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#so this is not the place I want to be in when I get home already stressed by my irl things to only get even more stressed…..
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if dean had to die he should've died in the impala
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‘being one of the only people in your entire area actually still taking the pandemic very seriously and following safety measures while every single person around you rapidly decides they completely no longer give a shit’ moodboard
#my bastard in hell i have fucking health conditions#maybe you want to gamble your shit but I simply cannot take those risks dude#and it is increasingly hard to interact with literally any other human being when it seems like we both live in alternate realities#AND if they won't even give the basic respect of just being careful around ME#just a basic 'okay I know we apparently disagree somehow but at least while you're around me could you take these precautions#to help protect me' then it's immediately just *deeply personal reason against it* *argument entirely based on how the person#feels and not any actual current data or pandemic statistics* *random personal anecdote* *reckless nihilism based in#reasonable and understandable exasperation but still missing the point and not ultimately practically helpful in terms of genuinely preventi#ng things from getting worse and simply worsening the conditions that foster the nihilism and exasperation in the first place* *ableism*#*the weirdest fucking argument you've ever heard in your life* *some other entirely personal sentimental reasoning*#*some argument that basically boils down to the fact that they don't trust or respect or care about you and your boundaries or health*#like gHHHGhhhhhhhhhh#JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME AND WEAR A  MASK FOR 30 MINUTES whY does it have to be a debate WHY is that SOO hard#also people I know keep planning stuff and trying to force and guilt trip me and others in my household to go do stuff with them#and are like planning vacations and all this stupud bullshit and now I'm constantly having to put up with it and seem 'mean' or whatever#one of my roomates is fine but the other one is more emotionally volatile and definitely prone to being pulled in by being Lonely#or wanting to do stuff with loved ones and compromising on safety because they're being manipulated by the people around them#into feeling like they're being a burden by asking people to wear masks or etc. so its a constant trust issue where I have to just desparate#ly hoep that when left on their own they're ACTUALLY going to stand up for themselves and stick to their beliefs#and not just like come home and lie about following sfatey measures then secretly give me covid or something.. hhh... WHICH wouldnt be a pro#blem if EVERYONE on the earth wasnt just acting like the pandemic is over and deciding to be reckless - because then it's a matter of#social conformity and peer pressure and following the Culture instead of the data and even people who were safe before will see everyone aro#und them taking things less seriously and decide maybe now it's reasonable to do the same thing themselves or etc. etc.#and it's like... nothing with the VIRUS ITSELF changed lol.. the response changed and the culture changed but the part that matters is the#SAME....the virus isn't looking around like 'hey people seem more chill about this now - maybe I should just relax a little bit and not#infect people for a while. i really dont want to get in the way of their pool party summer vacation and all of that. i'll just step back'#HHHHHHHHHHHHH anyway.... oi am goin inshane lov...........#covid mention#covid tw
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shima-draws · 3 years
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So we might be adopting a rescue dog tomorrow 😳 It’s a leetle sketch tho so there’s also a chance we might get stabbed in the middle of nowhere but you know what we’ll take our chances!!
