#someone save me from this man’s selcas

[bp-zb1fics]

I need more of leejeong 😭😭 I miss him sm :(((((

Missing leejeong hours are open 24/7 😭😭 he’s been on my mind too lately, I’ve been rewatching the bp planet tv vlogs, literally boy gets more screentime there than the actual show. And his Twitter selcas??? I am weak~ the fics are writing themselves at this point 🤣

Definitely want to write more leejeong once I move on to doing general reqs again~

[nightswithkookmin]

I really like your blog and how you voice your opinions! just wanted to say that it's really funny how everyone are and still saying how JK birthday video for Jimin had nothing to do with Jimin and how it only meant to be sexy for Army but if you search the words Jungkook birthday Taehyung on twitter all you get is lots of tweets about people can't wait for a JK thirst trap for V birthday dated 3 days ago or Why didn't we got/Where is the thirst trap for V birthday dates 2 days ago and when they got called out they said it has nothing to do with Jimin or jokers calling everyone fools and clowns. Which means this fandom and that subgroup if filled with liarsss because if it's nothing sexy and it ain't for Jimin why they want the same thing for their bias and why they want that type of greeting so badly

IT WASN'T FOR JIMIN????😳😳😳😳

DOES THE WORD JIMIN MEAN SOMETHING ELSE IN TUKTUKKER TALK??????

Happy birthday bro posted on 13th October- gee I wonder who he was wishing that bdae msg to

It couldn't possibly be jimin cause JM was born on the 13th month of tzulekber which is not even on the Gregorian calendar gotcha

And if you pay close attention he said Jhamin not Jimin. There's no one in BTS called JWAMIN

He wanted to be sexy for Army on JMs birthday just as his mother thought she would make his son a birthday soup on someone else's son's birthday

He made a portrait of Hobi for hobi on his birthday, exclusive to Hobi. The members taunted him for one but NO ONE GOT THE SAME GIFT. AS NO ONE SHOULD.

IT'S A ONE OF A KIND GIFT MEANT TO SHOW HOW HE FEELS TOWARDS WHOEVER RECEIVES IT.

He posted a photo of Suga on stage shot by him.

HE POSTED A PERSONALIZED VIDEO MESSAGE FOR JIMIN, DID HIS HAIR, PUT ON COLOGNE AND HIS CHRISTMAS OUTFIT- HE HAD A LOT ON HIS CHEST BUT DECIDED I'LL KEEP IT SHORT.

Do people understand that BTS members are high profile celebrities too? If any other artist hand painted a portrait or photographed another celebrity and sent it to them signed they would hang it in their living room and display it on their trophy shelf.

Do they know how much a gift like that is worth??

Clue, BTS costumes are currently on display in museums and anything they made get sold to us at a price as merch.

I hate when they do this gosh. They are so dense.

I bet JK was gonna make a video essay enumerating all the things Jimin had done for him and just how much he loves Jimin but changed his mind last minute.

THEY ARE TOO SLOW TO CATCH HIS DRIFT.

Perhaps he made a video message for JM because Video messages and Polaroid back and forth between them is how they communicate their love- WHY YALL THINK HE WAS FILMING THOSE GCFS😩

Because JM hates video messages???

The same guy who prefers face timing as a form of communication and spends ours face timing his soulmate on his sick bed??? Mmkay.

And perhaps he made a portrait because Hobi have always wanted him to make a portrait of him and Suga has always wanted to be photographed by JK?

For whatever reason this man has decided, no he is not going to treat everyone the same or standardize his affections for people in the name of equality and preserving the status quo to make people happy.

I WONDER WHY?!

It's not like he was constantly told to treat all the members the same and do for all what he does for one lest his relationship with X or Y stands out in the group. It's not like he felt pressured to normalize his relationship with certain members and act like they weren't special at all

Jikook is platonic twins from the same womb but THEY ALWAYS SUPERIMPOSE THEIR FAVE ONTO JIKOOK SELCAS

THEY SHOULD FRANKLY LEAVE JUNGKOOK ALONE TO DO AS HE PLEASES WITH WHOMEVER.

Dude has been posting Tae Kook photos on his gram, liking his posts and supporting his content, doing dance challenges with him.

And he is out here posting birthday videos for JM which is about all the social media interactions they had save for JM @ing at him. Correct me if I'm wrong. Memory fog.

He is not on bad terms with anyone. He doesn't hate Jimin and he doesn't hate Tae. He certainly doesn't hate Suga or Hobi just because he hasn't posted them either. He either doesn't have a selca with them in his collection or he just doesn't feel a need to validate them publicly to show he likes them- which is where my money is at.

Yet, while he CHOSE to crop himself out of a Tae Kook selca to post on Tae's birthday, he certainly didn't feel he needed to remove and distance himself from his post for Jimin. HE WAS THE BIRTHDAY PRESENT. GIFT WRAPPED AND DELIVERED ON JMS FRONT DOOR.

If they want a message intended for fans, they should look no further than his cropped out meme of Tae on Tae's birthday. That post was for Army so yall could have a good laugh.

It's no different from Jimin posting memes of Jin on his birthday. It's meant as a joke at his expense. Which us a fan way of teasing him.

Just know the last time Jungkook posted a similar meme of Jimin it was of a higher resolution and it came with an apology letter 😌

This is my dick 🚪

They shouldn't let it hit them on their way out of Jimin's hair.

Also thank you. I love my blog too. It's my best feature.

[wonhoarctic]

flash | lee hoseok (wonho)

word count: 2.2K

resquest: hii! may i request a wonho angst fic, please? 🥺🥺 thank you in advance!! (i've translated to english)

a/n: hi love! ofc you can, here's your request, by the way, i hope you like it!! ah, and you don't need to be like this with me, we're friends!! (i was going to write it in portuguese but idk if there are people who use to read this, and i did something with ain't about you and with you, that are your favorite songs!! <3

pairing: idol!wonho x idol!fem reader

genre: angst, but with some fluff and smut undertones

contains: wonho can't help but remember about you, lee y/n, the love of his life, his wife and the mother of his beautiful daughter, in the middle of an online concert he's holding, specially when performing his new song flash, which was made just or you (the songs are not in order of albuns!! it's all mixed)

flashbacks are in italic!!!

tw// death, car accident, sasaengs!!

the concert started out with the 'smutty songs', so he wouldn't cry at the beginning, but he couldn't help but remember about when he wrote with you, thinking about you two, loving each other until the morning, or having some rough sex, it depended on the mood, but it was about you two, and he couldn't help but remember; your blissed out face, the sounds you made just for him, mewls, whimpers and moans, just for him, the love bites and scratches you leaved on his skin at hidden places so no one would figure out, your scent, your taste... everything came back to his mind in that moment

hoseok wished he could be at least turned on from the memories he had, but he was broken, he couldn't be nothing but sad remembering about his love, his sweet y/n, who's not here anymore to comfort him after a bad day, to take care of him when he's sick, to make love to him, to kiss and cuddle, to cook his favorite ramen flavors, and to help him to take care of your newborn baby, to help him to change diapers when he don't know what to do, to see you breastfeeding the sweet embodiment of your love... how he wished you were there at that moment, he couldn't believe that you'd left him, that you had left your family

he swore he lost his energy after singing open mind, thinking that he couldn't handle that anymore, he just wanted to lay on the ground and cry, hoping you could hear him and come to cuddle and comfort your husband, but wonho knew you wouldn't come

when lose started to play, he smiled a bit while singing, remembering how you got moody when you entered the set to support him and saw your man hugging the actress by behind, the same way he used to do with you while cooking or doing something important, or when he wanted to talk with the baby during your pregnancy

your pouty face was the death of him, he remembered exactly the texture of your lips on his when he was saying how sorry he was

"you're not going to say a word to me, baby?" you shook your head no "okay, so..." he leaned forward to kiss you, taking care of your growing stomach "do you forgive me now?"

"u-ugh, fine" you blushed, hearing his giggle "but please, do it with me the next time" you laughed

"i swear that in my next mv, you'll be the actress, and our little princess needs to be there too, right?" he smiled

when the sexy concept songs ment ended, a vcr came out, and he made sure to include you on the behind the scenes of the concert, the few last clips of you two together, you helping him with choreographies and figurines, a long video of you guys choosing the right outfits for open mind mv (yeah, he did some of them without the help of his staffs) playing while he changed and prepared himself to the other ment

when lost in paradise started to play, while he sang, hoseok couldn't help but remember that day in which he asked you to marry him, he asked you to be the woman of his life, and he also remembered about your wedding day, smiling widely while thinking about when the two of you started a life

'i got a feeling it's you' said the lyrics, and yes, he got that feeling, and he was completely right, it was you, the love of his life

the wedding ceremony has ended, you two were at a hill, even though he has acrophobia, he insisted to have a wedding at that place, he felt safe in your arms, and now, the two of you looked at the place, seeing the lake below you, and the beautiful view you had from the little forest, his hands still on your hips

"how does it feel to be finally my wife, love?" he smiled

"i feel like... i feel like this is all a dream" you said, caressing the hand on your hip with your other one "and i don't want to wake up. never."

he smiled widely, turning to face you, his hand still in your hip, while the other one caressed your face, carefully wiping the joyful tears that escaped from your eyes, trying his best not to ruin your makeup

"i wanted this dream to come true so bad... i feel like i'm in paradise now" he said "and i'm so happy that our dream finally came true, y/n, i love you so much, and i'll love you forever" he whispered, kissing you

yes, it was true, maybe he was really lost in paradise with you, but now, you weren't there anymore, just memories about you

even losing you seemed to have a different meaning now..... how he wished he could be there to save you, he wanted to protect you

now, it was the interview time, and he wasn't all smiley like before, and the interviewer wasn't helping that much

"so, wonho-ssi... some of your fans noticed that you're not smiling too much today... what happened?" she asked him

"i wasn't going to talk about it, but i can't hide it from wenees anymore..." he sighed "it's just that... every single thing i do here remember me from y/n, my lovely wife, who's not here anymore"

"and what happened to her?" the interviewer didn't seemed to be aware of the situation

"there might be some wenees who don't know what happened... okay, i'll explain" he felt himself getting braver to talk about what was making he lose his sleep "i've hid about my relationship with y/n for about 7 years, but when we got married, i knew lots of fans would talk about it, so our relationship became public... how could i hide this from my precious wenees? i wanted my fans to know about my family" he felt the tears starting to run on his cheeks "i was so happy when i announced that she was pregnant... i thought wenees would be happy, too, but unfortunately, some of them started to become aggressive towards y/n" he was sobbing, even the interviewer couldn't held her tears, starting to feel guilty by asking him that "some obsessive fans started to stalk her when eunbi turned 5 months old and she started to sing again... and near to our princess' 11 month anniversary, when y/n was coming back from mcountdown, some of those wen..." he corrected himself "those sasaengs collided with her car, they were at a high speed, so it was a huge accident, and she didn't resisted..." he was angry, sad, he couldn't help but cry "i couldn't thank her to be with me, to be the mom of my precious daughter... i couldn't say a last 'i love you'... the last thing we did together as artists was the ain't about you mv... and that morning, the last thing she did before going out was to feed our baby girl, and kiss me..." i miss her so much... please, y/n, come back to me... the police had arrested those girls already, but please... say that you love me one more time" all he could do was cry

the staffs thought about ending the concert without an encore, but he insisted to sing the song he wrote for you, flash, while calming himself when the cameras were off

hoseok saw eunbi, his now one year old daughter sleeping while a staff kept an eye on her, he smiled, his eyes were still red and swollen, his face was puffy, so the baby seemed to notice, even if she was still half asleep when her dad held her tightly in his arms, she managed to grab his nose while smiling with the pacifier still in her mouth, her other hand holding the bunny plushie her mom gave her in the 10 months old birthday

"my sweet eunbi" he cooed "daddy will sing a song for mommy today... will you sing with me?" the baby smiled, her pacifier almost dropping, but wonho put it back in her mouth as soon as he could

he kissed her forehead, and then, started to retouch his makeup and change the jacket, holding eunbi in his arms again, going back to the stage

he grabbed the mic, knowing that they were on air, the first public appearance of his daughter, a beautiful moment, even if it was melancholic

Tonight I am still standing In the middle of nowhere, not knowing how you’re feeling I’m trying to find you because I was the only one who didn’t know When and where it went wrong like a fool I want to turn back time and stop it An endless flash, my love for you

while singing, he meant each one of those words, his love for you would be infinite, he'd never stop loving you, or the huge present you left him — a precious daughter, and photos of the two of you were passing through the big screens behind him, photos of your family, wedding day, honeymoon, selcas... everything he had to remember from you

The day I hugged you for the first time The day that will never come again I repeat the words alone, I love you

all he wanted to do in that moment was for you to be there, to sing with him, both of you holding your daughter, smiling... being a happy family, suddenly, he remembered that day, wishing he could turn back time to the day of your first hug, he wanted to hold you in his arms forever

You shined on me like a lighthouse When I was on my own and lost my way, flash You were shining, flash Will I ever forget you? I miss you You held me like a hero When I was unknown, tired and collapsing, flash You were warm, flash Will I ever find you again? I miss you

you were his light, when someone broke him, when he got into those scandals, when he couldn't go back to his fans, you were the one there, you were his flash, helping him to find the way back home, to give him the love he deserves

You left me and I’m the only one here I call you but there’s no answer, what else can I do? I thought I cared for you more than anything But it was my mistake, how hard was it for you? Come back to me please, give me one more chance Shine on me beautifully like you’ve always did I know bae gone be the last time This is how I’m feeling If I can see you one last time, one love

he was calling you even now, his mind was wandering back to all the memories he had with you, his one and only love, but you weren't going to answer him, you couldn't just come back from the dead

The day I let you go from my arms The day that will never come again I repeat these words alone, I want to see you

suddenly, hoseok felt guilty again while singing this part, he shouldn't let you go from his arms that morning, he should've faked being sick, or anything he could just for you to be home and live a little more

You’ve given me so much I still have more to give you back We can’t stop like this If I have one more chance

he wanted to do all he could for you, but you wouldn't be there to see it, and he would never be able to give back all the love and support you gave him, so he was doing his best to be happy for you even tho he's broken, he needed to be strong for his daughter

You left me and I’m the only one here I call you but there’s no answer, what else can I do? The shining flash, yeah Now I can be your destiny Like I’m your everything? If you’re in my arms, I won’t let you go The flash will be shining on us I’m waiting for the day you smile again

he felt the tears teasing his eyes again, but he held them back this time, ending the song with a smile, playing with the baby in his arms, hearing eunbi's loud laugh, filling his heart with some joy, finally, and he truly smiled, laughing with her

"y/n, i love you! thank you for giving me everything!" was the last thing he shouted before ending the concert

even when you're not there anymore, he felt as if he was being the most loved man in the earth by you and your daughter

[ritzbernal]

Regrets and Realizations

So I need to do work but I have to let this out my system so I can focus (ehem let's see). It's been on my mind for a whole week already! I, uhm, am not really a writer but Vincenzo forced me to be one. Read at your own risk 🤣

Takes places after episode 16 after threatening Jang Han Seok and Choi Myung Hee. Vincenzo coming face to face with regrets of losing his mom and realizing how he doesn't want to lose Cha Young.

Read in ao3

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"Regret is the most painful thing in life."

These words echo in Vincenzo's head as he was driving back to the hospital after his encounter with the Babel quartet. He says it so often to people as advice yet with himself, he doesn't know how it applies. Maybe because the life he led in Italy allows him not to have regrets.

Anger. That's all he felt for his mother before he learned the truth. The truth that she left him in the orphanage not because she didn't love him, but because she had cancer. She was afraid to leave his son dying so she chose to send him away.

I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise that I'd come for you soon.

He learned that she looked for him for several years and that after everything that has happened, she still loves him.

There hasn't been a single day that I haven't thought about you.

And now all he felt was regret. Yes he killed the man who killed his mother in front of Jang Han Seok and Choi Myung Hee, but it is not enough. They have crossed Vincenzo and there's no other way for them but down.

He recalled the days when he visits his mom and during those days, Cha Young was with him. Hong Cha Young. She is the reason why he chose to forgive his mother. Because of her, he got to spend a few intimate hours with her - taking selca together, buying her bunggeopang, buying her a bag, taking a stroll with her. If it weren't this strong-willed lawyer who was always by his side, he wouldn't get to spend those precious moments with her. She has slowly become his rock, his foundation, his reason to fight. She supported him even when she knew his deeds.

This made him think of what could have Cha Young felt when her father was intentionally killed by Wusang and Babel. He wasn't even there for her when it happened. He even told her that she should have been a good daughter sooner. It must have been hard for her then. He gripped the steering wheel while he thought of Cha Young in his shoes months ago. If there's anyone who can understand him now, it's Cha Young. And if there's someone who can understand Cha Young, it's him. Funny how their circumstances parallel each other.

