#spacy's stuff

[spacy-thoughts]

I’ve been reading and reading-reading one of the best JJK fics I’ve ever read, which is:

“the heroine is annoying, but she dies spectacularly at the end” by SiqwithaQ on AO3 or @hockeyisforthegays PLEASE go read it, good shit!!! It’s got time travel, character study AND interesting dynamics!!! Not ship focused but I think that really adds to fleshing out more characters than a romance centered fic would, I’m so for it!

There’s already a lot of conspiracy jokes (which I find funny every time) but thought I’d add in my two cents ^u^

[spaciebabie]

would you believe me if i said i kept this mostly spoiler free...?

[miniorheadcanons]

doctor who pokemon headcanons!

starting this little side project of a pokemon au / headcanons for doctor who! i have some characters done (some i'm not sure abt) but and just wanna share what has been fizzing abt my brain for a while.. so to first establish how this au will work:

the pokemon are not intended to be straight correlations to the characters personalities and instead more focused on what they might use. obviously a character who is loyal will value a loyal pokemon but im not necessarily giving an evil character an "evil" pokemon with zero nuance in relation to the decision.

a lot of this is based on my interpretation of the character so be aware that you may disagree with them. im happy to take suggestions on things though!

my main is @lyricalnonsens3 but im posting this here.

[starrspice]

*points at you* you're cool

It is YOU who is in fact cool

[byanyan]

a six song soundtrack

RULES. if you're tagged, make a new post with links to music and/or lyrics describing the following...

AN EVENT THAT DEFINES YOUR CHARACTER'S PAST

next semester - twenty one pilots

i don't wanna be here i don't wanna be here can't feel my legs i might suffocate there's a pressure in my chest i don't wanna be here i don't wanna be here what's about to happen what's about to happen i remember i remember certain things what i was wearing the yellow dashes in the street i prayed those lights would take me home then i heard, "hey kid, get out of the road" can't change what you've done start fresh next semester

HOW YOUR CHARACTER SEES THEMSELVES

jesus of suburbia - green day

i'm the son of rage and love the jesus of suburbia the bible of "none of the above" on a steady diet of soda pop and ritalin no one ever died for my sins in hell as far as i can tell at least the ones i got away with and there's nothing wrong with me this is how i'm supposed to be in a land of make-believe that don't believe in me

at the center of the earth, in the parking lot of the 7-eleven where i was taught the motto was just a lie it says "home is where your heart is," but what a shame 'cause everyone's heart doesn't beat the same it's beating out of time

HOW OTHERS VIEW THEM

she's a rebel - green day

she sings the revolution the dawning of our lives she brings this liberation that i just can't define well, nothing comes to mind she's a rebel, she's a saint she's the salt of the earth, and she's dangerous she's a rebel, vigilante missing link on the brink of destruction

THEIR CLOSEST RELATIONSHIP

i wonder... - j-hope (ft. jung kook)

i wonder everything about us tell me what we do i wonder what we’ll be like 어떤 모습일지도 (i wonder what we’ll be like) and how we be livin’ our lives 세월의 야속 앞에 (will things stay as they are,) 변함없는지도 (even in the face of cruel times?) 미련하게 궁금해 (i wonder foolishly) i wonder everything about us

A MAJOR FIGHT SCENE

victory song - stray kids

listen to this 승전가 (listen to this victory song) roll the dice hunnid times 눈 감아도 알아 (even when i close my eyes i know) roll the dice 다 던져 난 (roll the dice, throw it) 승전가 all the time (i win all the time) 귀 닫아도 알아 승전가가 들려 난 ayy (even when i cover my ears, i still hear the victory song) 승자의 여유 얼굴에는 미소 씩 (a laidback victor, a smile spreads on my face) 누가 나 같아 누구도 나와 (who else is like me, there's no one) get the (oops) out of here 너무 향기로운 꽃길 꽃향기에 취해 만취 (i get intoxicated by the scent of flowers on this very fragrant path) 더 높은 곳을 향해 날아 (flying to a higher place) 존재 자체가 반칙 (that in itself is cheating) 절대 멈출 리 없어 (i can never stop) 다 던져 i'll go all out (throw it all, i'll go all out) 난 어차피 이기는 싸움에 덤벼 (i'm going to win the fight anyway) 다 던져 ayy (so throw it all out) 절대 후퇴는 없어 (retreating is never an option) 패기와 객기로 자신감 넘쳐 다 던져 ayy (with confidence that’s filled with spirit and vigor, throw it all) 승자의 함성 oh (a victor's shout, oh)

OPENING CREDITS / END CREDITS

burn it - agust d (ft. max)

