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[star-ocean-peahen]

I come bearing hugs! And energy so that you can be foogy! XD

ksjdfkawhfciwae thank you so much

[alchemist-shizun]

As expected, Dealing with intrusive thoughts is now one of my favorites

Here I come with almost all of my reactions on the episode, even though I tagged the spoiler warnings I put everything under the cut just in case. Enjoy the emotional rollercoaster while I'll probably go and rewatch it again.

Okay kinda expected one or two of the warnings but all of them together what is gonna happen???? (Though they make sense after reading the title)

HELLO FRESH BACK AGAIN

"I'm awesome and I can do this" there goes my boy. *said boy falls flat on the floor* ...come on

I felt that yawn bc I stayed up all night waiting for the video but it dropped at 8 am, I'm an idiot who should've gotten more sleep

"help me" why is he such a mood "everything is going wrong in my life" same but YOU SHOULDN'T SAY THAT LET ME HUG YOU

They're all sinking up so fast god I missed my bois. Also the general awkwardness of Virge and Pat, greeeeat something will go wrong

Virgil just ignoring everything and touching the railing, a mood

ALSO PLEASE LET ROMAN IN THE SITUATION

SECRET SECRETS ARE NO FUN TELL ME NOW OR ELSE WE'RE DONE

wait why does Ro want to be deeply troubled- man are you okay-

LOGAN'S HERE

"your most extreme reaction is an eyebrow raise" "FALSEHOOD" "I stand corrected" omfg

"what are you ta- what are you talking- what are you talking about?" I loved that whole take it made me feel complete

"Look I barely got any sleep" this can apply to a lot of us and I love just how we're all always like "TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF" but in the end this is where we all end up anyway

Okay I'm very curious about these troubling thoughts though

"so sushi" FUCCC I DIED RIGHT THERE

"Don't act like that was an accident" "everybody, Virgil. Let's give it up for the Purp Man" these speak for themselves. Also the purp man is my new fav nickname and I'm gonna use it.

4:17 Patton is adorable bye

"if you continue to push this we're going to end up in really dangerous territory" AND THAT'S WHERE THE TENSION STARTED TO BUILD UP

great flick

"am I delirious or is this the funniest video I've ever made" I felt that

YOU HIGH-JOCKED

okay but when Thomas starts disassociating I also feel really weird like as if there was something blocking my own hearing for real?? And not just the audio edited like that?? Maybe I'm just too tired

WHAT WHO WHHH first intrusive thought making its way what is gonna happen

OH MY GOD ROMAN WATCH OUT ALSO THAT'S DEFINITELY A NEW DARK SIDE OR SMTH LIKE THAT

W HO THE FUCKLKDSL IS THAT A MOUSTACHE IS THAT GLITTER WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HE WEARING WHAT IS HE DOING THERE PLEASE- okay but he looks crazy af I like that

"-evIL" "-SHOW UP"

First time I watched the scene where Ro gets knocked out I literally just screamed "ROMAN" in a high pitched sound I was shook wtf my bOY

Patton and Thomas's yells in unison plus "YOU KILLED HIM" I just I JUST

"Ah, he's the Duke" "....... boo" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Okay but his voice is so on point with his character portrayal he's so weird it's awesome?

SONG SONG SONG and oh goodness the visuals I can't fathom how much editing work must have gone through this, they're all so talented.

"aunt patty naked" A G AI N??

"IM GONNA WHIP YOUR BUTT"

a snaKE IT'S DECEIT oh my these silouhettes are so great this is my favorite scene

this is gonna be stuck in my head all day

THE COOL MIRROR EDIT.

god i hate him so much already but i'm super intrigued he's so chaotic the whole team made a wonderful job i'll never stop saying this

"i'm really stupid right now" just how much out of context relatable content are we going to get on this fine day?

omg the dark version of creativity, which can be associated with intrusive thoughts, that's very clever

THE JUICY STUFF DANCE

"Repression can be very bad indeed" I mean he's right tbh it leads to never solving the problem at all

GO LOGAN GO HAVE YOUR TIME TO SHINE FINALLY i missed him

"i can't hear youuuuuu" much like "I don't understand what you're saying I don't know anything about words" THE DARK SIDES ARE ALL SASSY LITTLE BITCHES

pattonnnn did a real good job

THE BRAVE HANDSOME UNBEATABLE ROMAN and mashed potatoes

"scary" and Virgil just gives Thomas a look idk I live on the little details (Im ten minutes into the vid and look how long this post already is)

GEE Remus (already using his name bc it's shorter) looking so offended at the label and then pointing out it should be a Virgil problem whAT DOES THIS MEAN IM SHAKING

WHY WOULD HE BE DECEIT AGAIN IM DYING. "Idk if you guys can tell but I'm a little silly"