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Vincenzo arrives at the hospital with blood on his hands and neck. His white shirt stained with the blood of his mother's murderer. As he went out of his car to get inside the hospital, he took his phone from his coat and called Cha Young. She picked up at the first ring.

"Where are you? Are you okay?" Her voice is filled with worry, fear, and relief. Fear that something might have happened to him without her saying how much he means to her and relief that he finally called, that somehow he's not in danger.

"Byeonhosa-nim." Vincenzo said with the hint of tiredness and loneliness. His tone was cold and void of emotion.

"Yes. Where are you? Did you make him pay? I convinced the staff to wait a little while before proceeding with cremation. Mr. Nam and I will take care of the papers, don't worry. Where are you?" Cha Young said in a single breath. She shuffled outside the morgue to see if Vincenzo has arrived at the hospital.

"Byeonhosa-nim. I have something to tell you."

"What is it?"

"I'm sorry."

"For what? What's wrong? Where are you right now?" He can sense the worry in her voice. He knows she's acting strong but inside she's crumbling for Oh Gyeong Ja's unfair death. Vincenzo now taking the stairs to where Cha Young is. It's good that there were few people in that part of the building at that time. He would have caused a commotion with how he looks right now.

"Make sure you catch him. No, make him pay." Cha Young's words assured him that she trusts him, that she will stay with him no matter how many crimes he commit. Her words were the catalyst for him to make pay whoever did that to his mom. Then he remembered his thoughts during the car ride. He wasn't there for her. But Cha Young chose to be the bigger person and reminded him that regret is the most painful thing in life.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when Mr. Hong passed away. I even amplified that you were not a good daughter to your dad. And yet here you are with me. I really don't deserve you." His tone became soft as he apologize to Cha Young.

"Yah. This is not the time to be saying such things," she said gritting her teeth. "Byeonhosa-nim, please, I just need to know where you are right now and that you are safe," her voice cracking.

The last time he heard her almost crying was when the victim's family was unrightfully murdered. How he wants to hug then, to comfort her, yet he chose not to. He was afraid to overstep the boundaries. But right now, all he wants to do is hug her and not let her go.

Vincenzo spots Cha Young half crying outside the morgue, speaking to him on the phone. He should be the one emotional right now, but Cha Young looked like she was the one who lost a mother. With light steps he walked towards her. She was too preoccupied with their conversation that she didn't notice Vincenzo was already behind her.

"Vincenzo Cassano, where-" Vincenzo ended the call and placed his phone inside his coat.

"Yah!" Cha Young half cried half shouted on the phone. Tears were already welling in her eyes. Then without a word, he swiftly went and hugged her from behind, engulfing her in his embrace. His bloodied hand on her waist; his face buried in her neck. He took the phone from her right hand, tucked it inside her the pocket of her pants and then gently moved his hand back to her waist.

"Byeonhosa-nim. What are you doing?" She wants to turn around but Vincenzo's arms is tight around her.

"Back to byeonhosa-nim again? I'm sorry. This must have been how you felt before. I feel terrible."

"Yah. Don't make me cry anymore. Listen, it's not your fault. Please don't blame yourself. Let's not talk about that. Are you hurt somewhere?" Then Vincenzo loosen his arms from her and Cha Young was able to free herself from Vincenzo. She turned around to look at him. Gone is the cold gaze before he left earlier. With shaking hands he searched his arms, his torso and his chest to see if he has any injury. Aside from a few bruises on his fingers, thankfully he's not hurt anywhere else. Finally she settled her right hand on his face with an attempt to wipe away the blood stains.

Vincenzo was looking at her intently the entire time she was searching his body for any injury. This is the closest physically they have been after their charade as a couple. His left hand went to caress that Cha Young's hand and leaned his head. Her hands are warm on his cold cheeks. He closed his eyes and he spoke, "I'm fine."

"I was so worried. Why would you end the call without saying something?" She removed her hands from his cheeks to hit him in the shoulders just as she did before when she's irritated or excited. But he was quicker and took her hand back to his cheeks.

"I'm sorry. I'm here now."

"Will you please stop saying sorry?" Now they are looking at each other's eyes. The tension between them building up.

"Thank you for staying with my mom."

"I'm returning the favor. You stayed with my dad when I was busy fighting against him. Let's go in." She said changing the topic and dragging Vincenzo by the hand enter the morgue and say his final goodbye to his mom.

"Byeonhosa-nim," he said keeping her from walking, "today I have declared war with Babel. We still have a long war to fight and I don't want to lose you in the process. After mom's funeral, we have to arrange things so I can keep an eye on you. Either I stay in your house or you stay in my apartment." There was a pause and sigh before he uttered, "I can't lose you, too."

"Why?" she asked not looking at him. I can't lose you too. His words echo in her head. Something in her anticipate that he will confess his feelings for her. He's been very subtle about his words and actions towards her but this hug means something else. She wants him to acknowledge his feelings and accept that he deserves love.

"Just agree please and don't ask anymore questions." Because I love you, Hong Cha Young, in his mind he said. But these are the words she was not expecting. Maybe he needs more time. He just lost his mom. I need to stay with him. She sighed and said, "Okay. We'll stay at my house."

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So I finished it at last! It's my first fic in long time (oh the power that Vincenzo has). I figured Vinnie will save the confession a little later because what will we viewers look forward to? I hope you enjoyed this short fic!

Edit: I refined it a bit? LOL I might be writing the continuation of this. Chayenzo in Cha Young's house.

Here is Part 2!

[koobiluvr]

your bond with bts | eighth member

seokjin

this man would spoil you to death

he would give you anything you wanted

im not even kidding

“hey jinnie if you can, can you get me some mcdon-“

“yes”

“i didn’t even fin-“

“of course i’m gonna get it for you, don’t be ridiculous y/n.”

eatjins!!!!

he makes u dinner when you’re feeling sad :]

you two make the worst jokes and the members just stare at you while you both laugh at yourselves

you look up to him so he tries his best not to mess up

when he does, he feels like you’re gonna do the same as him and it scares him

you’re his favorite

yoongi

at first he didn’t like you

but then he saw how passionate you were about making music and being in the group and almost immediately warmed up to you

he helps you with writing songs and you do the same for him

he likes cuddling you—in secret of course

the boys saw it once and were like ‘why doesn’t yoongi do this with me tf????’

in his secret message he told you he loved you

“yoongi sent something to me too!”

“y/n don’t-“

“he said he loved me.”

all the boys are secretly jealous of you guys

during concerts you always go up and back hug him while the armys scream your shipname :]

really pure relationship, you’re each other’s safe place

hoseok

the sunshine line!!!!!

you are always hyping up the other members

some people consider you the serotonin line because you radiate the most happiness

“hi! i’m your hope, you’re my hope, i’m jhope!”

“annyeong! oh wait- hi! im y/n and everyone looks so good tonight! thank you for coming! :D”

you guys do girl group dance covers all the time

what is love is the best one and twice always reacts to it and luvs it :]

but then again, sometimes your smiles aren’t real and you both know

you understand each other more than anyone else

whenever you mess up in a dance he’s way more understanding

“its okay y/n. just be more careful next time!”

namjoon

when you guys are on vacation you go and catch baby crabs :]

you guys have a bonsai tree that you both take care of

you tell him everything

when you get hurt (which happens a lot actually) he’s the first to blame himself

you guys had a collab on the recent album

he teaches you new things all the time since you didn’t really have a childhood

stays up late at night helping you learn english

you guys watch friends for the 1000th time together

yall are so cute omg im jealous

you were featured in the mono album

he’s supposed to be the most strict considering he’s the leader but he never scolds you

he can’t stand the frown on your lips when someone gets upset with you :(

jimin

cuddles all the time!!!!!

he loves being affectionate with you omg save him

whenever you’re down on yourself he’s the first one to dry your tears and tell you how perfect you are

he really treasures you

matching pink hair in persona era :D

whenever you two are together it’s always soft giggles and rosy cheeks

sleepovers in jungkooks room

sometimes you cry during concerts and he hugs you so tight while he helps you finish your part of the song

in your minecraft world you and jimin have a bunny named boris

jungkook tried to kill it once but you beat his ass and stole his diamonds

taehyung

you two are definitely the most attractive part of the group

duality !!!!!!!

you two were really close and even worked on a kdrama together :]

he helped you with your fashion and helped you be confident

he cried during concerts a lot too and you two were each others sense of comfort

you and him cried into each other’s shoulder while jin talked about disbanding at the mama

i can imagine you two getting in arguments just because you act so alike

whenever you two do get in arguments its very obvious

the guys always get worried because when taehyung gets mad he always says mean things

one time he said something about how you didn’t belong in the group

you ignored him for 2 weeks because he refused to apologize

after that he never came around you when he was mad because he was too scared of nearly losing you

you guys do vlives together and play pubg with armys !!

very wholesome

jungkook

no one cares about you like jungkook does

he’s not big on affection so its hard for him to show it

but he talks about you like you’re the most important thing ever

and in his eyes, you are

“y/nnie is like an angel without wings.”

“y/n, i ly awake in my bed at night, full thoughts about you.”

you know how vmin are called soulmates?

yeah well

you and jungkook are called soulmates too

you go to him when you need a little piece of home

it would make sense if you went to someone like taehyung or yoongi because they’re both from daegu just like you, but no, you went to him

he brought it up to the guys one day and they’re like ??? no?? she doesn’t do that with us

“we all have our person in the group that we go to when we need comfort and a sense of home, and i guess that little piece of home is you, kook.” namjoon would say

playing overwatch together :]

selcas together all the time

he really loves you even if he doesn’t say it often

it’s the looks

you two look at each other like an old married couple

hi!! im gonna continue this 8th member stuff because i really like it, so if you have any ideas don’t be shy to send them! thank you ! - leo <3

[najatheangel]

Hi hi!! I just discovered your blog and i’m in lovee 💞💞 could i please request a private selca ship for got7, exo, nct (all units) and ateez please? with explanations too, if you could 😊

Thank you very much in advance! Oh and i wanted to ask if you have plans on opening written ships too sometime soon? Because i would really love to request a written ship from you too 💗💖💗💖

@yiensluv Hiii sweetie your so pretty love. 🥺✨Gosh I just want to pinch your cheeks hehe. Also, so sorry for responding so late to your question, but once I narrow down back to 2 written ships I’ll open them back up. I’m sorry hun I just have too many atm, but I will let you know when I’m opening them back up.😭😭

From Got7, I ship you with…Yugyeom

Girlaa he would think your so adorable and you two would be such a joy together. You have such a lovely bare face first of all and second of all your cheeks are just so pinchable. You have such a unique look that Yugyeom would love and he’s also into exploring different cultures. I can imagine him being the giant he is carrying you on his shoulders. I can also imagining acting very clingy around you behind closed doors and the got7 brothers would tease him about it. He would act embarrassed at first, but would still have no regrets.

From Exo, I ship you with…Sehun

Ahhh Sehun, ya’ll have such interesting yet cute interactions. He would be such a sucker for your cute image and love every minute of it. I can imagine him just getting distracted by you looking at him when he’s trying to practice rapping for his songs. This man is not the best with expressing with his emotions, but when it comes to you, he feels so comfortable telling you anything and everything that has happened to him. Also would blush whenever you make the first move.

From Nct 127, I ship you with…Jungwoo

Uggh idk, but Jungwoo would love either a sexy or cute women, but he leans more towards cute types just like you. Jungwoo also wouldn’t mind meeting people from different states and countries. I can imagine him taking such good care of you giving you extra blankets when your cold, cooking your favorite meals and taking you everywhere with him to protect from paparazzi. Jungwoo would have no shame in talking about you so endearingly amongst the members, but when they tease him about you in interviews, he would turn shy hiding behind Mark to save himself from the embarrassment. Your BEST FRIEND and BOYFRIEND out of Nct 127.

From Nct Dream, I ship you with…Renjun

Our pure boy and pure girl look so good together. I think I’ve said this before, but Renjun seems like someone that wouldn’t care how his s/o dress, what language she speaks, the amount of makeup she wears and what background she may have. If he loves her that much he’s willing to do anything to reach out to her. I can imagine you two traveling a lot together having learning the history of each other’s hometown and meeting each other’s families. Of course they would love you both and share recipe's with each other cause Renjun has his dreamies to feed. Overall your adventures together would be good stories to tell to the future kids.

From Wayv, I ship you with…Winwin

Ouu your so lucky to be shipped with him. Although he may act like he doesn’t like being touched, teased, fill me up and loved, he can be a little needy sometimes. Beside both of your cute images, I can sense that your very clever and give your all in anything you do even though you two deserve the best treatment. SM GIVE WIN WIN LINES IN NEXT ALBUM THANKS UGH. The height difference I can already imagine is super adorbs! Lastly I can imagine him writing cute sticky notes on your desk to make the start of your day and end of your night so much better. Overall Winwin is a keeper. 

From Ateez, I ship you with…Seonghwa

He would be so bold with you. He might seem hard to approach at first, but he made the first move and the both of you exchanged compliments with each other. Of course you would run out because he can keep going all day. Seongwha would also be so affectionate probably the most affectionate member behind closed doors, but of course in public the most you will get is a pat on the head. He would try this adorable couple thing where he would match his color with your hijab. Lastly, whenever your sad, he would come close to your face, while your tears and kiss the tip of your nose singing to you until you feel better.

Ouuweee girl this is so hard there all such boyfriend material, but out of everyone I ship you the most with...Renjun✨🤍

Thanks so much honey for requesting and I hope this somewhat made your day/night.

[pudgecuddles]

Fic Recs!

Sorry this took a while to compile, but here you go, just in time for your birthday @chocochub!

I went ahead and tried to describe any triggers or reasons for the rating (sex vs. violence). I’m sorry if I missed anything that makes you uncomfy that‘s the last thing I want!

Also I got really sleepy around the time I was formatting this so sorry if there’s any errors with links, grammar, or trigger warnings. I’ve tried to be as thorough as I can, but many of these I’ve finished over a year ago and can’t recall every theme or possibly upsetting event :(

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Red Sky in Morning by GinForInk

Rating: E for Sex, Violence and Loss of Limb

Relationships: TaeJoon, YoonKook

Themes: Pirate AU, Curse AU, Adventure, Supernatural, Mystery, Horror

Summary: Captain Namjoon's cursed crew searches the Caribbean for a ship that can save them, and Namjoon's own men have more magic than they let on.

My notes: Even though there’s sex, it’s less smut and more romantic/stress relief than purposefully pornographic. Very heavy on Supernatural and Adventure. Characters are written very well! Definitely a favorite of mine.

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Hijacker’s Island by Gobi17

Rating: T for semi-graphic violence and attempted sexual assault from a villain.

Relationships: None

Themes: Hijack Gone Wrong, Plane Crash, Island Survival, Befriending the Baddies, Psychological Thriller, Mystery, Action

Summary: Jungkook's flight home ends in disaster as a group of hijackers take over the plane, and events quickly spiral out of control.

My Notes: I really loved this one. It was an interactive story where the audience was able to choose what choices Jungkook (the main character) would make. His survival depended on the answers, and I was on the edge of my seat the entire time. There is a lot of platonic character bonding, so no sex, however there is a bad guy that fixates on Kookie that later attempts to sexually assault him. If this is triggering to you please do not read.

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Butterfingers by jincherie

Rating: G

Relationships: RM/Reader

Themes: Co-workers, Teachers, Hybrids, Penguin-Hybrid Joon, Heavy Fluff, Penguin Courting uwu

Summary: He had you at the very first pebble he gave you.

My notes: Extremely cute. I’m not usually on for Reader fics as they’re usually rife with unneeded smut and OOC-ness, but I love Namjoon being an awkward, unusual Hybrid and I LOVE cute, animalistic behavior.

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Do Not Meddle In The Affairs Of Dragons, For You Are Crunchy And Taste Good With Ketchup by Runchrandom

Rating: T

Relationships: OT7, but Namjoon-centric

Themes: Supernatural, Humor, Crack treated seriously, part of a series, Dragon-Joon

Summary: In which Namjoon is a man who doesn't know what he wants, then accidentally figures it out while turning into a very large lizard.

My notes: Part of a very cute and funny series of Supernatural boyband BTS, navigating their inherent differences and similarities. Also lots of protective Dragon Namjoon taking good care of his Treasures UwU

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you have 1 new message by bazooka

Rating: T

Relationship: NamJin (my OTP)

Themes: Humor, Text Fic, Imbedded Pictures, Suspense/Mystery

Summary:

r u n c h r a n d a.

fuck

this is going to sound like the weirdest shit

okay look i used ur selcas to catfish and this older dude is gonna buy me stuff but i have to send him a selca with a peace sign

~ * ~ pingkeu jin ~ * ~

hahahahahahaha wtf

My notes: As someone who steers clear of text fics, this one I actually loved! Very funny and clever, the developing relationship between NamJin is hilarious. It also turns into a mystery/thriller???