#They didn’t really give us an address and the one on their site leads to the middle of nowhere so LOL#We were emailing the guy who runs the rescue place and he gave us specific instructions on how to get there so#Idk maybe there’s an issue with how their address is displayed on maps#But anyway I’m really hoping this isn’t a scam bc it’s a three and a half hour drive so#If we drive that far to find out it was a hoax I’ll be super upset#Not to mention the rescue dog is VERY cute and I want him.#Shima speaks#My dad doesn’t know since he’s in Baltimore so we’re gonna surprise him ;)#His birthday is next Sunday#Anyway I was looking up stuff online about this place and it SEEMS legit. There’s a lot of positive reviews too#I’m just cautious since we’ve been scammed before when it comes to buying dogs#Luckily we didn’t fall for the last scam but we were disappointed when we realized it was fake#Crossing my fingers. I’m excited about the road trip but if we DON’T come home with a dog tomorrow I will be very#Just extremely. You know?#LOL#I really wish there was more info about this place;; I mean their site seems fine and the guy gave us honest directions#And my mom called earlier and she told me she could hear dogs barking in the background so that’s a good sign#The rescue’s name is Boz!! He’s a chihuahua and he’s 6 and very fluffy#He was raised to be a breeding dog so he doesn’t really know a lot about living life normally#We’ll have to be very patient and careful with him#I’M EXCITED I HOPE I DON’T GET STABBED
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leosaku · 2 years
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feeling very confused cus i just saw a post (from the pov of maya fey) talking about how iris was involved in a plot to hurt her? correct me if i'm wrong, but wasn't iris part of the plot (along with godot and misty) to save maya??? like i'm pretty sure the only things iris did wrong were a) being a doormat for her awful sister and b) stabbing a corpse 💀
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angelnumber27 · 2 years
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Today I treated myself to a comforting meal, a strawberry lemonade popsicle, a nice little walk with my mom, a good vinyl, two good cds, a beautiful eyeshadow palette and a good book because I have three weeks sober from my drug of choice and I haven’t bought anything for myself in a very long time. I’ve been saving as much as I can. I really didn’t think I had it in me and I’m hopeful for the future for the first time in a very long time. My sobriety was very hard earned and I still have trouble believing I went through the hell that I did by myself at home with no medical assistance
#recovery#addiction recovery#addiction#opiate addiction#please read tags!#ok here we go#just in case anyone who sees this wants to get clean-#PLEASE don’t do what I did and detox at home#especially if you are on something that could potentially kill you in withdrawal.#The main ones are Xanax (due to seizures)#alcohol (seizures and delirium tremens)#and some opiates (dehydration from rapidly losing so many fluids)#There are a ton of options for medical detox#There are even some free options in certain places if you don’t have health insurance or have a high deductible plan#where you can comfortably and with help from medical professionals get off what you need to#sometimes they use medications to help ease the withdrawal symptoms#depending on what it is and when you last used it#they usually do#Now is a great time to get sober and get your life back on track if that’s what’s necessary for you#if you are scared of being judged or shamed for your use and telling people where you are while getting help you can say you were sick#or needed medical attention#If you need help or have questions or need somebody to talk to about addiction or anything at all I am always here#please don’t hesitate to reach out!#I hold no judgements towards anyone who has tried to find ways to kill their sadness and ended up addicted to something#I know exactly how it feels and it’s a very hard life to live. You feel so stuck. I have no room to judge anyone so I just don’t#I hope everyone has a wonderful day thank you good night
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ablednt · 3 years
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Also in general I really don’t trust people who constantly call themself smart/intelligent like. Why do you value this enough to talk about it all the time? I’m not saying you have to demean yourself but also quite literally get it out of your brain that being “smart” is a virtue. It’s a made up metric of a very nebulous concept.
Knowing things, in general, is swag and cool but knowing things doesn’t make someone smart or intelligent. That’s a subjective term used primarily in academia which is founded in eugenics and white supremacy. Divorce the concept of valueable or even credible with academia.
You can get entire degrees on a subject and know nothing about it at all because that’s not HOW the world WORKS. If you don’t have first hand experience with something you don’t know that much about it. Sure, studying can be good and can grant experience and knowledge, but academia isn’t actually built for that it’s built to further eugenics and white supremacy.
Most jobs should not require any kind of formal education or degree but they do. It’s to keep uneducated and disabled people from having jobs and being able to progress in society, and don’t think for a fucking second that this doesn’t effect people of color (especially Black/Indigenous people) more than it does white people. It takes exactly two fucking seconds to notice all the racist gatekeeping in schools starting in fucking kindergarten.
IQ is made up. Intelligence is fake.
When you brag about this shit a lot all I’m really getting from it is that you believe in eugenics, that you believe that as an uneducated person that I’m worth less than you. And with the amount of humiliation, ableism, and general mistreatment I’ve gotten both in academics and outside of it for being disabled and being undereducated it’s a defense mechanism for me way more than it is being “bitter i get bad grades” like someone is going to undoubtedly try and respond to this with.
