happen again? i #and he just leaves #i want a breaking point #i cant fucking wait. charlie i need you to finally hear pim tell you how much its hurting him to talk to someone who never gives a shit abo #i need the bandages youve been plastering onto every fight to finally come undone so everything bleeds out #i need it to force you to come to terms with your own thoughts and feelings- making you realize in an attempt to suffocate your own emotion #me when im sobbing throwing up and screaming over a dumbass adult swim show #colby rambles #adult swim #smiling friends #charlie dompler #pim pimling #charlie and pim

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haxardouswaste · 5 days ago

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goin to bed i either wake up crying or i live life as normal

#haxard’s rambles #as a woman tr*mp makes me feel Not Safe #like ik America isn’t gonna explode if he’s in office but damn i like My Rights as A Woman #us elections be like: we have a normal candidate and a rapist with 34 felony counts oh and also he hates your people #Hhhhhhh god I hate this im so scared i feel like im gonna throw up

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bunnihearted · 19 days ago

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#so i have an appt. to the psychiatric department for personality disorders tmrw...#and like i tried sending a self referral to them last year lmao #and they only said that heyyy you're doing amazing sweetie you are high functioning 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻#then i've ben to the health care center and since they think they cant treat me bc it's too severe they've sent referrals to other places #which have all declined me... so they also sent one to the psychiatric who sent a referral to this pd department #who that time also said that they can't accept me #so the therapist at the health care center like idk exactly but she sent a report on how they didnt handl my case properly #which made them call on me for an evalutation appt.#but i have 0 hopes. i honestly think the entire psych care is fucking lame and bullshit #i highly doubt they're even equipped to treat personality disorders #& even if they are theire budgetis getting cut bc ppl love having rightists ruling the government .... which means no funds for healthcare #anyway. PLUS it's a man.... -_- which reducuses my chances of being taken seriously even more...#i also hate talking to male therapists/psychiatrists... no fucking thanks. but i have to </3 #i just really dont wanna go. like im gonna have to put energy into trying to argue for my right for treatment. w ppl who should inferstand #UNDERSTAND* i hate typing on my ipad ffs. they should understand my personality disorders..#bit health care proffessionals are horrible ppl and dont give a fuck abt their patients lol. so they're only condescending and rude 🤢🤮#i hate being in these environments bc everyone treats u like shit. the receptionists are so fkn rude and almost outright mean and insulting #the doctors and therapists and psychiatrists are all bullies who look down on u and make u feel small and worthless #so im really dreading it... but im also at my wit's end. i am missing out on my entire life. im desperate for help #even if i wholeheartedly believe that these worthless wastes of space wont give me any treatment i'll still need to go and try #then ig i'll just have to keep pestering the healthcare system. i might wventually even have to start going to the psych. ER so they put #that on my records and like idk. that costs money tho. plus from everyone i've heard from...#being at a psych ER esp when your situation isnt dire is awful and hell #my cousin who had been ther after a sui attempt had said that it 'scared him straight'#and that it was so terrible that he did everything to get back home as soon as possible and do whatever to never end up there again #so yuh... i'd rather not!#i was supposed to (my own decision) to write a list with ALL my symptoms and bring and be like LOOK MONGREL!!!#but since i suffer from avpd...... i havent. i procrastinated and now it's too late whoopsie. i'll just have to wing it fuckkkk 🥴#ofc it also has to be 8.45 .. so early in the morning for me im so mad ahhhhh i dont wanna go i am throwing up and screaming #but atp i'd have to pay $35 myself for not going so that will motivate me enough to force myself to go

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yutadori · 2 months ago

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just got out of the interview (?) for the tutoring position and god am i so afraid 😵‍💫

#TRYING trying trying really hard to push out the stream of i cant do this i cant do this i cant do this #that immediately plagued my brain pretty much all throughout that whole hour oh god #oh god im so scared and afraid and SCAREDDDD #i feel ill goddddd #thank god i have therapy tomorrow THANK GODDDD #im gonna throw up #i want to back out soooo bad but i also feel like i have to do this so i dont disappoint my professor #like ultimately . its up to me but also like i cant help but feel like xudkdbsnsbsjsskshs #i hope i die or something #ss

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ajodreja · 1 year ago

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You don't know how devastated I am

the idea of simon being rude to a little kid is so vile

#crying screaming throwing up #this series is gonna kill me man #adventure time #simon petrikov #atimers #yeah thats his leg i just know #Thinking about it #we never really got to know simon as his personality #His appearances in the series were very sporadic and we only know things about him from other characters #maybe we morphed a wrong interpretation about him this whole time and boy im so scared

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bpdvulpine · 2 months ago

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uncle was hospitalized and died recently (his funeral session is in like 3 hours) and now my dad is inthe hospital too. having a Wonderful time (<- Sarcasm)

#im scared out of my wits man #last time my dad went to any kinda doctor was bc he literally broke his back #and everyone thought he was gonna die #that was a longass time ago. and we're so fucking terrified rn #im gonna throw up. from the anxiety #gekker.txt

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boxwinebaddie · 5 months ago

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HI Uncle Nina <3 Can we hear about how your Rm!Style met as kids?

listen, you guys. i am SO excited for this!!! words cannot express how excited it makes me when i get to talk about the prequel, like they are sooo stikin' cute in the prequel!!! ilysm baby raven and jersey. MWAH!

