#tardispony

[zelda-guru-momi]

Maia, AKA TardisPony, has opened up commissions on her new Tumblr Blog. I would have reblogged the post directly, but I’m unable to. It seems that in making this new blog, one of the first things she did was to make sure to block anyone who’s been hurt by her in the past.

Please be careful if you commission her. Many people in the past have commissioned her and not received their artwork nor a refund. I’m not saying that this trend is going to continue, if she finishes all of the commissions she gets from this day on, then good for her and her customers. It means she’s taking steps toward improving and becoming a better person.

If you want more information as to why I’m warning you about this possibility, please go to this site: http://tardisponycallout.tumblr.com/

I am one of many people that she has hurt in the past. She’s the reason I don’t reblog any of the posts I see of people who need donations, even my friends whom I trust. I trusted her, and I and many of my friends got bit in the butt hard for it.

[pocketyhat]

Oh wooow, the Maia thing that just blowed up? Yeaaah I have something to say as well.

Once upon a time, I used to see Maia as a sign of hope, because she was really similar to me. Too similar.

I'm also in a bad situation with my parents, who are basically manipulative, liars and have no sense of logic. Plus, I have an older brother who claimed that he would have beaten me up if I was born male. I'm genderfluid, physically female, so he didn't do anything like that, but he still hurt me both emotionally and physically.

Anyways, knowing that Maia was getting help to get out of her abusive situation made me have hope to get out of mine someday, because I'm still a minor and all that, can't do anything as of yet. And apparently she got out. But then when she claimed that her parents weren't abusive I was pretty much confused, because everyone else kept telling her it was abuse. In her situation, I would have listened to the many people telling me that.

And then I realized: I used to be like her, not listening to anyone because I thought I was superior. I mean, part of me still wants to be superior, but I'm trying to get that controlled.

Then other déja vus kept coming up. Lying to get away from problems, make other people do stuff for her, make people have pity for her, make up some dramas, didn't like certain people for barely anything, oh, and she was a crybaby, crying over every single thing that happened to her.

And guess what? I used to be like that as well, a manipulative, compulsive liar who all that she did was cry over everything that wasn't going on my way.

And seeing all this stuff on Maia come to light made me realize something. People would have hated me back when I was like that.

Now here's the difference between who I used to be and Maia. I was still a child. She's an adult. She should know how to suck up her problems and face them on her own by now. She should know how to listen. She should know better.

Not trying to sound arrogant, but knowing that someone who's actually younger than her being able to deal with certain situations and actually be able to act more mature than her says a lot about her. I am actually disgusted. Knowing that I could have been like her, could have done such terrible things to people around me, it makes me sick.

She might not have said or have told me anything directly, but she did hurt me indirectly. She hurt my friends. I felt terrible that my friends had to deal with her shit, that they had been marked as assholes. I grew to dislike her a lot. Anyone who hurts my friends don't deserve any respect from me. I'm sick of staying in the sidelines and watching as my friends struggled with her. I'm tired of her making assumptions, I'm tired of her not listening. I'm tired of her attempts to make everyone feel pity for her. I'm tired of her.

But you know what? There's one thing I'm thankful of. She showed me that I used to be a terrible person. And now I'm better than her. Thank you Maia. For answering my question of if I would have been disliked by people. Thank you for showing me I grew up. I'm sorry that you didn't do the same and remained stuck in the same place.

But fortunately you're facing the consequences of your actions, as did I a few years ago. Hope you learn something. If not, you can simply rot with those parents of yours for all I care. It takes a lot for me to hate anyone. Well congrats, you have done so.

Sorry for anyone who wasn't expecting me to join in on the Maia thing, but I felt that this had to be said.

[jestre]

I like that she goes to her "friends" for advice and then yells at them and calls them bullies when they give her actual advice. She doesn't want friends, just yes men.

She yelled at me for giving a synopsis.

[tardispony]

Leaving tumblr and the brony community

I have sold all my OC's. I have given away the stories.  I am leaving this site. I'm leaving this blog, so no one, on the off chance that they have a horrible chance of getting my url never get the backlash from my name.

I have avoided tumblr since all the recent drama has started. I have not gotten involved, besides voicing my concerns, and feelings to my closest friends and confidants.   I refuse to get involved. And I will no longer be on a site where I am being harassed.

 For what I have done that has upset anyone. I am sorry. I cannot fix my actions only move forward, work on it, and make sure it never happens again.    To those I've hurt. I know a sorry doesn't cover it, but it's all I can offer. I wish I could do more. 

I am disabling asks, and anything to contact me. I will not be part of this anymore. 

I need to fix myself, before I can help others. As it is apparent. 

I know now, I should have refused any money, and help back in November and December. And should have refused to leave home. There are a lot of things I could have done better.    I am sorry for lying and scaring a lot of you, by faking a snake bite, I felt at the time it was the only way I could get away from tumblr to heal after a lot of other drama. It was wrong, but all of my actions that you know, and have hurt you, was not me thinking clearly. I was scared, hurt and panicked. 

To Kerosene. I know a sorry doesn't cover how I treated you when I was mad. I know what I said was wrong, and I'm sorry my rage pushed me to someone ugly. I am working on never letting that happen ever again.

To those who have spoken out. Anonymously. I know who each of you are, and I've not contacted you out of respect. I don't want to make things worse. But please, know I'm working to change.  

All my Oc's are gone, given to other great artist, and story tellers.  So they are now owned by their new owners. Please do not use them. Since they were mine, now passed on to new great homes.

Do not contact me, do not search me out. To not bother my Deviantart.  If people harass me. I will seek law inforcement. This is not a threat, only a promise if people stalk me. I've left you all alone. Please do the same to me.

I will leave you all alone. Out of respect and part shame. I'm sorry I couldn't have been a better friend.

I'm working to change that.

Thank you for a year and a half, of the good, the bad and the ugly times.  Goodbye.  

[ravensdelight]

Damn it all.... Guys, please, stop. This drama isn't necessary. I think of all of you as inspirations and some of the closest of friends. Every. Single. One of you. So when I'm here reading all of this, I feel caught. Please, enough of this. Feelings were hurt, and words were spoken. I don't want either of you to be sad or angry or worse.

  I just want everyone happy. I just want to help. And I will help by saying this; Don't anyone dare say anything harsh to anyone. Hate-spamming is not necessary and it is none of our business. Let them solve things on their own time. Let them be comforted in peace.

[jestre]

My section for the BRONYCON DRAMA WITH MAIA:

[6/8/2014 1:02:19 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I need to talk to you. [6/8/2014 1:10:05 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: First off, your off the hook for voice acting. I'm sorry it didn't work, but. After all this. I don't think any of you want anything to do with me.

As for. The rats, I didn't have a say in them being put on craigslist. I am not happy about not having at least some prior knowledge to Zaki selling them, after all. They were my birthday gift.

Two, when I 'lumped' those people together, I didn't want. To say specifically who it was for fear of causing more drama.

I know I've lost friends, but. at the same time, I feel liberated. I couldn't speak my mind before for fear of hurting someone, I had no freedom to post what I felt like posting. Now I can. However I will be more select, but I will not hide things as important as moving again. I posted that not to cause ire, but because you all deserved to know.

I had been planning it for almost two months. Only with in the last month had I made serious plans. Hiding it would have been worse, don't you think?

Anyways... I understand if you all hate me. But know this is what I have to do, so I can make a living, not rely on charity the rest of my life. But if you guys find someone who wants to pay for everything for me, send me to school, pay for food, travel/transportation, medical bills, recreation. By all means, I'll stay away from my parents. But as far as I can tell. I need to be able to support myself, and not be a leach which I was, relying on commissions few and far between and donations.

Thanks for your time. And good luck. Hope you don't think too badly of me.