(You can only read it if you have an Ao3 account as it’s locked to users only)

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Vending Machines and Bad Ideas by smiles

Rating: G

Themes: Blind Dates, Meet Cute, Humor, Rom-Com

Relationships: 2Seok

Summary: Hoseok needed to focus, regroup. He needed to evaluate the situation, weigh his options, and find a solution. He needed to work through this like the capable adult he was. He needed to get his hand out of this stupid vending machine.

My notes: 2Seok is a guilty pleasure of mine lol. This was cute, funny and sweet.

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Human by SunShineSwag

Rating: E for Graphic Violence, Many Murders, Sex, Mentions of Past Abuse and Temporary Character Death

Themes: Serial Killer/Dexter AU, Suspense/Mystery, Romance, Crime, Fluff, Hobi Teaches Yoongi How To Emotion™

Relationships: SOPE, NamJin, side VMinKook

Summary: During the day, Yoongi works for the police as a forensic expert.

But when night falls, he becomes a nightmare.

A serial killer.

My notes: Just finished this one and wow I’m so in love! It seems really intimidating from the tags and summary, but I swear it is also super ooey gooey soft and mushy. There is lots of angst, suspense and hurt/comfort, but with a very happy ending! I actually avoided this fic for a few months cause I didn’t think I was in the right headspace for something super dark, but it was actually quite fluffy.

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Jungkook’s House for the Wayward Werewolf by Rivertoforever

Rating: T for Non-Sexual Intimacy

Themes: Supernatural, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, slight Dom/sub dynamics, Werewolfs, Very Non-Traditional ABO, Asexual/Poly Relationship, Roomate AUish

Relationships: OT7 but very Jungkook-centric

Summary: Being the only human in a household of werewolves can lead to strange experiences, mixed signals, weird behaviour and a lap full of fur.

My notes: This is one of my favorite stories of all time! It’s unfortunately unfinished and has been for a while, so if you’re not a fan of WIPs this won’t be for you :( Otherwise, I reread it all the time! I remember loving the relationship and dynamic between the characters and how they were all very respectful of JK not wanting to be physical with them. A year later I discover I’m Ace! Haha! I consider this fic one of the many things that pushed me in the right direction. It’s very cute, fluffy and soft!

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[And uh... I considered putting this on the list before but thought it was a little too heavy on sex/smut so I took it off, but I’ll leave it here for you to decide. I think that the smut scenes in this fic aren’t necessarily there for “smexy cock fun times” and are more outright statements on gender equality, sociology, informed consent and healthy relationships. Hence why I’ve left it in!]

Mentoring on Marsa by FlyYouFools1

Rating: E for Sex, Firm Dub-Con, Discussion of Non-Con, Violence, Unhealthy Relationships

Themes: ABO, Technically Aliens?, Societal Differences, Culture Shock, Kind of Sugar Baby AU, Viva La Omegan Revolution, Teaching Alphas to Not Be Dicks™, One Big Fat Metaphor for Real Life Gender Discrimination and Systematic Abuse

Relationships: VMinKook, YoonJinNamSeok

Summary: Jungkook comes to the planet Marsa after being promised a full scholarship to Marsa National University. When the scholarship falls through, his academic advisor gives him the number for a mentoring service for newly stranded omegas on Marsa. With rent due, no way home, and no success in finding a job, Jungkook calls the number. The organization sends him Min Yoongi, a fellow omega who's been living on Marsa for 8 years. Yoongi teaches him how to survive. Jungkook's first attempt at survival is alpha couple Jimin and Taehyung.

My notes: This is the really long part one that just finished. It’s 50 chapters of emotional healing, statements on consent, character growth and sneaky omegas. I’m a huge fan of non-traditional ABO fics, and I love when sex is treated not as a “just cause I can”, but as an actual example of gender politics and relationship growth. If anyone is aspec, this might not be the story for you! But if you can mentally push past the idea of sex, I assure you it’s not “porn for the sake of porn”.

[seoultraveller]

Ah yeah that is good though :) Aside from writing I do paint now and again!! I go in periods with it, because it gets me tired loll and I was into painting more like a year ago and also more last year. But it’s a hobby I let myself be free with and visit when I have inspiration🥰 I was also into photography for a while, but I have fallen out of it a little ;(((

Hihi that’s good that’s good!! And I’ll gladly send pics/videos of San your way😏 YESS I really did like his longer/mullet kind of style, especially with the two colors!! Lol yes😂

MAKES ME SO HAPPY😭🥰 I try to make the readers feel something when they read my writings, so hearing this is great!! SOUNDS SO GOOD😍 Cake is amazing, and I can totally agree with your preference😌 Ahh but strawberry cake is also great, even if you couldn’t make carrot cake ;( Hmm... it really depends tbh. Lately I’ve found myself enjoying more savory food, but I’ve always loved to eat sweet things!!

Lovely sunshine Mingi🥺🥺 he has that power to capitare you, really! And Seonghwa🥺 beautiful man! Ahh really love this<3 Ateez really are great at capturing peoples interest and hearts, no matter which member~💕 Im glad you liked it🥰

Whew thank you! I need that support atm😪 I’m kind of stuck with all of my ongoing fics and I’m feeling quite insecure with my writing :(( I go in and out of these periods a lot, so I’m sure I’ll come back on top soon enough!! And I have to organize more, and stop being so lazy😂

I did actually know already hehe🥰 it’s all right though!! Omg you did, for all 8?! LOVE THAT💕🥰 I’ve always wanted to participate on Twitter, but I’m not too sure about posting my face where strangers can see :// Peachy Yunho best boy ever!!!!🥰💕😍✨

HAHAHAH you’re very welcome🤣 I’ll torture you more in the future :))) OHH RIGHT. BUT SAME. I didn’t remember him looking like that either😂😂

I disappeared from your ask box a while but I’m here!! How have you been??💕💖

That's so cool. You're such a creative person!!! When you were into photography, did you photograph landscapes, people, or other miscellaneous things? I've been wanting to try it but I don't have a creative eye for things, I just do whatever. There is no flair or creative process to many things that I pursue. It's amazing that you know how to let yourself go for your creativity!

I welcome any San content with open arms . Thank You!! ❤️

Yeah! I don’t know what it is, but it’s really easy to get comfortable with reading what you write. Especially the little time stamps. It’s easy to become nostalgic over it. Is there something or moments in life that inspire you to write or does your writing come about at spur-of-the-moment times? CAKE 🍰 truly is amazing!!! 😋 But I am so biased and have an enormous sweet tooth so maybe what I’m saying is not fair. But... cake, 😩😩😩 I’d have it every night after dinner if I could. That’s good though. Savory foods gives you the nutrition that you need to basically live in life. Sweets... they just don’t hold the substance enough to give you fuel to sustain you for the rest of the day.

You’ll get to it! I believe in you. Your timestamps are like practice, and you’re very good at those. 😉

Yeah~ I started to feel the same way. Like what if I decide to run for mayor one day (never going to happen) and someone digs up my ATEEZ stan account and finds my selca days with ATEEZ and clowns my cheesy captions. 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🙅🏾‍♀️🙅🏾‍♀️🙅🏾‍♀️ Couldn’t be me! [ But watch me post something for selca day in the summer of something... ]

Just as I was coming out of Yunho Loving Hours 💕💗 and San was capturing my heart ❤️, I fell back into it and I don’t know how. He is like... everything I want (to be). But, BRING ON THE TORTURE!!! 😈😈

Don’t worry, I disappeared too. I usually write and save a part of my response in a draft so I don’t lose any of my thoughts but I was just overwhelmed this week and this weekend. Or perhaps my priorities were out of order. 🤨

[untaemedqueen]

Peregrination > j.jk

Chapter 13.

intoxicate (v) -  (of alcoholic drink or a drug) cause (someone) to lose control of their faculties or behavior.

Jeongguk stands awkwardly, his hands clasped together in front of him as Jimin gets up, eyes narrowed at the both of you. "Did I just witness what I think I just witnessed?" You clear your throat and look at Jimin wearily. "I mean... I just... We.." Jeongguk stutters before looking down at the floor. Jimin goes wide eyed before copying Jeongguk's stutter. "We.. He... She... I mean... Just... Just what?!" He says loudly, you step forward. "Jimin, it's just that-." Jimin yells incoherently before putting his finger to his lips. "Jeongguk, did I just witness what I think I did?" He asks putting his hand up blocking your face from his vision. Jeongguk stands up straighter before picking his head up. "Yeah, Y/N's my girlfriend." Jeongguk says before giving you a smile. You look at Jimin as he assesses the information. You both stand with baited breath as Jimin looks at you both with his hand over his mouth. "We went to my parents and we just y'know got together." You say feeling your ears get hot. "You mean you defiled each other." Jeongguk side eyes you as Jimin slams himself back down on the couch. "So you're in a relationship then? None of that friends with benefits stuff?" You shake your head, "Y/N is my girlfriend." Jimin blinks once before tilting his head. "Cool! So what's for dinner? I'm starving!" He says standing up and walking past you. You look at Jeongguk as he looks at you wide eyed. "You can't like... Tell anyone. Or anything." You tell Jimin confused by his actions as he picks up the bags on the floor. "Marinated crabs? Hell yeah!" Jimin says happily putting the bags in Jeongguk's kitchen. "Yeah. Yeah. Whatever. Secret relationship until Y/N gets all pregnant because Jeongguk can't keep his peepee in his pants." Jimin mutter waving his hand as he digs through the bags. Jeongguk chuckles gently before kissing the top of your head. "I keep telling her to just let me give her a baby." Jeongguk says walking over and grabbing a water from the fridge. "Ew!" Jimin says putting down the pickled cucumbers. He looks up and shoves Jeongguk with a mouth full of food. "I'm eating! You nasty kid!" Jimin yells through his food. "Don't talk with your mouth full." You tease Chim as you sit down on the couch. Jimin swallows his food before running past Jeongguk and jumping on the couch next to you. "Just because your Kook's girlfriend doesn't mean you're going to abandon your best friends, right?" Jimin asks you with a cute pout. You snort before ruffling his hair. "Of course not, I love you guys." "But, you love me more right?" Jeongguk asks sitting on the other end of the couch. You give him a knowing smile making him chuckle. "Hyung, did you know that Y/N is moving in with me?" You open your mouth to refute Jeongguk's statement, "That's awesome! You guys will be able to hang out all the time. What about the house?" Jimin answers excited, you were taken aback by his excitement. Maybe it wasn't so far fetched then... "She's going to sell it and save the money for our babys tuition." "Yah!" You yell at Jeongguk as he chuckles quietly before sipping his water. "What's wrong with him?" Jimin asks looking at you with a laugh, "I don't know. He's ridiculous." You say making Jimin laugh. "He falls in love and he acts like a moron." Jimin jokes leaning back into the couch. "I didn't fall in love." Jeongguk says loudly making you snicker along with Jimin.

"Ah, are we hiding this from Tae?" Jimin asks as you three munch on fried chicken take out. "He has a big mouth, that hyung." Jeongguk says looking over at you. You nod understanding what he means. Taehyung can never keep his mouth shut even if he knew what is best for him. "Alright then, but it defeats the purpose of the key tattoo." Jimin mutters under his breath as he picks up a chicken wing. You make eye contact with Jeongguk and he shakes his head as if to tell you to let it go. "Well I'm happy you finally figured out that you were right for each other. I was getting so tired of how Jeongguk would look so longingly at you and then pussy out before saying anything." You snort choking on your cola. Jeongguk frowns deeply, "I did NOT!" He whines putting his head back. "Uh, yes. You did. I can attest to it." "Hyung." Jeongguk whines loudly, "It was kind of cute in a gross puppy dog kind of way. Kind of like how Y/N complained about being in love with you that one time while she was wasted." You cough loudly flapping your arms wildly. "I DID NOT!" You scream standing up. Jeongguk puts his tattooed hand in front of his mouth as he chuckles. "Oh really? Tell me about it." He says leaning in pulling the hood of his black hoodie up. You can't recall that memory, "I don't remember that so it didn't happen." You say folding your arms as you look down at Jimin. He scoffs before grabbing his beer and leaning back into the couch. "Just because you don't remember, doesn't mean it didn't happen. I remember that night really well." You roll your eyes as he takes a sip of his beer. "It was two years ago I think, or last year..."

You hop out of the cab with Jimin on your tail as you walk towards your house. Jeongguk was visiting his parents and brother in Busan but you missed him. It always felt like a part of you was missing if you didn't see him every day. "I'm so tired, why are schedules so constant influxed?" Jimin comments as you unlock your door. You were probably the only person in Korea to still use keys. It made you feel safer. "Well at least we have off for a few days." You reply taking off your shoes. Jimin does the same before running into the living room and jumping on the couch. "That's what I mean though, we have off for three days conescutively and then BAM Run BTS, practice for concert, practice for comeback, get our hair re-dyed, do commercials. I'm tired man." You pout as he sits up carding his fingerd through his blonde hair. "Hwaiting." You say walking through the living room and dining room before reaching your kitchen. "Red or white wine?" You call to Jimin. "White!" He replies as you grab two large stemmed wine glasses. "Is Taehyung coming over?" You ask pulling out your wine opener and the bottle of white wine. "He's going out with Yuna after the studio, he'll be here later." Jimin calls back, you give a nod to yourself before walking back out juggling everything easily. You sit back on the couch as Jimin leans forward opening the bottle up. "So, you missing Kookie yet?" Jimin asks nonchalantly as he pours you a glass of wine. You scoff loudly before rolling your eyes. "No! Why would you even ask that?" You say loudly, Jimin hands you the glass before smirking. "Okay, don't have to get so defensive." You grab the glass before narrowing your eyes at him. "I'm not being defensive." He hums in agreement before leaning back into your couch. "To friendship that last forever." Jimin says before smiling at you. "Cheers!" You say before clinking glasses with him and taking a sip. You stare off at the wall of collage pictures before tapping your finger against the cup of your glass. Jimin follows your gaze before smiling. "I like the picture from when we went to Jamaica for your birthday. Although you only have a picture of you and Jeongguk which makes me feel like the lame best friend, third wheel shitter." Jimin mumbles making you chuckle, "The picture of all eight of us is right there." You point to a picture of you all on the beach. "We took plenty of selcas that are not on that wall." Chim deadpans at you. You take a sip of your wine before clicking your teeth. "What are you trying to say, Chimmy?" He sighs loudly before pouting, "That you love Jeongguk more than me and Tae and you want to love him forever and make babies." You go wide eyed, "Shut up! I do not!" He purses his lips before folding his arms. "Yeah. Uh-huh. Whatever you say." You scoff before putting your feet up on the table. "Annoying ass." You mutter to him.

Yoongi and Taehyung finally arrived at your house after their time at the studio. You were drunk, beyond drunk actually. The proper term is black out. Yoongi watches you with his tongue to the roof of his mouth as he laughs at you. "How much have you had to drink?" He asks as you throw yourself onto the couch. "Enough Min Min, enough." You say putting your finger to your numb lips before giggling, Jimin watches you with humourous delight as he runs his fingers through his hair. "She's been like this for an hour already." Jimin tells them, Yoongi lets out a chuckle before sipping on his wine. "Why are you drinking so much anyway?" Taehyung asks lifting your head on to his lap. You stare at the ceiling as the room spins before shutting your eyes. "Because I wanted to, okay?" You snap putting your hand over your eyes. "Ew. Rude. Fine." Taehyung mumbles folding his arms and pouting. "There has to be some reason behind it." Jimin mumbles to Yoongi, you look over at him quickly before huffing out loudly. "I'll tell you but it's a secret. Like, a secret secret." You say sitting up and sticking out your pinky as Jimin sways in your view. He grips your pinky before smirking, you being drunk was always so funny to him. He always thought it was adorable. "I promise." He says leaning in and looking you with a big smile, eyes closed and all teeth. "I miss him." You whisper, he looks over at Taehyung quickly and Taehyung lets out a silent snort as he covers his mouth. "Who?" Yoongi asks getting nosy as he leans in. "You know who!" You yell throwing your head back as if you were about to have a tantrum. "You have to be specific." Taehyung says before widening his eyes as you throw yourself back. "You know, that really cute kid we helped raise to be one of the most handsome, down to Earth, kindest boys out there." Yoongi clears his throat leaning back letting Jimin's small body block him as he laughs silently shutting his eyes. Everyone could see what effect you have on Jeongguk but no one has ever seen you acting like this before. "He just left me all alone and went all the way home without me. Like I don't know his parents! Or his brother! You know? I-I-I should have been invited! But. He left and now I'm just sad because I just wanna hug and watch that stupid fucking t.v. show he likes that I've seen seven times over." You ramble, Taehyung takes a big sip of his wine as if motioning he was sipping tea. "Uh-huh." Jimin goads you on, "Right? And I mean like yeah! You're so hot! But, also you're my best friend? Right? Like back off! Don't fucking look at me like you want to fuck me!" Yoongi chokes on his wine before hurling forward and coughing loudly. Jimin and Taehyung stay silent as they stare at each other with humour alight in their eyes. "So what if I kind of love you but don't say anything?" Their eyes widen as they look in any other direction from you as you rant waving your hands wildly. "You would think he would be a man and make a move already but that would ruin our friendship and that's what's most important or whatever!" You yell smacking yourself in the forehead as you rock front to back. Taehyung opens his mouth to speak as you fall back closing your eyes. "Jeon Jeongguk! I LOVE YOU. OKAY? ARE YOU HAPPY? YOU CAN GO BACK TO BEING MY BEST FRIEND! I'LL NEVER DATE YOU! HAPPY NOW? YOU HANDSOME LITTLE PRICK!" You scream loudly to the silent house. Yoongi scratches at his head with an awkward smile before looking over at you. "Do you mean that? Do you really love our Kookie?" He asks happily, you don't respond. "Y/N?" Taehyung asks shaking your shoulder, you fall over to your right, mouth open ajar as you sleep. "Well then." Yoongi says with a laugh as he drinks his wine. "Time to watch the be frustrated over each other until they either die or get together." Jimin says raising his wine glass with a laugh as the rest of the guys clink their glasses to his.