Just I get if you work hard at something you’re proud of it that’s normal but you can just SAY something like that without making it clear how much you think undereducated and disabled people don’t matter in society lmao
#vent tw#angry text tw#ok to rb ig#sorry sometimes i just go into a fury over this shit#how i can't function in society bc i don't have purely fabricated qualities#how often i feel worthless and like i don't matter to anyone who isn't as visibly mentally disabled as me#like not to be too real with you all but i'm lowkey suicidal as all hell over this kinda shit#i won't do anything to hurt myself bc im in a whole system and that would effect way more than just me but#I can't contribute anything of value to anyone except entertainment#bc being an idiot is funny but it's not really useful for anything in the eyes of society#I DO know things I DO have experiences and I KNOW I have value but the only people who ever seem to understand that are in a similar boat as#I am in so with everyone else I just. I know I'll never really be good for anything other than for a laugh and that's obviously upsetting#for so many reasons when so few people really ever just take me seriously yk?#it's just so exhausting to spend my whole childhood being told no i would be smart if I wasn't so lazy no everyone is mean to me bc im not#making the right choices to be loveable etc. and thinking if I just tried a little harder that everything would click and make sense#only to find out in adulthood all of that was a lie and the only thing separating me from everyone else who actually gets to live a life#outside their home was they had made up qualities and were luckier than I was to be born in a time and place they could actually go to schoo#*school#everything I've ever wanted is behind so many roadblocks and sometimes I'm just. tired of lowing the bar of things I want out of life just#bc I didn't win the life lottery and happen to get the short side of capitalism#just so people can laugh at me and see me as only good to entertain them#(and this is /nbh I'm not saying that no one appreciates me or makes me feel loved im just kinda having a bruh moment)#im just hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#suicide mention
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sluttyten · 2 years
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#I woke up with a pit of anxiety in my belly and I was so confused about what had me feeling this way#just like dreading getting up out of bed and going into work#like I didn’t know what I had so much anxiety over#and then I remembered my boss offered for me to go work at a different location in a different city for a week and I didn’t actually give#him an answer yet#I’m a huge homebody like if I have the choice of being at home or anywhere else I am most likely going to choose being home#plus I would be going to a city where I know no one and staying in a hotel alone for a week and driving to this place by myself and I’m just#so unsure about all of that. I think I should do it because it’ll probably be fine but at the same time I’m just incredibly like anxious and#because* of the thought of having to stay alone in a hotel room for a week#staying home alone for a week is bad enough#and when I asked my mom for her advice she didn’t really help me much but I think that’s because I wanted her to give me a yes or a no#and then my best friend was literally exactly 0 percent helpful because I vented all this too her and her response was ‘oof’ like??? you#don’t have anything maybe a little more helpful to at to me?#anyway my boss works today so I might have to give him an answer today#but I’ve been feeling sick to my stomach since he gave me this offer which lol is exactly how I felt when he offered me a promotion like 9#months ago and I worried about it for a week before agreeing to fill the position for a month (which gave me anxiety every day literally the#day he told me he had someone else to fill the position if I was sure I didn’t want to stay in it I felt a wave of relief literally so much#tension left my body immediately upon hearing those words)#anyway though that’s why I was so inactive yesterday bc I was sitting in my house in like an anxious stupor just watching Netflix and trying#to avoid thinking about this because it made my heart pound uncomfortably but also it was all I could think of#but also I was kinda in a weird mood before that yesterday#ALSO the week he told me he wants to go do that I’m like?? bc recently he also told me he needs me to fill in for a week for the girl who#filled the position I stepped back down from and I’m like? so you’re gonna have me go work in a different store then come back the next week#and do a different job that I don’t want to do in our store? all the while I really want to just take a few days off but I haven’t been able#to because there’s no one who can cover for me to take off and I don’t want to leave us shortstaffed and now it’s summer and we finally have#more people he keeps telling me he needs me to do/wants me to do things that make it impossible to take a few days off#but also my family is planning to go on a trip probably in the fall we don’t know where to yet and we have zero plans made but I probably do#need to save up my PTO hours for that instead of just a few random days off but ugh#also more and more lately I’m like I should really just find a new job. but this one gives me good hours like 40 a week and the hours I want#sorry for this rambling rant
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clovercrafted · 2 years
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Quitting my job and becoming a Minecraft YouTuber
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my two attitudes to doing the dishes include:
(1.) doing the dishes (affirmative, but resigned. bc most of the time it makes me productive enough to do other more important things, like other housekeeping tasks such as vacuuming)
(2.) doing the dishes (derogatory. sheer, blind animosity. paralysing exhaustion, evasion and procrastination abound bc there’s just too much shit in the sink and i don’t want to get wet)
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loveofastarvingdog · 2 years
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i wish we had seen more restlessness in spn, because there’s no way you can tell me that the boys moved regularly for their entire lives and didn’t get that itching under their skin once they got to the bunker. you don’t escape that feeling, you just don’t