Wish you all the best. Maia [6/25/2014 12:07:30 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Are you there? [6/25/2014 12:08:33 AM] *** Call from Maia (Tardispony) Wallace, duration 1:32:40. *** [6/25/2014 2:08:11 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: http://chronoswhooves.tumblr.com/post/89840724742/who-could-this-be-d-ooc-sorry-for-the-crappy [6/25/2014 2:08:16 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Look what I just finished :3 [6/29/2014 12:44:45 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Happy birthday! [6/29/2014 1:56:37 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Thanks! [6/29/2014 6:56:08 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Np! Hope you have a great day! [7/3/2014 12:17:03 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Jestre? [7/3/2014 5:46:48 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Yes? [7/3/2014 6:01:17 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Do you know anything of what momi has been telling me? [7/3/2014 6:01:31 PM | Edited 6:01:36 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Link(s)? [7/3/2014 6:01:41 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1iLUf2mhkDPM3eDzT0FnAdold_XFhuMoA3EiMqBqJaWg/mobilebasic [7/3/2014 6:03:11 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Lemme know what you think. [7/3/2014 6:04:39 PM | Edited 6:04:50 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): "You claim to be responsible and trying to get your life back in order with what little money you claim to have, but you're planning to spend a lot of money on rooming, flight, transportation, food, and whatever else at a convention across the country. Something with no benefits for your seeking of advancement in life." [7/3/2014 6:05:36 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Why do you pick that. Out of all the rest that was said. That's the only logical thing that was said that whole chat [7/3/2014 6:07:18 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I thought you were looking for a clear synopsis of what she said. [7/3/2014 6:07:31 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No, I'm talking about her talking for everyone [7/3/2014 6:08:25 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): [6:01:17 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Do you know anything of what momi has been telling me?

You didn't say that. [7/3/2014 6:08:59 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Though to answer your current question, she's not too far off. [7/3/2014 6:09:12 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Sorry.

"Do you know momi has been talking on all of your behalf in a very negative way" I meant that. [7/3/2014 6:09:28 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Telling me don't go because I'll hurt or ruin people's time there? [7/3/2014 6:09:42 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm sorry but this isn't middleschool [7/3/2014 6:09:59 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm not going to avoid something because a few people are upset with me [7/3/2014 6:10:47 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You realize that's admitting you're going to instigate, right? [7/3/2014 6:11:04 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: How so? [7/3/2014 6:11:39 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You're essentially saying "I know you're upset with me, but I'm gonna be in your face anyways like all is well." [7/3/2014 6:11:41 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm not going to see these people. I'm going to have find anyone. I'll wave say hi and be nice and go off. [7/3/2014 6:12:11 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Fun' [7/3/2014 6:12:18 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: If I find anyone' [7/3/2014 6:12:37 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Sorry iPad glitch [7/3/2014 6:18:15 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): People are pissed at you and that could cause drama assuming they'll run into you again. [7/3/2014 6:19:37 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: How could I cause drama, by saying. "Hey! Nice to finally meet you! Doing well, me too. I'm going to check that vendor over there, so take care!" [7/3/2014 6:19:42 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: That's litterally what I would say. [7/3/2014 6:20:07 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So steamrolling? [7/3/2014 6:20:14 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: This is bullying Jestre. The fact I am not "Welcome" to go... [7/3/2014 6:20:33 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No, it's not showing fear, and shame for being some place. It's being nice, and friendly. [7/3/2014 6:20:37 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: NOT causing drama [7/3/2014 6:26:07 PM | Edited 6:26:23 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): It's not the matter of being welcome, it's that you're going to spend all this time and money on a convention when you said you were going to be working on getting education, a job, and a license. You'd need to spend upwards of $700 at least for the con. [7/3/2014 6:26:57 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: This is the last chance I have to be part of this community. I am going home, I have a ticket, and I wanted to go out one last time.

Before I cannot go to any cons or anything for a long time [7/3/2014 6:27:32 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Where are you getting the money? [7/3/2014 6:27:55 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: A friend was going to pay my ticket to go to Buck con. But I cant go now. So we're negotiating [7/3/2014 6:28:59 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): How are paying for rooming and transportation to and from the airport? [7/3/2014 6:29:23 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I was talking to Fluffle Puff about sharing a room. It was a possiblity but it was only if I could get my ticket [7/3/2014 8:41:01 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): And your transportation? [7/4/2014 12:46:10 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Also, what are you doing for food? [7/5/2014 12:51:11 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Which Fluffle Puff did you mean by the way? [7/5/2014 12:52:32 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: the mod of the blog. Fluffle Puff [7/5/2014 12:54:18 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Again though, what are you doing for food and transportation otherwise? [7/5/2014 12:54:44 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Food, I can go for three days with minimal food. And transportation. There are buses [7/5/2014 12:56:25 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Already have the routes planned? [7/5/2014 12:56:40 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I have to get a ticket first. [7/5/2014 12:56:55 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Buses usually do fares. [7/5/2014 12:56:55 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And I'm not getting any donations. So you'll pleased to know, I'm not liekly to go [7/5/2014 12:57:26 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You were determined to earlier. [7/5/2014 12:57:51 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Well. Fuck it if I'm told I'd ruin people's time. Fuck that, and fuck this love and tolorence bullshit they tell us Bronies are. [7/5/2014 12:58:12 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: At this rate their all bullies. Who when humans make mistakes. They are pegged forever, and never forgiven, or let go of those mistakes. [7/5/2014 12:58:15 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Fuck that noice. [7/5/2014 12:58:23 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: noise. Fuck the bronies. [7/5/2014 12:58:28 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: All a bunch of bullies. [7/5/2014 12:58:37 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: This is what drove me to suicide this last time. [7/5/2014 12:58:41 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): It was about you being responsible, not being bullied. [7/5/2014 12:58:41 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm sick of it [7/5/2014 12:58:46 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No it wasn't [7/5/2014 12:58:53 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: It was about Momi getting a panic attack if she saw me [7/5/2014 12:59:00 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: and ruining others times at the con [7/5/2014 12:59:01 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No. [7/5/2014 12:59:05 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: That was only a subdevision [7/5/2014 12:59:28 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm not stupid. I can read between the lines [7/5/2014 1:00:38 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So, besides the fact you were going to spend upwards of $500 at a convention for a minimal visit when you were adament on working on getting a job, license, and certification, it's their fault? [7/5/2014 1:00:56 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm getting all those things when I get home. [7/5/2014 1:01:04 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: This is the last time I can go to a con [7/5/2014 1:01:22 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I agreed with my mother, I would not actively participate in the brony community while living with them [7/5/2014 1:01:29 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Money can always be made. [7/5/2014 1:01:42 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): How would you be able to afford this is the question. [7/5/2014 1:01:53 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I thought, I could go to Brony Con, which YOU know I wanted to go to last year, so bad that I cried. Now I'm just wondering why I even give a shit any more [7/5/2014 1:02:18 AM | Edited 1:02:31 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I'd think you'd also have to partially pay for rooming, or would it be Fluffle covering all of it? [7/5/2014 1:02:31 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: It's not about the money [7/5/2014 1:02:37 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Right now. IT's about being told I can't go [7/5/2014 1:02:40 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: PLEASE DONT GO [7/5/2014 1:02:51 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: You'll ruin so many people's time at brony con if they see you there! [7/5/2014 1:02:54 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: That's what Momi told me [7/5/2014 1:03:24 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Besides that, you do have the funds then? [7/5/2014 1:03:34 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No. Because someone is sabotaging me. [7/5/2014 1:03:38 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I've gotten no commissions [7/5/2014 1:03:41 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: no donations [7/5/2014 1:03:44 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Nothing but hate, and spite [7/5/2014 1:04:02 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And I'm done with it. I don't even care about going anymore. [7/5/2014 1:04:06 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Because it's not worth it [7/5/2014 1:04:27 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Not worth the chance of seeing these people. Telling me that by going, and being civil. I would be instigating [7/5/2014 1:05:19 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Fuck that. I've got better things to do with my time. [7/5/2014 1:05:40 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Ah, but while you would be civil, would you be skipping past transgressions like nothing happened? [7/5/2014 1:05:55 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): That would be another concern. [7/5/2014 1:06:01 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: You're all never going to get over your spite, and hatered of my desicion. So why should I be a part of a culture that can't except I made a mistake, I'm sorry. And I still want to live in that community [7/5/2014 1:06:14 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: It's in the PAST Jestre. [7/5/2014 1:06:26 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I didn't rape someone. I didn't hit a child. I made a life choice people didn't agree with [7/5/2014 1:06:33 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I didn't physically hurt anyone. [7/5/2014 1:06:38 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I made a mistake. [7/5/2014 1:06:54 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I moved on, because I know I fucked up. I know I made a poor choice. I'm sorry. BUT there is NOTHING else I can do [7/5/2014 1:07:02 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: So I move on, and try not to make the same mistake. [7/5/2014 1:07:05 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: That's all I CAN Do [7/5/2014 1:07:14 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And by all these people. Dwelling on it. [7/5/2014 1:07:14 AM | Edited 1:07:21 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So people's generosity of money and emotional commitment are in the past? That's how you're making it look now. [7/5/2014 1:07:29 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: My MISTAKE is in the past [7/5/2014 1:07:32 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): "Sorry. Bye." [7/5/2014 1:07:35 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I have thanked every single one of those peopl [7/5/2014 1:07:37 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: e [7/5/2014 1:07:39 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Before and after [7/5/2014 1:07:41 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: For their help [7/5/2014 1:08:09 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I cannot physically or mentally keep beating myself up over my mistake. It's not healthy. [7/5/2014 1:08:14 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): To them, it was a chunk of their life you made a mistake with. People aren't so quick to get past grief. [7/5/2014 1:08:17 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm making changes to be a better person. [7/5/2014 1:08:55 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You can thank and apologize all you like, but not everyone can move on so easily. It's a fact of life. [7/5/2014 1:09:03 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I know from experience. [7/5/2014 1:09:09 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I don't need to be everyones' best friend [7/5/2014 1:09:21 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I just want to be on speaking terms, and be friendly with these people [7/5/2014 1:09:52 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): That's what I mean, as much as you like, not everyone will agree. [7/5/2014 1:10:02 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I'm sure you know this. [7/5/2014 1:10:05 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I do [7/5/2014 1:10:23 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I just lost my only source of income. [7/5/2014 1:10:33 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And something preventing me from making even 100$ a month [7/5/2014 1:10:44 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm happy to work for my money. I always have bene. [7/5/2014 1:10:47 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I know. [7/5/2014 1:10:50 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: but now something is stopping it [7/5/2014 1:10:54 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: What is it. Do you know? [7/5/2014 1:10:58 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Your reputation. [7/5/2014 1:11:24 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I never had a good one [7/5/2014 1:11:53 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You had a start of a good one, but this event put a major dent in it which will take a while to work back through. [7/5/2014 1:12:39 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Well. You do realize, if I can't make money. I can't stay with my parents for long. [7/5/2014 1:12:40 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Right? [7/5/2014 1:12:47 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: So I'll be right back into a position of weakness. [7/5/2014 1:12:55 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I need to make money, to help them with bills [7/5/2014 1:12:58 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Which I agreed [7/5/2014 1:13:00 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: to [7/5/2014 1:13:08 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Completely reasonable agreemenrts [7/5/2014 1:13:10 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: ack [7/5/2014 1:13:13 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: agreements [7/5/2014 1:13:29 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Which is why I'd assume you'll get a job or financial aid, get your certificate and have a good day job. [7/5/2014 1:13:46 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: My parents wouldn't let me live with them with finacial aid [7/5/2014 1:13:52 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I can't get a job just like that. [7/5/2014 1:13:54 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: As you know [7/5/2014 1:14:05 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'll do everything I can. But I need money for bus, gas. [7/5/2014 1:15:31 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: So, it would be wonderful. If everyone stops giving me grief. And gives me one little extra push. So I don't have to rely on the charity of others for the rest of my life.