"THAT DID NOT HAPPEN!" You scream standing up quickly, Jimin gives you a cheshire cat smile raising his eyebrows. You scoff folding your arms. "Aw, you had such a crush on me. Didn't you baby?" Jeongguk asks cutely throwing his feet up on his coffee table. "NO!" You roar making Jeongguk chuckle, "Who do you think is going to say I love you first, hyung?" Jeongguk asks with a small smile. Jimin looks the both of you over before snorting. "I think it'll be you, Kook." Jeongguk smiles before putting his hands behind his head. "Oh don't worry. I'll make her say it first." You narrow your eyes at your hot boyfriend. "We'll just see about that." You remark smugly as you sit back down on the couch. This is war.

[namjuicyy]

A Father’s Love - Chapter Four

Masterlist | Requests are open.

Genre: Angst, fluff, smut.

Genre of this part: Fluff, smut.

Word Count: 3.5k.

Summary: Single father, Namjoon, struggles to keep his idol life and his private life separate. When he meets you, everything changes.

Warnings: semi-public sex, fingering, unprotected sex, studio sex, fluffy sex on his sofa.

Namjoon's life, as you'd come to figure out, was dictated by a small digital screen that would send alerts to him telling him what his plans were for the day. His calendar app, along with his favourite music app, were the only two squares on his phone that hadn't been put into a folder for the neat aesthetic. And the chance for him to put a selca of himself and his son as a wallpaper and be able to see it whenever he unlocked his phone, of course. But, Tuesdays and Fridays were your nights. Nights where, regardless of distance or business, time was set aside for the both of you to hang out. Three of the four days dedicated solely to you, you also shared Namjoon with Haneul. Not that you minded, given that, even when he threw tantrums, he was the sweetest boy alive. A trait he must have inherited from his father.

This Friday, however, it seemed to just be you and Namjoon, favouring a date at the cinema for... a date in his studio.

"___, I'm so sorry." He said frantically over the phone. "I didn't want to cancel on you, I really didn't. It's just we're planning a comeback in the spring and a comeback requires an album and an album needs writing and I'm already so behind as it is."

"Lack of inspiration or lack of time?" You'd asked trying to cheer him up.

"It's certainly not lack of inspiration," he told you, "I seem to have found myself a new muse."

"Oh smooth, Joonie. Smooth." You giggled.

"Yeah, next door's cat is really soft and squishy. I think I'm in love, ___. That calico... man. It really gets me, you know?"

"Sure it does. Just... out of curiosity... what kind of takeout do you prefer? Italian, Indian or Chinese?"

Namjoon chuckled. "Curiosity killed the cat you know."

"If that thing dies, you can't hold me responsible for it! I won't be blamed for the fall of Bangtan Sonyeon-whatever it is you youngsters call yourselves these days."

You'd come to learn, in the past week or so, that Namjoon's band was a lot more successful than you thought it was. Turns out you had seen Namjoon's face around before, and you did know who he was. But for some reason your brain didn't twig that your Namjoon was international pop/rap sensation... Rap Monster... of BTS. You'd even listened to some of his music before, and enjoyed it a lot. Not that you'd be able to call yourself part of Army or anything. When you learnt about this, you simply shrugged your shoulders and just let it skate over your head, something that surprised Namjoon. No one had ever been this indifferent to his career before, yet there you were, snuggling up to him on the couch, playing with his son's hair absent-mindedly as the Korean dubbed version of Disney Pixar's Cars played on the television. Namjoon really tried not to get attached to you. He honestly tried his hardest. He'd seen all the problems his dongsaengs had gone through whenever they'd even breathed in the same direction as a woman, and knew that if the press ever got wind of you, things would change for the worse. Thankfully, his previous relationship and his son were able to remain in the dark. For five years he'd managed to separate his family and his work, and he was proud of himself for that. But times were changing. He wasn't as in the spotlight then as he was now. But despite knowing all of this, he still found his heart swelling every time he looked at you and Haneul playing, or laughing, or just getting along perfectly. It seemed almost too good to be true.

"As long as there's lots and lots of meat, jagi, I'm fine with anything."

Jagi. The Korean term for sweetheart. A term you never thought you'd hear in regards to you, but there it was. The first time he'd called you that and you loved it instantly. You smiled to yourself brightly, thankful that your pathetic appearance wasn't caught by God's best creation so he could tease you about it later on.

You followed his sister's directions to the Big Hit building, where Namjoon's studio was, holding the bags of takeout in your hands. South Korea, Seoul especially, was known for its amazing takeout delivery service, and how, even if you were sat on the banks of the Han River, their drivers would find you and deliver your favourite meal. But there was something about carrying your food back to wherever it was you were eating that reminded you of your childhood, and you'd always prefer suffering the cold noodles, or fries, for the feeling of charging in from the harsh weather and declaring that your bollocks had frozen off from the storm. Which is what you did as soon as you burst through the door of MonStudio and shook the cold off your body, plopping the copious amounts of food down on the tiny, black sofa at the back of the room. Or was it the front? You couldn't tell really.

Namjoon turned around and his expression changed from downright annoyance to shock. Clearly you were the last person he expected to see, despite the fact that you'd flat out asked him what his favourite takeout was. For someone who's IQ was so high, he was so slow in social situations. A trait you found more endearing than annoying. At least for the time being.

"You didn't tell me what you preferred, so I just brought everything." You announced proudly, removing your outerwear and staring at the bags of food. "The light pink bag is Indian, the paper bag is pizza and a bit of pasta, the white bag is our favourites from that BBQ we went to a couple of weeks ago and this," you held up an even larger paper bag with an instantly recognisable, bright yellow logo in the shape of a curvy M, "is filled with nothing but saturated fats and heart disease in a bag but if I'm gonna go, it'll be at the hands of a Big Mac and fries larger than my head."

Namjoon laughed, stood and walked behind you so he could wrap his long arms around your waist. "You are too good to be true." He rested his chin on your shoulder and swayed the both of you gently.

"Wait until you get to know me." You joked. He kissed your shoulder. "Now," you tapped his hands that were linked and resting on your tummy, "are you going to eat this food? Or are you just going to let it sit there and grease your sofa as it gets colder and colder?"

He grabbed hold of some bags. "Come with me, we'll eat in the kitchen."

You watched Namjoon walk out of his studio and down the little corridor. "There's a kitchen?" You asked, following him.

There was, in fact, a kitchen. A big one. Overwhelmingly grey and a mixture of homey and canteen-y. The kitchen units weren't too dissimilar to yours, save for the fact that they were newer and didn't have a weird brown stain on them that was there when you moved in and was stubborn enough to not move. Three of the four walls were basically glass, looking out onto the hustle and bustle of Gangnam's nightlife, and in front of each table was a row of grey, smooth tables that resembled modern picnic benches.

You heard the familiar buzz of a microwave whirring to life and your heart sang. You set the bagged food on one of the counters and stared at Namjoon with a soft look in your eyes. "You have a microwave. You're so domestic."

Namjoon laughed. "Please, using a microwave and a kettle is about the only thing I can do in the kitchen."

"Oh. Well, there goes all my hopes and dreams of marrying you then."

"We've found your deal breaker."

"We have indeed. Enjoy your food, I'm off to marry a chef."

"Who's going to break this news to Haneul?"

You came storming back into the kitchen after your dramatic exit. "No! We're only two weeks into this. You can't start emotionally manipulating me using your child!"

When the food had all been warmed, you chose one of the tables in the middle of the largest window and set up camp there, laying all the food out neatly with the proper utensils so you could grab and munch. The conversation never died. It always seemed to flow so easily with Namjoon. When you weren't joking, you were having serious conversations with each other and just generally enjoying each other's company.

While Namjoon threw away the now, completely empty, takeout packets, you took it upon yourself to wash up the plates and the cutlery you all use. You didn't hear Namjoon return, all you felt was his arms snake and lock around your waist again, this time a little tighter than before. His lips immediately went to your shoulder, peppering light kisses on it before leading up to your ear. You could feel the atmosphere had changed from before. There was something heavy hanging over you, and it wasn't Namjoon.

"Someone's affectionate." You commented.

He just hummed in response to you, continuing to kiss your hair and hold you from behind. As you turned to look at him over your shoulder, his lips caught yours in a gentle kiss that soon turned into more. His tongue was in your mouth, his hands turning you so you were facing him and your arse pressed up against the counter, pinned there by his body. You could feel his cock growing the more heated the kiss got, the tighter his grip on you became. You couldn't catch your breath. You felt like you'd been running a marathon in the hottest of weathers. Every touch of his skin on yours burned into you and melted straight into your soul. Every lick of his tongue sent electricity into your veins, resurrecting anything dead within you and bringing it to the youth of life.

He pushed you further into the counter, forcing you to sit yourself up onto it and spread your legs, allowing him to slot in between them like a puzzle piece. Your clothed centre was now level with his, and it rubbed deliciously against yours until.

BANG.

"Fuck!"

Namjoon doubled over in pain.

"What happened!?"

"Ah shit, I came in too quickly and whacked my knee on the cupboard."

You laughed. "Namjoon!"

"Don't laugh at me. I'm in pain." He came back in closer to you, much slower this time, and started kissing you again. His lips were attached to your neck this time, though.

"Shame you didn't hit your dick. I would have kissed it better for you."

Namjoon stopped kissing you, and lifted his head so he could look into your eyes. His brown ones, hooded and full of lust, were hiding the cogs turning in his brain. He put his hand over his crotch. "Ow! I hit my dick too! Ow it hurts!"

"Well, I'm certainly not doing it now that you're faking it."

Namjoon smirked. "Fine. I had other plans for you, anyway."

You wanted to ask him what those plans were, but his lips stopped you from speaking. His hands travelled up your jeans and made quick work at pulling them halfway down your thighs. He kissed your neck, tongue licking at your skin. You almost forgot where his hands were until you felt them dip into your panties and start rubbing your clit with his thumb, causing you to moan out loud. Much louder than you anticipated, actually, shocking the both of you as your noise bounced off the walls. He added pressure, rubbing a little faster and watching your face as he did, a shit-eating grin on his lips and his pupils blown out. This was the first time you were seeing him like this, this whole other side of him that you didn't even imagine was there. He'd always seemed so soft before. And you certainly didn't expect –

"Fuck! Namjoon." You couldn't control the noises coming out of your mouth as he slipped two of his longest fingers into you're your incredibly wet hole. He tapped up straight away, and began a relentless pace making you squelch beneath him, his palm grazing your clit in a repeated manner, adding that extra layer of euphoria. You watched his face as he continued to pleasure you, you saw how he was almost mimicking your expressions, but in a taunting way. As if he was telling you that it was him making you feel this good. This sudden cockiness was so alluring, and despite how awkward you would have felt with any other man, you couldn't tear your eyes away.

He could feel you getting tighter around his fingers, he could hear how laboured your breathing had become. He knew you were close. "You gonna cum for me, angel?" He asked. You nodded, completely helpless beneath him.

"Namjoon-ah?"

Your head immediately snapped to the wall a few feet away, where, behind it, was the door to the kitchen that you'd forgotten to close when you entered. That voice that shouted Namjoon's name was deep, and certainly wasn't yours. You thought you were alone in the building but apparently not.

"Suga-hyung?" Namjoon replied, completely unphased and unrelenting. You covered your mouth in an attempt to stop your whimpers, but all it did was soften them. You were too close to remain completely quiet, and Namjoon was determined to get you there.

"Where are you?" The voice asked.

"In the kitchen." You could hear the footsteps coming towards you. Your eyes widened. "Cum, angel." Namjoon ordered. You felt his fingers move faster. It was only a matter of time. 'Suga' was only a few meters away at this point and your orgasm was on the brink of tearing you in two.

Coming.

Coming....

Your hands gripped into Namjoon's shoulders as you came, holding your breath and shutting your eyes tightly. You could feel him everywhere, inside you, around you. All you could smell was him, hear was his breathing. Your brain was complete mush, not processing what needed to be done as you were coming back to reality. With his one, dry hand, he was tugging your jeans back up your leg, begging you silently to come to your senses, which you did when you heard Suga's whistling. While Namjoon washed his hands frantically in the sink, you hopped off the counter and pulled your jeans back up, only finishing zipping them as the man walked in the room.

He was short, and stopped moving as soon as he saw you. He was confused. "Hyung, this is ___. ___, this is Min Yoongi, a housemate and member of my band."

"Oh." You replied. "It's nice to meet you!"

"You too." Yoongi answered. "So you're the infamous ___. It's bad enough that Haneul bangs on about you but Namjoon literally doesn't stop talking about you. You seem to have infiltrated the hearts of the Ilsan Kim's." He started to pour himself a coffee.

"I hope he hasn't been getting on your nerves too much." You joked.

"He always does. You'll get used to it." He smiled, flashing you both an adorable gummy smile. His eyes never left Namjoon though, and sparkled with a glint of mischief. "Oh, and uh, next time you two want to fuck, please make sure you don't do it where we all eat. It stinks of sex in here. Have a nice night."

As he left, you could hear him chuckling to himself. Namjoon's face had turned bright red, and when you both locked eyes with one another you burst out into laughter. You were so embarrassed but at the same time you still felt this pull to Namjoon, despite the interruptions. So, you wrapped your arms around his waist, pulled him towards you, and whispered, "maybe we should finish this in the studio?"

"You read my mind."

You could barely keep your hands off one another on your way back to Namjoon's studio, your lips meeting every so often and your back pressed up against the wall as his tongue slipped down your throat. By the time you were in his studio, both your shirts were off, and were thrown to one side the minute you stepped inside, and your jeans had been unbuttoned and unzipped and were being tugged off your legs by you as Namjoon shut the door. You both fell on his sofa, his crotch rubbing against your soaked underwear as he kissed you again for the millionth time that night. His hands roamed the entire length of your body, only to pull your panties off you. He stopped and rolled his eyes. "Shit!"

"What?"

"I don't have any condoms in my studio."

"Are you clean?"

"Yeah."

"Good. Me too."

"Are you suggesting...?"

"Just get inside me, Joon." You demanded. Your ankles were pushing into his clothed ass, pulling him closer to you. You needed him inside you just as much as he needed to be inside you. He undone his jeans and pulled his cock out. He was too wound up to pull the rest of his clothes off properly, he just wanted to feel you.

"Tell me if you ever feel uncomfortable."

You nodded and waited for that sweet burn. You knew he would stretch you out so good, and you were right. Eye contact remained as he started to push into you, stretching your walls as he intruded, not fast enough to really hurt you, but fast enough for his impatience to be kept at bay. Within seconds, he'd bottomed out, his eyes had rolled back into his head and he'd groaned so loudly, you were grateful for the soundproof room. His voice wasn't the only one filling the room, as you whimpered at the feel of his length really hitting all the best places, despite the fact he'd not even begun to fuck you yet.

He'd wanted this since he met you. Maybe not quite as rushed as this, and way more romantic. In his bed, candles everywhere, R&B in the background as he literally made love to you. But on his sofa in his studio was good enough at the time. His head fell to your chest, still caged in your bra.