"then why are you lying" no everybody I don't need angst

THE BLACK AND THE WHITE THEORY I SAW GOING AROUND good job to whoever thought of that

JOAN

the forbidden dance

INTO A BUTTHOLE WHAT IS IT WITH HIM AND BUTTHOLES

there u go thomas said it too

haters gonna hate hate hate hate hate FHDSLAKLFD

irresponsible parenting, Logan completing the parental unit of the sides

"maybe there's hope for you after all!" me looking at all my wips

REMUS' LAUGH IS PERFECT. also "BITCH WHAT IS *YOUR* DEAL"

"you've never been one to soften the truth" OH BOI HERE WE GO

"do we have some case of brain swap???" I legitly said "maybe" in unison with Patton the first time

Vee pls stop putting Thommy boy down he's having a bad time

Logan trying to put some sense into the situation is my only spark of hope for this to turn back good

REMUS IS SO DRAMATIC

That lick was ....... let's pretend it never happened

"you know who can help us with that???" DECEIT'S SONG COMING UP that was great, imagine the chaos that the duo would create

"THATS WHAT REPRESSION IS?"

gasp Remus trying to make Virgil angry at Logan shall not stand DON'T PUT THEM AGAINST ONE ANOTHER HE'S JUST TRYING TO HELP

"you all are not listening to Thomas" this is the development I needed

"you're just para-" and he cuts himself. You all know what I'm talking about. Foreshadowing probably? This happened too back then when Roman was almost calling him the same. And then Virge looks so hurt I- "thank you for being on guard" that made me want to cry idk

the whole speech Logan gave? Pure gold. That was perfect.

HE SAID FIGURATIVELY *CLAP CLAP CLAP*

"UH RECORD SCRATCH?"

"does this make me cool?" djslagrkglhf also the teeth thing right after what the

... the deodorant eating ...

DUKEY

The first time I watched I thought his name was spelled Remis that's how dumb my Italian ass is

Still I love his name bc I'm a nerd for ancient culture, ESPECIALLY Roman (and ancient Greek but it isn't mentioned here) and I love the little thing they did with both Creativity names, super clever and very much liked on my part.

"I would never hide anything from you" and he looks at Virgil JUST ALL THIS FORESHADOWING

LOGAN SHOWING HIS TEETH BACK UP

"how about you shut up" Roman what the hecc man

THAT THING INTO LOGANS HEAD UNSETTLED ME A BIT

what are they doing to him today let him rest

double blow

"can we logic our way out of that?" everybody nodding was so pure

"shit"

THAT FUCKING JUMPSCARE I'M SORRY WHAT THE FU

"not all thoughts are meaningful"

He's go- no he's back again

THE CALLBACK MENTION AND PATTONS REACTION... probable foreshadowing to what Joan said about there being a part two of SvS?

"When are you actually gonna jump out of a moving car I've been bringing it up for years" so it's not just me..?

"it is okay if the thought happens to cross your mind"

"everything is okay" I'm going to cry I needed that

I love how Logan touches the topic that there is no problem in seeking help from therapists. There's a lot to say on this, but I was really glad that was pointed out since the are a lot of stereotypes on the matter

why did Virgil look like he was about to cry

Patton I love you

Thomas going to rest is what everyone wanted to see

Virgil confronting Remus I'm living you're doing amazing sweetie

"you tickle me emo"

"it was just like old times" then Pat and Lo's looks in this essay I will

ROMAAAAN

VIRGILS SMILE

"YOU'RE ALIVE"

"I LOVE YOU" ME TOO!! ME TOO ME TOO

"are you good?" "are you hurt at all?" I love when the sides look out for each other

"I'm sorry Logan" right through the heart. Another development.

I need y'all to look at Virgil in this exact second because. he.

that's my point.

All those smiles while Logan's talking are making me alive

"No seriously, you're ... really ... cool" I started tearing up right here. Twice. And then Logan sinks down cause he's not at all used to this and he's feeling t h i n g s please keep on being appreciated you deserve it

Also Patton always learning from his mistakes and understanding them when he does something wrong or he thinks in the wrong direction, that's something I think a lot of people need to learn, including myself. Like, it's okay to be wrong and make mistakes, just do your best to make sure you're improving yourself afterwards, instead of dwelling on it too much

"I don't like him" makes two of us

"Soooo you have a brother?" oh boy

The m i r r o r it's making me cry

"He's gone now and he's never coming back!" "I don't think that's-" "BYEE" what was all that talk about repression for if you contiNUE TO DO THIS ROMAN please I beg of you let us hELP YOU he's making me die inside

Oh boi the big moment. I already expected a bomb to drop since Virgil was the last one remaining.

