#srry I'm rlly emotional abt this

[fuushhh]

so.. with new lovejoy album came new thoughts abt sansnomaly song: Portrait Of A Blank Slate by lovejoy "But I'm just the same, I've got a boring name Across the board of what you want and what you came here for So I'll wait here for you I said, "Please, just let me stay" Oh, just let me stay Oh, just let me"

the "please just let me stay" line is what reminded me about IJAG for some reason it's like we urhgagrgasijdoihja

I know I'm ripping it out of context but JEESUS FUCKING CHRIST US WE WE

"Wake up Monday, now it's over Don't you know no one gets what they came here for? I could paint her, wrapped around her We could make such a pretty picture Oh, so happy, oh, oh, so happy"

"no one gets what they came for" becuz it's not real and he ain't real so we can't get what we want nor can he get what he wants and "oh so happy oh oh so happy" shows how fake this happiness is.

[firstdivisiongirl]

OH MY GAH HIIII !! I SAW THAT YOU DO MATCHUPS SO I WAS WONDERING IF I COULD A REQ FOR THAT BUT W TOKREV CHARACTERS ??? :DDDD i dont mind anyone tbh so dw abt choosing :33

ok i'll just drop some background info abt myself here :33

i'm aromantic + nonbinary, i am an entp 7w6 and i'm a pisces !! i like to draw, listen to music (either metal or just mainstream music i listen to whatever atp) and dance in my freetime !! :3

based on my personality ::

my friends tend to tell me that i'm the embodiment of the quote "dont judge a book by its' cover" cuz on the outside i act like a full on metalhead and really passive aggressive but at home i sleep next to a whole tower of plushies 💀🙏 and i collect stickers of silly little cats and otters (not my fault that they're so cute oml) i'm usually the clown of the group !! i tend to be hyperactive but my emotions change a lot- one second talking to me is like trying to get a toddler to pay attention to your teacher and the other is like trying not to get bitten by a rabid dog (my friend's words not mine). i tend to be a loud mouth srry . . . i do try to be quiet if necessary but if i get excited when talking i am a walking speaker . . . i get rlly excited if my favorite things are mentioned ?! like i would get rlly happy, smiley and would talk about it until i forget to breathe !! i like to consume horror media ?? idk if i can say that without sounding like an edgelord sobsob im sorry . . . i just love consuming those types of media (as a former kid w unsupervised access to the internet-) and i tend to ramble abt them along w other philosophical topics !! i like to discuss abt meaning of life, whether there are other universes, abt the capabilities of the human mind, etc. they're just so interesting!!! :] i guess im proud to say that my best trait is my humor 😋 maybe im overconfident abt this one cuz i just have pretty dumb sense of humor if im being honest frfr i tend to say things out of context . . . i like terrorizing my friends by saying the most outrageous things and overexaggerating them for the fun of it :333 though sometimes i kinda mean what i say

for my ideal partner ::

i'd say i would like someone who's fun to be around but at the same time they gotta be interesting for me to find them fun . . . like they gonna have smth to them that makes me wanna observe them like they're a lab rat being experimented on and being put under observation :33 ppl like that make me wanna see whats inside them and how they see the world around them !! i just love those kinds of ppl aaaaa ik im overdramatic for this one but like . . . i need someone who can handle me- as in my emotions and sometimes my way of loving . . . cuz if i did love someone, i would obsess over them and would dream of dying w them out of euphoria cuz being w my partner is the only thing that keeps me alive and human 😞 i wanna feel genuine happiness and pure bliss w my partner so thats why after that i think we should die together, that way we both know that finally we lived our life to the fullest (in my pov, 'the fullest' means you finally reach the climax of ur happiness/u live to the moment where you're the happiest you've ever been) (idk if that makes sense but that has always been my fantasy LAWD IM RAMBLING) need someone whos as crazy as i am :333 if he aint insane i dont want him fr i need to make him worse /j

i think thats all abt me :333 pls take ur time and make sure to put urself first btw !! aside from that, its ok if you ignore this one cuz at the end of the day its up to u <333 have a wonderful day/night mwah you're super cool

Hello! Of course you can have a matchup. Thank you for the kindness. I would like to warn you that I picked a somewhat controversial character. I hope you like it!

You Got...

Tetta Kisaki!!!

If boy can handle the chaos the is Shuji Hanma, he can handle you!

You wanted crazy...

Would love to see you smile when you get super excited about something! His favorite thing is to see the person he loves happy.

He is really really smart. So you would have very intellectual and philosophical discussions.