I will work for every penny I earn. I don't want donations anymore. I want commissions [7/5/2014 1:15:50 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: So if everyone could please, give me that last ounce of kindess. I'll be out of everyones way, and hair for good. [7/5/2014 1:16:28 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Take some time to think it over. Because I have to go to bed. [7/5/2014 1:16:41 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'll see your responce when I see it.

I hope you have a good night. [7/5/2014 1:17:08 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Then bring this to the public, not just few people like myself. It'll show you're committed. [7/5/2014 1:17:27 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: How so? [7/5/2014 1:17:51 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I have. And I got mocked and got hate from someone saying I'm a manipulitive bitch who's ugly and fat. [7/5/2014 1:18:01 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): When was the last post you wanted people to know you were determined to need the last push. [7/5/2014 1:18:12 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): If you mean Cyrus, that's typical of him. [7/5/2014 1:18:15 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Well if I do. Can I have your support? [7/5/2014 1:18:18 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): He hates everyone. [7/5/2014 1:18:27 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Maybe even Jack's? Anyone else? [7/5/2014 1:19:00 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: As soon as I have a little money. Around 800. To 1500. I will never ask for your help again. [7/5/2014 1:19:04 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I will not rely on kindless. [7/5/2014 1:19:10 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): To be clear, this will be solely for your license, education, and job? [7/5/2014 1:19:10 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: kindness. I will be on my own [7/5/2014 1:19:20 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Yes. No cons. [7/5/2014 1:19:26 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No lesire items [7/5/2014 1:19:39 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Only education, licence and living expensise/job hunting [7/5/2014 1:19:45 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I can swear on that [7/5/2014 1:20:45 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I can reblog with my added note, and while there isn't a complete guarantee everything will come right away, this is an obligation barring you. [7/5/2014 1:21:30 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Jestre. I just want to get my life in order. That's all I want. And I need to have some funds.