"You okay buddy?" "Huh?" op somehow was already found crying

"I'm a little disappointed in myself" istg all that foreshadowing mixed with me wanting to hug him

The music picking up tension, this is poetic cinema let me tell you

I noticed how he calls them "the others", all these tiny details is what I'm living for

"I should know better" I couldn't beLIEVE IT, also how he seemed to be so frustrated made something inside me break

the pause and then "Because I was one of them", the music stops for a second, a little second in which you can hear my distant screaming "GOSH HE SAID IT IT WAS TRUE"

Thomas is speechless and just stares at him while the music picks up again and then Virgil's sigh and expression sinking down like "there you have it. that's the truth. and you can't do anything about it" he looks so defeated I'm breaking down.

Did I already mention poetic cinema? I just love angst and this scene was perfect

First time watching I, too, barely understood anything I was listening to in the last parte because all of that was really a lot to take in.

"Those thoughts that you may have thought do not define you"

"[the thought] may simply be that we are really okay"

"Go to bed!" me

no im not in the mood for food because for some unfathomable reason I had anxiety before the video dropped yay me

WHY ARE U DRINKING RED WINE WITH THAT DISH

GAVIN BEST BOY EVER

and last but not least: are you fucking serious Remus

THERE'S A SNAKE IN MY BUTT FANDFKJL

I didn't expect this topic at all and I am so glad it was talked about, thankfully my intrusive thoughts do not bother me as much as I realized other people's do. And I never saw anyone talking about this before, which is why it makes this video so important. I saw a tweet recently about someone saying that it is okay if you think about weird things, the important is that you never act on them, that's what makes you a good person. But I think this video really explains it far better and I never realized how common something like this was? So yeah another time in which I've been educated and couldn't be happier about it. These people really are bringing light to the world gah I LOVE THEM.

oKAY guess I'm done this was a wild ride and yeah I tend to point out EVERYTHING, so here you have it, as I already mentioned if you feel the need to geek out too, I'm here for ANYBODY! (pls I have no friends)

[spookysshadow]

The Lewistern AU no one asked for but imma write it anyway so hold on tight ft Claia

Jonathan Morgenstern is a grungy college student who studies Chemical Engineering because he’s a NERD. He had an emo phase during his teen years and never really got over it. Ergo the constant band t’s and the huge poster of MCR in his room. Jonathan is hella protective of his smol sis, despite the fact she could take on anyone if angered enough.

So when smol Clary walks into their apartment after school in first grade on a day Jonathan was sick at home, he is surprised to see a smol thing with brown hair and huge ass glasses come through. Immediately he doesn’t trust the dude, until he smiles at him. Then he thinks he’s having a heart attack.

That is how it goes for the most part. Simon becomes a constant in their life. Where ever Clary is, Simon will be right behind. He knows Simon likes his sister, he can see it. He also knows that Clary doesn’t like him like that. In fact, he’s pretty sure Clary doesn’t like boys in general. If the fact she hasn’t stopped staring at Maureen. “But she’s so smart, brother. And she has a pretty laugh.”

He doesn’t think much about him, except that he really does have a nice smile and a really nice laugh. But Jonathan is oblivious to anything else. Like the way Simon sometimes looks at him when he’s laughing with Luke and his Mom.  Or how his eyes brighten when Jonathan ruffles his hair after a Baseball game.

Years pass and Jonathan learns to play the drums and tries to form a band. He’s struggling to find a guitarist when he walks into the Lewis residence because “Becca, I need my textbook back, it’s not my fault you forget everything at school.” when he sees Simon jamming to his guitar in his room.

And, look okay, so Jonathan may have a thing about guitar players. In fact all of his major crushes have been guitar players. Like Calum from 8th period in 7th grade. Who also had brown hair and brown eyes and glasses. Sue him.

Anyway, so his brain short circuits for a bit before he walks into Simon’s room and tells him he’s hired. Simon is a confused, before Jonathan finally explains his band idea. Of course, nothing in Jonathan’s life is easy, so Simon apologetically tells him he’s already in a band.

Jonathan is not bitter. Not is the slightest. And no Clary, he’s not sulking.

“Really, then why are you eating ice cream? You know you’re lactose intolerant.”

“Death is sweeter this way.”

“Alrighty then. MOM JONATHAN IS TRYING TO DIE VIA LACTOSE.”

Needless to say, Jonathan finds a guitarist. Calum is available, but its not as exciting as 13 year old him expected. Still he sees Simon whenever they have band nights in the local cafes. Its usually him, Maureen, and some punk named Eric. Whatever. And then he watches as sings and is once again blown away. Seriously, not fair.

Still, he guesses it is fun watching Simon play and then knowing he’ll be in the crowd watching him. And if his heart soars when Simon bounces up next to him saying that he was awesome or so talented on the drums, well, he’ll deny it.