Would love that you aren't all you seem. Because he is the same way. You two can be badasses when out, but totally different when it is just the two of you (and Hanma sometimes when he is being Hanma and not leaving you all alone.)

Movie date nights. He'd let you pick it. If you're happy, he's happy.

[thinkin-bout-milgram]

Idk abt lore but have u ever considered muu and amane parallels

They both mention either “magic of sorry”( according to google translate) or “sorry spells” respectively, and sorry seems to be a recurring thing for both of their first trial songs, tho muu more then amane

Theyre both rlly childish and while amane was raised in an actual cult muu was in kinda cult of personality situation. Amane asks if shes a good girl and if she can be weak/spoil herself while muu does both those things on her own terms and wonders if shes a bad girl.

Both of them seem to admire their parents a lot, etc

Also, according to the amane minigram abt her parents, i kinda wonder if her dad was one kf the four leaders if it translates to “his people”. If thats true then it wld imply that tho amane holds a lit of respect and admiration for him, she doesnt see him as a father, thus why he appears like a robot thing in magic

Also while on amanes mv i definitely agree that riyone staged the accident but i think her more official role in the cult might be rituals, or more specifically healing ones, bc her pigtails are bandaids and shes the kne who first suggests praying for the orange cat.

Also the four faces behind the hurt orange cat seem ro be colorcodes for the four leaders praying for him, maybe suggesting that the cult believes that the four leaders can heal any wounds?

That wld mean that amanes treatment not only goes against the cults beliefs but the leaders authority as a whole

Anyways just some randkm thoughts that have been fermenting srry!

Hello again!

I definitely think that there's high overlap between Amane and Mu. They're also similar in the fact that they both had to endure a lot of pain (seemingly emotional and physical) before they got to the point of murder (Mu with the endless bullying, Amane with being literally tortured for indoctrination). I think that a lot of Milgram prisoners have some parallels between them; honestly, I think it could be really fun to take a look at how I could pair the prisoners up in terms of similarities, so thanks for that idea!

I'm not sure about translations and such, but I've always been under the impression that Amane's dad was away a lot? I don't remember where I got that from, I feel like she mentioned something about it though. I'd thought it was a "I respect my dad but he's always busy so these other people (the four robot leaders) basically raised me."

I think that Riyone running rituals makes a lot of sense! My interpretation of the prayer scene isn't necessarily that they believe that the leaders can heal all pain or anything, but rather that everything happens for a reason/God can injure and heal as desired so they shouldn't mess with it. Instead of using medicine, which is considered evil, they should pray and ask God to handle it for them. That's definitely what the cult leaders were preaching, though, so either way, Amane was definitely directly opposing them by healing the cat (you can especially tell because she puts a finger to her mouth as if to say "it's a secret" right before she's found out).

[cabinetduo]

ctubbo characterization master post

Ok so I was thinking abt ctubbo and characterization and how a lot of the fandom doesn't rlly have a solid grip on him (no shade its not on here mainly) whether it's bcs of lack of interest or exaggeration and like fandom lense or whatever (he tends to kinda get fucked ovr in ensemble fics) and then I thought well we talk abt scary nuke violence tubbo vs uwu beeboy or whatever but I was thinking there's definitely more to it then that bcs sometimes when I'm writing even I'm super insecure abt my portrayl of ctubbo so ig this post is kind of like a breakdown using some of my fav ctubbo things for me that could b useful 4 others as well

(This might b a little unorganized and like unprofessional-!!i will misspell and abbreviate a lot srry!!-but it's tumblr so who cares just don't expect too much cohesiveness I am writing this to get my thoughts out mostly

[DISCLAIMER!! most of this is my personal interpretation of ctubbo seeing as that's what ctubbo is mostly, what u interpret him as, but also its a bunch of notes and common traits that I got from awesome ctubbo fans and I'm mainly making it 2 help me :) < I'm not linking canon examples and evidence bcs I'm lazy and fuck that alsooo I'll mainly b focusing on ctubbo individually and not his relationships and such

ctubbos humor

I'm gnna start w ctubbos humor and irony and that kinda stuff. So like w ctubbo and characterization a lot of times ppl will take traits or speaking habits from the streamer and apply them to the character which is common in the general mcyt fandom but w ctubbo it's esp common bcs of cctubbos whole "ctubbo is just me but if I was put into certain situations" which we've kinda moved past seeing as that thought process worked better in the earlier seasons before ctubbo was morw cctubbo and less a result of his circumstances, his experiences, and ctubblings drawing lines between things << this isn't my main focus rn tho there is a huge distinction between cc and ctubbo