My parents aren't going to pay for my license, or getting me to and from a job. [7/5/2014 1:21:46 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: All this money, is staying in my bank, (Any that I make) For that, and only that. [7/5/2014 1:21:56 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Good! [7/5/2014 1:22:00 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No toys, no games. [7/5/2014 1:22:04 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No random trips [7/5/2014 1:22:06 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Nothing [7/5/2014 1:22:24 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Only thing I forsee, is maybe something with my tablet, if it fucks up again. But that's it. But that's a no brainer [7/5/2014 1:22:40 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): What happens from there on then is your place to take responsibility. [7/5/2014 1:22:51 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I swear on my mother, that everything I earn, will go to my education. [7/5/2014 1:22:55 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And betterment as a human [7/5/2014 1:23:15 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I just hope, I can have all your support, in this last little push. I know it's a lot to ask. But I will not let you down. [7/5/2014 1:24:01 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Make your best pitch then online, as soon as you have the chance. [7/5/2014 1:24:08 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I will [7/5/2014 1:24:14 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'll send it to you when I've gotten it [7/5/2014 1:24:34 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Thanks Jestre, and I'm sorry I got a little passionate eariler. I'm just really scared. [7/5/2014 1:24:40 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I know. [7/5/2014 1:25:14 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: This is my last chance at a life. [7/5/2014 1:25:19 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: If I cant get my shit together. [7/5/2014 1:25:21 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm doomed [7/5/2014 1:25:49 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Reality's cruel. [7/5/2014 1:25:51 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Anyways... I really need some sleep. You have a good night. Okay? [7/5/2014 1:26:04 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You too! [7/5/2014 1:26:15 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Thanks :) I'll write that post first thing tomorrow [7/5/2014 1:26:33 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: night [7/5/2014 1:27:45 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Night! [7/5/2014 11:41:09 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: You there? [7/5/2014 11:56:59 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: http://tardispony.tumblr.com/post/90860146320/isis-hear-my-plea [7/5/2014 6:49:25 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I'll make my addition. [7/5/2014 6:49:58 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Okay, thank you [7/5/2014 6:52:25 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: That guy Cyrus, has been giving me hate, also giving Jack a hard time. [7/5/2014 6:54:03 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): He's always like that. He's pathetic. [7/5/2014 6:54:31 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: How long has he been doing this? [7/5/2014 6:54:36 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And I saw the post, thank you. [7/5/2014 6:56:15 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And.. Can I be part of your new Brony movement? [7/5/2014 8:04:38 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Sure. :> [7/5/2014 8:04:52 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Cyrus though? Not sure, seems like since he's joined. [7/5/2014 8:04:59 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Oh ? [7/5/2014 8:10:37 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Yeah, he seems to be a hateful ass to everything. [7/5/2014 8:10:53 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: He told me I should just kill myself. [7/5/2014 8:10:58 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And my art sucks balls [7/5/2014 8:11:13 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: He also called me an Ugly fat cow [7/5/2014 8:52:03 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Block him. [7/5/2014 8:52:10 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Nothing will change his mind. [7/5/2014 8:52:15 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): He insults EVERYONE. [7/27/2014 11:52:33 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So I heard you two aren't going to be seeking us out. [7/27/2014 11:52:50 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Correct [7/27/2014 11:52:58 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I was told I coudl see you and Jack on the last day [7/27/2014 11:53:22 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: But honestly, because of all this drama. I just want to enjoy the con, and then go home. That's all I want. [7/27/2014 11:54:09 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): The reason why I said you would regret meeting me is because if I saw you near me, I would call security every time. [7/27/2014 11:54:36 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: That's not how it came off. I got a bunch of asks, asking if I would be physically safe [7/27/2014 11:55:51 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): And you didn't even clarify? Do you really think I would be so stupid as to stoop to that level? [7/27/2014 11:56:40 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Honestly I don't know anymore. Because I've had people I didn't wouyld hurt me. so... I am always cautious/ [7/27/2014 11:57:15 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Like Jack, I've been abused too. [7/27/2014 11:57:34 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: and threats I've had often [7/27/2014 11:57:49 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Both vague, and "I'll kill you, if you come near my town" [7/28/2014 12:00:03 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So you avoid me despite prior knowledge of how my demeanor is and not even asking me "why." You know how calm I normally am. [7/28/2014 12:01:14 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I didn't origianlly want to avoid you all. But you all made it abundantly clear you want nothing to do with me. [7/28/2014 12:02:34 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So you assumed I sent you a death threat throwing out what you know about me. [7/28/2014 12:03:00 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I don't even truely know you. You know I've always been intimiated by you [7/28/2014 12:03:14 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): For what reasons? [7/28/2014 12:03:49 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I just always have been [7/28/2014 12:03:58 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Why? [7/28/2014 12:04:07 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I want to know. [7/28/2014 12:06:11 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Because from day one, ever since I got the first chance to talk to you. You always seemed unethusastic. Even when I tried to make you laugh, or smile.

People who don't respond to my atempts to cheer them up, or smile. Have always given me an uneasy feeling.

All I EVER wanted to do, was try and be friends, with everyone. I know I fucked up. but I'm not a bad person.

But honestly. Because of all of this crap. I'm regretting confiming with Zaki. And I just want to curl into a hole and die. Because this haunts me.

It fucking haunts me. And I try. SO hard. to be brave, and know in time it will pass. But I know it won't [7/28/2014 12:07:39 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Just because someone is stoic, that doesn't mean they're a bad person. [7/28/2014 12:07:48 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Never said you were bad [7/28/2014 12:08:12 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Then why would you feel uneasy? [7/28/2014 12:09:16 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: What does it matter anymore? I'm leaving the fandom after this con. And I'm probably going to fuck up at home, and be on the streets in a few months.

So it doesn't matter anymore. [7/28/2014 12:11:54 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): It matters because you seem to have a false image painted of me. [7/28/2014 12:12:24 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I could say the same to all of you. Because if you knew me in person. I bet you, you wouldn't have this image of me being a liar [7/28/2014 12:13:56 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So then was avoiding those who were helping you beforehand the right choice? [7/28/2014 12:14:10 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: How was I avoiding? [7/28/2014 12:14:50 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You agreed to me and I'm sure others as well that you were going to be focusing on a job and license from the funds you would gain toward going back home. [7/28/2014 12:15:11 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Then you say on tumblr, in short, "selling desktop, going to BC." [7/28/2014 12:15:12 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And that agreement is still in place [7/28/2014 12:15:48 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Guess Momi didn't tell you. [7/28/2014 12:15:50 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): That agreement being you not using them toward going to a convention. [7/28/2014 12:16:04 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I can't take the computer, and the money was going to Zaki anyways. And Zaki is taking me with him [7/28/2014 12:16:19 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: None of my money was spent on this [7/28/2014 12:16:20 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: At all [7/28/2014 12:16:54 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: May I call you, my hands are freezing and I'm having trouble typing [7/28/2014 12:17:18 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Sure. [7/28/2014 12:17:32 AM] *** Call from Maia (Tardispony) Wallace, duration 1:47:48. *** [7/28/2014 2:11:44 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Actually, what Jack is saying is that the best thing you can do in the vendor hall is avoid his table and stick to the original plan of waiting until the end of the Sunday hours as he will be busy the whole time. [7/28/2014 2:12:21 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Okay.

And Jestre. From now on, if anything like this happens again. Please talk to me before posting on tumblr. [7/28/2014 2:13:50 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And I hope we'll be able to hang out some point at the con, besides just the end of the Venders hall. [7/28/2014 2:14:16 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): To clarify, that's as far as Jack, specifically. [7/28/2014 2:14:24 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Ok [7/28/2014 2:15:14 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): And gotcha, [7/28/2014 2:16:48 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Would you mind putting up a thing on tumblr with a clarification. Just to clear things up, so I don't get more hate mail? [7/28/2014 2:18:06 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Will do. [7/28/2014 2:18:13 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Thank you very much [7/28/2014 2:19:56 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Could you tell me how much Shrinkies will be? [7/28/2014 2:21:10 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: And if they are the cost I think they are. Could you ask Jack to save me, two Shrinkies? Jack and Luna?

Just so I can buy them, when I see him [7/29/2014 10:35:02 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Here's my number. [Monday, July 28, 2014 3:08 AM] [REMOVED FOR PRIVACY]

[7/29/2014 10:35:08 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Had to have Zaki send it to me xD [7/29/2014 11:12:37 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Thanks! [7/29/2014 11:12:55 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No prob. Look forward to seeing you soon. [7/31/2014 12:11:06 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Got your number in. Forgot to mention I did. XD [7/31/2014 12:11:48 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Lol. Its k. [7/31/2014 12:12:41 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Gonna finish getting ready for the con. ttyl! [7/31/2014 12:13:08 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Same. See you at the con. Safe flights! [8/28/2014 8:48:20 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I would very much like it if you all could please leave me alone. Please do not reblog anything of mine, do not talk about me. Please just leave me all alone, and I will leave all of you alone.

I can't take this much longer, and it only adds to my depression. If you ever respected me as person, you'll respect my wishes to be left alone.

I appreciate all the help you've given in the past. I do not appreciate you all continuing to engage with me, clearly not wanting to deal with me. Unless you want to help, in a positive non-passive aggressive way, I'd appreciate being out of all of your blogs. You, Jitty, Momi, Clock, Deyo, everyone. Please. If you're not going to be my friend, don't mention me again. [8/28/2014 10:18:14 PM | Edited 10:23:17 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): While I appreciate you speaking to me privately about this, the plain fact you keep running from what you say by deleting it isn't helping your case. If you're going to say something in public, don't run and hide when someone brings up facts to correct you. Hell, I've only asked concerned questions only for posts to be deleted.

What are you doing to even be proactive when not making complaints about your current situation?

