#sorry for the mini infodump about my life lol

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I genuinely thought you just had a bunch of posts queued and has abandoned the account or died or something like a year ago/hj

I never have the energy to queue more than like, 20 posts at once, but I HAVE kind of died over the past few months lol. College is fun but draining asf, and i've been going though alot socially and mentally. I am slowly trying to transition back onto this blog though, as soon as i figure out how to celebrate a certain follower milestone that RLLY crept up on me (seriously though you guys are crazy(lovingly) and the love I get on this blog keeps me going) in the meantime please take these cool rocks that i photographed with my new macro lens d200 that I adore:

none as cool or as pretty as The Rock, of course

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how would you advise someone with anxiety to socialise approach their gemini crush? or is this hopeless and i should give up? im trying to not be as shy and take opportunities for 2021 but im super nervous 😩 i know air signs don’t like shy people

hi angel!! it’s never hopeless omg pls don’t give up!! you can do this!! i know dealing with anxiety and overcoming shyness are so hard, those are two things i heavily focused on the past two years; but it IS possible!! i believe in you!! 🤍

as someone who also has anxiety + a gemini moon, maybe i can give a bit of advice! i can say first off, despite what you might think, gemini placements are GREAT to be around when you have anxiety; because they actually don’t mind if you’re a bit reserved and quiet! they have no issue doing all the talking, and get excited when they meet someone more reserved as they enjoy prodding at people to open up lol. it’s like a little game for them. also, gemini placements tend to have a natural overthinking/nervous energy, so they tend to empathize with those who have similar habits (i know my anxiety mixed with my gemini moon causes immense overthinking and nervousness personally 🥴). if you’re upfront about your anxiety with a gemini, they often understand. i’ve opened up to my super-gemini friends about my panic disorder, and although they don’t suffer from disordered anxiety, they empathize with and relate to a lot of my issues such as overthinking, public nervousness, etc!

also i don’t actually agree that air signs don’t like shy people!! i’m relatively shy  myself (or used to be! i’ve changed a bit the past year) and majority of my closest friends throughout life have been exclusively air signs! air signs like to talk...a lot, so if you’re listening and letting them infodump on you? they’re gonna love having you around!! honestly two talkative air signs (or fire) together is almost too much, neither will get a word in lmfao💀

of course i will say, air signs/geminis especially are not super into comfortable silence or silence of any kind, so they probably aren’t gonna wanna be around someone 24/7 who isn’t talkative. but that geminis whole chart of course can change that! but at first, as you’re getting comfortable, it really won’t bug them! and honestly anyone who judges you for being quiet/nervous when it comes to socializing is so not worth your time and energy!!

as for approaching, i find geminis do best when you let them talk about their interests, or bring up a common interest! if they post an ig story, reply to it sparking a convo! try to get them to infodump the stuff they like on you and if you can relate/draw out a convo about it? they will l o v e that!! with air signs it’s all about mental stimulation; so i recommend just initiating convos with that in mind! they love the conspiracy theory talks, roast sessions, teasing/playful flirting, talking about their interests especially, etc!!! geminis really like to feel heard so, if you’re letting them go on rambles it feels like connection for them, even if you’re not really relating back and rather just encouraging / supporting their rants. 

if your anxiety is super bad as well, don’t be afraid to just chat via social media! air signs tend to be heavily into the socials and are usually decent texters (depending on mercury). as for hangouts, just recommending this as someone with anxiety as well, do a first date or hangouts with lots of distractions (when its covid safe ofc)!! stuff like eating out and movies i found were always terrible for me, it’s too intimate and/or quiet. i also get food-anxiety lmao so that just worsened it but idk about you!! i prefer stuff like arcades, mini-golf, video game sessions, walks, shopping, etc because you can always just talk about the games/mall/scenery/etc and get distracted by the things around you when u get nervous!

anyway best of luck angel!! i hope 2021 goes great for u!! sorry this answer is a little scattered, i’m having a brain fog moment rn 🥺✨

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this is an ask based thingy but im really in the mood to infodump so im just gonna answer them all under the cut !

Favorite video game?

starting off with the absolute hardest question huh? i can’t possibly name ONE favorite game of mine because i adore my favorites for many different reasons. my overall favorite video game is ffxv or botw. ffxv because it has brought me so much joy for such a long time, and because i have such a connection with the characters. botw because i was actually in the fandom when it first got announced in 2016 so i got to be there when the hype was at an all time high– and finally being able to play the game after waiting for so long was an unforgettable experience. i have more favorite games but ill talk more about them in the ‘’special place in ur heart’’ question.