To get to the point ctubbo is a pretty serious dude but also he's not, there's a fun middle ground that I like where ctubbos humor has definitely become darker as he's aged bcs of his circumstances. One of the best examples I can thing of is this line from elegy in eleven bars by ssootsprite

^^this definitely portrays ctubbos humor well imo, the dark irony and humor that often stems from taht fact that ctubbo will sometimes jsut do what he finds funny but usually those take form on a smaller scale if we want an actual cohesive character

ctubbo swiss army knife

Ive made a handful of posts abt this but one bit abt ctubbo that is often missed is the fact that he's been dehumanized throughout his story which led to him internalizing it not seeing himself as a person entirely, more like a tool for others or a means to an end. I love love dsmp au fics but something some of them miss out on is ctubbos urge to serve others which stems into two branches that I call safety and self

When in a dangerous situation or around someone that he's deemed dangerous ctubbo will instinctively shift to politeness and servitude occasionally its his follower instinct<<this is bcs of manburg specifically cschlatt though it was really instilled to him by cdream after the whitehouse fight (where he called him a follower) and the disc saga finale (called him a sidekick). This happens sometimes in canon but enough times for it to be a full blown like, thing my fav explanation of this is augustus evergreen by thatweirdguyinthebushes on ao3

The second facet "self" is more deep, it's ctubbos actual beliefs, that he's not worth anything if he's not doing something or his tendency to work as a means of avoiding emotion. He doesn't see himself as a person or a child, often forcing himself into the roll of an adult to meet a goal of serving others (his nlm presidency) < this also comes from Manburg but can also be tied to my fav quote "a good kid and a better spy" (not gnna go too into ctubbos spy mentality bcs that's a whole other essay LOL) after being repeatedly handed jobs that are not meant for kids, responsibities much larger than him, he internalized all of it and tied it to his self worth and how he sees himself

Fav FAVVVV example is this poem and art

by @/yellogazello which gets the point across by whacking u ovr the head w emotion and some ctubbo aesthetics that rlly do well 4 his character -> also I made 2 web weaves on all ^^^this if ur interested also I've got a bunch of analysis on it in #smpanalysis bcs it's my fave ctubbo is kind of naturally a follower but this isn't always a complete negative (see: the way he comfortably follows Tommy or the way he and Tommy willingly followed Wilbur- it isn't always an 100% bad thing but over the course of his life it's kind of been tainted

ctubbo logic brain

Tubbo "logic braining" something =/= him thinking logically it's him and his fucked up process that filters things through his weird logic that would make any stable person worried, his brain does flips to rationalize his own and others thought processes to make them make sense to him, it's the same kind of thinking that is responsible for his "safe people" its the same kind of thinking that makes him blame himself for things that were clearly out of his control. While ctubbo is often seen as a more "brain lead" character, most, hell, all of his core motivations are emotional >> the need to protect his loved ones, his people, the innocent, to live upto expectations, and so on. This ties into his protective sort of paranoid nature that he displays toward his loved ones that is sometimes misconstrued as controlling

A lot of ^^^^^ this can be tied to ctubbos relationship w attachments and belongings which is one of the dsmps overall themes, ctubbos logic being that attachment is irrational and only leads to being hurt but forming attachments and getting hurt against his better judgment

ctubbo and the nukes

One thing that is often lost in surface level depictions of ctubbo is the nuke plot. This is often used to characterize ctubbo as violent or immoral (which I won't deny he can be at times) but one key detail about ctubbos nukes is that they were always a last resort, no matter what he threatened or said he never ever wanted to use them, constantly emphasizing how crazy it was that he had access to so much power and how terrified he was of misusing it in the missing nuke stream w jack. ctubbo has always always been a peaceseeking character. Like w most things abt ctubbo there's a nice middle ground, though tubbo leans less towards chaotic and more towards solemn, esp when at an emotional low

The nukes hold a lot of symbolism for ctubbo and are often presented as an antithesis to the bee symbolism used for him > the nukes being him becoming more violent and straying from what is deemed moral as a defense mechanism, becoming worse than your enemies (stay soft by mitski etc) and the bees representing his innocence and the loss of it (a common theme w ctubbo and on the dsmp in general) tying to the more nature-y imagery that become professional/political in late s1 & 2 which then became technologybased and cold in s3 & 4

ctubbos emotional intelligence

Another thing that a lot of people miss about ctubbo is that he has very veryy little emotional intelligence. Post-Michael kidnapping and arguably pre-Michael kidnapping there was this (mildly popular) notion that ctubbo was together emotionally to the point where there were a lot of misunderstandings surrounding his actions but the thing is he isn't. When it comes to himself ctubbo is aware that he is effected by his trauma (he will often make references to it) but he never does anything about it, he views it as irritational and tends to compartmentalize and repress his emotions which often leads to him hurting himself and others. ctubbos responses to emotion range from pure apathy to overwhelming him to the point of tears (which we've seen once w the anniversary stream) He's also not very good with recognizing the emotions of others, while he is good at reading people and their intentions (mainly people he has close relationships with) he is generally extremely blunt sometimes to the point of hurting other people's feelings on accident which he usually apologizes for immediately afterwards. In fact, ctubbos bluntness and politeness are a fun contrast to experiment with if you're interested