불을 붙여봐 불을 붙여봐 (light it up, light it up) 뭐가 됐든 그래 말야 새꺄 불을 붙여봐 (no matter what, that's right, bastard, light it up) 과거의 너 현재의 너 (whether it’s the you of the past or the you of the present) 뭐든 좋으니까 새꺄 그래 불을 붙여봐 (it’s all good, so just light it up bastard, that’s right) 타오르는 태양이 될는지 (will you turn into a burning sun) 아니면은 타고남은 재가 될는지 (or into the ash that remains after a fire) 언제나 선택과 결정은 너의 몫 (the choice and decision is always yours) 과감한 포기 또한 용기임을 잊지 말기를 (may you never forget that a bold surrender is also a form of courage) i see the ashes falling out your window there’s someone in the mirror that you don’t know and everything was all wrong so burn it till it’s all gone yeah yeah yeah burn it 내 안의 소리 (the voice inside me) yeah yeah yeah burn it i want it want it want it woah

cut deep - matt maeson

don't speak when i talk, man, uh godspeed when i walk, man, mm i speak from my chest, fam, mm bounce back when i lost, scraped off all the rust i'm just really tryna rock now whatcha think, i don't fall? whatcha think, i'm not strong? we're all just tryna move along cut deep and i'm still alive i talk my shit 'til the day i die 'cause oh, baby, i live oh, baby, i tried cut deep and i'm still alive i talk my shit 'til the day i die 'cause oh, baby, i live oh, baby, i try

BONUS NON-NEEDLEDROPS FROM THE SOUNDTRACK

freaking out - the wrecks / fire - bts / young and menace - fall out boy / fake you out - twenty one pilots / it's alright - mother mother / toothpick - biting elbows

tagged by:ㅤ@mxldito forever ago & @violetgleams slightly more recently (ty both sm!!! ♡♡♡)

[mavibonghostexpress]

Can I see yong bao and gator? If you can

I miss read this earlier ack

Spent a bit on this so-

[marsbotz]

ALSOOOO man i will never forgive casual sg fans for their peabrain takes on gihun in s2. THINK……

[sunshine-1nc]

Sooo I redesigned my Timekeeper sona and made a new banner!!

[arsuf]

Starfield really said let’s copy No Man’s Sky homework just make it a lil different

[quick-drawn]

forever walking the line between selectively sharing bits and pieces of jesse's backstory for the secret agent cowboy vigilante aesthetic & just spilling it all in one long, detailed hc post so i'm not the only one suffering with this information.

[kats-kradle]

@lady-merian wHAT you WHAT

*prev is the blog you reblogged this post from as a surprising amount of people didnt know it on my previous posts

[spaciebabie]

im ill.

[milfbrainrot]

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this is hypocritical bc i also do nothing but complain about other people in fandom, but i do feel like fandom is... so much more complaining about other people these days than actually engaging or making things. or at least that's kinda where i've landed myself in a bad little cycle due to other people complaining first lol.

i have always had a sense of emotional paralysis with fanon creation that was able to be remedied by me having more time for it in the past to truly take as much care as possible. and now i really don't have that, be it to make sure i'm doing things in-character or not representing something badly. so i just don't make anything. and idk, i feel like it would be less difficult if there were less pressure from knowing all of these attitudes about what the fandom doesn't like more so than what it does like, since when a fandom DOES like something reblogs and comments are dismal.

a lot of times it's hard to think of things to say that aren't negative, which is why i think those posts happen so much. clearly i do this a lot. sometimes fandoms have more popular opinions on things and it feels inevitable to voice contrary opinions to make sure ur not insane, or idk to feel better at media analysis than the other people. and yeah lol sometimes popular fandom opinions are missing the point or you do not get the popular ship etc. it's good to have those discussions i think when done respectfully to try understanding why people think one thing, or pushing that hey something else also makes sense let's look there, etc, moreso collaboratively.

at the risk of romanticizing earlier fandom days, i guess there is something more general in the backlash now though? i imagine that on sites like livejournal, or i remember on deviantart, criticism was... kind of contained. your art might get one shitty comment or there might be deviantart stamps voicing Hot Takes you could then view the popularity of based on the comments/faves and how many people embedded it on their profiles. but there weren't mass reblogged posts with 120k notes about how boring an AU type is, or how stupid people are for shipping rather than worldbuilding, or how things that are genuinely skill issues more than malice are in fact malice so people aren't even allowed to explore and learn in their inherently amateur creations. it is easier to be hateful when a validated approved post is put on your dash affirming it or influencing that toward people and making it into a bigger deal than it needs to be to justify itself and all you need to do is hit a button to further the train.