First console you owned?

my first console wasn’t a console. my friend and i used to play on her nintendo dsi all the time and at one point tiny little me reeeally wanted one of my own so i saved up and got one in [redacted] when i was 7. my first actual console was a wii though, we got that around the same time.

A game that holds a special place in your heart?

ffxv and botw mean the absolute world to me, but super mario galaxy and skyward sword are very important to me too. skyward sword is the game that got me into zelda which got me into anime which got me into final fantasy etc etc etc.  super mario galaxy was the first non-mini game collection and more adventure story-ish game i played. i was so proud when i beat it for the first time and mario was my first ever ‘’fandom’’ :’) 

Favorite video game character?

bro. i cant pick just one so i’ll choose one per game : prompto, ryuji and link. they were all my comfort characters at some point and i projected like crazy onto them. this doesnt mean that i wouldnt absolutely die for noct or zelda. 

Least favorite video game character?

i dont think theres anyone i distinctly dislike? i always talk about hating ardyn but that’s because he’s just a salty bitch. as a character i think he’s a great villain and i rly love him. i honestly always end up liking everyone somehow, maybe there is someone i just forgot about but i cant remember at all. 

Favorite genre?

adventure games, or action rpgs. 

Video game character you’ve had a crush on?

every character ever, but i distinctly remember the moment i fell in love with prompto sjghfkshd i was watching a playthrough of xv in december 2016 because i didnt have a ps4, and the guy got to the scene in galdin quay where the bros learn insomnia fell. i had watched about 6 hours of the game by that time and wasn’t particularly interested in the characters but not uninterested enough to drop it. i hadnt even gotten a good look at the characters faces yet, so when the camera zoomed in on prompto when he said ‘’might not be save for us here!’’ i noticed he had freckles. oh god. oh fuck. oh my god hes fucking cute. oh my god better watch 30 hours of this game now

First video game you remember playing?

wayyy before i got my own gaming systems, my then-best friend had a gamecube in her attic. i was around 5 or 6 at the time. whenever i was over at her house and we didnt know what to do, she’d sometimes propose to play ‘’mario kart’’. important is that we are dutch, and i was a literal child. i thought mario KART meant it was a fucking card game, so i always declined whenever she asked. on one fateful day, i finally gave in and was pleasantly surprised it was in fact not a card game, but a viddy game. so we played mario kart double dash. (…i had never played a video game in my life besides browser flash games and was Very Very bad)

Age you started gaming?

so i played my first video game that i didnt own when i was about 5 or 6. then i got my first supply of games at age 7/8, but i dont really consider that time to be when i started ‘’gaming’’. i’d say that was when i started mario galaxy, so i’ve been playing video games for real (ie. story adventure games with boss battles) for about 6 years now.

Hardest video game you’ve played?

this is gonna sound stupid, but the witcher 3. there’s like 7 difficulties and i played on the EASIEST and still had a hard time, i just couldnt get used to the combat. i had the same problem with assassin’s creed syndicate, but after about 10 hours i actually knew what i was doing, and ive played the witcher longer than that and still am clueless. this is kind of an unpopular opinion but i dont particularly like that game

Video game you’ve spent the most time on?

i guess i am what you’d call a casual gamer; i really like video games but during a normal school week i only game for like 2-6 hours. most of the time i dont play for like 2 weeks if im busy. gaming has kind of taken over my life not because i play so much but because i get so emotionally invested lol i’m currently on summer break and even now im not playing a lot because of exhaustion and executive dysfunction. this derailed slightly but the game i’ve played the most despite my casual gamer status is …. … …. ffxv. surprise, right? the runner up is botw, but xv wins by a landslide. 630+ hours. botw is 350. my main save in ffxv is almost 200 hours i think. damn. i really managed to keep myself entertained with that game… (………i was thinking recently, since the loading screens in xv are so long, how much of this total amount was spent watching screens. i imagine it’s several hours, especially if you fast travel a lot.)