"You can move, Joon."

"I can't. I'll cum if I move."

You giggled, scratching at his scalp. He pulled out, then pushed back in gently making you both groan. "Fuck." He cursed. He did it again, his head still buried in his chest. This time, his thrust back inside you was harder, and they kept getting harder until you were practically tearing the couch with your nails trying to grip hold of something, anything, to tether you to reality.

His speed picked up, his moans got louder. He was, somehow, much louder than you, a feat you never thought anyone could achieve but there he was, pounding into you at a merciless rate and letting the whole world know what he was doing. Even when he kissed you, he was still groaning.

"You feel too damn good, f-fuck."

Your nails dug into his back as he made the sofa rock against the carpet. He sat back onto his knees so he could move into you faster. He gripped your waist and watched your hand snake down to your clit. He bit his lip at the sight in front of him, you, sprawled out in his studio, your hand on your pussy and his cock slamming into you. It was almost too much to bear. "That's it, angel." He praised. "Touch yourself for me. Fuck. You look so good right now."

A thin sheen of sweat coated his entire body. His brows furrowed. He looked like a living piece of art. Overwhelmed, you began to shake, tightening around him accidentally, making him lose his mind.

"You... have to cum... first." He said.

It didn't take you long to do as he said, your second orgasm hitting you like a double decker bus. You screamed as your fingers moved faster against your clit in an attempt to keep up with both Namjoon's cock and your own orgasm. And, as you were finishing, Namjoon pulled out, shooting his release all over your tummy with his lip in between his teeth and an animalistic growl erupting from his throat.

Breathing. That was all you could hear in the studio as the two of you recovered. Namjoon collapsed at the opposite end of the sofa, his hands running through his hair and his lips bitten red raw. You felt cold, empty, but so incredibly satisfied.

When his legs had regained at least half of their strength, he walked over to the tissue box on his desk and wiped his cum off your skin. You didn't realise just how much there was of it until you actually sat up to watch him move. "I think you're even further behind with your work now." You commented.

Namjoon chuckled. "Worth every second."

He was so cheesy, even after almost destroying you. You could tell that this was going to be one hell of a relationship.

[featherypromises]

Rp transcription part 5: Fever dreams

Jungkook seemed to be in a dark place. In a haze he saw Taehyung in front of him. He was wrapped in the arms of another person who's face he couldn't see. He kissed the figure passionately and turned to smirk at Jungkook with a mockingly raised eyebrow. 'Why would I ever want to be with someone like you? Please grow up!' Taehyung turned and walked away fading into blackness. 

'NO!' He cried, beating his hands against an invisible barrier that separated him from Tae. If he could just explain... but he couldn't even hear him now, 

"Tae..." he moaned, twisting the sheets and kicking free of the blankets, "Tae... come back! I love you!"

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Taehyung went inside the room and was instantly surprised to find the younger thrashing and screaming. He swore under his breath and ran to Jungkook. 

The younger's words confused Taehyung. W-What did he mean? Why was he saying that he loved him? What was going on?! 

Regardless, Taehyung pulled Jungkook into his arms and gently rocked him back and forth. "Shhh, bunny, shhh... It's just a nightmare, baby, wake up."

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Jungkook opened teary eyes and saw Taehyung above him. He gasped breathlessly and began to sob "I'm sorry" again and again into his hyung's chest. He clutched at the older man as though he might turn to vapor before his eyes and slip away.

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Taehyung rubbed Jungkook's back soothingly and cooed slightly. "Aww, bunny, no~ It's okay, it was just a nightmare~ Don't cry~"

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Jungkook hiccupped trying to stop the panicky sobs. The parting words of the nightmare Taehyung were ringing in his ears. 'Please grow up!' He crammed a clenched fist against his mouth keeping it shut and tried to breathe through his nose. It was too stuffy so he shook as he tried to breathe slowly. "I-I'm s-sorry. I sh-shouldn't get so upset over a st-stupid nightmare."

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"No, no, honey, it's fine. Everyone is allowed to get upset over nightmares, besides, you've got a bad fever. Those always make nightmares worse." He said softly. He just wanted Jungkook to smile and feel better again.

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Jungkook swiped roughly at his eyes with the backs of his hands, and took a few more deep breaths to compose himself. He nodded quickly, only halfway taking the words to heart.

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Taehyung sighed. "Hold on, let me take your temperature..." He mumbled. He'd brought the thermometer with him, so he took it from the bedside table and placed it under Jungkook's tongue.

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The awkward device beeped and Jungkook pulled it out, blinking at the numbers, 38.7. At least he knew why his head hurt now. He sniffled congestedly, feeling stiff and achy. He rubbed at his nose and cringed when it made a squishing sound under his fist.

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Taehyung gulped and pulled out his phone to text Namjoon.

[Tae: kook's temp is 38.7°... hyung this is bad... and he had a nightmare a few mins ago... idk what to do]

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Rapmon's phone buzzed again. He pulled it out holding up his pointer finger at Yoongi before stepping out of the studio. As he read the text, he cringed. "Poor Kid,..." he typed out a question that a doctor had asked him over the phone when Hobi was sick with pneumonia. [RM: Poor guy... is he sweating or is his skin dry and hot?]

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Taehyung glanced over to Jungkook and pressed the back of his hand against Jungkook's cheek to check.

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Jungkook leaned into the hand, it felt soft and smooth. Immediately he grew self conscious. He felt gross and was sweating. He was sure Taehyung would be grossed out by him like this.

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Taehyung sighed and pouted in sympathy. The younger looked so tired and sick. 

He kept his hand where it was and texted Namjoon again.

[Tae: hes sweating]

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[RM: Ok, that's the silver lining here, Tae-Tae. The sweat needs to come off, either a lukewarm shower or bath or a wet cloth if he can't be safe in the bathroom alone. This means his temperature will come down pretty soon, at least a little. Try to get some fever reducers in him. He will probably need a change of clothes too. Do you want me to come back to the house?]

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Taehyung took a deep breath as he took all the information in. 

[Tae: alright, I'll start the water in the bathroom. u can stay there, i'll be fine :)]

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[RM: ok, I trust u, Tae. If something changes, & u need me, just let me know.] 

Jungkook looked at Taehyung studying his phone's screen and had seen him typing away at warp speed.  He cocked his head to one side, a little curious. 

"Who are you talking with, Hyung?" The maknae rubbed at his nose again. The congestion was uncomfortable.

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"Just Namjoon-hyung." He answered with a small smile. "Stay here, I'm gonna go start the water in the bathroom so you can take a bath, okay?" He said, getting up.

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Jungkook gave him a small shy smile and nodded. 

"Thank you, hyung, for everything. I can do it though, you still aren't feeling well either. " he sniffled, trying to breathe. He leaned over and got a few tissues, blowing his nose, emptying first one nostril (with a pop in his ear that made him wince under the tissue) then the other. His nose was pink and irritated looking, but he could breathe a bit better.

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Taehyung sighed. "Kook, don't worry about me, okay? Sure, I'm not feeling well, but you're feeling worse than me. So let me help you, okay?" He said, rubbing Jungkook's shoulder soothingly.

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Jungkook bit his lip. He was worried, he couldn't help himself. Even if Taehyung never... loved Jungkook the same way that the younger man loved his hyung. 

He paused. He loved Taehyung. He suddenly realized that what he felt was love.

He went beet red and looked carefully at the designs on the comforter with significantly more focus than he had ever done before.

Oh geez, what the heck should he do now?

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Taehyung noticed his flushed cheeks but mistook it for something related to how sick he was. He sighed and, without thinking, pressed a small kiss to Jungkook's head. He pulled back, blushing profusely and smiling. "Wait here, I'll come get you when the bath is done."

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Jungkook was absolutely stunned. Oh, and how unbelievably handsome his hyung looked at that moment with the slight pinkish hue on his cheeks and a shy smile. 

It almost undid Jungkook completely. His cheeks felt like they would catch on fire. Only sheer willpower kept him upright.

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Taehyung went to the bathroom, a bright smile on his face. He started the water and hummed happily to himself.

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When Taehyung left, Jungkook let himself fall back onto the bed, bouncing slightly as the mattress adjusted. 

What was that...?!? He had finally lost it... or the fever was making him hallucinate! But he had felt it. The softest exhale and the most tender kiss. 

He cupped his scarlet face with his hands. Oh good grief... now he was really torn. This kiss was sweet, maybe it was just a affectionate, caring hyung doting on the youngest member...

But then... why the blush?... 

Until now, he would never have even dared to hope that Taehyung felt anything close to romantic love for him. Could it be possible? Had he save Korea in another lifetime to get that lucky? 

He decided to wait and see. He was still too uncertain to say anything one way or another. He had no clue that he had already said the words to Taehyung that he wanted to tell him more than anything else in this world. I love you.

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As the bath filled up, Taehyung pondered about, well, Jungkook. It hurt him to know that he'd caused the younger to get sick.

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Jungkook shook himself out of his runaway thoughts. He pulled himself into a sitting position slowly and swung his legs over the edge of the bed. He was still in the same clothes from the previous day, and they clung to him uncomfortably. He would get a fresh set for after the bath from his room. 

He stood with an effort, his achy joints protesting. He kept one hand on the wall and walked slowly down the hall to his room. He went over to his dresser and pulled out a t-shirt and a soft pair of plaid pjs pants. He set the new clothes on the bed and went to his closet to get the sweatshirt.  On the closet door were selca pictures of him with the other members. His eyes landed on one of him and Tae when they were younger. He pulled it down and looked at it feeling nostalgic and happy.

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Taehyung came back into the living room. "Kookie, the bath is-" He trailed off when he saw that Jungkook was there and panicked. "Jungkook!?" He called frantically.

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Jungkook heard his name being called. He try to respond by shouting, but his throat failed him at the worst possible time, and he began to cough instead. 

Trying to catch his breath between coughs, he sat on the edge of his bed, coughing into a closed fist.

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Taehyung swore under his breath and started to look around the house, calling Jungkook's name as he went.

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Jungkook heard Taehyung's voice again, this time he heard the emotion behind his name, was that anger... or fear? Oh, he hadn't told Tae where he was. His eyes watered as he struggled to take a full breath. At last he managed a fairly loud, "M'Here!" before he was coughing and sputtering again.

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Taehyung let out a small sigh of relief and a, "Oh thank god," before rushing to Jungkook's room and wrapping him in a hug. "Aww, honey, just breathe, okay?"

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Jungkook's eyes were teary as he struggled to control his body. At last, he whispered a hoarse,

"M'okay..." he coughed twice more, "sorry..." he gave Taehyung the smallest smile, feeling terrible for scaring his hyung. He reached up with the hand he hadn't coughed on and raised it to Taehyung's cheek cupping it in his hand; stroking it gently with his thumb.

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Taehyung sighed and pouted slightly. "You really aren't feeling good, are you, bunny?" He sympathized.

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As if drawn in by a tractor beam, the younger man's hand moved to Taehyung's chin and his thumb moved over the older man's lips, smoothing the pout away. 

His voice was hoarse and deepened by the coughing fit, but he was smiling as he looked into the smaller man's eyes.

"None of that..." he said gently, "this was my choice, and I would make the same choices again in a heartbeat. I knew I'd get sick, but being sick with you is a thousand times better than letting you deal with this alone."

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Taehyung smiled softly his cheeks and ears burning red from Jungkook's actions. "I don't know about that, Kookie. Would you seriously rather go through his nasty virus that laze away and be able to properly breath without having to worry about sneezing or coughing or.. anything?" He questioned.

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"Only if you got the same chance. Like I said, I hate to see you hurting, Taehyung. Sick or healthy as long as it is with you, it's all I could want."

Jungkook smiled and looked down, before adding "No guilt-tripping yourself about this..." The maknae's face was inches away from Taehyung's and looked up into Taehyung's blushing face, his large eyes held wells of emotion and an unspoken question.

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Taehyung swallowed, his cheeks flushing bright red and his eyes wide. The temptation to kiss him was strong. So strong. But... Jungkook had a fever. He didn't want to take advantage of that.

With a shaky sigh, he said, "I won't. Now come on, the bath is ready."

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Jungkook sighed. He had hoped and those hopes were still there, a bit dented, but there. He was not as cautious as he should have been but the older man hadn't pushed him away or told him to stop. That small victory was enough for now. He got up slowly and collected the clothes and the photo and followed Taehyung down the hall.

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Taehyung looped his arm around Jungkook gently and squeezed, hoping against hope that the small action would convey the millions of words he couldn't bring himself to say.

When they reached the bathroom, he turned around and gestured for Jungkook to take off his clothes and get in the tub.

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The gentle sign of affection from Taehyung encouraged him... but even Jungkook's courage had limits. Especially when they entered the bathroom and Tae turned away and motioned for him to get undressed. 

Now he felt his face getting redder and redder, the more he thought of it, the worse it got. He stammered, his voice cracked, and he wanted to sink into the cracks in the linoleum.

"H-Here?!? But... oh, geez..."

He looked down at the floor.

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"I-I can leave if you want... I just wanted to s-stay in case something h-happened and... yeah..." He muttered awkwardly, blushing bright red.

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"N-n-no... I understand. Thank you, h-hyung. I'm sorry to put you through this." He swallowed with difficulty and pulled his flannel shirt off revealing the t-shirt. Next he pulled the t-shirt over his head causing his hair to flop into his eyes. He shook his head to move it, as he normally would and regretted it instantly. His vision blurred as his body objected to the fast movement. His knees buckled and he fell none too gently on his bottom with thump. This was why Tae had asked to stay. Because he was too shaky to be on his own. Jungkook blushed with shame.

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Taehyung gasped and, despite the fact that Jungkook was shirtless in front of him, ran to the younger's side and helped him back up. "Are you alright? Are you hurt? Did something bad happen?" He asked, concern evident in his voice and features.

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"No, I just was dumb and got a little dizzy. Only my pride is hurt.." He said, "Sorry for scaring you.

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Taehyung breathed out a sigh of relief and smiled. "It's fine, I'm just glad you're okay." He sat Jungkook down on the lid of the toilet seat. "Change here, it might help with the dizziness."

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He tugged the sweat pants down and off leaving him in just his boxers, shivering.  

What would happen if he removed those and fell again?!? He didn't think he could cope. Instead, he said, 

"I'm going to leave my boxers on, just in case,... I mean... if I fall or slip and you have to,... it's just like a swim suit right?"

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"Alright... Can I turn around?" He asked quietly.

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Jungkook swallowed, turning pink. 

"Y-yes..."

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Taehyung took a deep breath and turned around. He willed himself not to pay much attention to how toned Jungkook was and helped him into the bath.

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Jungkook was shivering from nerves and the cool air on his skin. The water would probably have felt warm to a person without a fever, but Jungkook bit his lip as his skin blossomed with goosebumps. He slowly lowered into the water with help from Taehyung and tried not to whine.

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Taehyung sighed when noticing this and bit his lip. "Your fever must be really high..." He mumbled to himself. 

"Okay! So, um, here's how this is going to work.." He started awkwardly. "I guess I'll take the shower head and.. uh.. wash you down so that all the sweat comes off you, and then if you want to lather yourself? U-Um... Unless you need me to help, of course..." He rambled, speaking fast the whole time.

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Jungkook felt his teeth chatter a bit. He needed help. He hated that he did, but he couldn't risk injury at this point

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Taehyung frowned and put his hand into the water. It wasn't cold at all. This really worried him.

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"I-I'll be alright... I can get my arms and front but I can't really get the back of me without feeling dizzy." Jungkook smiled at Taehyung in spite of himself. The quicker they finished the sooner he could dry off and get into clean warm pjs.

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Taehyung took a deep breath and nodded, smiling back. "Alright, I'll wait." He sat down on the lid of the toilet seat and pulled out his phone.

[wonderingarmy]

Prince Jeon Jungkook Part 3

Links - Part 1   Part 2

It’s been a couple months since Jungkook last talk to you. The other members’ relationship with their other halves seems to be getting better except for him. He knows he f*cked up so much that he doesn’t even know how to apologize or if you’ll even forgive him. The day after the confrontation, you submitted your two weeks notice. You tried to finish editing all of the BTS’ RUN episodes that’s under your direction and a music video. Jungkook tried to reach you, but you begged Bang PD to have him stay away from you, which he understood. He tried to call you many times, but you blocked him. He also tried to go to your place, but you don’t live there anymore.

“You should try to focus more on the tour Jungkook-ah”, RM told Jungkook after noticing that he’s giving himself a hard time. Working out extra, tiring himself out and barely eating.

“I’ll be okay Namjoon-hyung.”, he replied. “I am just really trying hard to get her off of my mind. And it’s really hard. I know I messed up so much. I am just really disappointed of myself. I can’t believe I did that to her. I wasn’t thinking hyung. I should’ve listened to Jimin-hyung. To everyone.”