like i just think there is such a higher expectation for perfect content tm catering to a mass appeal it would've been harder to measure and conform to before. every time i go on twitter the algorithm just gives me post after post of people going "i can't believe people think this character would do this" or "this headcanon pisses me off so much because___" or "ew how could people ship this?" ...all of which was absolutely present in fandoms before! like, i'm sure anonymous posting in particular saw a lot of these things get traction! but not in such a way where an opinion dragging something you do has 248 retweets putting it on ur feed and insinuating that ur mutuals will judge you next time you post a fic update with that thing. (and then ofc, as i do all the time, seeing people complaining = cue complaining about other people complaining.)

obviously we can just block people we don't like or whatever and it's up to us to not let contrary opinions get to us! i just guess this level of complaining has never before been so widespread and easy because you don't even have to say the thing yourself. you just have to hit reblog or retweet to voice something you otherwise would've kept to yourself with less care. and the numbers feel insane because of how much more popular online fandom is today than even 10 years ago, which... i think has brought on such a loss of etiquette in certain ways when fandom is less interactive and personal for like, tiktokers seeing a 30 second fancam and hitting like if op is lucky and scrolling by. algorithms making more personalized experiences make it so much easier to expect everything to cater to us so it's the end of the world when it doesn't. i could go off on a tangent about anti behavior but i won't. etc.

again i am hypocritical because i complain about other people in fandom endlessly (mostly... because of other people complaining about people like me first) and i am doing that here and i probs have reblogged lots of those things myself lol. obviously there are good convos to be had around how fandoms handle certain things! people are free to do that AND other people are free to post whatever kinds of creations they want AND people can block/mute/whatever any of the above! it's just... although fandom has always had its toxicity i do miss when it felt more fun and carefree and appreciative of imperfect contributions instead of... the balance we currently seem to have in a lot of cases.

it felt like we hit such a shift in ~2015 (anti stuff on the rise, representation convos around lexa dying, etc) that injected the expectations for mass media creators into literally anyone making anything at all for free and for fun. and as much as the ability to reblog/retweet/share around so easily can be beneficial for spreading good and building up fanon creators, i wonder if those critical convos wouldn't have gotten so intense and high-risk for anyone who didn't conform to some frankly impossible standards if it weren't for the intimidation of mutuals contributing to the 13k validating notes on a Hot Take. (and, in terms of anti issues, the ensuing callouts FOR making a mistake could get so much more traction than... telling people to Spread The Targeted Harassment Campaign Word by putting the effort into going and talking about it in their own journal.)

anyway, twitter bad and tumblr tags bad. and i really hope i can get to a point where i am less impeded by this sense of pressure keeping me from making things because it is honestly so hard now to take the limited time i have and pump out something that is either risky or out of character or inevitably imperfect and dare to post it. i am trying to do more with original works because of that, but i still love fandom! so it would be nice to engage with other fans through creating and sharing those joys more these days rather than only having the energy to engage with fandoms by seeing what other people are doing and then seeing these popularized takes and getting even further frozen about contributing lol. people are entitled to their opinions ofc and i need to just stay off twitter keep continually building up my ability to go "yeah that opinion is stupid / even if it's understandably contrary to my preferences i can still do what i want even though it feels more dangerous to know the amount of people who could conceivably ostracize me for it" as the sharing scale of Fandom Takes on too-influencing-friendly platforms continues to rise.

[byanyan]

02.     bag   /   purse.

a peek inside their...ㅤㅤ∘ ˚ ( accepting )

ㅤbyan has several different bags which they move their things between from day to day depending on what they're doing and which one best matches their outfit for the day. some of these bags are are larger backpacks or messenger bags while others are smaller, more purse-sized ones in a variety of styles, but the one thing that remains consistent across all of them is that they're cute. and pink, of course. 90% of their bags are bright pink, often coated in a layer of glitter that wasn't there when they were stolen purchased, and covered in a bunch of adorable keychains that noisily announce their presence as they walk.

given their lack of trust in leaving any of their belongings behind where others can touch, steal, and get rid of them, as well as their tendency to crash on couches and in alleys rather than returning to the group home most nights, they carry a lot around with them. this means they're using one of their backpacks more often than not, and that the thing is heavier than you'd ever expect just by looking at it. they actually prefer to use their smaller bags because they're all a lot cuter and a lot less bulky and burdensome, but unless they can leave everything they can't fit inside somewhere they feel is genuinely safe — like at lena's place or in sol's room — they simply don't feel comfortable not having everything on them at any given time.

