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junebugdunes · 1 year

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something soft

#god these 2 mean everything to me #specifically the scene after ch 2 where susie stands up for kris at the bunker doors #thats what made me draw this #shes grown so much since chapter one #its so nice seeing her happy #they have such a nice friendship #her pushing her hair out of her face was such a good way to visualize her opening up more #anyways sorry i just really love susie #deltarune #deltarune chapter 2 #deltarune fanart #kris dreemurr #susie #not krusie but you can interpret it any way you want #idc #my art

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roseverdict · 4 months

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so like. out of curiosity. if i went "what the heck why not" and got a chapstick with *squints at product info* 75 mg of full-spectrum cbd in it. i am pretty sure i am not at risk of living out the "forever brownie mishap" meme given that it's mainly cbd and not massive amounts of thc in it, and also i do not eat lip balm directly, but i'm curious what kinds of effects it will have if i use it. is it like. numbing? does it take a significant slathering of chapstick to have any real effect on one's mental state?

idk the tism wants to know what i'm going into here and i keep seeing people tout cbd as a miracle oil and i've already experienced how wrong that narrative is when applied to essential oils of the non-hemp kind

#rosie babbles #'but rho why do you keep talking about having less than a dollar in your bank acct if you were able to splurge on a cbd chapstick'#because i was NOT able to splurge.#my mom turned to me in the car and gave me a 20 completely unprompted like i was 15 and not 25. she was going someplace for a #different errand but it was in the same area. i just went to someplace for seeds for gardening reasons in the vain hope i could fistfight #depression with like 2 packs of misc seeds and happened across the hemp guy. given my recent hemp fiber yarn interest research bender. well #anyway i keep seeing people talk about how cbd is said to relieve pain and anxiety and whatnot #and im like 'thats nice Page That Sells Product. what do people who arent being paid say tho'#otoh if people do straight-up say #'hey this might be helpful for your specific mental issues. im not being paid i just think it's worth a shot if you wanna try'#that would be nice to take into acct #idk. i have it now. it is There if i decide to try it.

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basslinegrave · 2 months

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anyway i need more monarch a trois fics. sigh. wish i could write, i gotta draw them more at least

#the thing is i dont even know what abour if i were to request or write myself #but im thinking about a post movie setting with the monarch healing and perhaps with also some comfort about the new situation #also Spoilers but id assume the arching would be more complicated with the ventures in colorado #so its just a waiting time. time to be domestic? or speed it up by killinger helping monarch heal up and the ventures getting back to NY #orrr the monarch gets a new cocoon finally or a jet. anything he can fly in to get to the ventures #i wonder how they would continue this. theres still a lot to be told story wise. but in this case #lotsa time for feelings and getting together properly #im also thinking about how seemingly gary doesnt think about sheila That much now and it seemed to be pretty awkward between them so #id love to see them get closer. him and monarch are very close but its time for sheila #aaand id also love to explore monarchs feelings. theres gotta be a Lot of them right now - but specifically the changes about him and how #he views others and how he respects and cares about both sheila and gary and perhaps explore what could be internalized homophobia #his past remarks vs now i know its the show as a whole maturing but its also nice to just view it as his personal character growth and #feelings realization on his side...#the thing is hes a villain and they wanted to push this whole 'he says shitty things cause hes a dick. hes a villain.' thing but #they fleshed him out so much that i cant not look at him as a not that bad guy and feel for him and pity him and such #siiiigh i wanna know more. i wanna know how hed treat more henchmen now. i wanna know about his childhood after the plane crash #i wanna know if he does or doesnt feel bad about kidnapping gary. assuming monarch just went straight to henching at a young age #perhaps its so normal to him - and its so normal to gary imo. thats why they dont see anything wrong in training kids as henchmen lol #also while im at it. the monarch being the reason 24 died and the biography 21 helped write and monarchs cat that he killed #are they over that. are the last 2 things light retcons? i wannt them discussing that #maybe theres fics about it but if its not shippy i havent found it yet #me when the rarepair/trio is rare 😥😩#and i havent seen 2024 fics. where are they hiding #everything is like 2018 latest so pre movie or during or pre s7

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c-kiddo · 2 years

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yayyy . hacker voice I'm in

[image ID: two UCAS screenshots showing unconditional offers for Dundee illustration and fine art courses. end ID.]