With all of ^^^this stuff dissonance by shrugofgod does a rlly good job of this I'm just putting a small snippet but the entire fic is incredible w sm details and ctubbo intricacies it's so good

ctubbo survival and tragedy

ctubbo has survived a lot especially in comparison to other characters he is close to << that was badly worded, what I mean is a lot of the people in ctubbos life have died/were dead/are dead and he just isn't. Tragedy is a large part of ctubbo, if something is going right for him it will inevitably go wrong, things like stability don't exist for him, he doesn't trust it and why should he? His paranoia has consistently been proven to be justified over and over again. Dramatic irony is such a huge part of him, he's experienced so much and has survived through so much but its like he can't die and he has to live everytime.

I made a webweave abt this that pust cqs firey survival next to ctubbos cold survival, I think i do a better job explaining in the notes of that

And this post which is the best thing I've ever posted is basically a bunch of super talent tubblings who've written poetry abt this topic (and other ctubbo stuff but mainly this) if u wnna check it out

Most of these things can be heavily elaborated on (nature of the dsmp is to have incredible fleshed out characters that feel human and awesome and that make u crazy) but this is kinda a summary and I have others posts that kind of do that I just wanted to put all this in one place

More stuff ⬇️

This post is a succinct and well put ctubbo explanation/summary and a fave

And this post is wondas god tier dsmp characterism breakdown that will save ur life if ur a writer

This post is a fic recs post that has a lot of epic awesome dsmp writers but a lot of them write ctubbo bcs I'm biased

And finally here's a link to tubbo3091<3333 which a roleplay blog that has the most perfect ctubbo characterization ever in the world

[cutemeat]

wait as a newish fan can you tell me how / why rob is misogynist? (like besides his weird things on the podcast lol idk if theres more) and also who is jordan lol

ok im gonna say first of all i was mostly just joking in those tags ur referring to KJNFGDKJ just as full disclosure before I dig into this any further. ..

that being said, me joking abt that stuff in regard to rob is bc it just seems like rob is insecure about how he's contributed to a shitty system and really screwed someone (jordan reid, aka the original Sweet Dee) over personally and after being made more aware of his place in contributing to said system he's overcompensating while he's working thru some of that.... and uh. in all honesty it's something that i find funny and make jokes about cuz i am also someone with an extremely fragile ego n it feels good to deflect and make fun of someone else for having a fragile ego LOL

so it seems like rob's talking on the podcast and in other interviews abt misogyny n trying to 'correct' himself or pulling out that fuckin button on the podcast for 'Solves the North Korea Situation'.... i think this ties into him reconnecting with Jordan (who, like i said, was the og sweet dee who got booted from the production at the last minute largely as result of her n rob breaking up n none of the other guys backing her up...) and basically writing the MQ ep A Dark Quiet Death about that whole situation and the falling out.. idk it just seems like. maybe having to reconcile the fact he has been A Part Of The Problem and an asshole has gotten to him n again it feels like he overcompensates for that in the pod n i like to exploit those insecurities im familiar with in my own ways for laughs LOL. but yknow... i am a 20 yr old unemployed HS drop out on tumblr dot com n hes got a nice mansion and successful career in the film industry so i dont feel like im gonna hurt any feelings here..

so with all that context out of the way: i dont think rob is Actually some raging misogynist ... and if he is I wouldn't know either way cuz I Dont Know The Guy! so def take what I say here with a grain of salt I am very often not being serious and bad at using tone indicators so I do apologize if any of it gets confusing kjndfgkjd. he def has been misogynistic in the ways a lot of men will be without rlly thinking much of it (think dennis' obliviousness to how insane some of his logic about women sounds on sunny, but maybe less predatory but again idk the guy lol) but as of now he seems like he's more aware of that n better late than never n all that!