Most embarrassing gaming moment?

many moments in my gaming experience are embarrassing, but a more recent one: i was in xv’s postgame, beating some dungeons on my new save file. i had just finished daurell caverns and hadn’t saved in about 2 hours. (uh oh) i was driving around in the regalia type d and got to the big cliff near lestallum, and remembered someone made a gif of jumping in there so i wanted to try it too. i imagined the game would just put me back on the road, like it does when you crash into something. except it didnt. i got a game over. where was my last save? 2 hours back all the way in hammerhead. yippee.

Scariest video game you’ve played?

i never play horror games, cuz for me games are supposed to be relaxing experiences. no hate towards horror games of course, they just stress me out. the only time ive played horror is when friday the 13th was for free on ps+, and my friends really wanted to play it. (theyre kinda addicted to it now. huh) they had already gotten over the initial fear of having jason chase you, but i was still terrified. i can play the game without getting scared now tho. the horror sound effects just rly freaked me out at first jhsdkghsd

Most memorable gaming moment?

playing breath of the wild for the first time, or beating it for the first time. both experiences were filled to the brim with excitement and nostalgia. seeing botw as a blank slate, a world for you to explore, having no idea where you’re going… that was pretty incredible. now i know every nook and cranny of the map, so i wish i could play it for the first time again. i was so incredibly immersed. beating it was insane. i cried for 30 minutes and the end wasnt even sad, i was just so amazed at the fact that i was really here, playing breath of the wild, it was really real. the fucking main theme in the background (which i cannot for the life of me listen to without crying) didnt help with my emotions sgkdjh

Video game character you wish you could meet in real life?

…………..its prompto again. maybe 2017 me …. was .. kind of a kinnie

PC, Xbox, Playstation, or Nintendo?

i dont care about console wars at all, but i think hardware-wise, pc is the best, because if you have a good pc you can basically do anything. i however do not, so i just play on consoles. ive never particularly liked xbox, so i only play ps4 and nintendo. not the switch though. its kinda petty, but my best friend and i really dont like the switch djghks

Gaming company you’re most loyal to?

none. i used to call myself a nintendo nerd (oh my god…. i m. gonna die) in like 2015 but since the switch came out and since i got a ps4 they kinda lost me. i still like their game series of course, but as a company i don’t care for them. the only reason i see square enix as one of ‘’my’’ gaming companies is because ffxv took up like 70% of my gaming experience, but besides final fantasy i don’t really love them too much either.

If you could only play one video game for the rest of your life, which would you choose?

atm i’m really into ffxiv because theres just so much to do, but that’s just a new, possibly temporary interest. if i had to choose, i’d say botw. maybe i’d say ffxv, but i feel like running around doing nothing in that game isnt very fun, because the world is sorta empty after completing every quest and getting to level 120. in botw, just fucking around on your horse is still really relaxing and nice. 

Do you use strategy guides?

yup. in certain games i try to avoid them but i usually end up stuck or in need of advice. i couldn’t have gotten so many p5 trophies if not for the internet lol

How often do you use cheats?

never, simply because the games i play often do not have cheats. unless im playing the sims and are in need of a motherlode, i dont use them.

Competitive or single player?

single player. im bad at video games and like to do stuff at my own pace. online multiplayer can be fun every now and then in games like mario kart 8 or splatoon, and i also like teamwork stuff like ffxiv or comrades. but ultimately, i prefer playing on my own.

Video game character you want to/have cosplayed?

have never cosplayed, dont have plans to either, but it would be fun to cosplay link. omg. i just remembered i have that fucking chocomoogle shirt… sorry link im gonna slap on some sasuke hair, black jeans and ugly sneakers 

Ever go to a video game convention?

i have not, i have however gone to three (3) video game concerts which is basically the same thing. 

Hardest boss fight you’ve been in?

the hardest bosses for me are usually the ones with a gimmick. you have to use a certain item or tactic to beat them or something. other hard fights for me are when you fight someone with a similar skill set. (in ffxv, this happens twice, once with the iggy-noct sparring match and once against ardyn. somehow, the final boss was easier than getting the prince to eat vegetables.) i don’t know an actual example of THE hardest boss fight ive been in though. at the time, the first bowser battle in mario galaxy was the hardest thing in the universe and i got stuck for like a month. currently, i’m having trouble with the riku-ansem fight in kh1. 