*eldritchhorror!kenny!nina cracks knuckles n opens up a portal* okay girls, gays n gays, we're going on a field trip,

TO THE PAST!

( i’m chaotic bi ms. frizzle in the pink y2k hello kitty bus )

so, i gotta be honest, my friends, i don't know EXACTLY how old the boys are, but i am gonna say they are anywhere between 6-8 y/o. it's summer time and the broflovski's have just moved to southern park, colorado from sheila's hometown in new jersey...and have moved in right next door...to the marsh family, namely:

ravenstanley r.w. marsh.

who i am using as a primary narrator...FOR ONCE!

because to tell you this was the best day of his life was an goddamn understatement...to tell you that this changed his life, even, is a fkn understatement because this moment, this fateful day GAVE HIS ENTIRE LIFE MEANING. meeting kyle broflovski...was Everything.

again, it wasn't just like 'oh, this boy who moved next door to me is kinda cute, i might have a crush on him'

It Was Dead Serious, Guys.

a teeny tiny, itsy bitsy, ickle ravenstanley marsh heard a single loud, angry, brutal note of the kyle broflovski new jersey slaughterhouse and was immediately irreversibly head over heels IN LOVE with him.

fresh from jersey kyle asked stan if he could open his fresca and the man's synesthesia was flashing, spinning, ringing and dinging like he was playing the world's biggest slot machine and just hit JACKPOT.

and that was before he got a good look at him because...

Wooooowza. <3

all the hundreds of little freckles speckled over his skin like sun-stars, his big, beautiful curly red hair, his gorgeous, glowering mean, green eyes ravenstan was legitimately Breathtaken by kyle's beauty, omfg.

however, the funniest part abt all of this to me is that poor sweet pre!rm rae is legitimately having divine visions and hearing angelic choirs, meanwhile pre!rm jers is just staring blankly at this weird, giant-eyed freaky mouth-breathing rural colorado kid ( who ig is his neighbor now, smh ) that's just staring up at him and sweating and shaking and looks like he's having a Stroke.

edit: i forgot to describe what they looked like so know that ravenstan had come out of the house because his mom told him to say hi to the neighbors and help them with boxes and stuff, say hi to their son, etc.

i think his hair is shoulder length, but its in a lil ponytail, he's in randy's gigantic black sabbath t-shirt, probably has a gigantic edgy boy temp tattoo of a skull or a snake on his neck, smh, little like hot wheels, boy section of target-esqe stickers all over his face and arms, little other edgy elementary school boy marker tattoos on his arms because he literally has always been a rockstar.

meanwhile, jersey, in canon ncu baby kyle fashion, is wearing his gigantic kyle signature orange coat and green ushanka IN THE MIDDLE OF SUMMER because he is self conscious and sheila bought both on sale at the mall during summer when the winter stuff is all half up because she's a thrifty queen and wants him to get wear out of them and break them in...smh.

so he is sweating like hell and just wants to get his fresca open, which is very vintage and still comes in the bottle.

but regarding The Fresca Of Fate,

stan Does eventually ( open / it. )

...in the most chaotic, unhinged way possible, btw.

which is that baby ravenstan bites, rips and twists the cap off with his teeth like a feral fucking animal ( which i think happened because he was legitimately panicking like holy shit, what do i do, what the Fuck do i doooo?!?! i don't know how to get this open but the beautiful spotty boy w/ the perfect voice asked me to do it, so ¡oRALE! )

note: it is this party trick that he'd seen randy do a couple of times and just replicated, but totally ripped his lip open in the process, btw.

anyways, rae hands the fresca back to baby jersey and because he is a fkn idiot but also a superstar ( i love u raven ) shoots kyle the signature stanley marsh wink-peace sign-finger gun combo wombo.

and jersey is just SHOOK because that was, in fact, criminally insane, but also...kinda cool? and an oddly touching gesture because he could have just handed the bottle back or said go fuck yourself, new kid! because he didn't give a shit about this kid from next door and his parents were both busy...but wanted kyle to have his little drinky poo so bad that he literally busted his lip open turning into a can-opener for ky...and did the cutest, weirdest most awkward hand-sign ever.