All you're doing is running a repeat of what happened before. So if you really want people to know you're moving forward, let them know.

Also, you're telling me to do a catch 22 by saying if I'm your friend, not to call you out and then to still not say anything if you don't want us to be considered friends.

Now, you talk about how this adds to your depression. I'm diagnosed with clinical depression and STILL make a stand for myself when it comes to it because I realized I need to keep fighting to succeed rather than take it. So don't you place all the blame on your depression when YOU are responsible for how you step forward.

The fact we call you out is because you keep crying for attention in all the wrong ways and because we have to correct you when you improperly make a claim. Not to mention constantly fishing for compliments and denying them makes you look like a glutton for pain.

Lest we forget, you can be very passive-aggressive yourself when talking about others, and that includes your guilt trips. Eye for an eye makes the world go blind, but it will at least make you always listen.

Your jealousy of a certain friend and saying so behind their back, but publicly is proof of that. They've even told me how when they've helped you, you still went off on them.

I don't think I need to mention how you've negatively spoken PUBLICLY about people on your livestream.

Another thing, you copy Jitters creative choices right after him. Shrinkies, anthros, you name it. Maybe if you did this earlier or bothered to let him know you want to do a similar idea to not make it look like you're copying him, then it would be okay. Copying someone is not the best form flattery when you're supposed to be an adult.

So rather than complain, delete, and eat abuse, prove yourself to be resposible because all you're doing is saying and barely doing like with your commissions. That includes being on time.

Set goals for yourself AND STOP MAKING EXCUSES WHEN I DAMN WELL KNOW FIRST HAND WHAT YOU'RE DOING AND IT WILL BURY YOU.

If you pass off this response as unhelpful, bullying, or anything of that ilk, sooner or later you're gonna get a worse wake-up call than me. [8/28/2014 10:30:57 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'll first address this, as I'm not getting into an arguement, or long discussion about this. I'm just tired of seeing You, jitty. Etc. Post about me. I can see everything you guys post.

I'll start slowly, and one thing at a time. I delete posts because I don't want more shit than I get on a daily basis. I was finally back to posting HAPPY posts, accepting compliments, and even appreciating myself, and acknowledging that I was attractive.

And it tears my self confidence whenever I see reblogs of any negitive nature. Now, I admit, YES there have been things I've done, that have upset people, I will never deny this. However, I have been trying to move on, make good art, make a 'meager' living.

I'm not asking you to blindly be my friend and never call me out on things. But I'd rather you all call me out in private, because posting it publically, rallys the hate squad. I have gotten SO much hate, I sat here today, crying. I had to get off tumblr for the night, just to get rid of it. (It's not your fault, you didn't sick them on me. But by posting it publically, where people KNOW you guy's aren't on good terms with me. It does give them more ammo)

As for Jitters things and me 'copying him" He's not the first one to do anthros nor shinries. So, while I saw it and wanted to try it myself. I didn't sell them, I gave them away, and with anthro, I had been wanting to get back into furries. It was a good excuse to try, and it didn't go so well, so I don't think I'll be doing it again. As long as I'm not copying what he is doing exactly, I can't be accused, he's just been an inspiration to try new things.

And also on another topic, I want to talk to you and Jitts about Zaki, and some things he did. If you have time. [8/28/2014 10:38:53 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): [Thursday, August 28, 2014 10:30 PM] Maia Wallace:

<<< As for Jitters things and me 'copying him" He's not the first one to do anthros nor shinries. So, while I saw it and wanted to try it myself. I didn't sell them, I gave them away, and with anthro, I had been wanting to get back into furries. It was a good excuse to try, and it didn't go so well, so I don't think I'll be doing it again. As long as I'm not copying what he is doing exactly, I can't be accused, he's just been an inspiration to try new things. With all due respect, your timing was quite close to when he was actively posting said subjects.

[Thursday, August 28, 2014 10:30 PM] Maia Wallace:

<<< I'm not asking you to blindly be my friend and never call me out on things. But I'd rather you all call me out in private, because posting it publically, rallys the hate squad. I have gotten SO much hate, I sat here today, crying. I had to get off tumblr for the night, just to get rid of it. (It's not your fault, you didn't sick them on me. But by posting it publically, where people KNOW you guy's aren't on good terms with me. It does give them more ammo)While contacting you in private does stifle a lot of things, you going public with harmful content will garner a lot of attention and get people involved who shouldn't have been involved, regardless. That's why people go on the defensive at that point since everyone can see the fire starting.

"And also on another topic, I want to talk to you and Jitts about Zaki, and some things he did. If you have time."

Other than what you've mentioned, what else did he do? [8/28/2014 10:40:21 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Before I left. We got into a fight, and in it. (This is not the only thing... But one of the things that sticks in my mind) He told me almost screaming at me "IF you value your life, you'll shut up right now!" [8/28/2014 10:42:29 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): While a threat at face value, what is the summary of the argument leading up to that? One context could be "you're spiraling down and you need to listen if you plan to get back up!" [8/28/2014 10:43:53 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: We were arguing about something like our living situation. That the dishes still hadn't been done. The laundry was still damp after being in the dryer. And I was saying something along the lines of