For a while it’s okay, but then Simon starts seeing this girl Maia and Jonathan kinda feels like shit. So he starts sleeping with Calum, and Eric, and everyone really. And he doesn’t stick around for Simon’s shows anymore. And when he comes over he just stays in his room and doesn’t leave until Simon is gone.

Clary gets concerned and wants to confront him about it, but then Jonathan is graduating and he spends the majority of his summer with his friends or out of the apartment and more importantly away from Simon. Then he’s off to NYU and he only calls Clary, Luke and his mom every few days to keep them updated.

Simon on the other hand can’t figure out what he did. Seriously. All he knows is that Jonathan started ghosting him, doesn’t return his texts and if he does they’re one worded or blunt. He tries asking Maia but she’s busy trying to convince Clary that they should totally date. And when he sees Calum and Jonathan making out after a show, he feels his heart drop, because of course, he remembers Jonathan’s huge ass crush on Calum, and now he’s got him.

And then Jonathan sleeps with Eric and he hates it. Hates it. Hates it so much. And suddenly Jonathan has slept with all of his friends and he’s just so confused. Like, what a way to tell a guy you’re not interested in him. And he doesn’t say hi or talk to him or smile at him anymore and Simon is just so upset and hurt.

Clary officially thinks boys are idiots and finally takes Maia out on a date, much to Maia’s delight. Together the girls do their best to get Simon out of his funk.

“Seriously Simon you can’t just eat poptarts for the rest of your life.”

“Why not? They make me happy.”

“Babe, can you bring me a nerf gun?”

“Already ahead of you.”

So Maia starts dragging Simon to the gym with her and the boy puts on some muscle. They have rom com nights, which are good intentions but just kinda make him feel lonely. But the exercise helps and suddenly he’s writing songs again and before anyone realizes it its winter break. And Jonathan comes home.

He’s changed a bit. He’s also more muscular, though thats mostly because Alec needed a workout buddy and Jace was still in high school with his sis. He’s made some new friends, Sebastian Verlac who is the biggest dork second only to Simon with he’s fucking suspenders and good boy attitude. Really it’s delightful teasing him. And Alec is hilarious with his grumpy attitude and his lawful tendencies, and of course when they get him drunk enough to wax poetic about his not so secret crush on his Poly Sci TA, one gorgeous Magnus Bane. He loves them really, they’re an odd pair of really tall people, but it works.

But he misses Simon. He misses late night jokes and Star Wars trivia. He misses someone helping him with music and his beats. He misses his smile and witty humor. He misses his horrible puns and cult classics. He misses Simon Lewis. And he realizes after Clary announces who her girlfriend is, that Maia is a proud lesbian and in no way was she ever dating Simon.

So when he walks into his home he greets Luke and his mom with a hug, a kiss on the cheek and a hair ruffle for his Sister, and then he walks into the kitchen to grab a glass of water, and stops.

Simon Lewis stares at him, holding a bag of doritos, in a nice tight long sleeved shirt, sweatpants, and his signature Chewbacca fuzzy socks and Jonathan has to remind himself to breathe.

“Hi”

“Hey”

It’s painfully awkward, because the last time Jonathan saw this kid, he brushed him off and now he knows he was wrong and he damns his jealousy and inability to calmly read a situation. Still, after a bit of awkwardness, Simon smiles softly at him and he thinks for a moment that this is a start.

It’s slow, Jonathan trying to reach out to Simon and mend what he broke, but Simon has always been forgiving and Jonathan is immensely grateful for that. When he explains why he was such an asshole, Simon laughs and explains that Maia became friends with him to meet Clary. Aka the really cute redhead with the freckles and button nose.

Things get better and by the time Jonathan returns for his spring semester him and SImon are back on good terms. He visits his family physically more often. Sometimes he drags SImon on to campus with him, just to show him around. He introduces his sister, Maia, and Simon to Alec and Sebastian, and they all get along. Alec swears he is confused by Simon’s existence, but he can tell that Alec would literally punch anyone who would look at him funny.

Its sometime in April when Simon gets his acceptance letter to NYU. Its the weekend and Luke and Jocelyn are on a weekend get away because they are tired. And Clary and Maia are hanging out at the Mall, when Simon stops by and tells him the news. He’s so excited and he’s jumping up and down, and Jonathan is so happy for him and suddenly Simon’s in his arms and Simon’s hands are cradling Jonathan’s face and they’re kissing.

When they pull back, they stare at each other in shock, but Jonathan doesn’t let go. Simon asks if that was okay and Jonathan can’t help the smile that breaks out across his face.

“Yeah, that’s perfect.”

“Good.”

Then they live happily ever after. The End.