#kiddo say #im so tired worn out enough 2 be sad today so. thats nice #im choosing illustration i think . just applied to both for Options #fine art is nice too but i ehh . i dislike th lack of structure . and th more abstract aspects arent fun 2 me #even if i find specific kinds of contemporary art interesting . im not super good at making it/visualising etc and working with extremely #vague projects and timelines

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presiding · 11 months

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just saw that there's a monster in the hull update and realized i'd missed three of those........this + the audio are such treats giggling and kicking my feet about it fr. going to leave a comment on the fic itself but in the meantime needed to drop a letter on here to say i love the way you write billie--her loneliness, her thoughtfulness, distrust of yet attraction to emily and everything she represents........not to mention the way she's haunted by daud, the longing for a life she can't fathom and will never have !!! society if everyone gave billie the complexity she deserves. and your banter and prose are stunning as always lord everything abt this fic is so good. bringing wine to you on the deck to drink together about it in spirit and yes pun intended

🙏😭 thank you so so much I don't know what to say! that's amazingly kind of you ♥ its a genuine pleasure to like. double down on themes and nuance and less popular characters and just like. idk. trustfall into the fandom that there's people with taste like you, and you can invite them onto your metaphorical deck for wine and meaningful looks 🍷♥♥♥

re: billie - no one else in the dh universe comes close to whatever she has going on

hiding my thoughts about writing dh2 billie >

there's so much material to her!

i thought i'd never write for dishonored 2 (not derogatory - its my favourite game). its undoubtedly linear & doesn't have the mystery or grit of dh1 IMO.

but i saw lapin post that billie & emily comic, and i saw a few other people i respect mention billie/emily and it had me rotating them until the abjection/emily-monster thing clicked and then it was downhill from there

but there's more to think about - what billie has been doing with herself, how she feels about daud & the whalers at this point in her life, her relationship with sokolov (god.a separate rant), her history in karnaca & dunwall, emily's place in the empire and how that fits into billie's story, her lifelong revenge arc, and comparisons between jessamine & deirdre.

like. when you consider billie's perspective you realise how fucking badass she is for going back to dunwall. she not only did it scared she did it scared for her life. suicidal level flimsy disguise trapped in a tin can with your enemy. etc

PLEASE tell me if you ever decide to post that daud & billie fic you mentioned a while back :O

#asks #corpseprince my beloved <333 #thinkin bout your one-day fic. daud and billie are SO difficult to write #not simply father daughter but like. the suicide pact vibes they have and the all consuming nature of dauds bonds #and there's a strong running tension between them #not to mention neither being the type for feelings #the more 'dishonored fandom friendly' fics im working on i've deprioritised recently #yuri on the way <3 there was a deficit anyway!#mostly excited for brigmore smut #if i may bitch on your lovely post (sorry). if you cbf with that stop reading here #idk. it keeps happening #so i post a chapter. maybe get 2 kudos that week #which is nice and i smile every time im stoked to see readers around #but then one or two days later some unpleasant fucko on tumblr has taken one of the ideas i put in the new chapter of my fic #and turned that into a low quality textpost like it was their idea. it gets a heap of notes #and its always a *highly specific* idea after i posted it. and i know what the fandom is talking about broadly so it sticks out #i dont mind at all when its like mutuals or people who have commented or talked to me then its more like 🤝#like. someone who doesnt appear to have ever interacted with me or the fic #im not trying to flatter myself by saying theres no chance its a coincidence. but its offputting as hell #backhanded signal of success? bestie thats my meta post but you made it worse <3 #so my focus rn is niche-r stuff for smart cool people with taste #THE RAMBLING. *tops up your wineglass if you made it this far*

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axreliono · 2 months

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trying to add a scene into an old chap bc a specific plot thread has been bothering me for a while now but ITS SO HARD TO CHANGE SOMETHING THATS ALREADY PUBLISHED WITHOUT ENTIRELY REWRITING. my editing style is quite literally "if sucks, rewrite from scratch" which isnt useful rn. pain and suffering for ten thousand years

#tteote ch28 is gonna gain a scene fyi #just because. okay wait loredrop #tteote used to be one fic #that was gonna be like . 100k #then i had more ideas and i was like ok 200kish super long fic sounds good #then i wrote the “100k” bit and it ended up 200k #and i was like oh shit okay right i gotta make this two fics #which is fine bc the “100k” bit ends quite nicely as its own thing (this mission specifically #vs The Bigger War is a good way to divide it)#BUT THAT MEANS #that some ominous character interactions #will not be resolved in this fic #like you wont find out what i hinted at until next fic #and thats probably like a year away bc i gotta actually write it lol #so ive gotta have those characters turn up again or it'll just looklike a loose end i abandoned for no reason. if that makes sense #the more i think abt it the more annoyed i am that theyre two fics because some of the tiny minor side characters in tteote #get fun roles in fic 2 #bUT i cant recombine them bc the ending works so well now #so you'll all have to be patient #sorry for that LONG ASS CONTEXT RAMBLE #but yea im adding kaneko back into ch28 bc i made him sooo ominous then just abandoned him #so. that'll drop along with ch32 #im hoping #wish me luck #tteote