"Zaki, can you just get off the computer and help me! Just a little?" [8/28/2014 10:44:02 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Something to that effect. But he called me stupid girl [8/28/2014 10:44:43 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: and basically acted from that point on, like I was a horrible burden. Even threatening to kick me out, because I was too "Demanding" When all I wanted was the house to be clean, and sanitary. [8/28/2014 10:45:56 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): What were your responses? [8/28/2014 10:46:14 PM | Edited 10:46:22 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): To fill the gaps a bit more, that is. [8/28/2014 10:46:24 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I told him never to call me stupid again. And he said "Well stop acting it!" [8/28/2014 10:46:56 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: To the kicking out. I gave him a glare and said "Don't you dare go back on your promises to my mom. You can lie to me, you can break promises to me. But you will not go back on your word to my mother" [8/28/2014 10:47:44 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Question: when you were active in chores, was he as well? [8/28/2014 10:48:02 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I was absolutely, especially at first. [8/28/2014 10:48:10 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I would cook, clean, do dishes. Keep the apartment clean [8/28/2014 10:48:42 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: As time dragged on, I slowed my work, to only keeping the dishes clean, if he cooked, or keeping my area clean. Waiting to see how long it would be intolerable for him to live in. [8/28/2014 10:49:00 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: It got to the point I couldn't cook in the kitchen, and I whipped that kitchen from top to bottom. [8/28/2014 10:54:01 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): It sounds like at that point, it got to where "let's see who can go on the longest before caving" which hurt both sides. [8/28/2014 10:54:37 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): What did he do relative to you? [8/28/2014 10:56:49 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: one sec. wet paint [8/28/2014 10:57:44 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Ok, now then. [8/28/2014 10:58:30 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: My job was dishes (if he cooked, and his if I cooked) getting laundry together, keeping the trash in the trash bucket. mopping, and the bedroom. [8/28/2014 10:58:32 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: his was. [8/28/2014 10:58:40 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Trash, laundry and the living room [8/28/2014 10:59:30 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: The living room was ALWAYS a mess, the bathroom was a mess, (Which was also his) The floor was never vaccumed. Which was his. since I'm afraid of hoovers. The laundry was always left for two plus weeks. Half the time I was naked in the apartment. And the dishes were never done after a meal [8/28/2014 10:59:49 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I had my fair share of taking a little time to do my thing, but I assure you. It wasn't as long as his [8/28/2014 11:04:28 PM | Edited 11:04:35 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): In the end, assigning constant tasks seemed to get things nowhere. [8/28/2014 11:05:34 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): If something needs to get done, the best thing is to do it because it will just be a waiting competition if nothing else. Sorry about that. [8/28/2014 11:08:40 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So he was supposed to do ALL laundry, including yours? [8/28/2014 11:08:45 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: He also kept trying to get me to have sex. [8/28/2014 11:08:52 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Yes, that's our agreement [8/28/2014 11:08:55 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: was [8/28/2014 11:09:31 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Still too much of a heavy hitter. [8/28/2014 11:09:53 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: After we broke up. I kept telling him no no no. [8/28/2014 11:09:57 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: He kept trying to get me to. [8/28/2014 11:10:00 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Tried to kiss me [8/28/2014 11:10:03 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Constantly fondling me. [8/28/2014 11:10:39 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Did you threaten anything that would get law involved? [8/28/2014 11:11:01 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: No. Because if the law was involved, I lossed my place to stay [8/28/2014 11:12:11 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Do you know that for sure? Usually there's something to counteract such situations. [8/28/2014 11:12:26 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Did you research what could have been done? [8/28/2014 11:14:47 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: no. because i didt want to rock a boat [8/28/2014 11:15:55 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Living status quo when you fear things might hit a low is no way to live because you'll just sit in relatively abusive water until you make an effort to move on. [8/28/2014 11:22:39 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You need to learn that if you don't rock the boat, you'll keep looping through the same things. [8/28/2014 11:30:27 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: i guess [8/28/2014 11:31:48 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Example, we're actually losing our house at some undisclosed point, but we're not sitting and wait for things to come to us. [8/28/2014 11:35:37 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Which brings me back to an important question, what's your status on schooling, driving, etc? [8/28/2014 11:36:08 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I am getting 20+ On the driving test. So if it goes this way till I'm in WA, I'll pass easily. [8/28/2014 11:36:21 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Schooling I'm looking to get into culinary school [8/28/2014 11:38:29 PM | Edited 11:38:46 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Are you looking in the job market down there or back in the states? Also, that's usually something like for a 2-year degree if you want a good start. Are you already aware? [8/28/2014 11:39:02 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: yes [8/28/2014 11:40:01 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): What are your career plans once you have your schooling started/done? [8/28/2014 11:41:09 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: i want to move to france and be french trained [8/28/2014 11:43:05 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): That's shooting VERY high. [8/28/2014 11:43:16 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): You can learn their cuisine anywhere. [8/28/2014 11:43:34 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Do you know fluent French? [8/28/2014 11:44:34 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: i know enough to learn, and i want to move to france [8/28/2014 11:45:59 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Are you familiar with their economy, society, job market, and housing? [8/28/2014 11:46:25 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I'd assume that's an end goal, right? [8/28/2014 11:46:33 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I've been in france twice a year for about 14 years. [8/28/2014 11:46:48 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: All over the country. [8/28/2014 11:47:13 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Sometimes just blocks from the Lurve. Sometimes in the country. [8/28/2014 11:47:30 PM | Edited 11:47:49 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): As a visitor or temp citizen? [8/28/2014 11:47:59 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: visitor [8/28/2014 11:48:22 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): So you're not fully immersed in the country's lifestyle? [8/28/2014 11:49:00 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): To be honest, I don't want to make you feel bad, but it's like saying you want to go to Hollywood to be an actor. [8/28/2014 11:49:59 PM | Edited 11:50:10 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): There are safer steps you need to take before going out further than before and risking it all. [8/28/2014 11:50:52 PM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): What homebase would you have if you were able to get out to France? [8/28/2014 11:54:16 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I would have a degree before doing this [8/28/2014 11:54:32 PM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: It would be the next step [8/29/2014 12:00:59 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Look what I did :3 [8/29/2014 12:01:08 AM] *** Maia (Tardispony) Wallace sent FC75B4B8-2978-406D-9643-686B002B7E6D.jpg *** [8/29/2014 12:01:32 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Will you get job experience beforehand? Getting your foot in the door in the is the hardest part and you're talking about leaving the west side of the Atlantic. [8/29/2014 12:02:07 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: This isn't a thing happening this year. It's something I would like. To be classically French trainee [8/29/2014 12:02:42 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Have you already found places with such positions? [8/29/2014 12:03:03 AM | Edited 12:03:11 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Cute pony! Really, I just want to know you're not making a gamble. [8/29/2014 12:04:52 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: First thing, get into school in the usa [8/29/2014 12:17:00 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): Very good. :3 I'm only warning you it's a higher risk if you rush off to France. [8/29/2014 12:17:40 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm not rushing off first thing [8/29/2014 12:17:49 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I do have SOME common sense. Give me some credit! [8/29/2014 12:18:35 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): That's why I'm verifying. XP [8/29/2014 12:18:57 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): I still highly recommend getting a job moderately local though. [8/29/2014 12:24:48 AM] Jestre DeRama (Maddy): brb [8/29/2014 12:26:26 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: Okay [8/29/2014 12:30:00 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I guess the bottom line is Jestre, Please don't post anything about me, if there is any question of anything, negative. Okay? Because look at us, we talked it out together, no drama, no big fight, we talked it out like humans. [8/29/2014 1:36:42 AM] Maia (Tardispony) Wallace: I'm going to bed, so I'll be around tomorrow if you want to continue this chat. And please. From now on, if you or anyone else has a problem with me. Address it here privately, not on tumblr... Please?

Thanks for taking some time to chat. Night.

[howlhardt]

IF YOU WERE FOLLOWING TARDISPONY (AKA MAIA)

She accidently deleted her mod blog recently, but was able to make a new one!

HERE:

http://tardispony.tumblr.com/

There, now GO! Even if you hadn't, she's an amazing artist, and a wonderful girl!

GOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGO!!!!!

[naomiknight17-blog]

Hopefully the last message on this for tonight

Yeah, I understand. Would you mind giving me more details as to exactly how she hurt you and your friends, so that I can keep an eye out for it and/or look more into it? Is it fallout by proxy from Jitters fundraiser?

***

I was one of the many people sending her encouragement and love and signal-boosting her fundraisers.

She probably doesn't even know or remember me. I was just one of the many who tried to get her help and get her out of her abusive situation, and sent her love and support during it.

I believed in her. I believed the things she said. And then she turned around and said it had all been a 'misunderstanding', after accepting all our help and donations.

After I, and many others, put our names on the line and vouched for her. She threw it all back in our faces, misspent the money, and went back home.

And that hurt really really badly.

It broke my trust.

It broke the trust of many.

And I check in on her blog every once in a while, and nothing about her has changed. She acts like the victim until she gets what she wants out of people, then acts like everything's fine.

A vicious cycle I can't let myself be part of any more.

Listen, this whole thing is making me feel really tired and sick. I don't mind telling you my side of things and what I've seen and heard from her, but could we maybe pick it up tomorrow or later? I'm getting a bit too upset to continue talking about it just now.

Thanks.

[megadork]

tardispony replied to your post: anonymous said:I'm going to say o...

Yeah but you know tumblr won’t do much, during the whole silver fang escapade they didn’t do shit with almost 3,000 people reporting him.

Meh, doesn't hurt to try ^^

[silver-tongues-blog]

Christ kid you need to learn to mine your own business and let Jitters and Maia solve the problems with each other.

I wasn't insulting jitters.

I was saying maia was acting like silver fang.

You know, the person who always promised to change and then made an alternate account to be a friend of them to continue harassing people.

I'm sorry if i was too vague about that.

Also, if you want to say something to me, if you have a problem with me, come out of anon.

[jestre]

Wow. You said "Stop wasting your money on the con and use it to try and get out of your shitty house" more times than I thought possible.

She wasted it on the con and badgered vendors for table space and guilt tripped them anyway.

[megadork]

tardispony replied to your post: LOOK IT���S ALL SO NEATLY ORGANIIIIZED

Omg, can you send me some of those folders! Please!

You can add me on skype and I'll drop you a link ^^ My skypename is Tracy.Flash

there's not a lot in them yet though ;w;

[elementoffaith]

Dear friends,...