(once again.. a lot of my opinions here are mostly based in my own experiences and emotions projected onto people and situations I have only heard accounts of in articles/blog posts/podcasts n interviews so def keep that in mind. don't take me as the authority on anything lol. google 'jordan reid' + 'always sunny' and read thru her old blog posts about the situation if u are so inclined and draw your own conclusions! but like i said it's a mostly interpersonal thing between two ppl i dont know and it doesnt seem like there's much bad blood on that interpersonal level anymore rather than anger with a system that failed her. that being said its def a part of the shows history that shouldn't just be forgotten or discarded as it is apart of a larger issue anyway. srry this is all so messy if it wasnt obvious by how badly i am at talking abt this stuff i feel weird talking about strangers lives even celebs but yknow. tbh if i wanna make jokes abt this shit i should be prepared to explain myself anyway. like god im so bad at talking abt any of it seriously but i always wanna know all the dirt cuz I'm so fuckin nosy I love drama n gossip and Backstory!!!)

+ this is an older article that sorta sums up the events n links to her blogpost about it!

[yannietarot]

Not a request but is it okay if I can express my emotions? :( I feel safe vibes from u because of ur replies from the people that asks u 😞 Cuz u know how some "readers" get rlly mad from getting hate & the way they address it isn't professional.. BTW I like ur tumblr layout! I used my laptop & I find it very simple yet cute 🥰 (lavender color is my fav!)

I found your channel & out of all the prediction channels I could find, you're one of the few channels that are I guess "honest" & "genuine". Since you showed ur cards and all that... I found these BTS saga for 8 months & I can't escape from it no matter how many times I tried to walk away.

It all started because I've been in a toxic situation in my life (relationship actually) & i used these predictions as my coping mechanism. I regret doing it... I'm currently in a process of healing ❤️‍🩹 These predictions always drains me a lot to the point that I'm becoming a selfish person.

BTS tarot is very interesting and intriguing, I never knew people will do these kinds of stuff lmao. The member that caught my attention was v because of how well developed his overall character was. He definitely change over the course of years and I'm proud of him & the other members :)

I always think to myself if the people who indulge themselves in predictions & the readers who always do readings abt a famous person (especially their FS) never get bored? I mean, some are just repetitive while others are mostly fake ://

That's what I've observed during those months. Idk if these stuff benefits them but for me it rlly doesn’t.. except the part wherein I get to know about "spirituality" "TF" etc.

Though I don't believe in TF since God had already made our souls being independent. I'll think of it as a higher soulmate instead! I'm kinda curious how JK & V got awaken from their TF journey since... JK has a TF thing years ago but V's was so recent!

I always think that he might met someone that is actually his TF cuz, u know.. If you met ur TF in person then u'll get awaken or some sht. Which is like that in V's case cuz wow, it started since April 2021 if I remember it correctly lol

But then if I mentioned it that way I ended up getting hate comments from "spiritual sassaengs" saying that V have never met them! 💀

I used to believe in these predictions not late until I noticed a "pattern" from it that feels fake. So I stop, because new "prediction channels" are spreading some fake readings while the real ones left. So it's rlly hard to find a good tarot reader in youtube (except in tumblr)

Honestly speaking, I'm not referring to u or to all readers, psychics, etc but predictions aren’t always 100% guruantee. No matter how "good" you are, you shouldn’t be proud of it cuz... Why would u be proud of the things that will happen to a person... a literal PERSON!

And saying it to people's faces "Look! See? I was right." uhmm.. I find it creepy ngl. It's like... they've been "anticipating" for these scenarios to happen to THAT person! They have their own life and feelings too :( It's bad

I feel like these tarot prediction-ish stuff is similar to STALKING now! Trying to find all those details is disturbing grrr. Like imagine they been wasting their time while the person they tryna channel are prolly living their best life & having someone by their side.

I might want to vent more but I want to ask for ur consent. Take care as always :)

Good evening/morning/afternoon!

srry for the late reply ahh. I've been very busy in both my life & the readings I need to finish TT P.S For the people who used the ask box but didn't got any reply from me, I'll try to finish these readings first:

1.) JM & JK Career Reading

2.) JM's FS 3.) V's Current Energy

Once I'm done with those, I'll try to accept another request!

Your message is long but I'll try my best to give you the answer you’re hoping for even though I'm not good in giving advices TT 1.) Thank you for liking my layout! haha I find it plain in my opinion! 2.) Awee :( I'm grateful enough that you feel safe in my little corner 🙇‍♀️

3.) Whatever situation you're currently dealing with, you'll be able to overcome it! Don't give up yet and trust the process. Time will heal that is why for now, just enjoy the present and don't stress about the future ☺️ 

It is better to be yourself and not let people pull you down. About your toxic relationship, don't let the past or any bad behaviour patterns you experienced from it haunt you! There's no such thing as right person, wrong time. For me, it is more of a lesson for us. They are their for a reason, making us reflecting our actions and make things right If ever you get into a new one. Apply those lessons you learned from it!