tldr; it was brave and reckless and boyish and radiant. and kyle, who usually is highly disgusted by the germs of other people...finds that brings the lip of the fresca bottle to his with ease, sips his drink, which tastes like victory and probably a bit like cinnamon red hots, watches his weirdo neighbor give him the wink peace sign finger gun combo and is so weirdly endeared by this that he...

gives stan a rare kyle smile and even rarer kyle laugh. :’)

and this is so glorious and gorgeous to ravenstan that he literally cannot breathe, his heart is pounding in his chest, he is fkn shaking, goes to say something and immediately THROWS UP ALL OVER KYLE AND PASSES OUT. skhdlksahdsh HEEEEELP NO.

but yeah...that's how dad and dad met. please note that in canon ncu fashion ravenstan followed jersey around like a lovesick puppy, ignoring all of the kids trying to get his attention and play with him, desperate for kyle to acknowledge his existence for literally five seconds or accept his offer of being super best friends...

all the while, jerseykyle is trying to get away from him because he doesn't like other people, doesn't want to be friends, just wants to be left alone and be alone skhdld and is like weird kid with the giant eyeballs PLEASE FUCK OFF ( this does make stan fall more in love with him, stan i need you to go to therapy for the type of guys u like ) and this apathy and disinterest continues until...

stan takes the stark's pond hockey puck for him.

and suddenly, kyle's cold dead heart starts beating again, he sees ravenstan in the hospital recovering from slicing his face and mouth open again, who smiles so hard he RIPS his stitches open again, smh and from that moment on, they are Super Best Friends.

but both secretly want something more, legend says.

-uncle nina, obsessed with the prequel <3

#BRAAAAAAAAAAAAANCH IN MY EEEEEEEEEEEYE #sorry i have been dead silent guys when i tell u i have been so busy and so tired that i cannot keep my eyes open omg #but i wanted to give u some canopener lip lore #yes ravenstan still does this as a party trick #its extremely bad for ur teeth don't do it stan likes to be cool #he does not slice his lip open anymore thank goodness #management tells him hes really not supposed to because of the filling in his front tooth but ravenstan is a really bad listener #hi adhd smh #BUT NO LIKE HE IS SO INSANE HE WAS LIKE OH GOD OH FUCK MUST IMPRESS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE #MY NICE MOM IS INSIDE WITH PERFECT BOYS MOM #MY SCARY ASS DAD IS OUTSIDE WITH PERFECT BOYS SCARY DAD AND IM SCARED TO ASK HIM FOR ANYTHING #SO HERE WE GO JUST GONNA USE MY TEETH LMAO #he is insane but he is also a romantico king what can i say #the way kyle was just like...wow that was so weird but also why is my face kinda warm no boy has cared abt me like that #ALSO YES HE DOES THROW UP ON KYLE A LOT WHEN THEY ALMOST KISS MULTIPLE TIMES ITS A THEME #YES IT SUCKS also i love my ncu canon of baby stan being obsessed with kyle and slow burn tsundere kyle #being like fuck off and leave me alone u are so weird while the entire town is like stan marsh pls notice me HEEELP #MY! SONS!!!#but no after the hockey puck incident jersey was wooed #and they were both in secret gay crush on my sbf hell smh

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arctrooper69 · 10 months ago

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Oh God, help me.... I can't.... I can't with this....

I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ABOUT THIS YOU HAVE NO IDEA

My stomach hurts....

#i have never been so excited yet so scared at the same time #it's too many feelings #i cant process them all #im gonna throw up #or cry #or jump around #or all three #or none #idk #Youtube

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medicsbigburlychest · 3 months ago

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TODAY IS MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL FUUUUUCKKKK MY LIFEEEEEEE

#IM SO SCARED #AAAAAAA #IM SCREAMING VERY LOUDLY #im gonna throw up #STOPPP #HELPPP #first day of high school #fym I’m gonna be a freshman??#dude im not ready #gonna go insane #tf2 #team fortress 2

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superbellsubways · 4 months ago

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my poor switch is finally dying on me 😔 its starting to turn off around 10%

gonna try taking care of it as best as i can till its over for real.. i cant afford to fix it or get a replacement 🚶 hoping it atleast survives till finalfest

#i mean considering i got this in like idk 2018? it was gonna happen eventually #its fans were already busted for a long while #im too scared to take it anywhere to get it fixed 😭 but if i end up having enough money at some point that might be my only option #bc theres no way im going to attempt to repair it myself #aughhh #broken tech always stresses me out so much #its like i feel rlly guilty or something like i didnt take care of it good enough I'll throw up

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jinyoungtual · 2 months ago

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I JUST REWATCHED PIWON MOVIE AND I HAVE THINGS TO SAY