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im-smart-i-swear · 2 years

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rip konpopoz i miss you every day

am i the only one who always saw him as the vacuum cleaner from teletubbies? was it intentional??

#felix net i nika #fnin #i made this in 2 minutes #konpopoz has a special place in my heart #like i know hes free now but the one we knew is dead. he died. he could never truly escape no matter how many copies of himself he made #also remember roznakin? hes still there. still alive in some garbage pile #thats fucked up right??#i dont know if i want to go down the 'how ai are treated by humans (ibn specifically) in fnin' right now #maybe im just overthinking #but man IBN is not the same without him #like ai in fnin are portrayed as thinking and feeling while also being distinctly Not Human and i like that! thats a nice balance between #'cold unfeeling machine' and 'literally just a human in a metal box'#they are diffrent than us on a fundemental level but that doesnt mean theyre not #yknow. people in a sense #and kosik knows that #..... but its still kinda an iffy topic for me #the more you think about it the weirder this stuff becomes #okay i need to stop thinking about this

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sanchoyo · 3 months

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literally so excited/nervous abt artfight ive been wanting to join for years and years and finally feel hyped up enough 2 do it and its happening tomorrow ...yay :")

#i love drawing for ppl but im always Scared. what if they r like 'omg why did u draw 4 me i dont know u' btw no one in history has done this #everyone ive ever drawn 4 has been rly cool and nice #its just my anxiety thats like DONT BE WEIRD but art fight..is an event specifically 4 ppl who want u 2 draw 4 them...#big win for ppl who r shy. can just slide u this drawing and run away #i dont even need any1 to attack me first (i dont have attacks from prev years to showcase so i do not see this happening) i just need them #like. be nice and enjoy the things i Draw For Them . do u understand #drawing 4 ppl for me has always been like 'im not good at conversations but i want 2 be ur friend. accept this offering'#a dark ritual that makes u think a little more fondly of me....#also theres so many cute charas i have bookmarked and i love their designs so much i want 2 have fun too....#when af rolls around every yr all the artists i follow look like they r having so much fun....#im ready 2 draw thos cute designs i literally already know which ones im doing first i have a Google Doc Locked and Loaded with chara refs #sanchoyorambles #also ppl on the site have literally been so nice and the event hasnt even started #but ive gotten nice comments abt my profile and my charas already :'(

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generationa1trauma · 4 months

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flatmate has a girl over i am suddenly extremely uncomfortable

#sorry i only ever come here to rant its bc im losing all my interests / passions and always need someone to talk to but have no friends 🤪#negative cw #thats a lie partially in that i am emotionally incapable of talking ab it i just. i have no people i have no outlet #but tumblr hasnt been doing it for me lately. im not sure if jts #its the mental illness or if its just being full time employed leaves me so burned out that i can barely function #so hobbies just become non existent #doesnt really matter either way tho bc i can barely pay my bills on full time wages theres nothing i can do to fix things #time off or less hours isnt an option and i sont have the money to get anything diagnosed #i think i need. a lot of support ive been kinda rawdogging life for 26 years but ill be honest gang its starting to really impact everything #i do not. feel like i am a fully functioning human. i am not capable of being a functional adult in society #but its also like. i have to be #my parents dont really believe in mental health stuff or autism or anything and certainly wouldnt believe if i tried to say i was disabled #its just like. no one ever believes me ab that kinda stuff and i dont have the money to get it diagnosed #and without a diagnosis theres not much that can be done but also even with a diagnosis theres nothing #government disability allowance is $78 a week maximum and only covers specifically medical costs for that disability #like i genuinely feel on the verge of a breakdown so bad that i would need a care person #but alas. thats just literally never a possibility for me #i dont have money and i dont come from money and i will be forced to work full time through breakdowns until i die #there is nothing that can be done to help me or fix me #and that just. it sucks #anyway #hope this girl is nice bc my cat refuses to be in my room and its giving me anxiety bc what if hes scared of her and runs away #2 much going on in my head but i can not stop it so here we are #sorry y'all r my rant place #i have been thinking ab trying to step away from the internet a bit but its also.#not really a thing i can do bc everything costs money these days #social clubs r barely existent and the ones there are cost a shittone #I'd just. I'd like to be in a better place. I just don't know how to get there