So you won't be able to repeat the same mistake again. Ending a toxic relationship is not the end of the world! lol There are plenty of fishes in the sea that are much better than your previous. It is better to get new hobbies that are refreshing and new. More like getting out of your comfort zone 😁

If you do new things like painting, gardening, cooking, etc. You'll be able to forget about these saga & your toxic situation. Since you've mentioned here that you felt trapped from it. I mean who knows, maybe in the later years, the things you ‘ve never done before might lead you to success someday! 

4.) You shouldn’t be stressing yourself about BTS or any famous person life! It is VERY important to love and give attention to yourself 🤗 The future will reveal itself slowly. And that, I think it is better to be aware that everything they find in these predictions shouldn’t be taken seriously.

5.) That's why as a reader, I find it important to put a disclaimer in every readings I made. Since not everything are set in stone and I agree that tarot, birth chart, psychic or any prediction tools can not predict the whole picture/truth. So it's better to take it as fun yet it is not good to use someone else’s life as our entertainment (I felt guilty about this)

6.) I respect your opinion about twinflames/soulmates in general. Not everyone believes in those stuff anyways. About V's TF, I kinda agree with what you said cause... I had a feeling that he might met that person. Hence the whole V's TF became popular recently. There was a powerful shift from it. That’s why some said that he & TF are aware about their connection 🤷‍♀️ Same case with JK but as always, I may be wrong with my intuition (though I'm not planning in making a reading about it cuz of how tired I am)

7.) And yes, I do agree with your last part haah TT I mean not all readers are like that but some rlly wants to access more infos abt a person. And the future is blurry so it's hard to get the whole truth.

I hope these helps you! And yes, you can vent all you want, I will not judge you :) Have a great day ahead of you🥰 ❤️ 

[void-selfships-archive]

HI OMG i forgot that you had a moral orel ship omg... i've been following you forever, too, so i must have known. i haven't watched any of it in a Minute and actually didn't finish it, but i was pretty into it and it still holds a special place because it's one of my friend's favorite series. i would love to hear about your ship more (or honestly thoughts on the series in general) in detail if you feel like sharing!! (kittyandco)

@kittyandco

YEA YEA ID LOVE 2 TALK ABT THEM HONESTLY! (also srry 4 the late response!!)

(For one I loved the show, I watched it a few months ago and it rlly holds a place in my top 10 whxhehxhs it was so good!)

For two! Lemme talk about the boys.

Tbh I originally made my sona bc I was adopting Orel and that was it! He was my son right then and there and I just- I hated Clay so much you wouldn't believe.

[And more under the cut bc it's long and also implied suggestive content bajxhehxhs]

It was a bit after I had drawn the Banger Hateship content 4 Clay that my feelings went from like...hateful...to ok it's a little sexual to oh shit oh fuck is he romantic? Do I (hashtag) love him? And wanna see him grow as a person? Which didn't help bc I'm pretty sure I had read this Redemption Arc fic for him so tbh I was fucked from the beginning.

So now, in canon, its just Enemies to Lovers. They don't like eachother bc of Differed Opinions but have to interact due to it being a small town.

And then they fought.

The Banger Hateship Content drawing I did is Very Canon and tends to be canon in any normal timeline (i.e. it still happens during the Divorce Pack) they fight in a bar, and then there's that...electricity. the kind you can only get from a high emotion situation and heightened adrenaline. And they're looking at eachother in 2 different ways bc Clay's like "fuck this is kinda hot" and Jack's like "Why the fuck is he looking at me like that WHY does this feel sexual???"

So now its, well we don't get along but...You Make Me Feel Something (like soulmates!) so they hang out more, in an experimental way y'know? Clay agrees to therapy, he's invited over more, ect. (Also they bang, which is only a little important)

Which, in my eyes is where the canon just ends and anything that implies a relationship is bundled into the Divorce AU I have for them.

Different can of worms! Clay gets the divorce he needs after months of failed marriage counseling (offered by yours truly) now he's free to flirt and date whomever he wants so what the fuck! Might as well do a gay little handwave to his therapist (me, I'm his therapist) shenanigans- like proposing in the middle of a bar while drunk- ensue.