“We all make mistakes, stupid mistakes. I mean, yours was really really, way stupid. But, you know what? At least you admit to it. And you stopped talking to Kumi.”

“I feel bad for Kumi too. What the hell is wrong with me?”

“I don’t know man. But, I hope you learned from your mistakes. I hope you get a chance to talk to Y/N again and I hope she forgives you.” Namjoon said, tapping Jungkook's shoulder.

Jungkook always talks about how he messed up so bad with you during his live broadcasts. A lot of fans asked him about you every time he goes live. How they don’t see him with you anymore and some people stopped being a fan of him. But, most fans, who’s been there since BTS debut have comforted him and told him that everyone makes mistakes and that they wish for you and Jungkook to be in good terms again. A lot of fans like you for Jungkook because they know how much you make him happy. And though, they didn’t like what Jungkook did to you, they still support him and the members.

As time passes by, Jungkook got tired of always being asked about you, especially during live interviews. Everyone already knows that he messed up, that he is childish, and that he doesn’t know what he wants in life.

“Uhhmn, I am sorry to interrupt”, Yoongi replied to one of the host of one of the famous show in the US, when they were asked about their relationship status. “How about we talk about our music and not about our personal lives.” he continued tapping Jungkook’s, who is sitting beside him, lap and smiling,  assuring him that he got him.

The interviewer apologized and tried to change the topic. The members, although happy with their own love lives, doesn’t really want to talk about their relationship with their other halves, especially when they know what Jungkook’s situation is in and how he feels left out when they talk about how they’re happy with their girlfriends.

Jungkook went on hiatus for a long time. He stopped posting a selca and stopped going on live broadcasts, even just to bother Jin and Jimin during Eat Jin. The fans noticed how he stopped being the playful Jungkook that he is during his stage performances. He started to look like he wasn’t interested in what he is doing and just not the same as before. Fans noticed that he’s been getting sick a lot lately too, and getting injured frequently.

“JK, I know you’re going through a lot of things right now, but please start taking care of yourself. You don’t want the fans to be worried about you.” Taehyung tol Jungkook one time during rehearsals and JK hurt his wrist.

“I just don't know what to do anymore, hyung”, he replied.

“You have to move on Jungkook-ah.” Hoseok said.

“Yeah, nobody heard from her and who knows where she’s at right now.” Jimin added.

“How about let's get some jajangmyeon and I’ll pay with my card? At least food doesn’t hurt us. Unless Namjoon cooks it, then ah, that’s heartbreaking even just thinking about it.”

Everyone laughed, except for Jungkook who just managed to smile a little.

After the last concert of their World Tour, before doing his speech, Jungkook started crying. The fans started cheering for him.

“Ah guys, I don’t really know where to start. First of all, I want to say sorry for not giving you the performance that you deserve.” Jungkook explained in between sobs. “As most of you all know, I am going through tough times. I have messed up five months ago. I did something terrible to the person that I really love. It’s hard to find a reason why I did it, which makes me feel like I am a really bad person.”

The members started to tap his back and letting him know that he is doing great and that they’re behind him no matter what happens.

“If only I had the power to turn back time and make everything okay again, I would. But, I am just Jungkook and I just messed things up, like how I keep on messing up this concert for my members and for all of you who put so much effort into coming here to watch us perform live. I am sorry to all of you guys. I hope you guys understand me and I hope to be better soon.” He broke down crying and the members started coming towards him and trying to comfort him.

“Ah, to that person that got heartbroken because of JK, please forgive him.” Hoseok said

“Yes please. He’s learned his lesson. Just give him a chance to make everything right.” Jin followed.

After the concert, a video of Jungkook crying has started to trend on social media along with a hashtags, #Y/NPleaseGiveJKaChance, #JKsaysSorry, and #YNJKSaysSorry.

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You didn't feel like going out to get a pack of eggs at the grocery store at 9 in the morning but you really need it in order to achieve your first baking lesson on your own.

"I can't believe I forgot to get eggs! One of the main ingredients in baking." you muttered to yourself as you grabbed your coat and head out to your apartment.

After quitting Bighit, you applied at a local studio, where they do photoshoots and films for weddings, birthdays, anniversaries, etc. It's not much pay, but you still save up some money. It's 45 minute train ride away far from where you used to live.

When you got to the grocery store, you noticed a familiar face. Kumi. You were about to walk out when he ran after you.

"Y/N, wait!" she said so loud some of the customers was startled.

You stopped and not really knowing what to say.

"Hey Y/N, I know I did something really bad to you but is it possible for us to you know, talk somewhere?" she asked her, holding her hands together.

"Kumi, I am really----"

"Y/N, that excuse is overused now. I just really need to talk to you. I mean, just please hear a sister out?"

"A sister?" you scoffed.

"Okay, okay. I did you wrong. And I don't have the right to talk to you whatsoever but, can we please just talk?" she asked again

"Fine. But, make it quick." you replied after hearing the sincerity in her voice.

You walked out of the grocery store and went to a nearby coffee shop. As soon as you both find a good spot to sit down, she started explaining herself.

"Y/N, I know what I did was wrong. I know that you and Jungkook have something. And I want to let you know that it's all my fault." she began. "I am a big fan of Jungkook that's why I applied at Bighit, and luckily I got the job. I knew that he liked you and that he is courting you, but me being selfish didn't stopped me from doing what I wasn't supposed to do. I flirted with him and did it when you are around to make you jealous, so that you'll get fed up with it. Everything I did went over my head and I didn't care about your feelings. I brainwashed him, telling him that he doesn't have any chance with. Because well, you are older than him and that you like more mature guys. And he fell for it. Y/N, Jungkook is still young and vulnerable. But he loves you." she stopped looking at you.

"Why are you telling me all of these?" You asked "Whatever is between me and Jungkook is far long gone. It's over and I prolly won't see him ever again."

"I am telling you because after you left him in that parking lot, I saw how devastated he is. I tried to comfort him for days and weeks and he is just not getting back to his old self. And I realized that everything was my fault. That he loves and cares for you and if it wasn't for me, he wouldn't have been like that. I liked Jungkook, but I don't want to be with someone who doesn't like me." she said, tears starting to fall down her cheeks. "I fucked up Y/N. I fucked up so bad, I left Bighit too. I got so obsessed with Jungkook I became a saesang. I am so disgusted with myself. You didn't even do anything to me. But I hurt you, and I hurt Jungkook too." Now she is full on crying that some customers looked your way with worried face.

You handed her a napkin and said, "How can you say that Jungkook doesn't like you? I saw the way you kissed each other"

"But he doesn't look at me the way he looks at you Y/N" she said wiping her tears with the napkin that you gave her. "When he looks at you, it's like you're his galaxy, like you're the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. Like his happiness lays in your eyes. He loves you Y/N. He made a mistake and it's my fault. He's a man, and he is vulnerable. It's easy for him to make that mistake."

"Being a man doesn't give him the right to hurt anybody's feelings just because of his needs." you said.

"Y/N, you're not even his girlfriend yet!"

"Exactly Kumi! I am not his girlfriend yet, and look what he did?"

"For fuck's sake Y/N! just forgive him. Have you seen him lately? He is at his worst and he regrets everything that he's done you. He hasn't been doing great and the members and fans are worried about him. It's been months Y/N! Months that he's like that! it's not healthy anymore. You need to talk to him or I am dragging your ass to their dorm right at this moment!" she said, she talked so fast that she had to catch her breath.

"Why? Why are you doing this?" you asked again, not really knowing what to say anymore.

"Because I know you still love him and that you still care about him. Because he loves you and I want to make up from my mistakes and I want you guys to end up together. You love him Y/N. You just don't want to admit it".

You started crying and you told her that you still do love him and that you hate herfor doing what she had done and that you were so jealous you wanted to punch her in the face.

She smiled and said, "I am really sorry Y/N. And I mean it. Maybe I have to be in the picture for you to realize that you need to give him a chance and for you to realize that you love him."

You looked at him and started thinking that maybe she is right. You didn't really realize how much you love Jungkook until Kumi happened.

For the next couple of weeks you thought about everything that Kumi told you. You watched the videos of Jungkook crying in concerts and saying how he messed up. You feel bad and then you don't and you just lay in bed just feeling sorry for yourself and for Jungkook.

You woke up one day with a knock on your door. You grabbed your robe and with a messy hair opened the door but shut it back when you found out who it was.

"Y/N, let's talk please?" it was Jungkook. "I am not leaving until you talk to me"

"How did you--" you yelled, but realized the answer to your question. "Go away Jungkook!"

"I am not leaving Y/N. If I leave, it will be the last time."

"Fuck!" you said to yourself. "How am I going to work now?"

After 3 hours, Jungkook is still outside your apartment. You called your work and asked to be excused for the day as something came up.

You kept on peeking outside your window and you can see him just sitting on the ground looking so cold with just his hoodie on.

"Shit! Today's forecast is wind and snow!" you said again to yourself. "Oh well, he'll leave when he gets too cold."

Snow came and heavy winds around 5pm and Jungkook stayed outside. He was trying to warm his hands with his breath, but you know it's not going to help. After almost an hour, he still outside, shaking and looking like he's about to pass out.

Before you know it, you were outside with a big coat you hope fits him.

"Are you trying to kill yourself?" you asked angrily

He looked up, smiled and said your name. He tried to get up but he fell instead. You struggled to get him inside your apartment, but you noticed that he's lost weight. When you finally got him inside, with a little bit of his help and he fell on the couch. You grabbed some thick blankets, your portable heater and you checked his temperature as he is burning hot. He is shaking so bad that you couldn't understand what he's trying to say. You grabbed some medicines from your cabinet and helped him drink it. After half an hour, he fell asleep. You made some soup and watched him close at the same time, scared that he might stopped breathing. After a couple of hours, his fever went down. You fell asleep watching him, you head laying on the couch where he is sleeping.

When you woke up, Jungkook was staring at you.

"Good morning." he said, smiling

You stood up suddenly and wipe whatever disgusting thing is on your face.

"Thank you for letting me in and for taking care of me Y/N", he said

"Yep.", is your only reply.

Jungkook got up on the couch, struggling from all the blankets that you gave him, and moved closer to you. You froze when he held your hand.

"I am sorry Y/N. For all the bad things I did to you. For hurting you. I was childish, I wasn't thinking. I was selfish. And I have learned my lesson. I promise to be a better person." he said, his voice still weak

"Jungkook, I--"

"I am not expecting you to forgive me Y/N. I just really want you to know how sorry I am."

"Jungkook, you hurt me so much that I thought something is wrong with me. I don't know if I will ever forgive you for doing what you had done to me."

"I am sorry Y/N. I wish I could turn back time and I promise to make everything right. I love you Y/N. I love you and I was so stupid to hurt you."

When you didn't say anything, Jungkook said, "Thank you for letting me inside again and for taking care of me. I owe you a lot. I came here to say sorry and like I said I don't expect you to forgive me. I won't forgive myself too if I were you. So, I am leaving now. And I am really sorry Y/N. But, I hope in time, I hope you will try to forgive me." he said. He opened the door and left.

You sat on the couch and stayed there for a good 5 minutes, thinking the would've beens if you forgive him. After arguing with yourself, you opened your door and ran after him. When you finally saw him, you yelled his name and he stopped and looked at you.

When you reached him, "Y/N." he said.

"If you fucked this up again Jungkook, I swear to God, i am going to burn you alive", you said trying to catch your breath

He hugged you and said, " I won't Y/N. I won't hurt you again. I am so sorry." He cupped your head with his both hands and said, "Hurting you is like suicide. I won't fuck this up again Y/N. I promise!" he kissed you and before you know it, you were kissing him back, tears falling down both your cheeks.

[supastareden]

Inside the Sadness Plaguing K-Pop

by NATALIE FINN | Thu., Mar. 29, 2018 3:07 PM [X]

Nothing cheers you up, lifts you up, brings you life quite like pop music. Even when it's Harry Styles or Adeleor Sam Smith or BTS achingly belting their despair into that cold, lonely night...songs that make you feel all the feelings are still songs that are taking you to new heights. There's nothing quite like a tune that hurts so good.

As we wallow, so do we celebrate.

In South Korea, the genre is known as K-Pop—a catchy moniker established in the 1990s that's starting to catch fire around the globe—and all the hallmarks of the superstars of the Western world are present and accounted for: Charismatic boy bands, polished pop princesses, infectious chart-topping singles, carefully crafted images and tender-aged men and women who've inspired a level of fanaticism reserved for...well, almost no one besides pop stars these days.

Music is the universal language, after all.

But for the second time in four months, the K-pop world is in mourning, this time following the sudden death on March 25 of 100% singer Seo Minwoo. He was 33.

The actor and boyband heartthrob reportedly suffered cardiac arrest; an official cause of death has not yet been announced.

TOP Media founder Andy Lee, the singer turned K-pop impresario who's behind the groups 100%, Teen Top, Shinhwa and UP10TION, expressed his condolences in a statement online, calling Seo a leader known for his tenderness and sincerity.

While American audiences may still be largely in the dark when it comes to the ins and outs of K-pop and its artists, our mainstream exposure fairly limited to PSY's "Gangnam Style" and, more recently, the emergence of BTS on the world stage, fans took to social media to share exactly what Seo meant to them.

"Seo Minwoo is my life mentor. He gave up everything for 100% and perfection. Words are not enough to describe how great of a person he is. How lovely, caring and talented he is. Seo Minwoo, my king... I love you," wrote Haya on Twitter.

She continued, "Seo Minwoo gave up is acting career for 100%. Fought Top Media over and over again (f*ck you tm) to keep 100% together. Everything he did he put his absolute everything in. He openly supported LGBTQ, did vlives often to talk with perfection about their concerns."

Haya's current pinned tweet is from Dec. 24, 2015: "If 100% were a religion, I'd build them a church and dedicate my whole life and soul to them."

While that's a lot, it's indicative of the level of devotion that some K-pop stars have awoken in their fans.

A number of people tweeted that upcoming "selca days"—specific days each month on which fans post selfies with their favorite idols—should be canceled out of respect for Minwoo. 100%'s fandom is called Perfection.

And SHINee World knows what they're going through.

On Dec. 18, 2017, SHINee singer Kim Jong-hyun (known as Jonghyun) committed suicide, baffling fans and even fellow K-pop stars who figured the 27-year-old was on top of the world.

"It was so shocking, because we had seen him so often at events," BTS' RM told Billboard last month. He was so successful."

"My Poet My Artist My Jonghyun I miss you," tweeted w today. In fact, there are so many newly posted photos and video clips of the young man on Twitter that, aside from the occasional mournful missive like this one, you'd be forgiven for not knowing that he's gone.

The account Jonghyun On This Day is also doing its part to keep his memory alive.

But Jonghyun's death—authorities found charred coal briquettes in a frying pan on the stove, which produced carbon monoxide—obviously rattled the music world at large on multiple levels. In addition to the personal loss felt alike by loved ones and fans who felt they knew him, mental health is not an issue that tends to get much media attention in South Korea—or in Asia overall.

"To the South Korean government: Let #Jonghyun be the light in death that he was in life," tweeted Xavier on Dec. 18. "Recognize that suicide is an epidemic in South Korea and takes strides to ending the negative stigmas around mental health and to combat this issue. Don't let Jonghyun be another statistic."

A fan started a Change.org petition demanding that entertainment companies set up mental health support systems for their artists. More than 430,000 people have signed.

After some discussion, his family agreed to make public the suicide note the singer and songwriter, who made his solo debut in 2015 with the well-received album Base, left behind. His friend and Dear Cloud singer Jang Hee-yeon, known as Nine9, posted it on her Instagram. She said she'd obtained the note two weeks before Jonghyun's death and was asked to publish it if he "disappeared from the world."

"I'm broken from the inside," the note read. "The depression that has slowly eaten away at me has finally consumed me, and I couldn't beat it."

It concluded, "The life of fame was not for me. They say it's hard to bump up against the world and become famous. Why did I choose this life? It's a funny thing. It's a miracle that I lasted this long...

"What else is there to say? Just tell me I did well. Tell me that this is enough. Tell me I worked hard. Even if you can't smile, please don't blame me as you send me off. Well done. You've really worked hard. Goodbye."

In a sign that Jonghyun's death could help bring about positive change in the way mental health and depression are publicly discussed, the circumstances of his death continue to be a topic of conversation—one that Seo Minwoo's passing, no matter what the cause, only brings to mind all over again.

Just today a fan tweeted, "Nine said on the last interview Jonghyun once told her that she brings comfort to him. She noticed his condition got worse after blue night and when he gave her the letter she told his family right away, tried to save him, to prevent the worst from happening...