ㅤthe main compartment of their backpack is always the most chaotic, filled with the widest variety of items. if it's a school day, their textbooks, notebooks, assignments, etc. might be present — maybe. if they felt like bringing them. you will consistently find their sketchbook, however, as well as a large pencil case of their various art supplies and occasionally the odd can or two of spray paint. a change of clothes isn't uncommon to find either — a full outfit just in case they spend the night somewhere or manage to get themself covered in blood again, as well as a large, thick, warm hoodie or jacket in the event that they're stuck outside overnight. if there's enough space left after that, they tend to carry a spare pair of combat boots too, for situations where their platforms are simply too impractical. their first aid kit usually gets shoved into this pocket as well, alongside various items they've stolen throughout the day/week, a few snacks (usually stolen), and a large pink water bottle that's absolutely plastered in stickers.

ㅤin the smaller compartment in front of the main one, byan keeps important but not constantly used items. their makeup bag, for example, along with an eye shadow palette or two, a hair brush, and their facial cleanser and moisturizer. the bag containing their stick & poke tools also resides here, stocked with sterile needles, bottles of ink, gloves, disinfectant, etc. you can usually find a few stray bottles of nail polish too, as well as their phone charger and maybe a loose knife.

ㅤthe frontmost pockets, significantly smaller and easier to access, are where their most used belongings are found. their wallet, a lighter or two, a pack of cigarettes, and at least two to three knives from their collection are all kept here. this is usually where you can find any weed they have on them too, oftentimes alongside harder drugs and any necessary paraphernalia required for their use. you'll also find their lockpick set, spare hair clips and ties, and any variety of jewelry from necklaces and bracelets to ear, nose, and lip rings and studs, all usually loose somewhere along the bottom of the pocket's lining. and, of course, in case of emergency, there's also a stash of glitter and stickers, and their (probably dead again) tamagotchi.

[ddejavvu]

hi!! can i req animagus reader x sirius where the reader accidentally tastes some catnip? thank you <33

"She's tweaking." Sirius decides, and James's brow furrows at the way your limbs twitch discordantly. You'd given a curious sniff to Remus's mum's cat's stash of catnip, and apparently it works on animagi as well, if the way you're rolling around in it is any indication.

"That stuff is strong. My mum only uses it around the holidays when she needs to make sure the cat isn't gonna bite anyone." Remus watches as your tiny, furred paw stomps in the middle of a pile of the stuff, sending it flying in all directions. The muted greenish-brown flakes are starkly contrasting the dark wood stain of the dining table, and James's strong arms shoot out to catch your writhing form when you misstep and your foot slips off of the surface.

"Darling! Be careful," James cries, cradling your furry animagus form to his chest, "We need to get you through this meal in one piece, we're visiting my parents next."

You've been hopping between parents' house to parents' house, avoiding the birthday boy's own family, on what Sirius calls his 'Birthday Tour'. You're having lunch at Remus's after a breakfast with your own family, and you're finishing the day up with dinner at the Potter's. James is right; Euphemia would kill her son if James showed up and told her you'd overdosed on catnip.

You transform back reluctantly, glad for James's support as the lasting effects of the catnip combine with the haze of transformation to make your knees weak and your mind dizzy. You let James cradle you against his chest while Sirius snickers at your spaciness, and Remus sets the lid firmly on the jar of catnip as he brushes the excess towards his mum's housecat.

"No fair." You groan, your voice muffled as you tuck your face into James's shoulder, "Cat gets to get high, but I don't?"

"My mum's food won't taste any better high," Remus levels a smirk at you, "Trust me, Sirius and I have tried. Just breathe through your mouth, darling, and swallow, don't taste."

[theoraeeken]

Jee having fun with her uncles Buck & Tommy!

Maybe Buck feeling a little 🥰😍 watching Tommy being in 'competent dad mode', even though he's not ready for their own 😂

okay this is everything actually if season 8 doesn't give us tommy playing with jee and buck noticably ovulating across the room i will riot

bucktommy / rated g / mild warning for non serious accidental injury to a child

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"-and take a nice, deep breath for me. This is going to sting a little, okay?"

It takes a few seconds for Buck's brain to come back online as he re-enters his apartment. It's been a quiet day so far, as quiet as any day off looking after his curious, hyperactive niece can be. They'd watched some TV, leaving some irritating cartoon pop song ingrained in his head, probably for the next week at least. Had some lunch. Afterwards, Jee-Yun had proclaimed her desire for ice cream with all the certainty of a biblical saint. Buck, a little soft hearted from an easy day surrounded by people he loves, agreed to go to the shop in search of some.