[kristalpepsi]

So I'm a singlet and idk very much about systems, I've been following u for a little while but I saw ur drawing of Chara coming back on New Years and I got the impression that it was a depiction of an actual event? Like, a literal memory, not a dramatization or a metaphor or w/e. When y'all aren't fronting are you just straight up chilling and interacting in like a... perceivably physical place?

HLLO srry 4 gettin 2 thise L8!! Ur talkin abt thise post!

Yea bro! So if we draw comics of ourslvs, they’re prtty mch like us documenting whts happnd! I think i cn sy 20-30% of wht we drw is us jst journaling inspce stff. Its 100% NOT a mtphr, tht comic ws me quotin exctly wht hppnd n wht it lookd like inspce :^0

As an explan8ion, sniff, Christmas absltly SUCKD like it ws so bd, id sy it ws trmtzng 2 bc nw we associ8 christms w wht hppnd, i dnt wnna explain wht hppnd bc i dnt rlly hav 2, b it wsnt gr8 n we get rlly sick thinkin abt it. So like THAT day, dec 25-26, e realized every1. Dissappeard. Like the whole MFC+ ws unavailabl n missing? 4 half a month they were gone n i kno it dsnt snd like a long time b i promis it ws a long time bc everyth ws kinda uoside dwn

Time skip (n skippng all the cryng bc it ws just me and Sal left here n we missd thm so mch, wew ere so worried abt them if thy were safe etc) 2 New Years, I was crying next 2 ENA, we recntly split her the day after Christmas bc of the Stress™️, I rmmbr i ws even thinkin “i hop i get triggrd by the fireworks so mayb itll scare me so mch Peter wld front” n thats a VERY unhealthy thought, do not Do Tht

B yea tht ddnt work b an hour after New years,,, litrlly that comic happnd n i was SO EMOTIONAL they rlly said “im gnna surprise Kris while he’s cryng n make it like thos movies wher the loved 1 comes back 2 life” /j

Idk wht else 2 sy aftr tht! It happnd in the headspce, i ws crying bith irl n inspce, n in the headspce i heard “teleport noise” they hd this jst rlly calm happy expression n it ws so,,,, good :,^)

I ws so hppy 2 c them again tht I HAD 2 drw it so i cld rmmbr it n i CLDNT exPLAIN the feelng of wht it lookd n felt like so i hd 2 drw it so i cld sho ppl!

ANYWY 2 answr ur OTHR qstion, ys we hav smth calld a headspace (thers diffrnt ways 2 call it; innerworld, mindscape, “the inside”, etc)

In our systm, whn we’re not frontin , were in the headspce! It’s prtty big 4 us n afaik we all hav our own rooms :^0 the MFC lives in 1 area inside the mansion tht weve startd calling The Dorms, b its knda like hotel? Even tho we ddnt,,,,, build higher n lower floors thers an elevator 4 som rsn? Skjlh,snjsidk y its ther b i think thats new n if u take it down it can take u 2 Jamie’s floor, yea she has an entire floor 2 herself w fake doors excpt 2 hers if u turn 2 the left cornr . Its also an old elevator like thers no actual doors, its the cagey door thts fancy n floral dkdjsk

We hav a meadow, a huge forst, a ruind city, etc! We hav a frontin room that has no walls, its litrlly jst a Void i guess? b thats not even the REAL void

We call the real void the Void-void or Real Void, the real void is like the 4th wll if u hav the power 2 clip thru the headspce like a vidya game OR if its an accdnt

As far as i knw, the ONLY! Ppl who cn do tht is Chara and Asriel (UT) (im nt sirprsd)

Alven also had tht power b hes in a lng sleep rn,, or hes 4gottn hw 2 do it. Jaiden im nt sre b he is abl 2 swim thru it

Tho i rcmmnd not stayin int he void-void 4ever bc Twilight ws stuck ther 1nce n nw has problms KHSKS ok im done infodumpin

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Hey, sorry if I made you uncomfortable at all earlier, I know I'm a fairly new anon so your probably not comfortable w/ some of the stuff I said earlier (btw im 16 too dw and srry abt that I just wanted to get it off my chest I thought maybe telling someone abt it would help 😅) and it really was just my intention to try and help u feel better bc I think you're really cool and I can't just sit idly by when people I care abt are hurting/upset in some capacity when I could try and do smth abt it and I admire and respect u a lot so I wanted to try and help u feel better if I could. // again, sorry if any of the stuff I sent earlier made u uncomfy and please don't feel a need to actually respond to this, I'm not looking for anything other than to tell u I care abt ur mental and emotional well being as another human being and one of my fav content creators and I'm rambling again sorry 😅 anyway to try and sum it up again real quick: I think ur awesome, I'm sorry if anything I sent earlier crossed a line/made u at all uncomfy and pls don't 'answer' this if u don't want to I really just wanted to say sorry just in case and don't want anything in return. (Goodness gracious I hope I've managed to get my point across clearly lol I'm literally not fishing for anything and I'm kind of nervous that its come across that way but I promise I'm not so don't feel bad at all abt this ask pls bc I tend to read a little too into things sometimes and that's probably what's going on here lol ugh I'm doing it again pls don't feel pressured to answer this that's not what I'm going for at all goodness I'm a bit of a mess pls forgive 😅) ~💛🤍💜🖤