#the thing about moving so often is that it's lonely and it's isolating but you can't grow out of it#you're stuck wishing you had community but knowing you can never settle down#not even because of the domesticity but because of the inability to sit still#traveling a lot can help but it just isn't the same as moving#and it's something that they'd have to be weaned off of i think#maybe sam would take settling a little easier because of his time at stanford and stuff but like#you cannot. you CANNOT tell me they don't get the urge to pack up sometimes#and it's not that they like it even! you don't LIKE tearing up any semblance of roots – no matter how small – but you can't stop the feeling#i dunno i guess i'm just really stuck on this idea of like. dean being ready to stop hunting or settle down or something#and i ADORE the dean fixing up a house to live in ideas#but i find it so hard to think that he immediately finds a Forever Home#i think it's something that he'd have to search for over the years as he begins settlingdown#maybe he stays in one spot for a month or two and then moves on and stays 5 months at the next place#and just works his way up till he can handle staying still#i just don't see it being easy and quick#also the ''you can never go home'' narrative like... OH AND APPLE PIE BY LIZZY MCALPINE#''every house looks the same / in my dreams / every house feels like home / for a couple weeks''#something about it never being home even when you want it to be#anyways not to project but *vibrates at the speed of sound* owuhuighguhuhhgghhhh#dean winchester#sam winchester#spn#supernatural#timothy's txts.
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aiwobonappetit · 2 years
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❤️ LOVE ME MORE THAN BEFORE, DARLIN’! ❤️
#VDAY IS STILL ON I HAVE TWO HRS LEFT#also i hate saying this but … rbs appreciated 😭😫 PLEASE. I LITERALLY GOT HOME AND BURNED 6 HRS ON THESE LMAOOOOO#It’s the insanity aint it luv xoxo /j#ANYWHO#self ship#the stellar garden#nart time#OK SENTIMENT TIME#sure. I have now FIVE (5) romantic fos now but UH HOW COULD I NOT DO SMTH FOR HUSBANDS ON THIS LOVELY SPECIAL DAY???#I’m gonna be so fucking tired tmrw but it was worth it. drawing these reminded me of drawing the stuff for our wedding#nonstop back to back and they all ended up super cute and good#i cant believe it’s going to be a year since we’ve been married soon + this is our 3rd year together 🥺#honestly since we’ve been married it’s been a whirlwind. lots of low points for me and other stuff so I haven’t really…stepped into it yet?#which is perfectly fine! they’re both so patient with me but I’ll try to be more indulgent with our relationship :)#I say that everytime but this time! ill be the wife/husband I promised I’d be#reflecting on how much the three of us have grown is a tear jerker;__; like! so much has happened from that one day I suddenly fell-#-for Natsuki. and now we get to wake up to each other every day and eat dinner together and stuff….#I just 🧍🏽 I’ll never get how I was chosen to be here w/ them but I’ll never take it for granted#this is an alignment of chance. the right person at the right time at the right place#natsuki and satsuki have been there for me when I wanted to shrivel up and die. and I’ll ALWAYS be there for them. we all know this very wel#w/ the 1 hr. special + movie I’ll never run out of reasons to stop loving them. even when there’s no more new content I’ll never stop!!!#I’ll just make it myself and keep sustaining like a FARMER#regardless of what form I love Natsuki and Satsuki soososososossososos much and I’m really happy that my heart never stops skipping beats-#-when I see them. I’m not scared of losing time anymore. I know I have them for the long run#and for however long that may be I’ll enjoy it. and when there’s no more time I’ll make more of it.#I’ll do what it takes to make sure Natsuki and Satsuki are fed + loved + and cared for as long as I’m here.#they’re really my world and no one will come between us. no doubles no haterz none of it. I could care less abt what they think#we love each other and that’s what matters#happy Valentine’s Day my sweet honey and my spicy dicey wifey ❤️#may we have many more and may our love flourish for eternity
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sofhtie · 2 years
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game about grief :[
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apathyfairy · 2 years
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well this week has taught me that life is fucking sad as shit and that’s just the way it is like not that i didn’t already know that but life is fucking miserable
#god dude. old people are SO goddamn sad.#like i said it’s my uncles dad who died and so his mom is left behind and like#i’ve known them since i was like idk 8? and we used to go over to their house for dinner#like every single weekend or they would go over to my uncles house and wed all have dinner or whatever#when my cousins were really little and we all lived in the same place and anyway. she just loves me to death like she always has#and she’s like me where if she hates u u absolutely know it skjsb but she just has always loved me so much#and i havent seen her in maybe like idk 11 years? something like that and all weekend she was just hugging me and like i’m so So glad you#came and i’m like so am i like jesus fuck she’s breaking my heart#and my uncle is an only child like me and he and my aunt and cousins live in california and she’s here in texas all alone now and it’s like.#god. and tonight we were at her house and they have two cats and she was like ‘yeah she’s our baby. . she’s My baby.’ and i’m like good god#just kill me on the spot it’s just SO fucking SAD. dude i don’t ever want to fucking get old never i’ve lost one ex boyfriend and literally#that still breaks my heart every single day i can’t even fucking fathom what it’s like to lose your husband of 54 fucking years.#life is just bullshit man i hate it i hate it i hate it#anyway i’m driving home tomorrow driving in texas is scary as shit and idk how anyone lives here full time
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freunwol · 2 years
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Any wholesome Freunwol headcanons?