Video game you wish you could burn from your memory?

the zelda cdi games? no, i dont really know. i dont hate a game so much that i’d want to forget about it altogether, but i dont exactly love ocarina of time that much. it hasnt aged well and playing it on the gamecube for the first time in 2015 wasnt a good idea. im sure it was revolutionary at the time, but i cant handle the outdated controls gsdgksjs 

Favorite gaming series?

see, i love ffxv itself more than the entirety of the zelda series, but i dont love ff as a SERIES more than the zelda games. so if were talking series, zelda for sure. i fucking love those games and they mean a lot to me. 

Do you skip tutorials, or find them useful?

i often skip them because i cant pay attention, but then find that i need them anyway. so i usually do skim through them. 

Best online gaming experience?

one really good one happened a few days ago in ffxiv, some guy and i exchanged emotes for like 30 minutes and it ended with us becoming friends on psn :’) ppl dont usually emote back at me in that game so this was really wholesome and nice gjshksdj 

Worst online gaming experience?

i dont really have a worst? theyre more annoying. think try harders in gta online killing you 15 times in a row because they want to show you how good they are or something. magically, online gaming hasnt been too hard on me (mainly because i dont game online that much)

Why do you game?

it brings me joy. it’s a fun way of relaxing, while being stimulated at the same time. games have meant a great deal to me the past 6 years and i wouldnt want to lose them for the world.

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@memesupremo encouraged me to infodump about my dice a little bit so I’m gonna lol

These are dice specific to certain characters: for the most part I tried to keep it to dice I bought with a character in mind, or that I wanted in a trade for that reason, so there’s a bunch of dice that I use consistently for certain characters (chessex shadow borealis are Elyss, Idri, Tsakesh, and Kiele dice for example) and some of these get swapped around depending on if they fit someone else’s palette (the crystal caste green magma see a lot of use cause they’re my top favorite set). Also a lot of these photos kind of suck, but now I wanna do Nice Photoshoots of dice palettes at some point...? :3 

HERE’S THE INFODUMP PART sorry if you’re on mobile :’D 

Elyss has a bunch more single/ random loose green or blue dice in her bag, but most of those are more, like, ‘generic dice for any Woodsy Character’ rather than Elyss Dice in particular. I REALLY love her malachite looking dice, I think they’re crystal caste green silk? And the big green set is my favorite set. They’re alsoooo my luckiest set, both d20s rolled a 20 on their first roll and that kind of set the vibe for their performance :D

IDRI has a ton of dice just cause purple and gold is an easy aesthetic to buy for, lmao. The big gold ones are just shitty cheap dice that came in the wrong color and that I just straight-up painted lol, but I’m really excited about the metal micro minis, which are pretty hard to find. Idri also has my OTHER favorite die, the crystal caste gold mist d20. So beautiful... so impossible and expensive to find full sets of... ;A;

I feel kinda bad that Juniper only has the one set... ? But these were the first dice I ever bought specifically for a character, so maybe that makes up for it a little bit. June’s hard because her color palette is like... soft blue (already have perfect ones), browns (mostly ugly dice) and soft yellows (mostly ugly dice) lmao :’D

Aubree also uses a lot of my Generic Green Dice but these are her sets. I’d like more brown dice for her/ truffles too, but again... mostly they’re ugly... :I Also I got the blank mini hex chest cause I want to design her family’s crest and get it laser’d onto there at some point :D

So... Nyssa has a lot of dice mostly because spring green is my favorite color and I originally bought em for me, lol. But the mini pink glow dice are Hers (I want a full set of these for her!) as well as the green d20 with white numbers, which idk if you can tell but it has pink flecks :3

Kiele’s aesthetic is really easy to buy for. The gold glitter dice were actually all gifts (from Kiele’s DM) and the top set I bought on the same day as Juniper’s, so, the second set I ever bought for a specific character. Not pictured: crystal caste gold mist, which I bought cause I wanted em but which definitely fit her aesthetic as well

Okay so, I only included the full set for Tsakesh because I felt bad he only had three dice, and I did buy those with him in mind, they just turned out to be differently colored than I thought (I was picturing, like, ravenclaw blue/ bronze). But I really like the blue with green numbers, all of which were trades I’m pretty sure, and would love a full set for him

MEL IS SURPRISINGLY HARD TO BUY FOR :’D Purple dice are super common, but lavender dice specifically are impossible to find. I guess kraken did some recently but they’ve got... the dang kraken logo on them... sigh. Anyway her d20 looks like garbage in this pic for some reason but in real life it’s not too bad. It’s white with lavender speckles :)