UR TOTALLY GOOD OMG im rlly sorry im just so bad at responding to stuff like uh. Idk. It's just some stuff throws me in how im meant to respond ig?? Cuz like i dont know anything so like. If ppl come to me w problems i have no idea what to say other than "ye taht sucks" and i feel rlly bad just saying that ajsnsjks. Basically ur all good dont worry abt it tysm!!! Ur clearly a v kind person & just dw abt it :]

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hey i'm jodi! (same as joie = =je) =je for looks does a lot: coops up emotions, gets jealous & annoyed, talks bad abt. ppl but feels bad after is: a scorpio, introvert, secretive, rlly smart & fast learners (=je), hopeless romantic likes: helping, being praised, thrilling stuff dislikes: horror, having a hard time, showing weakness, others being better wants: to be rich & successful, a lot of other things but i feel bad when others go out of their way to help f: =je (rlly srry trish ily)

Hi, Jodi! Thanks for sending it, but I’m afraid you’ll have to send it again. The description is fine (although I don’t think the = parts were deliberate, Tumblr messes up asks often, especially if symbols are used) but I need to know the fandoms you want! Here’s my list, remember that no more than 10 fandoms, please!  

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This is so random I'm srry but I felt like spewing love for SKZ anyway I became a STAY like 2 months ago & when I first 0325 it rlly stuck out to me. I started to learn abt them & their music but I always went back to that song. I felt love and encouragement when I listened to it but I didn't know the words. I finally saw the translation today and its amazing that I could feel exactly what they wanted me to w/o knowing it. Stray Kids are really something special I'm so happy I'm a STAY

you are welcome at ANY TIME ANY DATE to spew love for skz in my inbox i LOVE seeing new stays so much :((( 0325 is one of my favorite skz songs of all and im so happy seeing the appreciation it deserves actually happen? :) i think its awesome that songs like that can provide a message without people even reading the lyrics. its how you know a true message was felt through the raw emotion and the words both, not just words sang without emotion being a stay since hellevator came out, there’s a ton of stuff i’ve learned and like something ive never forgotten is that they’re so true to everything they say and they never fail to make me amazed at what they can do through their music :(

please feel free to leave messages like this at any time its the CUTEST thing ever 

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i'm curious how you are able to put your emotions into pictures like you do. i try but it's so difficult for me. i've made a few, but they never come across right. at the end of yours, there's always a kind of twist (not the right word but it's the best i can think of) that hits me. even with my own life experiences, it still doesn't get the feeling across like how i feel it when i remember. (it's fine if you don't want to answer, either way i really like your comics!)

aaa ty so much!!!! im srry cuz i dont have the best advice w this?? i dont rlly have a defined process for making my comics, a lot of times i just come up w an idea and sketch it out and if i like it i ink it fjkldjkds

lately whenever ive been feeling rlly down its been kinda a coping mechanism to channel those feelings into coming up w a comic to go w it ya know? so if im feeling bad i brainstorm ways to represent those feelings w some kind of drawing. i usually only can fit like a half a sentence to a sentence in a single frame so i also think about what i want to say or convey w the comic & break it down into more simple phrases 

so for example i had the idea for making a comic abt the therapy issue bc i was thinking abt it a lot lately. the first 2 frames were meant to kinda set the stage for the comic by providing background, then the 3rd was kinda an explanation of why i had a bad experience w therapy, and finally the 4th was the real reason i dont wanna go back. its like telling a story so ya gotta think abt what u wanna say in a limited space - and bc of that the last panel is usually rlly important since its the last thing ur audience reads & what will stick w them most!! 

p much for me i try to build a basic structure for the comic by writing out the little “script” that goes in the boxes, then i go in an draw what will go for it. making multiple drafts or trying out different ideas can be super helpful too just too get a feel for how the comic will read!!! i have a few rough drafts that i havent posted just cuz i felt like i could have said something or drawn something better 

im srry im not the most helpful w this kind of stuff but i wish u the best of luck!! have a great day