“A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.” Proverbs 17:17

As someone who’s hid in the shadows for far too long as the endless nightmare continued on the minefield known as Tumblr, I have to say this about a certain individual who’s become an enemy to a portion of the brony community. I’ve been told that there is nothing I can say or do to stop what is happening. But at this point, I feel that if I don’t say what‘s on my mind about what‘s happened, I’ll regret it. This is not meant to be an attack to anyone, but please allow me to vent my thoughts.

It all started when I was looking at a post on the Discord Whooves tumblr blog. It described of a girl named Maia, whom while on a livestream, was being verbally abused by her mother. The post was a plea for help that Maia would be removed from that situation and into a better one through donations. While I couldn’t donate money, I posted a journal on DeviantArt asking for prayers for her and any sort of help.

After time passed, around Christmas, Maia was able to leave her home in Costa Rica and stay with people who helped her in that. My first actual encounter with Maia was on one of Keikoandgilly’s livestreams. I remember when she noticed one of my messages, gasped and said: “It’s ElementOfFaith. I haven’t seen her in my streams in a while.” The funny thing was, I had never actually been on any of Maia’s livestreams in the past. But as it turns out, my username may have been similar to someone else’s who had attended her streams. As more time passed, I started attending more of Maia’s streams and eventually shared my Skype info with her so I could get to know her better. We started chatting from time to time, even having video conversations. We became good friends and we’d share thoughts, childhood stories, laughs, and differing opinions; religion was one of them. I’m a Christian, and Maia’s describes herself as “not religious.” Even though we didn’t agree on everything, she respected what I believed and she helped me to feel comfortable when I felt like an outcast.

Once during a livestream while she was working on a commission, a conversation came up while she was on a Skype call with a friend of hers. The conversation consisted of things like religion and homosexual related things. As a Christian, I’m not always comfortable with hearing about stuff like that because of what I believe. But the reason for my discomfort was not because I don’t agree with some things that are acceptable in society these days. It was because I was afraid of hurting someone with my beliefs. As the conversation carried on, I just continued to watch Maia work on her commission as I listened to the opinions of those on the call. I kept my opinions to myself, hardly typed a word because I feared that my opinions would offend someone, thus opening the door for retaliation. But at one point I typed “I can handle it. I’m a big girl.” Maia’s reply was, “Yes you are Element. And I’m proud of you.” Maia knew that my faith was a big part of me. She then went on to explain that she was wary of carrying on with the conversation because she didn’t want to hurt me. I can’t say that everyone else would have labeled me as a bible-thumping homophobe, but to feel welcome in that stream, knowing I could be myself really helped me feel better.

Around this time in getting to know Maia, I had begun to form bonds with others connected to the effort to help her:

Keikoandgilly, whom I was following as an anon before I joined Tumblr. He and Maia had also formed a romantic relationship during her stay up north with him. I had already intended to be a friend to him before I met Maia. After learning of the hardships that he and Maia had gone through in the past, I felt that they deserved something nice that could be found in each other.

Rhythmrender and his girl Wispywinterwind, whom I met on one of Keikoandgilly’s streams. Nice folks, even though we don’t converse all that much.

As even more time progressed, things began to deteriorate. Maia and Keiko had ended their relationship and the former returned home to her family in Costa Rica. Maia told me that the original livestream that led to her leaving home only featured the bad side of her mother, and explained that her actions on the video was just stress of her worrying that Maia wasn’t doing anything with her life. But not long after, came a backlash. Maia was accused of taking money from people who donated to her and used it to “take a vacation” and other petty pleasures. Later came allegations of bad behavior at that year’s Bronycon and throughout different sites on the Internet. In addition came claims of Maia’s suicidal thoughts that she posted on tumblr --that scared the living daylights out of me-- to be merely a pattern of manipulation in order to gain sympathy and attention. More claims of wrongdoing were brought against Maia and thus came the creation of the blog, “Tardispony Callout.” The site was meant to be an archive of evidence such as screencaps of things she’s posted on numerous websites such as Tumblr and DeviantArt, chats with Maia on Skype, etc. I was surprised to learn that the creator of the blog was none other than Rhythmrender himself. Feeling used and abused by Maia, he decided to seek justice for those that have been hurt after Maia’s alleged betrayal.

Naturally Maia felt threatened and turned to friends for help. It was in that time that I introduced her to my longtime friend Polka-Dotted-Pony. I figured they’d get along and she eventually became one of Maia’s defenders who would post counterattacks on the callout blog along others willing to stand by her.

Also wanting to distant herself from the problem and start over, Maia kept changing Tumblr and DeviantArt accounts, assuming new identities in hopes that those on the callout blog would leave her alone and she would continue working in peace. At one point she even assumed a male alias in order to throw her enemies off her trail. But those plans were eventually thwarted because soon there would be posts about Maia’s new aliases in order to make her enemies aware of where she is so they could make sure she didn’t cause any more trouble. Maia assuming a male alias was especially met with negative reception, but I did a bit of research and found that female authors throughout history used male pennames when they wrote their books and I figured it was sort of the same thing. Her current deviantArt account under the name “BaffledDingo” is currently under the blog’s watch.

Trying to be a good and supportive friend, I did what I could for Maia mainly by trying to comfort her while she was down and maybe offer advice on what to do. I’d also try to talk to people like Rhythm, Wispy, and Keiko on Skype in order to help. But because I still saw them as friends and I cared for them as I did for Maia, I didn’t want to full on attack them. I’d try to be as civil as I could. As the mess got bigger, I started losing my trust in my friends, and Maia was starting to not trust me anymore because I was connected to those who hurt her. I refused to cut them off because I didn’t think they were as bad as she did and I thought there was some goodness.

Incidentally, I wrote The Foolish Crow as a way to vent out my feelings about what happened between me and my friends. The crow in the poem is me, hoping that within the bitterness that has taken over my friends, there lies goodness. But at times, it didn’t seem to be there. All I could do is pray that they be healed from drama that has happened upon all of us. Sadly, I have allowed that bitterness to fall upon me. My trust in those involved has deteriorated over the course of this little adventure and I don’t know who to believe anymore. Maia does have a history of lying and those against her are willing to do whatever it takes to expose that, even if it means hurting her because apparently her suffering doesn’t matter whether it’s legit or not.

I’m not ignoring the wrong that she has done in the past, but I’m not letting it snuff out the good either. As far as I know, she’s been able to obtain her driver’s license and that’s a start to bettering her life. But it seems that everyone against her says that everything that she claims is nothing but a lie, that her word isn’t to be trusted, and the only way she can be believed is through concrete proof that she’s trying to turn herself around. Most of the time, standing by and watching the activity on the blog was one of the big things on my mind. I’d constantly try to think of ways to help make things better whether it was mock trials or whatever.

But then, one Sunday evening fell upon us. It was the deadline for Maia to agree to a deal that was made between Keiko and others. If Maia didn’t agree to return a tablet and a laptop that Zaki had purchased for her by midnight, she would be faced with a lawsuit. Polka had posted to the callout blog that she wanted proof that the items in question were not gifts as we initially thought. That evening, Keiko requested a group chat with me and Polka so he could verify his claim. After some time, Polka promptly left due to what I thought was confusion with the screen caps that were shown to us, so I listened to Keiko’s claims myself. He pretty much drummed it into my head that the tablet and laptop weren’t gifts, but rather a business exchange of sorts. As the minutes ticked by, I started becoming more and more worried by each one because there was no word from Maia. I tried contacting her, as did Polka, trying to convince her that a laptop and tablet wasn’t worth facing possible jail time. Ultimately, time ran out with no response from Maia.

That night was among the worst I’ve ever had to endure. It felt like I was gonna throw up. And not just me. Polka was distressed to the point where she too felt sick from the stress, and my boyfriend caldera599 who has always supported me through this entire mess felt terrible because of how distraught I was. Their patience ran out, and I wished I could give them whatever of mine I still had. Since then, I’ve been paying less and less attention to the callout blog, which I probably should have done a long time ago. When Keiko and I ended the Skype call that night, he addressed me as his friend. It was something I had hoped to gain even before the drama. But it seems I earned his friendship at the expense of another.