"I really believe everyone around him knew about his condition and tried their best to help him. that's why it hurts so much, that even though he got help he still wanted to leave."

In an interview with Billboard last month, members of BTS said that they wanted to keep the discussion about mental health going.

"I really want to say that everyone in the world is lonely and everyone is sad," Suga, 25, said, "and if we know that everyone is suffering and lonely, I hope we can create an environment where we can ask for help, and say things are hard when they're hard, and say that we miss someone when we miss them."

Bucking national mores and the pressure to be upbeat or put up an artificially glossy front all the time, Jonghyun, who also hosted the long-running music radio program Blue Night, had spoken out publicly about his battle with depression—much like young American stars such as Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, Zayn Malikand Keshahave been widely applauded for doing these days.

His last Blue Night broadcast was in March 2017 after three years behind the mic. He admitted to Esquire Korea that he didn't like traveling and considered himself a homebody—and the close confines of a radio studio, just him alone with some music, had been a perfect fit.

"It may be that I came running to radio in order to escape," he reflected to the magazine, per an English translation. "I don't really like going outside. And I don't really like having to meet a lot of people. I'm also afraid of trying new things. The radio now felt like my own personal space. It had become an escape hatch for me to greet new things without feeling awkward."

Jonghyun, who cited personal matters as the reason he was leaving the radio show, said it had become important to him to share his metaphorical scars with the world.

"I'm fundamentally a pessimistic person," he said. "Ever since I was little I showed a lot of depressive feelings, and it's the same in the present. But I don't think I can keep living my life sustaining those depressive feelings forever. You might be able to go through the early-to-mid-part of your life with that kind of melancholy. But if you want to grow, you can only survive if you throw those feelings away.

"Unless you want to get trapped within yourself and die, you have to grow no matter how much it hurts—but if you stop because you're afraid, in the end it's inevitable that you'd remain in an immature state of mind. I chose the path to transform myself. To reveal myself to the public. To attempt to make my thoughts understood. I have to make people aware that this is the kind of person I am, and I can only be on the defensive if I know that they know."

The translator noted that she avoided using the word "depression," because Jonghyun didn't use what amounted to that word specifically. Even in talking about it, those feelings of sadness remained a beast with no name.

When Jonghyun died, his SHINee band mates and members of the group Super Junior (both groups under the S.M. Entertainment umbrella), all clad in black, carried his coffin from Asan Medical Center in Seoul to a waiting vehicle. His sister headed the procession, carrying a photo of her late brother.

The funeral was private, for friends and family only, but hundreds of people lined up to see the coffin leave the hospital.

A statement from S.M. Entertainment read in part (according to Rolling Stone), "The deep sorrow cannot be compared to ones of his family who had to let go of their loving son and brother but the employees and artists of SM Entertainment, also in deep shock and sorrow, are offering condolences. Jonghyun was the best artist who loved music more than anyone and always worked hard for his performance. We ask you to refrain from making rumors or assumptions based on reports in respect of his family who are in deep sorrow from the sudden news. As his family wished, his funeral will be carried out in the quietest manner with his family members and co-workers."

But Jonghyun's death was hardly the first time the punishing pace of the K-pop machine had come under fire.

In addition to being expected to tour and crank out albums, sometimes in multiple languages (SHINee had also recorded in Japanese), the artists often appear on a never-ending stream of competition TV series in addition to doing talk shows, photo shoots and public appearances to keep the fans both sated and hungry for more.

But despite the seeming glut of artists and groups to remember (there are so manyselca days), truly breaking through as a star remains an elusive concept—and standing out in South Korea's youth-obsessed culture can feel like an insurmountable challenge.

And then there's the appearance factor. "If a girl has a bad face and a good body, the problem can be fixed with plastic surgery," Kim Min-seok, a former trainer with YG Entertainment (considered along with S.M. and JYP as the "Big Three" agencies), told Broadly. in 2016.

Moreover, the litany of groups also tend to be carefully managed, meticulously packaged pop confections, with a management company pulling the strings behind the scenes. Those who hope to make it big are expected to dedicate their lives to that goal, and that's basically what signing a contract entails.

In January 2015, NBC News cited a survey of South Korean pre-teens: When asked about career aspirations, 21 percent said they wanted to be K-pop stars.

"I am thinking only one thing—our song keeps being played," 20-year-old Sowon, a member of the girl group GFriend, which had an international hit at the time with their debut single "Glass Bead," told NBC News. "I hope to perform anywhere, anytime, even if I can't sleep or I am tired."

On Feb. 24, 2015, aspiring K-pop star Ahn So Jin died after falling 10 stories from an apartment building, with police concluding that her death was a suicide. The 22-year-old had made a splash the previous year after making it to the finals of The Kara Project—a competition show held to find girl group Kara a new member after two girls had left.

"It has to be this, or nothing," Sojin said on the show's premiere. "I can't miss this." She had been a K-pop trainee with Kara manager DSP Media for five years but her contract had reportedly ended the month before her death.

Kara disbanded for good in January 2016.

ng Ha-Jin, a 23-year-old university student who had once been a trainee with S.M. Entertainment after winning a talent competition, told NBC News in 2015 that she wasn't allowed to have a cell phone while in the program and the competition to earn a coveted slot in an actual girl group was fierce—and stressful.

"The most difficult part in fact was when I saw myself and felt like I didn't grow up," she said.

The loss of individuality isn't limited to K-pop, either.

In 2013, Minami Minegishi of Japan's AKB48—a group with over 100 rotating members who appear in different configurations at different events—shaved her head and tearfully apologized in a video confession after she spent the night with her boyfriend, an apparent infraction of a no-dating rule.

"I don't believe just doing this means I can be forgiven for what I did, but the first thing I thought was that I don't want to quit AKB48," Minegishi said, according to the BBC. AKB48's manager said Minegishi, an original member of the group when it formed in 2005, had been demoted to trainee status.

Her fans, more appalled by the self-flagellation than anything else, rallied around her, insisting she not be punished for just wanting to live her life.

In 2015, the BBC reported that members of Japanese boy band SMAP somberly dressed in black and publicly apologized on their weekly show SMAPxSMAP after they attempted to leave their longtime agency Johnny & Associates.

The K-pop scene doesn't sound quite so rigid these days, with managers and producers perhaps not wanting to alienate coveted Western audiences with oppressive behavioral strictures, but it still demands a level of old-fashioned poise and accommodation from its artists.

"If you go to the agency, every young trainee will give you a very polite bow and there are notices with the company rules on the wall to remind them how to behave," K-pop industry expert Mark Russell told the BBC in 2016.

In June 2014, Taeyeon of Girls Generation and Baekhyun of boy band EXO apologized to their respective fan bases for the "disappointment, anger, hatred, frustration, and dejection" they presumably felt when they found out that Taeyeon and Baekhyun were dating (a coupling that would seemingly send their fans over the moon, Jelena-style).

Last June, T.O.P. of the group Big Bang was hospitalized for several days after overdosing on prescription medication, the incident occurring a day after he was charged with smoking marijuana—a crime punishable by up to five years in prison in South Korea. According to Today Online, when he was caught smoking in October 2016, he issued a handwritten apology letter stating, "I deserve punishment for hurting the (BIGBANG) members, agency, public, fans and family. I'll regret this for tens of thousands of years."

T.O.P. was found guilty and received a suspended 10-month prison sentence because the judge determined that, although he had admitted his guilt and "disappointed his family and fans," he seemed sufficiently remorseful.

"I'm truly sorry that I disappointed my fans and the public," the 29-year-old, whose real name is Choi Seung-Hyun, told reporters after his sentencing last summer. I will do my best to make a fresh start and not to make such a mistake again with what I've learned from this lesson,"

In August, management company WM Entertainment announced that JinE of Oh My Girl was taking a break from the group while she sought treatment for anorexia, stating, "We will wholeheartedly support JinE while she rests and receives treatment. We apologize once more for bringing this sudden news to fans and ask that you continue to show Oh My Girl unchanging love and interest." JinE's permanent exit from the group was announced in October.

It's impossible not to note a hint of concern over past K-pop tragedy and the pitfalls of fame in this otherwise cheerful birthday greeting sent today (already March 30 in South Korea) to Cha Eunwoo, or Eunwoo, of the six-member boy band Astro.

"Mr. Cha Eunwoo Happy birthday to our sweet and sparkling fluff. AROHA are so lucky to have you," wrote Ashlyn Akiko (who changed her handle to #happychaeunwooday for the occasion). "Stay happy and healthy."

[btskismet]

Kismet (Chapter 8): a BTS Jin imagines fanfic

First ever fanfic. Contains fluff and some smut. Please read sequentially as it is a long story arc. Please provide feedback! My IG is btskismet.

As soon as she opened her eyes, she looked to the left side of the bed. Today, she saw him: his broad shoulders, his messed-up hair and his long legs curled up to his body in a halfway fetal position.

She sat up and took a glance at his face. He was definitely still asleep with his long fingers in one hand clutching the pillow near him, his lips slightly parted and his soft snoring heard while sleeping. God, he is so beautiful, she thought. She doesn't deserve to be with this man, let alone have sex with him. But she did so - thrice.

She smiled and slowly reached out to softly touch his cheek with her finger. When she made contact, he moved slightly and further curled up.

Seokjin must really feel very tired today, she figured. That concert took 3 hours and he also had a long drive going here. He also exerted a lot last night, she thought. Thinking of the sex and how good he was made her feel tingly all over that she was close to reaching out to him for more.

She shook her head and sighed. She knew he needs sleep. He always woke up earlier than the others in the group and he did that the last time they were together so this is different.

She stood up to freshen up and wash the sleep of her face. It was early enough and she was halfway through brushing her teeth when she saw Seokjin come in the bathroom and wrapped his arms around her waist.

"Back to bed...", he said sleepily, his chin on her shoulder. She rinsed her mouth and replied, "Good morning, Seokjin. Why go back when it's time to wake up?" She realized he may not have caught that - she didn’t have her earpiece on.

"No. Bed please...". He said after a yawn. "Why?", she asked. "Stay beside me.", he commanded. She finished brushing and dried her mouth and said ok.

Seokjin held her hand and brought her to the bed and cuddled under the covers with her. She realized that he was acting like a little boy which is probably how he normally is. Guess he's pretty comfortable with me now, she thought. The other guys always share in their videos how much their hyung acts like a manchild but also takes care of them like their big brother. How odd, she thought. But now that she's experiencing it herself, it was comforting to know he thought of her as someone he could be himself with.

"Would you like breakfast from the hotel or the local café?", she whispered. "Hotel...", Seokjin murmured and pulled her closer and he buried his face in her bosom. She can feel his breath on her chest and hear him softly snoring. This made her feel so relaxed that she started to drift back to sleep.

~~~~~

She woke up to an electronic sound coming from a game. She wasn't sure where it came from at first but she remembered that he loves to play Maple Story. Sure enough, when she looked around, she saw Jin on his phone, sitting at the table. He was also eating one of the mochi from Nakatanidou.

"Jagiya, you up?", he said in English. "Mmhmm...", she replied sleepily. "No fair, you woke up earlier than me but I was awake since this morning. You made me sleep again."

Seokjin wiped his fingers, stood up from the table and walked over to the bed, still playing his game. He sat beside her as he silently played. She knew that she had to wait. As a person who loves games too, it is understood that you should let a gamer finish a stage or mission because ending midway could mean starting at a save point again.

Seokjin then clicked on save and set his phone aside. "I wake up first because I want to take care of you.", he said sweetly. "I also woke up to eat that. Very good!", he exclaimed as he pointed to the mochi on the table.

She realized he was speaking to her in straight English and he didn't have the earpiece on. Maybe this was what Namjoon meant - he will practice speaking in English more since he has no choice when it comes to me.

They heard a knock in the door and Seokjin stood up to open it. He thanked the lady who came in with a tray of food for both of them. They were brought a traditional Kyoto breakfast which is bubuzuke. This is comprised of rice with a broth and varied pickles. The rice is eaten by pouring the broth on it and the pickles serve as the side dish. Fish and egg can also be served with it.

She noticed that there was more than egg and fish for the meal. There was also some kobe beef served which is usually not part of a bubuzuke meal. This made her smile because she knew this was Seokjin's suggestion. "He really is a meat lover and he has to have it in each meal.", she thought.

They enjoyed the breakfast together and talked about the trip. There were two choices Seokjin had to choose from and he still insisted on going to Hokkaido. She warned him that the trip would be long and cold. Public transportation would be different to what he was accustomed to lately. "That's good. I'd like to try traveling like a normal person. No bodyguards, managers... Just you and me.", Seokjin said. He actually sounded excited.

They agreed to stay one more night in Kyoto and then check out very early to ride the shinkansen to go to Hakodate. The rest of the day, they spent it by enjoying the boats in the Katsura river which could be seen from their balcony and the private onsen in the hotel.

~~~~~

At 6am, she and Seokjin stepped out of the hotel. It was a short walk to the rental bike shop that would allow them to pick up their bikes this early. The old man agreed to leave out the bikes they rented for the day at the front of their shop after she met with him yesterday afternoon to pay for the rental fee.

Seokjin had a big smile when he saw the bikes. She got him the tallest one they could provide and he was thrilled that they would be able to enjoy the day biking around the area rather than walking.

They made sure their earpieces had enough charge before they started biking. She did notice though that Seokjin would try to speak with her English and there might come a time that may not need them anymore.

Their first stop was Arashiyama Forest. They both knew that the place would be packed with tourists if they went there around 9am so they decided to leave early to go through it in peace. 

The sun was just about to come up when they got to the entrance of the grove and not many people were there with them. “Wow, you weren’t kidding when you said this place is beautiful.”, Seokjin expressed with awe. The sunlight shining in between the stalks of bamboo and the red and orange colored leaves from the trees peeking through was a sight to behold. 

“We can bike through this path or walk. What do you prefer?”, she asked him. Seokjin looked at her fondly and set his bike aside. “Let’s walk. There are not many people around and I want to go through this slowly.”, he said.

They left their bikes at the start of the path, knowing well enough that people won’t take them away.  

Seokjin took her hand as they walked along the bamboo grove. He took many photos of the area and marvelled on how high the trees were. “I heard that we have a bamboo grove in Ulsan but not as pretty as this.”, Seokjin shared with her. He then took a quick photo of her as she was walking beside him. “Hey! I wasn’t prepared for that.”, she said. 

He smiled and said, “That’s ok. It’s for my memory of this place.”

She took a photo of him as well and asked him if they could have a selca. “You’re better at doing this than me so please take the photo then.”, she mentioned. 

Seokjin put his arm around her and made sure that the bamboo stalks and some of the red leaves were seen in the background. He even asked her to do a funny shot with him which made for great photos.

“I know JK and V would love photos of this place. I’ll send some to them.”, he said and started to take different photos of the path and sent them to the other members. 

“Thank you for including this in our trip.”, he said. She smiled at him brightly and said, “Oh, I really aimed to go here today. This is my first time here too.”

“What? I thought you’ve been here before!”, Seokjin exclaimed. 

She swayed her head. “No, I haven’t. In my last trip to Kyoto, a storm hit and all the trains to Arashiyama were blocked because of the felled trees. So, I promised myself I would go here on my next trip. The hotel we’re at is a place I’ve been eyeing for years since it is close to the bamboo forest but it is pricey. If I didn’t meet you, I probably would’ve stayed near Kyoto station since it would be cheaper but I can still go to the forest early enough.”

Seokjin looked at her fondly and put his arm around her. “Well, I’m glad we met that night or else I wouldn’t have a chance to be here either.”

There were more people at the grove by the time they got to their bikes. They asked someone to take their photo in front of the path before they left and headed out to go to a coffee shop near the Katsura River for breakfast.

A few minutes before 8am, they reached % Arabica, a well-known coffee shop near the Katsura River. There was a short line near the door and Seokjin made sure to put his mask up when they set aside the bikes to line up. They made a pact that if they were in an area with more than 10 people around, they would use their face masks so that not a lot of people would know who they are. That was the unfortunate thing about being a celebrity, Seokjin shared; not a lot of places you can go to without a mask these days.

The shop was a small kiosk in front of the Katsura River. There weren’t any seats but anyone could grab coffee and sandwiches to go and sit on the stone benches across the main road to have a full view of the riverside.

She got them the ham and cheese baguette sandwiches, an Americano for Seokjin and a latte for herself. She asked Seokjin to secure a seat and wait for her to come over with their orders. She noticed as she was lined up that he was busy taking photos with his phone and just staring out at the river, looking around the area and basking in the sights. She noticed how handsome and beautiful he is and he wasn’t even making any efforts to do that. She suddenly got startled when he jumped and started flailing his arms at something, looking around. She laughed and knew it was probably a bug that went too close and startled him.