hi yes hello yes hi hello yes well
- ive mentioned hair before but like. that just really seems like an important form of intimacy for them i think!!! braiding it, brushing it, freud snuggling into euns hair when he sleeps or vice versa..... the lil things yknow?
- i do wanna touch on the falling asleep in his hair thing bc like. i think that would absolutely make euns heart melt. kind of hard to move tho
- on a similar topic, i do remember seeing a comic of freud giving eun an actual haircut as opposed to a wild boy never-had-positive-interactions-in-his-life mess and it was SO fucking cute so to me its canon that freud gave eun his haircuts & styled it and to eun that was like the second coming of jesus christmas (i bookmarked the comic but the tweet was deleted. Q-Q)
- in the maple m dialogue eun says freud gets quiet when hes angry, which i think only applies to like genuine fury, but also. no talk me angy
- i think the fact that one of euns moves is him transforming into a biggol spirit to slash at stuff is HIGHLY underutilized in fandom sphere... freud sees it for the first time and loses his fuckin mind
- i think they kind of represent different things to each other? like ive prolly mentioned i think freud is a source of stability for eun (not the least of which is cuz house), but i do think eun is a kind of freedom for freud. hes rather one-track minded- judging from his introspection in the journal event, he tended to miss the forest for the trees, getting too caught up in doing and forgetting why hes doing it. i can see fighting bm becoming an all-consuming thing in his life, and struggling to imagine a life outside of it, cuz hes already come this far. being w eun- considering how eun is- would prove as a reminder that he'll have a life after the battle, and no matter what he chooses to do, there will be people who back him up on the decision
- and on a similar topic freud is... probably repressed to the point of not understanding what romantic feelings feel like. he knows the signs of it on other ppl but hes like "hm i feel strangely anxious and warm and my heart is beating very fast... am i having heat stroke" (half joke, he would know, but still too repressed to say anything, i think. he just offers to house eun and stay with him through the good and bad times)
- hes a warm person, and its genuine, but i think often it may be kind of impersonal- more of a politeness thing. so being able to connect with eun and the other heroes is something very special to him, and hes very special to them!!!
- theres a lot of parallels that need to be explored. the moon and mr left a hole open in the roof so he could stare at the moon. the ocean and the wind. the dragon and the... fox? deer? guy? i want so desperately to make a color comparison but their main colors are red and either black or purple so its. not the best of comparisons.
- THE FUCKING ROOF THING I DIDNT EVEN THINK OF THAT DID YOU KNOW. DID YOU KNOW EUNWOL MEANS HIDDEN MOON probably you did, i thought it was silver moon for the longest time BUT. freud made space in his life for eun & emphasized it wasnt a burden because it wasnt and allowed himself to be vulnerable around him and eun came out of his shell bit by bit and was rewarded with love and appreciation from the people who mattered most and mAN. MAN,
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cherrykamado · 2 years
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eucalyptus gummiess.!.!.
where and how🥺
also hi beloved how you been, you still by those mountains👀
YAY I LOVE EUCALYPTUS GUMMIES SO MUCH<333
HI BBYY!!! I'm good !! I'm not :( it's festival time in here and everything is literally full, couldn't get a place to stay in so I'm travelling to another city now :((
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omegasmileyface · 2 years
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bro nobody bothered to tell me how lonely it feels to be 18
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