As time goes on, I find myself becoming more bitter about everything that’s happened. Maia feels that I haven’t been there for her because I refused to cut ties with Rhythm, Keiko, and others because I still saw them as friends. It’s true when someone says to me that I’m naïve because I try to see the best in people. Especially people whom I care about. The thing is, it applies to both sides. I still care about Maia, Keiko, Wispy and Rhythm, and all the rest. Sadly, there are times where I can imagine telling them off because of what’s happened. How it’s hurt themselves, and me. In my honest opinion, no one is blameless in what’s happened. Maia should have made better choices in words and actions, but everyone else should have too. I’m not blameless either. I probably shouldn’t have gotten involved, make their problem about my needs, and/or should have tried to stand my ground a long time ago. I probably should have cut them all off but I didn’t want to lose them like I had lost other friends in the past. Foolishly and selfishly, I still don’t want to lose them because I feel I’d regret it. I hoped and prayed that I could help in some way to mend what‘s been broken, but it doesn’t seem that I can. I still pray that God will provide a way to allow this drama to pass, even if I’m not the one helping to do it. I pray that He will provide what is needed to be done and that something good can come from our suffering. Maybe not what we want, but something that’s needed even if it’s for someone else. And I pray that they will allow themselves to forgive their trespassers. We’ll see what happens. In the meantime:

To Maia: I do not appreciate you telling me that I haven‘t been there for you. I’ve messaged people for you, I’ve tried talking to people on Skype to stand up for you, and I’ve gotten a few of my own close friends to support you and pray for you; just because I refused to do the one thing you asked of me doesn’t mean that I’m against you even if your family might say different. You can’t deny the lies you’ve told, the stunts you’ve pulled, and neither can I. But I stood by you since the beginning, and I didn‘t want to give up because we were friends. I still don’t want to give up on you and the chance for you to better yourself and to have a better life. Rhythm has made it clear to me more than once that you were allowed to talk to him. Even if those statements are lies, you could have at least tested them and you wouldn’t have had to be alone in that either. You could have asked me, or Polka, or any other supporters you have to help work it out. I know that confronting them for what they did would be painful for you, but if I can take a stand and post it on my blog for everyone to read, open for attack, you should’ve be able to stand up for yourself too. In the past, you told me that you were proud for being brave. I bet you could be too. On another note, you had me and Polka worried sick that Sunday. Now you have more trouble to deal with and people are saying that Keiko has a strong case. Just five minutes of your time to respond to that deal and it would have blown over. Nevertheless, I’ll always try to be a friend to you even if you don’t believe that.

To Rhythm and the rest: You said that Maia was free to talk to you anytime. But I was made aware of a threat that Maia received, telling her not to contact those involved in this great mess or else she’d face the wrath of the individual that wrote it (who shall remain anonymous). And I have the screencap to prove it. You might not have sent the threat, but if I had seen a post like that directed at me, I’d be scared out of my wits. Maia pulled some stupid stunts, there’s no denying that. However, I don’t think that excuses bad behavior towards her or those who are willing to stand up to you on her behalf. In my opinion, it isn’t really becoming to call someone stupid, even when they’re anonymous. And here’s a little fact about the white knights you’ve been facing. We stand by her because we care about her, much like you care about the people who have been hurt by her. Yes some were over the top, but the way you have carried on about Maia, you make it sound like she doesn’t deserve friends at all. I also have in my possession a chat that was made between Maia and someone who was considering hiring her to illustrate children’s books. Upon finding your blog and the evidence you have piled up against her, he decided not to hire her. But I imagine you may not care since her “suffering” doesn’t matter. There were times when I read posts on the blog that made me really angry. And sometimes I wondered if y’all were no better than what you claimed Maia to be. I really don’t know as I might not be thinking logically. Even so, I pray that you all get what you need in life, even if it’s not necessarily what you want. And that goes for Maia too.

I’m aware that I’ll face negative feedback for writing this. That’s to be expected. But I needed to get my thoughts out, foolish and naïve as they may be. As mentioned before, this letter is by no means an attack on anyone involved in this mess. It’s not an “I’m right and you’re wrong” argument and I apologize if it came off that way. But when something’s eating away at someone, you need to let your feelings out you know?

And so, I conclude this letter with two more apologies.

To those of the blog: I’m sorry that I got myself into this mess. I was just trying to be a good friend to Maia and to y’all. And I was trying to be understanding to both sides of the argument.

And to Maia: I’m sorry that I failed you.

Lots of love, -Ele

[naomiknight17-blog]

The saga continues. Feel free to ignore.

Hm. Alright. Well, when it comes to things like this, the truth usually lies between the stories from both sides. I’ll admit that there’s not really much reason for me to figure out exactly what happened, besides perhaps adjusting my perceptions of people based on such, but I’m taking care to not get actively involved. So far, she’s merely asked me for advice on what to do given the situations that have been arising, and based on this latest one at least I’ve been advising her to get off Tumblr and head to a different site. Whether or not she’s right, whether or not Jitters’s right, there’s nothing left for her here. The reason I wanted to compare between yours and hers was that without a countering side, the only side of this tale I’ve been exposed to is hers. You say that “she will twist things to make herself sound like the victim”, but without a countering side, how can I tell that that isn’t the truth? And on that note, what right do I have to get involved in her life to that degree? We already talked about her family situation, and I myself came to the conclusion that it was abusive. However, when I confronted her about it, she told me that I had the wrong view on it since I had only heard the worst parts of it. From there, it went on to the discussion about Jitters and how, supposedly, the exact same playout happened with him except that he refused to listen when she told him that he had only been hearing the worst of it. Honestly, not only do I think there’s nothing I can do, there’s nothing I /should/ do. Condemning one side or the other will solve nothing. All I can do is listen so that whatever mistakes were made, everyone involved, myself included, can learn lessons from them. Don’t think that I’m just mindlessly listening to her. With every allegation I hear from her, I’m comparing it to what I know of the people involved in that. So far, it’s only been Jitters and his group, which are people who I haven’t been involved with anyhow due to my opinion of Jitters. So it’s not like this is ruining friendships or anything, especially since I refuse to act on my opinions. Nothing good can come of that.

***

I'm glad you're not getting too actively involved.

Again, the thing with Jitters trying to help Maia before was stemming from just how much he really does care about people, and he couldn't bear to see her in the awful situation she was in. He (and many others) actually witnessed the abuse because it happened during her streams a couple of times. Everything Jitters and his friends did then - fundraising, finding somewhere for her to stay, etc - was because they wanted to help someone they considered a friend.

But, clearly, getting actively involved only ended with a lot of people getting hurt, so really, you're being very smart by not getting too involved.

The other thing is - whether or not she believes her situation is abusive is constantly changing. One day it is, the next it isn't. This is likely a symptom of growing up in an abusive household - as soon as her mom does one tiny nice thing, she clings to it and decides things aren't really that bad, then next thing you know her mom is calling her worthless and screaming at her again. It's a terrible cycle. A terrible cycle we were trying to free her from. And maybe, just maybe, seeing a professional psychologist/psychiatrist may help her understand her situation better, and better cope with it. So, that's why I was saying it may be a good idea to advise her to seek such help.

I'm glad you're looking at this analytically and not just buying everything she says. When you mentioned that you'd been talking a long while, I got worried.

And it's not a reflection on my opinion of you that I thought she may manipulate or hurt you - remember, I'm one of the people who has been hurt by her past actions. I wasn't trying to insinuate that you were gullible or anything. I was just afraid that she may do to you what she's done to so many others.

I hope none of this has harmed the friendship between us. Despite our differing views on some people, I still like you for who you are, and I hope we can hang out at next year's Bronycon... (assorted niceties I'm cutting out because I don't want to accidentally identify this person)