“I see that nature decided to greet you close earlier.”, she chuckled. Seokjin gave her a quizzical look and then gave a knowing nod. “Ah ya, I hate bugs. I think it was a fly or a beetle that came close as I was looking at the river.”

She started to laugh, “You are so cute, Seokjin. I was just admiring how handsome you are when I was there and then realized you are human after all when you started shooing the bug away!” 

Seokjin looked at her interestingly and said, “So, you were admiring me from afar? I’m really worldwide handsome, eh?”

She smirked and said yes, of course. “May I add that you’re not only handsome but you kiss so damn well too?”

This statement made Seokjin blush and his ears turned bright red. “Ah, I didn’t expect you would say something like that out loud!” But he then placed his arm around her and said: ‘Makes me want to go back to the hotel now and kiss you all over!”

She then turned pink and slightly pushed him away. “Now, now... we have a few more places to go to today. Do what you want to me tonight. Right now, let’s have breakfast.”, she said and handed him his coffee and sandwich.

They went biking after that, hitting several temples that were not flocked with tourists and generally enjoying the scenery. They didn’t have much of an agenda but they both wanted to pass by the side streets to check what the shops had to offer.

They went back to the bike shop at 4pm to return the bikes and made sure to take the train from Arashiyama station to Kawaramachi station. She included in their loose itinerary for the day a certain place that she knew Seokjin would appreciate a lot. It was a surprise she wanted for him and he had no idea where they were going.

“What is this place? I’m excited that it’s a surprise for me!”, he said, as he was dancing out of the station, eager to see what it is.

“I reserved the last slot for the day so I’m hoping there are less people by then.”, she said. They had to take a ten minute walk through a shopping street beside Nishiki Market and she told him that they had to be quick in walking so that not a lot of people would notice them.  

As they got close to their destination, she stopped in the middle of a small park. “So, we’re close to it. It’s one of these shops.”, she smiled at him.

Seokjin furrowed his temple and was confused. “Ah... which one is it?”

“Look around and tell me which of these unique shops would catch your attention.”

Seokjin looked around. There were a few small shops around the park and he was reading the names of each one. “Clarks, Teramachi... is it the Crepe shop? Crepes are ok but I’m not fond of it.”

“Warmer...”, she said. Seokjin looked at the other shops and his eyes suddenly went wide and she could see through the mask that his mouth was wide open. “No...! Wow!”, he exclaimed. “Is that a hedgehog shop?!” He was pointing at the window where it says Tom’s Mr. Hedgie.

She gave him a big smile. “It’s a hedgehog cafe! You can pet them and feed them and have photos with them for 40 minutes! I know you like small animals for pets like your sugar gliders and I took a chance of bringing you here. Not sure if you like hedgehogs. They are super cute though.”

Seokjin pulled his mask down and gave her a kiss on the cheek as his thank you. “I never had a hedgehog for a pet but I’m interested in them! Let’s go!”

He held her hand as they went up the stairs to the shop. Seokjin had so much fun handling the hedgehogs and enjoying the solitude with her as they were the only ones in the shop that time. He learned a lot about how to care and feed them and even had a few photos of them to send to the other members of BTS.

~~~~~

At the hotel, they enjoyed a nice cup of green tea and wagashi, brought in by the staff as a night cap.

Seokjin was playing his game on his phone while she was fixing photos on her phone in the bed. She liked the photo he took of them at the bamboo grove and the one with the hedgehog. She knew this wasn’t going to be forever but as the days pass, she understood and enjoyed Seokjin’s company more. She was sad that the vacation they have would end in time.

She felt him come close and kissed her shoulder as he slid his arm under her stomach. “You seem worried. I saw your face. What’s wrong?”, Seokjin asked.

“Oh, just thinking that I hope this vacation would never end...”, she bemused. Seokjin tightened his grip around her waist and leaned on top of her back. “Me too. I am having so much fun and you really thought of me for all the activities we’ve been doing. Are you sure we are doing things you like too?”

“Of course! Our interests are not that different. I like all of these places too.”

“Good. Now, there is another thing I like that you said at the river that we should do tonight.”. Seokjin whispered in her ear as his hand slid underneath her shirt as his hand cupped her breast which made her give out a soft squeal.  

--- to be continued ---

[najatheangel]

hi, love !! i requested a selca ship from you once and i absolutely loved it !! may i request a written ship this time, please? groups would be nct 127, nct dream, and got7 <333

i’m an extroverted introvert. i’m naturally pretty outgoing and social but i also love being by myself and need alone time to recharge. i’m often mistaken as an extrovert in real life because i’m usually the one approaching people first and initiating or planning hang-outs for my friend groups. i’m pretty cheerful, light-hearted, easy-going, and non-judgemental. i strive for balance in life and i generally dislike conflict although i don’t hesitate to deal with it if necessary. i prefer focusing on the present moment rather than dwelling on the past or trying to forecast the future. for this reason, i can easily detach myself from certain people and situations (for better or for worse lmao). i’m a natural caretaker and i prefer to nurture people in more practical ways like being helpful or giving advice, but i don’t mind just being there for other people although a part of me always wishes i could do more. i may be more of a caretaker with my friends but being the youngest in my family, i do lowkey want to be doted on in private. i romanticize being organized and all but i’m really not :’) i TRY though. i’m also dangerously clumsy; i try and want to become more graceful but my coordination says no :)) i do feel things very deeply but i rarely show that. i prefer to deal with my emotions internally and by myself and then express them later in a more measured, rational, and calm way. i’m very independent and freedom of expression is very important to me and i believe everyone should have a right to that. i adore and appreciate all forms of art, especially written words; i love reading and writing. i just love literature. i also really enjoy aesthetically-pleasing things; i love taking aesthetic photos of nature or even people. self-care is also very important to me; i workout regularly, try to eat healthy, and meditate. i also have an immense love for learning and while a lot of topics interest me, i especially love history. i just find it so fascinating and i love it so much that it makes my heart skip a beat sometimes like i get too excited lmao. my mbti is isfp but i’ve also gotten i/enfp and esfp before (years ago lmao 😂)

i think that’s it !! thank you so much <333 i hope you’re well. have a wonderful day/night hehe

Hii faye, I’m happy I got to read more about you you seem like your life is full of joy and balance. The long wait is finally over, here goes your ship☺️🧚‍♂️

From NCT 127, I ship you with...Doyoung

Positive Side: Very beautiful love story from start to finish. During resonance promotions he remembered seeing you in the virtual fansign and even though your conversation was only 2 min, he was in lovestruck mode. He wanted to know more about you as a person and he was willing to try anything and do anything to find you. He found you with your group of friends at his favorite coffee shop and noticed how happy you were helping your friends study for their exams and stood out amongst the group yet at the same time wanted some quiet time alone. It took him a lot of courage, but he bumped into you in line and took his chance to confess and ask you out on the spot. It didn’t take long for you to say yes and the rest was history. Your both very natural when it comes to taking care of people around you which is a very good trait to have, because your both capable of providing to each other’s needs. Those simple acts of love such as feeding each other, helping each other through a problem and supporting each other’s achievements are what you both cherish the most. This man is your main model of study when it comes to taking photos so he won’t mind posing for you or even taking pictures together and changing it as his Home Screen on his phone. No worries about slipping on trying to eat healthy because this man is Gordan Ramsey 2.0 and he will help you keep your workout and diet plan together while you help him with your amazing literature skills how to compose better songs for the group.

Negative Side: Not every relationship is perfectly balanced. You both handle conflict in the same way. You obviously express your moods through your expressions if something is not sitting right with you, but then later would prefer to have a private conversation about the problem with that person. In the beginning when you first started dating, Doyoung wanted to have your back in almost any tough situation you were facing, but thre were times that you didn’t want him to fight your battles all the time to save the trouble. For example, if someone based horribly on your writing, Doyoung would defend you and have your back 100% in the most calm and family friendly way possible. It’s not that you don’t want his support in every situation, it’s just you’d prefer him to let you manage on your own and not add more stress into his life by barging in to your problems.

But...: Doyoung knows that he has to take it down a notch and let you face those haters on your own and barge in if needed. He love when you have his back on things, even with silly debates and fights against the members over who didn’t clean the laundry. Whenever he starts seeing you becoming vulnerable with him, he feels very special and is not afraid to help you heal through your experience. Even though sometimes it’ll seem like your both babying each other and snooping up in each other’s business, it’s better to release your emotions better than hiding it.

faye, get your man plsss...😳😳

From NCT Dream, I ship you with...Jaemin

Positive Side: The ultimate k-drama couple. First of all, your both ambiverts in all your friend groups meaning some days you want to stay behind the scenes other days you both tend to become the star of the show. Very fast you two would develop a friendship and from that point, he already made his mind of making you his one and only. He’s like the mom of Nct Dream taking care of his family, so when he notices how cheerful and light hearted you can be around your family and friends he just melts into a puddle gushing over how adorable you can be. The killer for him is how clumsy you can be. Dropping pans of cookies you just baked or falling in the ice rink when your skating together it just makes him want to protect you and keep you by his side more and more. Jaemin also appreciates your creativity and wants to brag about it to the whole world how talented you are. He’ll always ask you if he can be the first one to read your stories which makes him feel like you hold a special place in heart. He’s also a photographer himself and would be your camera man for when you need photos of yourself or pretty nature images for your Pinterest board. Of course most of the time he would want like 100+ pictures of you and him saved in his phone. Overall your the angel that he’s been waiting for all his life and would do anything to make you stay.

Negative Side: Knowing how charming this beautiful man can be, sometimes his flirting can get out of control. I know it’s just for fan service for the fans to eat up from, but sometimes it can sting a little. Once he was doing a collab stage with a rookie girl group member and they seemed to be pretty playful on stage. It didn’t bother you at first because you understand that this is Jaemin’s job, but it was all until she started to flirt with him and slide her arm on him which started to tick you off. You were pouting from the outside, but on the inside you wanted to go off so you kept your cool until you got home. Of course he tried to cuddle with you and kiss you, but you weren’t having it. He tried to even talk to you in his cute baby tone, but you ended up slamming the door on him and went straight to bed. “It was just a performance princess, nothing more nothing less.” “Try telling that to dispatch when they see you holding hands with that girl.”

But...: Jaemin is aware now that you have feelings to and don’t want to cause all these misunderstandings or else it’ll affect his relationship with you. He knocks softly on your door and carries you out of bed with the sweetest apology proposal with homemade breakfast, balloons with your name in big letters with a heart next to it and a big teddy bear that says I love you. The gesture almost put you to tears and decided that arguing with him over a performance with another woman is pointless to break up over. You give him the biggest smile and give him the tightest hug. “So does that mean you forgive me?” Puckers his lips out cutely begging for a kiss. “Hmmm, sure. Your punishment for now is no kisses for today.” You stuff his mouth with bacon and run off to the living room teasing him. “Ahh I guess I did deserve that huh. At least let me cuddle with you, I didn’t get to do that last night.” Opens his arms running after you in the dorms.

I wanted to ship you with Jeno too, but Jaemin just fit the picture.

From Got7, I ship you with...Jinyoung

Positive Side: The iconic couple in the music industry. You were Jinyoung’s secret girlfriend that no one knew about of course except for the got7 brothers. Your both very flirty yet friendly towards each other which makes everyone wish they had your kind of relationship. Not to mention your visuals together are insane. You both share you knowledge of literature and read on topics that are beneficial amongst yourselfs. Just like you, he’s willing to research on the latest news that’s going on in the world and later have a intellectual discussion on the topic. I can imagine him reaching out for your help on practicing his lines for his movies/dramas and would even try to reenact kiss scenes with you. With him being the gentleman he is, he naturally wants to save you from your clumsy moments. When your tripping on the carpets, forgetting your umbrella on a rainy day or even have hair in front of your face, he’ll become your fixer upper and provide your needs. He doesn’t mind lending you his umbrella, sliding your hair behind your ears and catching you from falling he’s happy to be your anpaman. He’s so understanding of how much you cherish your privacy because he’s not a clingy person himself, but every once in a while he would love to hold hands with you, pat the top of your head and let you know through words how much he adored you.

Negative Side: In the beginning, it was a challenge to have Jinyoung fall in love with you because as I mentioned earlier, he doesn’t seem like a person who would fall in love easily. He first thought of you as his innocent sister that he wants to protect from all harm and would scare away guys that would try to date you. He’s also very savage when it comes to expressing his love to you so it might come out cold, but that’s not his intentions. For example, if you blow his a kiss, he would act like he’s disgusted and flick it away. He actually loves you blowing kisses at him and would want you to keep doing it. He express his love in a different way even though it might not be the best through his actions.

But...: This man is a living poet and very talented in the arts. Once he realized how much he loved you and wanted to make you his girlfriend, he returned your feelings through a song he written, produced and sung along with his members. He even made a music video about it sharing all the pictures you took of you two together with your permission of course and expressed through his song how happy he was to have you apart of his crazy life and that your the only girl on his life that only made him feel this way. It was your favorite gift from him ever since you made it official.

Out of everyone, I ship you with...Doyoung

@starrdustville I know this was super long, but I hope this somewhat made your day/night. Thanks so much for your patience love yaa.✨💗

[mullethyuck]

get to know me tag

i got tagged by the super rad @icecreamistheelixroflife, thanks dude!!

rules: answer the questions and tag 10 followers you want to get to know better

(putting it under the cut though bc it’s long)

first name: ash

last name: i don’t really wanna give that out so i’ll give you my middle name lmao it’s beth

age: 23

hair color: currently it’s like half my natural color (brown) and half....teal? i guess?? idk man it was purple, then blue, then green, then i tried to strip the color but it didn’t work so now i’m trying to grow it out and it’s a mess pls save me

favorite fruit: pineapple is my shit tbh

favorite season: summer bc i’m a ho and all i own are crop tops plus it’s my birthday season

favorite animal: sharks!! my fave is the cookie cutter shark they’re rad af

favorite fictional character: iwaizumi hajime is my best boy i deadass have a tattoo of his name

favorite tv show: haikyuu!! oh man idk how many times i’ve binged it lol i quit counting after rewatch #6

favorite color: black bc i’m going through my emo phase

dog or cat person: both ofc

star sign: gemini

height: 5′2″ (157cm)

put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 4 songs:

4419 // stray kids

record me // kim dong han

down and out // the griswolds

quit // lany

grab the nearest book next to you and turn to page 23. what is line 17? i’m not at home right now so the only book near me is an empty notebook i’m gonna use to work on fanfic after i finish this post tbh

ever had a song or poem written about you? not that i know of, no.

when was the last time you played air guitar? you know what i don’t think i’ve ever played air guitar...but fun fact whenever i feel awkward my panic response is to do the robot so i did that a few hours ago

what’s a sound you hate? one you love? oh god i hate the sound of people chewing...i love asmr (i listen to it every night to fall asleep) but i will never understand why people enjoy listening to someone eat in high definition like i really can’t handle it. but i love the sound of skates on ice, especially the sound of landing a jump or stopping in hockey skates. actually i love any hockey sounds tbh i’m a huge hockey fan

do you believe in ghosts? obviously, yes. i’m like 99% sure i’ve seen a ghost actually

do you believe in aliens? hell yeah and i’m ready to be abducted

do you drive? if so, have you crashed? yes and yes rip

do you like the smell of gasoline? god no

what’s the last movie you’ve seen? uhm honestly i don’t even remember, i think it was ocean’s eleven?? i barely ever watch movies ngl

what’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? ok major trigger warning here but like five years ago my self harming was the worst it’s ever been and literally every inch of my body from the chin down was covered in cuts, burns, bruises, etc so that was rough to get over lmao

do you have any obsessions right now? i mean have you seen my blog? i’ve also been obsessed with shameless though wow i missed that show anD SPOILER ALERT BUT I’M SO HAPPY MY BOY MICKEY IS BACK

do you tend to hold grudges? nope. getting too personal here again bc that’s my Brand but i have borderline personality disorder so i’ll get super pissed about something then ten minutes later i’m over it and it’s like it never happened

in a relationship? nah

tumblr crush: this blog is super new so i don’t think i really have one yet just bc i haven’t been following any of these blogs very long...but if i had to pick it’s probably @kkyuun just bc they’re super sweet and their gif edits are amazing

dream trip: ireland!! also after i finish school i wanna teach english in either japan or korea so i guess that counts as well?

post your most recent selfie: well i already did for selca day so here it is i guess

ok i tag @mildlystressedout, @cosmicjooheon, @jyp-stray-kids, @twinrejects, @kimkkibum, @montothebebee, @monstaxamirite, @emotiadouche, @jaebumagase, @monbeslay, and @p-a-r-a-d-o-xx!! feel free to ignore this if you’ve already done it or just don’t want to lmao love y’all x