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eyelessfog · 1 year

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twirls hair kicks feet i was thinking about that a bit actually

#[lore texts]#fh negativity over here . i know its real popular so . yk. ignore #but the comparison between scott n tango in terms of being nice to jimmy is like. wow there are a few times it really Did just line up and #tango was better huh. i mean like. im thinking specifically of reactions to the house #scott was like god thats ugly lets change that . tango was like WDYM UR NOT A BUILDER!!! our ranch!!!#this one aint even fair but the ‘once our husbands die to the war we’ll finally be free’ vs ‘ranchers forever’#im aware its not fair i Am just mean about fh in the first season #it does make it a little sad that the reason i dont like it the amount that i do is because i watched scott’s pov exclusively n he was. sort #of mean the whole time but. as it goes yk. anyway yeah the . flashbacks to every interaction in the caption 2 the comic is so real 2 me

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bunnyb34r · 1 year

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Feel very validated but also like "okay I feel validated but that doesn't help me any" bc BaldBastard, a coworker who works front end but shops childrens dept for her son, and [relative coworker] all validated that it's fucked up how customers treat my area AND that I can't and shouldn't do it all alone

And it's like I feel validated but I know nothing is gonna change. I only get help when [relative coworker] helps me and she can't do that often or nearly enough bc they make her do other areas (yknow to pick up the slack and clean up the bullshit other coworkers leave behind)

Especially since BaldBastard, you know the one who told ME, the only fucking person who ever does the childrens dept, that I need to work other areas, admitted that it's not right that I'm the only one doing a whole department.

And it's like you can send the entire front end to help but it's not gonna do me any fucking good bc they only help out in womens bc they're not helping they're shopping. I don't get help unless [relative coworker] helps or a team lead or manager specially say to whoever they send to clothing to work childrens. And even then!!!

Idk it's just been bugging me lately bc I'm tired of cleaning up the mess every fucking day and the bad areas I don't have time to get to getting worse after I leave :/

#marquilla #work talk #like we have to move all our clearance shit to specific tables and i had already been doing that but they have to take pics to send to corp #to prove we're doing that and thats my worst area rn on one side (who would've thought that $5 disney merch and $2 shorts would make #customers feral? not me (: ) and it's like id be able to get that spot looking nice if the people you send to help actually fucking helped #in areas other than adults. but theyre losers so what do you expect

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sodrippy · 2 years

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i realize its mostly SAD and summer will arrive here soon too but like. its not the same. its like when people try and tell you how beautiful the beaches in the mediterranean are. theyre not. dont try and act like we are in the same league.

#looking through my camera roll of the view from my old window like girl i didnt appreciate you enough #ok thats not true at all i really did appreciate it a Lot #sorry i know im so annoying abt this but i just miss feeling sunlight on me sorry #omg the kridge..i miss my kridge as well #still have all the materials but its not the same yknow #anyway i am still enjoying the cold and the snow and summers here are reallllly nice too!! just gotta eke out 2 more months i think #by march it should be getting warmer...#to clarify the post: the mediterreanean OCEAN is gorgeous. specifically in greece though the beaches suck #its just gravel #or godforbid when americans try and say they have good beaches #babygirl thats wet dirt seek help 😭

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bl00dw1tch · 2 years

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God. Overjoyed to be at a point in my life.

#horse.txt #thats it thats the post #not really but #i dunno. i dont wanna be messy but also im proud of myself its actually really nice #its 1 am which Isnt great bc it made me go browsing my blocked blogs to see where some mystery rbs are coming from #and i saw my exes blogs and ended up looking bc. shit happens its 1 am #but im happy bc for once doing so hasnt left me nauseous and shaking like a chihuahua afterwards #i used to get such bad anxiety shakes just thinking abt that mfers name man.... but now im just kind of. huh #2-3 years and you still haven't character developed at all huh. in fact youve active regressed! inchresting!#MAN i could say one more thing but i wont. too specific too much i think. but my god. the caucasity. ill leave it at that FSGCRHCFH

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nomairuins · 16 days

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thank GODDD the doctor is taking time to work on himself maybe now he can stop ruining womens lives .