Maybe it's lulled him into a false sense of security, because he stares at the scene in his kitchen with a blank expression for a full three seconds before he galvanizes into action.

Jee's up on the kitchen counter, a little teary eyed, her bottom lip wobbling, blood trickling down her skinny calf.

"Woah, woah, hey," he says, rushing to Tommy's side, where he's crouched in front of the counter, "What happened?"

"Someone," he says, eyeing the slightly sheepish looking girl, "decided to ignore me when I said running full pelt around the place would end in tears."

"I'm sorry, Tommy," Jee says, her voice shaking.

"It's okay, chica. You're not in trouble. Tripped over the rug," he adds lowly to Buck, "Limbs everywhere, slid five feet, the whole ten yards."

Now he's a little closer up, he can see that. Her knee is all scraped up, a messy graze, but nothing deep. There's a little mark on her elbow, but no blood. Kids bounce, Hen once told him. Buck kinda wishes Jee would stop trying to test that theory out on him though.

"Now, stay nice and still while I get this cleaned up, okay sweetheart?" Tommy eases, turning his attention back to Jee, the full effect of his Cool And Unphased Firefighter Pilot shtick aimed at a tiny little person who doesn't even have a fully developed concept of consequence yet. It feels unfair. Buck's a whole ass adult and it's enough to make him spacy, "Do you know what this is?"

Jee looks from the antibacterial wipe in his hand, to Buck, and back to Tommy nervously, "No."

"This is a special kind of cloth that can get all the yucky stuff out of your cut, get it nice and clean."

"Like soap?"

"Kinda like soap, yeah," he nods, smiling, "It's gonna hurt a little bit, but that's how you know it's working. Ready?"

She nods, hands fisting in the skirt of her pink dress anxiously. Tommy swipes over the graze of her cut quickly and gently, efficient but effective.

"Brave girl, Jee," Buck murmers, rubbing a hand soothingly up her arm.

"Yes, she is," Tommy agrees, "Now, I'm going to put a plaster on this. Hold still for me-" She holds herself dutifully, solid like a rock, as Tommy smooths the dressing over the knee. It's probably overkill, but Buck knows that the power of belief in healing is almost as important as the actual healing bit.

"You did so good, Jee," Buck says, straightening up to plant a kiss in her hair. She giggles, grasping at him with her pudgy hands, "And so did you," he says, kissing him on the cheek. Jee shrieks with laughter the way she always does when Buck dares to show any kind of affection to anyone but her.

"Now, you," Tommy says, sweeping Jee off the counter, "Get settled on the couch, because it looks like your Uncle Evan got some cookie dough vanilla that's got your name all over it, kid."

Jee's face splits with a grin so wide it looks like it might hurt, then throws her arms around Tommy's neck, burrowing her face in his shoulder with a happy little sound, "Thank you, Uncle Tommy," The words are muffled into the collar of his shirt, but Tommy clearly hears loud and clear if the way his face scrunches up in delight is any indication.

Something heavy and dense swoops straight through the middle of Buck's core, through his chest and out through his stomach. Too much, too fast, too soon. Tommy gives Jee a final squeeze, swaying her a little so her tiny legs flop around, giggling happily until he puts her back down.

Jee cuddles up with a pillow on the couch, something that looks like elves on an acid trip playing on the TV while Tommy washes his hands and puts the first aid kit back in the cupboard and Buck gets three bowls of cookie dough ready for a good ol' fashioned sugar binge.

"She adores you."

Tommy looks up, even as Buck keeps his eyes resolutely on the ice cream.

"She's got a big heart," he says fondly, before adding, "Must be a Buckley family trait."

"She's a good kid," Buck grins, turning to look over at Jee, hugging one of the sofa cusions to her chest, so big against her that she can rest her chin on it.

"Yeah. Do you want kids?"

The ice cream scoop skids across the counter out of Buck's hand when he jerks in surprise.

Tommy laughs quietly, ducking his head to kiss his shoulder, "Not right now, Evan. Just... curious. You're good with her."

"So are you," he fires back. He knows he's being stupid, that he's acting defensive, and he doesn't even know what about. Jesus, he sucks when someone catches him off guard, "Do you want kids?"

It doesn't look like it bothers Tommy, who just grins like he knows better than to take Buck's knee-jerk panic personally. Probably because he does.

"Yeah. One day."

Buck can't help smiling back, "Yeah. One day."

They all squeeze onto the couch, Jee tucked in between them with enough sugar shovelling into her mouth for Maddie to have reasonable justification to murder him later. It's probably not how he would have described his ideal afternoon, but he can't find fault in it.